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Kathleen A. Lodico

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O. B. Davis Funeral Homes - Miller Place

1001 Route 25A

Miller Place, New York

Kathleen Lodico Obituary

LODICO - Kathleen A., on December 3, 2007 of Rocky Point, LI. Loving wife of Frank R. Loving mother of Gina Borja and her husband Butch, Christina Isernia and her husband Robert, Tammie Smith and her husband Billy, Dawn Bogovich and her husband Doug, Vicki D'Angelo and her husband Gary, Antoinette Spano with Ed Rasanen, Lori Auffant, Frank R., II and Ned Robert Wessels with Sonja Tenzler. Adored nana of 17. Cherished sister of John Gordon Cronin, Donald Cronin, Patricia Cheadle and Eileen Riehm. Loving daughter-in-law of Lucille Lodico. Dear sister-in-law of Joann Kelly. Kathleen enjoyed being a stay at home Nana to all of her beautiful grandchildren. Reposing at O.B. Davis Funeral Homes, 1001 Route 25A, Miller Place, LI. Visitation Tuesday and Wednesday 2-4 and 7-9 PM. Funeral Mass Thursday at 9:30 AM at St. Anthony of Padua R.C. Church, Rocky Point, LI. Interment Pinelawn Memorial Park.

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Published by Newsday on Dec. 4, 2007.

Memories and Condolences
for Kathleen Lodico

159 Entries

Dawn Bogovich

December 3, 2017

Dear Mom,

I can't believe it's been 10 years today. I miss you as much now as I did 10 years ago and every day I wish you were still here. We have lost a lot of people we love in the last 10 years. I hope you are all together having a great time in the after life. I just wanted to make this last entry to let you know how much you are loved and missed by everyone that knew you.
Til we meet again.....love you xoxo Dawn

Frank Lodico

December 3, 2015

My Dearest Kathleen...Eight years ago today I had to say goodbye to you...So unbelievably sudden....so unbelievably heartbreaking ..I'll never understand why you had to leave me...Why after so many years of happiness, did it all have to come crashing down on our family...You were a wonderful wife, mother, and grandmother...Now after eight years, all I have are memories....wonderful memories of our time together...I loved you then and I love you now...I will always love you...Be at peace my darling wife....With all my love always and forever...Frank

Frank Lodico

November 5, 2015

Happy Anniversary Kathleen...27 years ago today you made me the happiest man in the world and changed my life forever....What a wonderful life we had...so much happiness....so much love..Than shortly after our 19th anniversary you were gone...Gone so quickly and unexpectedly...And with you went all the happiness I had known...I miss you soooo much....I still love you soooo much...Nothing will ever change that...I pray you are watching over all of those you left behind and that you are happy and at peace...With all my love always and forever....Frank

Frank Lodico

October 20, 2015

My Dearest Kathleen...It's been awhile since I last wrote to you.....Please don't ever believe I've forgotten about you...I think about you and our wonderful life together everyday...Things have been a little crazy this past year, but I want you to know I still love you and miss you soooooo much....Our anniversary is coming up soon....What wonderful memories...With all my love always and forever....Frank

Frank Lodico

December 25, 2014

My Dearest Kathleen...Merry Christmas My Love....I would give anything to spend just one minute of Christmas with you again...Christmas was always so important to you and you made it so wonderful for our family...I can never forget just how magical the day always was when you were here...I love you and miss you soooooo much.... With all my love always....Frank

Frank Lodico

December 3, 2014

My Dearest Kathleen...It was seven years ago today that you left me to go to Heaven....That was a day that my life changerd forever...The happiness, and joy and love that I had known for so many years, turned to heartbreak and loneliness and sadness...I lost my partner, my best friend, and the love of my life that day. Now seven years later, not much has changed...My heart is still broken, I'm still sad and so very lonely. I love you and miss you so much...I know one day we'll be together again, but for now I have to face each day without you...I think about you every day...I watch our wedding video and I think back to just how beautiful you were that day, and how lucky I was to have you for my wife...Please watch over me, and help me face each day, until we're together again. With all my love always and forever...Frank

November 5, 2014

My Dearest Kathleen....Happy Anniversary My Love...Twenty six years ago today my life changed forever....I loved you so much that day and that love has only grown stronger through the years. So tonight I'll watch our wedding video and smile when I remember how beautiful you looked that day and I'll probably shed a few tears when I remember how wonderful life was before you left me...The nineteen years we shared were wonderful....I only wish we could have had more....I still love you sooooooo much and I miss you more than anyone will ever know....So Happy Anniversary my Love...Someday we'll be together again....With all my love always and forever....Frank

April 17, 2014

My Dearest Kathleen....Happy Anniversary of our first "non-date". 29 Years ago today, we left work to have a simple drink as friends and co-workers...Than it happened.... I fell in love with you. It all happened so fast... but that night I knew I had to spend the rest of my life with you....I loved you that night and I still love you today....I miss you more than words can say....I love you more than you could ever imagine...Please watch over me as I struggle to live my life without you...With all my love....Frank

February 14, 2014

My Dearest Kathleen....Happy Valentines Day my love. Holidays and special days like today, just don't mean as much as they used to. Instead of sharing these special days with my best friend, my soul mate, and the love of my life, I spend them alone...just thinking about you and how much fun we used to have....That's all I have is memories now....So many wonderful memories, but also memories that leave me wishing I could spend just one more hour with you, to tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me. But all I have is this page that I can send you messages on....So I will just say "I love you with all my heart and soul" and "I miss you more than you could ever imagine"....With all my love always and forever....Frank

Frank Lodico

December 3, 2013

My Beautiful Kathleen....Six years ago today I had to say goodbye to you....One minute we were together....happy...not a care in the world... The next minute you were gone... How unbelieveable... How could you be taken from a family that loved you so much...from a husband who idolized you, and after all you did to bring us all together....In an instant it was all over..."They" say that time heals all wounds.....Well "they" were wrong... Six years have come and gone and my heart is still broken...Mine is a wound that will never heal. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you...Not a day goes by that I don't shed a tear because you are gone...Not a day goes by that I don't wake up hoping this was just a bad dream and that you will be there... But once again I realize that you're not here...Once again I realize time does not heal all wounds. So rest in heaven my love....In time I'll be with you again...I miss you sooooo much... With all my love always and forever, Frank

November 5, 2013

My Dearest Kathleen....Happy Anniversary...Today we would have celebrated 25 years of marriage...I am sooooo grateful for the years we had together...You were my Best Friend, my Soul Mate, my Strength, my Patience, my Partner in Life, My Reason for Being....I can't help but imagine how wonderful these past 6 years would have been, had you not been taken away from me....One minute you were there...the next you were gone... How sad, how unbelieveably sad...I love you more than words can say....I miss you more than you could ever imagine...I would give anything just to spend one more minute with you....to see you smile...to hear you say "I love you" just one more time...Happy Anniversary My Beautiful Wife.....I love you with all my heart.... Frank

August 7, 2013

My Dearest Kathleen.....Happy Birthday My Love.....I love you and miss you more than words can say....With all my love always and forever....Frank

Frank Lodico

April 20, 2013

Hello My Love....April 20th...Happy Anniversary...Today was the 28th anniversary of our first date...And what a fantastic date it was...everything went so perfectly that night....I heard "Mony Mony" on the radio today driving to work.....I knew it was a signal from you that you are watching over me....I fell head over heals in love with you that night....and that love has only grown stronger and stronger through th years...I miss you soooooo much.....Please continue to watch over me and the kids...With all my love always and forever....Frank

Frank Lodico

February 14, 2013

My Dearest Kathleen...Happy Valentine's Day my love...I miss special days like this, when I would surprise you with "cheesy" decorations to start your day...You would laugh at my craziness....But down deep I knew how much you loved my foolishness....I still love you as I did then....I still miss you more than you could ever know....With all my love ALWAYS AND FOREVER....Frank

Frank Lodico

December 1, 2012

My Beautiful Kathleen....Five years ago today my world came crashing down on me...It seems like one minute we were having dinner; than you went on the computer and the next minute I lost you...It was all so sudden...it was all too fast...How could all the happiness just disappear so quickly...How could all the love and affection and laughter and good times just end so abruptly...We took you off life support on Dec. 3rd, but in reality you were gone today, Dec. 1 2007....Never to laugh and love and enjoy our "golden" years like we had planned...I still love you with all my heart...I still miss you soooooo much....Thank you for loving me and for all the wonderful years we shared....Thank you for our beautiful family....Thank you for making me the happiest man on earth for so many years...The tears still fall; nothing will ever change that but the memories are wonderful....With all my love always....Frank

Frank Lodico

November 5, 2012

My Dearest Kathleen .....Happy Anniversary My Love.....24 years ago today you made me the happiest man on earth. You made life sooooooo wonderful....And then in an instant...you were gone.... leaving me with so many great memories, but also left me with a broken heart....One that remains broken, and one that I don't ever see healing. The years went by too fast....What I wouldn't give to hear your voice, or see your smiling face... if only for a minute....I hope and pray you are watching over me and our family.....God only knows how much we all need you....I miss you sooooo much...I love you sooooo much and always will...With all my love forever....Frank

August 8, 2012

Dear Katie,
Happy birthday to you in heaven...hopefully Tam is with you to share your special day. I think of you every day and miss you more than you could ever know. So much time has passed, but the pain and the sadness never goes away...I know that you are watching over us...Happy Birthday to our beautiful angel in heaven...Love and miss you so much Kate xoxo
love Gina xo
"There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold and she's buying a stairway to heaven"...always in my heart xo

Frank Lodico

August 7, 2012

My Dearest Kathleen.....Happy Birthday My Love....I think about the memories we had, and they make me happy and sad...Happy that I was blessed to have spent the years I did with you, enjoying our life and family together....Unhappy that we didn't have more time to grow old together, and more time to make even more memories...I miss you more than you could ever know....I love you more than life itself...Happy Birthday sweetie....I Love You sooooo much ....Frank

John B

May 30, 2012

Kate

I'm Lighting this candle for Frank. Please guide him and show him the light of your love even in your passing. Give him the strength of this light. I know how much you both loved each other and how much he misses you.

Frank Lodico

May 13, 2012

My Dearest Kathleen...Happy Mother's Day my love.... Thank you sooooo much for being such a wonderful Mother to all our children....What a wonderful life you made for everyone...You're The Best...I loved you then...I love you now...I'll love you forever....Please wish our daughter Tammie a Happy Mother's Day from me.... I love you both and miss you both soooooo much!!!

Frank Lodico

April 21, 2012

My Dearest Kathleen...April 17th and April 20th....Two days that changed my life forever 27 years ago....Two days that have so much meaning for me....I remember them like they were yesterday. I thank God for those two days....I thank you for making them mean so much to me....I love you so much...Frank

Frank Lodico

March 1, 2012

My Dearest Kathleen....My heart has been broken again....My beautiful Tammie is coming to join you. You know how much she loved you and I know how much you loved her....Please watch over her and please give Bill and the kids and our whole family the support we need to get through the difficult days ahead... I love you sooooo much...I love Tammie sooooo much....With all my love always and forever...Frank

Frank Lodico

February 14, 2012

My Dearest Kathleen....Happy Valentine's Day my love.....A day that used to be so much fun for us is now just another day....another lonely day without you...I still love you and miss you so very much....Frank

Frank Lodico

December 27, 2011

My Wonderful Katie...Christmas has come and gone...It was a very nice Christmas but something was definitely missing...YOU...You WERE Christmas, and you made Christmas so very special for everyone else...Thank you for blessing our family with so many wonderful years of Christmas joy...We all miss and love you sooooo much...With all my love always and forever...Frank

Frank Lodico

December 3, 2011

My Dearest Kathleen...Four years ago today I had to say "goodbye" to you...my wife, my best friend, and my partner in life. It seems we were able to accomplish so much in such a short period of time....atleast you did and you so graciously allowed me to tag along...then in an instant it was over...The years we shared together, although not nearly enough, were the happiest years of my life..Thank you for being such a wonderful wife, and mother and grandmother and friend to all who were lucky enough to know and love you. You will always be in my thoughts, and prayers and heart....I love you and miss you soooooo much...Frank

Frank Lodico

November 5, 2011

Happy Anniversary My Love.....Twenty Three years ago today you made me the happiest man on earth...Now all I have are memories of that wonderful day. I miss you soooo much....I love you soooo much....Forever and Always..Frank

Frank Lodico

August 7, 2011

My Dearest Kathleen...Happy Birthday my love...I love you more than you could ever imagine...I miss you more than words could ever explain...With all my love, always and forever...Frank

June 6, 2011

Dear Katie,
It's been awhile since I've written. I just want you to know...that it isn't getting any more tolerable missing you...it hurts just as bad as the very first minute you were gone. I think about you all the time...it makes me laugh, it makes me cry, it makes me sad, it makes me happy...I know that I am bleesed to have so many awesome memories. Always in my heart.... Dee

Frank Lodico

May 8, 2011

My Dearest Kathleen......Happy Mother's Day my love....What a wonderful mother you were to all our children....What a wonderful wife you were to me....I will love you forever....Frank

Tammie Smith

April 29, 2011

hi miss kate its me. I have not written in awhile. I have been going through some stuff. You are well aware. Please help me and keep me strong. I have alot of fighting to do and I think that as long as I have you by my side than I can conquer anything. So far I have been ok and thanks to this family of ours,I have been able to beat all that I have so far. I wish so much that you would come visit me and tell me that everything is going to be ok. You have always had a way of saying the right thing putting it all into perspective. i just miss you so much so need a little katie time. Anyway the kids are good and miss katie would make you so proud. Nicky hates school, but thank god there are only a few weeks left :) Well I just wanted to say hi I love you and miss you terribly. Please continue to watch over us all and keep us all safe. I love you so much
Love
Tammie :)

Frank Lodico

April 20, 2011

April 20, 1985......I loved you then....I love you now.....Frank

Frank Lodico

April 17, 2011

Hello my love....26 years ago today we went out for a friendly drink and the rest was history. I fell in love with you that night, and that love remains stronger than ever today. It was a night that would change my life forever...all for the GOOD...Thank you sooooo much for loving me too, and for the wonderful years we shared. I love you sooooo much....And I miss you more than you could ever know...Frank

Frank Lodico

December 25, 2010

My Dearest Kathleen....Merry Christmas My Love....It's still so hard to believe that you're not with us at Christmas...You WERE Christmas to our children, grandchildren and to me. You always had a way of making everything so perfect at Christmas. I Love you and miss you sooooo much. I pray you are at peace in Heaven watching over us all. Merry Christmas Hon, Merry Christmas....Love always and forever...Frank

Dee

December 4, 2010

HI BUDDY,
IT SEEMS LIKE 100 YEARS THAT YOU ARE GONE. WE SHARED SO MUCH.WE TAUGHT EACH OTHER SO MUCH BUT I APOLOGIZE FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO HAVE ACQUIRED THE STRENGTH YOU ALWAYS HAD. I JUST AM TRULY SO MISERABLE WITHOUT YOU AROUND. IT DOES NOT GET ANY EASIER FOR MANY OF US. YOUR INVALUABLE IMPRESSION IS SUCH A FOREVER STRONG ONE IMPRINTED ON ON HEARTS. IT IS JUST SO UNFAIR...SO WRONG.YOU SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN TAKEN. I MISS YOU BEYOND WORDS..AGGIE...GERTIE IS SO LOST. LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU. IT JUST HURTS SO MUCH. MISS YOU......EVERYDAY

December 4, 2010

I miss my best pogo buddie, I can't believe it's been 3 years. I talk to you all the time, esp. when I'm playing the lottery hoping my Angel will help me win. Thought you would get a kick out of that one. We all Love and MISS you like crazy.

December 3, 2010

Hi Katie...I can't even believe it has been three years since you had to leave us..they say everything happens for a reason, yet the reason for all our sadness and tears remains unknown..the memory of this day is still so clear in my mind, the pain just as great and the loss of you in our lives still unbearable. You are our special angel in heaven and we miss and love you sooo much..
xoxo Gina

Frank Lodico

December 1, 2010

My Dearest Kathleen….December 1, 2007….A day that started off like any other Saturday….But by the end of the day my world was turned upside down and my heart was broken. Now three years later, I still cry when I think of the good times we shared…I still cry when I think about the future we were suppose to have….I still question “Why”…”Why you?” I’m still heartbroken and the pain still lingers. My life is so empty without you. I still love you more than you could ever know. I pray you are safe and worry free in heaven. I pray you will watch over our family and me and give us strength to continue on with our lives. I miss you so much….My broken heart just won’t heal….With all my love….Frank

Frank Lodico

November 5, 2010

My Dearest Kathleen....Happy Anniversary My Love....22 years ago today we said "I DO...." and you made me the happiest man in the world. We also said "Till Death Do Us Part...." Who could have possibly known..... I love you and miss you sooooo much !!!! Life without you is so empty. Please watch over me and keep me strong. I will love you forever.... Frank

Dee Lewis

August 8, 2010

Dear Dear Katie,
I thought I cried all the tears possible. I realized they are never ending. I also realized that time isn't easing a thing. I miss you more and more as time goes on. Happy Birthday to you. Life.....it's just so unfair. I hope you get to see all that I'm not sure exists from your end buddy. I hope you feel all the love that comes your way every minute, everyday. Katie I miss you like you wouldn't believe.....no I know you'd believe. You are the one who always helped me through stuff.....I'm not doing too well without your help. Love you my buddy, my pal, my lifelong everything.

August 8, 2010

Dear Katie,
just wanted to say hello and wish you a happy birthday..I miss you so much! I talk to you often - I hope you can hear me. It makes me feel better to think you are near..
Happy Birthday to our angel in heaven - Love and miss you forever..Gina xoxo

frank Lodico

August 7, 2010

My Dearest Kathleen...Happy Birthday my love....I miss you sooooo much....I love you sooooo much!!! It just doesn't get any easier.....With all my love always and forever....Frank

Frank Lodico

May 9, 2010

My Dearest Kathleen...Happy Mother's Day my love.....I love you and miss you soooooo very much....Please watch over us all....Frank

Frank Lodico

April 17, 2010

My Dearest Kathleen...25 years ago today we left work, and stopped for a drink. We talked, we danced, and somewhere during the night I fell hopelessly in love with you. It was the start of an unbelieveable journey.... a wonderful life.... a wonderful family.... and happiness like I had never known before. I remember it like it was yesterday... Than in an instant you were gone. All our hopes and dreams....all our plans for the future lost in an instant. I miss you more than you could ever know. I love you more today than I ever could have imagined that day 25 years ago. Happy Anniversary sweetheart of a night I will never forget....Love Frank

Frank Lodico

April 4, 2010

My Dearest Kathleen...Happy Easter my love....I miss you sooooo much....I love you sooooo much !!!! Frank

Frank Lodico

February 14, 2010

My Dearest Kathleen....Happy Valentine's Day my love...You will always be my sweetheart... I miss you and love you sooooo much...Frank

Frank Lodico

January 31, 2010

My Dearest Kathleen...Hello my love. I'm just sitting here on this cold winter's day thinking about how very much I miss you...How very much I love you...and how very much I pray you are watching over us all. I went to the cemetary the other day. It was so cold out. The Christmas blanket was still there. I thought to myself that hopefully it was keeping you warm. I love you and miss you so much...Frank

December 25, 2009

Dear Katie,
Just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas..I know you are just as proud of dad as we are..getting the house ready for us and the kids to spend christmas day there. He did a great job and everything looked really pretty. It wasnt easy to go there today and celebrate Christmas without you there, but we made it through...somehow I think you give us the strength to make it through our toughest times. We tried to fill the stockings for the kids, but like Lee has said and everyone agrees, you were the best stocking stuffer ever..lol. I miss you so much Katie and I hope you are at peace knowing we are doing our best for you, dad and each other. Thank you for watching over Lee while he was gone and bringing him safely back to me...that was my best Christmas present ever..Merry Christmas in Heaven...I love you Love Gina xoxo

Frank Lodico

December 25, 2009

My Dearest Kathleen....Merry Christmas Sweetheart.....I miss you so much...I'll love you forever....Frank

December 4, 2009

Hi Katie,
Just wanted to say hello and thank you for helping me get through today..Driving to work I said to you, Please Kate let me hear Stairway to Heaven so that I know you are near...The first song to come on was the end of Christmas shoes..which is the saddest Christmas song ever (I can't help but think of you) But as I hit the scan button one time, right from the beginning was my song..Stairway to heaven...that was my sign that you are close and watching over us all!! Ironically the next song I heard was Bahama, aruba, jamaica - ya know that song we played for you and dad on your wedding day for your honeymoon..usually I would turn that song off (not one of my favorites)..but not today. Thank you for my call from Lee..he is almost home!! Even from heaven you are still hear for us..of course it is not the same, but it gives me hope that one day we will all be together again with you.
Happy 2nd Anniversary in Heaven. You are loved and missed more than you will ever know. Love Gina xoxo

December 3, 2009

My Most Special Treasured and Dearest Person In My Life
I just cant believe that you are not coming back. I cant believe it is 2 years now that you left and the sadness, the loss, the missing you, the laughs, the tears, the confiding, the sharing, ........the wound is open and I do not believe it will ever close. My tears still flow so often. Everyday with you in was always such a special day....this time of year especially always was important so outstanding so crazy yet so fulfilling watching everyone enjoy the season as we...as you prepared for it all. You are the most amazing person that I've ever met in my life. You were everything to me....to everyone. Katie, I try I really try but I just cant stand it without you around. I wish I had even an eighth of your strength, your attitude, your perserverance.....37 years ago I met my best friend...funny how things just turned out for us. You were the most incredible friend anyone could ever wish for, hope for and be so fortunate to have. Selfishly, I want that to still be here...why did you have to go.
The impact you have had on so many is just mind boggling. I know you would be unhappy, be sad to know so many are hurting without you but that is what you created....so many to love, admire and respect you. Just know how there is not one day that goes by that you are not thought of, talked to, and missed terribly. I love ya my dearest buddy. As hard it is for me to believe,I contradict my thoughts with hopes that you know all that is going on that you watch over all and will continue to make me think of all your strength to help things easier to get through so many things that I've been through and go through every single day. As we always said"We are always in each others pocket"..always there" That is always with me. Miss you so much.
Dee(AKA...Aggie...or Gertrude..whoever I am)

December 2, 2009

HI I was just thinking about you and how two years have gone by.. I still miss you like it was yesterday. The pain just does not go away. I cant stop the tears and my heart just hurts. I took this week of to go and see Lee graduate on your anniversary. Something to turn that miserable day into something that would make it the least bit better. Sadly we dont have that outlet. Maybe he will come home tomorrow and give us something to smile about. Katie why isnt it better yet. Yes I go day to day and live life, but it is never the same something is always missing and that something is you. I am sorry - I just havent seen you in so long and right now this sadness is so overwhelming. I woke up yesterday and thought wow 2 years ago today I woke up and had no idea that my world would change so horribly. The last time I saw you I was just surprised by Billy bringing me Arbys. You were going home - the weekend was here and you were getting a break. Thank god I kissed you goodbye thank god I told you I love you. I learned from you never to forget to do that. Even when we lost you, you still taught us something. I need so badly to sit with you and talk to you about so many things that are going on right now and I cant... I find myself still getting angry and sad that you are not here. Daddy is still so heartbroken and no matter what we do we cant make him feel any better. He tries so hard, but the pain in his eyes never goes away. I will say that it makes me very proud when he is with Katie, she has a way of making him smile that fills me with such happiness, not that I am taking the credit, cause as far as I am concerned, she is a direct result of you.. You gave me my angel and I treasure her just like you would have. I am rambling and I am so sorry I just have so many things in my head and I ned to get them out. Please come see me again. I always wake up with a warm feeling after a visit from you. I am gonna go for now, but please just watch over all of us. We miss you so desperately and always will.
Tomorrow will be two years that we lost our most precious family member, so happy anniversary in heaven Miss Kate. I love you and miss you so much.
Love,
Tammie

frank lodico

December 1, 2009

My Dearest Kathleen...Two years ago today, life as I knew it, came crashing down upon me....All the happiness I had known for so long came to a screeching halt. Two years ago today, you left me and my heart has never recovered. They say it gets easier with time...it doesn't....they say the pain eases with time....it doesn't. They say you get used to the lonliness....it hasn't happened yet...People say a lot of things, but I guess they haven't lost their lifetime partner....I guess they haven't lost the love of their life...because if they did they would know the pain and the heartache, and the lonliness just doesn't go away. So here I sit two years after the worst day of my life....Lonely, and sad, and heartbroken. Here I sit as if it were two years ago...feeling the same emptiness.....it just doesn't get any better...I miss you soooo much....I love you sooo much....Frank

Gina Borja

November 26, 2009

Hi Katie - so we had to get through yet another holiday without you. As you can probably guess by now, it doesn't get any easier for any of us...I still have the original paper that we wrote out all the recipes for the 1st thanksgiving I was having at home...Some of the words have faded over time, but I use it every year. Every year 3 days before thanksgiving I would call and ask you, should I put the turkey in the fridge today? Every year you would say yes and we would laugh about it. Unfortunately now, when that day comes, I laugh alone and then I smile just thinking about you. I miss you soo much. There are so many times when I just need to talk to you so that you can make things better in my world like only you could. Please keep watching over Lee - I know he could use your strength right now. I love you and miss you every day.
Happy Thanksgiving
Love Gina xoxo

Frank Lodico

November 5, 2009

My dearest Kathleen.....Happy Anniversary sweetheart. Twenty one years ago today we said "I Do....." and you made me the happiest man on the planet. I never could have imagined being so happy with life...But we also said "Till death do us part...." Who could have ever imagined our parting would be so soon. Remember you were suppose to be 100 and I was only going to be 99. But almost two years ago, the unexpected happened....Your passing turned my life upside down. The pain of losing you, the loneliness, the unhappiness, have been too much to bear at times. I still can't fully accept it. I still look for you when I get home at night....I still talk to your pictures, and most importantly I still love you so very much. Nothing can or will ever change that. So Happy Anniversary my love....I believe you are watching over me and will always help me as I try to survive life without you. I love you and miss you so much....With all my love always and forever....Frank

October 6, 2009

Hi I was writing out an email inviting everyone to Katies 1st birthday. Can you believe she is already going to be one!! I just kept thinking about you and how you gave me the greatest gift. I just wish you were here to share her with me. You would be helping me get ready for her party and just doing what you do. I just needed to write to you and tell you that I miss you so much. The tears fall so easy just thinking about you and how much I would give to just see you. I miss seeing you in my dreams. Ever since the last one when I told Daddy what I thought it meant I have not seen you. I think that it means I got the message you were trying to tell me and that I did what you needed me to do. I hope that it is that and you feel good that your message got across. I will believe that it is that and it makes me happy to help :)
You know how I feel about you and that I would do anything in my power that would make you happy. So please feel free to see me if you need anything else. you know that I am also being selfish cause then I get to see you, but look at it this way we both win.
Anyway I am gonna go for now, I just needed to be close to you and for some reason this always makes me feel better. It is like my direct connect to you. I will write soon, but please watch over all of us and keep us safe and sound. I miss you and love you so much. Sleep well I love you
Tammie :)

Frank Lodico

September 6, 2009

My dearest Kathleen....The sun was shining today...there was a gentle breeze and the temperature was just right...a perfect kind of day. The type of day you and I would have enjoyed spending together. So I took a ride to the cemetary. I stopped by your Mom and Dad's grave and asked them to watch over you. Than I sat by your grave just enjoying the warm weather and thinking happy thoughts of days like this we had shared. I also thought about the 21 months that have passed since we lost you. On the one hand it seems like only yesterday...on the other it seems like so long ago. So long since I last held you and loved you and laughed with you and enjoyed a beautiful day together. So long that the pain of losing you and missing you has lingered within me. It doesn't get any better...it doesn't get any easier. I love you sweetheart and nothing can ever change that. I miss you more than words can say. Please watch over me and the kids. Please help us through this most difficult time. Please love us the way you always loved us. I'll always love you with all my heart....Frank

Dee Lewis

August 9, 2009

My Dearest Buddy,
No matter what holiday or occasion that has past by I'd either be singing your songs, my songs, our songs, festival songs...Birthday songs...."Happy Birthday MY Buddy" Yes, each and everyday I look at your picture...and whether I sing, smile, cry, talk to you....whatever it might be....it is everyday that we speak.
You are so terribly missed I just don't know where to begin. I will tell you that I know you would have been so supportive these 11 months for me with all that's been happening. You would have helped through so much . I must say you would be so happy to know how the girls where right there for me. It made me feel so happy having that....and made you closer to me too.
The expression "time heals all wounds" just isn't applicable with all of us. I think the wounds keep growing and the missing never stops. The void is forever present. I feel this sadness, this emptiness, this lonliness....and there is line up with me... all of us.
My best friend, I was cheated when you were taken away. Ya don't find many real, true , honesy, caring , warm, giving, trustworthy, fun, motivating, invigorating human beings as you. What a difficult thing getting through everyday...You made so many lives complete...so happy. I have and appreciate all so many wonderful memories. I am very blessed to have had them rather never having them...so I do consider myself a very lucky person. BUT...MISSING you gets harder and more as each day goes by. Hope you are at peace and are resting. Love You Lots and Lots Dee

Dawn Bogovich

August 8, 2009

Hi Mom,
We all missed you very much yesterday. We all thought about you in our own way for your birthday. It feels wrong to celebrate your birthday when you're not hear with us but at the same time your birthday is a time to celebrate your life. Lori and I went to bingo and Lori played the lines you and her always played together. She won two lines, but as usual I didn't win anything. My favorite part of the night was when I opened your bingo bag and found your scent inside. It made me cry but at the same time I've been looking for that smell since it faded from your jacket and car. It was a beautiful night and us girls and dad sat on the patio at Tommy's to celebrate you. It was a relaxing and peaceful night. One I wish you were there to celebrate with us. Anyway, I love you and miss you very much and Gina was right when she said "time does not heal all wounds". It still hurts as much today as the day you left. I hope you had a happy birthday in heaven playing slots, scratchies and bingo. I love you always. Love Dawn xoxoxox

August 7, 2009

Hello my Katie.....and Happy birthday sweetheart. I went to the cemetary this morning. I brought you roses...I hope you liked them. Than I just sat and cried knowing that if you were still with me, we'd probably be off to Foxwoods today. Thinking about how I'd be giving you a hard time about being "older than me". And thinking about how you were suppose to turn 100 and I would only be 99. I can't believe you're not with me any longer. The heartbreak is just unbearable. I miss you more than anyone could imagine. It's been 20 months since you left us, but I still look at the door and think any minute you'll be walking through it. I love you sooooo much and always will. Happy birthday my love....With all my love....Frank

August 7, 2009

Good Morning Katie...just wanted to wish you another Happy Birthday in Heaven..The girls, dad and I will get together for a drink tonight to toast you, your birthday and all that you mean to us everyday... I wish you were here so we could celebrate together. I miss you sooo much and think about you every day..time does not heal all wounds...So what do you think about your oldest grandson joining the army? I know you were smiling down on him wednesday and feeling as proud as us when he took his oath and headed to Kentucky. Knowing that he has you to watch over him and keep him safe is the only thing keeping me going here. I know in my heart that you are his guardian angel during this time away and that you will make sure he comes back to us safely.
I love you Katie and I miss you so much!!
Happy Birthday
Love Gina xoxo

Dawn Bogovich

May 11, 2009

Hi Mom,
Just wanted to say Happy Mother's Day. Yesterday was a crazy day as usual. Alex and Nicky had their first BMX race. They were so cute - you would be proud. The rest of the day was consumed in studying for finals. I have been thinking about you so much lately. It's so sad here without you. Nothing is the same. There's been a beautiful cardinal hanging around my house all week and I can't help but think that's you letting me know you are here. I try to take that with me to give me strength but I wish you were really here. Something about your presence made everything good and I miss that so much. I'm gonna try to find that strength and patience you always had and live every day with it, so any help in getting me there would be very much appreciated. I love you and miss you so much. Love, Dawn

Frank Lodico

May 10, 2009

Hello my Katie....I just wanted to say Happy Mother's Day my love. I miss your beautiful smile sooooo much...and I love you sooooo much!! With all my love...Frank

Frank Lodico

February 14, 2009

Hello my Katie....and Happy Valentine's Day....I stopped by the cemetary this morning and brought you flowers...I hope you liked them...Then I just sat and talked to you and cried, remembering how much I loved you and how much happiness you brought me over the years. It just doesn't get any easier...I exist from day to day, but the missing you part never gets any easier...the loving you part is as strong today as it's ever been...Please watch over the kids, the grandchildren and I...Please help us to find some "happy" in each day...Please help us to lean on each other for strength as we try to live our lives without you. Please love us all as we will always love you....Please smile down , that beautiful smile of yours on us all..I love you soooooo much....I miss you soooo much....Happy Valentine's day my love......Frank

Tammie Smith

December 30, 2008

Hello my Nana Banana
Merry Christmas and Happy new year .. Another holiday season without you. It hasent been any easier. I do thank you though for my wonderful gift - my own personal Katie. She is beautiful and sweet and makes me so happy. kinda like her namesake :) She helped me through this season along with her brothers and her daddy - then there are my sisters - thanks by the way for all of them between you and daddy you created quite a big support system and make my life so full of love. We are all missing you so much !! Thank you for watching over my boys this weekend with the races - I was so nervous - these big races make me bug out but I know per normal you are watching to make sure all will be ok. Daddy stopped by tonight looking as handsome as ever - he is so sad without you. Please watch over him and give him some of your strength- he is trying so hard but he is just so lost without you. We try to here to make life ok for him, but all he really wants is you. I miss you so much and love you. Come visit me again, I could really use that smile. I will write soon.
I love you !!
Love,
Tammie :)

Frank Lodico

December 25, 2008

My Dearest Kathleen....Merry Christmas my love. It's hard to believe this is your 2nd Christmas in heaven. I Look at your pictures....smiling...happy...and so much alive....I just can't believe you're gone. I miss you terribly. I love you more than you can imagine...I thank God everyday for this unbelieveable family that gets me through these most difficult days I must face. Without them, I'd truly be lost. You were the one that shaped this family. You were the one that brought us all together. You are the one that keeps us strong and united. I love you and always will. Christmas will go on just as it always has. We had a beautiful night at Dawn's last night and I expect a wonderful day at Gina's today. We'll do everything we can to keep the spirit alive...to keep your spirit alive...but they'll be something missing...that special something that you and you alone brought to Christmas....Please continue to smile down on us....help us face these lonely days without you. Help us through each day.....Please continue to love us all as we continue to love you....With all my love always and forever....Frank

Dee Lewis

December 3, 2008

Dearest Buddy,
To think one year ago.....Nothing has been the same nor do I believe it ever will be. You are with me everyday and I'm either thinking of us laughing, watching out for each other, crying......whatever...there's not one single day that I just wish you were here. I miss you so much Gertie..... Love you....Dee

Frank Lodico

December 3, 2008

December 3rd.....A year ago today we said goodbye. I'll never forget those last few moments....hoping that by some miracle you'd come back to me....but knowing it just wasn't meant to be....What a year it has been...Alot of heartbreak, lonliness, and days and nights of sadness. But there has been some "Happy".... Baby Katie has brought us so much joy....Thank you so much for sending her to us. So as the holidays approach I pray you are at peace....I pray you will watch over all of us....I pray you'll show me the path to follow. I love you and miss you sooooo much. I'll never get over you....You were my life and reason for living. Thank you for loving me and for so many happy memories.... I love you.....Frank

Frank Lodico

December 1, 2008

It's hard to believe a year has come and gone....Dec.1, a day that started off like any other day, but a day that would change everyone's life forever. Sometimes it seems like only yesterday....I remember your smile and your loving ways so clearly. Yet in other ways it's been a very long and painful year. Holidays and special occassions that once meant so much to both of us, are now very painful reminders that you are gone. I've tried so hard to do things that would make you proud of me, but so many times I just feel like giving up. I love you and miss you sooooo much. I pray that you are watching over all of us.... I pray you are watching over me. Please give me the strength, guidance and wisdom to face each day. The holidays are here and I have no holiday spirit. Please help me feel better about the holidays. Please help through each day. Thank you for baby Katie....she's just amazing and I know she a blessing from you. I can see you smiling every time I see her. I love you Kate and always will. Please help me through this day and all the days that follow.....With all my love always and forever....Frank

Gina Borja

November 29, 2008

Hi Katie,
just wanted to wish you a happy thanksgiving in heaven. another holiday, another day without you. nothing is ever the same. I missed talking to you this week about thanksgiving and all the help you always gave me to get through cooking my dinner. We tried to make a nice dinner for dad and did our best to get through the day without you. I know you were with us on thursday and i know you are watching over us. we love you and miss you soooo much.
love gina

Dawn neighbor/sister/friend

November 28, 2008

Hi Katie, We have entered into another holiday season and it's very hard to believe you will not be here to share it with us. You and Pop always made each of your grandkids feel so special during the holidays. Even though there are so many each one was made to feel loved and known by you. Yesterday I know everyone was probably missing you very much but I don't know if I am adding to thier sadness if I mention you. We all miss that bright smile that warmed every heart it touched. Thank you for baby Katie. We know you brought that gift of love to us. Thank you for sharing your family with the rest of us. I cannot even express how much they all mean to me. Well I just got a call to go sit with Katie for a few minutes so I need to run but you are always on our minds and your love in our hearts. Please help me comfort them in thier sadness.

Frank Lodico

November 5, 2008

Happy Anniversary My Love....We were suppose to be celebrating 20 years of marriage today. Instead all I can do now, is think about the good times and the love we shared... These past 11 months without you have been the worst of my life. If I want to share good news with you... I can't....when I have a bad day, I want to tell you about it....but I can't. Now today I want to wish you a happy 20th anniversary...but I can't. Sometimes life is just to difficult to handle. I love you soooo much and I loved every minute of the years we had together. You were my perfect equal....strong enough to put me in my place when I needed it, yet soft enough to overlook my many faults...and wise enough to know when to be soft or strong. You were so perfect. I guess that's why God wanted you with him. So until the day we meet again in heaven, just know that I love you and always will. I miss you and always will....Please keep guiding me through this very difficult time.... I love you soooooo much...Frank

Frank Lodico

November 3, 2008

Hello my Kate....Well today is 11 months since you left me...11 months that seem to have flown by, yet seem to have dragged on forever. I still find myself looking for you and expecting to see you when I come home...but that's just not meant to be...It's a lonely life and with the holidays just around the corner, I'm reminded again and again, just how much I miss you... Thank you for blessing us with baby Katie...We all needed that...She's sooooo beautiful and we all know she's a blessing from God and from you. I love you you sooooo much and always will. Please watch over us all and help me face each day.....Love Frank

Tammie Smith

October 28, 2008

Dear Katie,
So we did it again.. another baby. I must say you are good !! I asked you for something to make me happy and I truly believe it was this special little package that I have. She is so beautiful .. I cant even put into words what she means to me. I feel like I have you with me all the time. Nice job by the way of letting me know you were there with me in the delivery room. As you know I was very upset that you wouldnt be there and it was eating me up inside. Again I always need something from you and again you didnt let me down. Kaitlyn is probably the luckiest of all - she had you and mama there - that has to be double blessings. I also believe you made it happen that my mom would be there. I think that you are the most incredible person in the world. When I look into her eyes I see you and she reminds me that when god takes he also gives back. I truly feel that he gave you back to us through her and I will cherish my Katie with all that I have. She will get all the love that I have been holding inside for you and I will make sure she knows who her Nana was and how lucky she is to have a piece of her in her heart. Thank you Katie for my special gift I love and miss you so much - sadly nothing will be able to make that go away, but whenever it gets to unbearable I will hold my Katie and if she is anything like her Nana (which I know she will be) she will make it all better...
Love,
Tammie :)

Frank Lodico

September 3, 2008

Hello My Darling Kathleen...Well today marks 9 months since you left us...9 months that I have missed you every moment of every day. So much has happened these past nine months...some good and some not so good. I make it through each day only because I truly believe you are watching over me. I do things each day that I feel you would want me to do. It's lonely and sometimes seems unbearable, but the kids keep me going and I live to face another day. I'm so unhappy, but there's nothing else I can do but to just live each day to the best of my ability. Please know that I love you, and miss you so much. Please know that I need you to guide me every step of the way....I love you so much....Frank

Tammie Smith

August 8, 2008

Dear Katie,
Happy Birthday. I kept wanting to call and say that to you but it was not to be. I know that you helped me yesterday with my test and I thank you. There is no way I could have done it without you. You have always given me strength and help. I just wish that you were here to do it in person. Nicky came with me to Daddy's last night. He wanted to know where you were. I reminded him that you were in heaven but he still misses you and I love that although he is so young, he still remembers his Nana. I will make sure that it always stays that way. Daddy looks good and is walking alot- I know he is doing it for you and to make you proud. I also know that you are. He is missing you so much and it breaks my heart to see the sadness in his eyes. I look at my sisters and see the same emptiness that I also see in the mirror each morning. Your presence is missed on a daily basis. I just wish that you were here. It is a bad dream that noone can wake up from. Anyway Kate - Happy birthday in heaven - I love and miss you so much please keep watching over us and keep us all safe.
Love,
Tammie :)

Gina Borja

August 8, 2008

Hi Katie..just wanted to wish you a happy birthday...it's so hard to believe that a year ago today yours and dad's suprise party was already in the works..we were so excited to be planning this for you both...who would have thought that this year would be filled with tears and sadness...we went to visit dad last night hoping to cheer him up...I think it helped, but we know it's not the same... I know you are watching over us, because I can feel your presence sometimes and there are certain signs that in my heart I know are you....I love you and miss you very much...you are always close in though and always in my heart..
Happy Birthday Katie...
Love Gina

Dawn Bogovich

August 7, 2008

Hi Mom,
I can't let today go without saying Happy Birthday. It seems kind of weird because you are not here to have another birthday but I wanted you to know how much I'm thinking of you today and every day. I miss you very much.
The girls have been talking about your birthday and they know it's today. They don't say would have been. They say today is Nana's birthday. Alex is wondering who will open your presents for you. She asked if we could send them up to heaven. I tried to explain to her that you have everything you need in heaven but she still wants to send you scratchies. I told her we will do some scratchies for you today.
They have not forgotten you and I don't think they ever will. They talk about you like you are still here and I know you are. I still expect to see you sometimes. I see a car that looks like yours and I look closer just in case.
By the way, thanks for looking out for Frank - I'm sure you are very proud of him.
Anyway, I just want you to know how much I miss you and today I will try to celebrate your birth and how much you meant and still mean to my world.
I love you,
Love Dawn

Frank Lodico

August 7, 2008

My dearest Katie.....Happy Birthday my love....I love you and miss you sooooo much....Frank

Katie's Kids

August 7, 2008

August 7th, 2008
Our mom was born on this day and I believe the gift she would want most is to thank all of her family and friends.
Whether you have been writing her legacy or just reading, thinking and remembering, each of you are keeping her spirit alive in your hearts.
It makes us proud to know we were created by this wonderful woman.
We still appreciate the support you have given us over these 8 long months. We know our mother would thank you herself, if she could.
Maybe in some way she is. She may be watching over your family right now keeping them safe. She may be gently guiding your loved ones in the right direction.
We can hope these things are possible. To our mom, NOTHING is impossible.
So please keep remembering...write your feelings, write silly stories from the past or just keep reading.
We know you miss her.
Kathleen, Kathy, Kate, Katie, Special K, Mama and Nana.
She was everything to us.
We are all everything to her.

Frank Lodico

August 3, 2008

Hello my darling...Well it's been eight months since you left me. Eight months that seem to have just flown by, yet eight months that I have had to live without you; day by day by day. So much has happened recently. I know you've been with me each step of the way. It's been tough, but thinking about you and what you would do has gotten me through it all. The kids have been wonderful. I couldn't have done it without them. So I just wanted to say hello...I just wanted to say I Love You....I just wanted to say I miss you soooo much. Your birthday is coming up this week. Happy birthday my love.....Please watch over us all and guide us in the right direction. I love you soooo much......Frank

Dee Lewis

June 4, 2008

Hi Katie,
Today is Wednesday, June 4th. It's 6 months that you are gone. I must say it feels like at least 10 years.I can only tell you how I walk by the picture that Lori gave to me of you and I and I talk to you a thousand times a day. I think you'd find it comical. Sometimes I'm laughing telling "Remember when stuff", sometimes I'm asking you so many things, other times I just smile...but many so many times I just look and I cry, and I cry, and I cry. I suppose one would say that I really am in denial. I know it is so real but I try not to focus on that. I hate every second of this unbelievable painful emptiness. Buddy, I just miss you soooooooo much.I hope you are with Uncle Jonh and Tessie. I would like to know that. Listen I know you'd smack me upside my head cause I'm not strong....as if you thought I ever would be....NOT....the sadness justs emcompasses my braincells and all my little braincells are overwhelmed sometimes cause its like a Tsunami in there ... I Love You So Very Much Oh gee...good night Bud.
Aggie :-(

Gina

May 14, 2008

Hi Katie...this is a belated happy mothers' day to you..although I said it and though it a million times on sunday, I thought I would tell you again...you have to know by now, that absolutely nothing is the same without you...everyone just kinda goes through the motions doing what we have to do...Lee made the honor roll again..he told Dad that you owe him alot of money..ha ha...well I am sure you know by now that Dad was my "hero" the other day!! Our family "voice of reason" was not into reasoning the other day...he's the best, but I know you already know that...Well all the kids have all sorts of end of the year things at school..all the things I know you would have been a part of...please keep watching over them as I know they all miss you terribly and they wish their Nana was here...
I love you so much and miss you everyday...happy mother's day in heaven...always in our thoughts xoxo
love Gina

Frank Lodico

May 12, 2008

Hello My Kate....Happy Mother's Day my love. If we believe in Heaven (and I do) and if we believe that our loved ones watch over us from heaven (and I do) than I believe you must have seen all the love that was sent up to you yesterday, and heard all the prayers that were said for you and beautiful words that were said about you, and you must have felt every tear that was shed for you. It was a difficult day for the kids. I knew it would be. I know how much they were hurting and it broke my heart, knowing that they were feeling the loss and sadness and heartache that I have felt so many times on special days since we lost you. It's a pain that just doesn't ease up or go away. It hurts...It hurts real bad.... I hope you liked all the flowers that the kids and I brought to the cemetary. What a beautiful bouquet it turned out to be. I brought some lilacs from the yard and put some in your Mom's vase. I hope she liked them. On Saturday Amber and Lucas received their first Holy Communion. Amber looked so beautiful and Luke looked so handsome. I know you were very proud of them. When we walked into the church it was cloudy and overcast. I knew you wouldn't miss this. I looked around the church looking for a sign that you were there. Just as the children began walking in, the sun shot through the skylight in the church directly on the alter. It was so bright. I just smiled because I knew that was my sign that you were there. WOW what an entrance...It was spectatular. The kids did a great job with the party afterwards. Obviously, we all missed you. The parties are never the same any more without you. But again, I truly believe you are there with us. You know how much we miss you, but I always seem to get a moment when I feel very peaceful. It doesn't last very long, but I know that when I get that feeling, you are there with us. Please continue to watch over us; guide us; help us to make good decisions; help us to be good to each other and love each other always. Help us get through each day and to deal with any challenges life might send our way. There have been so many times that I've needed to talk to you, but you weren't there. But then I just think real hard about what you would do or say, and I can actually hear you answering me. You were my strength in life and you continue to be now. I love you, I miss you, and I pray each day that you'll always be there to watch over each of us. I'll always love you.... Frank

Me and Mom

Dawn Bogovich

May 11, 2008

Dear Mom,
Happy Mother's Day!!! I just wanted to write to you about how much I love and miss you. Amber and Luke made their communion yesterday. It was one more rough party without you. But I felt you were there in so many ways. I can't stop thinking about you and it makes me so sad that I will never be able to hug you again or call you to tell you about my day or ask for advise when I feel like I'm going crazy or what decisions to make or how to fix the pain I feel every day that you are gone. My heart is broken and I can't make it stop hurting. I just wish you could come back. It isn't fair. You made such a difference to so many people on this earth that it's just not fair that you were taken away. I really need to get a grip. I need you to show me the way because you are the only one who can. I feel like I'm falling to pieces and I can't get it back together. Please send me down some strength and for the sake of my family some patience. I miss you so so much. Please watch over us all, especially the ones who need your strength the most. I love you and miss you always and forever.
Love,
Dawn
xoxo

Diane Lewis

May 11, 2008

Hi My Bestest Buddy,
It is 5 AM May 11, 2008. It is Mother's Day and I want to be wishing you a happy one. I want to be reminding you of how wonderful all the kids are and remind you that you are the MOM of those wonderful kids. I am just so sad for all the kids. Buddy, I am at a loss. I know, to some, I'm like their other mom but I feel so weak right now. I want to be there for all of them(not that they need me...but it couldn't hurt) but I am not strong myself. I am so sorry!!! I know you'd want me to get right in there and do whatever is needed but as I said I am hurting so bad....yes Kate I know I am I should be stronger but I'm not. I promise you that I will be connected more in time. I can't begin to tell you how often I talk to you...how often I need to run something by you...how even playing POGO I say Katie would know this ...I would have called you and you would have cleared everything up in a minute....on and on and on...etc. I am so glad that I came to you today as I planned to do because as usual through you I got an incredible update. You have let me know that Tammie is expecting. OMG...sent from above...or what!!!! AWESOME!! I know the happiness that is being felt by all, yet I also know how difficult it will be without you present...Listen Bud....can you just come home. You know I'd be saying stuff like this..you know I'd be bugging you...sorry...I just want you here...we all want you here. So Mothers Day...how difficult...I am thinking of you...I am thinking of everyone..and know how painful the day will be to get through. I miss you everyday...I talk to you everyday...this is getting harder not any easier everyday...Love you very much. Aggie I hate this whole thing darn it!!!!! I'm happy cause I know you are resting...but like Frank says the "HAPPY" is gone. You just added so much "HAPPY" to everyones lives. Now how do we all get that "HAPPY" back. We all are trying in our own way I guess. Good Night Bud. Sleep tight. :-)

Tammie Smith

May 8, 2008

Good Morning Katie,
So the news is out and all is well. Thank you I know I had to check but in my heart I knew you would make sure that everything would be ok. The boys are so excited - they want another boy ... I know you are shocked :) I feel like this is a gift straight from you and that means I cant lose another boy or girl whichever it is I know that you will be a part of this baby so that you can be back with all of us. I have cried to you so much saying I need you and something good. I truly believe this is the something good that you gave me and I will treasure him or her with all that I have. I miss you so much and I wish you were here to do this with me. You have always been here and it is very hard this way. You always have a way of making me feel so much better and you would make all of this easier for me and would be able to assure me in your way that all is going to be ok.. I will just hold on to the fact that you are always with me - it is like a consolation prize instead of the real thing, but I will take what I can get. So Saturday is the communion. I went to practice with Amber and Luke the other day they did sooo good. They are so cute :) Watch over them cause I know that they are nervous. It is so hard for me to believe that a year ago you were here for Michael and Billy and now everything is changed... It is so unfair there is still so much for you to be here for. We are having the party at Dawns sadly I dont really like the parties anymore there is always something missing - you have always been such a part of everything so now it is just empty. Yet they still go on - we are just so big :) Anyway per normal I am just going on and on... I will go for now just know I love and miss you so terribly maybe one day it wont hurt so bad - I guess only time will tell.
I love you
Tammie :)