Your birthday just passed on the 22nd, then Christmas...You missed them both. It's been 10 months today. I miss you.
I love you more...
It's so cold today and coming on Thanksgiving. I am not sure how to do a lot of things around the house, but friends like Juan, Laura, Mike and Lalo are all helping me figure it out. I'm glad Annie moved in, because I would have never made it through the year without her. I have good days and bad days now, but most days I think of you and wonder what life would be like if you were here. I think of our happy times and am so glad I got a chance to see what love really is. For a long time I wondered what your purpose was in my life. With you, I learned love, confidence and ultimately grief. You changed me as a person! And then I wondered what my purpose was in yours, and I realized it was to make you happy. You said in your letter that marrying me was the best thing that ever happened to you. I would marry you all over again! I love you most!
I miss you! And all that I come across are not good enough, and nothing will ever be the same! I guess I'm not quite sure what to do...I wish you didn't leave me here. It's not ok.
If someone ever said 2014 would be like this, I would have spit them square in the eye.
You woke up every weekend early just to let the dogs out and then you'd fall asleep on the couch, all because you wanted me to get quiet sleep in our bed and the dogs would have prevented that.
So, I do it every weekend now, and when I'm sleeping where you did I remember how much you loved me.
Never will I ever see another love like yours. So true, so unconditional, so beautiful.
I miss you Gussy, and I love you most!