Today is the one year anniversary of your death and I can't believe how quickly that time passed. I have missed you every single day since last Thanksgiving, when you left us early that morning. I know you knew we were all there from the evening before and we all came and went at various times. For many hours you were surrounded by your entire family. I stayed until about 5:00 the morning you died and then went home to get a little sleep, thinking I had time to do so and still get back before you were gone. But I was wrong and you went to heaven a short while after I went home. I am so sad that I wasn't there with you when you passed but even though I wasn't there beside your bed I was with you in my heart.
I am so thankful you were my father. I've spent my whole life, and will continue to do so, trying to live up to the example you set for me. You were hard working and honorable. You were selfless, generous, thoughtful and kind. I have never known a person who lived his life with as much integrity as you did and I doubt I ever will. You loved your family and we loved you. You cared for us every day of our lives when we were little and you watched over us when we became adults. You cared for Mom when she was ill and dying with a gentle and loving touch. Your children and grandchildren are the individuals they are today in large part because of the man you were and the way you lived your life. We were all so blessed.
I love you so much Dad and I will miss you every day of my life. Please give a hug and a kiss to Ma and tell her how much I love and miss her too.
One last note...I want you and Mom to know that your first great grandchild is due in February. Krysta is having a baby boy....Wesley Alan Soule. I wish he could have met you both and you him. I will tell him all about you and the wonderful people you were.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray. You'll never know dear how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away.
Dear Dad -
It has been a year, to the day, since you passed. I miss you so much. So much has changed since you left. I guess that's just the way it is. Susan, Krysta and I set off some balloons for you up at Krysta & Drews new house today. They soared up to heaven. You and mom are in my thoughts every single day. My memories take me back to the most favorite parts of my life. You both gave me a wonderful life. I thank you. Until we meet again.
I remember the day you saw me in Dunkin Donuts and asked me to go to lunch with you. It was a start of spending six years of my life with you. It was the most beautiful six years of my life, with you and Ruby Dee. I loved you so much.
It has been eight months since you departed this world to take your place at the Lord's table and I miss you. Most days I won't even think about it. I just kind of pretend that you're still here. Not really fully accepting that you're gone. The seasons have changed three times, the date on the headstone has been carved and we've gone about our days, but it feels so wrong that you are not here. You always put family first and worked so hard for so long. The last years without Mom were very difficult and I know you struggled and suffered for a long time. I'm sorry I didn't do more to help you through those difficult days. You were always there for me and put family first. I should have done better. Although I can't go back and change the past – I promise to honor your memory and search out opportunities to do good works. Even if I work real hard, I'll still only be half the parent and spouse that you were. I was blessed to be your daughter and I'm thankful for my place in your life and your place in my heart.