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Calandra Lundy Balas 2005 - 2012
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Friday, June 26, 2015
Dearest Mom and Dad,
~June 26, 1947~

Happy fourth (4th) wedding anniversary in heaven!

I have always had so much love and admiration for you both, my beloved parents, and for the strong, loving relationship you had with one another! Your marriage was a living blueprint of how to succeed in having a long, happy, loving marriage. You both were a great inspiration to everyone, especially me! You were my role models, whose marriage was everything that I wanted my own marriage to be like, also!

Mom and Dad, I saw your love for one another grow with each passing year, in spite of all the many adversities that you both had to overcome. You both persevered through them, with your love growing even stronger! You both had a deep and abiding faith and trust in one another!

You both were soul mates! It was as if your hearts beat as one! Even now I cannot think of one of you, without thinking of you both together. Your happiest times were when you were with one another and family!

Mom and Dad, you had a marriage made in heaven on earth, and it is so very appropriate that you both are now celebrating your fourth wedding anniversary (marriage) together in heaven!

A very blessed, happy, heavenly 4th wedding anniversary to you both!

I love and miss you both! Please give Calandra a big hug and kiss from me, and tell her that I love and miss her, too!

Your loving daughter,
Sunday, May 10, 2015
Calandra, my heavenly messenger,

Please give the following Mother's Day message to your great-grandmother, my mother, along with your lovely smile, hug and kiss. Thank you, my darling!

My fourth Mother's Day without you!

This poem is for you, my beloved Mother:

Dear Mother in heaven,
I just wanted you to know
How much I miss you everyday
And how much I love you so.

I cannot send you a card,
But I can send you my love
Upon the wings of angels
To heaven up above.

I wish you a Happy Mother's Day
For you were the very best.
To have had you for my Mother
I knew I had been specially blessed.

Rest in peace my angel Mother,
One day we will be together.
The next time that I see you
I know that it will be forever.

~Author Unknown~

Mother, with each passing year I love and miss you more!

My forever gratitude,
Your daughter, Donna

Calandra, my darling, I love and miss you, also! Hugs and kisses!
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Calandra, my darling,

A wondrous thing happened to me, your grandmother! While I was watering the lovely, bright, purple bougainvillea in the backyard, a beautiful, little gray and green iridescent hummingbird appeared. Being unencumbered by my presence, he hovered near the stream of water from the gardening hose, his wings beating rapidly. I, naturally, thought that he wanted to quench his thirst. However, he did not, for he quickly flew away. Shortly, he reappeared, and, as before, he hovered near the stream of water for awhile. He then took flight to places unknown. At that moment a beautiful thought and question came to mind. Calandra, my darling, did you send that beautiful, whimsical hummingbird my way, knowing that he would bring not one, but two, big smiles to my face? If you did so, thank you, my darling! Please keep sending little hummingbirds my way! They give me great delight and put a smile on my face, for their great beauty reminds me of you, my darling!

Sunday, April 05, 2015
Calandra, my beautiful Angel,

Here it is, another Easter without you, again! My heart still aches over your great loss! I am so very lonely here without you! There is a tremendous void in my life that will never be filled!

The following poem expresses my exact, heart-felt sentiments about you:

Today it would be wonderful to see you play and smile,
But heaven lent you to this world for just a little while.
In that short but precious time you brought along much love,
And all that love is with you now in heaven up above.

Your leaving caused so many tears and such a lot of pain,
But God needed one more angel, so He took you back again.

~Author Unknown~

Calandra, my beautiful Angel,

I thank God for allowing me the short, precious time I had with you here on earth!
Heaven is now even more beautiful with your sweet, wonderful, angelic presence there!

Easter hugs and kisses to you and all our loved ones in heaven! I LOVE & MISS YOU!
Saturday, March 07, 2015
Calandra, darling,

Please give your great-grandmother, my mother, this note, along with a kiss and your most, enchanting smile. Thank you, darling!

My dearest mother,

As I think back, three years ago tonight, tears fill my eyes and emptiness fills my heart! I find comfort in knowing that God released you from your earth-bound shackels that night! He took you to be with Him in Paradise where you would forever be pain-free and happy! At the same time, I feel such a tremendous loss over your death! There has been an ever-increasing void in my life since your death! Time has past quickly, but my grief has not!


Even with you gone, I have never outgrown my love and need for you! There have been so very many times when I have needed your advice, strength, comfort and loving arms! I know that you would be happy and proud to know that since your great loss, I have been able to persevere through many of life's painful and difficult adversities. I was able to do so because of my abiding faith in God. Praise be to Him!

Mother you may be gone, but you will never be forgotten! Your beautiful, precious memories are mine forever!

The gates of memory will never close,
I miss you more than anyone knows,
With tender love and deep regret,
I, who love you, will never forget.

Mother, I love and miss you!

Your grateful daughter,

Calandra, darling, I love and miss you, also! Hugs and kisses!
Saturday, February 14, 2015
Calandra, sweetheart,

On this day of love my thoughts are of you! You were such a precious gift from God! You had a heart so full of love and such a beautiful, joyful spirit! You may be gone, but your love remains in my heart forever!

I would like to envision Valentine's Day in Heaven to be as the following poem portrays, with you, my beautiful angel, gathering and releasing all the love I have sent to you!


Valentine's Day in Heaven,

A spectacular site to see.

Angels spreading Heavenly love,

As quickly as can be.

All the love we send to them,

Up in Heaven above.

Is gathered all together

And released on this day of love.

(c) 2013 vickihansen.wordpress.com/

Calandra, sweetheart, a very happy and heavenly Valentine's Day to you! Please give my love and Valentine's greetings to all our loved ones in Heaven. Bless them with your most lovely, enchanting smile!

Valentine hugs and kisses to you, sweetheart! I LOVE AND MISS YOU!
Wednesday, February 04, 2015
My heart goes out to you in the most profound way. There is a song that I love that Michael Jackson wrote for a young man Ryan White...."Gone Too Soon" May you find comfort in knowing that Calandra is in God's Loving care, God Bless you Alicia
Friday, January 23, 2015
Calandra, my heavenly messenger,

It has been six years ago today, since God took your great-grandad, my dad, to be with Him. I am sending the following poem to him today, in sweet remembrance of him. Would you please deliver it to your great-granddad, along with a big hug and kiss from me? Thank you, precious!

Missing You
Oct 24,1927 ~ Jan 23,2009

You were a Dad who was so special
And who was loved so very much,
And brought so much happiness
To the many hearts you touched.

You were always kind and caring
And so understanding too,
And, if help was ever needed Dad
It so freely came from you.

You were a gift to all the world
And brought joy to everyone,
And life has never been the same
Ever since you have been gone.

~Author Unknown~

Dad, it is true! There has been a great void in my life since your loss!
I love you and miss you with all my heart!

Your loving daughter,
Friday, January 23, 2015
Calandra, my precious Granddaughter,

Today would have been your tenth, earthly birthday. It is difficult for me to face the sad reality that this will be your third, earthly birthday which I, again, will not be able to celebrate with you! The following poem expresses my sincere, exact sentiments about today!

Jan 23,2005 ~ Aug 01,2012

I wish you were here today
even for just a little while
so I could say Happy Birthday
and see your beautiful smile.

The only gifts today will be
the gifts you left behind,
the laughter, joy and happiness...
precious memories...the best kind.

Today I'll do my very best
to try and find a happy place...
struggling to hide my heavy heart
and the tears on my face.

I'll sit quietly and look at your picture
thinking of you with love,
hoping you're doing okay
in Heaven up above.

May the angels hold you close and
sing you a happy song...
and I'll be sending wishes to you
today and all year long.

Kim Kidaca (c)2011

Wishing you a most glorious, Happy Birthday, my darling!

I love and miss you!
Birthday hugs and kisses!
Thursday, January 01, 2015
Calandra, my darling,

I enter this new year with not anticipation, but great apprehension. I do not foresee this year to be any better or different than the past two years. I, in fact, expect this year to be another year filled with much regret, saddness and tears. My darling, in truth, all future new years will never be happy ones without you!

It is said that time heals all things. However, my darling, time has not healed or lessened my ongoing pain and ever-increasing loneliness since your tragic, senseless death! I try to find comfort in knowing that you are now one of God's little angels free, forevermore, from all of the terrible events in your most precious, short, innocent, earthly life!

Calandra, my darling, I love and miss you so very much! I am so lonely here without you!

Please give my love to all our heavenly family!

Hugs and Kisses!

The following prayer I send to you, my darling!

New Years Prayer

Tell me that you love me,
Keep your spirit near,
Let me feel your presence,
Every day of this new year.

Copyright (c) 2012 vickihansen.wordpress.com
Thursday, December 25, 2014
Calandra, my Christmas Angel,

It is so very hard for me to believe that today will be the third Christmas without your sweet, earthly presence! Since your great loss, time has continued, but my world seems to be at a stand-still. I keep reliving everything before and after your senseless, tragic death! Nothing will ever be the same without you, my precious Angel!

I no longer look forward to the holidays, including Christmas. I just go through the motions of getting through them. I made out and mailed my usual, annual Christmas cards. It, in truth, was my greatest achievement. I have intentionally avoided seeing the neighbors' Christmas lights, hearing Christmas carols and watching anything Christmas-related on the television. I did not have any desire to set up and decorate the tall, large Christmas tree or display all of the many other Christmas items, as I have done in Christmases past. I, then, however, thought of your big brother, Kegan, and because of him, I did set up the small, three foot, Christmas tree that I always displayed in your great-grandmother's room at the care home. I also added some Christmas decorations on the fireplace mantel and hearth. And, my Christmas Angel, I most proudly displayed all of your beautiful, framed, Christmas pictures for everyone to see! Calandra, my Angel, you may be gone, but you will never be forgotten by me, your grandmother, who loved you dearly!

My Christmas Angel, please tell all of our loved ones in Heaven that I greatly love and miss them. I wish them a very Merry Christmas in Heaven! What a heavenly joy for all of you to share in the blessed celebration of our precious Savior's birth!! Praise be to Him!!

Calandra, my Angel, I love and miss you, also!! I am so lonely here without you!! A heavenly Merry Christmas to you, my precious, Christmas Angel!!

Christmas Hugs and Kisses!!
Thursday, December 25, 2014
Calandra, precious,

I cannot let this Christmas Day pass without mentioning to you the three, earthly angels who helped me get through this most difficult day without you!

I received a beautiful Christmas card from Linda Gist who transported you from school in Payson to Southwest Behavioral Health. Inside the Christmas card was enclosed a letter with lovely and comforting words. They and her sweet, endearing reference to you greatly ministered to my heart and soul! She is a wonderful, special, caring person, and she was a great friend to you! I thank God for this earthly angel!!

Last night, on Christmas Eve, I received a telephone call from your great-grandma Ferguson in Tennessee. Naturally, we talked in great length about you, my precious. It will always be of much regret to me that she never was blessed with knowing your earthly presence!! Her most kind sentiments helped to bring me some inner-peace! I thank God for this earthly angel!!

This Christmas morning I received a beautiful, Christmas message on the telephone from my dear friend, Dorothy. I happily and eargerly returned her call. Calandra, precious, even though she never had the privilege of knowing you, she knows you through me, your grandma. We talk about you, and she has given me beautiful gifts and angels in sweet tribute to your memory. She has blessed me greatly! I thank God for this earthly angel!!

Calandra, precious, these are the three, beautiful, earthly angels who, through their generous, caring, and loving actions, have helped me trememdously to get through this Christmas Day, as I relive your great loss and precious memories!! God bless these three, separate individuals!! God bless my three, earthly angels!!

Heavenly Christmas blessings, my precious darling!! I LOVE AND MISS YOU!!
Angel Hugs and Kisses!!
Tuesday, December 09, 2014
Calandra, my Angel,

A year ago today you obtained your much-deserved, earthly justice! It, in fact, was due to the arduous, committed work of the prosecuting attorney assigned to your case and the just sentencing by the presiding judge. After your funeral I had made it my fervent goal to see this day become a reality. I had long awaited this day, and it finally came to be. As I left the courthouse that day, I felt quite relieved. However, strangely, I also had mixed emotions!

On my way home from Payson, I, dreadfully, had to pass the very spot where you had died. I could not fight back the tears! At that very instant I thought of your great loss and how nothing could ever bring you back to me! Calandra, my Angel, it has been two years, four months and eight days since God took you Home to be with Him. I awake every morning wishing that it was a terrible nightmare from which I could finally awake from and joyously find your beautiful self alive. In truth, I will never fully understand why God chose to take you!!!!

This year has been a difficult and trying year to get through. During the past year, I had many court proceedings to attend in both Globe and Payson pertaining to your case. They kept me both mentally and physically engaged. However, this year I have not found anything to motivate me to the point of accomplishing something of significance. I seem to have lost my sense of direction and purpose in this life. I do not enjoy the things I once did, and I do not leave home very often. I, also, have been very negligent in socializing with other people.

Calandra, my Angel, I lost the joy in my heart when you went away! I daily cry tears of sadness when memories of you flood my mind! I have your beautiful pictures everywhere, and I always mention your lovely name. It is not, at all, uncommon for me to talk to you. My Angel, I visualize the day when we are reunited! I long for the moment when I, once again, will hear your sweet voice call me both "mom" and "grandma"! Until that day, have lots of fun playing with all the other little Angels! I LOVE AND MISS YOU!!

Heavenly hugs and kisses!
Thursday, November 27, 2014
My sweet, darling Granddaughter,

It is Thanksgiving Day! It is so very hard to believe that you have missed the last three Thanksgiving Days here on earth! On this Thanksgiving Day, and every day, I thank God for having blessed me with your sweet earthly presence. So short were the years, but I realize that no amount of time here on earth would have been long enough for me to have you in my life. Calandra, my sweet darling, I love and miss you with all my heart and soul!! My life is so empty and lonely here without you!! My earthly Thanksgiving Day greetings to you and all our heavenly loved ones! Please give your three great-grandparents a big hug and kiss from me, and hugs and kisses to you, also, my darling!
Friday, August 01, 2014
My darling Calandra,

It has been two years today since your most tragic death. It is still so very hard for me to accept the fact that you are gone forever. I keep looking at the front door, hoping that it will open and that you will quickly and gleefully run into my arms.

My darling, I long to see your most beautiful face and enchanting smile. I long to touch your soft skin and hear your sweet voice. I long to smell your fragrant scent after your long bubble baths.

Your dolls, bath toys, books, chair, exercise ball, clothes, hair accessories and toothbrush are constant reminders of your beautiful self. Tears flow when I look upon your many, beautiful pictures.

I try to think of all the good memories of you, but they are all over-shadowed and replaced with all of the painfully bad memories stemming from your senseless and needless death!

Calandra, darling, I will always wonder why YOU were the one God chose to take on that fateful day two years ago! YOU deserved to live! You were such a beautiful, young girl, so sweet, kind, compassionate, loving, smart, energetic, and funny! You were so full of life!

I had always hoped for a precious, close granddaughter, and, my darling, you were her! You were my "dream-come-true"! When you died, the joy within my heart died! My life, forevermore, will never be the same without you! I now look upon everything differently, and things that once brought me happiness, don't anymore!

I shall always thank God for having blessed my life with your wonderful, beautiful, sweet presence, even for a short, seven and one-half years! My darling, in truth, no amount of years would ever have been long enough to have you as a beautiful part of my life!

My precious darling, you touched my life in ways that no one has ever done before! You brightened my world and fulfilled my soul! As long as I have breath and memory, you will never be forgotten! You have a very special place in my heart, reserved for you alone! I love and miss you, darling! Life is lonely here without you!

Heavenly hugs and kisses!
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Calandra, my heavenly messenger,

Would you please deliver the two following messages to both your great-grandfathers? Please give them both a big hug and kiss from me. Thank you, precious!

A Father's Day message to my Dad:

Dad, I'll always remember your special smile, your caring heart, and your warm embrace! You were the first man I ever loved, and, even though you are now gone, that love is still strong and ever constant! Time will never diminish my great, abundant love for you, Dad! I was so very blessed to have had the "Greatest Dad"! Happy Father's Day in heaven, Dad! I love and miss you!!

A Father's Day message to my father-in-law, my second "Dad":

You became my second "Dad" when I married your son. I remember how you so very graciously accepted and welcomed me in your heart and family as your "daughter". I will always cherish our many, long conversations and will be forever grateful for all the countless times you ministered to both my heart and soul! You greatly blessed my life! A heavenly Happy Father's Day, "Dad"! Loving and missing you!

My Fathers' Day Prayer:

Dear Angels, please hear my prayer. Please guard my DADS with your gently wings and tend them with great care.

For they both were so wonderful, and words just can't convey how much I wish that they were here once more with me today!


Calandra, precious, I wish that you were here with me today, also. Life is so lonely here without you! I love and miss you! Hugs and kisses!
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Calandra, my love,

Mother's Day brings tears to my eyes when I think of you and how very much you longed for a mother during your short life! You desperately wanted and needed a mother, a full-time, forever mother! I was so very proud when you called me both mama and later mom, along with grandma, but I, too, wanted you to have a loving and caring mother that you so rightfully and greatly deserved! Sadly, God took you away before you could ever experience the joy of having what every child should have, a precious mother in his or her life! You never knew what it was like to celebrate Mother's Day with your very own mother! This very fact makes losing you even more painful and unbearable! It breaks my heart!!

I find comfort in knowing that in heaven you now have many, wonderful mothers, including your great-grandmother, who are showering you with abundant love. You finally have in heaven what you were so tragically denied on earth!


Sunday, May 11, 2014
Calandra, my heavenly messenger,

Please give the enclosed message to your great-grandmother, my mother, along with your beautiful smile and a big hug and kiss. Thank you, precious!

Mother, today is my third Mother's Day without you since God took you home. Needles-to-say, I especially miss you today! You were not only my mother, but also my mentor, best friend, and confidante. I am so lonely here without you, and I long for the day when I, again, will see your lovely face!

Mother, the following Mother's Day poem expresses my sincere feelings.


If you could be with me to celebrate today,
we'd laugh and smile like we did before you went away.

I often shed tears for the way things used to be,
and Mother's Day will always be the saddest time for me.

But I can still draw comfort from the memory of your touch,
and send my love forever to the Mother I miss so much!

~Author Unknown~

Always in my thoughts!
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Calandra, my darling,

Today marks two Easters since God took you home. My mind is flooded with many, precious, cherished memories of you and Easters past. However, they do not, in anyway, compensate for your great loss! It is still very painful and difficult for me to accept the reality and finality of your most tragic and senseless death! Heartache, sadness and tears fill my every day! Calandra, darling, I would have gladly exchanged my life for yours, if given the opportunity that fateful day! You were only seven and one-half years old! It terribly grieves me to know that your beautiful, sweet, earthly presence will never be a loving part of my life forevermore! My darling, I miss you more and more with each passing day! I will never fully understand why God chose to take you to be with Him! I try to find some consolation in the following poem:

"There's A Reason"

For every pain that we must bear,
For every burden, every care -
There's a reason

For every grief that bows the knee,
For every tear-drop that is shed -
There's a reason

For every hurt, for every plight,
For every lonely, pain-racked night -
There's a reason

But if we trust God as we should,
All this must work out for our good.
He knows the reason.

~Author Unknown~

Loving you and missing you with all my heart! Easter hugs and kisses!
Friday, March 07, 2014
Calandra, my heavenly messenger,

Would you please pick a beautiful bouquet of flowers from heaven's garden for your great-grandmother, my mother? Would you then present them to her, along with the following poem from me, her daughter? My darling, please remember to give her your lovely, enchanting smile and shower her with many hugs and kisses! Thank you, my darling!

A Poem of Loving Remembrance

My dearest mother,
The night God called you home,
My heart was torn in two,
One side filled with heartache,
The other died with you.
A sadness still comes over me,
Tears in silence often flow,
Memory keeps you ever near me,
Though you died two years ago!
~Author Unknown~

I LOVE and MISS you, MOM!!

Calandra, darling, I love and miss you, too! Hugs and kisses!
Friday, February 14, 2014
Calandra, my love,

Today is Valentine's Day. It is a day of remembrance for all those we love, here on earth and in heaven.

When I first read this poem, I thought of you, my love! I remember how very much you loved beautiful, colorful flowers. In fact, three of my most treasured pictures of you are of you holding flowers. All three are pictured here in your guest book photo album. Calandra, my love, it is quite amazing how the following poem, "A Dozen Roses," perfectly and totally, reminds me of you!!

A Dozen Roses

If I had a dozen roses, I know just what I'd do.

I'd give each one a name that reminded me of you.

The first rose I'd call SUNSHINE, because you brightened everyday.

The second would be BEAUTY, the kind that never goes away.

The third rose would be PRICELESS, like those hugs you gave to me.

I'd name the fourth rose SILLY, oh how funny you could be!

Rose five, of course, is PATIENCE, something you helped me to find.

The sixth rose would be MEMORIES, the gift you left behind.

The seventh and the eighth rose would, for sure, be FAITH and GRACE.

Nine would be UNIQUE, because no one could ever take your place!

The tenth rose, well that's easy, I'd simply name it LOVE.

Eleven would be ANGEL, for I know you're watching from above.

I'd think about that twelfth rose, and I'd really take my time.

After all, these roses are for you, my lovely Valentine!

I'm sending them to heaven in every color that I know.

So twelve I'll name FOREVER, for that's how long I'll love you so!

~Author Unknown~

Calandra, my love, I will forever love you!! You will always have a very special place in my heart, reserved for you, alone!!

I love and miss you so very much!!!!

Happy Valentine's Day in heaven, my love!!

Valentine hugs and kisses for you and all our other heavenly loved ones!!
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Calandra, precious,

Few people are aware of the fact that your great-grandfather, my father, passed away on your fourth birthday on January 23, 2009. Please know that it was God's decision, not his, that he die on your "special day"!

Since your untimely, tragic death it has been double sadness, heartache and tears for me over both your losses!

Today's date marks both the death of your great-grandfather, my father, and your "would have been"--"should have been"--ninth, earthly birthday!

Calandra, my precious, little, heavenly messenger, would you please give your great-grandfather lots of hugs and kisses today from both you and me? Please tell him that I greatly miss our special, father-daughter moments together!! Also, please tell him that I love and miss him so very much!! Thank you, precious!!

I love and miss you, too!!
Hugs and kisses!!
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Calandra, my darling angel,

I awoke this morning thinking of you, as always. I quickly realized that today would have been your ninth, earthly birthday. It deeply saddens me to know that I will never be able to celebrate your birthdays with you ever again!

I do not know if earthly birthdays are celebrated in heaven, but I find great comfort in believing that God does celebrate them in His own special and unique way.

Calandra, my darling angel, this is how I would like to envision your birthday in heaven today. I see a host of angels busily making preparations for your "special day." Their first task is to gather all of your loved ones and little angel friends for your birthday celebration. My darling angel, I picture you in a beautiful, frilly, white dress with gold embellishments, and golden, glittery shoes upon your feet. Around your head is a garland of colorful, assorted flowers adorning your shiny, long, brown hair. While the party preparations continue, a guiding angel directs all the guests to heaven's playground. There the loved ones enjoy watching you and your little angel friends gleefully play on the swings, slides, and merry-go-rounds, amidst the scurrying of many, furry rabbits. Next, the guiding angel leads everyone to a long, beautifully, decorated table. Everyone is seated, and, after the blessing, everyone partakes of the manna set before them, including your very favorite foods. After the delicious, birthday meal, an angel heralds the arrival of God to your birthday celebration. What a most wondrous sight to behold! Everyone knells and exalts Him with praise and jubilation as He sits down at His throne! Calandra, my darling angel, God then acknowledges you with a big smile and then beckons the angels to bring forth your beautifully, decorated "angel food" birthday cake. Accompanied with it are large bowls of various, flavored ice cream, and, of course, chocolate milk. At the appropriate time, God's heavenly choir commences singing "happy birthday to you"! As you blow out your candles on your birthday cake, hundreds of purple and blue balloons are released and soar skyward. Calandra, my darling angel, the most special part of your birthday is when you and all the other little angels kneel before God and intently listen as He reads a wondrous story from the Holy Bible. God then ends the story with prayer, blessing all of His beautiful, little angels. After you and all of the other little angels glorify Him with songs of praise, it is time for you to unwrap your many gifts. Upon finishing, much to your delight, God then reaches down and lifts you up and places you upon His knee. Smiling, He presents you with a small, golden box with a purple and blue bow. Eagerly opening it, you smile your most beautiful, enchanting smile as you see its contents. Enclosed within the box are millions of hugs and kisses sent to you, my darling angel, from me, your grandmother, who loves and misses your beautiful, earthly presence! Calandra, my darling angel, I wish that everything I envisioned was heaven's reality! I do know that this vision has helped me to get through this most difficult day, for which I am most grateful!

"Happy heavenly birthday, my darling angel!!"

Wednesday, January 01, 2014
Calandra, my precious angel,

Today begins another, a second, new year without you. The past year has been one of profound loss, ever-present pain and sadness and many tears without you! I do not foresee this year being any different, for the very thought of you not being a part of my life, yet again, this year, is terribly agonizing! I try to find comfort in your many, beautiful pictures and precious memories. However, nothing can ever fill the great void I feel in both my heart and life over your most senseless, and tragic death!

Calandra, my precious angel, my mind is still having trouble accepting the reality that you are gone--forever!
Even though we are a heaven's distance apart, always know that you will live on forever inside me, deep within my heart!

Happy New Year in heaven, my precious angel! Please give all my heavenly loved ones my New Year's greetings, also. Thank you, my angel!

Loving you and missing you with all my heart!

Heavenly hugs and kisses!
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Calandra, my heavenly angel,

Today is Christmas, and with it comes many, past Christmas memories of you!

One precious memory is that of your very first Christmas! I dearly love this picture of that day with you sitting in front of the fireplace in your lovely, green dress, with your big, blue eyes sparkling and your beaming, toothy smile! You were so adorable!!

My angel, the two past Christmases without you have been ones of sadness and tears! Nothing has been the same without you!!! You were a beautiful, magnificent gift from God, and I will forever miss the wonderful, precious gift of you, not only on Christmas Day, a day of gift-giving, but every day!!

Calandra, my angel, please give all my heavenly loved ones my Christmas greetings and love. Please tell them that I love and miss them! Thank you, my angel!

I love and miss you so very, very much!!!!

Merry Christmas in Heaven!!

Lots of hugs and kisses!!
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Calandra, my love,

Two days ago, on Monday, December 9,2013 you received your well-deserved, earthly justice!! I had been awaiting that day for so long!! Since then my mind has been consumed with constant thoughts of you!! I know that I need to get on with my life. I need to strive to find some purpose and direction, while living the remainder of my life without you, my love!!

Calandra, my most precious, beloved granddaughter, my heart still aches for you!! You will always have a very, very, special place in my heart, reserved for you alone!!

I shall always thank God for having shared you with me!! You were my beautiful, earthly angel, the "light of my life!!" I will love and miss you forever!!

Heavenly hugs and kisses, my love!!
Thursday, November 28, 2013
Calandra, darling,

I remember one past Thanksgiving Day when you left a short, sweet message on the answering machine. You said, " Happy Thanksgiving Mom, I mean Grandma!" "Bye!" I will cherish those endearing words forever!!

Calandra, you were such a precious gift from God!! On Thanksgiving Day, and always, I will give thanks unto Him for having blessed my life with your wonderful, beautiful presence!! You brought me immeasurable joy during your short seven and one-half years here on earth!!

Darling, I love and miss you so very, very much!!

Heavenly hugs and kisses!!
Tuesday, November 05, 2013
Calandra, precious,

Today marks a year since God took your Great-Grandfather Ferguson home to be with Him. Would you give your Great-Grandfather your enchanted smile and lots of hugs and kisses? Please tell him that his earthly family loves and misses him!

Thank you, precious!

I love and miss you so very much!!

Hugs and kisses!!
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Dearest Calandra,

Today would have been your great-grandparents' mutual, earthly birthdays.

My darling, would you please give them both lots of hugs and kisses from me? I know that your sweet, beautiful, angelic presence will give them much joy on their "special day"!

Happy, heavenly birthday, Mom and Dad!! I love and miss you both!!

Calandra, I love and miss you, too, my darling!!

Hugs and kisses!!
Saturday, September 14, 2013
Calandra, as long as God gives us a memory capability,you will always remain in our hearts. I know you would want
Grandma Donna & G.Grandma Jean to live,
love & enjoy those that are still with us and one day we will enjoy the happiness that you have now.
Love Always G. Grandma Jean
Monday, September 02, 2013
Calandra, my love,

A year ago today I had planned to have you during the Labor Day weekend. I anxiously looked forward to your visit being one filled with many precious, memory-making moments. It was to have been a fun-time for you, with lots of pictures taken of your most beautiful self. Regrettably, that visit never happened!

Calandra, my love, I will always wonder why God chose to take YOU on that horrific, fateful day of August 1, 2012! He, and, He, alone, knows why!

I struggle each and every day with your loss! I try to find comfort in knowing that you are now safe and happy with all of the other heavenly angels!

Miss you, my love!!

Heavenly hugs and kisses!!
Friday, August 16, 2013
Calandra, darling,

As I visited your gravesite today, I sadly remembered, a year ago today, when we laid your most beautiful self to rest! My darling, it is still very difficult for me to accept your most senseless and tragic loss! Sometimes it seems like it has only been a day since God took you to be with Him. Other times it seems far much longer. I have read the following poem that is in your memorial folder several times, and I have found some solace from its beautiful words!

When God calls little children
to dwell with Him above,
We mortals sometimes question
the wisdom of His love.
For no heartache compares
with the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world
seem wonderful and mild.
Perhaps God tires of calling
the aged to His fold,
So He picks a rosebud
before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them
and so He takes but few
To make the land of Heaven
more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult
still somehow we must try.
The saddest word mankind knows
will always be "Goodbye."
So when a little child departs
we who are left behind
Must realize God loves children
Angels are hard to find!

"Goodbye," my precious Angel!
I love and miss you so very much!!
Hugs and kisses, my love!
Monday, August 05, 2013
I"m sure Calandra,you would tell Grandma
Donna & me- that as long as we have loving memories,& you always in our hearts-that,that we will remember the
happiness that you have now througheternity. love ,prayers G. Grandma Jean
Thursday, August 01, 2013
Calandra, my most precious angel,

I have dreaded this day for so long! Today marks a year since God took you home! The following poem expresses my loving sentiments!

If I could visit heaven,
Even for a day,
Maybe for a moment,
The pain would go away.
I'd put my arms around you,
And whisper words so true,
That living life without you,
Is the hardest thing to do.
No matter how I spend my days,
No matter what I do,
No morning dawns or evening falls,
When I don't think of you!

I love you, my dear, sweet angel!!
Miss you!! Hugs and kisses!!
Sunday, July 07, 2013
Thursday, July 04, 2013
Calandra, darling,

I am alone today with my many, precious memories of you! Oh, how I would rejoice to once again be able to see your most beautiful face and smile! How I would rejoice to be able to once again hold you, hug you and kiss you! I would greatly rejoice to once again be able to tell you how very much I love you!!!!

My darling, you were the "light of my life!" Every day without you is an eternity!!!!

Always remember that my love and thoughts are with you!

I miss you, my darling!!!

Hugs and kisses!!!!
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Calandra, precious,

Today your grandfather, brother Kegan, and I are in fond remembrance of your great-grandfather Ferguson whose earthly 89th birthday would have been today!

Please give him the gift of your sweet smile! Shower him with lots of hugs and kisses! Tell him that we love and miss him! Thank you, precious!

I love and miss you!!!!

Hugs and kisses!!!!
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Calandra, hello my darling,

Today would have been my beloved parents'- your great-grandparents'- 66th earthly wedding anniversary!

My darling, would you please bless them both with your most beautiful smile? Please give them both lots of hugs and kisses, and tell them both how very much I love and miss them!!

Calandra, darling, I, too, love and miss you--so very much!!!

Hugs and kisses!
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Calandra, my darling,

Today, on Father's Day, my thoughts are of my father and my father-in-law, your two great-grandfathers!

I will greatly miss not being able to honor them both today!

My darling, would you please wish them both a heavenly, happy Father's Day for me? Please bless them both with your most enchanted smile and give them lots of hugs and kisses!

Please tell them both how very much I love and miss them!!

Thank you, my darling! I miss you!!!!!!

My love, forever and ever!!!!

Hugs and kisses!!!!
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Good evening, little one. It's almost Memorial Day, so naturally I thought of you. Just came in from working on your memorial. I know it's taken me a while, but I wanted it to be just right. All I have left to do is put your lovely picture on it. I've got to put it in plexi-glass so that it is protected from the elements. I'm going to photograph it and send a copy to your Grandma Donna. I hope she likes it. At times I can still feel your presence and see your smile.

Thinking of you with love in my heart.
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Calandra, I know you are with our Heavenly Father as Christ promised to our beloved children called Home to heaven in early age-that gives us who
loved you comfort that we who know Christ as Savior will see you again.You will always be in our Memory.
Love G.Grandma JeanFerguson
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Calandra, darling,

Today is Mother's Day!

I will miss not hearing your sweet voice say, "Happy Mother's Day, mom"!

I will also miss not being able to tell my mother, your great-grandmother, "Happy Mother's Day"!

My darling, as you and all the other beautiful, little angels spread love and joy to all the mothers celebrating Mother's Day in heaven today, please give your great-grandmother a big hug and kiss from me. Tell her that I wish her a most glorious, heavenly Mother's day! Tell her that I love and miss her!! Thank you, darling!

I love and miss you both so very, very much!!
Hugs and kisses, my darling!

Forever in my heart,
Thursday, April 04, 2013
You are missed so Very much here;
but as I look at the picture your Grand ma Donna gave me I see the joy you brought to present to our Heavenly Father
as He welcomed you to the beautiful life
and eternal home that He has given you.
I pray that all of us will truly accept Christ as our Savior - so that we too will one day be with you and our other loved ones.
With Love, Great Grand MA Jean Ferguson
Sunday, March 31, 2013

Today is Easter, and with it comes a most precious memory. That memory is of a lovely, colorful, floral dress that I gave you for Easter. I remember how very beautiful you looked in it! Little did I know that it would become your very favorite dress. In fact, you proudly wore it when you had your very last school picture taken. This picture of you in that Easter dress is very precious to me! I look upon this picture daily and think of how much you greatly blessed my life in your short seven and one-half years!!

Calandra, I love and miss you so very, very much!!

Happy Easter in Heaven, my darling!!

Easter hugs and kisses!!
Thursday, February 14, 2013

Happy Valentine's Day in heaven!

I am sending you a heart full of love today! May the angels embrace you and shower you with lots of kisses!

Calandra, my love, always remember that I love you more with each passing day, and that you have a very special place in my heart!!

Hugs and kisses!!
Miss you!!
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Dearest Angel,
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Calandra, my love,

I wish you were here today so that I, personally, could wish you a happy eighth birthday! I wish I could see your most beautiful face and lovely, enchanting smile just once again! I wish I could hold you and tell you how very much I love you! I know that my wishes are things that cannot be!

So, my love, I am wishing you a glorious, "Happy Birthday in Heaven!" I know that it will be your best one ever!!

I love you today and always! I miss you so very much! Hugs and kisses!
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
Jan. 01, 2013

Calandra, precious,

Today is the beginning of a new year. Today also marks your most senseless and tragic death five months ago!! It is quite customary for most people to make resolutions and goals for the coming new year. I am not one of them! All I can think of is the great loss I have felt since your untimely death! I feel such pain and despair in knowing that this new year and all future new years will be ones of saddness and emptiness without you, my precious! Your wonderful, sweet existence brought such joy to my heart, and now that joy is gone, forevermore!!
Calandra, my precious granddaughter, every day without you, is an eternity!!! I love you and miss you so very, very much!!!!

Hugs and kisses!!
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
My darling Calandra,

As I look at your lovely pictures of Christmases past, tears come to my eyes! I feel an overwhelming sense of loss! Knowing that these are the last Christmas pictures I will ever have of you is quite unbearable! Calandra, you were a most precious gift from God! You were such a beautiful, sweet and loving little girl! I am having great difficulty in accepting the reality and finality of your tragic death! Nothing makes any sense anymore! For me, Christmases will never be the same without you, my darling! Today and every future Christmas I will say, "Merry Christmas
in Heaven, my darling Calandra."! I love you!!! I miss you!!!
Thursday, December 06, 2012
I heard about this case and I am so sorry Calandra. Sometimes tragedies like this can create some good in the world. We will all appreciate and hug our children more. I did not even know you and my heart aches for you. I am angry too but this is not the right place for that. Rest in peace babygirl.
Monday, October 22, 2012
Monday, September 17, 2012
Our special,Calandra,As I look at your picture ,we see the beautiful blue eyes & sweet
smile ,wishing we could be with you as others had that priviledge. now we see the angel we've placed on it ,because we know you are with our heavenly Father-and in a beautifull
life . We shed sad tears but they turn to joy
as we know we will be with you for ever one day. Prayers are with your G.Ma Donna & G. Pa Rick as they cherished you so much.
Our Love for Ever.
G.G Ma & G.G. Pa Ferguson
Thursday, September 06, 2012
Rest in peace my beautiful Calandra. Your life on earth was too, too short but you will forever be in our hearts. Your uncle loves you very much and you will be missed by us all. Give your great-grandparents a big hug for me.
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
While Calandra sleeps, her spirit is in the hands of God.

The Lord looks down from Heaven; He sees all the children of man. How precious is Your steadfast love, O God! The children of mankind take refuge in the shadow of Your wings.

He is ever giving generously, and His children become a blessing. Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the Kingdom Of Heaven. Whoever humbles himself like a child is the greatest in the Kingdom Of Heaven.

I thank You, Father, Lord of Heaven and earth, that You have hidden these things from the wise and revealed them to little children; yes, Father, for such was Your gracious will.

Little children, you are from God and have overcome.
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
Calandra -- We will miss you very much. Your sister Emma thinks about you everyday but knows she has a very special angel looking over her in heaven. Rest in peace sweet girl.
Monday, September 03, 2012
Sweet Calandra,

You were such and girly-girl and I loved our time together playing dress up, having your hair done and putting on my high heels:)

It breaks my heart the trials & situations you had to overcome in your short life but you were a strong, brave girl & are safe & loved.

You taught us all life is precious & short & I wish you the peace you always deserved sweetie.

The best part now is we will forever be in each others hearts! Your sweet smile and laugh and your playful approach to life was contagious. I miss you so much!

I love you sweet girl!!!!
Aunt Lisa
(((hugs))) & kisses
Monday, September 03, 2012
Calandra I miss u so much, and have fun dancing with the angels.
Sunday, September 02, 2012
Dear Calandra,

I will miss all the times I: chased you around the house, played at the park, ate at Carls Jr/Fuddruckers/Red Robin/Chili's/KFC/Arby's/etc., played games, watched TV, going to the movies, reading, drawing, swimming,riding in the car listening to music and working outside.

Love You Little Sister.
Sunday, September 02, 2012
Calandra (Callie), Thank you for all the big hugs and kisses! You were such a sweet and loving little girl! I will greatly miss you! Your great-uncle Ralph
Sunday, September 02, 2012
September 1st, 2012 Calandra,

My most beautiful Granddaughter. Your precious life was taken from me one month ago today. The pain from your loss is ever present and will be forevermore. You were such a God-given blessing. You gave me so much love and happiness in your short years here on Earth.

I know that God is taking care of you and that you are now one of His special angels. I miss you so very much and love you with all my heart.

Callie, even though we are far apart one day we shall be together again. Until then you shall always be with me in love and memory.

Play forever with the angels my love!
Sunday, September 02, 2012
Calandra your smile will always be with us from your memorial by your friends at PES and our memories of your laughter everywhere you were. We all miss and cherish the light you brought into our lives.
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Gone too soon and will never be forgotten. God has a plan for us all, why, how or when is for him to answer for the plan was laid out before he came to serve him, here on this earth. God has called his little girl home to be with him so he could protect her, love her and enjoy her angelic presents. We will all miss her very much as I am sure God did when he allowed her to be apart of our lives. May we all find peace, through Jesus Christ our Lord and savior.
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