• Delano Mortuary
    Delano, CA
In partnership with the Dignity Memorial® network
Mr. Cesar Acosta 1978 - 2010
Print   Close
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Mis mas grandes pesames ala famillia y todo mi respeto. Lo siento muncho. A cesar pues que les puedo desir mas que siempre me llebe un muy lindo recuerdo de buena amistad. fue una persona muy linda, y alguen que siempre llevo en mi corason porque fue una gran ser humano. Descnsa en paz amigo.

~brenda garcia~
Monday, October 11, 2010
Three months have passed by since my last entry. Your face and your memory continues to constantly run through my mind. Some days more than others. I miss our long conversations about nothing...:) our walks at the bluffs and just hanging out. I know I will see you again; but not yet, not yet...
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Hola amor mio. I know I don't visit your page as often and it's not because I don't want to; but because I'm trying to find things that will keep my mind occupied with everything that's going on. I still miss you like if it were yesterday. I see Alila's face and it's like I'm looking at you. I hug her and I feel you. Te extrano como no te imaginas. Sigues haciendo el amor de mi vida. You're my love, my life, and my treasure. I love you. Forever yours...
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Hi babe, wow! It's been one month and one day since I visited your page. My life made a complete 360. For the good though. I know that you have a lot to do with what's been going on babe, and I'm so thankful for that mi amor. Gracias por tus bendiciones, que estoy completamente agradecida por todo =) I miss you like crazy and I want you to know that I'm always thinking about you babe. Vives en mi mente y en mi corazon siempre...Forever yours...
Saturday, May 01, 2010
Hola mi vida. It's Saturday 5/1/10 1:05 p.m., and I must say that things would be so much easier if you were here. No sabes lo mucho que me haces falta mi amor. Quisiera despertar y verte a un lado. A veces pienso que te has ido por un tiempo pero que luego regresaras =) Te extrano tanto mi amor, no me puedo imaginar mi vida sin ti. Estoy viviendo sin poder vivir, me estoy muriendo sin poder morir. Te quiero, te amo, te deseo, te necesito mi amor. Por siempre tuya...
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Hi mi amor, it's Wednesday, 4/28/10 8:32 p.m., and I feel pretty good today. I know it'll take some time for me. I realize and understand that I have to take it day by day. Every day is a new day and a new hope for me as well. I still miss you like crazy and wish you were here in my arms. I want to get lost in your eyes and live in your memory forever my love. You're my love, my life, and my treasure babes. TQM...
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Hey babes, I was looking for something and came across your Rams hat that I had gotten you. It still smells like you, which made me happy =) It put a big smile on my face. I hope the Rams do better this year. Even though they're not my team, I do hope they do a lot better than last year...LOL!!! They did get first pick on the NFL Draft. They chose the QB from Oklahoma, Sam Bradford. Hopefully they have a good year. Well mi amor, this is all for now. Always know that I love you. Forever yours...
Monday, April 26, 2010
Hey there. Well, I'm a bit disappointed because my entries have not been posted. I'm still keeping in contact with your mom. I must say we make each other laugh which is nice =) I told Alila I was going to show her how to make Rice Krispie Treats, and she's excited about it =) I also told her I was going to take her on the picnic she had always wanted you to take her on. I'm still missing you mi amor. TQM...
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Hi my love =) it's Wednesday 4/21/10, 11:13 p.m., and I noticed that my entry from yesterday was not posted; and I think I know why. Any who, I called Alila last night around 10:00 p.m., and I read her a bed time story book =) It was actually, the one I had read to you not too long ago before you passed. It was "Rumpelstiltskin." I remember reading it to you and you telling me how much you loved me reading to you =) that it would bring a form of calmness to you. I made sure to let her know that I had read the book to you and you had loved it; so she said she loved it too =) I had my Bible Study this morning and I must say that it always makes me start my day in such a good mood. I still think about you every second of every minute of every hour of everyday =) I will always love you mi amor and I hope to see you again one day =) Remember to take care of my baby. Forever loving you...
Monday, April 19, 2010
Good morning sunshine =) It's Monday 4/19/10 7:44 a.m., and I've been awake since 3:30 a.m. You know me, always getting up early to make lunch for Jorge when he goes in early. He came home from work last night and wasn't feeling good at all. I hope he feels better =) Any who, I had a rough time this morning because I started to think about how you would call me in the early morning. I miss that. I miss having those long conversations with you. I miss you calling my phone at all hours of the day, regardless if I was busy or not...LOL!!! I just miss everything about you =( I'm still always thinking, missing, and loving you mi amor. Descansa mi vida...I'll come back tomorrow =)
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Hola mi amor. It's Sunday 4/18/10 1:18 a.m., and I feel so bad because I haven't wrote to you in two days. I've just been extremely busy and so much has happened the last couple of days. It's not that I haven't thought about you, it's just that I couldn't sleep last night after what Jason told me about what he thinks. Don't get me wrong, I don't have doubts, but at the same time, he was making sense of why he believes what he believes. My niece's Senior Prom was tonight, and I took her to go get her makeup done. She looked so beautiful. I am so proud for the beautiful young lady she has become. I want you to know that I still love you and miss you like crazy mi amor. I think about you every second of every minute of every hour of every day. Siempre te seguire amando amor mio. Te extrano babes.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Good morning my sunshine. It's Thursday 4/15/10 at 9:46 a.m., and I couldn't sleep last night at all. It seems like instead of things getting better, it seems like they're getting worse. The only thing that is keeping me going is my faith. I pray and pray and it makes me feel better but then everything that is going on makes me feel worse. I miss you so much babes. I miss you like crazy. I know things will get better; but only time will tell. I'm taking it one day at a time. I'm just hoping I have a good day today. Not so worried about tomorrow, because I don't know if tomorrow will come. I think about you all day mi amor y te sigo amando como la primera vez. Hasta manana amor...
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Hola mi vida. Its Wednesday 4/14/10 1:25 p.m., and I'm about to take my Doby for a walk. Well, I should say he's going to take me for one :D You know, in my mind I know what I have to do to make myself happy, it's just so hard to leave my constant thoughts behind and move forward. You live in my mind 24/7. If someone would ask me, "Are you happy?" My response would be, "No." Me not wanting to move on without you is greater than wanting to accept that you're gone. I know I don't have a choice to accept and move on, it's just so difficult for me to concentrate on anything other than you babes. I want to feel your touch, I want to breathe the same air you're breathing. I want to love you, kiss you, and hold on to you forever and ever. I love you more than life itself Cesar, and I will always love you, no matter what babes. Te Amo ???
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Hey amor, it's Tuesday 4/13/10 2:00 p.m., and it's a pretty nice day today. Sunny with clouds. We've just been having crazy weather, one day it's warm, the next day it's raining and cold. I made your favorite for lunch today. Meatloaf and mashed potatoes. I must say, it was delish! I wish you were here so that I can make you your favorite meals, and take you to Roadhouse. I knew you loved it there when we went there the first time =) I hope that wherever you are, you're eating all of your favorite foods. I am so proud of you papas. Thank you for being such an amazing person. I will forever cherish the wonderful times we had. I love you and missing you always...
Monday, April 12, 2010
Hey love, it's Monday 4/12/10 2:46 p.m., and I've already had a busy morning. I apologize for not leaving a message yesterday. I left to LA with Norma, Freddy's ex-wife; and we had such a day. Well, she got a gas leak and she ended up having to borrow her friend's car and it was raining, and we drove back late, then it snowed in Gorman. All I can say, is that I have never been that scared on the road; but I felt safe. I felt as if you were there with me. I always feel you around me baby. You and God are my comfort. Te sigo amando como la primera vez. Fuiste y siempre seras mi tesoro y el amor de mi vida. I always have you on my mind babes. Forever yours...
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Today is Saturday 4/10/10 4:45 p.m., and I went to the batting cages today. Overall, I had a good time because I was able to let off some steam. You know me, I hold so much in. I prayed, and prayer always helps :-) I still think about you every second of my life. You know, we shared so many beautiful moments together and we did so many things together that neither of us had ever done before; and let me say that I'm glad we did them together. I couldn't of had it any other way. Remember when I used to tell you that you were the "King of your Jungle," because your sign was a Leo, (the sign of the lion.) Well, I pray and hope that wherever you are, you hold that title. I just hope that you are resting in peace and that you are with your dad and both of you are as happy as can be. I will continue to keep you on mind and in my heart babes...Forever and ever...
Friday, April 09, 2010
Good morning sunshine =) It's Friday 4/9/10, 9:07 a.m., and I woke up a bit melancholy earlier this morning. I went to Delano yesterday and was able to see Alila's T-Ball game. I must say that that little one is so precious =) She is all you let me tell you =) which is not a bad thing in any way. She just puts a big smile on my face and brings warmth to my heart. When I see her, I see you =) She told me last night: "You're nice!" Kind of left me speechless there for a second until I thanked her for being so nice for saying that =) I still wish this was all a nightmare and that you'll be next to me when I wake up; but no, it's reality. At times, I think that you'll return in some miraculous form back to us; but no, not going to happen. I wish that I was looking into your eyes. Many, many times, I wish you would just walk through the door and take me away. I miss you mis ojitos lindos. Te seguire amando como la primera vez. Forever yours...
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Well, today is a new day. It's 10:41 a.m., Thursday 4/8/10 and so far I'm having a good morning. I talked to your mom already this morning because I hadn't talked to her since Saturday. I mean she's been busy with her Dr. appointments. Any way, I had a nice walk yesterday =) I was able to get my mind off of things and get some exercise in which was nice. Gosh, how different things would be if you were here. Whether it would be good or bad, it wouldn't matter because you'd be here. I miss you like crazy; but I want you to know that every time I think about you and our memories, it puts a smile on my face. We had nothing but good times; and I'll always thank you for that my love. I miss our long conversations about the silliest things...lol! Thank you for allowing me to share how much you meant to me and how much I love you when you were here. Forever yours...
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Wed., 4/7/10 2:03 p.m., and I feel pretty good today. I feel asleep really late last night; and I actually fell asleep looking at your photo ;-) I have faith that things will get better. I mean I believe in God and I know that as long as I keep on having faith and praying from my heart he won't let me down. I went to go get my eyebrows done today and I had specifically instructed the lady to leave the thickness of my brows. Well, she made them thin :-( Don't get me wrong, they're not thin like "Sharpie" thin (EWW!) But they're the thinnest I have ever had them be. Oh well, luckily they'll grow back pretty quickly ;-) Any who, I guess this is it for today. I'll come back to you tomorrow mis ojitos hermosos. Forever loving and missing you...Descansa mi tesoro.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
Tuesday 4/6/10 8:45 a.m., and I just finished crying again..:-/ Many times I think to myself on how you would always tell me how you didn't want to hear me or see me cry. How you couldn't stand it when a woman cried. I don't think I will ever be able to stop crying for you. I try and look for the positive in things that happen and it usually helps; but I do have my moments when reality sets in and I know I'm never going to see you again and I break down. There are so many things I want to do and there the things we used to talk about. I'm just not ready. I'm not ready because I feel as if I'm moving on and I don't want to move on without you. Here I go again...okay, I took a deep breath :-/ I'm going to make you so proud of me. I know I'm proud of you for being the person you were =) I'm glad I was able to tell you how proud I was of you many times. You were such a beautiful person, a person who has inspired me, and of all people...LOL!!! Thank you for sharing your deepest thoughts and dreams with me babes. Thank you for making such beautiful memories, memories that I will forever cherish in my heart and on stand-by in my head...LOL! Te amo amor...
Monday, April 05, 2010
Monday 4/5/10 11:19 a.m., and I'm okay right now. I feel frustrated right now over some things that are happening; but I have faith in God and I know I'll get through it. I need you so much you have no idea. I cried and cried last night. Today is exactly one month from when it all happened. I wish I can go back in time just so that I can hear your voice, see your smile and hear your laugh. Tus ojitos sigen llorando por ti, mi corazon esta herido porque no estas, mi alma duele porque no te puedo amar , mis manos vacias porque no te puedo tocar y mi vida sola porque te has ido. Te extrano amor...
Sunday, April 04, 2010
It's 1:20 p.m., Sunday 4/4/10. Happy Easter =) Es muy dificil para aceptar todo lo que esta pasando. Ay veces que los dias se me alargan y hay dias donde todo esta bien. Espero que te encuentres feliz y alegre como casi siempre te miraba =) Ahora me siento como si no tengo palabras para expresar lo que siento. Te extrano muchisimo y te sigo queriendo como la primera vez. Vives en mi mente y en mi corazon amor. Te quiero mucho...
Saturday, April 03, 2010
It's Saturday 4/3/10, 2:47 p.m., and I'm just writing to you to let you know that I feel peace in my heart at the moment; and I love that feeling. I dreamed of you last night again; and they say that when you dream of a deceased person, to pray for them. I'm praying for you my love, trust me. I pray all the time for you. I feel good at the moment. I haven't had a breakdown so that's good I guess. It doesn't mean that I don't think about you or that I've moved on. It' just that I don't have a choice but to learn to accept that you're not here. The days pass and you're not here. I'm learning how to accept things that happen; not that I am over them because I will never be over you. I just have to learn to live without you. As hard as it may be I pray to God to give me strength to do so. I believe in him and I know that he won't fail me. You're always on my mind =)
Saturday, April 03, 2010
It's 9:59 p.m., 4/2/10 and I just got home from being out all day. We took my niece to L.A. to buy her a dress for her prom. I was so happy with the dress she chose, it looked so nice on her =) It was good until the truck almost got towed away and we were given a $150 parking ticket. My goodness... You know, you're on my mind all the time; but you probably already knew that =) I pray and hope that you're happy. That you're living the life you always wanted to live and that brings me so much comfort. Thank you for showing me what a beautiful person you were. Aside from everything else, I'm glad we were able to escape into our own little world =) May you rest in peace, and live graciously in paradise with that beautiful smile of yours. I love you.
Friday, April 02, 2010
It's 4/1/10 10:18 p.m., and overall, I had a good day today. I had my Bible Study in the morning. I made Mole, Sopa de Arroz, and the green pasta that you liked a lot and took it to your mom's. I also took Alila her Easter basket and I was so happy that she liked it. She is such a sweetheart =) She looks just like you, her gestures, she is such a character =) I just want to say that I am so proud of you. I'm proud of the person you were and the love you gave to everyone around you. I admire you, and it's those qualities that make me become a better person each day. You always told me that I had such a big heart. Well, I am who I am today because of what I have been through and because of the people that surround me. I am thankful I had you in my life. Thank you for sharing with me your love. I will never forget you...
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
It's 5:23 p.m., and I feel so exhausted. You know it's the last day of the March and even though I wish I could go back to February, I know I can't. This month seemed extremely long for me. I'm doing okay, and I still think about you so much. I know my words will probably get old; but what can I do when this is how I'll feel for the rest of my life. I know that throughout time I will feel better and that's because I have no choice but to move on with my life. I want you to know that the pain in my heart will never go away because you're not here. I will always think of you, miss you, and love you. Forever and ever babes...
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Hey babes, it's Tuesday 2:04 p.m., and I'm here thinking about you like always =) You know, writing in your obituary brings me comfort. That is one of the reasons why I do it. Plus, we went from talking everyday, to all of a sudden not hearing your voice. I finished your daughter's Easter basket last night. I hope she likes it =) You know, I wrote to you yesterday, and it still hasn't posted. I'm just hoping it does. Any way, you know everyday is a challenge for me. I never know what tomorrow will be like. I'm not even worried about it to be honest. I'm just trying to get by each day without having a breakdown. I cry everyday and I miss you like crazy. I just hope and pray that one day we'll be together again. I know it won't be in this lifetime; but that's the only thing I'm actually looking forward to. Forever missing you and loving you...
Monday, March 29, 2010
Good morning Sunshine :-) So I am really getting annoyed because I'm noticing that some of my entries are not being posted :-( I had an okay day yesterday. I spent it with my family; so that's always nice :D Jorge and I are still sleeping in separate rooms. I'm not in a hurry to rush anything. I just want to take my time you know. He's more of a roommate than anything else; so I guess I've gotten used to that. I continued on and made his lunch. I know things would be different if you were here. I would be on the phone with you rather than writing you. Well, I guess I better go because I can go on for days. Before you know it, they're going to ban me...LOL! I miss you so much amor. I love you mis ojitos hermosos...
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Good Morning, it's Sunday 11:45 a.m., and I'm getting ready to leave for church. I don't really have any plans today except for church and I'm going to go spend time with Ana. I really enjoy her company because she always knows what to say to make me feel better. Plus, I can't be alone, I'll go crazy. I miss you, I miss you so much. I still think about you 24/7, especially when I cook, LOL! I want you to know that there will never be anyone that will replace you. You are and will always be my love, my life, and my treasure. Forever loving you...
Friday, March 26, 2010
Hey you, well the last entry before this one was supposed to be dated 3/25; but that's okay I guess : ) I'm still thinking about you all the time. It's so hard to not think about you when it seems like everything I do reminds me of you. I talked to your mom today and I told her I would take her some food tomorrow. I'm thinking of making her a caldo or something. I'm making your daughter an Easter basket with goodies and I'll be taking it to her Thursday, I hope ; ) You know, the last time I walked into your bedroom was Thursday and It's so hard to know that so many special memories happened in that room and I will never see it again. Thank you for all those beautiful moments you shared with me. Thank you for allowing me to love you, even if our time was cut short. I will never forget you Cesar. Whether or not I move on with my life, you'll always be in mind and in my heart. Forever loving you and missing you...
Friday, March 26, 2010
Hey my love :-) Well another day has gone by and I must say my pain and tears are slowly turning into confidence. I miss talking to you and being with you. I miss how you used to call me: "Mis Ojitos" y "Mis Trompitas." I miss how you used to just lay and stare at me while I was asleep; and I'd wake up, and there you were just gazing into me. I miss how you would lean over to kiss me while I was driving. I miss our walks at the Bluffs. I remember not too long ago you had said how you wanted to go back there because it was one of your happiest moments. I miss holding you in my arms and scratching your head. I miss feeling your heartbeat when I'd hold on to you tight. I miss that smile of yours, your scent, your laughs, your cries, and everything about you. I miss smelling your hair. I miss you smelling my hair, LOL! I miss cooking for you. I miss it all amor. I miss you and I love you. I've never stopped loving you. I'll always love you babes. Forever yours.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
So I'm bummed out because I have been leaving messages everyday as of 3/14/10; and I noticed that my entry for 3/22 didn't get posted : / I had a much better day today. I went to my cousins and we made Ceviche y Tacos de Pescado. They came out sooo good. I wish you would've been here because I made the Ceviche and I remembered how you loved my mom's. I guess I just need to stay occupied; but even though I'm busy, you're on my mind 24/7. The only difference is that I don't have my breakdowns while I'm occupied. Tu eres y siempre seras mi mundo y mi felicidad. Te quiero como nunca en mi vida he querido a un hombre. Gracias por darme tu amor y carino. You are the reason I know how to love, it's just so hard to accept the fact that you're not here so that I can spend the rest of my life showing it to you. I feel so alone like the sand without its ocean. I will forever keep you in my mind and in my heart because the day you left you took a big piece of my heart with you. Forever missing and loving you.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Good morning Sunshine. I wrote to you yesterday; but It hasn't appeared online yet; but I'm hoping it will sometime today. Yesterday was a bad day. I had such a hard time. I talked to my mom, Ana, Dora, and I can't remember who else. I don't have the urge or the energy to do anything. When I'm home I just sleep. I haven't watched T.V. since this happened. I go here and there but it's only to get my mind off things, which mostly doesn't seem work any way. It hurts way too much to want to do anything. I go to sleep crying and wishing that when I wake up you'll be there. I don't know how long I can do this. I feel like my world is over and I don't want to do anything. I pray and pray; but it's just so hard to understand. I need you, I need you like you have no idea and to know I will never be with you again is driving me insane. I had a dream about you last night; but I can slightly remember what it was about. I love you and miss you. Forever yours...
Monday, March 22, 2010
Hey you, I feel like this month is taking forever to go by. I had another disagreement with Jorge again. What's new huh? Yeah, and I still cook for him :/ I'm okay because I have faith in God. Como dice el dicho: "Dios aprieta, pero no ahorca." I would give up everything I have just to have you back. I remember when you used to get mad because I would go to the gym; and I would say: "It's because I want to lose weight," and you would say, "You don't need to, you're fine the way you are." Thank you for appreciating me the way I am. I love you Cesar. I always loved you for who you were and how you were with me. I'll never love anyone else the way I love you. I miss you.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Just want to let you know that I found one of your pictures. You have no idea how happy that made me feel. I was looking for one of my new cell phone cases, and I came across your picture. The best part is that it's the picture with your beautiful smile, you know, the smile I always called: "Million dollar smile." ? I am for one so happy and relieved because I was afraid that they had gotten lost during the move. Now call me crazy, I took a picture of your picture with my phone and set it up as my wallpaper, LOL!!! You know, right before I found your picture, I pulled out your Rams pullover and the Rams hat I bought you last year. Both have your scent and I'm hoping the scent is preserved. Turns out, finding your pic has been the best thing that has happened to me today. I just wish that I can have a happy end to every day like today. Well, it's actually 12:27 a.m., 3/21/10; but I am speaking as if it were still 3/20/10. Any way, I'm starting to ramble so I will stop here for now. I miss you and I love you babes. Hasta manana : )
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Another day goes by that I can't seem to reason or understand why you are not here anymore. It wasn't supposed to be this way. My heart hurts because you're gone. Without you I feel so alone and lost. I ask myself: "What am I going to do for the rest of my life, now that he's gone." I feel like I am in the wrong constantly thinking about you, wishing you were here and we would be together. He's a great man; but after what he's done and the separation, I know I will never love anyone the way I loved you, and I don't want to. I miss you like you have no idea. I saw Alex last night and told him what happened. He couldn't believe it for the life of him. He said: "The love of your life?" and I replied: "Yeah, the love of my life." That's what you were to me since we met 10 years ago, the love of my life. I let you go and moved on only because I knew that your heart belonged to someone else at the time. I never stopped thinking about you. I am so thankful like you have no idea, that we were able to spend the last 9 months together. I'm missing you and loving you always...
Friday, March 19, 2010
its been such a long time and to find out about u this way its just so difficult. the passing of a loved one is so hard as it is and for a mother to live beyond the life of a child is worse. my sincere condolences to your family
Friday, March 19, 2010
So I just had my Bible Study and let me tell you that I feel much better. I will always love you Cesar and I pray and hope that I get to see you again. Remember all the things I would tell you I wanted to do in life and how I knew God sent me here to do something good for others. Well, I want to start a non-profit organization to help others. It's going to be something that I know you'll be proud of. It will be done in your memory. If all goes well, maybe it could be something that your daughter can take over later in life. I pray to God for you and I'm always thinking about you. I want you to know that Jorge needs me and I thank him for being so patient and supportive during this time. Every day is a challenge and a new beginning for me; but I'm getting through it with love and prayer and God. Thank you for giving me the love and emotional support you gave me. You'll never be forgotten. Jamas olvidare tu linda sonrisa que alumbraba tu alrededor. Ya que te encuentras con dios, espero que cuides a mi nino hermoso. Hasta manana...
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Amanezco otro dia con las ganas de escuchar tu voz. Siento que se me ha inundado el corazon de tanto que he llorado. Daria el mundo entero para volver a estar contigo. Me siento tan sola ya que no estas. En vez de que se esten mejorando las cosas, siento que estan empiorando. Te necesito tanto, como no te imaginas. Estaras siempre en mis pensamientos y mi corazon. Te quiero...
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Le mando mi mas sincero pesame a la familia de Cesar. We went to Middle School together with Cesar. And just like in all his picture you have posted I do remember him always having his sweet smile on his face. It is very sad went you find out of old friend under this circumstances. Que dios te tenga en su santa gloria.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Wow I can't believe your gone! I remember back in the day living around the corner from your family and we would all hang out and play, gosh you were such a great person Cesar and you will be greatly missed!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Cesar it had been a while since i saw you last..I found out about your passing this morning i can't believe it my thoughts and prayers go out to your family..You were such a good friend remember back in middle school you would always like to dress all nice and one day you came to school wearing these purple slacks and a purple button down shirt and what did i tell you AAWW here comes the California Grape we laughed our butts off and then ever since you would wear that outfit again you said you would wear it for me.. Cesar RIP you will truly be missed...
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Good morning Sunshine. I didn't sleep at all last night. I cried my heart out. I know it has to stop. There's an ominous sign that I need to move on. It's just hard to let go. At times I feel alright, but then again, you live in my mind; so I don't know how long this is going take. I see you in my dreams, I hear your voice, your laughter; and it makes it even harder. Tus ojitos te extranan.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
So today was your funeral and even after the emotional goodbye. I must say that I still can't believe you're gone. There was a gathering at the Cold Storage after and Yuri was very nice to have invited me. I must say that they're such a wonderful family. I still wake up in the mornings and want to call your cell so bad just because I miss hearing your voice. I just want to you to know that I tried and I am so sorry if I failed you. I have this feeling in my heart that won't go away, and as much as I try to think about other things it's there. All I had ever wanted from the day I met you was to be with you and take care of you. I am so sorry. I love you...
Monday, March 15, 2010
So I hope you liked my Eulogy in your memory. It pretty much summed up part of what we used to talk about. I feel comforted after the Mass the Priest gave. I only have the after life to look forward too. I pray now that I will one day be able to be in your arms and live the everlasting life with you. Thank you for showing me how a man is supposed to love a woman, thank you. I'm missing you still and I will never forget you babes...
Sunday, March 14, 2010
I know that you're in a better place, where you don't feel any more pain. A place where you can finally live the life you always dreamed and talked about. My days are so lonely without you. I try to find things to occupy my time in; but at the end of the day, reality sets in and I break down because I know that I'll never see you again. Not in this life at least. Remember when you told me that you would wait for me, even if it was 50 years and we used to laugh about it. Well, I'm the one who is going to have to wait to be with you. You're still in my prayers. I miss you dearly and I'm still loving you. I never stopped.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
It seems like yesterday the last time we spoke. It's so hard to believe that you're not here anymore. You're on my mind day and night, and it's so hard at times because I feel like I can't go on with my life. Thank you for the loving memories you and I had, as I will cherish them for the rest of my life. I miss you and I will always love you.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Please accept my condolences i'm so sorry to hear about Cesar's passing. All of our thoughts are with your famly in your time of grief. Cesar will truely be missed by all of us.
©2017 Legacy.com. All rights reserved. Guest Book entries are free and are posted after being reviewed for appropriate content. If you find an entry containing inappropriate material, please contact us.