Hi there Papa... I miss you. Emma can say LOLO... BUGABUGABUGA! She kisses your picture when she goes to Kuya's house. She learns so fast. You see her every day. Im sure she sees you too.
I talk to you every night... And you know all my thoughts and what i need help on... And ur the best daddy in the world... If you need our Lord's help in doing so, please ask. :) i really do heed your help ok daddy.
By the way, i smelled you at the basketball game JMH had with his buddies in Salinas. Thank you for sitting next to me on the bench. Ate Chris got jealous heheheh
Hi there ....Happy turkey day to u & everyone there including our good Lord..hope you folks are doing fine..ts 2054 hours now...moe & I came back from los banos...we also spent the nite at kooya's house..we had an early turkey day
dinner...lots of food too...we also picked our secret santa...we all had fun...
I hope u had a nice turkey day up there...we all miss u very much daddy...until next entry ok...take care of yourself....SEMPER FI....
Good evening!!!! It's christine ur 1st born...how is life from above...curious minds ask...its now 2029 hours ....nov 13, 2013....this day marks 2 years since God called u home to live with him in a much better place...
We (ur kids) got together to celebrate ur life at kooya's house...we had all ur favorite foods...we knew u were there to join us...
Daddy...we all miss u so much and all think of u everyday in different ways...don't worry about us here....take care of urself...live ur life to its fullest...ok we love u always.....SEMPER F I!!!!!
Hi Daddy... Just wanna let u know im thinking about you... (You already know that)
I love and miss you.
Hi Manong me and papa miss you already thank you for the days that you always stayed on our side.
What you doing besides playing Singalo and playing pranks on your siblings? Just wanted to let you know that I miss you and I think of you every day. We had an empty seat at our table at the restaurant for Emma's baptism reception, and I'm pretty sure you were there. They had your favorite... DUCK! As you know, I wasn't feeling well, and up until today, I still don't feel well. I ask that you help me get better.
Emma's bday party is gonna be FUN!!!! We all know you will be there eating alongside us.
By the way, Emma always looks for your picture on my arm when I karga her. I know she can't talk yet, but I'm sure she wants to tell us that she sees you. Cause she touches it and she looks at me and she touches it again and she looks at me and smiles. Thank you again for watching over her and Mig and all of us.
Time to work now daddy... its 8:55am...
LOVE YOU and MISS YOU
Good evening, it's me again your 1st born...adding an entry into your book on Sept. 7th, 2013 @1813 hours...i just home a bit ago from Emma's Baptism @ Saint Francis Church in seaside...kooya & pusa are the godparents along with emil's brother's & sisters...there were lots of guest and lots of new borns that attended...It was EMMA JADE DAY!!!!
Papa you should have seen your grand daughter...she looked so precious..the funny thing was that she could not avoid putting her thumb in her mouth...she cried when the Deacon poured water on her head...then he anointed her with oil...she smelled minty all day....other than that...all went well...everyone took lots of pictures...Emma got her 1st diploma that she was christianed....next is her 1st birthday...the people that attended i am certain that the attendance will double...it will take place at the park..i don't know the name but i am sure u will be there....lots of food will be cooked....the day will be saturday sept 28...make plans to come along with our relatives that are there with you ok...
well daddy...until next entry...we love and miss you so much...we always thank you for watching over us down here.......SEMPER FI!!!!!!!!
Buon pomeriggio papà, sono io Christine ....today is aug 22nd @1523 ours..how are u doing now adays...yesterday was grandpa Luis's birthday...did ya'll celebrate?
Just wanted to let u know that Moe & I signed papers for the 2nd house we bought in Los Banos...no i will not transfer or move...no way....i like where we are at...i am sure u have already visited the address of 926 Birch ave...we went thru alot of red-tape..faxing here/phone calls there...it was an experience...hopefully we will be ok and made the right decision to buy...that way come taxes next year we will do even better....i know u have been watching all of us every second of everyday...making sure we make the right decisions, not getting in trouble, etc...we feel your presence all the time...i sometimes see things when i am by myself...like a quick-speedy shadow passing in our house...i just laugh saying to myself...oooohhhh it's daddy looking over my house....thank u daddy.....
by the way u are prob asking urself what does "Buon pomeriggio papà, sono io Christine ....mean....well i am learning Italian.....it's fun....u are prob asking urself "why"...well Moe & i are planning a trip to visit Italy next year....wanna come with us...i will carry u in my pocket ok.. that way u can travel with us for free....
well daddy i just wanted to chat with ya and tell ya what's been going on with us so until next entry...don't worry we are all doing well down here...missing you alot though...i love you.......SEMPER FI!!!!!!!
Hi daddy. I miss you. I haven't been feeling good lately. Can you help me feel better. I think about you every day, wondering what you're doing up there. But I know you're busy watching over all of us, especially your apos, Mig and Emma Jade.
:) I love and miss you
Hi daddy. I miss you so much. Have u see Emma???? She keeps looking at my arm (your tattoo) and she touches it all the time. I know thats her way of saying she sees you watching over her. thank you.
We all miss you dad, and we love you so so so much. :)
Hi there its 1944 hours july 21...guess where we are at...yes at kooyas celebrating both our birthdays with the usual crowd..we have lots of food..my wish was that you were here with us...I am sure you were but for us to see you would have been the hi lite of our day...we just wanted to tell you what we did to celebrate . Hope u are doing good up there...
Well daddy...until next time ok we loce and miss you.. SEMPER FI.....
Hi papa. . Miss you. Kuya and I saw you yesterday outside by the door. Thank you for visiting us. :)
Did you see your granddaughter? She's getting so big now!!!
I love u daddy and I miss you.
*******HAPPY 4TH OF JULY*******
it's me again with another entry....we are all here at kooya's having a small get together to celebrate another patriotic day...I know you are here with us.... (emma, vivian, pusa, mommy, migz, donny, moe, john...wade..kooya's friend...webare getting ready to eat....join us...we cooked your favorites....
So how are you and grandpa luis celebrating today? Hopefully you and everyone else are doing ok...like we are...well dad...until next entry....weblove and miss you......SEMPER FI!!!!!!!
*****HAPPY FATHER'S DAY******
it's me christine....an entry on 6-16-13 @1303 hours Sunday...how are you doing? hope your celebrating this special day with your brother's up there...telling stories from back on the day when we all got together wherever and just ate all day....those were good times...today we would have spoiled you with gifts...remember those days...they were lots of fun...it was so funny to see you put presents aside...you always looked for those envelopes we handed you with money inside...then you take off to the stores with mom and come back with goodies...we miss those times...
well daddy, i won't hold u up, i know u want to get back to your celebrating with your friends up there...please tell unces, grandpas, grandmas that i said hello!!!!
i love and miss you so much.......SEMPER FI!!!!!
good evening again it's me x-tine @2055hours...how are u doing today that its happy memorial day...i am so proud to be a daughter of a serviceman who helped keep our freedom...and was proud of his country and who was a MARINE!!!!!!
well papa, moe & i went on a party bus to oakland to see sf giants play against A's...well frisco lost but i tell u what, one of the sf giants team member Andres Torres threw a ball at out side and moe caught it, how cool is that...so now we have an official baseball used in the major leagues....i just thought i'd share that with u...also we got back safely...moe is passed out right now and tired...also yesterday we went to walk on the marina beack to seaside started from boonas house...we both walked on the sand for about 4hrs, we are both sore on our legs but it was good exercise...we will do that again sunday, starting from vivian's work all the way to the wharf...then gonna eat clam chowder...wanna join us...well daddy i will continue again soon...i love and miss u....SEMPER FI........
hi papa its me again at 2139hours may 15th 2013..i just got home about 30 min ago from fresno with migz..he took the physical fitness agility test......HE PASSED!!!!
his next step is on june 13th to take the written test/physcological written test in fresno again...
daddy, i wanted to thank you for helping migz pass the hard part of the process, i knew you were right along his side when he ran the course....as i watched him, i almost cried that he went through it all without stopping, i know he has never done that type of agility before but he did it....he was so happy, so is everyone else....all the training kooya helped him on paid off.....we are all proud and happy for migz...
well daddy its getting late now so i will do another entry soon ok....i love and miss you soooooo much.....SEMPER FI!!
Happy 64th birthday daddy.....moe and I just left kooya's house...we helped celebrate your birthday with mommy..migz..emma..beb..boona..john.
Emil..mike...we had ur favorite foods....we would have spoiled u with presents..u would have liked it..
Oh yeah its now 2121hours passing Gonzales...so I just wanted to wish u again
a very happy birthday. ...we all love and miss u very much......SEMPER FI........
I know i havent made an entry in a while, but we've been busy with the move and all... Now we are closer to Emma!!! She's so smart and strong. She's really a good baby, like Mig.
I talk to you EVERY NIGHT before i go to bed, so you know what i ask every night :)
I love you, daddy
Good evening, it's me Christine...@1940hours thursday may 9, 2013...a month from my last entry.....how are you doing nowadays from your busy schedule looking over & protecting us from danger wherever we are and what ever we do....i know its a lot to do with 4 kids, 2 grand kids and a wife...but as u know we all appreciate every moment...
anyways, i have been off since monday due to the flu that i caught prob friday afternoon at work, i went to the doctors and i was put off work the rest of this week, i just went back to work 2 weeks ago and now i got sick, go figure i got the flu shot months ago, behold i got sick, oh well...
Moe & i are watching the Giants vs Braves game @ home...we will be going on a party bus memorial day in frisco to watch giants play oakland A's...also mommy will be coming back from PI saturday arriving sfo @1940 china airlines....daddy plz watch over her flight and her journey that she arrives safely.....
this coming monday will be your 64th birthday....boona &emil will be testing for the physical in fresno that day then on may 15th migz will test also...during those days dadd plz help them get thru the test so they can work with kooya & i, that would be neat don't ya think....
well papa, i will do another entry on ur biirthday so have fun up there and tell all that we said "hi"....i love & miss u so much..........SEMPER FI.......
Hi there handsome daddy...how are you doing? it's me christine with another entry on 4-9-13 @1950...moe & i are watching the SF GIANTS vs Rockies...so far rockies are up by 3...moe not too happy right now...oh well..
you know what dad, i have been on vacation since 4-1 and i go back monday 4-15...it's strange that i am on break...i don't like vacations because i end up spending money...
oh yeah...i meant to tell you that moe and i got out taxes done and we did pretty good...our tax lady said that we need to buy another house this year or else we will pay next year..i was like "darn"...so moe and i are in the market to looking..and the refund we are getting back we are looking into getting floors for the house..get rid of the carpets...we will see and get some ideas....
I also have great news for you...last month boona,mig,emil applied for cdc...they all got accepted to take the physical test boona,emil will be on your birthday,migs will be may 15...papa if you can please help them pass all the way so they can work with me and kooya...we are all excited for them...also many of kooya's friends applied and they all got accepted also...great news huh!!!!!
ok dad, i will continue next time again ok so take care of yourself, we miss you soo dearly....i love u.....SEMPER FI!!!!
hello there today is 3-26-13 @2110hours tuesday...how are u doing? hope all is swell up there now that it's spring time..Easter is sunday..are u gonna hide eggs from ur brothers, or play tricks on them....hmmm i wonder...i am sure u will have fun...
It's been 3weeks since my last entry...i have been working lots of overtime these last couple weeks and this double pay period so far i have 136hours...wow that's gonna be a nice check...i will save up for my next corvette either the 2016 Z06 or the 2017 sting-ray...what do u think...i bet ur wondering what i will do with the one i have now...keep it of course...remember i am a collector....
also i wanted to let u know that all of us here are doing good..we always think of u...although we don't get a chance all the time to send u an entry on ur guest book, you already know how much we miss u....it still breaks my heart knowing that u are not here with us but God has called you home for a reason...it will take a long while for my heart to heal....well papa it's getting late so until next entry ok...i love u so much......SEMPER FI.....
I wanted to type to you after the Chowder Cookoff... but I was too tired.
Although our team didn't win, I KNOW that it was our table placement, because everyone that tasted the chowder said it was THE BEST and that the chowders on the "other side" were bland and tasteless! So I figured it was our table placement. It's ok though. In my heart we won. :) Thank you again for being there. I know you were there pushing the tasters to our table. :)
Guess what!!! Yeah, you already know. Thank you for answering my prayers asking for your assistance... Even though I can't see you, I know you are always with us.
Emma has a little cold papa. Can you make her better soon. We don't like it when she is sick.
I love you daddy.
hi daddy, it's me ansisit again. today is 3-3-13 @2010hours sunday, just wondering what you are doing at this time?
Well to start off, i wanted to say thank you for watching over me and my partner urzua yesterday & today guiding our trip to Pelican Bay in Crescent City..we did a transport, it was a drop off & we came back empty...it's always good coming back from a long trip with no 10-15 aboard...
Guess what u are gonna laugh at me for telling u that i finally got on the golden gate bridge..yes took me 43 years to get on it...how awesome it was, i was in awwwwww when i got on it, my partner was laughing at me...of course i took pictures of it...also on our way back i took pictures of elks, they were huge...
also how sweet it is when all the time it took from saturday coming back today was all overtime total 22hours which added an extra $1,200 to my double payperiod, tomorrow starts the 2nd double pay-period month, i am bankin' all the benjies...how awesome is that....u would be smiling rite about now on all the overtime hours i have ...oh yeah i worked straight 7-days and then start another week 2morrow so that means i won't be off till saturday..if it doesn't rain i will cruise the vette...
ok daddy, i will leave room for next entry, i will go iron my uniform...i love & miss you sooo much....SMPER FI!!!!!
I love u and I miss u very very very much. I'd write something longer, but I'm sure ate Christine wants to do that, plus my back is killing me.
I love you.
We are all here in Santa Cruz, me, john, the boys, ninang, mom, miggie, baluga, elmo and Emma.... Yes, i conjured up the courage to enter the clam chowder cook off. Please watch over us, and a little "magic" wont hurt :) hehehehe
i miss u a ton daddy. :)
Til next time,
I love you...
hi..it's me xtine..how are u..it about 2036hours on 2-20-13..had a very early start to work today 0300 to go to bakersfield..came back at 1630...it was a good, fun day...
well tomorrow i will be going to san diego on an overnite transport with 5 other officers...i know we ask alot of u all the time..please help guide our transport safely to rjd..we will be coming back friday...i will let u know when we get back how my trip was...i have never been to san diego, i heard it's a really nice place...well gotta go mimi's..until next time daddy...i love and miss u.....SEMPER FI!!!!
Good evening..it's 1844hrs 2-17-13 saturday...moe & i just ate burger king...for dinner...for dessert..i am eating home made fudge that kooya brought over earlier today before he went back home from LA...visited mike & his family..he planned on going to disneyland with mike's family but mike's wife was sick so they stayed home instead...kooya left wednesday and just came back today...mig'z & mommy house sat kooya's house...
So papa how was your valentine's day up there...have u seen uncle Toy up there yet?....how are you doing now aday's? as for us here...we are doing ok....for me though there is never a day that i don't think about u....also i am almost coming up on my 6 years with cdcr i want sooo much for u to be here when the day comes....i am sure u will be....
as u know daddy i have been working alot lately again...our unit will be using the glok .40mm weapon soon and i have one assigned to me...it's so awesome shooting it...can't wait...woohooooo.....well until next entry daddy...i love and miss u sooooo much....SEMPER FI!!!!!!!
I dunno what happened to my message, but hi daddy. I miss u. As you already know, uncle story passed away earlier today. Please wait for him by the gates, and show him around up there. Also I ask that you please help Auntie Luming, Kuya Rodel, Kuya Randy and Pong cope with the loss of uncle toy.
Everything is good down here, but we are all missing you. The other day, John was singing "it's now or never"... You used to always sing that song. It made me laugh, cause I know you we're here in the house, especially cause the puppies kept staring at the living room.
It's bed time now daddy, I been getting nightmares lately. Can you please shoo the, away. Thank you Papa.
I love you, always keep us safe, especially Emma Jade.
Good morning!!! how are you doing? today is 1-27-13..Emma is 4months old today...she will get another cake with candle to celebrate..it's now 0857hours on sunday.
yesterday buna & i went to visit kooya,mommy,migs @kooya's house to cook clam chowder, it was good..u would have liked it.
mommy arrived safely thursday from PI, me,migz & kooya picked her up @sfo,then spent the nite @kooya's house, mommy saw kooya's dog George, she said he is big!!!!
oh yeah, beb & emma got the flu, it's getting everyone down here, i am sure no one gets sick up there..so how is everyone doing there? we talk about you up there all the time...time is not the same when you all are not here and of course we miss each and everyone of you, at least ya'll are in a much better place!!!!
well papa until my next entry..by the way sunday 2-3-12 is superbowl sf 49ers vs ravens...u know me i am going for ravens and i hope they win....we will be at a co-workers house playing games and entering raffels that involve $$$..papa can u help me win them all..i will share with pusa promise!!!! i love you so much...SEMPER FI!!!
p.s i am thinking of buying the new stingray corvette either 2014 or 2015, it's wickedly-sick looking...you would like it and if i did get one, i will get the same color as your sting-ray race midnight blue metallic 7spd......help me get it ok...
Good evening papa it's me again...and HAPPY NEW YEAR IT'S 2013!!!!!! another entry @1941 hours 1-1-2013, we are off today & guess what, i played hookie from work monday, the last day of the year...even my best friend @ work when i text him said "it's about time"...he knows i hardly ever call in so this time, i did...hehehe
So how is ur new year so far...yesterday moe & i celebrated our 12yr anniversary with kooya @ bj's..then we went to best buys, i traded my new ipad for a samsung galaxy tablet 10.2, it's way better than the ipad and its couple hundred $$$ cheaper...then we went to petsmart, store was closed,then we ended up at kooya's..we left early so he can sleep..moe & i stayed up till midnite...so we can open the door to let the good lord into our home, opened up our wallets, then closed it..it's a yearly tradition i do that mommy tought me when i was a tiny tot...and it works...i just thot i'd share with u what we did, hope u had a blast urself up there..well papa until my next entry..i really miss u, i never stop loving u...take care....SEMPER FI !!!!!
Merry Xmas to u...its 12/25/12 @2027 hours..moe & i just came back from madera visited his family members...it was fun, lots of rain though from the time we left madera til we got to salinas...
We celebrated our xmas party saturday at kooya's house with exchange gifts & white elephant gag gifts, it was so fun, i won $63 from playing l-c-r...dice game...we all gave each other good gifts,i hope u had a good xmas up there with our loved ones who are with u...
I wanted to let u know that santa moe gave me for xmas a new samsung galaxy III s phone, a new ipad..i got him a new ball cap sf giants 2012 world champion had along with an authentic jersey (real) with 2012 patches and world champion patches on each shoulder...we all wished u were with us so we could have given u lots of gifts too....i am sure u were watching us open our presents and laughed at our white elephant gag gifts to each other...i know u were...
well papa next holiday coming up is new years, i hope 2013 will be a better year for us all, with your help and guidance towards us your kids, mommy, grandkids, we will all be ok....until next entry daddy, i really miss you...
oh yeah i almost forgot to tell u kooya got a new dog an english mastif (de' bourdough) or how ever its spelled...his name given to him by the prev owner is George but i changed it to Gibbs...he is only 2yrs old tan color, masive head, hig body..weighs 120 lbs already..he is bigger than Tigger...kooya loves his new dog...
ok papa until next time again...i love u so much....SEMPER FI......
hello there...it's me christine ur 1st born...adding another entry on 12-21-12 @1954 hours...letting you know that we have not forgotten your special day 43 years ago today that u and mommy were married...wanting to wish u HAPPY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!!! it may seem as though awkward if others read this but i don't care what they think....its ur special day...and not to say i was born 42 yrs earlier at only 7months....i hope u are happy up there...don't worry mommy didn't forget this day as it will always stay with her...she misses u dearly, we all do...
Also today was marked as the "END OF THE WORLD" predicted by the mayan calendar...so far at 2000 hours we are still here...of course we are not mayans to say the least...i wonder what the next hype will be about..people just think weird...
Daddy..cece is not feeling well, we don't know what's wrong with her...i ask papa plz cure her...make her feel better...she is not the same hyper dog these last couple days and i am worried..papa plz don't let her leave me she has to stay with me...papa help her ok...
Moe and i are gonna finish our shopping list only 5 more gifts to buy...just curious how the stores are gonna be and of course i will be packin' cause there are crazy folks out there...while we shop papa keep us safe if u can ok..well until next entry daddy...i love and miss u so much.....SEMPER FI!!!!!
Hi daddy...how are u doing today & the other days since my last entry on 11-22-12...hope all is good, getting cold down here as u already know..ur in a warm , cozy place...having the time of ur life with grandma, grandpa, ur comare' cion...hehehe
Well today marks ur 13 month anniversary!!! There is not a day or time that i don't think about u...having u in my mind keeps me going to the rite path...work is great still doing overtime which is sometimes a must, someone's got to do it huh...
only 12 more days til' xmas & we have not put up any lites or tree...not in the rite mood setting for xmas again...because u are not here to share that upcoming day with us ur family...i am sure us down here will make the best of it & be happy that to say that u and mommy taught us well....so far we baught presents for everyone and i hope they like it....i hope moe will like his also...hehehe
I work early again tomorrow going in at 0430 and i get off early 1230, i will have the whole day, i may as well just wrap the rest of the gifts...well until next entry again papa, i miss u sooooo much.......i love u!!!!!! SEMPER FI!!!!!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO U UP THERE...it's me again christine..@8010hours on 11-22-12...moe & i just got home from Chad's house..we had lots of yummy foods, prime rib (ur fav)..corn..turkey, potato au gratin, pumpkin cheesecake,red velvet cake, candied yam, garlic bread...it was just 6 of us, (emma,migz,beb,kooya,moe,me)...we had fun, how ever it wasn't the same with out u...mommy,pusa,john are in caturay, we made the best of it though...next holiday is christmas, we will see what we can do during that day ok...also i wanted to thank u for watching, guiding boona and john's journey all the way home safely...
Oh yeah dad did u know it's the MARINE CORP's 237th birthday....i did....until next time papa...i love u always!!!! SEMPER FI..........
Hi daddy, we all miss you, and in a few days we will be visiting your final resting place. I will always keep you in my mind (as you already know), and please dont be mad at me with all these tattoos im getting. Aside from just getting them just to get them, its my way of coping. I want to always wake up and know that if one day the pictures we have are somehow ruined or lost or whatever, i will always have the picture of you on my arm. Im gonna start on my left arm when my right one is done, with the other half of you and mommy's wedding picture. I will always love you papa, and i will always turn to you when i need guidance.
hi, it's christine..typing u an entry on 11-14-12 @1704hours..how are you doing now adays? As for me, i am doing ok, just living day to day, never stop thinking about you up there, missing you more and more as time goes on...u know how it is...
Well 11-13-12 was your 1 yr anniversary that u went home to God..i still remember the time at the hospital the exact time u were called to "GO HOME"..that time was 2240hours..we all knew who was there to see u leave..that u were no longer in pain or suffering on whatever u felt inside...it was hard for us to accept even today...but we knew you were gonna be taken care off and yes u wanted "TO GO HOME"....
Last nite we had a little get together at kooya's house in ur honor and served ur favorite foods to offer to u..i hope u had a chance to eat them...it was a somber moment for us...me,moe,kooya,boona,beb,john,emma, emil. We didn't go home till almost 10pm...also Mommy did padasal for u in PI as well i am sure u know that already.....
So dad, looks like this guestbook will go offline on 11-17-12 so i will wait for this entry to be posted then purchase it as a keepsake momentum, i will ask pusa , beb, and kooya if they want too as well for their own, if not i will have one for myself....so as always reminding you to always not worry about us here, we all know that u will continue to watch over us no matter where we are or what we do, in-time we will all see each other again....will never forget u daddy.........SEMPER FI!!!!!!
It's been almost a year since your presence has left us. The days have gone by, but your memory will live with us FOREVER. You are our daddy, and you forever will be.
Have you seen Emma??? She's so pretty isn't she! I call her Ibi Pusa. "Ibi" because her initials are E.B.C., so her first two initials are E.B. thats why i call her "Ibi" and i call her Pusa, cause she always has dried milk on her face like a cat, plus, you gave ME that name. So i passed it on to Emma. Ibi Pusa. hehehe
I know she was sent down by you daddy, and we all thank you for that. Thank you for blessing us with Emma, and thank you for blessing Kuya with his house.
Please always watch over us papa. we miss you.
I love you
Hi..it's me your 1st born..@1951hours 10-13-12..mommy & i are watching Shawshank Redemption..she watched some of it at Emma's house with Migz but didn't finish it...
Well today marks your 11mo that God called u to live with him..so far it has not been easy to comprehend...day by day...my meaning towards life gets emptier & emptier..i feel as if depression comes over me ...i would rather work longer hours..or work everyday if i had to just to not be at home...i have not been in my best behavior towards Moe & it's not fair to him that i have this behavior towards life...there are some days when i don't care about anything or anyone...i suppose that's what depression is...what's been bugging me is this vision i have had in my mind for months that i simply can't erase..it stays with me always even when i am at work..when i wake up in morning its there..when i go to sleep it's there..alot of the times when i wake up in the middle of the night my mind wonders about this vision, then i can't go back to sleep the rest of the night, i end up listening to music till it's time for me to get up...i don't know if this vision will ever go away...
So daddy, i hope ur doing good up there...luckily u have not worries...we really miss u a lot down here...until next entry....SEMPER FI!!!!
Hi Papa! It's me ur granddaughter Emma Jade. Pls watch over me always , keep me safe & healthy. Luv u
hi there handsome papa, its me xtine...at 1907 hours 10-8-12...how are you doing? hope all is good there...of course it is..nothing to worry about up there...well its official kuya move to his new house yesterday, i was sad ...at the same time though i was proud of him...i told him "GET OUTTA MY ROOM"....as u know i let him take ur flag and urn its in a nice place close to the fire place high above so u wont be cold in da winter...his house is nice huh...papa i ask that u watch over him and his house daily, i know he will be fine but u know i am like a parent watching over my siblings and niece and nephew...so how do u like Emma..she's cute..all she does is sleep...she's tor-og....
well daddy, i will be turning in soon, i work at 0400 tomorrow so until next entry ok, i miss u so much......SEMPER FI!!!!!!!
Guess what??? yup, you already know... your grand daughter Emma is here! Emma Bala Capili. Some is so cute papa! Please watch over baby Emma Every day, keep her safe as well as all of us. There is so much crime everywhere now daddy. Please keep us safe and guide us away from crime and danger.
I love you and miss you so much daddy. I'm gonna visit your resting place soon, and show John our home town :)
Also please watch over our friend in the hospital (you know who, I mentioned him in my prayers). Please heal him.
Good night Papa
hello there, it's ansisit..today i 9-24-12 @1929hours, kooya will be home soon...
how r u papa, it's been a while since i put an entry into your page, as u know it was pusa's 34 birthday and we went to Gianni's, we ate lots of pizza and for dessert we walked over to get some yogurt down at canary row, my flavor was TART with bits of pine apple and kiwi to make it more sour...
u know dad, mommy is now at beb's due to the fact that ur grand-daughter will be delivered by 10-2-12 @ CHOMP...pray for beb that she has a succesfull birth and that Emma is healty..mommy wanted to move to beb's to help out and bond with emma before she goes back to PI...
oh yeah by now i am sure u know that kooya bot a house in salinas, he is so happy..as a proud home owner....we are all happy for him...
also i wanted to tell u that these past couple months i have been feeling depressed and lost...lots of things have been going thru my head that i cant sleep or eat, hard to concentrate at work, but i get the job done...its been really hard for me, at times i get sooo angry that my anger bottles up inside that i don't know how to let it out or even let it out......i have lost weight over it as well...i am sure it will pass just don't know when.....
well daddy, say hello to all up there, don't worry about me...i will deal with what i am going thru in time...i love and miss u soooo much.....SEMPER FI!!!!!!!!
good evening there...its 1924hours on 8-27-12 on Monday..i work early again...i like it...early bird is me...hehehe.
how have u been daddy, it looks like all the entries i put since july has not showed up...not good...i hope u didn't think i forgot about u...no way will i ever do such a thing...
all of us here are doing good, viv will pultit Emma soon oct 2nd is the date, we are all sooo excited, i hope u will help viv give a successful birth and that Emma is healthy...
well kooya got a notice of lay-off on the 2nd wave..daddy please help kooya stay at our work, i don't want him to get laid-off or be transferred, i wanna be able to keep an eye on him for his safety...i know u will help kooya stay and not get laid-off!!!!!
well papa this is it for now, i really miss u...take care of yourself and say hi to everyone up there...i love u.....SEMPER FI!!!!!!
I miss you so much.
It's been a while since I made an entry, but it doesn't mean I don't think of you. You're in my thoughts every day. I love you Papa and I miss you so so so much.
hi papa...its Friday woooohoooo....@2032hours..we are watching family fued...it's funny....i had a good week at work althought it was a holiday wednesday we had a short work week..4th of july moe and i spent the day at his cousin's house and had a bbq..we also watched fireworks before we left their house..while we were driving home we saw lots of fireworks light up the sky...i hope you and your friends had your own fireworks up there...i remember when we were all living in seaside every year you always fired your bb gun towards the sky...you were always patriotic of course you were a Marine....and will always be a Marine....well mommy will be coming home from her trip from San Diego saturday 7-7 at 1930...i will ask Migz to pick her up..also mommy plans on spending a couple days with Beb....that will be nice so beb wont get mad that i don't share mommy....hehehehehehe...i don't have any plans tomorrow but u know me...the Vette may wanna run tomorrow....well papa...i just thought i'd drop u a line...i love and miss you so much....SEMPER FI!!!!!
Hi there Father....today is 6-29-12 @1815hours...how are you doing up there? hope your enjoying the cool weather from above..down here it gets warm as the days go by because summer started 9 days ago...
Mommy is in San Diego to visit her friends..she flew out this morning out f monterey airport on alaskan airline..i saw the plane and it had 2 big propellars and when she boarded, she walked outside the holding area with other passengers..not like the international airports where we walk inside a tunnel to get into the plane..she said she had fun and the ride was not scary, she described it as riding inside of a helicopter, they saw the view from down below and they arrived 25 minutes early, i was glad to hear she made it safely..i thank you and Jesus for guiding her flight safely to her designated area..if u can please watch over her during her stay with her friends...so i won't worry..
The rest of here are all doing ok just taking it day by day, work here work there....
I am off today on a friday because last saturday i volunteered for 2nd annual family day and i used today as a hookie day without using any of my vac,hol,sick, etc...so after i dropped off mommy, i went home cleaned out the Vette, invited Migz to have lunch with moe &i at Saritas in Marina..moe couldn't make it so it was just migz and i..then i went back to Migz house to hang out, i planned to take migz for a tide in the Vette to dmsc but i fell asleep, we will cruise the Vette next time...then i came home...it was funny cruising the car...Migz drives the scion now and he is driving it well and at the same time cautious..
Well dad this is all for now, oh by the way the SF Giants are now in 1st place in the National league, they are doing well also, i hope they keep it up so they can go to the world series again.....until next time daddy, i love and miss you so much.......SEMPER FI!!!!!
~Happy Fathers Day~..it's about 2127hours on Sunday..hope you are doing well..also tell grandpa i said happy fathers day as well and also to my uncles Turning and Joe..
Today daddy we made the best of Fathers day..it felf awkward to me that you are not here to get spoiled by us kids...i am sure you made the best of it yourself up there..
Kooya got his vacation for oct 22 so he will take mommy back home..he will stay in PI for 2wks...moe and i will go in jan or feb 2013 while pusa and john will go nov to dec...that way mommy won't get too overwhelmed...and that way we can watch each others house here..oh yeah manong albert called this morning telling mommy that lorna's dad passed away last night..you prob already knew that...and also remember rodney king..the guy who got beat up by the LA cops because of a riot..he died this morning at around 0530 in a swimming pool.
well papa that's all for now..so i hope you had a blessed fathers day today...i really miss you....will always love you...until next time.......SEMPER FI!!!!!!
Just wanted to let you know that I know you've been at our house. Thank you for visiting us. I know you've been visiting because Hachi keeps staring into the dark and when I call his name, he doesn't even look at me. I YELL his name and he STILL doesn't pay attention. He just stares into the dark. so finally when I come close to him, THEN he looks at me, and he looks back to where he was staring at. If only Hachi could talk, he would say "Mommy, look. Grampa is over there." :)
It's been 7 months since you left us, but it still feels like yesterday. And every day, I miss you.
I love you Daddy.
hi there handsome man..how are you? today is 6-13-12 at 2159hours, just saw Matt Cain the pitcher for SF Giants..he threw a perfect game, a no hitter...it was neat...
So papa today is your 7th month since you went home to God, a celebration of your life...i had a moment at work today that i teared up thinking about all the times we spent with you, how you were always there for us since the day we were born, just to mention a few...now every month since the day you left us is a celebration of your life...we all miss you very much daddy...this coming sunday will be Father's day, i wonder how that day will feel for us here knowing you are up there when you should be here with us getting spoiled...i am sure God will do something special for you and all the father's up there...so just wanted to drop you a line again to say hello....i love you DADDY until next entry.......SEMPER FI!!!!!!!!!!
It's Thursday 6-7-12 @1933..i work early again tomorrow then prob getting off late again..the usual Friday routine.
Well Mommy & Migz came home safely Monday at 1920 hours in frisco...me..chad..beb..emma..emile picked them up..mommy came home to soledad..mig went home to his mom's...we stopped in gilroy denny's to eat...we all had fun and we all thanked you for guiding their flight safely back home...mommy will be going back end of October so she can lite you a candle for All Saints Day....Albert said he will get Migz a job in Pebble Beach...lets hope he gets hired asap so he can start saving money to go back home...
We all have been doing fine down here...we are always thinking about you, what u are doing up there...we never stop thinking of you..people say we should not think of you so much so you can rest..that's people in PI talking...for us here that will never happen...
So dad, always take care of yourself...come visit us sometime ok...until next time...i love and miss you soooooo much.........SEMPER FI!!!!!!!
Tomorrow is sister day. I'm gonna get my eyelashes filled and we are gonna have breakfast... Me, ate Chris and baluga and Emil and Emma. You should see my lashes daddy!!! They're pretty long!!!!! Yes, they cost a lot :)
The puppies all got neutered and microchipped. They're doing good. You always see them playing.
Mommy and mig are almost coming back. I hope mommy brings you to visit us.
I'm gonna lay down now daddy. I love you.
Happy Memorial Day!!!! it's 05-28-12 @0903 hours, it's a national holiday for us down here, are ya'll celebrating this holiday up there with the rest of the military men & women who gave the ultimate sacrifice for our freedom...if you can please tell them we said thank you...
Well yesterday we attended the sjvcm ceremony..it was nice...the branch that was honored were the US Air Force, lots were honored on the 21st celebration at the cemetary...i thought so much about you that i cried, the weather was nice..then after we visited Moe's dad's site...now i know what it's like to be a part of a ceremony to honor our military families....well we will be heading out soon back home..but first we will go to the gym, do our little workout then head home because i work at 0400..u know me the early bird so i will later on continue my many entries ok daddy...i love and miss you very much.......
Good morning it's Sunday 5-27-12 @0701..yup i am awake early..hope your doing swell up there enjoying the view from up above watching over us as we live our day to day lives just wondering what your up to these days...
Moe & i are here in los banos visiting his mom, we arrived here yesterday afternoon, we also came to help celebrate memorial day at san Joaquin cemetery, i have never attended a memorial service before this will be my 1st time so i will let you know how it went...you know if you would have wanted to be buried in a cemetery, we would visit your resting place and put flowers, balloons, US flag, the works however what you wanted was fine with us...
Mommy & migz will be home next monday so please for their remaining week back home continue to watch over them, also when they fly, guide their journey all the way home ok papa...
Well i will end my entry until next time again...remember daddy i love you sooooo much & i miss you, please say hi to all up there and wish Grandpa a Happy memorial day as well....SEMPER FI!!!!!!
~CORVETTE BABY X~TINE~
I just wanted to tell you that I LOVE YOU.
Good evening Papa,
It's 5-21-12 @2039, kooya got home a little bit ago, moe & i got the oil change for the truck, then went to costco and spent about $325...that's alot if u ask me..we bought a lot of meat though, no sweets, we have cut down on sweets..
Well papa yesterday moe & i went to see the Giants game in frisco, we had a good time..although the cancer survivors were given honorable mentions, i teared up when i looked up at the sky when u crossed my mind, even though u didn't have cancer, it's the thought of u being gone...it was hard...anyways the Giants won..game shut-out....
Papa in 2 months it will be my 42nd birthday, i don't know till that day comes if i will be sad or happy, u will know before i do i am sure....all i know is that i miss you so much, i just thought i'd tell u again...until next entry daddy.....SEMPER FI!!!!!!
Good Morning papa,
how was your day up there in Heaven for your birthday? Did you give Grandma Romana a hard time? I know you like to play jokes so I'm sure you played a few up there... not just on Grandma, but also to all of our uncles and aunties.
Your birthday was good. we had a lot of food. I was hoping that at night you would have showed up, or let us smell your scent, but you didnt. Well, maybe you did, because the puppies kept staring into the dark, standing still. and when I asked them what they were looking at, they would look at me, look in the dark, and just stare. I'm sure Hachi told them not to bark cause he said "That's grandpa. He's not a stranger so don't bark." :)
I LOVE YOU DADDY.
~~~~~~ H A P P Y 63RD B I R T H D A Y D A D D Y ~~~~~
Good evening papa,
It's your birthday today!!!!! I just came home from pusa's house, i was there almost all day helping her cook your favorite foods...we had tri-tip..spare-ribs, veggies, coconut tres leches cake..bbq chicken...it was just us...kooya went to work at 1200 i am waiting for him...i am typing this entry @2032 on 5-13-12...moe went to los banos to visit his mom..he is not yet home either...cece & zoey is inside the house with me...bozz has not returned since he left 4-13-12 ...viv dropped me off...she is 5mo now, we got a chance to meet your grand dayghter Emma & we were thinking of nick-names for her...we were wondering what nick-name you would have given her....
also papa today is your 6mo that you went home to grandma & grandpa....it's so hard for us to not see,hear,touch,or smell you...although others say that it gets easier as time goes by...well i dont think it will...we miss you so much daddy..i tear up everytime i am by myself...then when i think about that your in a better place, i feel comfort knowing you will always be with us...until next time papa........SEMPER FI!!!!!
how are you doing today, it's saturday 5-12-12 time is 2035, tomorrow is mother's day and also your special day, your birthday...pusa & i will celebrate your special day that you turn 63...kooya will be working & he knows that we will have a party for you...the celebration will be at pusa's house...beb, emil, john's mom maria,me, emma your grand-daughter will be there...we have your favorite foods to help you celebrate your day...if only you were still here with us...we would give you lots of money like we always did on your birthday...you have family up there to help you celebrate too....you all will have fun...we miss you so much daddy it's unbearable...but i know you are always watching over us....i will help pusa cook and prepare tomorrow so until next entry ok.....SEMPER FI!!!!!
i love you always papa
Your birthday is coming up... And your birthday is on mother's day...
I miss you a lot papa.
I love you.
hi there, its 1506 friday...i am home early finally..as u know i have been coming home late this past week on my transports..just waiting for 4pm so i can go to the gym with moe and work out..we are both doing good..mommy and migz will be coming back by 1st week of june to visit for a couple months we hope u don't mind...mommy will be staying here in our house, migz will be with beb..i am sure mommy will want to go places when she comes...hope u won't mind that too...also kooya went to visit his friend mike in LA for a couple days...i hope he told u...so far that's what's been going on with us...just taking it one day at a time...for sure we all miss you every day, not a day goes by we don't think of you..like yesterday my co-worker and were coming back from delano passing king city, i was looking at the highest mountains around us, me imagining what it's like to be in your shoes, having everlasting life, with nothing to worry about...i guess i won't know till i get there and be with you, until then i will stay here and watch over mommy, migz and my siblings.......write you later papa, i love and miss you very much.......SEMPER FI!!!!!
~xtine~ ur daughter
Hi daddy, I miss you. I think about you every day.
Daddy, the Father of a a friend of me and Roxanna's had passed away on the 11th. his name is Edmund Czaplak. He's a nice man Daddy. Just wanted you to meet him and show him the ropes. His wife will be waiting there for him at the gates, but I'm sure you all do.
I love you daddy.
TGIF!!!!!! hello papa, how r u doing, it's 1834, watching giants vs metz...went to work early today...it's good to get off early once in a while...its warm outside..i bet it's really cool where ur at..i miss the cold weather....hehehe
yesterday i mowed the back yard and i tell u what the green container for our lawn clippings was filled up just from the grass i cut from the back yard..that's a lot of grass...i am now waiting for the weather to cool off so i can water the grass...i don't like the sun on me
well so far its been a week today that Bozz went astray...no one has called the pound if they found him...i still don't know where he could be...i wonder if u have any idea where he went...well if u do will u help him find his way home..his sisters miss him a lot, especially me...
ok this is all for now till later again...i wanted to tell u that i miss u some much, i love u papa....SEMPER FI!!!!
hi it's me again...at 1753 4.13.12....today marks ur 5 months that u went home to God...yes friday the 13th...i went to work at 0130 and got home at 1600...long day..went to bakersfield...
I just wanted to let u know that Bozz is not here for some odd reason he ran astray..don't know where..i am very sad and hope u can help us find him or bring home home..i am also not feeling all that ok...went to bed last nite early with a sore throat, then woke up this morning with a hoarsed voice...it rained so much today it made our trip to bakersfield dangerous....
I miss bozz...papa please help me find him or just have him return home...i know he is cold and hungry....
well papa...that is all i can tell u rite now until next time...i love and miss u ....SEMPER FI!!!!
It's me Retz on Wednesday @1905...i just came home from the gym today..got a good workout...came home early..there is still plenty of sunlight outside...earlier though there were really dark rain clouds...saw a couple of lightning flashes and heard some thunder rumbles...its been a while since i heard those....were you running a muck up there...hehehehehe
Well as u know it will be vivian's birthday 4-12-12 she will be big 40...old lady huh...i know u want to be there to wish her a happy birthday...she will feel ur presense around her on her special day...please continue to watch over her where ever she goes, what ever she does...same goes for us too ok...also for mommy & migz back home...
ok papa..until next time...i love & miss u so much...i never stop thinking abut u....hugs and kisses to all up there....SEMPER FI!!!!!!!
Just thinking about you like always, before I sleep. I miss you so much, Daddy. Please continue to watch over all of us, and guide us to make the right decisions.
Good night Papa. Give everyone a hug for me ok.
I love you.
it's Easter Sunday....Happy Easter Daddy...Find lots of eggs for us...i love u....SEMPER FI!!!!
It's 1509..i am watching "A Bronx Tale"....i have never watched the beginning of the movie....although i have watched it many times towards the middle portion...hehehe
Moe & i are headed to los banos later...be back monday...i miss going to the gym last week...been on transports that gets me home late like always...also going in really early..u know how overtime is...
well moe & i got our taxes done last monday and we are getting $$$$ back....$9,681...not bad after we got our taxes done we went to BJ's...a new restaurant that opened in salinas across from the mall....
so how have u been doing along with everyone there...hope u and everyone there is doing good...i miss u all so much...most of all i think of u every day...as u know before i go to work while i am warming up the car or truck i say good morning to u and Jesus...i know u both hear me because i am always safe where ever i go...thank u for always keeping me away from harms way...
well daddy till next time...i love and miss u so much...SEMPER FI!!!!!
I love you and miss you Daddy. I think of you every day.
Hi there handsome papa...how are u doing? time is now 2010, moe & i are watching tv...it rained hard today...the dogs have been inside almost all day...they like being inside the house..
well as u know the biggest jackpot in history was the $640 mega million...4 people won it all out of state...lucky people...as u know we all tried here...hopefully we can win something...even the super lotto plus...can u help us pick the #'s papa...i know u will...
it's saturday, moe didn't feel like going to the gym to work out , the class was 90 min...i guess he needed to rest because we have been going at it faithfully 3 times a week so i think missing 1 day won't hurt....
i never stop thinking of u papa...my idea was that if i would have won the jackpot was to build a moselium in PI so i can put u & all of our family members that have passed and buried there together in another area, then i would give 10% to a catholic church, then give $20 million to mommy, $15 million each to my siblings,$10 million to migz, $5 million to my aunties in caturay...good idea huh!!!
ok papa, i will call mommy now so until my next entry...i love and miss u so much....SEMPER FI!!!!!!
It's been a while since I made an entry, but I talk to you every night before I sleep, and I talk to you on my way to work, and on my way home. When you were still here with us, I know I didn't tell you often, but I love you very much. We may have not seen eye to eye all the time, and
we may have had our father-daughter spats, but regardless, you are the best daddy ever.
Me, roxy and bossman each pitched in $5 for lotto tickets yesterday and agreed to split the money 3 ways of we win. Don't worry papa, if we win, I will take care of everyone here. I wish you could be here to share our riches, cause I'd buy you ANYTHING and EVERYTHING you want.
I have tummy ache papa. And it sounds like a tornado outside! Wind is blowing like crazy.
Ok papa, I love you. Keep us all safe.
Always your sweetgard,
good evening..it's wednesday 3-21-12 @2000, moe & i just ate dinner, cat fish nuggets cooked like neck bone soup with the napa cabbage, sampaloc powder from PI..it was left overs from last nite....we also went to the gym to work out..so far we both are enjoying each session...
Well...in 4 months to this day i turn 42..getting a year older..but age is just a number...i am not worried about my age, i just wished you will be here on that day or at least i can smell u...that would be a great gift....
also we have been playing the lotto (mega million) and the estimated jackpot this friday 3-23-12 is $290 million...daddy would you please help us win by guiding our hands to pick the right # to match all 6 ...will u help us daddy.....
we will be sleeping soon so u take good care of ur self..please say hellp to all our relatives u there for us ok...i love and miss u so much daddy......SEMPER FI!!!!!!!
hi again, it's thursday 3-15-12 @1913, moe & i are watching the pre-season Giant's game that just started, they are playing mariners in seattle, i cooked spaghetti for dinner.
Well i put an entry on 3-13, 3-14, 3-15 and none of them posted, i don't know why but it's getting me mad..i hope this entry will post this time..
i will be going to work early again, moe said i have to sleep early so i will check on u again when i get a chance, but tomorrow i will be home late...you know how friday's are for me...hehehe.....overtime.....i love u papa...SEMPER FI!!!
It's me again ur daughter Chris, typing another entry on 3-13-12 @1920 hours, me moe, kooya just ate dinner..tri-tip that kooya cooked, your favorite.
Today marks your 4 months that God called u home to live with him in a worry free place full of angels, love, trust...hope ur doing ok.
We miss u so much papa, it hasn't been easy, we all think of u daily...remembering all the sacrifices u did for us, what u taught us, what u gave us...YOUR FAMILY...no one can ever take that away from us...we are always proud to call u ...OUR DAD!!!
oh yeah...kooya came home from mike's house last nite and he gave moe & i a bottle of "patron"..he also has one for himself..he said he bought it near the place where he use to live..it was like $15 a bottle...we go drink it sometime...u are invited to join us.....lol
well papa we will be calling mommy later..hope u continue looking over her and migz...we are all doing fine here...i love u papa..until next entry......SEMPR FI!!!!!
It's Sunday 3-11-12 @1906 hours, moe & i are here in los banos visiting for the weekend...Kooya is coming back home today from Los Angeles..he said he bought moe & i a present...hehehe
Well dad, moe, his mom & i went to San juoaquin cemetary to put new flowers, flags, pinwheels on moe's dad's grave site, i then checked to find out where grandpa gonzaga is and its lot 9 sec 420..just thought i'd share that with you...while we were adding the flowers i felt really sad that your resting place is not here so we could visit you all the time...philippines is so far away...its ok though....just glad ur happy....
I miss you so much...in 2-days will mark your 4months that you went home to God's house...so take care of yourself...another entry will follow...
i love you ......papa pay-day
Hi there handsome Papa...what are you doing up there? Have u been keeping up on ur uniform by keeping it shiny & pearly white? Has Jesus inspected ur outfit?....hehehehehe
Well it's about 1652 on thursday 3-8-12...just to let u know i have been working early since tuesday...as u noticed i have not made an entry since 2-27-12...i know that's bad...i've been coming home late then going back the next day early....u know it overtime calls, i am so all over it.....
Mommy is doing fine back home...so is Migs, i was told that Migs may come back here for a bit when he is out of school...he will then go back before school starts..he is determined to finish however the climate up in baguio is not good for him, he gets sick alot..don't worry we have it all worked out for him..we will help him finish school...he has the will...we have a way!!!!!!!
i am cooking beef stew for dinner.....Chad went to LA to visit mike..he will be home Sunday...please watch over him during his visit, also continue watching over mommy & Migs back home ok....
I really miss u papa, i think of u every day, before i go to work, i always say good morning to u, it's good to know u can hear me...u always answer me in ur own way whenever i need help.....well until my next entry papa....I love U.........SEMPER FI !!!!!!!!!!!
It's been a few days since I made an entry. Don't ever think I dont think of you. You know we all think of you all the time. I've had a migraine the last few days and it wont go away. I'm always tired.
I just wanted to say I love and miss you, Papa.
Hi there Daddy, it's Monday 2-27-12 @1949, Moe is cooking dinner, my doggies are here relaxin' in their places. it's cold & windy outside. Moe & i went to the gym today for another bootcamp workout after missing a whole week last week, it felt good exercising. Then we went to the movies to watch Safe House staring Denzel Washington & Ryan Reynolds, it was a gooooood movie, i will buy it on blu-ray when it comes out.
Yesterday, we took the Vette for a ride to Seaside to check out Sports Authority where Circuit City use to be, Moe bought me a golf club set so we can practice, it was only $129, Boona wants one also, she is "GAYA-GAYA", hehehehe....
Oh yeah, the other 2 nites ago, i got a text from Beb, she sent me a pix of an ultra-sound from a Dr. office with a msg that said "Guess who's prego?"..i replied who, then she replied "ME", meaning Beb. I didn't see the name on the film till i really looked at it, so Papa you are going to be a Grandpa again!!! The news was a shock to me because i didn't know if mommy, migz, kooya, boona knew, Beb said she group text all of us, i told her i didn't get it until she cleared it up that the pix she sent was the group text. She also said mommy & migs are so excited they are thinking of baby names...Beb said the middle name will be "LUCAS"...i already named the baby LUCAS whether it will be a boy or girl...i hope you are excited as we all are and you can share the news along to everyone there....i just wished that when we were given the news, you were here with us, but at the same time my guess was that you knew 1st b4 we did.......lol.
Well Papa...till next entry oh yeah Lucas is expected to be born 10-2-12......i love & miss u Daddy.....SEMPER FI!!!!!!
Hello again, it's just me your 1st born....hehehe...it's Saturday 2-25-12 @18:38, i am watching monster-in-law. Wanna know how my day was...ok i'll tell ya. I woke up at 0800, cleaned the house, bathe the dogs, i thought of taking the Vette for a ride after but i got lazy...
Moe & i are going to pick up the shoes he bought me at the shoe palace. it's the vans style, color is orange, black...it will match my outfit when we go to the Giants game that's forth coming...woooohooo....then we go to sports authority to check out some golf clubs, he may buy a set for me, jr size....or i can wait till i get paid wednesday. Papa in the even that moe buy's be a set, can you help me pick out the cute ones with the matching bag....thank you.....
well till next entry, i love & miss you dearly daddy.....
Guess what I'm making for breakfast? French toast Hehehhe feel free to drop on by to have some.
I love you
Hi Papa Pay-Day,
What are you doing up there? hope u are doing well chatting with our relatives, telling stories, drinking coffee. It's 1941, work was fun, as always.
Las nite i felt sick probably coming down with a head cold so i drank thera-flu when i got home, then i went to bed by 1930, woke up at 0400, i guess i needed the rest, i didn't get to talk to mommy because i went to bed early...sorry papa. Now today my head feels a little heavy and my temples hurt, although it feels better when i put pressure on it, when i release the pressure, it hurts again, can u help me feel better papa that i don't need to drink medicine (poison)....blah...
Well Daddy, just though i'd tell u that i miss u very much, i think of u everyday, doing do makes me smile...i love u papa....SEMPER FI!!!!!!
I miss you. I'm sitting here by myself watching the puppies play. Chachi is 1 today!!!! He's the biggest out of te 3, @15.3lbs. Mochi is 13.2lbs, and Hachi is 10.2lbs. He finally jumped in the couch! I was do proud of him!!!!
Anyway, this weekend was fun, you saw us play golf??? I know, I'm not very good at the game. My body is still achy.
My hands are tingling. And I'm pretty tired so I'll go nap soon.
I love and miss you very much papa.
It's 2-20-12 @1901, President's Day...it was nice day, we were off so was Pusa...soooo we started our day early woke up at 0600, by 0645 we headed out the door, john & Pusa picked us up, headed to Salinas bagel shop, eat breakfast, then by 0745, went to Twin Creeks golf Course in salinas, met up with my partners from transportation Dave,Jesse,Ed,John, in addition to john, Pusa & Moe, we played 2 rounds of 9holes. We did a lot of walking around, we didn't ride the golf cart's..it's for sissy's. Moe said i played pretty well. I hit 2 balls in the pond though, it was funny, you would have been laughing!!! I am planning on buying a set of golf club's probably Jr. size, the adults set is too big for me, my Sgt. let me use his son's set, it was just the right size...i always thought golf was boring to play, i was wrong, it's lots of fun, we plan on playing every sunday, so you & moe's dad can place bets...lol
We called mommy last nite & she told us Grandpa Valdoz passed away last saturday, wow so he is up there with you, show him the routine up there ok papa, also if you can introduce him to Moe's dad ok...
Well i will let you go do your thing papa, until next time...i love & miss you sooooooooooooooo much...SEMPER FI!!!
it's thursday 2-16-12 @1736, i came home around 1830..ate super burrito for dinner with moe from casa de pollo..it was good..you would have liked it...
anyways, kooya & some of his friends took off to las vegas today, he sent me a text when they got to vegas at 1456. he said he will be back sunday..he also sent me a text just a bit ago that he is eating bone marrow on garlic bread,prime rib,truffles risotto, shrimp, potato au gratin with truffles, alaskan king crab legs...i replied "must be nice...i am sure he told you he was taking off to vegas for a couple days..you know papa..he needed time off to himself to get away...it's good that he did...
well i just thought i'd tell ya what's been on our agenda..just take care of yourself, watch over mommy, migz, no need to worry about us here, we are all ok, just missing you everyday,,,i live you papa......SMPER FI!!!!
Im irritated. I posted something on Valentines Day but it doesn't show... so I'll post again.
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY, Papa. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you.
Please continue to watch over us... I know you can see us, I'm just sad we can't see you. It makes me very sad that you're not here. When I think of those days when you're were preparing to go HOME, it hurts my heart, and when you left, a big part of us went with you.
You will FOREVER be our daddy... even though you are not here. We love you.
Your Show Cat...
~~~~HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY~~~~
Hope you are doing ok up there...so i wonder what the angels gave you on this special day of hearts...i am sure they all gave you lots of love...
Moe came home from work & surprized me with a Valentine's card & my favorite Reese's peanut butter heart..in a box...we were going to eat at Denny's but we figured there were going to be lots of people so we stayed home, he made egg salad for dinner...it was yummy...also i am eating lots of oranges that i've peeled earlier...so far think i ate like 8-10 oranges...lots of fiber huh....i love eating them...
ok papa, like always don't worry about us here, we are all doing just fine..just watch over mommy & migz...until next entry daddy...i love u always....SEMPER FI!!!!
Christine- your daughter
Good evening it's Monday 2-13-12 @1940, today marks your 3 months to the day that God called you home to live in paradise by his side. It still feels like the evening you left us to be with our Creator, how it hurts to even think about it but i am sure it was for a purpose that we didn't want to see you suffer anymore. I am sad that you are not here for me to hear your voice on the phone when I call you or even give you money so you can go to the stores, but at the same time i am just taking it one day at a time & thinking positive that you are having fun with our uncles, grand parents, aunties, cousins that are there with you.
Also, i wanted to mention that moe & i have been going to wolf fitness in salinas 3x a week to get in shape & to be healthy. It's a great workout. So far we have been going on 3wks strong & i have felt the difference in my health and my body...i don't feel sluggish anymore, but i get hungry alot now...hehehe...oh yeah we both signed up for the year and its $125pp...that's cheap....i know how much cigarettes that could buy...no more moking for you papa....
Well mommy & Miguel is doing fine back home, you don't need to worry about them, all i ask is that please always watch over them, we are fine here.....ok papa!!!!!
Time for me to go now until another entry tomorrow ok...i love you Papa...i miss u sooooo much.......SEMPER FI!!!!!!
I can't sleep. I went to the gym today and my body is ACHING. Please heal my muscles fast.
I love you, Papa
i love u more than Pusa...hahaha...well it's friday 2-3-12 @2120pm, moe & i just came back from salinas, did another session of workouts at wolf's fitness...pusa & john came to check out the program...they were both laughing @ us, then we went to eat a healthy dinner at norma's next door with pusa & john...it was fun...we all drove home together, got home safely....
I just got off the phone with mommy about 20 min ago, she said she is feeling much better, she is able to walk faster now without holding on to rails or stairs, her hands are feeling stronger, no mater what she still plays tong-it...she also said she will be ready to go baguio in a couple days...
well papa, i hope ur doing ok up there with everyone, down here only 6 more weeks then spring begins..we didn't even see any snow up the mountains, although it hasn't rainned as much....yet...just keep warm up there..don't worry about us down here...always watch over mommy & Migz......Good nite papa....until next entry...i love & miss u dearly.....SEMPER FI!!!!!!
I love you. Guess what??? It's Chachi's birthday! He's 1 today. He smells too. He needs a bath.
It's been really cold the past few days. When the sun shines bright, I know it's you making me warm cause you don't want my asthma to trigger.
Daddy, please continue to watch over mama and all of us, to make sure we are always safe, and also our dear friend at Stanford Hospital. I feel awful that I haven't visited her, but from what happened October 23, 2011-November 13, 2011, I just don't want to be around, or inside a hospital. The pain is still fresh, and it gives me painful flashbacks.
It's time for bed daddy. It's already 10:41pm.
Again, we all love and miss you. Give Lola and Lolo and everyone else a hug for me ok.
Good night, Daddy.
It's 1709pm, i just got home a bit ago, work was ok. Guess what daddy, moe & i are trying out wolf's fitness in salinas, it's a trial basis @ $20pp for the week, then if we like it we can continue for $125pp monthly, it's a good program, we both attended the bootcamp class at 1800-1900, it kicked both out butts, i felt as if i was in the cdcr academy again...lol, went to work today sore as can be...hehehehehe.
well kooya & i called mommy last nite, kooya talked to mommy for a while then he came out his room crying, i guess they were talking about u..so when i got the phone, mommy was crying. i asked her what was the matter, she said she was thinking about u, how she misses u so much, due to the fact that she had been feeling ill, weak, they called a guy who does the "tawas" thing. Mommy told the man what was going with her, they did the tawas, the man then told mommy "there is a man in the house who has been watching over u & doesn't wanna leave ur side" . Mommy replied "it's my husband", the man then asked "has ur husband passed recently", mommy said "yes"...the man said he needed mommy then to get one of ur clothes, boil water, soak your clothes in the boiling water, wiper her whole body with your clothes when it's not too hot, then lite a candle, do an offering to u, place the offering in the back of the house, leave candle lit for 24hrs, 1 time only then mommy will be fine. Mommy started to cry when the man mentioned u, it made me cry also. i just hope mommy will get better, otherwise moe said we will bring her home here. Mommy agreed to that idea. She also said that she will go home to Baguio to get away from Caturay for a while in hopes she can rest, she will be accompanied by auntie Fely, & will stay with mommy for a while...i really hope mommy gets better...it's hurts me to hear mommy crying....i know she needs her time for herself to grieve...people just don't understand that...
hopefully what i told u doesn't get u worried...we r just thankful that u are there looking over us, that's a blessing for us from u!!!
Well Papa, i am waiting for moe to come home so we can go to the gym again....so until next entry, please tell grandma,grandpa,aunties,uncles that i love & miss then all...most of all i love & miss u more....take care...SEMPER FI!!!!!
Xtine - ur 1st born
It's 1150pm... Just got done singing karaoke. I don't get why I always get below 68. I guess I can't sing. Oh well.
Anyhow, tomorrow is work. Oh yeah, you already know what we signed up for, so I ask papa, please give me the strength and motivation and be by my side for when I'm slacking or when I'm feeling lazy. I really need it, and I know you'll be there pushing me to my limits cause you always pushed yourself to the limits to accomplish everything you did for all of us.
Ate Riting developed your black and white tournament picture, the one where you did the flying side kick!!! I think that's what it was called. IT LOOKS COOL!!!!
Ok Papa, it's time for bed. I love you.
Your show cat,
hello again Papa, it's sunday 1-29-12 @1717. i am listening to ocean's 11 movie while typing u an entry...moe & i cleaned our house...it was time since we have not cleaned in a couple weeks...
well yesterday, i took the Vette for a ride down to salinas to pick up some films that moe & i had developed from green's camera world, then after i was going to meet some co-workers at the laguna seca range but one forgot his phone so he couldn't reply back so i headed to seaside on hwy 68, saw couple Vette owners as well, it's so cool when Vette owners wave at each other for acknowledgement...when we pass each other anywhere. Then went to seaside to visit ur house & it's pretty cleaned up, i wished that i could have felt or smelled ur presense while i was there but i don't have that special sense like mommy & migz. Albert & i went to wally-world to check out gun safes, he plans on buying a hand-gun, that's what he said, u know albert...he's balbalatong....he liked the Vette & when i took the highway towards fort ord, i sped up to about 90mph, he nearly crapped his pantalon, i did the same when we headed home. i stayed in seaside for a while, he fed me neck bone soup, yours is better.
I also talked to mommy last nite, we call her every nite, to make sure she is doing fine, last nite she told me that her hands are numb & her knees were a little week, we always tell her not to do any trainious type of work using her hands, she may have arthritis or carpal tunnel on her wrists...please continue to look over her ok....otherwise if she doesn't get better anytime soon, we r going to bring her back here for a while...
well papa, i will let u go for now until next entry ok, take care, keep ur halo shiny, ur uniform nice & clean, inspection everyday.....SEMPER FI!!!!!
ur 1st born....christine
I was thinking about you again today... But I do every day. I wonder what UR doing... I want to thank you for taking care and watching over mama with the Typhoid Fever she contracted somehow. I talked to her today, she's feeling a little better. Continue to be by her side ok Daddy.
I love you. Goodnight.
It's your angel again with another entry @ 2228, we were able to get ahold of mommy...somehow she was pressing buttons on her cell phone that she put it on airplane mode that is why she wasn't able to get phone calls or any text, she will ask Mig to fix it..
Anyways mommy is feeling better and is on her way home from her overnight stay at the dr's office. She said she is doing fine...she has typhoid fever..some type of contamination from water or something she mite have injected...she is on medication and will go for a a follow-up sometime next week...her blood pressure, cholesterol, heart rate, physical check up is good she said and for all a of not to worry....
Papa thank you for answering my prayers earlier for mommy that she is ok and will be healthy....I am very relieved now and can concentrate at work...good nite papa...I love u.......SEMPER FI!!!
Me again Daddy...
Work was ok today. Slow, but busy at times. I have this really bad cold and my allergies are triggering my asthma. I hope you can make me feel a little better. Not 100% better, but better enough not to call in sick. You know how scared I am to call in sick. That's a big NO-NO at work. Even if you're sick you CANT call in. I know, it sucks.
Ok daddy, I want you to know that I Love You and please keep me safe while I drive home. My head gets these shocking pains every once in a while and I don't want to crash. Keep your safety bubble around my car ok.
I LOVE YOU PAPA.
They say as time passes, the pain will go away... They lied. I miss you a lot. We all do. Have you read my letter yet? Just curious.
Good night Daddy.
I love you always.
I miss you. You already know that. :)
It's me again @ 2137 still here in Los banos with moe & the family. Today was the day we laid to rest moe's dad @ San joaquin veteran memorial cemetary in gustine. It was a big turnout. I just had to tell you this but I was asked to be one of the Paul bearers, along with John and Ernie Castro jr, moe's nephew. Chad also attended the service and followed us to the burial site. Army officials were there to honor a veteran, moe's dad. The US flag was presented to moe's mom, I started to tear up as one of the army honor guard presented the flag and handed it to moe's mom. Then another honor guard played the piece "taps". The handing of the flag brought back memories again when mommy was presented the flag to her in your honor, it was a bitter sweet moment.
Well I just thought I'd share with you about our day today, well papa I will let you go so I say good nite, until my next entry...I miss you so much and I love you.....SEMPER FI!!!!!!
I'm gonna keep this short cause I'm not feeling too good.
I threw up twice today. :(
Ok daddy I'm going to sleep now, I took medicine. Watch over me as I sleep ok.
I love you.
Hi papa, it's Saturday 1-14 I just got home 30 minutes ago from Pusa's house. We started the day by going to salinas at the manila ranch on sherwood and bought some ingredients for pinaklit without parya (yuck), then we went to target b/c pusa needed to buy some stuff, we were there a while just going around to see what else we can buy. We then went to her bank to cash her check, then went to kfc, then safeway & headed home.
At her house we cooked 2 pots of pinaklit which after both were done, we ate hers first, it was almost gone. i took my pot home, hahahahaha. Before i came home i called mommy, she is visiting auntie Cord's & uncle Jr. She said about 2wks ago uncle Jr. had an emergency due to his heart & had a blood vessel pop in his nose which bled a lot, mommy also mentioned that he is ok now. Mommy & auntie Lett took some fruits to auntie Cord's, now mommy is waiting for the magaspac kids to come back with some abal-abal so she can take it home to baguio tomorrow taking auntie Pat. She also told me that she attended Mass & visited you, hope she had a nice visit. Mommy misses you so much papa, i just hope she doesn't get sick from missing you...other people are like that after loosing their parter in life, just pray for mommy that she is healthy...ok..we all know you won't let that happen.
Well papa i will be heading to los banos tomorrow probably before kooya goes to work....then come back home after the burial of Moe's dad...so i will do another entry tomorrow ok...take care papa, hope your halo is still shiny & your whites pearly white, keep your wings always ready to fly, tell grandma, grandpa, uncles , aunties"hello" for us....i love and miss you daddy... SEMPER FI!!!!!
Happy Friday the 13th, another week passed & today marks your 2 months of passing, there is not a day of the week i don't think about you, how i miss calling you every time i go home & tell you how many hours i worked overtime, i call mommy though every night so she knows i am home.
I just got off the phone with mommy & she is back in Caturay, she made the broccoli salad that pusa gave her the ingredients, all of the aunties loved it & then mommy made some drinks with strawberries, the aunties went crazy over it...the road construction continues, mommy said it's not hot but a little windy & dust is everywhere. She said she is doing fine in Caturay, i am sure u already know that because you are watching over her, so no need to worry, just enjoy your new life there & i know u will never let unfortunate events cross us down here.
i will be off the week of 1-16 to 1-20 for Moe's Dad, my supervisors were ok with me taking the week off, i will go back on 1-24.
Well papa, i will let you go until next entry over the weekend, i miss you so much........SEMPER FI.
Happy Friday Daddy,
Its Friday the 13th... your favorite number! I've been having this bad headache lately. I take tylenol and whatever I can to make it go away but it wont go away. Can you please help it go away?
K papa, update you again over the weekend.
I love you,
it's night time and i wanted to say good night. i went by your house today to get the mail. I know I heard me screaming in the house too. i gave the mail to Ninang to give to kuya. ninang came over for dinner, we had ham turkey and cheese sandwiches on sourdough bread made on the foreman grill. i made kuya 2 of them for ninang to take home. i know you see how we are all coping with your not being here, and i know you can see us and what we do every day. i know you saw how hurt i was yesterday, and i know you will try to make things better.
i love you daddy, and i know you are always here for us when we need you...
Its Wednesday 1-11-12 @2013hours, kooya, moe & i just came back from Denny's to eat dinner. i work early @0430.
Well i put an entry on your page on 1-8-12 around 0330 to let u know that moe's dad passed away 1-7-12 in their home Los Banos @2340hours, he battled a long illness of stomach cancer, he was 89-90 yrs old. I am surprised that entry didn't post in your guest book....which is strange.
it was a shock...the night i got the call, moe called me at 2352hrs..usually after him & i talk, he tells me that he will call me back after he gets his dad all situated, he never does..then that night i got the call...i disobeyed moe's request of not going to los banos till sunday morning, but i figured the coroners will take his dad before 1st light or before 12hrs of the person being deceased. i told kooya what had happened, i took my shower @0005hrs, left soledad 0022hrs then arrived @ the driveway at moe's parents house @0155hrs. i then approached the truck & smelled a strong scent of cologne i thought was Obsession which u use to wear, no one else was outside and no one knew i was arriving, so if that was u i smelled, thank you daddy for guiding me safely @ my destination although it was very late when i drove, u must have been my passenger.....COOL huh...
by the way moe's dad's name was Manuel P. Cortez, a retired CDC Sgt served 27 years at CTF Soledad, then before that a MSgt. in the Army served 23yrs, he was a very nice, wise man who accepted me from the 1st day moe introduced me to his side of the family. he will be buried at San Joaquin memorial cemetery in santa nella, Ca where gonzaga was buried, with full military service on 1-18-12 @1400hrs, he will be wearing his Class A Army uniform, so when u get a chance to see and talk to him, i am sure he will tell u that i was his "favorite", he was also ecstatic that i became what he was before he promoted, he also gave me the name "lil bitt"...
So papa please introduce Moe's dad to grandma, grandpa, & to the uncles, i am sure they will welcome him with open arms....
until then papa, take care of ur self and don't worry about us down here, just watch over us and whenever we need help we promise to call u....we miss u so much daddy, we love u.....SEMPER FI!!!!!
*** X-TINE ***
it's sunday. i finally unpacked my 3 boxes of snacks. i hurt my toe too. i stubbed it and my nail bent back and it broke (my nail) and was bleeding a lot. i know you were watching, cause it didn't hurt as much as i thought it would. It hurt, but it went away. i know you took the pain away from it.
ate chris is in los banos. moe's dad died last night, but you already know that cause i know you all wait at the gates for a new brother/sister to arrive at the kingdom.
i miss you daddy. i think of you every day.
continue to watch over us ok.
i love you.
Good morning Papa,
Its Thursday, and I'm not feeling too good. I'm always tired and I have a headache that just wont go away.
I talked to mommy the other day, and she mentioned that Miguel saw you a few times. I wish I had that capability.
I know you already know this, but I think about you every day, and wonder what you're doing. I get angry at that thought that you were deteriorating, and never said a word to us. I think to my self "Why didn't he tell us? It could've been prevented!" But what is done is done, you're home now, with no worries, healthy as can be, in your prime (Miguel said), and watching over all of us AT THE SAME TIME! It's amazing how you can be in so many places at once!
Just like Ninang said papa, don't worry about the Hilton house. Visit them once in a while, but the house will be fine. If they do something to the house they aren't supposed to, THATS when you show up in the mirror when they are looking into it. :)
OK papa, continue to watch over us ok.
Can you please scare Mochi and Chachi when they fight? They seem to be fighting a lot lately... for dominance I suppose... I know you're there in the morning cause the light flickers. It stops when I say "HI DADDY!"
I love you always,
*Your Show Cat*
Good evening Papa,
It's Wednesday...Kooya & I ate Burger King food for dinner & finished it...then we called mommy, we just got off the phone with her..auntie Helen is with her visiting. Mommy said she attended a funeral for one of her friends there in Caturay..she said she couldn't stay long b/c it was windy & had to re-lite your candle several times...She also mentioned that she talked to you about your recent visits to the Hilton house...mommy said that she asked u to finally rest so you won't get tired...we all know you are enjoying your new life up there being with Grandpa Luis, Grandma Romana, & all your brothers' that left us early as well...daddy u worry to much about the house in Hilton...your the Gatekeeper there...we are sure manong Albert will take care of it ...he said that is his promise to you before u went home...he will keep that promise...
so daddy...u don't need to wonder as much anymore...just rest....don't worry about us down here...with u looking over us from above...we will all be just fine....
oh yeah i forgot to mention...the construction is still ongoin in Caturay..mommy talked to the foreman and asked if the cement planter box will be removed they said no and the only object that was knocked out was the big sitting area at auntie Sing's store...that was it...the front was untouched...just thought i'd mention that to you...
Well papa u know we miss u so much that time flies when we think of you and thats every second...please give our regards to grandpa,grandma and uncles that are with you...untill next time....SEMPER FI!!!!!
love u always
***HAPPY NEW YEAR PAPA*** (Maligayang Bagong Ta'on PO).......
Hello again & good evening! Guess what I am by myself right now, Chad went to work & Moe went to visit his family in Los Banos, his dad is not doing well as we speak...althouh Moe did ask me to go with him..i declined because it was going to be too hard for me to go though the memories i still have of you when you were ill in the hospital...Moe said he understood...
You know daddy, I have a very understanding husband who feels my pain and comforts me whenever I am sad especially when I think of you..I just wished that you would have had the chance to know what he is like..I know from above you can see for yourself and it's all good ...(huh)..
I wanted to mention something to you of a thought Chad & I had when we both talked to mommy when I came home from work last night at 2330...yep I was out late....well mommy had an idea to move you & lola Romana to lola Cion's area b/c it's bigger. I planned on remodeling lola Ciion's tomb to a fancier mausoleum with covering for shade on hot, scorchy days, rainy days so ya'll won't get wet & best of all your own gate so no trespassers...we know how u like high security...so mommy will talk to you about it...hopefully you will agree...you won't be disappointed...we promise...its only P50,000.00.
Ok daddy, tonight I will be up late to watch the apple come down at New York Time Square on tv with my doggies by my side...you are invited to join us if u want to...i call mommy later..i am sure she had her own party back home with lots of your favorite food...
Well...let me excuse myself now daddy, I know you have lots to do there so until next time again.... we love and miss you so much papa.....SEMPER FI.
I haven't been the same since you left us. I feel sad all the time and I haven't had an appetite to eat (but why I'm getting fat is beyond my comprehension!). I know you can hear me when I talk to you every night, but sometimes I wish that when I open my eyes when I wake up, you're there in front of me with a smile.
I know you're watching over all of us, and I also know you don't want any of us to be sad, but we all miss you.
Merry Christmas!!! It's not the same Christmas that I or my siblings are use to with you not here to open presents or even an envelope full of $$$$ and most of all to see you eat your favorite "prime rib". Mommy is back home in the Philippines and yes we call her everyday for you to make sure she is doing ok and is occupied with aunties, etc.
Daddy, there is not a moment i don't think of you...although i try my best to be a strong person to show loved ones i am not in pain from the inside...it's so hard to even put a smile on my face anymore...with your help daddy i can try...
until next entry "SEMPER FI"
Hi Daddy. I woke up this morning and I cried. Tomorrow is you and mommy's anniversary (Today for mommy cause she's in the Philippines) and I just want you to know that I am so very honored to be your daughter.
I was working on some documents here at work, and all of a sudden I broke down crying again. I wish I can say "I love you Papa" and kiss your cheek like I always did before I went home, and to hear your voice again.
I miss you so much. They say "time heals all wounds..." blah blah blah... (adula-amin, I think it's CRAP)!!!
Losing a loved one, especially a parent, scars you FOREVER. I don't care what anyone says.
I love you Daddy. To you and Mama, Happy Anniversary.
Thanks, Dad, for your guidance in life. Because of you, you've prepared me to be the man that I am now. I love you and miss you more than words or actions can express.
Good morning Daddy, I usually start by saying to all that I see 1st thing depending on the day of the week "HAPPY Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday or Friday...well it's Friday and it isn't "happy" at all. Remembering the days you were in the hospital in hopes you would get better and then you passed away scars my heart deeply. There is not a second of the day since Oct. 23 2011 when I got the call from Mommy @0800 that you were going to the hospital in an ambulance..when i heard the code3 siren I almost lost it and I was 3 hours from you in Fresno with my father in law who is also very ill. I left Fresno @0900..didn't care if I got pulled over by CHP going 110mph driving the "VETTE" which I did to tell u the truth..I told the officer what had just happened to you and he let me go by saying "slow down" and did i listen to him .....nope!!! I still went on driving that speed...just so I can see you at the hospital.
The 3 weeks you hung on to fight your illness will always be imbedded in our minds...and the many, many, many memories we remember of you will forever stay. You were a husband, a father, a grandfather, an uncle, and most of all a fighter...even though your body of presence has left us..your spirit and soul will forever be with us watching every move and decision we make...
It will be hard to look forward to the special occasions we've all shared with you when you were with us such as birthdays, Christmas, Thanksgiving, Father's Day, Veterans Day (you served in Vietnam) your wedding anniversary with mommy Dec. 21.. the anniversary of your passing..and most of all your birthday May 13, when those days come-forth (we) will make those dates memorable for you...
I am now rest assured that you have already gotten a tour of Heaven from above shown to you by our other family members that have passed on...and have gotten your "WINGS" and "HALO"...
Remember Daddy...keep that HALO shiny, your wings widely spread and your angel outfit pearly white..Jesus does (inspections) of uniforms daily ....LOL!!!
Well Daddy...I wish you happiness from above and may you rest in PEACE...forever!!!!!
I miss you so much. I think of you every day. I cry when I think of those 3 weeks you were in the hospital, seeing how tired and uncomfortable you were. You kept your promise to me daddy, you know, the one where you said you were going to try to get better for us. We know you did your best, cause you are NOT a quitter. But we knew you were tired. We knew you were in pain while you were trying, we all did, so we had to let you know that it was ok to go. As much as it crumpled our hearts, we knew it was what you wanted. We didn't want you to suffer anymore. We also knew how much you missed Grandma and your brothers who have passed, as well as our other loved ones. You are with Grandma Romana now. Grandma Romana, Grandpa Luis, Auntie Catalina, Uncle T., Auntie Lolita, Uncle Jose, Uncle Domingo, Manong Nestor, Grandma Cion, and Grandpa, partying it up in Heaven.
I will never forget your smell or your laugh, your hugs, your smile, or how you would dance in front of the tv "Egyptian style". We will always cherish all the memories we have of you, and know that your spirit will live on in our lives and in our soul.
Please watch over us, and guide us the way you always have. We love you so much daddy, so so so so much. Rest in Peace.
Condolences. My prayers go out to the Bala family.
I just wanted to say that you don't know how much you are missed. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't think of you and know when they say "You don't know how it hurts to lose someone until someone close to you dies" it hurt when you left. You were wanting to go home and so you did. Just know that we love you and would give anything for you to come back and be with us once again. We love you so much. Until we meet again, you will always be in our hearts.
We miss you and love you so much. Rest in Peace Daddy...