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Calandra Lundy Balas 2005 - 2012

Calandra Lundy Balas

This Guest Book has been kept online by Donna Ferguson.
Tuesday, December 09, 2014
Calandra, my Angel,

A year ago today you obtained your much-deserved, earthly justice! It, in fact, was due to the arduous, committed work of the prosecuting attorney assigned to your case and the just sentencing by the presiding judge. After your funeral I had made it my fervent goal to see this day become a reality. I had long awaited this day, and it finally came to be. As I left the courthouse that day, I felt quite relieved. However, strangely, I also had mixed emotions!

On my way home from Payson, I, dreadfully, had to pass the very spot where you had died. I could not fight back the tears! At that very instant I thought of your great loss and how nothing could ever bring you back to me! Calandra, my Angel, it has been two years, four months and eight days since God took you Home to be with Him. I awake every morning wishing that it was a terrible nightmare from which I could finally awake from and joyously find your beautiful self alive. In truth, I will never fully understand why God chose to take you!!!!

This year has been a difficult and trying year to get through. During the past year, I had many court proceedings to attend in both Globe and Payson pertaining to your case. They kept me both mentally and physically engaged. However, this year I have not found anything to motivate me to the point of accomplishing something of significance. I seem to have lost my sense of direction and purpose in this life. I do not enjoy the things I once did, and I do not leave home very often. I, also, have been very negligent in socializing with other people.

Calandra, my Angel, I lost the joy in my heart when you went away! I daily cry tears of sadness when memories of you flood my mind! I have your beautiful pictures everywhere, and I always mention your lovely name. It is not, at all, uncommon for me to talk to you. My Angel, I visualize the day when we are reunited! I long for the moment when I, once again, will hear your sweet voice call me both "mom" and "grandma"! Until that day, have lots of fun playing with all the other little Angels! I LOVE AND MISS YOU!!

Heavenly hugs and kisses!
Thursday, November 27, 2014
My sweet, darling Granddaughter,

It is Thanksgiving Day! It is so very hard to believe that you have missed the last three Thanksgiving Days here on earth! On this Thanksgiving Day, and every day, I thank God for having blessed me with your sweet earthly presence. So short were the years, but I realize that no amount of time here on earth would have been long enough for me to have you in my life. Calandra, my sweet darling, I love and miss you with all my heart and soul!! My life is so empty and lonely here without you!! My earthly Thanksgiving Day greetings to you and all our heavenly loved ones! Please give your three great-grandparents a big hug and kiss from me, and hugs and kisses to you, also, my darling!
Friday, August 01, 2014
My darling Calandra,

It has been two years today since your most tragic death. It is still so very hard for me to accept the fact that you are gone forever. I keep looking at the front door, hoping that it will open and that you will quickly and gleefully run into my arms.

My darling, I long to see your most beautiful face and enchanting smile. I long to touch your soft skin and hear your sweet voice. I long to smell your fragrant scent after your long bubble baths.

Your dolls, bath toys, books, chair, exercise ball, clothes, hair accessories and toothbrush are constant reminders of your beautiful self. Tears flow when I look upon your many, beautiful pictures.

I try to think of all the good memories of you, but they are all over-shadowed and replaced with all of the painfully bad memories stemming from your senseless and needless death!

Calandra, darling, I will always wonder why YOU were the one God chose to take on that fateful day two years ago! YOU deserved to live! You were such a beautiful, young girl, so sweet, kind, compassionate, loving, smart, energetic, and funny! You were so full of life!

I had always hoped for a precious, close granddaughter, and, my darling, you were her! You were my "dream-come-true"! When you died, the joy within my heart died! My life, forevermore, will never be the same without you! I now look upon everything differently, and things that once brought me happiness, don't anymore!

I shall always thank God for having blessed my life with your wonderful, beautiful, sweet presence, even for a short, seven and one-half years! My darling, in truth, no amount of years would ever have been long enough to have you as a beautiful part of my life!

My precious darling, you touched my life in ways that no one has ever done before! You brightened my world and fulfilled my soul! As long as I have breath and memory, you will never be forgotten! You have a very special place in my heart, reserved for you alone! I love and miss you, darling! Life is lonely here without you!

Heavenly hugs and kisses!
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Calandra, my heavenly messenger,

Would you please deliver the two following messages to both your great-grandfathers? Please give them both a big hug and kiss from me. Thank you, precious!

A Father's Day message to my Dad:

Dad, I'll always remember your special smile, your caring heart, and your warm embrace! You were the first man I ever loved, and, even though you are now gone, that love is still strong and ever constant! Time will never diminish my great, abundant love for you, Dad! I was so very blessed to have had the "Greatest Dad"! Happy Father's Day in heaven, Dad! I love and miss you!!

A Father's Day message to my father-in-law, my second "Dad":

You became my second "Dad" when I married your son. I remember how you so very graciously accepted and welcomed me in your heart and family as your "daughter". I will always cherish our many, long conversations and will be forever grateful for all the countless times you ministered to both my heart and soul! You greatly blessed my life! A heavenly Happy Father's Day, "Dad"! Loving and missing you!

My Fathers' Day Prayer:

Dear Angels, please hear my prayer. Please guard my DADS with your gently wings and tend them with great care.

For they both were so wonderful, and words just can't convey how much I wish that they were here once more with me today!

Amen.

Calandra, precious, I wish that you were here with me today, also. Life is so lonely here without you! I love and miss you! Hugs and kisses!
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Calandra, my love,

Mother's Day brings tears to my eyes when I think of you and how very much you longed for a mother during your short life! You desperately wanted and needed a mother, a full-time, forever mother! I was so very proud when you called me both mama and later mom, along with grandma, but I, too, wanted you to have a loving and caring mother that you so rightfully and greatly deserved! Sadly, God took you away before you could ever experience the joy of having what every child should have, a precious mother in his or her life! You never knew what it was like to celebrate Mother's Day with your very own mother! This very fact makes losing you even more painful and unbearable! It breaks my heart!!

I find comfort in knowing that in heaven you now have many, wonderful mothers, including your great-grandmother, who are showering you with abundant love. You finally have in heaven what you were so tragically denied on earth!

I LOVE AND MISS YOU!!

HUGS AND KISSES!!
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