My darling Calandra,
It has been two years today since your most tragic death. It is still so very hard for me to accept the fact that you are gone forever. I keep looking at the front door, hoping that it will open and that you will quickly and gleefully run into my arms.
My darling, I long to see your most beautiful face and enchanting smile. I long to touch your soft skin and hear your sweet voice. I long to smell your fragrant scent after your long bubble baths.
Your dolls, bath toys, books, chair, exercise ball, clothes, hair accessories and toothbrush are constant reminders of your beautiful self. Tears flow when I look upon your many, beautiful pictures.
I try to think of all the good memories of you, but they are all over-shadowed and replaced with all of the painfully bad memories stemming from your senseless and needless death!
Calandra, darling, I will always wonder why YOU were the one God chose to take on that fateful day two years ago! YOU deserved to live! You were such a beautiful, young girl, so sweet, kind, compassionate, loving, smart, energetic, and funny! You were so full of life!
I had always hoped for a precious, close granddaughter, and, my darling, you were her! You were my "dream-come-true"! When you died, the joy within my heart died! My life, forevermore, will never be the same without you! I now look upon everything differently, and things that once brought me happiness, don't anymore!
I shall always thank God for having blessed my life with your wonderful, beautiful, sweet presence, even for a short, seven and one-half years! My darling, in truth, no amount of years would ever have been long enough to have you as a beautiful part of my life!
My precious darling, you touched my life in ways that no one has ever done before! You brightened my world and fulfilled my soul! As long as I have breath and memory, you will never be forgotten! You have a very special place in my heart, reserved for you alone! I love and miss you, darling! Life is lonely here without you!
Heavenly hugs and kisses!