Hi Mommy, I know I say this all the time but I miss you soooo much!!!!! Everyday to and from work I listen to your Mariah Carey CD and just cry because no matter how upset I am and if I'm having a bad day I feel like the words in some of the songs are meant especially for me. Like you are trying to tell me that you are with me no matter what...and it gives me some comfort. I am trying my hardest to be strong and do all the things you have taught me from being a good mother and wife. But sometimes it's so hard because I have no one to tell me that they are proud of me and the job I am doing under these difficult circumstances. I knew the kids loved to make you proud but I never knew how just by you telling them you were proud of them and all the encouragement you gave them to do good in school would make such a difference in their lives. I know the words you spoke to them are still fresh in their minds but what scares me is that in time they will forget because the have no one else besides me & Javier to tell them and lets face it they think we just say it cause we have too because we're their parents. You didn't have to encourage them but you did because you loved them like no other grandmother could. You would be so proud of your little morito mommy, he is doing so well in school, at home and even is doing GREAT in cross country. I always remind him that nana is probably saying "good job Big Daddy, so proud of you" and he says "yeah I can hear nana telling me run moro run"
I am going to need you to be by my side when I go to have my procedure next week because you always made me feel safe even though I know you were scared for me. I love you and miss you so much and can't believe how much my life has changed with out you being here. May you continue to bless me & our family as you walk with the good lord you beautiful angel. XOXOXOXO