My Dearest Son, Charles, I love you so very much. I think about you constantly, and I miss you so much. Sounds selfish everytime that I write to you. Never will understand nor will I ever accept you, my Bambino, being here with me, our family and friends. NEVER Charles. My Boy, how does a Mom find a new normal, it's never going to happen. There is not normal without you being here to complete my set. Simply is no more normal. I love you Charles Nelson Armetta, I love you!!!! Always and Forever and Always. Your Mom.