Ashley's going in to have the baby tomorrow. You were saposto be here to see your new great grandson, you SHOULD be here. I'll ask Mah when I go up to see the baby if she wants to ride up with me to see him. You'll see him before any of us do. I told Ashley you'de watch over her and the baby where I cant be there, I'll be home watching Angel. I will give you a picture as soon as I get on Dad. He will have your name.. Azriel Henry Theriault, I hope you approve. This picture of Ash was taken tonight, the night before she goes in to have Azriel. I wish you were here, not just for this, but because we all want you home and miss you so much. I'm waiting for the day it gets easier that your not here like everyone says will come, I don't believe them, it hasn't come yet, almost 5 months later. OMG, 5 months you've been gone. It feels like yesterday, the hurt is like it was yesterday. Anyway, I came to tell you about Ash going in to have the baby, I don't want to keep crying, I'm trying to be happy because I'm going to be a grammy again, but having a hard time seperating the happy and the sad. Such mixed feelings (Angel seen me crying while typing this and he came over and pat me on the head) the joy of grand kids. you AND Ashton SHOULD be here. both of the most important men in my life and neither of you are here, and nothing I can do to change it. I love and miss you Dad, forever and a day.