Your sentiments are so beautiful in the recalling of yours and Jimmy's life together. He is there and will always be your Jimmy. God Bless You dear cousin. Keep swinging on that star.
December 1, 2013
One year, twelve months, fifty-two weeks, three hundred and sixty-five days have passed since that worst of all possible days when I found your lifeless body. How can it be that I am still here, that I have lived this year without you, my love, my life, my partner in good times and bad, my best friend? How can it be that the sun rose and set each of those three hundred and sixty-five days? How can it be that I will never again see your face, hear your voice, feel your touch again? How can it be that we can never again enjoy a favorite meal, plan for the future, dream of good times to come?
How can it be?
You left an indelible mark on all who knew you. You were loved, admired and respected more tha you could have possibly known. So many good friends turned out for your first memorial service, so dignified, complete with military honors. So many longtime friends and family were there to honor you at your second memorial service in Jersey. Imagine that: two memorial services. Very fitting for the "larger than life" kind of guy that you were.
This past year has brought changes, always accompanied by a wide range of emotions: profound grief, uncertainty, stress and even some happy moments. By my side through it all were the Levs. They were there for me on that darkest of days and throughout the year. I could not have asked for a more loving family.
Our "Mooch" has been sweet and considerate and helped me so much in those early days of my journey of grief. She is now working hard to accomplish a very worthwhile career goal. It would make you proud to see her achivements.
God has so richly blessed me with the special people that he has put into my life from our California friends to our Jersey family and friends. They have been there for me in countless ways. I am so grateful for this amazing group of people who will always be a wonderful part of my life.
It now seems likely that your wish for me to go back to NJ will be fulfilled. I know that this will be for the best yet it won't be easy to bid farewell to the people and places that were woven into the fabric our our California life. It won't be easy to leave this "Golden State" which was the stuff our dreams were made of twenty-two years ago. It won't be easy to walk out the door of our "Kingsboro" estate where we lived, laughed, and loved throughout our last years together. But nothing about this past year has been easy.
I pray to God to grant me wisdom, discernment and clarity as I move forward with my life. I trust that He will direct my path, that He will continue to give me the will to go on, to live a good life, a full life, a life with meaning and purpose.
One year, twelve months, fifty-two weeks, three hundred and sixty-five days without you. Yet I draw breath, I eat, I sleep,I dream, I care for our girls, our adorable "kids", Abigail and Penny. I go through all those little rituals that make up a lifetime and I look to the future which, while not as joy filled as it would have been with you, will hold happy moments and most of all, treasured memories of you, my Jim, my Little Boy, my Top Dog.
Love to you now and forever,
Your Joanie, your Little Girl, your Spot.
You were my Spanish teacher at Wayne Hills Senior High in 1979/1980. I was curious to learn about you so I started searching on the internet for you earlier this afternoon. I am so sorry to have stumbled upon this information regarding your beloved husband but so happy to hear that you had such a beautiful life together! Sadly, I had to move away from Wayne at the onset of my junior year to live with family members in South Florida. Thanks to you and Mr. Cleary, I was able to hold my own in Miami speaking the Spanish language. I remember your inner and outer beauty and how you were the epitome of STYLE, a real class act! Wishing you all the best!
Vera Slawnitsch (aka Berta)
I'm so sorry for your loss of your Jimmy. It's hard to know what to say, except that I'm thinking of you in friendship and in sympathy. I will forever remember his Friday afternoon calls to make sure we were treating his “ girl” well and that we got the goodies he sent. He was always joking about how it was a great ordeal for him to heat up dinner so it would be read when you got home. He was so worried he could not follow your directions correctly... did you want the foil on or off? He was not even sure he could turn the oven on! The only thing he was serious about was that we were not overworking his girl and treating her right. Much love to you and God Bess you and Michelle.
I would like to express my sincere condolences to you and family on the loss of your husband. I just learned of your loss yesterday afternoon from my sister Barbara Blacow.
I pray that God comforts you and your family during this time. and you'll receive God's love and peace during this time of loss.
Dennis Fett, formerly of Paterson, New Jersey. Now living in Iowa on our Peacock Farm, peafowl.com