It doesn't seem like it's been nearly twenty years since you moved in with us. Time has gone by so fast, it seems like it was only been a few years since Daddy passed. You traveled between our homes, going where ever you wanted to visit. Whenever one of us would call and ask for your help and the answer was always the same, "I will be there just as soon as I can. Have bag will travel is packed and ready." Now it didn't matter if you where needed for just a few days, a couple of weeks, or even a few months, you would stay as long as you were needed. Sometimes you would stay longer, even if we said that we were good and back on our feet. That's just the kind of person you were. And you taught all of us that and so much more. The most important thing that you insteel in all of your children, grandchildren and even your great-grand children is "that no matter what may happen in live family is always first and most important. If you don't have your family you're lost and sad".
I had the pleasure of watching your eyes fill with pride and joy whenever you got an invitation from your grandchildren. First it was their high school graduations, then some sent college graduation invitations, then it was their wedding invitations, and then it was their baby shower invitations. You when to all of them as long as you were able. There was only one high school graduation that you didn't make. And that was for James's(Peanut); it wasn't because you didn't love him or that you didn't want to go, it was because his and Valerie's were the same time. I watched you stuggle with that for several months before you made that tough choice. And it wasn't because you loved one more that the other either.
Mom, you where there with me when I got married, you were there for the births of my children, and you were there for all my surgeries. I couldn't made through those very rough times without you.
You always had our supper cooked, clothes washed, dryed, and put away, and you kept the house clean. Then your health began to fail and it was so hard to tell you that you couldn't do any of those things any more.
The day I had to call 911 and watch you leave in the helicopter was the roughest day of my life. That's because it was the day that God began to prepare me to tell you good-bye. I did my best to give you all the care, respect, and you needed and deserved.
Throughout the years there have been so many people that have told me that I was a good daughter for taking care of my Mom the way I did. It wasn't a chore or even a burden to care for you, it was my pleasure. I only hope that I gave you more than you thought was necessary. Being able to repay you for all the years that you cared for me and my family was my honor for me to do.
Now my heart is broken and there's a huge hole in it. I don't know how to patch, repair, or even fix it. Just knowing that you're in a better place helps a little. Mom, now that you're with Daddy, Murrel Ray, Alan Keith, Little PawPaw, Agnes, and Eva, I know you're no longer confused or worried and you know all the things you had forgotten. You're watching us for Heaven with our Lord Jesus Chirst and all the angels. Now whenever it rains I'll be thinking of you with every drop. Because as the words in a song says, "There's holes in the floor of Heaven and you're watching over me today".
Love forever & ever,