My Precious Darlin'
I wrote this to you 25 years ago for your surprise 50th birthday roast. The words hold even more meaning today than they did then, because I have been loved by you an additional 25 years.
I wrote, " Remember how many times we've said to each other "someday I'll find a way to show you how much I love you?" Tonight, this surprise to celebrate you, is my "Someday!" Tonight is not only from me, but our family and friends to honor you in a way so suited to the man you are, with fun and good humor.
My life is so blessed for the better because you became my friend. It is hard for me to remember how life was BC (before Conner), it surely wasn't fun and was so empty. I won't be able to live long enough or love you enough to let you know how much and what you mean to me. There is NO limit or bounds to the respect I have for you. The trust, faith, and honesty that are you, make me whole. There is not a fiber of my being that is not filled with love for you. Everything I am is for and because of you. Thank you for coming into my life, so willingly and freely, giving, eternally of yourself to me.
I cherish you my Darlin', my husband, my lover, my best friend......
And now into eternity.
You have my heart and soul with you. I miss you more than words can express. I miss your hand and shoulder always being there when I reached out. I miss the many many times a day you told me you love me. I am no longer whole. The emptyness is stark. Oh, how I wish you could hold me one more time, that I could hold that sweet face of yours, and see the love shining in those blue eyes.
Thank you for sharing a life for Christ with me. Thank you for the Godly man you were. Thank you for all the memories. Thank you for the love your poured out to all who came in contact with you. Most of all for the unconditional, constant, unselfish, precious love you gave to me, every second of our life together.
I have done my best to pay you the highest honor in your passing, as I could. I think you would be proud. I have always been and always will be proud and honored to have been your Darlin'!
I Love you SO!!!!!!!