Nearly a year now Grandpa...It still hurts..I still cry..a lot. God I miss you so so much.we are visiting everyone in AZ next week. I'm scared to go...I don't want to cry in from of my boys the whole time. how strange it will feel without you there. I wish it would stop hurting so much. I wish I could hug you again.you have the best warm hugs ever, I think I got that from you. I wish you could come back and when I got there next week, that you are there, in your seat..with that smile ..that smile I love so much. you know I'm going to look..I'll probably stare..hoping you are really there and I can trip over your cane trying to give you a hug again.