Bernadette, it's been 5 months and it seems like just yesterday we were at Jelly Belly. It was SO WONDERFUL seeing you so happy on your birthday. And then you were gone ! Never would I have dreamed it would be your last. You are missed so very much in so many ways. You would be having a ball trying to fit all my crap into half the space since I moved - but you'd be the one who could do it! And you'd also LOVE all the shops nearby and the beach and other places and things to do. And you would be able to breathe - I can now.
You were my middle child and we shared that "family placement." Yeah, silly to be writing this - you aren't here - but yes, you are always with me. When we were in Rio after you died ladybugs suddenly appeared when and where I'd least expect them and I called them all Bernie and chatted with you. ;>) When I unpacked some things here there was a ladybug - but it wasn't alive, almost like you saw me through the move, knew it was a good thing and then went on to other business. Please send ladybugs so I can chat again.