So many times I have felt like I am standing still in disbelief that any of this is real. I am doing my best to become "unstuck" but all it takes is a flood of memories to paralyze me all over again. I think of you so many times throughout each day and I miss you more than I can put into words. There is so much I want to share with you. I'm still struggling to figure out what I believe in and I hope you will help me answer those questions. I'm going to try very hard to spark some of the change I'd like to see in medical research and I need you to guide me.
I love you,