It's hard to believe that it's been six months now. "Half a year" sounds like a long time yet it feels like you were with us just yesterday. All it takes is closing my eyes to be with you again..... I wish I could slow time down. I don't want it to put distance between the present and the last time I saw you. I hate the thought of that. Missing you seems to get harder as time passes. Your absence feels more and more "real" and makes my heart so heavy. I know you'd be sad to see me struggling but I just can't seem to find peace. I think it will take a long time. I also think you'll help me along the way; it's what you always do. I love you, dad.