Dear Savior and Redeemer,
As Mother's Day is once again upon us my heart is heavy and aching. At the same time it is full of love, thankfulness, peace, and joy. How can I experience all of these emotions at one time? I know it is because of your love, most gracious forgiveness, and peace that passes all of my understanding. My heart grieves from the loss of my precious mother. One more hug… One more kind word exchanged… One more beautiful smile… What I would give just to have that today.
On a day meant to celebrate mothers, I had to say goodbye to mine. Goodbye to the sacrificial woman that spent so much of her time and energy teaching me and my brother about you, your love, and the amazing plan you have for us. I am forever grateful for the mother you chose just for ME and the impact she had and still has on my life.
My children; Josie, Jillian, and Grayson, miss their Nana and all of the time spent together playing, reading, singing, painting, and laughing. It is beautiful to daily see and feel my mother in the actions, words, and hugs of my children. What a precious gift.
Jesus, I cannot thank you enough for the blessings you have placed in my so unworthy and undeserving life. You know exactly where my heart is and what it seeks. I have no greater desire than to seek your will and obey your commands. You have tenderly and mercifully transformed a life through the loss of a life here on Earth. You, my precious Redeemer, have brought your light into the darkest places in my life and shone your glory and grace. You have breathed life and pure beauty into ashes and made pools of tears into a pure spring. You have become my fountain of grace and river of mercy. What you, my Lord and Savior, have done through the beautiful life and tragic death of my mother, Fredna Carol Roberson, has been a glorious work of your mighty hand.
This Mother's Day, exactly a year after I had to say an earthly goodbye to my mother, my two daughters are choosing to publicly share their life-changing decision of accepting You as their personal Savior. On May 12, 2013, Josie and Jillian will be baptized. My mother/Nana prayed for her grandchildren EVERY day and for their salvation and walk with you. Oh how I wish she could be here to celebrate this wonderful occasion with us. There is no doubt that she is celebrating with you in heaven!
I miss my mother more than I ever imagined possible. Her soft skin, loving personality, sparkling green eyes, precious smile, and tender hugs. Thank you for comforting and embracing me with your arms when I desire the gentle touch and conversation with my mother. I long for the day we are all back together again as a family. It won't be long, I know, before we are singing "Jesus Loves Me" and "Tis So Sweet" together once again. Until then, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which YOU are calling me. (translation from the Living Bible that my mother gave me) You are my strength when I am weak and the beautiful treasure that I seek. I thank you for what you have done and are continuing to do in my life and the life of my family.
Janet Carol Roberson Smith