I am not " a day late " as you would tease me . I started this 3 times yesterday . I reflect on the past seven years and wonder what you would think and be doing . So much sadness and so much joy has happened . Many things would have upset you but so many would have made you dance . I know you are with us every day. So it seems funny to be writing in this since I talk to you every day and yes , I get your signs always. REALLY did you have to send me an obnoxious cockatiel that just screams " Hi Charlie " all day long !Everyone is shocked when they hear him ! Very funny ! Every time I look at Alexandre , I know you sent him , too . Thank you for trying to ease the pain of your loss but it doesn't . I will take to the grave every minute of that horrible night . Even the phone ringing is imprinted on my soul. I can't write anymore. The pain a heart can take , no person really knows. I love you.