Happy Valentines's Day Sweetie and how I missed having you being gone. I was always excited to see you and being able to spoil you with a teddy bear and a big heart of chocolate. So now I just have here to write to you and share with you and it just isn't the same. I have decided to share some more of your pictures here should anyone come to ready this about your life and the joy that you brought to people and so that they can remember your smile that lit up the world.
I love you and Miss you munchkin and hate that I still have to be here on earth and your not.
You are always on my mind but especially lately I can't stop thinking about all that has happened since you left us. I pray that you are at peace and that you are looking down on us but I am really not sure what I think anymore, if I even do think. I sure hate that life has to continue on without you. I miss you so much that I can't even think of the words to make people understand what it is like to lose a child. Who am I kidding, no one understands this lose unless they have gone through it.
I love you and miss you and wish that you were here or for me to be with you.
Love you munchkin
May you recieve the peace that surpasses understanding. May you see new light in your darkest hour.
Happy New Year Magoo
It just isn't the same with celebrating a new year when you are not here to celebrate with us. You have no idea what a struggle it is with you being gone. I try to hide my pain to try and that doesn't work. This life is just not the same and does not have the same meaning either.
You meant the world to me and without you, the world doesn't mean anything.
We went to the lake to bring in the new year and although the first day was nice, the weather turned and so did my mood. I don't know how much longer I can put up this front to make people believe that I am okay and strong. I am not strong, I want our daughter back with us. I just wanted to say Happy New Year Melissa and we love you and miss you!!!!!.
Today marks two years since you left us. Today is no different that two years ago, my heart aches and life seems useless. People have gone on with living their lives and how I wish that I could be one of them. I put on a front on everyday just so I don't make people feel uncomfortable, why do we have to do that? Unless they have been living with losing a child, they don't have a clue on how much your heart breaks everyday until the day you die. Melissa, I miss you so much in my life and I know that you would want to try and live my life but it just doesn't feel like I can. I wish that no parent would ever have to feel like this and I don't think that I am strong enough to continue living a lie, making everyone feel like its okay.... ITS NOT OKAY. I pray that this pain will ease but today I realize that it won't, my daughter is gone, my best friend is gone... how do you get over that? Melissa everything I try to do is for you and in your honor but I still know that I am disappointing you with lying about everything and for that I am sorry but that is the only way that I know that I can live in this world without you.
Your dad hurts everyday and he is really trying but I know his pain and his regrets are eating him up inside. Nothing in this world is the same and sometimes I hate how I can't let things go to try and enjoy family and friends but I can't do it. With losing you, I have become selfish with my feelings and things that I want to do, life going to the lake to be close to you and Mom and Dad. I often wonder what you would be doing now and who you would be dating, you being excited for Megan to be getting married and all the new things in your life. I wish that you could be here to enjoy these things but your not and I can't get over that. My little girl is gone.... no grandkids.... nothing to get excited about. Melissa, I miss you more than you will ever know and I love you in all infinity and wish that I could see you smile, hear your laughter and feel your energy to continue on. I thank God for the 19 years that we got to share with you but God I wish that we could have had another 39 years with you. I would like to tell you that I love you and yes I know that I am rambling on so I love you and miss you Munchkin and I will try to make you proud.
Really thinking of you and wishing that you were here. I feel so alone most of the time. The front that I put on everyday tires me out and trying to be upbeat just exhausts me. I wish I could understand why you had to leave. I miss you Missy and I love you to the moon and back.
Really thinking of you and wishing that you were here. I feel so alone most of the time. The front that I put on everyday tires me out and trying to be upbeat just exhausts me. I wish I could understand why you had to leave. I miss you Missy and I love you to the moon and back.
You have been on my mind so much lately and I just wanted to tell you that I miss you and love you. My life is so empty without you and I just wanted you to know how proud I was to be your mom. I sure wish that you were here so I could hug you and talk with you, its just not the same.
Love you Missy!!!!!!
Tomorrow is another Easter that we have to live without you. You know when people say time heals all wounds, they are wrong. There is nothing that will heal the wound that is in my heart with not having you with us.
It just seems that nothing is the same with you not being here to celebrate holidays or just any day for that matter. I am still just walking around numb and just existing and it's not a nice feeling inside.
I read other mothers write beautiful words about their child and I just cannot do that. My main purpose in life now is to keep your memory alive and trying to be the best person I can be like you did. Your forgiveness of people is just what I keep thinking as I wish I could be like you.
Kyle and Heaven had a baby boy this past week and named him Tristen and I thought you would get a chuckle since one of your friends had the name. Kael is growing like a weed and God I wish you could be here to hold him, I know you have been a great Auntie to him.
Melissa, I truly do miss you and love you beyond what anyone could imagine and that part of my life is so empty.
Munchkin, why did you have to go away?
I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking about you today. Thats nothing new as I think about you everyday. Took some pictures a couple weeks ago with your dad and they immediately made me think of you and made me wonder if you were trying to send me a message and I really wish that I could understand why you had to leave us. So I thought I would say hello, I love you and miss you to the moon and back.
Today is Nana's 85th Birthday and really wishing you were here to help us celebrate with her as I know she misses you greatly as we all do. She has no idea that we are taking her for supper and surprising her by having Brandee and Jay, Maya & Ben, Kim, Sarah, Dave, Colleen, Sarah, Josh, Darrel and maybe Tori will be there to surprise her.
I really do wish that you were here, we love you and miss you.
Just really thinking of you right now and just wanted to say hello and I love and miss you.
Jake turned 18 yesterday and just wanted to post a couple of pictures of your cousins in your book.
Love you and miss you!
How much I miss you, love you and wish that you were here with us. I am thankful for the 19 years that we had together but just wish for 49 more. I know being selfish but I just don't understand why you had to go.
I love you so much Magoo.....
At truly hope that you are near and watching out over us but I wish I was with you.
Love you to the moon and back and miss you even more.
Good Morning Melissa
I haven't been on here for quite sometime but I never know how to put words down when I feel so low, I am trying to play with pictures of you and how to keep your memory alive, so I hope you like this one and I will post them as I get them done. You were my world and I am lost without you with me to keep trying different things and to share my photo's with. As your dad said, why bother who is going to look at them when I am gone. I have no one that will appreciate my pictures like you did. You made so much joy in my life and now that is gone. Everyone says that you are with me and I know in my heart you are there but I sure wish I could have you here with me to make my life worthwhile. It is so hard to continue everyday and put a smile on my face when I don't feel like that inside at all.
You smiling face and beautiful soul brought me so much joy and I still have to ask God Why!!! Why you???? Why not me? I know that you could exceeded in anything that you put your mind to. I love you Melissa and wish that you were beside me right now.
I hope you like this picture and pray that you can even see it.
Uncle Dave found this picture of you and Nanny and have to share with you both. We love you and miss you.
Merry Christmas Sweetie
The second Christmas that I have to go through without your loving smile, glowing personality, your ray of sunshine, your great hugs, but most of all - YOU. I miss you so much and cannot explain how I do not feel the same way about Christmas without you in my life. I wish I could see you once more, hold your hand or sit and laugh until we cry moment. I just wish so much that I could understand why. I hurt so much and try to hide it from everyone so that I don't bring them down but Missy that is how I feel. I miss our sit down talks that a lot of parents miss out on, we could talk about anything couldn't we? I try to continue on for you but it is getting harder and harder to do that, my heart is shattered and can't get that back.I remember the night before Christmas that we would be covered in flour doing our baking and I want that back!Looking at all the families together is just like a knife stabbing my heart once again. Your dad is happy that he gets to see his grandchildren open their presents but oh the cost to that is more than I can bear. People tell me that I am strong and can get through this, but sad to say but I am not that strong. I love you Missy and I pray that you and Nanny are together because I miss you both very much.
P.S. Merry Christmas Magoo
I miss you so much and just wish you were near as I really need you right now. I love you my Ray of Sunshine!!!
Woke up this morning with you on my mind so I am just going to tell you that I love you to the moon and back and miss you that much too.
Came to write to you today and make sure that this site didn't go offline and this is what I read when I came here:This Guest Book will remain online permanently courtesy of a loved one.... ". What a nice thing to read and not knowing who to thank. Now I can write to you and don't have to worry. I wish I could hug whoever did this for us but now I can just say thank you.
I miss you sweetie and still can't believe that you are no longer here. Love you sweetie and sure miss seeing your smile.
Oh Melissa I can't begin to say how much I miss ya just want you to kjow you are in my thoughts every single day and I know you are watching down on everyone who loves you.
Rest in Paradise Melissa day you are a beautiful angel
It has now been a year since you left us, or was taken from us. These last couple of days have been extremely hard on me and the realization that your not coming home has hit me hard the last couple of days. We went to the lake to be closer to you but was so hard to leave in fear of once again, losing you. I don't know why you had to be taken from us. I never will know why but in honor of your zest for life I try to continue to live on for you but God is that hard to do. Melissa I was looking forward to a wedding, a grandchild, growing with you and excited that you wanted to become a paramedic. All those dreams taken from both of us. I miss my best friend, my daughter and the best thing that ever happened to me and I don't know if I will ever have that joy again.
I love you and miss you and think about you everyday and every night. I could continue on with everything that I missed out with you gone but how selfish is that, your impact was great on so many people who are also losing out. I see the pain in your dad and it breaks my heart. Love you Magoo and wish you were here with us.
We'll girl, I wrote this to you the other day but it never went up so I'll re write it. Almost a year since you were taken away from us and it hasn't got any easier. Losing one of my best childhood friends had such a huge impacts on my life. Not a day goes by that your not in my thoughts. I was visiting with your mom the other day and was talking about the great childhood memories we made. We talked about all the camping trips we went on all over the place. How we would play pollypockets for hours on end while eating our plain chips with ranch dressing. I wish we wouldn't have grow apart as we got older. Your such an amazing person who had so much potential. I talked to some people about what they would do if thy had one wish. Some said they would wish for all the money in the world, get the nicest sports car and so on and so on. The one thing I would wish for is to bring you back. It's so hard to see the people who love you so hurt from your passing. The people who knew you were so lucky to. I know if I ever needed some to talk to I could. You simply could brighten up anyone's day by a simple smile and wave. I know when I'd drive by you would have this impact on me. I miss you everyday and wish I could bring you back. That contagious smile and wonderful personality is what everyone misses so much. I love you girl. <3
I write to you today just to say that I love you and miss you greatly. I know you have no pain, no sorrow, no tears and I wish I could say the same. I walk through each day trying to honor you each day, hardest thing I have ever had to do. I just want you back in my life, I wish I could wake up from this horrible nightmare and see your smiling face. It is so lonely without you. I looked forward to growing with you so much as a young adult but that has been stolen from me. I look at you each day, tell you I love you each day but it isn't the same as hearing your voice, hugging that smile and seeing the joy in your face and in your heart. I Love you Melissa with all my heart and soul.
Eleven months since you left us and whoever said that it gets easier is a liar. Try to keep busy but you are always on my mind and in my heart. The masks change daily and the tears just don't quit. I find my thoughts straying and really can't keep on task to doing anything. I try and go to the lake as much as possible hoping that I will feel closer to you but it just breaks my heart when it is time to leave and say goodbye once again. I have tried to go on to honor you but I just don't feel the same anymore, everything is a fight and I just can't keep fighting alone anymore. It was always something that I always told you as you were being mistreated, you have to fight back but I just don't know how to fight this one. With you here with us I had a purpose to fight back but you are gone now.
I love you Melissa and miss you greatly and pray that I get strength from your memory. Love you baby girl.
Thinking of you often, remembering you each day!
Your dad did a great job with getting the trailer spot at the lake looking quite nice and I think that it was good for your Dad and Poppa to bond with each other since it was only the two of them out there. I feel that it was a good thing to keep your dad going and he doesn't know that I hear him crying late at night and asking why his little girl. I do not know how to help him or myself so we will stay like this until we can figure this out and hopefully it won't destroy us. We love you and miss you sooo much Melissa and will post a picture of the trailer so that you can see how good your dad and poppa did, I think that you would be proud of them working together. I wish that you were here to see this Missy, better mark this on the calendar, lol. Missy there is so much that I would like to talk to you about but people might think that I am crazy. Well I am crazy because you are not here. Love You Magoo!!!!!
Today is my birthday and cannot seem to have anything that means anything since the day you left us. I have been thinking of you quite a bit and wondering if we made the right choices for you and if we didn't, please forgive us, I miss you so much and its hard holding in all these feelings and pretending that life is okay. It's NOT okay, my baby girl isn't with us, my best friend is no longer here with me, everything that brought me joy, is gone. I have nothing to keep going with, all my dreams and hopes of everything fun is now gone. Why Why Why? What did I ever do to deserve this much pain? Why did my only want in life be taken from me? Why did I deserve to have my heart shattered, what did I do so bad? Please Go tell me what you want me to learn from this! What did I do so Bad? Why Why Why???? I never knew how to love anyone until you came into my life, I didn't think I could love someone with all my heart until you came into my life. Yes I am thankful for the 19 years that I could spend with you but why can't I have my little girl, big girl, friend, my sunshine in my life. I miss you Melissa and love you so much. Love Mom.
Your dad and I are feeling lost without you in our lives and trying to cope is getting harder and harder. I know that you are not wanting this reaction from us but we just can't help how we feel.
We have the trailer in the driveway but no drive to take it anywhere, there is no more excitement in our lives and no drive to to continue doing things for our darling daughter, our best friend, our ray of sunshine, hope and dreams is no longer here with us. I wish I could write like Poppa does in order that you could hear all of my thoughts but I cannot find the words for the hurt and pain that I feel or experience.
Missy, I wish with all my heart and soul that you could walk in the front door, smile at me, laugh or cry with me, just sit and talk about nothing or just be together one more time.
I am so sorry that I did so many things wrong while you were with us and have asked to be forgiven for those. I miss you sooooo much, you were everything to me and I love you to the moon and back.
Wish I could given you a hug in person but I can't so I am giving you the biggest hug within my heart. Love you and miss you sweetie with all my heart.
Nine months today that you have gone away from us and it still is not easy to cope with you being taken.
Thought you would like this poem:
"My Mom Lies”
My Mom, she tells a lot of lies.
She never did before.
From now until the day she dies,
she'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mom how she is,
and because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mom how she is,
She'll say, “I'm alright”.
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mom how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see
nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mom how she is,
“I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping”.
For God's sake Mom, just tell the truth
just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
she'll lie and say she's fine.
I am here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
So If she lies to you don't listen,
hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
I'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, “You're lucky to get in here, Mom,
With all the lies you told!”
Love you and miss you
Tomorrow is eight months since you left us and have to tell you that it isn't any easier. I try to keep pushing through mu up and down emotions but nothing seems to help with the pain that I have in my heart. I get frustrated so easily and I just want my daughter back to be by my side. We had a rocky start which turned into the best friend in the world to me. I know that you wouldn't want me crying but it is so damn hard, first mom then you WHAT LESSON AM I TO LEARN???? Still no answers and no one is forthcoming, I don't know what to do, I am lost and can't see any light. Missy, this is so hard, I really don't enjoy anything anymore. I am frustrated with everything and don't know where to turn.
I love you and miss you and I pray that you know how much I love you and miss you. God I wish I could see my daughter one more time to tell her how much she meant to my life. I truly hope that you and mom are together as I miss you both.
Love you munchkin. Miss seeing your smiling face and getting the best hugs ever. Love you Melissa.
Planted the garden yesterday that you loved so much and put new soil so I hope that it grows better this year than last year. Your dad and I had a cry this morning together wishing that you were here and missing you so much. I can't believe that time is going so fast, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you and wish I could feel your warm embrace with a hug and your sunshine smile. I wish I could say how I feel but the words just won't come, I miss my little girl, I miss doing things and having silly talks and laughing with you. I still can't believe that you were taken from us, I wish I could understand why, I wish I could understand what I did to deserve this much pain in my life. Why did you have to go? Why, what did I do wrong? Why did you have to leave us? I pray that somehow I am shown what my purpose is here on earth because I sure don't feel like I have one. God I wish I could understand this. I try to put a smile on my face and I try to let everyone think I am normal, but I'm Not! This has forever changed me, I am trying but it isn't easy. Losing Mom then losing you, my heart just can't take anymore, it is in pieces.... I wish I could honor you and not cry but I just can't do it, I can't stop the tears from flowing, I am sorry sweetie.
We love you and miss you every minute of everyday.
We stopped by the memorial last night at 1 AM and was happy that your light was shining but it was the hardest thing to leave knowing that I would not get a hug from you as I have in the last 18 years. It was hard to leave knowing that I would not hear you say Happy Mothers Day Momma or to say "Lets go Shopping", to see your smile or to hear your laughter or just to cuddle up and watch a movie. It was the hardest thing to leave you alone out in the dark, your my little girl, your supposed to be here with us, I miss you so much I can't even put words to how this hurts or feels. Love you Sweetie xoxo
Yesterday was a very hard day for your mom and dad but I wanted to share the pictures that Dax took and I will post my pictures later when I can put the proper words of how I felt with them. We should have been celebrating with you but since we couldn't do that, we put the memorial for you so we can come and talk with you. We love and miss you and think of you every minute of everyday sweetie and cannot believe that you haven't been here for six months as it just feels like yesterday. Love you pumpkin and wish I could give you a big hug right now.
Well melissa its your birthday tomorrow and i wish you were here for it just so we could hang out have a good time and so i could see your beautiful smile just one more time. i miss you so much. and i know that you are looking over all of us right now and telling us to keep strong and enjoy life at its safest. love you and miss you missy.
Rest in paradise. and Happy birthday
Happy Birthday to you Melissa and tomorrow is 6 months since you left us and I hope and pray that I can put the memorial up tomorrow in honor of your birthday. My little girl would have been turning 20 years old tomorrow and I wish and pray that we could have been celebrating with you instead of without our little girl. We miss you and love you and the pain is no easier than it was 6 months ago. We are going to celebrate your birthday with your friends tonight so Happy Birthday Sweetheart and Dad and Mom miss you and we love you til the end of time. Rest in peace sweetie.
I just wanted you to know that I have been thinking about you so much lately and that I have been trying to be strong, your tattoo that you got for Nanny keeps coming into my head. I keep pushing to continue on but it seems to be getting harder and harder, just want to die so that I can be with you. I sure don't know what I did so bad to deserve losing you, wish I could take it all back what ever it was, I wish you could come back to me and your dad. I love you so much and miss you so much. Your birthday is coming up and I am not looking forward to that at all. God I wish you would not have died, wish you could continue with your dreams, getting married, having children, being so full of life and enjoying every minute of it. Just wanted to let you know what I was thinking lately and just to say Hi to my daughter and best friend.
Love you and Miss you
Just wanted you to know that Easter is tomorrow and was really hard not to buy you your chocolate bunny, couldn't even go into that department. Dad, Nana, Brandee, Jay and I went to a play at the Foothills Alliance Church on Good Friday and I think it was good for us to go, had a cry, got mad at God for taking you away. Your departure in our lives has taken its toll on me and on your dad. I miss you so much and it hurts so bad. I just wanted you to know that I have been thinking about you more so than normal and wishing you a very Happy Easter if that is even possible. I miss you very much sweetie and I can't believe that five months is coming up very soon. Missy, I love you with all my heart and always will.
Nana and Dad's birthday's are now over and we spent the evening with Brandee and Jay, really wished that you could have spent that night with us. I miss you sooo much and the pain seems to be getting more and more everyday. I want you back in my life so bad and not getting any answers just adds to the hurt and pain that we are not understanding what really happened. I pray every night that the truth comes out so that we can understand and will keep praying until we find out. I miss you sweetie and really would like my best friend back in my life. Just doesn't make any sense and my life has been turned upside down with no idea how to change it around. I just wanted you to know that I think about you and miss your smiling face. I call your phone so that I can hear your voice which provides some comfort but not enough that one hug from you could fix. I Love you munchkin and miss you!
I can't imagine that the days are easier. Always thinking of you Jody and Greg.
I miss you. More than ever.
Wish you were here to see me at my 16. You hold a special place in my heart. No one understands the relationship we had & the friendship you gave me. My best friend, Missy. I think about you everyday, in the situations I face, just thinking of what you would tell me in my times of trouble. I cannot tell you how much you got me through & replaying the words you say to me, still get me through.
I love you, Missy, Forever & always.
Tomorrow is 4 months since we lost our ray of sunshine. We miss you deeply and I still can't believe that our only daughter has been taken from us. Don't know what I did so bad in my life to deserve losing you but at least I am searching out to learn. Melissa I miss you every second of everyday. We love you Melissa. God I wish I could understand.
Miss your smile, laughter and most of all what I wouldn't give for you to walk through the door and yell "Hey Momma I am home!"
Rest in peace Missy and we love you and miss you sweetie.
Love Dad and Mom
We came home to not having you with us and not being able to laugh, snicker and discuss the interests of the trip which was extremely hard, why bother coming back, your not here to share with. Then to be told to look for another job and now I need to ask you for your forgiveness as so many times I didn't spend the time with you for a job. Please forgive me, I should have known that it was just a job and I said that I was doing it for you, boy was I wrong so please forgive me. I still can't believe that you are no longer with us and my heart is still in a million pieces and I really don't have a purpose anymore. You were my life!!!! My God why did you have to leave???? Why Why Why. People keep telling me that what goes around comes around, so what did I do so bad to lose you? I know that I have made mistakes and God only knows that I am trying to learn from them, but what am I to learn from losing you? I wish I knew, I wish I knew what purpose that I am doing on this earth. I miss you so much as does your dad and I pray that people are right that we will meet again and that you are looking over me and that you are with Nanny. I wish I could hear what I am supposed to do now, I don't know what to do. I know that God has been carrying me since Nov 3 and I just don't know how to continue without you, your smile, your laughter, your sarcasm, your beautiful spirit, I miss you Munchkin. Please forgive me for all my downfalls as a Mother and I wish I could have seen this before you passed so I could have shown you the love, compassion, support, laughter, tears of joy and all that life should have offered you. We love you Missy and will for the rest of our lives and I pray that we get to see you again soon.
Love and miss you everyday.
Your Dad and I went to Jamaica but it just wasn't the same, our ray of sunshine, our little pumpkin, munchkin, our sweet daughter was not with us. Everyone said that you were overhead looking down on us but it just didn't feel right with you not beside your Dad and Mom. Valentine's Day was extremely hard for me as my heart is broken into a million pieces and they are just kinda of numb. We Love you and Miss you everyday sweetheart. I wish I could put words to how I feel, I just can't believe that you are no longer here with us. Love you.
Today we leave for what was supposed to be a family holiday but I know that you will be with us each step of the way but there is a nagging thought of someone not being there and that is you. I wish I had the words to express how your dad and I feel but there aren't any words. It was going to be the best surprise to you and the surprise was on us. I miss you so much sweetie and so does your dad. I wish I could hear you laughing and showing excitement today but I know you are laughing, I just can't hear you.
My heart is breaking all over again.
I love you Magoo and Miss you.
You are always in my thoughts Missy but more so in the last couple of weeks. Just yesterday I was remembering when you and your dad were at our place this past summer, playing the move game and watching movies all day because it was raining outside, bowling....I can hear your laughter and see your smile and it seems unreal that you are not with us. I only knew you for a short while and my heart hurts that you are not here, I cannot fathom how profound your loss is felt by your parents and family. Missing you...
I can't believe that it is just about three months since you left us. The empty feeling in my heart just stays empty, nothing seems to interest me anymore. Nana hasn't been feeling very good lately so I am worried about her. You leaving changed so much in our lives and I cannot get you off my mind.
I miss you everyday! I am trying to add pictures for your memory book but it is so hard to do. Seeing your smiling face on every picture just reminds me how you are no longer with us. Oh Missy, I wish this didn't happen, you were my life and maybe that is why you were taken from us I don't know!!! I miss you so much that sometimes it is so hard to continue on with life period. I wish I new what the lesson is that I am supposed to learn from this but right now I don't have a clue, all I know is that I miss my baby girl. I love you more than you will ever know and I am sorry that this had to happen to you and if your dad and I let you down, we are sorry. I just wish that we could have more time with you as I miss you so badly.
I love you munchkin!!!!!
We Love you and Miss you Munchkin xoxoxo
Mom and Dad
Happy New Year Munchkin, your dad and I didn't feel like celebrating New Years Eve this year, it just isn't the same since you left us.
I wish I could put into words the way I feel, see life now and feel like my life has no purpose. You were everything to me and I just wish that I could have been there more for you, fought harder for you and changed this so it wouldn't have happened. I miss my little girl, the one who came in with a big smile and said "Hey Momma" and wrapped her arms around me and gave me the biggest hug ever. Oh to have that again. Missy I just want you back in my life!!!! Even though I didn't show it, you were the most important girl in my life. I feel so empty and dark. So many unanswered questions.... God why did our daughter have to die????
I miss you sweetie and I love you and I always will.
We love you and miss you. Christmas was not the same even though we spent the morning with Maya and Ben, Brandee and Jay, Dax and Carol, Janet, Kate, Darcie and Chris but the joy just wasn't there. I wish you could have been with us just once so that you could see that your wish came true, just wish it didn't have to take this for that to happen. I so wish for me to be able to give you a hug right now. We love you magoo.
Mom and Dad
I miss you more and more and I wish we would have been able to spend this Christmas together. It was going to be our first together as best friends but I know your still here with me in many ways. I woke up this morning and like always you were the first thing on my mind and I just wanted to tell you I love you and hope your having a good Christmas with Nanny. I hope your doing okay up there, I miss and love you so much!
Melissa - It was last year at this same time that you were here with me...laughing together, playing with the kids and being sisters. Your absence tonight makes my heart ache. I miss you more than I can say in words. I can't believe that you are gone. There are so many things I wish I could have told you before you left. Did you know how much I loved you and loved being your sister? Did you realize how much strength I got from you just being you - you were so honest and vulnerable and beautiful. DId you know how much joy I got from seeing you with my kids and knowing how much you loved them? DId you know that you are quite simply one of the best people I ever knew and that I trusted you with my heart? Did you know that I needed you in my life? I wish I could have done more and been there more for you. I feel like so many moments that could have been have now been taken away from us and sometimes the pain of that realization is too much to bear. Missy - I miss you so much it hurts. My love for you runs deep and will remain forever. I know you are at peace in heaven with Jesus and I pray that peace for us and for your mom and dad. We just won't be able to get through this without it. I love you, sister. I love you.
"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." 1 Cor 13:13
Jody you and your family will be in our thoughts. I hope all those that go before us are celebrating being reunited and that Granny,Papa Jordy, Uncle Dennis, Aunty Elsie,Uncle Teddy, Uncle Jack, Rhonda, Uncle Joe, Susan and Aunty Honey have embraced Melissa with loving arms and will try to send comforting thoughts to you through family and friends.
You are much loved and dearly missed, give Nanny a big hug for me. I miss her too.
Tomorrow is Christmas and you are in heaven with Nanny and my heart cannot let go of this pain. I can't bring myself to enjoy this time as your not here to make it fun and full of spirit. What can I do? I can't see your smile and feel your arms embrace us with a hug. Our ray of sunshine, our pumpkin, our sweetheart has been removed from our lives and I don't know how to continue on when that was the only thing I truly wanted in life, I know we got the pleasure and gift of you for 19 years and am thankful for that but we miss you so much and I wish you would just be here for us. Missy we love you and miss you and constantly think of you everyday.
Love you pumpkin
There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss having your beautiful smile at work with me. Even though I only knew you for 3 short months, I miss you every day missy. But I know you are still with us in spirit. My thoughts and prayers go out to all your friends and family. Much love.
Went to a grief share last night with Brandee, Nana, Chrissy and Tori and all I could think of was this is for the rest of my life, you not being here. My heart just crumbles when I think of this and I just can't imagine going through this everyday for the rest of my life. I miss so much of your spirit in my life, you gave me a purpose, ambition and inspiration to move forward. What am I going to do now, where does my inspiration come from now. Why did you have to go and leave us? Why did this have to happen? Why Why Why. I wish I could understand but I can't. Melissa you were such a great daughter and thank you for that, we learned together, laughed together, cried together, you were so much of my strength. I miss you sweetie and I know that you are at peace but it doesn't help this hole in my heart. I Love You Melissa.
Where do I begin? You'd have an answer to that, because you had an answer for everything. You had the honest advice I needed, even when I didn't want to hear it, but you knew I needed to. For the first time in awhile, I'm going to be honest. I miss you. That's hard for me to say since I am just coming to the realization that you're gone. I am having the hardest time accepting that. Each day I roll out of bed and begin my morning routine which involves heading to work where I avoid all other aspects of my life. Then I find myself alone, usually driving and I do nothing but cry. I can't even sing a song, I just listen to the lyrics. I can relate to a lot of them now, it seems. I know that's normal, well people who are dealing with other losses said it was anyway. However I know other people who pass by me and whiteness me talking to "myself" see me as crazy. But you know I'm just chatting and laughing with you. Not a day passes where I do not think of you. You and i have have gone through way to much not to. We have so many memories, so embarrassing we said we should forget, that now I pray to never leave behind. Although prayer has got me through so much, I wish I could just sit across from you at a table, and talk about nothing like we use to. Mind you so much has happened in this last month that I would be chatting your face off. You were that friend I turned to when losing someone and I lost you. I no longer take relationships for granted; thanks to you all bonds I have are tighter... stronger. I'm soon to go off and do me, start my life and follow my dreams. We always said we would do it together, but knew that realistically that couldn't happen. But now I know hat every life adventure I take part in, you'll be by my side cheering me on and doing it with me. no matter the distance or time apart we always reunited like no days passed by. I'm nervous for that day we see each other again, I'm going to be so eager to tell you stories and you'll already know... There is no surprise in that. But I'm still excited. You're freedom has been granted And one day mine will be too. Love you xoxox
I call you but it goes to your voicemail, you don't answer. I text you but you don't reply. . I miss my best friend. Everyday I reply that day in my mind hoping that at some point soon, I will wake up to your texts saying 'Morning bestfriend! It's time to get up and start your day! Love you' and go to sleep after our day with a long phone call and again end it with an 'I love you.' I wish I could hear your voice saying that again and I wish I told you it more. But your mom, Nana, Tori and I went out the other day and shared some laughs and smiles and on Thursday Tori and I are going for our first run of the season. I wish I was able to teach you how to board, I know you didn't want to but you know you'd come anyways just to put a smile on my face like always. I miss you every second more and more. I love you with all my heart Missy.
Melissa, there is not a day that goes by that you are not in my thoughts and I shed a tear or two. I say a silent prayer for your mom, dad, Nana, Popa and everyone who loved you.
Sweetie, its been just over a month but seems like yesterday. How I miss your loving smile, open heart, laughter and you rolling your eyes at me. Its like I am locked in a bad dream and can't awake. I still think your going to walk through the door and say "Hey Momma". It is so dark and lonely without your ray of sunshine in my life even though friends and family have been so supportive. You would be proud of your friends, they bought your dad dogtags that he can hold onto and keep close to his heart which often times, I see him holding onto them, they bought Nana and I bracelets along with themselves so that we can stay connected. I miss you so much and wish you could see the impact you made on so many lives.
Give Nanny a hug for me and thank you for the best 19 1/2 years of joy you gave to your Dad and I. We love you Melissa and miss you greatly.
I can still see your smile. And always hear your laughter. I wish that I could feel your hugs and we could talk again if only for awhile. I know your watching over me. Seeing all that I do. I know you'll always be with me although I'll still be missing you. You taught me so much and that life is much too short. That anything at anytime it could only end. That no matter where you are, you'll always be my best friend. I know it was time for you to go and you'll be there with your hand out, smile on your face to show me the way when it's mine. I wish that I could see you but I truly know I will again someday, somewhere at some time. . Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. Everyone tells me it will get easier but it only seems to get harder. The tears come faster and the heartache doesn't seem to stop hurting. I miss you every day. Waking up to our goofy messages that nobody else would understand and then falling asleep after what felt like a short phone call that was really realistically two hours. You were my advice at anytime, my shoulder to lean on and we were always side by side. It's hard without you here best friend but I know it's not the end. I feel you here with me everyday. Your still there going with me through everything. You let me be me and words cannot describe how much I loved you for that. I am so lucky to have someone like you for a best friend, everyone should have had a friend like you and you being you, you welcomed and loved everyone that passed by. Your an angel by my side. I love you Missy, always have, always will. Forever and ever best friend. <3
Not a day goes by without thinking of you Missy, you are so sadly missed. The holidays will not be the same without you. It's been over a month and it's still hard to believe. I was blessed to have you in my life for the past 2 years and I will cherish the memories forever. My heart aches for your mom and dad and I wish I could take the pain on myself to spare them the heartache. You were a bright star and will be in our hearts forever.
Melissa, I think about you and your family everyday. You were such a kind soul and I always knew that if I needed someone to talk to you would surely listen. I remember all the things we did as children and I am so grateful that I was blessed with your friendship. Until we meet again beautiful. Rest in paradise <3
Rest in peace Missy, you were deeply loved and cherished by many and I hope you are safe in Nanny's arms now and she is taking good care of you until we are all reunited with you.
Including a candle with my precious entry (my name was auto corrected. I am not Noreen)
I had the pleasure of getting to know Melissa as well as help her in class the last few months, I was shocked and saddened to hear of her passing. I can't imagine what you are going through, and am keeping her and you in my thoughts.
Our family sends our thoughts and prayers to you and your family at this time. We are very sorry for your loss. If you need anything please ask
Missy your gentle spirit was an example to all. You will be missed.
My Thoughts and Prayers are with you, at this most difficult time.
Oh munchkin how my heart aches that I wasn't able to give you a hug and kiss before you left, I am relying on Nanny to take my place for now and don't know if I can do this without you. You were my shining star and ray of sunshine and I have been so blessed to have such a great daughter and friend. I miss you sooooo much, I can't believe that you were taken so early, I love you Missy and wish I was with you, Love Mom.
Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time.
Our sincerest sympathy to your family on your tragic loss.
No words can express the sadness we feel.
Our hearts and thoughts go out to you all. Please know that we pray for each one of you - extended Dancey family members. There are no words.
My heartfelt condolences go out to your families. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Our Heart goes out to you Greg, Jody and Edith. We can not express how sorry we are. Missy will remain in our lake memories forever. She was such a wonderful joy, Know that she touched the hearts of many people.
Elan, Katelyn and Fay Rewerts
There are no words that can express my level of compassion for the Day family. My deepest prayers are with you. Heaven has been greatly blessed with an angel. Melissa, you will always be remembered.
- Your Fellow "unknown" Classmate
We are Hilary Budgeon's grandparents and want you to know that you are very much in our thoughts and prayers. May your happy memories of Melissa sustain in the coming days and may her beautiful character be legacy to all of her friends and family.
Fred and Myrna
No words can ease your pain. Please know you all our in our thoughts and prayers during this terrible time. Keep her memories close as they will live forever.
No words can say how sorry we are to hear of Melissa's passsing please take comfort in knowing she is now watching over your family and will always be smiling down on you and keeping you safe
We all Pray for you all on this day, please know we are all thinking and sending our love.
Our thoughts and prayers go out to your families today. Please know our hearts are with you all.
thinking of you today and always. Thoughts and prayers to your Mom, Dad, and Grandfather Ken It's a hard thing to go through, but you come from a strong famiy and will be missed forever. lots of love to all.