Last Saturday marked one month since you left. My world has been in total disarray and chaos. I miss you so much. Ill be driving down the road and there is no phone call, "Where u at", having you wake me in the morning, "You got to get up and take xman to the bus", be there when i sleepwalk and tell me to go back to bed, to hear you snore all the way through the house, call me from Brians to say, "Babe, I had a few and ill come to the house in the morning to kiss you on the way to work, I Love you", to hear the laughter of the babies when you play together, etc....there is so much more. I talk and write you every day to tell you the babies want you everday, what is going on with us, how much I cry for you, how mad I am that you are gone, wishing things were different, how nothing is the way it should have been and what we wanted, and sometimes all i can write is I love you and fill the page. I want you here to hold me and tell me everyday you love me and that everything will be alright and even though you are not here in body , you are here so much in spirit, and someday soon we will be together and ride together again "I Love You, Baby", is what I wrote on your right arm going into surgery so that you could look down and know I was there 24/7, and it was there that evening. Keep looking, I'll be there. Xavier, Eve, Trish, Mom, Dea, Mark, and the friends you loved all miss you and love you. I Love You, Always and Forever.