Mom, I've tried to add another message to your guest book but somehow it won't let me. I placed a comment on your birthday-wishing you happy birthday-knowing you are with Dad now. I did place some flowers on your grave site with a large red kiss. I tried to write another message on your fourth week of leaving us and again it did not take. I talk to you often in my Jeep while I'm driving. I hope you can hear me. I miss you. There are so many things I want to thank you for but I think you already know. I've been struggling with my selfish thoughts cause I wanted you to stay. I wanted you to know that you will be another Great Yia Yia and maybe I'll have that girl I've always wanted. If I do then I hope to pass on your values and strong heart. I still cry often and talk about you so much. I quess thats my grieving process but mostly I was amazed how you handled your illness. Every time you strived to jump one hurdle another one came up. I think you just got tried. I remembered on Christmas eve you told me you Loved me! I held you hand and kissed you but I didn't think you wanted to leave yet. There I go again wishing you could of stayed a few more weeks, months but God needed you. I had to let you go. You were talking to Dad and God. I knew then that your life was complete. Mom I love you more then you know. Please give me a sign that you are OK. Love your little Angel/baby Jane.