To My Son Josh,
Since God took you home, not a moment has passed that I don't think of you. Your memory is in every breath I take. Your unforgettable smile is engraved in my mind. So many have said that you lived every day to the fullest. I believe that is true. You were a truly unique individual. You had more strength than anyone I have ever known. You always were able to handle whatever came your way...no matter the difficulty. You still kept a smile on your face and moved on. I admired that about you. You and I were so similar, but yet so different. I think that made our bond unbreakable.
I watched you take your first breath, and I watched you take your last. Those two events will always be the highest and lowest points of my life.
You were cheated out of so many good things in life...love, marriage and children. I would have given my own life to give those opportunities back to you.
I thought I would have more time with you, but God had other plans. I never got to say goodbye properly or tell you how deeply I love you. It is truly unconditional love that only a parent can have for a child. I know we will meet again in a better place.
I am as confidant in that as I am in the fact that he has his arms around you now. That does bring me some peace.
I'll say "goodbye" for now, baby. We'll see each other again soon. All my love. Mom.