To Tanya: In reading all of the entries it is apparent how deeply your husband is loved and how much he is missed. As you and your family endure this trial, I want to encourage you with these words; that despite Johnny no longer being here on earth, his spirit still lives. The spirit never dies - we are eternal beings. Johnny is no longer here in the physical; however, he is still here. He lives through those who cherished him and those whom he loved the most, especially your children. In your children you will see his mannerisms and his ways; you will hear his thoughts and if you look closely enough you will see his smile. During this time, search for him through loved ones and when you do, you will realize that, although he is not here in the physical, he isn't gone.