I've written about 30 of these entries since 2008 and erased them, I just couldn't hit submit. You were one of the best NCO's I ever knew. I wasn't in your platoon, but same company, but still sought you out for advice and guidance. You taught me how to survive in the snow and altitude when I showed up from the FMF. You also had been in my shoes before, you taught me how to deal with from going from the Grunts to the POGs in the FSB. You saved me from going insane. If we could just go back to those times in 1998, Fat Tire beer and making fun of fat bodies. I've gained some weight over the years, that's irony isn't it?
I learned about what happened to you while I was in Africa. Krenzer told me, I didn't believe him, didn't want to, I couldn't. Then I saw later the reports, and it shook me up. You were larger than life, that smile, no matter what you always had that smile like everything was going to be just fine.
We spent a lot of time in the field and in Motor Pools together in Colorado. Me, you, Moyer, Cody Mitchell, Del Toro shooting the breeze. How could we have known back then what would be now, we couldn't have. I've tried my best to be someone you, Moyer, Mitchell and Del Toro would be proud of.I'm in Norway right now, it's peaceful here, I hope you've found peace, I'm trying. I know Dawn doesn't know me, but our boys are the same age. I remember you and I talking about our kids at times. If your family ever needs anything I hope they know they can contact me, anything, no questions asked.
I know physically you are gone, but spiritually, for some reason I sense you are still around, pretty much the reason I wrote this in first person.
You will never be gone to those of us who knew you, admired you and were inspired by you.