Bryan, I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to sign your guest book. It's just been so difficult to type through the tears. I've tried several times and just couldn't do it – please forgive me. You'll never know just how much you meant to me. I loved you the day I laid eyes on you, and that love never faded. Even through our ups and downs I always knew you were the one I was supposed to be with. I've never been so close to anyone in my life and and most likely will never be again. You were my sun, my moon and part of every single emotion I experienced for almost 25 years. How I would loved to have celebrated a 25th anniversary with you. My life will never be the same now that you're gone, but I'm glad you're not suffering any longer. I once told you and your sister, Elaine, that you were one of the 3 people in my life that I admired the most, and it's true. I could never have endured the trials and tribulations you encountered the last few years and maintained my sanity – you were much stronger than you ever gave yourself credit for. There will never be anyone in my life that can take your place. I miss you, Rudy misses you, and you were loved and are missed by so many friends that I can't even count them. I still see you in every room of our home. I still think about you virtually every moment of every day. I lay in bed and wonder why you're not there with me. You were my world, and still are. I never knew just how much influence you had on my life until you were gone. You were my reason for getting up in the morning, the reason I went to work, the reason I came home – the reason I did everything. I know it sounds cliche, but when God mad you he truly broke the mold. When my life is over and I've left this earth, the first person I hope to see is you. No one else matters, at least not to me. I just hope you know how much I love you – and always will. No one can ever take your place. Please know that we'll be together again, it's the only thing that makes sense. I love you, I cherish you, and I wouldn't trade one day with you for anything in the world. I want you back so badly I can't even think. So, wait for me and help me get through all this and I'll see you when the time is right. You're my one and only.