Brandon Stovall

Hi Brandon,

I've been thinking about you a lot. I always do, but even more so these last few months. Whenever I was scared I'd look at your picture that hangs just a little crooked in my bedroom right across from my bed and I'd think of all we did together and smile. You make me so proud.

The other day my entire body was so inflamed that it felt like every organ I had was fighting over who got to stop working first. I was sure one of them would win and I was gonna be drinking some Holy Water with you soon. I was at peace with what I had done here on earth but after it starting getting more painful and I got scared. I got scared of dying Brandon. Really scared.

I looked over and saw you there in that picture and knew I needed to man up. Since we met I've aspired to stand as tall and brave as you. Sis will confirm that I'll never be taller than her knee caps but I did man up. I was brave.

I was brave for two reasons. First, I wanted to make you proud of me too. I needed to be as brave as you even if I couldn't stand tall. The other reason I was brave is because I knew that you'd be there waiting with a big Stovie hug. I was comforted by that.

I have some medical tests coming up to do soon and I don't want to do any of it. I wouldn't do any of it either but I made a pinky promise to a great friend that I would and you know that can't be broke.

Regardless of what the results are please remind me to stand tall. Whenever it is we drink that Holy Water together I don't need you teasing me about the brave thing because sis already gots the "ya so short ya need a ladder to hit my knee caps" part covered down here just fine.

I love you. Oh, and just a heads up, don't argue with Queen Daisy over who gets the first hug. I'll explain later.

Thinking about a big Stovie hug and smiling :) I love you!

Take comfort in knowing that now you have a special guardian angel to watch over you.

Missing u everyday B boo!

I need you tonight. Please come give me a Stovie hug.

I have been thinking about you in everything that I do. I think about the things that you would be saying to me right now. Those are the words that I wish I could hear out loud so bad. I don't know what to do or what directions to start out in. I have cleaned myself up for awhile. Been working my way back up and now that I am here I don't know what the next step should be. I wish I could here you telling me to get to steppin and do what you gotta do, and be good! I miss you brandon.

Brandon,
Be with your family this Thanksgiving. They are a blessing to me and mine, Like you are to them. Give them wonderful memories, and let them know "It's all good" we will see you again someday. But for now visit them.

You saved me again, but I'm sure you know that. I'm gonna owe you lots of hugs by the time I get to Heaven. I'll do my best to stop disappointing you so "it is all good." I love you Brandon and miss you more than you could know. Come visit me in a dream soon because we have some catching up to do. And please look over the family. We need you...

I miss you everyday. I went to peace park a couple weeks ago to talk to you. I just wanted you to know that Im clean and have been since 2009 and that I wish I could have you hear with all of us that you left behind. I really wish you could of met my daughter who is going on three years old. You were such an influence on all of us back then and still to this day even though you are gone you are a huge influence. Keep a spot open for me it's going to a long while but when I get up there I will be expecting a big stovie hug :) I love you!