Jacqueline Fay Bieszk

Hi My Lovely Daughter,

It's been awhile since I've written. Things have been really busy and crazy. I have a lot to say today.

I took Peyris, Malayah, Aidan, Grayson and Porter to Cave of the Mounds a couple weeks ago and then out to eat and then to a bakery to get special cupcakes. We all had fun. It was nice to see them again. I'm planning to take them to Chicago too for an overnight visit.

Jamie and Stephanie are both pregnant. They are about two months apart from each other. I wish you were here to be part of their pregnancies because I know how you like stuff like that.

One of my friends babies died. She was a twin too and she was only 13 months old. Her funeral is tomorrow on Good Friday. That is so sad. I got that news on the same day Jamie told me she was pregnant. So, I had mixed emotions going on all in one day. I was sad for my friend and happy for Jamie.

It's also Peyris's 8th birthday tomorrow (on Good Friday). I'm having a birthday party for her next week and the boys will be attending it. We all are looking forward to being with the boys. I think they will have fun.

Well, I think that's all I have to say for now. I sure do love and miss you so very much.

Love Mom

Dear twin,
it is now soon to be spring and i am thankful that the dark gloomy months of winter is passing, which i know we didnt do well with. So with spring coming near, i get to enjoy it knowing that it is a time you enjoy. I miss you trememndously, even though i feel you near. Even though you may not be here physically, but your love and spirit are still with me like you never left. I am hopefully graduating this coming up semester (starts the day after our birthday) and i do have that to look foward to. I am so proud and i think the family is too of me, and i know its because you pushed me to do it instead of looking at things differently, to be positive. I love you sis, please help the boys and anyone else who misses you, feel you near like i do.

MY DEAREST TWIN,
may we alwsys feel you near us- your love and soul is heavy in our hearts

At 10am they were seven years old , and happy, went birthday shopping , a video game and legos. Off to Mc Donalds for lunch and then for a hair cut . Stopped at red box for 2 video's and one for dad. Wow what a day. I enjoyed every minute of it but was tired they are so busy, I made them pick a book as they should be reading every day , included Aidan. Got Graysons winter coat fixed too . They should be set . They do miss family though !

Dear Jackie,

I'm sure you already know this but it's Grayson's and Porter's birthday today. I wish you could spend it with them but I'm sure you are with them in spirit. I'm sure all three boys miss you.
We all love you so very much.
Love Mom
xoxoxo

Happy Valentine's Day My Lovely Daughter.
I love you.
xoxoxox

Dear twin, i have to write you something i feel but i cannot do it without crying so for now i will keep it short becaused i am around the girls and jj- i love you tremendously and know you are still with me in spirit because things only you know will make things better at certain times and then it happens like you were trying to sen a message and i appreciate that. please help your friends and other family feel the same when they miss you or in tribulations. i want to write but i cant now so please know i love you and miss you so so so so much

Jax, it's now been 2 years and I'm still upset and heartbroken that you're gone- you were taken so young and so sudden from us, I don't know how to really cope. I try everyday but my heart is so heavy that all I want to do is cry. I want to call you and tell you what's going on in my life, tell you that I've been Cancer free for almost 3years but I know that you already know that. I want to be able to hug you and take you out for coffee just like we had planned on Thanksgiving '10- I love and miss you every minute, every second of EVERYDAY



R.I.P. Jackie

Blessed be the day of this aniversary you are with God and at piece. Look after your boys

Dear Jackie,
I love and miss you so very much. I'm not going to say Happy Anniversary because it's not a happy occassion. It's one of the saddest day of my life. I thought as time goes by, my grieving for you would become easier but it seems to get harder. All I want to do, is call you and see you, to hug and kiss you.
I love and miss you so very much.
Love Mom
xoxoxo