I miss & love you so much. I miss your smile, your wink, your laugh, your joking around, your loving arms, your lips, your shoulders, our late night chats, gee I can go on & on.
You were God sent & we both know it. I asked God to change my life & he did. I was so numb and dumb I thought God truly listened and was answering me imediately. I thought the person my sister had with her was my answer, but I was totally wrong. I learned that the hard way. But it was a test... and a blessing because with all the stuff I was going through we met and got to know one another extremely well. As we told each other, we are soul-mates.
I remember the day I actually met you... I had the weirdest feeling & it kinda scared me. I never had that feeling before. A couple of months later you swore on your Maw-maw Mancini and your daughter that if I ever needed anything just let you know and you'd be there for me, it didn't matter what it maybe. At the time I didn't take it seriously, we were just friends then; I didn't know you very long, plus I didn't know very many people that kept their word.
The day you brought me up to meet your daughter, I knew something was up, but I didn't really realize how important it was for us until later.
After the Father's Day weekend ordeal you became very protective of me. You were detemined that nobody was going to get to me without going through you first. I felt very safe with you around.
I've been told that I was just your girlfriend, but other folks that know us better say... we are diffently more than friends, we are partners; we are truly in love; we are married in the eyes of most.
We always hoped neither of us was going anywhere away from the other... I can't believe your gone...I miss you so much.
I want to thank you for the best 20 years of my life. Of that we have been a couple for 19 yrs., 3 mos., and 28 days, before passed you away.
You kept telling me through the years that I couldn't die before you, because it wouldn't be fair to you & that you couldn't live without me. And I always told you "yeah you can" & I'd ask you, ''what I do for you that makes you think you couldn't live without me?'' You always replied "more than you'll ever know." I never understood it until it hit me a couple of months ago. We love each other for the way we are, through the goodtimes and the bad, in sickness and in health, for richer and poorer. We've been through it all. You hung in there until you thought I was strong enough. You made me the way I am....thank you, Sweetheart.
It's hard, Babe, being here witthout you. I keep going over everything in my mind, you know, the we should of, could of, if this, if that, hind sight is 20/20. I wish we would of done several things differently.
I know your in heaven, painfree & whole. And that someday we'll be together again, I'll be painfree & whole with you. I love you so much, Babe...
Love you forever & always,
Your Angel... Ruth