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July 11, 2014
Dearest Son: Your bench was placed in the Liberty cemetery yesterday. I am looking forward to seeing a picture of it. I feel it's a really nice way to honor your memory and can also be used as a place for people to rest or sit and reflect. I love and miss you, darling son. Love, Mom
July 10, 2014
Dearest Son: Grandpa and I were talking about you last night and how much we love and miss you. He always says we were so blessed to have you for the time we did, but we both agree we wish we would have had you for a lot longer. I know you walk beside us, but I look so forward to the day when I can hold you again. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
July 09, 2014
Dearest Son: I've been trying to do some work on the website. I've made some progress, but it can be so overwhelming at times, especially when I write about you and your story. I ask for you to give me strength from Heaven. I think the website will help others and I just need to be able to focus on that. I love and miss you, darling son. Love, Mom
July 08, 2014
Dearest Son: The people at the cemetery fixed the area in front of the monument foundation, so Steve and I planted your flowers yesterday evening. I think it looks nicer than the wooden planter. When the monument is installed, I will plant flowers in front and back. I love doing this for you, but it makes me sad at the same time. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
July 07, 2014
Dearest Son: I was really lonely for you yesterday and cried and cried. There are times when I cry that it feels almost as if you are patting my back to comfort me. Maybe you are and I am feeling your energy. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
July 06, 2014
Dearest Son: I dreamt about you last night. You were about eight years old and being very silly making funny faces and laughing. You always had the best laugh - it was infectious! It's so wonderful when I dream about you. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
July 05, 2014
Dearest Son: I spoke with the Grans yesterday and they told me they shot off some of the fireworks from your stash in your memory. It's amazing how holidays, even the 4th of July, bring back such bittersweet memories. While I was watching the fireworks last night I was thinking about the time just you and I went to see fireworks when we lived in Marlboro. We had a picnic and then watched the display. You were always my buddy. I love and miss you, Boo-Boo-Bear. Love, Mom
July 04, 2014
Dearest Son: Happy 4th of July. We are up at the lake and plan to go see the fireworks tonight. We already have our place staked out. I was thinking about Nikki and how we usually had a 4th of July bandana for her to wear. She was such a precious and sweet dog. I hope the two of you are playing with Christmas Teddy or Easter Lambkin in Heaven. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
July 03, 2014
Dearest Son: I took you some flowers yesterday when I visited your grave to commemorate the 19th month of your passing. Usually I bring you roses, but yesterday it was a very lovely mixed bouquet. I hope that you like them. This morning, when I visited you, I could feel your presence as if to comfort me. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
July 02, 2014
Dearest Son: Today is the 19 month anniversary of your passing. I did not sleep well last night as I was thinking about it, but when I did finally sleep, I did dream about you and they were lovely dreams. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
July 01, 2014
Dearest Son: We had a great visit with Uncle, Katie, and the girls. We do miss you so much - things will never be the same and family gatherings will always have an element of sadness to them. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 29, 2014
Dearest Son: We were talking last night at dinner about the wedding. Both Adrienne and Natalie remember you dancing with them and how much fun you were to be around. That don't say much, but I know they love and miss you. We all do. I love you with all my heart, precious boy. Love, Mom
June 28, 2014
Dearest Son: Uncle, Katie, and the girl chicks are on their way to the lake for a visit. Please watch over them as they travel. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
June 27, 2014
Dearest Son: I felt like you were with us last night at the James Taylor concert. I cried when he sang "Sweet Baby, James", because it reminds me of Boston and of happy times of your childhood there. I love and miss, sweet son. Love, Mom
June 26, 2014
Dearest Son: Today Steve and I celebrate our 10 year anniversary. We were talking about the wedding last night at dinner and both agreed our favorite part was having our three sons there with us. You and I had a wonderful time dancing! You were so handsome and I'm sure you are even more handsome now in Heaven. You are my wonderful, precious son. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
June 25, 2014
Dearest Son: I planted some flowers the fairy fountain Monday evening. I remember sending you a picture of her two summers ago and you wrote me that she was beautiful, but not as beautiful as me. You could always brighten up my day! I've saved several of your texts a pictures and plan to put them into a book. I thought it would be a nice thing to have although I'm sure I will cry every time I look at it. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 24, 2014
Dearest Son: I have noticed that since you passed away, I really don't like surprises. I suppose that it relates to the shock that I received when you left us to be in Heaven and that my life was forever changed. I pray and ask God to guide me and to have the wisdom to accept what happens, but I'm not doing so good with it. I think I have a big old anxiety problem. I don't like people making decisions that affect my life, especially my work. Perhaps I just need to pray more and I will have some peace. I love and miss you, sweet son. I really miss talking with you. Love, Mom
PS: I like to think you can read this or at least on some spiritual plane you know I am communicating with you.
June 23, 2014
Dearest Son: I finally planted some flowers for - there are red and white New Guinea impatiens to go with your Red Sox flag. I hope you like them! Now that the foundation poured, I am anxious to get the monument installed. Hopefully that will be done by the end of August. I just wanted you to know I miss you and kiss your baby picture every morning. I love you, son. Love, Mom
June 22, 2014
Dearest Son: The live broadcast of Praire Home Companion was great - replete with a summer thunderstorm! I felt bad for the folks on the lawn, but they seemed to persevere. It was great. He sang "You Are My Sunshine" which upon hearing I promptly burst into tears. There were also many gospel songs sung. It was wonderful! I know you were with us enjoying the show! I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
June 21, 2014
Dearest Son: Today we are going to see Garrison Keillor at Ravinia for the broadcast of Prairie Home Companion. When I went two years ago, you and I were texting back and forth about the show. I know you really wanted to be there and I sure wish you could have been. Garrison and a woman sang "I Am Weary Let Me Rest". I stood there and wept while I listened to that beautiful, sad song. I sing it to you sometimes when I visit you. I guess you know that though. I love and miss, darling boy. Love, Mom
PS: Please feel free to join us today - I sure would love your company.
June 20, 2014
Dearest Son: I would love to have you whisper to me again about something I am struggling about. Actually, a smack in the head would probably work better :) We all have our demons and need help taming them. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 19, 2014
Dearest Son: I dreamt about you last night. In the dream, we talked about how you were angry with me about some things but you weren't angry with me any more and you gave me a big hug. I hope and pray it was a dream visit - your forgiveness would help to ease some of the burden in my heart. I love and miss you, my son. Love, Mom
June 18, 2014
Dearest Son: The other day when we were at the beach, someone asked me if I had any children. I replied that I had two stepsons that are 39 and 36, and a 28 year old. I left off the part that you had passed away. There are times when I can talk about it and times when I just can't seem to bring myself to tell someone you are in Heaven. It's one of the hardest things about your being gone, because you are still so much a part of me and my life. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 17, 2014
Dearest Son: There are still days when I walk around the hospital and am hit with the realization that you are in Heaven. I don't think that is ever going to go away. It makes my heart hurt and I feel so lost and lonely. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
June 16, 2014
Dearest Son: Yesterday marked the 18 month anniversary of when we laid you to rest. Steve and I were both crying when we visited you yesterday and talked about your funeral service. I am thinking about when the monument is placed, having some type of service and maybe releasing some butterflies. We cannot do the butterfly release for your birthday because it is too cool. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 15, 2014
Dearest Son: Happy Father's Day! Please send your love from Heaven to those men who met so much to you - your Dad, Grandpa, and Steve. I wish you would have had the opportunity to have been a dad - I know you would have been a great father! I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
June 14, 2014
Dearest Son: I am really lonely for you today. Maybe it's from being around the kids and remembering all the fun things we did. I really loved being your Mom. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
June 13, 2014
Dearest Son: Fun morning with the varmints making cinnamon rolls and blowing/chasing bubbles. You always loved to see pictures of them and hear about them. I wish they would have been able to spend more time with you, but I know you watch over them from Heaven. I love and miss you, sweet boy! Love, Mom
June 12, 2014
Dearest Son: Heading back to 'Cago as you called it when you were a little guy. Steve took the varmints up to the lake yesterday. I think he is looking forward to my getting there. I'm sure you are smiling as you watch them from Heaven. I love you, my precious son. Love, Mom
June 11, 2014
Dearest Son: I'm heading to St. Louis for Ben's visitation. This is hard because it brings back very painful feelings of when you passed away. I wept so much that my face bled. I miss you so much son. I love you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 10, 2014
Dearest Son: Heading to the Shedd Aquarium with the varmints. I took you there when you were a little guy. You really loved it! I love and miss you, darling son. Love, Mom
June 09, 2014
Dearest Son: Headed back to Chicago with Andrew and Claire via Amtrak. They remind me so much of you when you were their age (6). Very smart and funny and a joy to be around. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 07, 2014
Dearest Son: Yesterday marked the 10 year anniversary of your graduation from high school. That was on my mind all day. I seem to recall you were the one who initiated the beach ball game during the graduation ceremony. That was really funny. You always had such a great sense of humor and loved to do silly things. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 06, 2014
Dearest Son: Steve and I are preparing for Claire and Andrew's visit. I wish that you could be with us, as I know that would love you and have so much fun! You were so special in the wonderful way you were with children. I love and miss you, Love, Mom
June 05, 2014
Dearest Son: I love and miss so very much, my beloved child. Your memories and love are so very dear to me and help me as I go about my day. Love, Mom
June 04, 2014
Dearest Son: Yesterday, when Steve and I visited you, I bent down to kiss you good-bye and to tell you that I love you. Your wind chimes began to ring - there was no wind and I was about two feet away so I did not touch them. I would love to think that what you ringing those chimes! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 03, 2014
Dearest Son: I took you roses yesterday when I visited. Your wind chimes sound really pretty. I hope they make other people who come to visit the cemetery happy as well. I also talked to Grandpa - he started to cry because he misses you so much, but knows that one day he will be able to put his arms around you again. Maybe a part of Heaven will be for you two to go swimming in the river like you did all those years when you were growing up. He was a wonderful grandpa to you and thought the world of you. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 02, 2014
Dearest Son: Today is June 2 and it has been 18 months since you left us to be with Jesus and the angels. There are still days I wake up and for a few seconds, I don't remember what happened. I look for ways to honor you and to do things that I think would have made you happy. I hear you speak to me in my heart and mind. I want you to know, that I do listen. I am blessed that you are still in my life, even if it's only in dreams, memories, and a whisper in my ear. I love and miss you, my darling child. Love, Mom
June 01, 2014
Dearest Son: I went to church today in Lake Geneva. It always gives me comfort to attend church, even though I do cry sometimes. That's just because I miss you so much. I love you, my darling boy. Love, Mom
May 31, 2014
Dearest Son: I spent part of the morning working on organizing the guest bedroom that doubles as my office. I hung up your Boston picture and it looks quite nice. I was trying to remember when I got that for you. I think it was for Christmas, but I don't remember the year. You really liked it which made me happy. I l love and miss you sweet son. Love, Mom
May 29, 2014
Dearest Son: Steve and I hung up your wind chimes when visited you yesterday. I hope that you like them and they make you smile in Heaven. Thank you for watching over us as we returned to Chicago. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
May 28, 2014
Dearest Son: headed back to Chicago. Please watch over us as we travel. Also please help Aunt Katie, Uncle, and Lois. Ben is not doing well. I love and miss you, sweetest son. Love, Mom
May 27, 2014
Dearest Son: took the little girls to the zoo. I always enjoyed our zoo trips. The funniest trip was to the Knoxville zoo. What a hoot! Thank you for going with me that day. We always had so much fun and many sweet memories. I love and miss you, dariling son. Love, Mom
May 25, 2014
Dearest Son: Spending time with little children always brings back some wonderful memories. Thank you for visiting in my dreams last night. It was good to be able to see you play and hear you laugh again, even if only in a dream. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
May 25, 2014
Dearest Son:
They are doing a remake of Godzilla and every time the commercial comes on I think of you and Nikki and the toy you would chase her with. I don't know if you play where you are but I know she is with you.

Love you,
Padre
May 24, 2014
Dearest Son: Yesterday was wicked crazy with the move from Oakland to Denver. Thank you for watching over us. Traveling with a 14 month and almost 3 year old is quite something. I wish that you would have been with us for entertaining. You were always so good with children. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
May 22, 2014
Dearest Son: you must have read my post yesterday. I worked on the book before and during the flight - you were sending me lots of great ideas! We arrived safely in California - thank you for watching over us. The girls are really cute and very funny. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
May 21, 2014
Dearest Son: We are getting ready to travel to California to help Chris, Amy, and the little girls move to Denver. We are looking forward to seeing them. Penny is now walking and Clementine is as precocious as ever! I'm thinking about making a book about you for them - written for children with pictures and a story. I think I should be able to do that on Shutterfly. I ask for your help in telling your story. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
May 20, 2014
Dearest Son: I had three panel interviews yesterday for a new position. Someone asked me why I wasn't more involved in the Executive Nursing Organizations I belong. When I explained I was taking a break from that type of thing because you had passed away, you could have heard a pin drop. I believe in being honest about you although I'm sure it makes people uncomfortable. That's just the way it is and if I could change your passing, I sure would. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
May 19, 2014
Dearest Son: I just wanted to thank you for being my son. Reading your text messages just reinforces what I always knew - that I had the privilege of being the mom of a wonderfully kind and loving person. You are so very missed and so very loved. Love, Mom
PS: I would love a text message from Heaven! Wouldn't that be wonderful!
May 18, 2014
Dearest Son: I've been going through my phone this morning and taking pics of my favorite text messages from you. I'm so glad that we always told each other "I love you". That is one thing I will never, ever regret is that we always showed love and affection toward each other, even after you were a grown man. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
May 17, 2014
Dearest Son: Rounding on staff today and visited the NICU. I love seeing the babies! I was so blessed that you were born without any problems. Seeing those little munchkins makes me think of you with your sweet little face and that wonderful baby smell. I love and miss you, little son. Love, Mom
May 16, 2014
Dearest Son: Every morning, I give your baby picture a kiss and sometimes two or three. Sometimes the tears come and sometimes I try to remember funny things like you "helping" me dry my hair or put on make-up. You always wanted to be right with me. It was not easy being away from you with working two jobs and going to school. You were always so very brave about it. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
May 15, 2014
Dearest Son: Awake again at 1:00 AM. I was thinking about you and what you might be doing. I wonder sometimes if you are able to visit just one person at a time or are you there for several people when they need your comfort. It can be pretty mind-boggling when you think about it. Of course, I think I should always get first dibs - LOL. I love and miss you, darling son. Love, Mom
May 14, 2014
Dearest Son: I will be selecting some books to read to Claire and Andrew when they come to visit in June. I am looking forward to reading them "The Curious Little Kitten", one of your favorite books. I have several of your books, but I wish that I had more of them. I always loved to read to you. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
May 13, 2014
Dearest Son: We now have hummingbirds!!! Steve put up the feeder yesterday afternoon and three of them appeared! They are crazy with their zipping around. I love to watch them. I know that you loved them as well. I often think of things you loved, it makes me happy-sad, but that's better than being sad all of the time. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
May 12, 2014
Dearest Son: I received a rose at church yesterday which I placed on your grave. Yesterday was pretty tough and many tears were shed, but I did try to think of some good things as well. That helps. I miss you so much and love you with all my heart. Love, Mom
May 11, 2014
Dearest Son: Today is Mother's Day. I just want to tell you how very proud I am to be your Mom-Lady! You were and will always be the best thing that ever happened to me. I love you sweet boy. Love, Mom
May 10, 2014
Dearest Son: when we visited you this morning we discovered you had a outbreak of dandelions! pretty crazy since you had only a few last night. Time to get out the weed-and-feed! I had good dreams about you early this morning. Thank you! I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
May 09, 2014
Dearest Son: Someone asked me this morning if I was ready for Mother's Day. It felt like I had been stabbed in the heart. This is pretty tough. Someone posted on FB the best sound in the world is "I love you, Mom". That is so very, very true. I love and miss you sweet boy. Love, Mom
May 08, 2014
Dearest Son: We are making ice cream sundaes today as part of the celebration for Nurse's Week. When I was at the Jewell this morning and purchasing the ice cream and toppings, it brought to mind the sundae bar we had for your H.S. graduation. That was a big hit! What a great, wonderful memory. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
May 07, 2014
Dearest Son: I am missing you so very much. Mother's Day is coming up. I've been trying to focus on doing things for others moms, so I don't feel so bloody sorry for myself. I love you, darling boy, with all my heart. Love, Mom
May 06, 2014
Dearest Son: Steve and I went went to La Casa de Isaac to celebrate Cinco de Mayo. We were talking about you and when we went there on Thanksgiving Eve. We really enjoyed your time with us. If I had known that a week later you would be gone, I would have never let you get on that plane. I love and miss you, my sweet son. Love, Mom
May 05, 2014
Dearest Son: We made it back safely to Chicago. It was good to see family and have an opportunity to spend time with everyone. But it's just not the same without you. We (the family)always enjoyed you being around - you are and always will be a very loved and special person. I love you and miss you with all my heart. Love, Mom
May 04, 2014
Dearest Son: heading back to 'Cago (as you called it when you were little). Please watch over us as we travel. We took Claire and Andrew to play miniature golf yesterday - it was the first time they played. What a hoot! I remember playing miniature golf with a certain little boy - we always had so much fun! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
May 03, 2014
Dearest Son: Had an early birthday lunch with Uncle, Katie, and Adrienne. Nat-a-roo was at Six Flags for a choir competition. It's hard to believe my baby brother will be 45 in a few days. As always, we talk about you and tell a funny story. It helps us all to laugh rather than cry. I love and miss you, my wonderful son. Love, Mom
May 02, 2014
Dearest Son: Had a wonderful visit with the 'Rents. It's so strange not to have you there with me, but I declare that I can feel your presence there. Sometimes, I think if I just look hard enough, I will see you. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
May 01, 2014
Dearest Son: Today we placed flowers on the resting places of Grandma and Grandpa Baker and Grandma and Grandpa McDonald along with great/great-grandparents Baker and Johnson. You never had a chance to meet some of them, but I am thankful that you had both of your great-grandmas in your life until you were in your early 20s. It's a beautiful cemetery and very peaceful. Granny Janny and I also spent some time this morning looking at some of your pictures and laughing about how silly you could be. You are so very loved and missed. Love, Mom
April 30, 2014
Dearest Son: My goodness, my last entry was a little redundant in terms of the bench placement. If you read these (and who knows), I'm sure you thought that was funny. Oh son, how I miss your sense of humor. You sure did love to "poke the ferret" and the ferret was me! I love and miss you, my darling, silly boy. Love, Mom
April 29, 2014
Dearest Son: the Grans and I selected a memorial bench to be placed in the Liberty cemetery. It looks very nice and they selected a lovely place for the bench to be placed. I love and miss you, darling son. Love, Mom
April 28, 2014
Dearest Son: visited with Cheryl and her new husband last night. They seem very happy. Please know you hold a special place in her heart. You will always be Bobby to her. I'm blessed to have her as a friend and that we have been friends through the years. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 27, 2014
Dearest Son,
Miss you so much everyday but it has been especially hard the last couple of weeks. Spring is such a hopeful time I so wish you were here. I know Our Blessed Mother is holding you.

Love,
Dad
April 27, 2014
Dearest Son: Natalie made her confirmation today. I could feel your spirit with us in church. She was so beautiful and did such a lovely job reading her essay. We were all so very proud of her. Many blessings for her as she receives the love of our Lord. We all love and miss you son. Love, Mom
April 26, 2014
Dearest Son: visiting with your cousin Adrienne while she waits to get her hair done for prom. She is so pretty. Most important, she is a kind, loving young lady. You would be very proud of her! I love and miss you sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 25, 2014
Dearest Son: We will be traveling today to St. Louis to visit family and to celebrate Natalie's confirmation. I know you will be with us in spirit and that you watch over your loved ones every day. I've also been praying that you will help some of your friends who are struggling. I love and miss you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
April 24, 2014
Dearest Son: This has been an especially difficult week. Many, many, many tears. I think I just plain old miss you and wish I could hold you in my arms. I love you so very, very much my sweet, darling boy. Love, Mom
April 23, 2014
Dearest Son: When I go to visit the grans we are planning to look for a memorial bench to place in the cemetery. I know that your grandparents wanted to you rest there, but I wanted you by me where I could take care of you. I feel that the bench is a wonderful way to honor you. I love and miss you, my sweet son. Love, Mom
April 22, 2014
Dearest Son: Last night, I dreamt about you and trying to get you ready for some kind of a summer camp! We were running around trying to find clothes and some other things for you to take. Come to think about it, maybe it wasn't really so much a dream - I remember some pretty crazy times with all of your sports and other activies.I wouldn't have traded it for the world! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 21, 2014
Dearest Son: Yesterday was a beautiful Easter day. We went to brunch and it reminded me of the wonderful Easter brunches that we attended when you were growing up. I even sang "Here Comes Peter Cottentail" to you when I visited you yesterday. I'm sure you were laughing about that! My dear, sweet boy, there are so many things I treasure and so many things I miss. I love you with all my heart. Love, Mom
April 20, 2014
Dearest Son: Happy Easter! I took flowers to you this morning from the Grans, as well as from Steve and I. It is a beautiful morning and strengthens my faith that we will be reunited again. I have many wonderful memories of past Easters. You always made it so joyful! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 19, 2014
Dearest Son: I've been putting together some ideas for your memory quilt. I seem to have misplaced some of your clothes that I had been saving for years and had always planned to use for a quilt for your children. Hopefully I will find it. Please feel free to send me your suggestions!
I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
April 18, 2014
Dearest Son: It was nice to see that Garrett wrote to you. I know your friends miss you very much and that you hold a special place in their hearts. I do enjoy seeing their accomplishments
and for those of your friends that have children, it warms my heart to see their pictures.

I was speaking with one of my staff yesterday about you and how much you were loved by so many people. I have written this before, but I want you to know that I am so proud of you for touching so many people and bringing them love. I love and miss you, my precious son. Love, Mom
April 17, 2014
Dearest Son: I woke up at 3:30 and was unable to get back to sleep. Usually, when I awaken like that and go back to sleep is when you visit me in my dreams. So not only am I tired this morning, but bummed as well. Maybe tonight I will see you in my dreams. I love and miss you, my beautiful son. Love, Mom
April 17, 2014
Rj...

Sorry I haven't been on here in a long time. So much has happened...you remember Susan? Well she got married. I got offered a job at Sirius Radio. I've lost a little over 100lbs. I was going through some things the other day and I found tons of pictures of us. I miss you cuz. I love you. Keep an eye out for me.
April 16, 2014
Dearest Son: I am in the process of cleaning closets and doing some spring cleaning. I came across several of your hats that I took from your apartment after you passed away. I should have enclosed one of your Boston Red Sox
hats when I laid you to rest. Sorry about that kiddo. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom-Lady.
April 15, 2014
Dearest Son: So many things that I used to think are important really are fleeting matters. How to go forward in life not trapped with past regrets, yet not doing acts that will create future regrets is quite a challenge. I just wish you were here and I could tell you this in person and not just in prayers or with the thoughts in my mind. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 14, 2014
Dearest Son: There are so many things I would like to do for you to honor your memory. I feel as if it could be a full-time job. It would be the second best job I would ever have - the best job was and still is being your mom. I will always be your mother. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 13, 2014
Dearest Son: Today is Palm Sunday. The little kids in church were having a good time playing with the palms. It warms my heart to see parents with their children. It brings back some wonderful memories of you. Oh yes, thank you for the dream visit last night. I woke up this morning smiling and with happiness in my heart. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 12, 2014
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. You are the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me. Love, Mom
April 11, 2014
Dearest Son: When I meet you again, are you going to ask me what I've been doing since you left us? When I have my dark times and struggles with purpose in life I try to think about that - it's become somewhat of a life raft for me. I remember that you and I had always planned to go skydiving once my back fully healed from the surgery. Not so sure that's still on my bucket list though! I love and miss you, darling son. Love, Mom
April 10, 2014
Dearest Son: I was thinking about the Easter outfit I bought for you when you were 18 months old. It was a pair of plaid seersucker kneepants, suspenders, and a white shirt with a bow tie. You were adorable! It was so much fun to see you run around with your little basket and hunt Easter eggs. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 09, 2014
Dearest Son: Andrew lost his first tooth. It brought to mind when you lost your teeth. I think the Tooth Fairy gave you $20 for the first tooth (it was all she had in her wallet). I still have many of the teeth you lost - I had bought a special jar with a blue Tooth Fairy on the top of it. Kind of silly, I know. But I did and still do lots of silly things. I love and miss you, darling boy. Love, Mom
April 08, 2014
Dearest Son: I've done a little deocrating around the house for Easter. I feel like I'm missing such a huge part of my life. I had thought when you moved to Chicago, it would be better. We could have Sunday and holiday dinners together again. Now it's just Steve and I. I suppose I could invite people, but what I really want is to see your goofy smile as your survey my outlandish decorations and meal preparations. I would give anything to hear you tell me that I'm such a dork. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
April 07, 2014
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. Making Easter baskets for the grandchildren. I wish I were making a basket for you. Your Easter baskets were pretty crazy, but I loved it! You are my sweet son. Love, Mom
April 06, 2014
Dearest Son: I had trouble sleeping last night, but what helped me was thinking about you and all the fun things we did for Easter - brunches, Easter Baskets, dying and hiding eggs. I cherish all those memories and am blessed to have them. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 05, 2014
Dearest Son: The surgery went well, but I guess you already know that. When I was coming out of the anesthesia I was crying and calling out for you. I was told even some of the nurses were crying. I love and miss you, sweet son. You are my beautiful boy. Love, Mom
April 04, 2014
Dearest Son: I will be having surgery in a few hours. It's just an outpatient procedure. I did give your picture a few extra kisses before I left. Please be with me and I pray our beloved Lord will guide the hands of the surgeon. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
April 03, 2014
Dearest Son: Someone wrote on your guest book last night. It is quite lovely and is helpful to me with my sadness and loss. It is amazing how the little things do help. There are many loving people in this world and I need to keep them in my heart and guard myself from those who are unkind. I love and miss you, my darling boy. Love, Mom
April 02, 2014
Those we Love remain with us,
for Love itself lives on.
Cherished memories never fade,
because a loved one is gone.
Those we Love can never be,
more than a thought apart.
For as long as there is a memory,
they'll live on in our heart.

He's always walking beside you.

You may have lost a child , but I'm sure you gained an Angel. I believe in death our lost loved ones will show us signs that they are still with us. You'd be suprised the little things they do after life to just show you they are well and hopes to get a smile out of you.
April 02, 2014
Dearest Son: Spring cleaning completed at the cemetery. It looks much better without all the old Christmas decorations. I've been seeing many robins as well. I'm looking forward to planting flowers, but need to wait for the monument. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
April 01, 2014
Dearest Son: On the train this morning and I was looking at the Chicago skyline and how you took pictures of it when you came for your first visit in November of 2010. I like to think that you were excited about moving here, which we discussed shortly before you passed away. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
March 31, 2014
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. It's nice out today - maybe I will take a walk after I visit you this afternoon. The walks usually bring about good memories of you. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 30, 2014
Dearest Son: Today we brought you some daisies - they are such friendly flowers. It's nice out today - the warmest day we have had in a long time. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
March 28, 2014
Dearest Son: I love and miss you so very, very much. Much of the time, I just feel sad and lost. It's hard to be excited about things that other people think I should be happy about - it just doesn't matter. I do try to pretend so I don't hurt their feelings, but it's getting harder to do. So much for "fake it till you make it". I don't think that really applies when you have lost your only child. I love you, son. Love, Mom
March 27, 2014
Dearest Son: Today is your cousin Natalie's birthday. It's hard to believe she is 14 years old. She is quite the corker! I think she's going to give Uncle and Aunt Katie a run for their money! Thank you again for your gift to her. It will help her with her college tuition. I'm so proud of you. I love and miss you more than words can ever convey. Love, Mom
March 26, 2014
Dearest Son: Buying books for Easter to put in the grandchildren's baskets made me think of all the books I bought for you. Your very first book was "Peek-A-Boo, I See You" and I bought it for you before you were born. I read that book to you so many times I memorized it and I can still recite it to this day. I love and miss you, son. Thank you for the happy memories of reading to you. Love, Mom
March 25, 2014
Dearest Son: Snow again! At least it's light, fluffy, and hopefully the last one! I'm going to need to order you a new Red Sox gnome. Yours got a little bleached out by the sun last year. The Red Sox flag is still in pretty good shape. Maybe I will make you a baseball wreath this year. I know, I know, I'm being a dork! I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
March 24, 2014
Dearest Son: I dreamt about you again last night. You were about 6 years old and wearing your IC uniform. You left for bus stop without a coat but I ran, picked you up, and brought you back to the house. You on your coat and a hat that came down over your eyes. When I pulled the hat up, you were laughing and said "Ha, Ha, Mom, I fooled you!" I then tickled you and covered your sweet face with kisses. I love and miss you, sweetest son. Love, Mom
March 23, 2014
Dearest Son: The Lenten season is one of self-reflection and examination. I've been thinking too much about things I fear to the point I've becoming even more anxious and tearful all of the time. Maybe this is just a part of my journey and I will have some peace some day. I pray for forgiveness and strength. I ask that you and our Beloved Lord help me. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
March 22, 2014
Dearest Son: I'm not feeling well today, both in a physical as well as a spiritual sense. I pray that you and our Beloved Father will give me guidance and peace. I love and miss you son. Love, Mom
March 21, 2014
Dearest Son: I went to visit you this morning before I caught the train. My favorite times to visit you are at sunrise and sunset. It's so beautiful and peaceful. I know how much you loved those times of day. It also makes me think of the movie "City of Angels" when the angels would gather at the beach in the morning to take in the glorious sunrise. I love and miss you, my darling son. Love, Mom
March 20, 2014
Dearest Son: Today you would be 28 1/2 years old. It's hard to believe that I have a child that age. I still feel like I'm 22 sometimes. Son, I miss you so much. I long for the day when I can put my arms around you again. I love you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 19, 2014
Dearest Son: Last night I was laying in bed reading a book. I put the book down to go to sleep, when I had a "memory flash". The memory was of you when you were two months old and had the colic. The only way I could help you be comfortable was to lay you on my stomach and chest. Needless to say, I didn't get much sleep. You were such a sweet baby baby, I didn't mind a bit. I just hated that you were in pain. I love and miss you, little son. Love, Mom
March 18, 2014
Dearest Son: I took you a bouquet of green carnations yesterday in honor of St. Paddy's Day. I could hear you say "Mom, you are such a dork!". I sure do miss you telling me that I'm a dork although I think the things I did really pleased you (Easter Baskets, Valentine Cards, decorative napkin rings - the turkeys at Thanksgiving). Even calling you Boo-Boo Bear. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
March 17, 2014
Dearest Son: Happy St. Patrick's Day!!! I was thinking about fixing you green scrambled eggs with cheese for St. Patrick's day while you were growing up. Sometimes, we even had ham! Green Eggs and Ham, Sam I Am!!! I love and miss you, so very, very much. Love, Mom
March 16, 2014
Dearest Son: I didn't go to church this morning. I've not been in a very good place these past few days. Usually church is a comfort, but I just need some time alone. I'm sure God understands. I just miss you and I'm feeling pretty angry at people. I love you, sweet son. Love, Mom
March 15, 2014
Dearest Son: This morning, I was checking your email - I still do that from time to time in case there is something I need to address. I noticed a folder titled "Notes" that I had never looked at. It was your Christmas Wish List for 2012 - you wrote it the day before you died. By the way, I would have bought you the iPhone. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 14, 2014
Dearest Son: I pray that you and the Lord will help me today. I'm struggling. Please walk with me and come into my heart so I can be ready to do good to all people. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 13, 2014
Dearest Son: I took some flowers yesterday for you and Grandma Jennie to celebrate her birthday. I was sobbing as I stood at your grave, but I could somehow feel that the two of you were standing there with me to comfort me. I love and miss you, my darling boy. Love, Mom
March 12, 2014
Dearest Son: Today is Grandma Jennie McDonald's birthday. She would have been 91 years old today. Maybe the two of you are making a cherry pie up in Heaven! She made the best pies and homemade bread. I know she thought the world of you. I love and miss you, sweet angel and look forward to the day when I am reunited with my loved ones. Love, Mom
March 11, 2014
Dearest Son: The Christmas trees are down and we put up a St. Patrick's Day decoration in their stead. Of course, now we are supposed to get six inches of snow tonight. This winter is trying the patience of all! Hopefully, we will have a beautiful spring and summer. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
March 10, 2014
Dearest Son: Today is sunny and above 50. We plan to take down the Christmas trees and are praying for no more snow accumulation! I am anxious for spring and to be able to plant some real flowers for you. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 09, 2014
Dearest Son: A beautiful sunset this evening. Be at peace, my beloved son. Love, Mom
March 09, 2014
Dearest Son: I no longer count the weeks since you passed away, but I do think about certain days of the week and times of day. I do not like Sunday evenings because that is when I got the call from a friend of yours that she had heard you "passed". When I go to that dark place, I've been trying to think about fun things we did on Sunday evenings to help to ease the pain of your loss. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
March 08, 2014
Dearest Son: Last night, slept about 11 hours. I've been really tired the past few days, so I guess my body needed the rest. Despite the many hours of sleep, I did not dream about you. Please come see me in my dreams tonight. I love and miss you, darling son. Love, Mom
March 07, 2014
Dearest Son: I'm now reading the book and watching the video of "Game of Thrones". I don't remember if you told me that you watched it. I think it would be something you would have liked. I always enjoyed our coversations about different books we read and programs we liked to watch. The last book we talked about was "The Great Gatsby". What a remarkable book! I miss talking to you..I love you, precious son. Love, Mom
March 06, 2014
Dearest Son: Last night,I received ashes for the first time. The mass was beautiful and very humbling. I wish that I had attended church with you more often and that we would have made it more of our lives. If we had, I'm sure things would have been very different. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
March 05, 2014
Dearest Son: Last night, Stephen and I went to dinner at a local restaurant to celebrate Mardi Gras. The food was delicious. We visited you afterward and brought you some beads and wished you a Happy Fat Tuesday! Today begins the time of reflection and sacrifice. For me, I will pray for strength and compassion - sometimes I am not very tolerant of others shortcomings. I know you will be with me. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
March 04, 2014
Dearest Son: I often think about the way that your loss has changed me in terms of my faith. If I did not have faith, this would be even more difficult. Prayer and knowing that you are with our Blessed Father and Saviour does help. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 03, 2014
Dearest Son: Yesterday was Andrea Myerson's last service at my new church. It was very sad. She has been very kind about ways we have honored you these past several months. I really think that you would like this church. The music is beautiful, as are the traditions and the people are most welcoming. I often feel that you are there with me. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
March 02, 2014
Dearest Son: Today marks 15 months since you left us to be with Our Father and Jesus. I will take roses to your grave today to honor you. I dreamt of you again - many dreams and in those dreams I held you and gave you many, many kisses. In one of the dreams, you were about four months old and I kissed your little soft spot - in my sleep I could smell you sweet baby smell and feel the softness of your skin. I love and miss you, my sweet beloved angel. Love, Mom
March 01, 2014
Dearest Son: I think no matter how you died, it would have always been difficult to see it portrayed on television. I simply can't bear to watch it. I love and miss you, my precious child. Love, Mom
February 28, 2014
Dearest Son: Last night, on the train ride home, a man was talking about his son and the struggles he was facing. I told the man I would pray for them and shared with him what had happened to you. I wish I could have helped you. I love and miss you, my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
February 27, 2014
Dearest Son: I downloaded the book and started reading it yesterday on the train ride home. I've read many books about Heaven and how we will join our loved ones. There are some differences, but the overarching theme is love. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
February 26, 2014
Dearest Son: I saw the trailer for the movie "Heaven is for Real" this morning. The tears immediately began to flow. I haven't read the book but you can bet I will be downloading it today! I look forward to you telling me about your journey. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
February 25, 2014
Dearest Son: Today on the shuttle bus a colleague saw your picture on my iPhone and remarked about what a handsome young man you are. She asked me a few more questions about you, then stopped and said "Does it bother you to talk about your son". I told her no - I love to talk about you. What really hurts is when people act as if nothing ever happened. I guess they just don't know what to say. I will admit, sometimes it is difficult to listen to other people talk about their children, especially when they are your age. It's not that I'm not happy for them, it's just I miss you so very, very much. I think of how full of life you were and the things you will miss - in this lifetime anyway. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
February 24, 2014
Dearest Son: I came across one of the ornaments that the Grans gave me for Christmas a few years ago - it's a Mother Bear and her cub. I've decided I'm going to display it all the time, not just at Christmas. It brings many warm memories of you. I love and miss you, Little Bear Cub. Love, Mom
February 23, 2014
Dearest Son: Working on cleaning out the basement. I still have boxes of papers, clothes, cards, etc. from the time you were a newborn until you graduated from high school. I know need to go through some things and get them organized, but I'm not there yet. Maybe if I can take a box at a time, it will make it easier. I love and miss you, sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
February 22, 2014
Dearest Son: We are finally taking down the Christmas tree and putting away the decorations. Not quite as bad as last year when I couldn't bear to take the tree down until May. But you helped decorate that tree and it was a way of holding on to you a little longer. Needless to say, some tears were shed this morning as I put away your ornaments. I just try to picture in my mind each year you received those and how you looked and what we did that Christmas morning - it helps to bring a smile through the tears. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
February 21, 2014
Dearest Son: Many train tears on the ride home last night. I just miss you so much.....Love, Mom
February 20, 2014
Dearest Son: The snow is beginning to melt! I look so forward to spring and being able to visit with you longer. I know you are always with me, but I like to spend time with you where you are laid to rest. It's makes me so sad, but brings me comfort as well. I love and miss you, my beautiful son. Love, Mom
February 19, 2014
Dearest Son: I woke up at 3:30 again this morning - that seems to be my "witching hour". I was trying to think about good memories and all the fun you and I used to have together, even when you were an adult. I always loved our Mom and Son time. We always had many laughs and good conversation. We could talk about anything. How blessed was I. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
February 18, 2014
Dearest Son: Each day when I visit you, I pray to the Lord to guide me and help me to be a better person. I ask of you to also help me when I am about to say or do something unkind. Usually, it's just one word "Mom" and I hear it in my mind and heart. It really does help to to stop and take pause before I act. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
February 17, 2014
Dearest Son: I read a book over the weekend about the first phone call from Heaven. I wish that you could call me from Heaven. I've kept your cell phone active - for many months, you were still receiving calls and texts, but not very often now. I just don't have the heart to shut the service off. It's still a connection, although it may seem a little silly. I guess I'm just not ready yet. I love and miss you, my precious son. Love Mom
February 16, 2014
Dearest Son: This morning at church, a little baby girl was baptized. It reminded me of your baptism and how happy I was for you. You were a older - I believe six and I think in some ways that made it even more of a blessed day. I know lovely ceremony. I know you didn't always agree with the church as you got older, but when you passed away, you were wearing your St. Christopher's medal. I buried you with your medal -I thought you would like that. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
February 15, 2014
Dearest Son: It is said the "firsts" are always the hardest - the first birthday, Christmas, Thanksgiving, Valentine's Day, etc. Yesterday was the "second" and it was pretty tough. I think what's so hard is all the things I used to do to celebrate special days with you. You probably would have been 50 years old and still getting a Valentine's Day card from your mom! I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
February 14, 2014
Dearest Son: Happy Valentine's Day!!! It's also Grandma Baker's birthday or as you called her when you were little Grandma Bacon. The sunrise is beautiful today - I feel you close to me as I look at the sky. I love and miss you, my Sweet Valentine. Love, Mom
February 13, 2014
Dearest Son: while selecting paint colors it made me think of when you "colored" the kitchen wall just after your Grandpa had painted it. He didn't get upset, just got out the paint can and re-painted the wall. Your grandpa was always so good with you and just absolutely adored you. I'm glad he has some wonderful memories to comfort him. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
February 12, 2014
Dearest Son: I was looking at the picture I took of you at the beach on Thanksgiving Day. You are so very handsome and your eyes look so kind. I have that photo at home, on my iPad, and in my office. Sometimes when I look at it, it almost looks like you are not of this earth but sent from Heaven. It was taken nine days before you passed away. I love you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
February 11, 2014
Dearest Son: I have some things that I am working on that people keep asking me "Aren't you excited?". I try to act like I am, but I'm really not. I will give it 100%, but deep down, the excitement over material things and career success does not really matter. What matters most to me is you and meeting you in Heaven. I love and miss you, little son. Love, Mom
February 10, 2014
Dearest Son: Yesterday Stephen and I took a Valentine's wreath and placed it on your grave. We left the Christmas trees in place so we can find you in the deep snow. How crazy is that! I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
February 09, 2014
Dearest Son: Today is Mrs. Chapman's birthday. She loved you like a son and always took wonderful care of you. I always knew you would be safe with her. Please visit her and give her a spirit hug for her birthday. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
February 08, 2014
Dearest Son: I'm really missing you today. I love you so much. I wish my love could have protected you. Love, Mom
February 07, 2014
Dearest Son: I am thankful for the love that you are sending me from Heaven. There are times when I feel as if you are next to me and give me comfort. I love and miss you, my sweet son. Love, Mom
February 06, 2014
Dearest Son: The snow at the cemetery is up over my knees now so making my way to visit you is a little challenge. I try to look at it as a mini-workout. I know you would love that being you were such a fabulous personal trainer. Several people that you had trained came to your memorial service and have also written to me on FB. They loved you, even though you were tough. I am so blessed to have a son that was loved by so many. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
February 05, 2014
Dearest Son: Your "little-big sister" Katie sent me a message yesterday that she wants to sponsor a team to participate in a suicide prevention walk coming up in September. I think it's a wonderful idea that she wishes to honor your memory. Needless to say, it invoked some tears. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
February 04, 2014
Dearest Son: I dreamt about you again last night. It was wonderful! Many people say they don't dream about their loved ones after they pass away. I feel sad for them. Dreams are a way for me to hold you closer and relive who you were and to cherish you even more. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
February 03, 2014
Dearest Son: Seattle won the Super Bowl! Too bad it wasn't the Patiots. Maybe next year. Yesterday was a bit of a tough day - 14 months since you went to be with our Beloved Lord. I know Heaven is wonderful, but I think about the things you are missing, like Super Bowl parties. I don't know, maybe you had your own Super Bowl party in Heaven. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
February 01, 2014
Dearest Son: It's cold and snowy again today. I was thinking about how I used to put a towel in the dryer so it would be nice and toasty when you took off your wet clothes after playing in the snow and I had to dry you off. I love and miss you. Kisses. Love, Mom
January 31, 2014
Dearest Son: Today is your Aunt Susie's birthday. I sent her one of those silly, funny cards that I'm sure you would have enjoyed as well. I know she misses you - I think it's wonderful that you were able to spend time with her and Carolyn shortly before you passed away. From the way your Grandpa talks, that must have been some Scrabble game!!!! I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 30, 2014
Dearest Son: I love and miss you, my sweet boy. I was thinking about all the songs I would sing to you - some you loved and I know some drove you a little crazy! You were and always will be so very precious to me. Love, Mom
January 29, 2014
Dearest Son: I thought everyone at work knew that you passed away, but every once in a while, I come across someone who doesn't. People always ask me if I'm okay to talk about it, which I am. Even though it makes me really sad in some ways, I still love to talk about you. I tell people that you were such a handsome young man, very much loved, and I was blessed to have you as my son. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 28, 2014
Dearest Son: It was -6 when I visited you last night. I'm sorry that you only got a quick kiss and prayer. The wind was brutal! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 27, 2014
Dearest Son: We are bracing for another Polar/Artic Blast. I think you would have a hard time staying warm even wearing your big parka. The cemetery is filled with snow drifts, but I still go every day. Friday I fell and wallowed around before I got up - of course, I was laughing which didn't help matters any. I'm sure you were laughing too! I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
January 26, 2014
Dearest Son: I think of you many, many times throughout the day. Nights and the mornings are still the most difficult. I still wake up and think: this just didn't happen, it just didn't happen, it couldn't have happened. But it did. I can tell you this - I will never, ever let you go. You gave so much of yourself to other people and I will always honor that and your memory. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
January 25, 2014
Dearest Son: Yesterday was Adrienne's birthday - she was 17 years old. Hard to believe. We gave her your car after you passed away. I think she has enjoyed it, especially the seat warmers! It's been an very cold and snowy winter. I hope that she will always remember how much you loved her and Natalie. Your gift will help them pay for college. As always, you amaze me with your generosity and love. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 24, 2014
Dearest Son: I just wanted to tell how very much I love you and wish that you were here with me. Everytime I see someone your age, especially if they resemble you at all, it absolutely breaks my heart. Maybe if Baby Grace would have lived, this would be a little easier - she would be 14 years old now. Or maybe having a little sister would have given you a different perspective. I hope that the two of you are together in Heaven and you have the chance to be a big brother to her that you didn't get on Earth. I love you, sweet son. Love, Mom
January 23, 2014
Dearest Son: I've been thinking alot about when you were a little baby and your little outfits. I still have several of them and plan to incorporate them into a memory quilt along with your sports jerseys and some other clothes I kept. I wish I would have learned to quilt, because I would love to make your quilt myself. I buried you with the baby quilt your Grandma Baker made for you. You had no children to give it to and I didn't think anyone else would really value it. Soemtimes I wish I would have kept it for myself. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
January 22, 2014
Dearest Son: While driving to the cemetery last night, I heard a song on the radio "Head Over Heels" that played the first night I had you home when it was just you and me. While that song played, I held you in my arms and danced with you. The very first time you and I danced together! Of course, then came the flood of tears. What's really funny is that right after you passed away, this song came on the radio several times, usually when I was feeling so lost about losing you. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
January 21, 2014
Dearest Son: Six more inches of snow! I'm am very much ready for winter to be over and the chance to plant some flowers for you. I brought you roses on Sunday and amazingly, they didn't blow away. I love bringing your flowers and planting them as well - I just don't like so much where I have to bring/plant them. I'd much rather be sending them to your office or helping you plant a flower garden at your home. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 20, 2014
Dearest Son: Last night, I had a dream about you. Your hair was long and you had your baseball cap on backward - the way you liked to wear it sometimes. You also had a Double Bubble gum wrapper in your ear - I asked you why and you said "I don't have any ear plugs". I asked how you were doing and that you could use a haircut. You said "I'm good Mom", but then a tear rolled down your face, which was followed by "I'm sorry". I hugged you tight and told you "It's okay son, there is nothing to be sorry for". I love and miss you, sweet boy, as we all do. You are with our Beloved Lord and your loved ones will be with you again. It will be a wonderful reunion! Love, Mom
January 19, 2014
Dearest Son: today is your great-aunt Carolyn's birthday. She always thought a lot of you and is one of the best aunts ever! Also, today is the AFC playoffs - Go Patriots! I wish you were with us - go to eat wings and watch the game. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
January 18, 2014
Dearest Son: Last night, we had a magical, sparkling snow! It looked like the snow you would see in a department store because it actually glittered. It was so beautiful at the cemetery. I love and miss you, darling boy. Love, Mom
January 16, 2014
Dearest Son: I have an interview today for a Director's position. Wish me luck! I think it's time for a change. I don't know if your passing will come up in the interiew - I'm trying to prepare myself for that as I still can become quite tearful when someone talks about you. Although lately, I'm finding I hold it together all day then burst into tears on he train, in the grcery store, or at home. Funny how all this grief business works. I love and miss you, little son. Love, Mom
January 15, 2014
Dearest Son: I've been looking at some pictures that I would like to have framed. I think some I will have for home and some for my office. When I look at them, it makes me smile and laugh - you usually were doing something silly. I love and miss you, sweet boy, especially that sensational smile and those beautiful, soulful eyes. Love, Mom
January 14, 2014
Dearest Son: The snow is melting but we are supposed to get more today. I tried to build a snowman by your grave the other day, but it was too cold. Maybe I'll get a chance with the new snow. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 13, 2014
Dearest Son: I changed your Facebook profile picture - it's really a great photo - you look so happy and very handsome. I also made it the wallpaper for my phone. I love and miss you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
January 11, 2014
Dearest Son: Last night, I dreamt about you and what a treasure and comfort those dreams are to me. You were about four years old in the dream and we did many wonderful things together - we read, colored pictures, baked cookies, and went on a boat ride on a lake that had blue, blue waters - the same as the sky. Maybe I got to see a little bit of Heaven in that dream. I love and miss you, darling son. Love, Mom
January 10, 2014
Dearest Son: I look at your pictures and see someone who was so full of life and love. You had best smile and always a twinkle in your eye. That's what I try to think about when I feel sad. How lucky was I to have been the mother to such a wonderful human being. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
January 09, 2014
Dearest Son: I was talking wih a cab driver yesterday and he asked me if I had any children. I explained that you had died last year and I started to cry. Then I sat next to a young woman on the train who was calling her mom. It's so hard to know that I will never be called Mom again or at least not until I get to Heaven. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 08, 2014
Dearest Son: I need to get working on the website again. Now that the holidays are over, perhaps I can focus again. I pray that this website will help others. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 07, 2014
Dearest Son: I sang Happy Birthday to grandpa from us when I visited you last night. Your tree looked really pretty. The branches are snow covered and the lights iluminate the snow making for a lovely effect. But was it every cold. It was -15. Needless to say I did not tarry. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 06, 2014
Dearest Son: Today is your grandpa's birthday. He is 73 years old, going strong, and quite the jokester. He misses you an awful lot. You were number one grandson! I'm so glad the two of you were close and that he has wonderful memories of your times together. You could never ask for a better grandpa. I love and miss you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
January 05, 2014
Dearest Son: I just finished a book "Valley of Enchantment" by Amy Tan. One of the major themes of the book is the choices we make and how they effect others. I pray you always knew how very much I loved you. In retrospect, I would have not made a lot of the decisions I did, but one thing I would never change - bringing you into the world. I loved and wanted you so very much. You were a gift from God. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
January 04, 2014
Dearest Son: We visited you this morning. We always brush off the snow so we can see your name. It's been over a year, but it still doesn't feel real. Maybe it never will and that is God's way of protecting me. I often think about the things you are missing. But then again, I know where you are is a better place. I'm just lonely for you, little son. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 03, 2014
Dearest Son: it's sunset. I wonder if you sit and look at the sunsets on Earth or do you see them in Heaven? I have so many questions, but I'm sure you will be most pleased to fill me in. I know you will be there to greet me. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
January 02, 2014
Dear Son: It's been snowing since yesterday - I think we have received about a foot of snow so far. You and Nikki would love it! You could build a snowman and she could "snuffle" the snow and toss it around. Then both of you could come inside to warm up. You would have a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallows from your Mickey Mouse cup and sit in front of the fire. I can close my eyes and see it now. I love and miss you and the Little White Dog. Love, Mom
January 01, 2014
Dearest Son: Happy New Year!!! It's so hard not to be sad that you are not here to celebrate and make resolutions that we all do with the coming of the new year. I know you are in Heaven and that you are with us, but I wish I could just wrap my arms around you and give you a big hug! I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
December 31, 2013
Dearest Son: Last night, while walking through the train station, I had a really bad grief burst. So bad, that I nearly fell to my knees. It has happened before, but not for a while. Somehow, through this pain, I could hear your voice telling me "Mom, you will be okay, I love you". The terrible pain passed, but I did weep all the way home on the train. I love and miss you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
December 30, 2013
Dearest Son: I am thankful that I have my faith to comfort me, but sometimes, that does not seem to be enough. Maybe I'm not trusting enough in the Lord to guide me and allowing my own pride to take over. I've not done well in the past when I have allowed this to happen. I wish you were here so I could talk to you. I miss you so much. I love you, my sweet, beautiful boy. Love, Mom
December 29, 2013
Dearest Son: spent time with Uncle, Katie, and the girl chicks. Adrienne loves your car. I'm glad we could find a good home for it. We are all so sad that you are not with us - you were and always will be so very loved. I love you and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
December 28, 2013
Dearest Son: visiting with Claire and Andrew. I think you would get a big kick out if them - they are wicked smart and fun. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
December 27, 2013
Dearest Son: I think Grandpa and Granny Janny really liked the Christmas album I sent them. I wish I could have found more pictures of when you were older, but I still have not given up the quest! Someone gave me a Christmas card and wrote that they understood things will never be great again. That is so true. The best I can hope for is to take the happy and beautiful momemts when they come. I love and miss you, my sweet son. You are my darling. Love, Mom
December 26, 2013
Dearest Son: We celebrated Christmas with a mixture of laughter and tears. Both Steve and I were missing you so much and wishing that you were there with us. Had you moved to Chicago as planned, I'm sure we would have been enjoying the day together. I would have been bossing the two of you around while cooking and you both would have been sassing me. I love and miss you, my sweet angel. Love, Mom
December 25, 2013
Dearest Son: Merry Christmas to my beloved child. I love you always and forever. Love, Mom
December 25, 2013
Merry Christmas Robert...
December 24, 2013
Dearest Son: It's Christmas Eve. Grandpa and I were talking last night about all the wonderful and funny memories we have of you at Christmas. You were quite the character! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love Mom
December 23, 2013
Dearest Son: Every time I hear the song "You Are My Sunshine" I think about you. I know that physically you are not here but you are with me in spirit and you are always in my heart. Remember the bedtime kissing game - you and I could be so silly together. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
December 22, 2013
Dearest Son: I love Christmas. I miss you so much that I am letting the pain of your loss clouds that in some ways. Well, I still go through the motions and buy the gifts, etc. At the end of the day, I feel a little lost. I'm supposed to do all the things I usually do, but I would really just like to go to a beach and sit in the sand. Alone. There, I could really think about you and all the good memories. I love and miss you, little son. Love, Mom
December 21, 2013
Dearest Son: I have been organizing your photographs, scanning them on to the computer, and uploading them to Shutterfly so they can be protected in cyberspace. It's amazing to see how you changed through the years. One thing for sure, you were a beautiful child who grew up to be a very handsome man. Sometimes, I still can't believe I gave birth to such a wonderful human being! I love and miss you, darling boy. Love, Mom
December 20, 2013
Dearest Son: The Christmas cards have been sent. I designed an extra special card in your honor. I hope it will make people smile when they see it. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. You are my angel. Love, Mom
December 19, 2013
Robert, It makes my heart lighter knowing that you left your Mom with such wonderful memories.. these will help her through the hard days and she will know that you are not far from her but there - beside her - in memory. Please visit her often this Christmas season.. and if you have time I could use a visit as well.
Always..Love Mrs. Chapman
December 18, 2013
Dearest Son: I'm sure you know that I am in my usual Christmas mania! I know I used to drive you crazy with all of my Christmas silliness. One of the best memories I have is of you and I shopping each year for a Dickens Villiage piece. Over the years, I have amassed quite a collection. Then we started one for you as well which I will put up this year - it's pretty funny especially the dog and the fire hydrant piece. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
December 17, 2013
Dearest Son: The cemetery looked really beautiful last night - the moon was full and the moonbeams where shimmering in the snow. I love and miss you. I miss Christmas shopping for you and talking about Christmas plans. You are my sweet angel. Love, Mom
December 16, 2013
Dearest Son: We put up your Christmas tree yesterday. It sure was cold - 14 degrees! We did decorate it at home so we didn't freeze too much. It has multi-colored lights and I also bought you some new ornaments. I'm saving your other ornaments for the indoor tree. I love and miss you, precious son. I'm just so heartbroken not to have you here. Love, Mom
December 15, 2013
Dearest Son: A year ago today we laid you to rest at the Sacred Heart Cemetery in Northbrook. It was a cold, rainy day and seemed as if the angels were crying. Maybe tears of joy because they had you in their arms and you could rest, but also tears of sorrow for those of us who had the heartbreak and sorrow of your passing. You are so missed and loved, my precious, darling son. Love, Mom
December 14, 2013
Dearest Son: One year ago today you made your last flight from Knoxville to Chicago on United Airlines. But this time you didn't fly in the passenger cabin. It was a beautiful, sunny day. I am thankful for that. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
December 13, 2013
Deares Son: The last two mornings, I have been able to see the sun rise while I travel to work. The beauty reminds me of you and that you are with our Blessed Lord in Heaven. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
December 12, 2013
Dearest Son: Our cousin Sandy is in the ICU at Missouri Baptist Hospital. She has been wonderfully supportive since you passed away. She has a son as well who has had some struggles. Please watch over her and the family. I love and miss you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
December 10, 2013
Dearest Son: It's wicked cold again today. Thinking about making you hot chocolate in your special Mickey Mouse cup. It's hard to believe that thing has survived all the moves. I was also thinking about how much you always loved to sit by the fire, from the time you were a little bitty guy. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
December 09, 2013
Dearest Son: I really am lonely for you today. Had a major grief burst on the train this morning. I love and miss you so very, very much. You are my sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
December 08, 2013
Dearest Son: love and miss you, sweet angel. It snowed today and the cemetery was beautiful. I've been looking through your pictures and thinking of wonderful memories. Love, Mom
December 07, 2013
Dearest Son: Today is Granny Janny's birthday. Please visit her and give her a big hug and kiss. She grieves for you terribly. Grandpa and I gave her a beautiful cross that has "Bob" engraved on the back. I hope that she will wear it and not put it away. I keep my heart necklace on that you gave me all of the time. I only remove it to clean it. I put it on the night I learned you had died and it is the only necklace I have worn since. I love and miss you, my sweet, boy. Love, Mom
December 06, 2013
Dearest Son: A year ago today we held your memorial service. Hundreds of people came to pay their respects and show the love they had for you. You are still and will always be in the hearts and prayers of many. You touched so many people with your love, kindness, sense of humor, and generosity. I love you, son. Love, Mom
December 06, 2013
Dearest Son: thank you for visiting me in my dream last night. You were being your usual silly self - you could always make me laugh! Also, give Nikki a big hug - she was an added bonus even if she was being naughty and drinking the Christmas tree water! How I love and miss that little white dog. I hope she is with you in Heaven and you two are having a wonderful time. I love and miss you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
December 05, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. This is a really hard week. Please know I think about you all the time and you are in my heart always. Love, Mom
December 05, 2013
Dearest Son: I haven't seen you in my dreams for several nights. I wish that you would come and visit. I miss and love you so very, very much. Love, Mom
December 04, 2013
Dearest Son: I looked at Christmas trees for you yesterday, but didn't find one that would work so I will continue the search. I have good memories of us getting trees, especially the "flocked" trees, although you called them "frocked" trees. Kind of like the "nerds" in your teeth. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
December 04, 2013
Its hard to fathom that it has been a year that you left us. I think about you often and pray that you are finally at peace. I will always love you and will never forget you. I will be hanging the Snowman Angel that you gave me many years ago... Every year when I hang it I always smile and remember the day you gave it to me.. You were so young and so excited and couldn't wait for me to open it! You were always an Angel to me..
Love, Mrs. Chapman
December 03, 2013
Dearest Son: Yesterday, we placed flowers from the Grans and Steve and I on your grave. We also placed a Christmas wreath that needs a little more decoration. I will work on your tree today. I'm really struggling with putting up a tree in the house this year, but I think you would want me to. I'm sure you will be there with me to help me decorate.
Your Grandpa lit a candle for you yesterday morning. You were in the thoughts and prayers of so many people. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
December 02, 2013
Robert Joseph Hanlon
October 20, 1985 - December 2, 2012

Dearest Son:: A year ago you left us to be with God and the angels. We love and miss you, my sweet beautiful boy. I wish you had known how many people loved and cared about you. If only one of us who truly loved you had been able to talk you in those early morning hours I feel you would still be with us.

You are my precious son and I know we will be together again one day. I love you. Love, Mom
December 01, 2013
Dearest Son: At church today, the Eucharist was devoted to your memory. Andrea sang the passages and it was truly beautiful. I love and miss you, my precious son. Love, Mom
November 30, 2013
Dearest Son: November 30, 2012 was the last day we exchanged text messages. I'm so glad I told you that I would help you and that I loved you. I miss you so very much my darling boy and will always love you. Love, Mom
November 29, 2013
Dearest Son: we took Clementine and Penelope to the zoo today. It brought back memories of taking a little boy to the zoo and also a not do little boy. Remember the Knoxville Zoo? That was really funny - you and I both had a lot of laughs about that for a few years. We even talked about it and laughed when we were together last Thanksgiving! I love and miss you sweet boy. Love, Mom
November 28, 2013
Dearest Son: Happy Thanksgiving. I am thankful to have you as my beautiful son. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
November 27, 2013
Dearest Son: went to the park today with Clementine and Penny. It reminded me of taking you to the park to play. That was so much fun!!!! I sure do love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
November 26, 2013
Dearest Son: Heading out to California to celebrate Thanksgiving with Chris, Amy, Clementine, and Penelope. I know you will be with us in spirit. It's so hard, son, not having you here. I'm so glad I have such a happy memories from last Thanksgiving. I love and miss you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
November 25, 2013
Dearest Son: Steve and I drove by Allstate yesterday. Every time I drive by there I think about you and the plans you had to work there when you moved to Chicago. What I would not give to have you here with me, where I can really hold you and tell you how very much I love you. I miss you, sweet angel and love you with all my heart. Love, Mom
November 24, 2013
Dearest Son: A bright, sunny and cold day. I met with the priest at church today and the mass next week will be held in your memory. During the mass today, we prayed to be quick to listen and slow to anger. I look back on my life and wish there were many, many times I heeded those words. I pray for you and Our Lord to help me with this. I love and miss you precious son. Love, Mom
November 23, 2013
Dearest Son: It's colder than Christmas today! Or as I said to you when I visited you - "it's wicked cold"! I had a really wonderful dream about you last night. When I woke up, I was smiling. Even as I write this and think about the dream, I smile. We were both so very happy and laughing. I love and miss you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
November 22, 2013
Dearest Son: One of my dear friends and staff nurses has asked about having an anniversary mass for you at her church. I think that would be lovely and I'm sure you will be so touched. You were always such a loving and sentimental person. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
November 21, 2013
Dearest Son: You are in the thoughts and prayers of a lot of people right now. I wish, precious son, that you had known how much you were loved and that your being here made a difference in so many lives. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
November 21, 2013
November 20, 2013
Dearest Son: Your scholarship should be launching this week. I wrote up a a background story about how you grew up in the world of nursing. I included you meeting patients when I went on home visits and how you were the darling of the staff at the VNA. You know, when you left us, I received cards from almost everyone there that you knew. Those ladies just absolutely adored you. I love and miss you, my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
November 19, 2013
Dearest Son: I read our text exhange last night from a year ago. It's been getting harder and harder to focus. I cry more these days and pray more as well. I pray to Mary and our blessed Lord to give me strength. I love and miss you, my sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
November 18, 2013
Dearest Son: The Christmas music is on now. It makes me happy yet sad to listen. This time last year, I was getting ready for your Thanksgiving visit. So many wonderful memories. I just wish I undertood how really sad you were or I would have never let you get on that plane. I love and miss you, my sweet, beautiful son. Love, Mom
November 17, 2013
Dearest Son: i am facing a big challenge in my life. I pray that The Lord will give me strength and I could sure use your love as well. I love and miss you my sweet boy. Love, Mom.
November 15, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you so very, very much. Someone asked me yesterday if I had any children. "Yes" I replied, "I have a son, who is one of the most wonderful people I have ever known. But he died last December". Sometimes I pretend like you are still alive - you are to me. I will always hold on to you. I love you, precious son. Love, Mom
November 14, 2013
Dearest Son: It snowed the the other day. The cemetery looks really pretty when it snows, especially in the moonlight. I love and miss you son. Love, Mom
November 13, 2013
Dearest Son: Your Aunts Carolyn and Susie sent a beautiful figurine to place on your grave. In the note they enclosed, they still called you "Bobby". They sure did love you, son. I'm glad you had a chance to spend time with them last year. It gave them a good memory. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
November 12, 2013
Dearest Son: I really miss you. A year ago this time we were talking and texting about Thanksgiving and your visit. I still have all of your text messages about what we were going to cook for our feast. I love you, sweet son. Love, Mom
November 11, 2013
Dearest Son: Someone asked me today after a meeting if we are coming up on the one year anniversary. I started to cry. This is so hard - I cannot even put words to it. I love and miss you, sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
November 10, 2013
Dearest Son: I visit your resting place every day I am in town. Starting to notice Christmas wreaths. I think I will hold out until after Thanksgiving to place your tree and wreath. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. I left you a single red rose today. Love, Mom
November 09, 2013
Dearest Son: one of my FB friends asked this question: "if you could have dinner with anyone, living or dead, who would that be?". I answered "my son so he could tell me about Heaven". I love and miss you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
November 08, 2013
Dearest Son: There are times when all is quiet and I can "hear" you talking to me. You tell me you are here. I believe you are and it helps me to know you are watching over me. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
November 07, 2013
Dearest Son: I dreamt about you last night. You were about eight years old in the dream. I remembered saying "I'm so happy to have you back even if only for a little while". In the dream, I was helping you study for a test. Then we took a walk outside and three pinwheels appeared in the night sky. They looked like fireworks and made it almost as light as day - it was beautiful. Then you looked at me and said "It's time, Mom". I woke up then. I love and miss you, my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
November 06, 2013
Dearest Son: I pray for strength each and every day. I pray for grace so I can be just and full of compassion. I pray for the ability to be ready to do good to all people. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
November 05, 2013
Dearest Son: While taking the train to work today, I was thinking about how you helped decorate the Christmas tree last year. It was really a beautiful tree. So much so, I left it up until May! Actually, I just couldn't bear to take it down because it was a part of you - something that you touched right before you passed away that I could hold on to. I love and miss you. You are my sweet angel. Love, Mom
November 04, 2013
Dearest Son: I love you, love you, love you!!! You are my sweet, beautiful son. I look forward to the day when we are together again with our Lord. Love, Mom
November 03, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you so very much. One of the most wonderful nurses and mothers I know devoted a prayer in your memory at mass. You have touched so many with your love and kindness. I love you and am proud that you are my son. Love, Mom
November 02, 2013
Dearest Son: today marks eleven months since you went to be with Jesus and the angels. I dreamt about you last night and in the dream you were several different ages. You were angry and I was trying to reason with you, but to no avail. I've been thinking a lot lately about your hurt and pain. Like me, you turned that to anger as a way to deal with it. I wish I would have taught you how to work through pain in a better way. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
November 01, 2013
Dearest Son: I started on the web page. Your domain name is RJsLovingSpirit.org. I've never done anything like this before. Please guide me from Heaven in this endeavor. I love and miss you. You are my sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
October 31, 2013
Dearest Son: Happy Halloween! I have some of your Halloween pictures set up around the house. One of the funniest ones has a pumpkin that you and I carved together - it's pretty crazy looking! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
October 30, 2013
Dearest Son: This morning I attend the Mass for All Souls Day. I wept throughout the Mass, especially when your name was read. I want to honor your life and will always strive to do so. You are my beautiful, sweet son. Love, Mom
October 29, 2013
Dearest Son: I was talking with someone this morning about when you were in Cub Scouts. You loved to have me read stories at the meetings. One of your favorites was the "Candy Witch". I was also thinking about the year I made the witch's brew for your Halloween party. It was a big hit, but I was scared that someone get burned with the dry ice. I am thankful for the memories. I love and miss you, sweet pumpkin. Love, Mom
October 28, 2013
Dearest Son: Awake again at 1:30 and unable to get back go sleep until around 5:30. Right before I went back to sleep, I was thinking about the balloon release we did for your birthday. I could hear you telling me that you really loved and appreciated us thinking about you on your birthday. I love and miss you precious boy. Love, Mom
October 27, 2013
Dearest Son: Steve and I went to Mass this morning. I could feel your presence. There are times when you are closer to me than other times. If my heart is open and my mind is clear it is easier to know you are there. My favorite time is the early morning before the day begins and my mind is occupied with other thoughts. I love and miss you, my sweet precious son. Love, Mom
October 26, 2013
Dearest Son: I had a good birthday. I spent some time with you and cried because I miss you so much. That will never end, but I'm trying to make the best I things. Sometimes I'm more successful than others. I love you and hold you close in my heart. Love, Mom
October 25, 2013
Dearest Son: Today is my birthday. Do you remember how I've always told you that you were the best birthday present I ever received? That was and will always be true. I was reading the text message that you sent me last year and thinking about your phone call to wish me a Happy Birthday. I was on the train riding home from work. I love and miss you, my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom-Lady
October 24, 2013
Dearest Son: As you know, the Red Sox won last night! You probably have the best seat at the Green Monster! I think we only went to one Red Sox game when you were a boy. I'm sorry I didn't take you to more ball games - I'm sure were would have had fun. But I am happy that we did so many things together. I have some wonderful memories. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
October 23, 2013
Dearest Son: I'm reading a book about what we can learn from people who have passed over. It's pretty interesting and I feel has some good insight in terms of life lessons. It does help me with your loss. I love and miss you my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
October 22, 2013
Dearest Son: There are just no words to describe how very much I miss you. I've been reading some poems about the happiness that people feel when they are in Heaven. You have visited several people in their dreams and told them you were happy. Of that I am glad. I love you, son. Love, Mom
October 21, 2013
Dearest Son: The Grans have just left and were planning to stop by to see you before heading back home. Please watch over them as they make their journey. You know how your Grandpa drives! I love and miss you, sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
October 20, 2013
Dearest Son: Happy Birthday!!! Your Grandma, Grandpa, Steve, and myself sang Happy Birthday to you and released 28 balloons today at the time you were born. We placed flowers at your grave and a birthday wreath. We all love and miss you so very, very much. I love you my sweet, precious boy. Love, Mom
October 19, 2013
Dearest Son: The Grans arrived safely. We went to visit you shortly after they arrived. This is so hard for them. They are remembering your birthday visit last year and how much they enjoyed seeing you. I'm glad they have that memory. The memories help us. I love and miss you precious boy. Love, Mom
October 18, 2013
Dearest Son: I bought a pumpkin and some new flowers for your resting place. I will say this, you have the most festive grave of all with your pro team and college flags! Somehow, doing that makes this a little easier to bear. I love and miss you, precious, sweet boy. Love, Mom
October 17, 2013
Dearest Son: I woke up at 3:30 this morning thinking about your different birthdays and what we did to celebrate. The Spooky World parties rank up there along with Showbiz Pizza. I remember you called Billy Bob "Bobs". You would say, "Can we go see Bobs, Mom?". Such a sweet memory of such a sweet, precious boy. Love, Mom
October 16, 2013
Dearest Son: I've been busy getting ready for the visit from the Grans and your birthday celebration. Please stay close to me. I love and miss you, my precious boy. Love, Mom
October 15, 2013
Dearest Son: I put out some more of your Halloween decorations. I found the pumpkin you made in 1992 - you have "Bobby" written on it. That's what we called you the first ten years of your life. Grandma Baker, Carolyn, and Susie still called you that after you got older. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
October 13, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. I believe you were with me at church today and the dedication. I hope you can see from Heaven what it means to a mother when they lose their child. It is beyond devastating. We mothers just survive this and sometimes barely at that. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
October 12, 2013
Dearest Son: I started decorating the house for Halloween last night and came across one of the decorations you made when you were little. It's so cute. I think I have most everything you ever made! I love and miss you, little son. Love, Mom
October 11, 2013
Dearest Son: I was looking at some of your Halloween pictures this morning. I remember Uncle and I taking you trick-or-treating when you were eight. You went dressed as a roller-blading Ninja! It so funny. Then we went home and ordered Domino's (thin-crust cheese pizze of course). That was the last year I took your trick-or-treating. After that, you always went with your friends and I stayed home and passed out candy. That always made me sad that I never went with you again because we had always had so much fun. I love and miss you, my sweet, sweet boy. Love, Mom
October 10, 2013
Dearest Son: Sometimes, there are so many thoughts about you that race through my mind that it is difficult to write about. All I know is the prevailing sadness and lonliness I have felt since you physically left us. I love and miss you, my sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
October 09, 2013
Dearest Son: I sure do miss you. I was thinking this morning that you and I would be talking right now about what you would like for your birthday. Last year you only wanted a card because I helped you with your rent. It makes me sad that I didn't get you a gift. However, I was going to get you a new iPhone for Christmas - I just didn't get the chance. I love you, my sweet son. Love, Mom
October 08, 2013
Dearest Son: Another beautiful fall day! I was thinking this morning that 28 years ago I was driving to work on a day like this and getting ready for your arrival into this world! It seems like yesterday. I was so scared but so happy and excited to meet you! I love and miss you sweet boy. Love, Mom
October 07, 2013
Dearest Son: it's a beautiful fall day. On the drive up to Lake Geneva I saw several farm stands with pumpkins. It reminded me of the time I picked you up early from school and we went to pick pumpkins. What a great time we had! I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
October 06, 2013
Dearest Son: when I went to church this morning, it was the blessing of the animals. It was pretty crazy. Some of the dogs would howl when the organ played and a few of the dogs got into a fight! You would have loved it! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
October 05, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you sweet angel. You are my sweet, sweet boy and always will be. Love, Mom
October 04, 2013
Dearest Son: After dinner last night, I went and sat by you for a while. The weather is warm, but it won't be long before winter comes and I will be trudging through the snow to visit you. I love and miss you, my sweet, precious boy. Love, Mom
October 03, 2013
Dearest Son: I brought you some beautifiul roses yesterday. The lady at the florist shop at the train station was happy to see me. Since I've planted your live flowers (red & white petunias for the Red Sox) I don't take the bouquets as often. I'm so lonesome for you. I love you, my sweet, precious boy. Love, Mom
October 02, 2013
Dearest Son: Today marks the 10 month anniversary (I hate to even call it that) of when you left us and went to be with the angels and our Lord. I've been crying off and on all morning. I pray for strength. I love and miss you, my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
October 01, 2013
Dearest Son: I really miss you today. Some days are much more difficult than others. I decided I am going to decorate for Halloween with the decorations you made as a child, along with some of the Dept. 56 Village pieces you and I picked out together. We always had so much fun with the villages! I love and miss you, my sweet, precious boy. Love, Mom
September 30, 2013
Dearest Son: I love it when I dream about you because the dreams are almost always happy. When I wake up, I almost always try to go back to sleep so I can dream about you some more. I love and miss you my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
September 29, 2013
Dearest Son: This morning, I woke up at 4:00 AM and was thinking about you. So many things always run through my mind. I am so lost without you, but at one point, I know I could feel your hand on my upper back as if you your patting me to comfort me. There are times when I feel as if I could separate the veil, you would be standing there. I love and miss you, my precious, sweet boy. Love, Mom
September 28, 2013
Dearest Son: It's a beautiful day! I know you are enjoying it right along with me. I love and miss you my sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
September 27, 2013
Dearest Son: Yesterday, I stood at your grave crying and crying. I miss you so very much. The next few months are going to be really difficult. I love you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
September 26, 2013
Dearest Son: Life goes on because that's the way it is. But for me, nothing will ever be the same. There is a huge emptiness that will always be there. I struggle with making any long plans or goals for myself. What makes me saddest, is that I cannot call you and tell you about what's going on. You always loved to hear about my work. I love and miss you my sweet, sweet boy. Love, Mom
September 25, 2013
Dearest Son: Yesterday I watched "World War Z", with the "Z" standing for zombies. I watched it because I know how much you like zombie movies. It felt like you were there with me. There were times when I could have sworn I heard you laughing! I love and miss you, precious, sweet boy. Love, Mom
September 24, 2013
Dearest Son: Still having problems with my back. What I need is my favorite personal trainer (you). You were awesome! I'm sorry that I was such a crybaby. I'm really proud of the work you did and all the people you helped, not just physically, but with their other problems as well. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
September 23, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you more than any spoken or written word could ever convey. You were always and continue to be so much of my being. You are my only child and I love you beyond this world that we live in. I look forward to seeing you in Heaven. Love, Mom
September 22, 2013
Dearest Son: I didn't make it to church this morning. I woke up with back pain similar to what I had before my surgery. I have not idea what happened - I've been pretty much pain free for over two years. I was really looking forward to going to church. Hopefully next Sunday. Today is a beautiful day - I will be spending some time outside and of course, some time to visit your resting place. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom.
PS: Your cell phone keeps giving the ESPN updates. Maybe it's a little silly I kept your phone active, but it is another way to help me feel connected to you.
September 21, 2013
Dearest Son: I'm going to try to go to church tomorrow - I haven't been since you passed away except to attend a funeral. I'm not mad at God or anything. I think I've been afraid I would get too emotional and upset people. I'm sure you will be with me as you always are. Today has been a struggle. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
September 20, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. You were always such a sweet little baby and person. I dream of you often and you are always on my kind when I'm awake. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
September 19, 2013
Dearest Son: When I visited you last night, the sky was filled with an amazing lightening show! It was really spectacular. It reminded me of the trip we took to Sanibel. That was a great memory, especially parasailing! I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
September 17, 2013
Dearest Son: I attended a funeral today - the first one that I have been to since you left us. I did pretty good until the end, when they started "Amazing Grace", then the weeping began. You loved that song. I have sung that to you many times and it was a part of your memorial service. I miss and love you so much. You are my sweet boy. Love, Mom
September 16, 2013
Dearest Son: You iPhone alerted this morning that it was Steve's birthday tomorrow. I must say, it was a little shocking, but I was delighted that you put his birthday in your reminders so you could wish him a Happy Birthday. Thanks for doing that - those are the little things that help me. I love and miss you, my sweet son. Love, Mom
September 15, 2013
Dearest Son: I am eating at a restaurant where several children are also dining. It reminds me of one time when you were about four and you and I were eating dinner at a place in St. Charles. You said to me "Mom, are all those people looking at me 'cause I'm so cute?" I about fell off my chair, I was laughing so hard. I love and miss you precious boy. Love, Mom
September 14, 2013
Dearest Son: I wonder if you know what gets posted on Facebook. One of your friends wrote about playing hockey at Navin Rink and Roller Kingdom. He talked about what shenanigans you all pulled. It does my heart good to see that people remember you with such great fondness. I love and miss you my precious son. Love, Mom
September 13, 2013
Dearest Son: I had three dreams about you last night - in each dream you were a different age. Two of the dreams were happy, but one was so sad it is heartbreaking. In this dream, you were the age you were when you left us. You were crying and crying but would not tell anyone what was really wrong, just that you were very, very sad. I wish that I could have taken your pain away. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
September 12, 2013
Dearest Son: Some people take things to heart more than others. I don't know what makes one that way. I've always felt that way and you did too. It seems like I've been that way since I was born and you were that way as well. I'm so sorry, sweet boy, that you had so much pain. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
September 11, 2013
Dearest Son: You are my sweet, sweet angel. I love and miss you so much. You are always in my thoughts and in my heart. Love, Mom
September 10, 2013
Dearest Son: Everyone loves your sports team decorations, especially the UT flag. I would much rather be helping you decorate your new apartment in Chicago than this. It's just so very, very sad. I love and miss, sweet angel. Love, Mom
September 09, 2013
Dearest Son: We are getting a place at Lake Geneva. Yesterday, I just kept thinking about how much I wish you were with us - we would have had so much fun! Steve and I both got teary while having lunch and talking about how wonderful it would be to have you help us look at places. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
September 07, 2013
Dearest Son: today I saw the men that take care of the cemetery. I thanked them for taking such good care of your grave. They said they loved your flowers, Red Sox flag and Red Sox gnome. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
September 06, 2013
Dearest Son: I've been giving performance evaluations for the past few weeks. It's funny/sad/sweet that a lot of people look at your picture and their eyes fill with tears. You touched a lot of people in your life, even people who never met you. Yet somehow they know what a loving and wonderful person you were and you continue that as an angel in Heaven. Everyone always says "Your son has the most beautiful, kind eyes" - what a handsome young man". I love and miss you, my sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
September 05, 2013
Dearest Son: Yesterday after work,I spent some time working on your footbal wreath. I love doing it, but it's really hard because I cry. It makes me so sad to be doing this for your grave. It just isn't right. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
September 04, 2013
Dearest Son: I miss and love you son. For 27 years I took care of you and helped you. Now all I can do is take care of your grave and try to preserve your memory. Please know I have and will always love you with all of my heart. Love, Mom
September 03, 2013
Dearest Son: Yesterday, I took you some roses to mark the nine months since you passed. I just don't know what to do except take a day at a time, knowing that with each passing day, it brings me that much closer to being with you again. I love and miss you so very, very much. You are my sweet angel. Love, Mom
September 02, 2013
Dearest Son: After a very restless night, I finally fell asleep around 5:00 AM. I had, I believe, a dream visit from you. You were about three and we were at a bowling alley,celebrating a birthday party. You were sitting on my lap and I could smell the J&J baby shampoo in your hair. What is so strange, is that I could physically feel you. I was half-asleep and when I opened my eyes, I was in a sitting position and my arms were placed in such a way to be wrapped you. Then I began to scream, because I realized you had been taken from me. But for a few seconds, while I could feel you and hold you, it was so comforting and loving. I know you were with me and that I held you. I love and miss you, my sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
September 01, 2013
Dearest Son: I really wish we could sit at Starbuck's and talk. I so miss talking to you. You were my buddy and I can hardly bear that you are gone. I love and miss you, sweet boy! Love, Mom
August 31, 2013
Dearest Son: when I dream about you, I wonder if, as an angel, you can see yourself in my dreams? I've been reading about how we can better help our loved ones in Heaven come visit us more easily in dreams. Sounds pretty cool! I love and miss you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
August 30, 2013
Dearest Son: I wish that I could turn back the hands of time and do things differently. I wish, I wish, I wish.....I love and miss you my sweet son. Love, Mom
August 29, 2013
Dearest Son: I was looking at the picture of you on Bear last night - I also have the same picture on my desk. That was taken 5 years ago Labor Day weekend when we lived in Seattle. What a great weekend that was! So many wonderful pictures and memories. I love and miss you, my sweet son. Love, Mom
August 28, 2013
Dearest Son: I was thinking about the times when I used to pick you up from the airport. You were always doing something silly. You always could make me laugh! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 27, 2013
Dearest Son: I've started to put some things together to make a memory quilt. I really wish I could make it myself, but I'm am a terrible seamstress! Much better at putting in sutures! I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 26, 2013
Dearest Son: When I was getting ready for work this morning, I was thinking about how you used to sit with me and keep me company while I put on my make up. I used to tickle your nose with my make up brush and you would just giggle and giggle. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
August 24, 2013
Dearest Son: I'm really lonesome for you. I miss you every waking moment. I can't wait to get to Heaven so I can be with you again!!! I love you, sweet angel. Love, Mom
August 23, 2013
Dearest Son: It's so funny how random memories of will crop up. Usually it happens when I feel really sad and it's a rememberance of something that makes me smile. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
August 22, 2013
Dearest Son: I spent most of the day yesterday in my office with the door closed crying. I guess that's to be expected. I just miss you so much and I hate that you are gone. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 21, 2013
Dearest Son: I'm really lonely for you today. My life sure has changed a lot in the past year. It would be so wonderful to be able to take a drive with you in the Smokey Mountains. We sure did have fun that day and got some really great pictures! I love and miss you my sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 20, 2013
Dearest Son: Please visit Becca. She is really having a hard time. She misses you so very, very much and is sad you left. Here I am, still telling you what to do. I will always be Mom-Lady! I love and miss you sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 19, 2013
Dearest Son: I had a dream about you last night. You were about 8 years old and telling your grandma how to brush her teeth! It was really funny and sweet. I miss you my precious boy. Love, Mom
August 18, 2013
Dearest Son: I saw a sign for the annual Alzheimer's Walk. It brought to mind the fall you and I did the walk together. You were probably about 12. It was really fun - we talked and laughed so much the five miles went by like nothing. I love and miss you my sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 17, 2013
Dearest Son: I was thinking about your first days of school. I always took a picture (many of those included Nikki) and put them in your scrapbook. How cool it is to see how you changed over the years. I always cried on your first day of school, but never let you see it. I love and miss you, precious boy! Love, Mom
August 16, 2013
Dearest Son: Every time I see a pregnant woman, I remember what it was like to carry you. It seems like just yesterday that I could feel you moving around and kicking. I will never forget the first time I felt you move. It was wonderful! I love and miss you, my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
August 15, 2013
Dearest Son: I shared with picture of your Red Sox decoration with your friend Michael yesterday. He loved it and thought you would as well. I will be working n your football wreath to get it ready for football season. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 14, 2013
Dearest Son: Sending hugs and kisses to you up in Heaven. I love and miss you, my sweet son. Nothing will ever be the same.... Love, Mom
August 13, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you so very, very much. Love, Mom
August 11, 2013
Dearest Son: a year ago today I was driving down to Knoxville to help you find a car. You kept calling "Mom, are you going to be here soon?" I was so happy to see you . You were so handsome! I love and miss you, sweet, sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 10, 2013
Dearest Son: Yesterday evening, I took a blanket and laid down next to you. It was so peaceful and comforting. The weather was beautiful - a warm breeze, soft white clouds in the sky, and the singing of birds and katydids. I fell asleep for about 30 minutes. What a lovely way to end my week, especially since I didn't start the day very well. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 09, 2013
Dearest Son: having a tough day. I'm really angry with a lot of people and their hateful behavior. I wish you were here to talk to. Even though I talk to you all the time it would be great to hear you answer in your own voice! I love and miss you, my sweet boy. I really could use the help of you and our Lord. Love, Mom
August 08, 2013
Dearest Son: I was riding the train this morning and thinking that if everything had gone as planned, you would be living in Chicago now and possibly riding with me on the train as you traveled to your job. I wish you would have called me, son. I love and miss you, my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
August 07, 2013
Dearest Son: Yesterday, I asked that you help my employee. I am now asking that you help your friends as well. Many of them are suffering with guilt and while I try to help them as best I can, they need you to send your love to them from Heaven. People are just so hurt and devestated. We will never get over this; there is no healing of this type of wound. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 06, 2013
Dearest Son: Today, one of my employees called me and told me she had been thinking about taking her own life. She has been very depressed. I begged her to call EAP and her doctor to get help and I listened to her. I just told her I would do what I could to help her and that I would pray for her. I ask that you also help her and guide her. She has small children and they would be devastated if anything happened to her. She is a very lovely person and very caring with the patients. Please help her, son. You are my precious boy and you helped so many while you were here on earth. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
August 05, 2013
Dearest Son: Yesterday, after I returned from my trip, I stood by your grave and wondered, "how did it come to this"? I try so hard to understand, but I don't think I ever will fully understand. Maybe I just need to stop questioning it since I can't do anything about it. I love and miss you, my sweet, sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 04, 2013
Dearest Son: on the way back to Chicago. It was good to see family and friends. Lots of stories an happy memories of you. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
August 02, 2013
Dearest Son: Heading back from the lake. We had a really good time but it just wasn't the same without you. I kept expecting to see you jump off the top of the pontoon boat!!!! I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
August 01, 2013
Dearest Son: We are sharing many wonderful stories about you and having some laughter along with the tears. I do feel that you are with us and I hope that our rememberances of you makes you smile. I love and miss you - it's never the same driving down here for a visit. You were always my co-pilot! Be at peace my beautiful boy. Love, Mom
July 31, 2013
Dearest Son: Today we are looking at pictures of you and scanning them so they can be saved and also made into memory books. Needless to say, some tears are being shed. We love and miss you. I just wish you really understood how much you were loved and valued for the special and wonderful person you were and will always continue to be in our hearts. You are my sweet son. Love, Mom
July 30, 2013
Dearest Son: Headed to Missouri to see the Grans. Please watch over us as we travel. Love and miss you my sweet, precious boy. Love, Mom
July 29, 2013
Dearest Son: Yesterday, I came across the very first photograph taken of you. It was your ultrasound!!! How strange to look at that image and wonder "What happened"? I love and miss you my sweet, precious son! Love, Mom
July 27, 2013
Dearest Son: You have some clover growing on your resting place. I've been looking for a four-leaf clover, but no luck today. A young soldier was here visiting his grandpa. Please watch over him - he seems like such a nice boy. I'd say he is about 19. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
July 26, 2013
Dearest Son: I wonder if you and Nikki are playing with Christmas Teddy and Easter Lambkin? Remember how much fun we had playing keep away from her with her little stuffed animals? Remember how she used to run upstairs when no one was looking and snatch Weber the Rabbit off of your bed? She was something else, just like you were something else...I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
July 25, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you so very, very much. I've been thinking about the trip to Knoxville last August when we got the car. You made me very proud with the way you handled all your business matters - very polite and professional. Then of course, we had to go shopping - I love taking you shopping. You are pretty funny to watch. I still have the sunglasses I bought you - I brought them back to Chicago with me after your memorial service. I just haven't worn them, but maybe one day I will. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
July 24, 2013
Dearest Son: Thank you for visiting me in my dream last night. You looked so handsome and happy. Kind of a funny thing to be surfing in Australia though :). I'm sorry that you and I never got the chance to go skydiving like we planned, after my back had healed from surgery. It would have been so much fun! I love and miss you, sweet boy. You were my buddy! Love, Mom
July 23, 2013
Dearest Son: One of your old friends from Boston wrote a message on your Facebook page. In the message, she wrote about what a funny and compassionate person you were and how you always tried to comfort and help other people. It made me so proud and yet so sad. I only wish you had really understood how much you were and continue to be loved. You are a special, special person. I love and miss you, darling boy. Love, Mom
PS: She also said you were quite a charmer, but then we all know that!!! :)
July 22, 2013
Dearest Son: I was thinking about some of the songs I used to make up and sing to you and Nikki? They were pretty silly. I still sing them sometimes, but then, as you told me at Thanksgiving, "Mom, you are such a dork!". I love and miss you my sweet, funny, boy. Love, Mom
July 22, 2013
Dear Robert,
Please let your Mom know that its okay for her to live - again, to live twice as much for you... to enjoy life twice as much for you, that.. that is what you want her to do.. what you expect her to do.. to keep on going and experiencing things and that through her you will experience them as well..
It has been seven months - almost eight months since you left us.. I pray for your peace every night.. I pray for your Mom's peace every night as well..
I will never forget you and will always remember you as that sweet loving boy you always were...

Love Mrs. Chapman
July 21, 2013
Dearest Son: I visited you today, as I do every day when I am in town. There are times when I never cry at your grave, but when I leave I burst into tears or start to cry in the grocery store. I really don't care where I cry and I am not at all embarrassed by my tears - I figure that I've earned them. I love and miss you, my beautiful son. Love, Mom
July 20, 2013
Dearest Son: I found a poem today that is written from the perspective of a child who has died and how his/her mom is a survivor. It pretty much sums up how I feel, especially the line that the mother has a broken heart that will never heal. There is no solace or acceptance for what has happened. It just is and there isn't a thing I can do about it, which enrages me at times. I love and miss you, my sweet son. Love, Mom
July 19, 2013
Dearest Son: Last night, I had a dream that I was holding you while we were eating dinner and you fell asleep - you were around four. You woke up and we took a walk. We came upon some people who were working on a garden - all of a sudden it burst into the most beatitiful garden I have ever seen - full of flowers and color. Grandma Baker appeared. She said "Cindy-Girl, I'm getting this ready for you". Then I awoke - I felt very peaceful and happy. Maybe my time is coming soon and I will get to be with you again. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
July 18, 2013
Dearest Son: The past few days have been especially hard. I've been really weepy (I even had to leave a presentation, I was so upset). I'm just so sad and I miss you terribly. There is no real solace - I think the only time that will come is when I am with you again. I love you, precious son. Love, Mom
July 17, 2013
Dearest Son: Please visit your grandma and give her a spirit hug. She is so very, very sad. I love and miss you precious boy. Love, Mom
July 16, 2013
Dearest Son: I was thinking this morning about making you the dinosaur-shaped pancakes. You and I had so much fun we you were a little boy. One of my favorite memories is taking you to the movies - you had the funniest laugh! We would be naughty and have popcorn and soda for dinner. I would give anything to be able to that again. I love and miss you, my sweet son. Love, Mom
July 15, 2013
Dearest Son: We all love and miss you so very, very much. There is nothing that is going to make this any better. I'm trying to adjust to my new "normal", when I feel anything but "normal". My sweet, sweet boy. Love, Mom
July 14, 2013
Dearest Son: I miss you.....
Love, Mom
July 13, 2013
Dearest Son: Uncle, Katie, Adrienne, and Natalie are here for visit. We sure do miss you!! You are my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
July 12, 2013
Dearest Son: I am trying to find joy in the small things, but nothing will ever be the same. That's just the way it is. I love and miss you precious boy. You are my sweet, sweet son. Love, Mom
July 11, 2013
Dearest Son: please watch over and help your friends in need. They still need you precious boy. I love and miss you sweet son. Uncle and I visited your grave this morning - this still does not seem real. Love, Mom
July 11, 2013
Hey cuz. I know I don't write on here much, but never a day goes by that I don't think of you. I miss you man. You were family to me. I'm having a harder time coping than usual. I just want you to know that I love you. I wish you were here with me right now. Keep eyes on me guy.
July 10, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. You are my wonderful, sweet boy. Love, Mom
July 09, 2013
Dearest Son: I love you and miss you so very, very much. This still seems surreal. Last night, I had a dream that I rescued you - you were in one of those diving suits with a helmet. I would guess you were around 8 or 9 and you were in some type of underground building that had flooded. I guess it's good I can save you in a dream because God knows I didn't when you died. I'm sorry. Love, Mom
July 08, 2013
Dearest Son: I woke up at 3:00 AM thinking about you. I don't even know what to say except I do so wish you had not gone away. I love and miss you precious boy. Love, Mom
July 07, 2013
Dearest Son: Steve and I walked to the Botanic Garden today - we talked about how we wished you were with us to see the art show and all the pretty flowers. We selected your marker yesterday. We both cried - we love and miss you so much!!! Love, Mom
July 06, 2013
Dearest Son: I do so love and miss you. Meeting today to put the finishing touches on your marker. This is so very, very hard. I pray for guidance that I will select the wording that will honor you. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom.
July 05, 2013
Dearest Son: Great 4th of July fireworks on the beach - we could see several towns. I wish you could have been there with us to enjoy the day and the fireworks display. I love and miss you, my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
July 04, 2013
Dearest Son: Happy Fourth of July!! I was remembering your wonderful fireworks shows! Grandma Baker sure did love those! I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
July 03, 2013
Dearest Son: Each morning when I awake, my first thoughts are of you. Sometimes they are happy, but mostly they are sad. I am so lonely for you....I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
July 02, 2013
Dearest Son: I love you.....Love, Mom
July 01, 2013
Dearest Son: You are my sweet, sweet boy forever and always. I love you precious son. Love, Mom
June 30, 2013
Dearest Son: I am in the process of designing your marker and the family monument. This is so very hard for me. Maybe because it still does not seem real. I want things to be perfect, but life will never be right - I just have to try to find moments of goodness, which you help me with. You send me messages and I want you to know that I hear them. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
June 29, 2013
Dearest Son: I just wanted to tell you that I love you and to thank you for helping me. Standing at your grave helps me to put things into perspective sometimes. You are such a blessing. I love and miss you my, sweet, beautiful son. Love, Mom
June 28, 2013
Dearest Son: Your cousin Josh is getting married today. I wonder if you "go" to weddings and enjoy the celebration. We had a wonderful time last year at Tom's wedding - you and your silly picture poses! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 27, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you so very, very much. Please help me be strong as I go through my journey. You are my sweet, precious angel. Love, Mom
June 26, 2013
Dearest Son: I wanted to thank you for being a part of the wedding between Steve and I nine years ago today. I sure love watching you on the video and thank you for the wishes. Also, thanks for being such a great dance partner to so many..... I love and miss you my precious boy. I took you some white roses today to celebrate. Love, Mom
June 25, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. Please know you are always in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Mom
June 24, 2013
Dearest Son: I just don't know what to say today except I love and miss you so very, very much. I've been having a really hard time the past few days. I just keep praying for God to give me strength and help me with your loss. I love you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 23, 2013
Dearest Son: The Prairie Home Companion performance was wonderful as always! It sure does bring back some wonderful memories of listening to that with you as you were growing up. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
June 23, 2013
Bob I read what your Mom was saying about you being so athletic then I remembered going to one of your soccer games! Wow does time fly past! You were such a little guy!!
June 22, 2013
Dearest Son: I read something that really reasonated with about how I need to be strong as other people look to me for guidance. With the loss of a child, people look to the mother, as she is usually the one that holds things together - she is the caregiver and nurturer. The only way that I am doing this is knowing that I have your help and you are giving me guidance. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
June 21, 2013
Dearest Son: Thank you for the time you gave to your family and friends. You were truly a gift to a great many people. How wonderful is that! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 20, 2013
Dearest Son: I've been looking at some of your baseball pictures. I remember the day you hit a home run, a triple, and two doubles. I still have your game ball. You were quite an athlete - you could play any sport that you put your mind to. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
June 19, 2013
Dearest Son: Last night, I had a dream about you. In this dream, you were about three years old and dressed in your little Osh Kosh overalls - you were so cute. You were smiling at first, but then you began to cry "Mommy, Mommy". For some reason, I could not get to you. I woke up screaming "Bobby, Bobby" and sobbing. Maybe it was just about the great pain of being separated from you, even though are know you are safe in the arms of Jesus. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
June 18, 2013
Dearest Son: Sunday evening, I sat with you for quite a while and sang to you "You are my Sunshine". I come to see you every day and I can sense that you are there, but you seem to be wherever I am. Sometimes I feel you more than I do at other times, usually when I am missing you so much I can hardly breathe. I love and miss you, precious, sweet son. Love, Mom
June 17, 2013
Dearest Son: I woke up this morning missing you so much my heart was hurting more than usual. I sure do wish you hadn't of left us....I love and miss you my darling, boy. Love, Mom
June 16, 2013
Dearest Son: I want to wish you Happy Father's Day! Although you never had the opportunity to be a dad I know how very much you wanted to be a father. You were so wonderful with children - so kind, caring, and patient. You would have been a great dad! I think now your work is to help the children in Heaven as well as those on Earth. You are a sweet, precious angel. Love, Mom
June 16, 2013
I miss you Robert... I miss our games of Words with Friends we use to play..Today will be a hard day for your Dad.. please comfort him...
June 15, 2013
Dearest Son: Six months ago today we laid you to rest. It was a rainy Saturday morning, much like this one. When it rains like this, it's as if the angels are weeping - maybe some of the tears are joyful because you are at peace, but I think some of the tears they shed are tears of sorrow for those that love you and the pain and loss we all feel. I love and miss you, precious son. Love, Mom
June 14, 2013
Dearest Son: Please send your love, kindness, and gentle spirit to Hailey Rhodes. She is a sweet little girl who had a stroke. Her parents, Jim and Michelle, are very good friends of ours - I know you have seen them on Facebook. When we lost you, they were one of the first to comfort us. Please be her angel, precious son. Love, Mom
June 13, 2013
Dearest Son: Our first concert tonight at Ravinia. I will really miss sending you pictures. I know how much you had looked forward to attending concerts there this summer, but you will be there with us in spirit - it just would have been much more fun having you there! I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
June 12, 2013
Dearest Son: I was thinking about all the fun camps you used to do in the summer - baseball, hockey, basketball, etc. Sometimes I wish you could have stayed a little boy - then I would have been able to keep you safe. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 11, 2013
Dearest Son: Love you, love you, love you!!!! You are my sweet, precious boy always and forever. Love, Mom
June 10, 2013
Dearest Son: Someone asked me today how I was doing and I burst into tears. The loss of you is so profound - there are no words to describe it. I am so looking forward to the day when I can see you again. You told me in a dream that you would be there to greet me and would help me when my time came. I love you, precious son. Love, Mom
June 09, 2013
Dearest Son: I love you so very, very much. I found your red bicycle ornament today - I was so happy that I cried. Santa gave that to you when you were five to go along with your red bicycle! You are my sweet, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 08, 2013
Dearest Son: Sometimes there are just no words other than "I love you". Love, Mom
June 07, 2013
Miss you! Aunt Ann
June 07, 2013
Dearest Son: Your Boston Red Sox planter is on display. I took some pictures and people loved it. I hope you enjoy it, especially the gnome! I love and miss you. I am glad that I can do a few things for you and I want you to know, I always will until I join you one day. You a my sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 06, 2013
Dearest Son: I have come to the conclusion that I can no longer spell or use correct grammar. I know you find this amusing - I was always at you to write and speak correctly. Well, there you go. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. I so long to see again! Maybe we can practice spelling words! Love, Mom
June 05, 2013
Dearest Son: So many people are still written on your FB page about how much they miss you and what a remarkable and amazing person you were to them. I am so proud to call you my son. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
June 04, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you so very much. Please know you are in my thoughts, prayers, and my heart. You are my dear, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 03, 2013
Dearest Son: You have and always will be so very, very loved. I am sure Jesus, the angels, and your family in Heaven are helping you to understand the gift that you were to all of us. I am blessed to be your mom. I love you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
June 03, 2013
June 03, 2013
Robert, You are in my thoughts every single day. Why did you have to leave us.... Please help us all through this..

Love,
Mrs. Chapman
June 02, 2013
Dearest Son: Six months ago today you left us - our hearts were broken. It is said that time heals all wounds, but not this wound - it is too deep. Yet we take comfort in the knowledge that you remain with us in our thoughts, our dreams, in a song that reminds of you, and in each beautiful sunrise and sunset. We all love you, my precious, sweet boy. Love, Mom.
June 01, 2013
Dearest Son: I love you!!!!!! Love, Mom
May 31, 2013
Dearest Son: I look at your handsome face every day on this page and it still takes me aback. I am blessed that I have so many wonderful memories of you, but sometimes those memories just arene't enough. I love and miss you, my sweet precious boy. Love, Mom
May 30, 2013
Dearest Son: I wish I could send you a text in Heaven. I miss you so much.....Love, Mom
May 29, 2013
Dearest Son: A hundred times a day I ask "Why did you leave us?". I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
May 28, 2013
Dearest Son: I'm really missing you today. There are so many things I would love to talk to you about. There is just this huge emptiness. I try to stay strong in the knowledge that one day I will see you again!!! I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
May 27, 2013
Dearest Son: Getting ready to head back to Chicago. Please watch over us and keep us safe. You are my angel! I love and miss you precious boy. Love, Mom
May 26, 2013
Dearest Son: It's so sad not to have you here physically but we are glad you are with us in spirit. We took Clementine and Penny to their first parade -!it was a lot fun. Then we ate Dim Sum - you would have loved it! I love and miss you son. Love, Mom.
May 25, 2013
Dearest Son: We have been sharing wonderful memories of you! You are so loves and so very missed - what a blessing you were to all of us! I love and miss you precious son. Love, Mom
May 24, 2013
Dearest Son: we just arrived in San Francisco. I wish you were with us - I know you are in spirit, but I'm sure you would enjoy meeting Clementine and Penelope. I love you sweet boy. Love, Mom.
May 23, 2013
Dearest Son: I just wanted to tell you how much I love and miss you each and every day. Sometimes I think this is all a dream and that there has just been a terrible mistake. But you are with our Lord now - He has taken your pain and tears away. I love you, precious son. Love, Mom
May 22, 2013
Dearest Son: I've been dreaming about you a lot lately. Last night, I dreamt we were packing you up to go to college at Washington State University. You were so excited! I wonder if you get to go to school in Heaven - some of the books I've read said that people get to do things that they wished they could have done on earth and that you are always learning. I like that idea. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
May 21, 2013
Dearest Son: Last night I dreamt that we were swimming in a big lake and swinging off a rope-swing. It reminded me of the floating on the river with Grandpa and the trips to the lake. We had so much fun! What great memories! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
May 20, 2013
I lit the candle to remind you how much you are loved! I know you already know, I was looking at something yesterday about what happens to our soul when we die and it said we go back to ALL. I found that comforting, because GOD is all . Love you!!
May 19, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you more than words can ever say! Love, Mom
May 18, 2013
Dearest Son: we bought some flowers this morning - major planting time tomorrow. I always loved when you would help me plant flowers. I'm sure you will be right there with me digging in the dirt. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
May 17, 2013
Dearest Son: One of the things that I miss the most is your text messages. Almost every day we texted a message to one another. I still have them on my phone and I read them almost every day. I love and miss you, my sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
May 16, 2013
Dearest Son: I do so hope that you have peace. Please do not worry about us - we know that you are with us and are here to help us. You are much loved! Love, Mom
May 15, 2013
Dearest Son: I am really sad and lonely for you today. I'm trying to think about happy memories so I am not so very, very sad. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
May 14, 2013
Dearest Son: I love you and know that you will always be with me. Love, Mom
May 13, 2013
Dearest Son: We finally took the Christmas tree down - what a hard thing to do, but I am so glad you were with us last year to decorate the tree. Each ornament has a special meaning and memory. I should write them down so others will know. I love and miss you sweet son. Love, Mom
May 12, 2013
Dearest Son: Today is Mother's Day. One of my favorite Mother's Day memories is when you were a little boy - about 5 or 6. You and I went to the park and played on the swings, the slide, and the merry-go-round. Then we came home and ate thin crust cheese pizza from Dominos. After that we watched Dumbo and I read you of story. This was topped off by many, many kisses at bedtime. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom.
May 11, 2013
Dearest Son: Thank you for the flowers - they are beautiful!!! I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
May 10, 2013
Dearest Son: Thinking about what a sweet, dear boy you were and always will be. We all love and miss you so very much. Your funny smile, your great sense of humor, and your kindness. Love you, precious boy. Love, Mom
May 09, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. Please help guide me through my day! Love, Mom
May 08, 2013
Dearest Son: I am working on the design for our monument. I say "our" because it is for you, Steve, and me. I think you will like it, especially the Madonna. I love and miss you, my beautiful boy. Love, Mom
May 07, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. My heart and mind are a swirl of emotions and thoughts. Mostly, I'm just so sad. There are times when this pain is so crushing I can scarcely breathe. I love you, sweet, precious son. Love, Mom
May 06, 2013
Dearest Son: Today is Uncle's birthday! Send him a hug from Heaven. You were more like a little brother to him than a nephew. I am grateful that you two had such a special relationship. I love and miss you, sweet son. Love, Mom
May 06, 2013
Hey Bob! Just watched the news and a guy in Iowa was mowing his grass in the snow with a push mower! Quite funny!! Thought u would get a kick out of that!! Love ya! Aunt Ann
May 05, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you so much. You were the best of all of us. Love, Mom
May 04, 2013
Dearest Son: grass has been planted on where you lay to rest. So much better than the bare earth which looks so terribly sad and lonely. I love and miss you sweet boy. Love, Mom
May 03, 2013
Dearest Son: It has been five months since your physical being left us. We all love and miss you so - our hearts will never fully heal. One day, we will all be together again. I love and miss you, my precious son. Love, Mom
May 01, 2013
Dearest Son: dinner tonight with Mickey Mouse! Do you remember your room in St. Charles was decorated in a Mickey theme? It was pretty cool. For a long time, you just called him "Mouse" - so funny! i love and miss you, sweet, sweet boy. Love, Moml
April 30, 2013
Dearest Son: Today, we went to the Magical Kingdom. What a great day with Claire and Andrew! I did cry when we were by the Dumbo ride - I remember riding that with you and I most especially remember the movie when the mommy elephant loved and rocked her baby. We always cried when that scene played - even when you were grown. I love and miss you my precious boy. Love, Mom
April 29, 2013
Dearest Son: heading to the beach - I remember walking with you on the beach when you were a little boy - you were full of questions! What great memories I have of those times! I live and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
April 29, 2013
Dearest Son: at the Epcot Center today the very first ride we went on was called "Soarin" - it was based on what it would be like to fly - our destination was California. I began to weep during the ride - you came to me and said "Mom, this is what it's like - it's so beautiful!" I ove and miss you my precious boy. Love, Mom.
April 29, 2013
Hey cuz! Well I'm finally doing it man. Remember when we talked about me singing as a career? I'm finally getting that ball rolling. I got a competition tonight that I'm singing in. Watch over me. I miss and love and miss you.
April 28, 2013
Dearest Son: at the Epcot Center today the very first ride we went on was called "Soarin" - it was based on what it would be like to fly - our destination was California. I began to weep during the ride - you came to me and said "Mom, this is what it's like - it's so beautiful!" I ove and miss you my precious boy. Love, Mom.
April 27, 2013
Dearest Son: we have arrived in Florida - you would love the house, but then again, I'm sure you can see it. You would love to spend the time with Claire and Andrew - the last time you saw them they were little. I will make sure they get to know you! I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom.
April 26, 2013
Dearest Son: I am really weepy today - very nervous about leaving you for a week. I've come to see you every day since we laid you to rest on December 15. Please be with me - watch over and guide me. I love you, my precious, sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 25, 2013
Dearest Son: Love amd miss you! It's funny, lots of people have been asking how I am today. I just smile and say "okay". I'm afraid if I say anymore I will break down. My God, this is so hard. I love you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 24, 2013
Dearest Son: I love you so very, very much! Love, Mom
April 23, 2013
Dearest Son: Planning the trip to Florida. I remember when we took our first trip to the Magic Kingdom - you had just turned three - you were so sweet, funny, and full of wonder. I love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
April 22, 2013
Dearest Son: What a pretty, pretty day! Full of sunshine, love, and kisses that I am sending to you! Love and miss you, darling boy. Love, Mom
April 21, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you. The weekends and nights seem to be the hardest - I don't have the distraction of work. Please watch over all your loved ones as we go about our day. Love, Mom
April 20, 2013
Dearest Son: The sun is shining today but it's wicked cold - it doesn't feel much like April! I was remembering some of your silly hats - what a great sense of humor you had - you could always make me laugh. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
April 19, 2013
Dearest Son: There are no words to describe how very much I miss you. I'm trying to think of good memories, but I'm so sad that it's hard sometimes. I love you, precious son. Love, Mom
April 18, 2013
When a parent loses a child, it is a long and emotional process. It begins the day the child passes and only ends when the parent joins them. My life will never be the same, but I will live to honor my beautiful son.
April 18, 2013
Dearest Son: I am so very, very sad. I know you have peace, but I would have liked to have had you around longer. I miss your smile, your laugh, and your sense of humor. I just feel lost, son. Love, Mom
April 17, 2013
Dearest Son: I sure do miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 16, 2013
Rj,

Never a day goes by when you're not on my mind, buddy. The summers we spent together. The trouble we used to get in to. Chasing girls and good times. I love you. You were and are my brother. Keep an eye on me buddy. I miss you so much.
April 16, 2013
Dearest Son: The sun is shining and it's a beautiful spring day! I was remembering when you played baseball - one of your greatest games - a home run, 2 triples, and a double! I still have the game ball. Love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
April 15, 2013
Dearest Son: Happy Monday! I love and miss you. Love, Mom
April 14, 2013
Dearest Son: Sending loving thoughts and prayers your way. I love and miss you, Love, Mom
April 13, 2013
Dearest Son: I read a poem to you yesterday that talked about the worth of a man and how it should be measured not by what he gains in life, but what he gives. You gave so much to so many; you were and continue to be, a well-loved man. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
April 12, 2013
Dearest Son: I was thinking about the Bobby-Cat song. You loved for me to sing that to you - you would smile, laugh, and sway to the music. What a sweet precious memory of my sweet, precious boy. Love, Mom
April 11, 2013
Dearest Son: I just wanted to tell you how very much I love and miss you. You are always in my heart. Love, Mom
April 10, 2013
Dearest Son: I talked with Miss Amy last night for a few hours - she really misses you. She thought you were the sweetest baby ever! And you know what, she is right! I love and miss you precious boy. Love, Mom
April 09, 2013
Dearest Son: I am sending all kinds of kisses you way today - nose kisses, cheek kisses, elbow kisses, knee kisses.....remember the goodnight kiss game we used to play? It took us 10 minutes just to get through all the kisses....I love and miss you precious boy. Love, Mom
April 08, 2013
Dearest Son: It is a rainy, April day. It reminds me of a song you used to sing when you were a little boy "It's a rainy day, we can't go out to play, how I love to play in the rain - la, lah, la, lah, la, lah! I love and miss you precious son, Love, Mom
April 07, 2013
Dearest Son: I have started to work on a book - I'm not sure which direction it will take - the first chapter that I have written is about a children's book and how it had and continues to have a recurrent theme in our lives. The day is very pretty - but I suspect you know that. I love you, my sweet, sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 06, 2013
Dearest Son: I was thinking of some of your nicknames: Toostie Roll Pop Drop Kid; Robber Bobber Dirt Dobber (which you hated); Boo Boo Bear; Creature Feature (from your dad); Powder Milk Biscuit Eater (from NPR) Little Foot; Baby Bobby; Robs; and of course, R.J. You had different nicknames at various times in your life. It's so funny and very sweet. But then again, that's you, so very funny and so very sweet with a smile that could light up the world. I love you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom.
April 05, 2013
Dearest Son: Simply said - I love you. You are my precious, precious baby. Love, Mom
April 04, 2013
Dearest Son: I am a hard time trying to get the engergy to even think about completing my PhD or advancing my career - sometimes it all feels pointless - I feel as if I'm just "living" until I get to be with you again. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
April 03, 2013
Dearest Son: I miss you. Love, Mom
April 02, 2013
Dearest Son: Today marks the four month anniversary of your passing. Thank you for the blessing that you were and continue to be. I miss you my, sweet, precious boy. Love, Mom
April 01, 2013
Dearest Son: I met a little girl, Colleen, yesterday - she is six years old and her dad is buried next to you. She loved your wreath with the bunny and she liked all of your flowers as well. Please help her in her time of loss. I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 31, 2013
Dearest Son: Happy Easter! I was thinking this morning of all your Easter baskets or "Bobby Baskets" as I like to call them. I so enjoyed putting them together for you and watching you as your opened them - you were always such an expressive child and so much fun! I love my precious boy. Love, Mom
March 31, 2013
Happy Easter Robert...

Love, Mrs. Chapman
March 30, 2013
Dearest Son: It looks like it is going to be a very pretty day. I was unable to sleep last night, so I got up and watched Napoleon Dynamite - I could feel you with me - I know it was one of your favorite movies. I love and miss you, my dear sweet boy. Vote for Pedro! Love, Mom
March 29, 2013
Dearest Son: Sending loving thoughts and prayers to you. It is Good Friday and I am thankful that you are with Jesus and he is taking care of you. I love my beautiful, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 28, 2013
Dearest Son: Yesterday when I was walking through the train station, I was hit with such an overwhelming feeling of grief that I nearly collapsed. I began to weep and cried all the way home on the train. I love and miss you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 27, 2013
Dearest Son: Today is your little red-headed cousin's birthday. Happy Birthday, Natalie!
March 27, 2013
Dearest Son: I love you.....
I'm just too sad to write anything today. Love and miss you, darling boy. Love, Mom
March 26, 2013
Dearest Son: Just wanted to tell you how very much I love and miss you. There is such a great emptiness in my heart and I know the void will always be there until we meet again. I love you, Love, Mom
March 25, 2013
Dearest Son: Life is precious. I value my time here on earth so that I may have the opportunity to honor you and the way you touched other people. I love you my sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 24, 2013
Dearest Son: Last night I dreamt that you, Grandma Jenny, Nikki,and myself were swept away in a terrible storm - we were carried up into the air to a train and were set gently into our seats. The train kept making stops as people got on - people who had passed away - some we knew and some we did not know. The train was heading along a golden track up to Heaven I suppose, for it climbed as it went along its journey. I love and miss you, precious boy and I'm glad I spent some time with you, even if it was only in a dream. Love, Mom
March 23, 2013
Dearest Son: The sun is shining today and I am reminded of the trip we took to the Knoxville Zoo - that was a fun day, even if the zoo was a little crazy. Thank you for going with me!
I love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 22, 2013
Dearest Son: I love and miss you so very, very much. Today I was thinking about when you were a little boy all the different car seats you had as your grew - it was a big deal when you didn't need the car seat - you were so proud. I love you, my sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 21, 2013
Dearest Son: I updated your profile picture on Facebook - you received many, many "likes" and comments. Your friends love and miss you so very, very much. Also, please visit Granny Janny - she is really hurting and needs your comfort. I love and miss you my sweet, precious boy. Love, Mom
March 20, 2013
Dearest Son: Thank you for coming to see me in my dreams last night. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
March 19, 2013
Dearest Son: I haven't seen you for a few days in my dreams - please come visit me soon. I love and miss you. Love, Mom.
March 18, 2013
Dearest Son: Sending loving thoughts your way - I love and miss you so very, very much. Love, Mom
March 17, 2013
Dearest Son: Happy St. Patrick's Day! Please watch over your friends today and help them be safe as they celebrate. Happy Birthday as well to you wonderful friend Becca! Love and miss you sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 16, 2013
Dearest Son: The loss of you is beyond what any words can name or describe. I love you and miss you; I long to see you; my heart is not broken, it is quite simply shattered; like pieces of red glass that are scattered about my life right now - these shards of glass are everywhere - in my sleep, my work, in every breath I take. I love you, my precious, precious son. Love, Mom
March 15, 2013
Dearest Son: I am so lonely for you. I listen to your voicemail at least once a day so I can hear the sound of your voice. I miss you so very much my dear, sweet child. Love, Mom
March 14, 2013
Dearest Son: I went to the Lego store last night and bought some legos for Andrew. It reminded me of those huge lego kits you used to get for Christmas and Easter - you would have them put together in no time flat! That pirate ship you built was awesome! I love and miss you sweet, darling boy. Love, Mom
March 13, 2013
Dearest Son: There's a game I like to play, I play it almost every day, it's fun for me, it's fun for you - it's peek-a-boo I see you!
Love and miss you, precious boy. Love, Mom
March 12, 2013
My Beautiful Son: I miss you....Love, Mom
March 12, 2013
Dearest Son: Today is Grandma Jenny's Birthday. She loved you so much; you were such a special, dear boy to her. I'm sure she's been taking good care of you and even making you a cherry pie or maybe even an apple pie I love you, my darling child. Love, Mom
March 11, 2013
Dearest Son: Monday and back to the grind. I try to keep the faith that each day brings me closer to being with you and being able to hold you close to me. I love you, darling boy. Love, Mom
March 11, 2013
Bob, tomorrow wil be Grandma Jennie's birthday -I know all of you will have a big celebration!! Our March flowers are in full bloom even though we had lots of ice. Love you always!
March 10, 2013
Dearest Son: Today is Sunday, one of your scheduled work days at Answer Financial. Usually you and I would be texting back and forth today - sometimes I would even get an unexpected phone call! Love and miss you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 09, 2013
Dearest Son: I have nothing to say except I love and miss you. Please help guide me through this journey....Love, Mom
March 08, 2013
Dearest Son: The sun is shining and we are supposed to have a big snow melt. I know you are with me son, but I'm feeling a little lost. I love and miss you so very, very much. Love, Mom
March 07, 2013
Dearest Son - the balloon worked! I was able to find you under several inches of snow last evening. I am looking so forward to spring and to planting some flowers for you to enjoy. I love and miss you, my precious son. Love, Mom
March 06, 2013
Dear Son: I am missing you so much this morning - my heart hurts. I was looking at some pictures of you while riding the train and thinking about when you came to see me in Seattle. We had so much fun and it is such a wonderful memory. I love you, sweet boy. Love, Mom
March 05, 2013
I just wanted to write and send my deepest sympathies to rob's family. Rob and I were close for a few years back when he was at algonquin. Rob was an amazing individual with a great personality. When I heard about Rob's passing I pulled out my photo album and found some great pictures of him, I and the whole gang down at my cape house, various social events and attending graduation of the a few friends who had graduated in the class before rob's. I just can't believe it and even know we had not seen each other in a few years I am so sad because this world has lost a great person. I know that Rob will be up in heaven watching over all those he loved and cared about. Again my prayers go out to Rob and his family.

-"Goodbye may seem forever
Farewell is like the end
But in my heart is a memory
And there you'll always be"

-katie
March 05, 2013
Dearest Son - Today we are supposed to get several more inches of snow, so I went to visit you this morning. I stopped along the way and bought you some more flowers and a Mickey Mouse balloon. I placed the flowers and balloon on your grave in hopes that I can find you after the winter storm. That balloon sure was whipping around - I hope it doesn't blow away! I love and miss you, my precious boy. Love, Mom
March 04, 2013
Dearest Son - if I were given a choice of what Heaven would be like for me, it would be the chance to be with you and take care of you every day. You would be all different ages - one day a baby, the next day five, one day ten and we could practice baseball. I would cook your favorite foods, we would go swimming, shopping, I would take you to the movies and we would eat popcorn and drink soda for dinner - all of the fun things we did when you were physically here with me. I love and miss you. Love, Mom-Lady
March 03, 2013
Dearest Son - yesterday was the 3 month anniversary of your passing. I took a dozen yellow roses, a dozen red rose, and a single red rose and placed them on your grave. I miss you, darling boy and I pray for you. Love, Mom
March 02, 2013
Last night, I read a story to you "I Love You Forever". It makes me so sad to know that you will never have your own child to read that story to. Or maybe your work in Heaven right now, it to help take care of the little children who live there now. You were always so gifted in helping kids. I love you, Love, Mom
March 01, 2013
Dearest Son - this morning was another tough one - thank goodness for waterproof mascera. I love you and miss you! Love, Mom
February 28, 2013
Made it to visit you last night and I took you some more roses. I hope that you like them and they make you smile as you look at us from Heaven. Love you, my darling boy. Love, Mom
February 27, 2013
Again, more snow! I was unable to drive up the cemetery drive to visit your grave as it had not yet been plowed. I stood at the entrance and blew you kisses and told you how much I love you. I've been dreaming about your almost every night. In the dreams, you are all different ages - sometimes a baby, sometimes a little boy, and sometimes a young man. I love and miss you, son. Love, Mom
February 26, 2013
Loving and missing you so very much today. I cried all the way to work - I'm sure the people on the train think I am a little crazy :) I had a dream last night that you had two pets - a spotted dog named Spot and get this, a skunk named Whiskers! We laughed and laughed in the dream. Love you precious boy. Love, Mom
February 25, 2013
Happy Monday, Son. I love you and miss you. Please know you are in my thoughts and my heart. Love, Mom
February 24, 2013
Dearest Son - We love and miss you so very, very much. Our hearts ache and we cherish the memory of when you were here for Thanksgiving. Love you, darling boy. Love, Mom and Steve.
February 23, 2013
Thursday night, we had more snow. When I went to visit you last night, I made a heart outline around your grave. I'm sure you were looking at me thinking "What a dork"! I love and miss you my precious son. Love, Mom
February 22, 2013
Dearest Son - snow again last night. Thinking about building a R.J. snowman! Wouldn't that be funny!! I love and miss you! Love, Mom
February 20, 2013
Dearest Son - I really miss texting you or talking to you while I'm on the train. I love you, precious boy! Love, Mom
February 19, 2013
Thank you for being my son. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
February 18, 2013
Dear Son - Each day that passes brings me closer to being with you again. I struggle to find meaning in my life now, but I will in honor of your memory - you know how stubborn I can be! I love and miss you! Love, Mom
February 17, 2013
Bob, I woke up this morning thinking about you. I know you are with us in spirit and you are missed and loved by soooo many! I think of you and the guinea pig you got for Easter! Your Mom worked so hard being sure it lived a long life! Your Easter basket was sooo HUGE every kid went to that one when they woke up!
February 17, 2013
Son - your little Valentine's Day Teddy Bear looks so sweet and yet so sad. It made me think of all of your "sons". Each night we had to give kisses to about 25 stuffed animals and cover them with blankets while they slept. What a precious memory. I love you! Love, Mom
February 16, 2013
Missing you terribly today. Never thought I'd be here and you would be gone. You've reminded me of how impermanent life is and that I need to treat others with more love and compassion.

Padre
February 16, 2013
How did this happen? A parent should never bury their child. I pray each day for strength and guidance. My only comfort is that I know you are here helping me...I love you! Love, Mom
February 16, 2013
February 15, 2013
When I read your Mom's entry about her wedding to Steve I was thinking and laughing that you got clumsy, tangle- footed Aunt Ann out there to dance but I loved it! Give Grandma and Grandpa Mc big kisses and hugs from all of us! Love you!
February 15, 2013
Son - Love and miss you more than words can every say. I look forward to when we are together again.... Love, Mom
February 14, 2013
Happy Valentines Day Robert...
Love, Mrs. Chapman
February 14, 2013
Bobby, I love and miss you every day! Your smile always lit up the room. Happy Valentine's Day my sweet nephew!!!
February 14, 2013
Dearest Son: Happy Valentine's Day!!! I love you with all my heart! Love, Mom
February 13, 2013
Last night, I watched the video of when Steve and I got married. You are so handsome, funny, and the best dance partner ever! I love and miss you. Love, Mom
February 12, 2013
Dearest Son - I am missing you so much today and feel so very, very lost. I'm trying to think of good memories to help with you loss. I love you. Love, Mom
February 11, 2013
What a beautiful message from Sigrid. I wish, dearest son, you could have understand the positive and loving impact you had and not focused on the disappointments - you were too hard on yourself. I know by nature you are a melancholy person, but you brought light and life to so many. Love, Mom
February 11, 2013
RJ- I am so very sad to learn of your passing. My heart goes out to your mom and family. I met you at The Rush when I really needed help getting my life back together, and you encouraged me and gave me hope. I know you are doing the same for your mom now from heaven. God Bless
February 10, 2013
Dearest Son: You are so very loved and missed by many, many people. I am blessed to be your mom and so proud of all of the lives that you touched in such a loving way. Love, Mom
February 09, 2013
Dearest Son: I really wish your guest book had spell check. Since you passed, my spelling ability has gone out the window! Must have something to do with the fact that I'm weepy much of the time, because it can't be because I am 47:). I love and miss you so very, very much and look forward to being with you again. Love, Mom
February 08, 2013
I will never fully understand why you had to leave us - I try to reconcile this but the pain is so great is leaves me such anqish and sorrow that no words could ever descibe. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
February 07, 2013
RJ,
Not a day has gone by that I have not thought about my dear friend. I thank God for the blessing of friendship, and I know the horror of losing the people we love in this life will only make the reunion in Heaven more beyond joy that we can possibly imagine. As Jonathan said to David in the Old Testament (1 Samuel 20:42), I say to you, "Go in peace, for we have sworn friendship with each other in the name of the Lord, saying 'The Lord is witness between you and me, and between your descendents and my descendants forever.'"

Your friend forever,
Jonathan
February 07, 2013
Last night and this morning have been so very, very hard. I miss you so much my darling, darling, boy. Love, Mom
February 06, 2013
I love you - simply and with all my heart! Love, Mom
February 05, 2013
Dearest Son: I dreamt about you being a little boy and me holding you on my lap - I could smell the Johnson's Baby Shampoo and Baby Powder. When I woke up, I could smell Baby Shampoo and Powder! Love and miss you. Love, Mom
February 04, 2013
Thinking of you today, precious Son and missing you so much my heart hurts. I look forward to the day when we are re-united. Love, Mom
February 04, 2013
... I say a prayer for you and you Mom every night before I go to bed. I pray for you and your soul.. and that you found the peace that you were seeking.. I pray for your Mom... that she finds peace in knowing that you will always be by her side and spiritually you will never leave her.. I think the super bowl wreath she made for you was awesome and filled with her love for you.. I know that the instant you saw it you smiled from ear to ear!!
I listened to your message that you left for me when you heard that Jeff was ill. You will never know how much I appreciated that one minute message.. i wish when I called you back you had answered... but you were off somewhere and i had to leave a message.. I will cherish that short message and listen to it often,

Love, Mrs. Chapman
February 03, 2013
Today is Super Bowl Sunday. Sorry your team (the Patriots) didn't make - the rascals! I made you a football wreath - you will think it is totally goofy, but will love it - you know what a dork I am!! I love and miss you. Love, Mom-Lady
February 02, 2013
Dearest Son: It's hard to believe that it's been two months since your physical being left us. I know you are here in spirit, helping to guide your loved ones through the difficult journey of your loss. I love you, my sweet, beautiful child. Love, Mom
February 01, 2013
Yesterday, when I visited you I was weeping for you and wishing you were still with me. I was crying "Son, Son, why did you leave me"? At that time, the sun broke out of the clouds and shone on your grave. You were telling me, you were with me. I love you, precious baby. Love, Mom
January 31, 2013
My heart aches for you and I long for the day when I can see you again. Love, Mom
January 30, 2013
When young people and children die, I wonder if God's heart breaks a little? Your life was a gift and I will always treasure you.
January 29, 2013
I am thankful you are with me in spirit. Love, Mom
January 28, 2013
Love and miss you from here to the moon and back! Love, Mom
January 27, 2013
Yesterday I read "The Runaway Bunny" to you. Do you remember when I bought that for you one Easter - you were a teenager! Please know that like the Mother Bunny, I will find you again. Love, Mom
January 26, 2013
Precious son - last night I went to visit you at the cemetery - it was so beautiful with the newly fallen snow. I know you finally have peace and I thank you for all you do to help me. Love, Mom
January 25, 2013
Son - I am sending loving thoughts and prayers to you. Thank you for being such a blessing to me. I know that you are with me and helping me every day. Love, Mom
January 24, 2013
Love and missing you constantly. Know your at peace and looking over all of us.

Padre
January 24, 2013
I posted your picture in your Chicago Bears uniform when you were three on FB - lots and lots of likes! You were so cute and grew to be a handsome man both inside and out! Love, Mom
January 23, 2013
Dearest Son: I am still receiving text messages on your phone from friends who did not know you have moved to Northbrook (LOL). I thought the whole world knew. Love, Mom
January 22, 2013
I miss you, Son..... Love, Mom
January 21, 2013
The Patriots did not win, but I'm sure you already know that - darn! I will still make your football wreath for your resting place. It's wicked cold here. Love and miss you! Love, Mom
January 20, 2013
The Patriots are playing to go to the Super Bowl! I am cheering for your team. Love and miss you. Love, Mom
January 19, 2013
I am reading about the lessons we learn on earth and what the people we love teach us. I'm not sure what the loss of you will teach me - maybe it's too soon to know. However, you being in my life was the gift I ever had or will ever hope to have. I love and miss you. Love, Mom
January 18, 2013
You will never cease to amaze me with your kindness. Thank you for thinking of your special cousins, Adrienne and Natalie - your gift will help them with college. I am so proud of you! Love, Mom
January 17, 2013
Son, I love and miss you. People tell me I will get through this, just day by day. It seems more like minute by minute or hour by hour. Each day that passes brings me closer to being with you again! Love, Mom
January 16, 2013
A beautiful crisp, winter morning. I'm thinking about how I made you hot chocolate with marshmellow in your Mickey Mouse cup - I still have that cup - it must be 24 years old now! I love and miss you! Love, Mom
January 15, 2013
I pray for grace and strength to help me through the day. I pray that I honor your memory in such a way that all will know what a remarkable person you were and will always be. Love, Mom
January 14, 2013
Thinking of you and missing you terribly. Yesterday and today have been hard days. Many, many tears, but they say tears cleanse the soul - mine should be pure white by now. I love you! Love, Mom
January 13, 2013
My gift to you.....
January 13, 2013
Robert, you were like a son to me. When I received the news... my heart broke. Years have gone by since you made the move from Mass but we always remained close. We had some fun games going on words with friends.. and the strange thing is the last move that was sent to me was the day you were laid to rest. My kindle sent me a message that RJ resigned ... It was like you were saying good bye to me. I miss you so much. It was nice that you called me when you heard that Jeff was sick. You told me that "you would be there for me if I ever needed to talk"... I wish you had remembered that I was here for you if you ever needed to talk... I don't know why things happen the way they do in life... every ones page is written.. But I do know that one day we will all be together again.. Until then Robert... I Love you and miss your smiling face.
Mrs. Chapman - (you always called me that)...know matter how old you got - you always treated me with respect.. You were a loving person...
January 13, 2013
The Patriots are in the playoffs! We all will be cheering for your favorite team!! Love and miss you. Love, Mom
January 12, 2013
Early this morning, you came to me in a dream - you told me you were okay and happy. You were laughing, smiling, and your eyes were twinkling. You and I danced like we did when Steve and I got married. It was wonderful!!! Love, Mom
January 11, 2013
I was thinking about what I would tell you when I dropped you off at school and later when you took the bus "Have a sparkling day!" I hope your days in Heaven sparkle! Love, Mom
January 10, 2013
I look forward to the time when I see you again. I wonder if you will be 27 or 3?
Love, Mom
January 09, 2013
I weep for you even in my sleep. Oh, my beautiful son, how I wish you were here. Love, Mom
January 08, 2013
I am trusting that not only God, but you, my beautiful son, are with me,or I would not have the strength to make this journey. Love, Mom
January 07, 2013
When morning comes I awake and realize all over again that you are not us in the physical sense, but I know you are here in spirit and you are safe with the Lord. Love, Mom
January 06, 2013
Today is your Grandpa's 72nd birthday. I know he loves and misses you, as we all do. You were and always will be his #1 Grandson! Love, Mom
January 05, 2013
My beautiful son. There are no words to describe my sorrow. I try to find comfort that you are at peace, but a war rages on within me. Love, Mom
January 04, 2013
When we lose someone we love, things change. I will never be the same person again, but I am hopeful that my life will become more meaningful and that I will honor your life. Love, Mom
January 03, 2013
Today I feel so lost - I love and miss you so much I can hardly bear it. Love, Mom
January 02, 2013
A beautiful day filled with sunshine. You are in my thoughts as I make my way through this day. Love, Mom
January 01, 2013
May you find your way to cope and be comforted. You stay in our hearts and prayers. Love, Mary
January 01, 2013
Happy New Year, Son. I love you.
December 31, 2012
I pray for grace and strength.
December 31, 2012
I pray for God to give me strength and grace.
December 31, 2012
Words can't express the sympathy we extend to you, Cindy! I can't imagine the pain you must be going through! I am praying for you. Wish I could be there for you! Rob was an awesome young man! You were blessed to have him in your life!! We love you!
December 31, 2012
I loved him like a son, we shared many days of laughter and serious talks. He never judged me and I him. I talk about our times together daily, both of my girls love you and miss you
I am so sorry for your lose.
December 31, 2012
I love and miss you my precious son.
Love,
Mom
December 11, 2012
I am so sorry for your loss! I met R.J at the Tn vs Fla game and have texted with him since. This was such a shock to me! i will miss him! My prayers are with you!
December 08, 2012
RJ was one of the nicest guys I have ever met. I was sad to hear the news. May u rest in peace.
December 06, 2012
Dear Cynthia,
I am so sorry for your loss! I am sending thoughts and prayers to you and your family.
~Nancy Seitz
December 06, 2012
Dear Cynthia,
I am so very sorry to hear of the loss of your son. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family...
December 05, 2012
A friend you were to my daughter, Heather-- her sadness and grief has touched me and she will miss you so much.. I shall pray for the family of RJ's and for his friends.
Cat M.
December 05, 2012
I love you forever rj. You will always be my friend and in my heart. GOD bless you and your family
December 05, 2012
Love and appreciation to a very kind man whom I enjoyed spending time with at The Rush. Dianne Taylor
December 05, 2012
RIP R.J. you will be missed this Christmas. I remember when you and Andria came to the viewing of trees at my home and was so happy. I hope you found peace.
December 05, 2012
You will be missed.
December 05, 2012
Rob, you were one of my best friends. I'm glad we kept in touch once you moved. Words can't say how sad I was to her the news. I'll always remember all the good times we had together. My heart & prayers go out to you and you family. You will be missed so soo much. I love you!
December 05, 2012
Rob you were one of my best friends. Im glad we kept in touch when you moved, and Im glad I got to spend time with you when you came back to Mass. I'll never forget all the good times we had. You were always a great friend and words cant describe how sad I was to her the news. My heart goes out to your family. Love you!
Love, Ashley
December 05, 2012
Rip Rj. U will be deeply missed.
December 05, 2012
RIP RJ. I will miss your music coming through the wall that we shared and our late night rummy games. My prayers go out to your family and loved ones.
December 05, 2012
RJ was my next door neighbor! Such a nice guy!! RIP Buddy!!
December 05, 2012
I can remember like it was yesterday seeing you. You will be so deeply missed, but you will always carry on in my heart. I wish you peace my dear friend.
December 05, 2012
Ill never forget all the times we had together. Your my best man, best friend, and my brother. Youll always be with me. Love you GUY!
December 05, 2012
You will be loved and missed very much by all who knew you.
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