Mama, it's almost Christmas and you are not here with me. I know you are, in spirit, because you have shown yourself so much. I love knowing that you are watching over me I knew it would be raining today because I am so sad. You are trying to wash the sadness away but I miss you so much. Mama. I hope you know how much I loved you. I did everything I could do so that you would not hurt and you could breathe easier. At least now I know that you don't hurt and you can breathe. I love you Mom.