So, I can not believe I turned 30yrs old on Monday 4/21, and didn't have you to celebrate it with. It has been hard, and I am sure Friday (your bday) is not going to be any easier. Still taking it day by day, and hopefully Friday brings some answers for me. I wish you were here, and we could do our birthdays together. I will celebrate it for you. Once I get the rental fixed, on the market, taxes done, bills caught up, and I am sure some others things, I am going to start going through your pictures, and start putting together some photo albums, not sure the different areas, maybe by years, or something like that. I will post some on your site too. Mom, Mim, Tara, Kaylie, I, and hopefully some others will help get this project done. There are so many pictures! I am excited, and nervous about going through them, just because it will be hard seeing you, and not having you with me. I know you would have wished me a Happy 30th Birthday on Mon 4/21, and we would have been together, but this will just be our way of communicating. I love you and miss you so much, and hope you have a Happy Birthday Friday. Mom, Mim, and I are going to get together and tell stories about you. I am ready to hear them, and more than that, I want to hear them. I know the people that have been here for me, and helped me through this entire situation, which I am very grateful for, and they love u and always will. Your friends and my family have really helped me, and its nice talking to all of them about you.
So you remember that, not that you didn't know. I am trying my best, and hope I am making you proud, along with Mom, Mim, Jason, and everyone who cares about me. Thinking of you always/everyday, and will never stop loving you. Please watch over my/our family, and be our Guardian Angel. I love you with all my heart, always and forever, your one and only daughter, Ams Jams.