April 29, 2013 brings me to a year ago when Roland descended from my arms. I have had a year to remember, reflect and cherish what once was my life. The gifts are plenty. His wisdom will never be forgotten along with that undeniable smile of his. Roland's understanding and unconditional love was felt & spoken up until the very end. I never realized how much Roland had taught me, my regret is not listening more intently. But you don't live life thinking one day you will depart forever.
Roland kept his promise & has come to me many times. I love him even more today for giving me that precious gift. Not only has he visited me, family and friends have shared special experiences. YES there is a Heaven.
I miss his personality, the way his sweet head looked on the pillow when he slept. Sharing the funny moments in life, our silliness that just the two of us laughed about & understood.
That beautiful golf swing that I can see right now. That swing brought home a MBZ from a Hole on one! I valued his good advice. He made me feel safe, loved, & needed at all times. He was at his best when surrounded by family and friends.
I thank my sweet family & friends for going above and beyond to be at hand for me. Many friends just call to listen to my tears & have shared the love that they had for Roland. All the stories I will cherish forever. I will never stop laughing. Roland would want me to smile & laugh and in doing so it helps put my grief away for but a moment, hour or part of the day. Roland was the best at being positive and knowing how to live life in such a positive manner. I will strive to be as he was. My heart, yes still heavy, it still feels raw however I am assured it will get better.
I have the BEST support system and I am grateful for my family and friends. They have been with me through this whole journey.
I thank my brother in law Rich for his beautiful job of ghostwriting for Caring Bride and keeping everyone posted the last critical days of Roland's life. I can understand now what a difficult job that must have been.
Roland's memory will live forever in my heart. Thank you Lord and thank you all. All my love Victoria Phillips