It was round about this time 3 yrs ago. I was on my last phone call with my Angel Nicole Angela. Heart racing, mind gone, stomach in knots. And the calming of your sweet spirit cradled me. "Don't be scared Mommy" is what rings in my ears. Along with " you wanna do FaceTime?" I do wish I would have tried at least. Cell phone battery at 10%. But we ended our call with love. And I knew as I hung up the phone. It was well with your soul. From that place I fell off to sleep to be awoken by Jasmine at 9 am to say "Mommy Nicole is gone. She's dead mommy." I responded. Yes baby. I know. She looked at me as to say. How do you know. All I was able to do was sigh in relief that you were no longer suffering in pain with Cancer. I lay here in bed. Remembering every detail from Sept 18 to Nov 10. Tears flowing because of the absence of your body. However I have found peace in my tears and acceptance. Rest on my child. Rest on. Mommy will be alright. As always I love you. And I promise to continue to make you proud of me. By taking care of the family. No longer living in anything else but peace.