My Beautiful,Sweet,Funny Nicole..
It's been a while my friend. My heart just needed some time to heal and process. But you have been heavy in my thoughts the past several days, more then the everyday usual? When i hear the wind chimes, i listen for your laughter on the breeze. Your new freedom and strength rush over me and it reminds me that you are EVERYWHERE. And that is a Beautiful thing Miss Priss! The bluest skies remind me of your eyes. A child's innocent smile makes me think of the love in your Heart. A soft light rain makes me think of the quiet tears you must have cried, that no one else ever saw because of your strength. I watched a pelican in flight, just this morning sitting by the river and it made me think of you, as it sailed so effortlessly, so carefree, its belly almost touching the water and the tiny marks like etched glass rippled wherever it choose to dip and touch it's wingtips. I know in my heart that you are now that Free, so agile, without the worries and cares of a material world. How beautiful you must be in all of your glory these days Nicole! How refreshing and Beautiful everything must be. You are now able to see everything as it was always meant to be seen. In His Perfection. Unmarked,untouched, restored,vibrant and amazing. The world misses you. Your parents, your friends,your family, every life you ever touched. Weather they were deeply moved and inspired by who you were, or if they just barely knew you. You touched people, way down deep in the soul, where it really makes an impact.. i miss you.. I think of you. I smile when someone has your name and orders a "caramel fraccachino!" no one will ever say it with true Nicki"ism" style. nonetheless, it makes me smile.. Maybe we can't touch you, hold your hand, see your eyes sparkle, or hear your voice in the old familiar way that we are used too. But feeling you from the heart and feeling you from the deepest parts of our soul, We Can! To touch you is to feel the wind on our face, to hold your hand, is just placing ours in the space next to us and letting you hold onto us, your eyes are in the Blue sky and your voice is everywhere that laughter is heard and felt.. Thank you for blessing my life as my little sister. Thank you even more for showing me the true meaning of strength, determination, love and a positive "Princess Diva" attitude.. Let your light shine on Nicole~ let the whole world know that you were hear..
SO much Love to you Girly Girl..
Forever and Always,