I first encountered the community of CMPS, BGSP, and CZMI at the summer, 2004, conference, entitled, "Liberating Desire." Dr. Meadow was expected to have been there and it remained unclear as the week went on, whether she would be able to be there or not, due to health concerns. As it turned out, she was not able to be there, and the void that was created by her absence spoke volumes. I longed for the experience of meeting and being able to get to know this extraordinary woman. I did meet her. It was at the December 11 conference. I went to that conference primarily because I wanted to see her, and I am glad I did. But I did not have an opportunity to get to know her, to experience the wonderful gifts of which those who have known her speak so eloquently. I believe I will feel the loss of what could not be for me, for years to come.