Happy Belated Birthday Baby Girl!!
Sorry but moomy didn't have an internet connection yesturday so I could pot but today one of the ladies here at my new house let me use hers so I could post.
So let me tell you about my life in the past year...not that you prob. don't already know since you have been visiting me and hide'n my things from me (hee hee hee).
Since this time last year so much has changed. The crimial case ended and right after that the wrongful death case begain. Have'n both of them back to back was very difficult to say the least. No time to really recover from all the emotional ups and downs of the crimial case and we jump right back into even more ups and downs. There were some extremely depressive periods at that time. Sat "stuck on stupid", watch'n who knows what on T.V., stare'n at the alcohol cabnet and tell'n myself "if I just take one drink I would be able to sleep", though I was smart enough to know that the one drink would turn into 2 then 3 then 4 and so on, so I just sat there for about two months and suffered hard til I finally got my butt up (sore and bruised as it was) and went back to school. That was one of the hardest things to do but I am glad I did it because without school and have'n a purpose (something to strive for in life) I would prob. still be sitting there "stuck".
In June I started my intern-ship at the Long Beach Salvation Army. I really liked it right from the start (which was a good thing since I needed to do 320 hours before I could grad. out). It was nice because there were a few of my classmates, (Lana, Glen, Irma), already there so it made an easy trans. in for me and out for them as they showed me around and Glen past most of his benif.'s over to me when he finished his req. hours. Shortly after I started there my girlfriend (Dez) started there also. Doing my internship there was a turn'n point in my life because while there Lana helped me to find the job I have now! ( A job by the way that I LOVE!...). Lana and Dez have become a big part of my life and had I not gone back to school that relationship with them might not have developed into what it is today.
By September I had finished my intern-ship hours and grad.'d out on the 10th. It was nice. Your sisters where there (includ.'n Baby Jen) and Chris, Erin, Billy and Brandy. Your sisters made this huge gift bag full of all sorts of stuff tagged with post-it notes with little sayings on them (which I still have tucked away in a box). We took a bunch of pics and one pro. pic with the three of us and our tats of you so really it was all of us together (kind-a).
I also started my new job as an assist. house manager of a well known Orange County rehab. This is the job that Lana helped me get. She is a house manager for the company in one of their 20 something houses. She trained me in at her house (a very nice, upper class home). I was there with her up til December 2 when they offered me my own 5 bed/ 3 bath house. Right around that same time Dez decided to come into the company and took over my room at Lanas as assist. manager. She will prob. get her own house offered to her once she gets trained in. We all meet at Lanas for coffee most every morn. It's nice because at first (and still sometimes) I really missed being at home (Lanas). When Dez first came in I kept joke'n with her about how she was kick'n me out of my house! I love them both very much and they are special people in my life. I know they will be life long friends/family.
Baby Jen had her baby girl (Hayliy Josefina) on December 7th. She is sooooo beautiful Drea! And as you can see by her middle name she was named after you! I wish I could see her more often but right now I see her about every two weeks. Your sister Jennifer keeps sending me pics when she sees her and new ones are posted on facebook all the time so at least I see those.
I miss you so very much baby girl and I feel you around me/us all the time. I wish I could hold you again and share all of this with you, watch you go through life...the life that was stollen from you...but I know that these things can't be changed so all I have are these damn typed words and my thoughts and dreams to share with you.....MISS YOU SO MUCH....STILL FEEL THAT PAIN...gotta go now I will try to post more again later. Love you baby! Love Mommy.