Mrs. crouse, you are strong, and stronger than you give yourself crediit for. I will pray that you will find consolation. Your anger & grief are justified, Deriek's untimely passing is unfair. unfinished business and plans waiting to be explored and satisfied.... your family and friends will support and hold you close when you feel that the only comfort you seek is to retreat & wish that this event was nothing but a bad dream. My sincere condolences to you mrs. crouse, your children, his parents, siblings and many other extended family members and friends.