Christmas was hard and lonely without you. Steve and Noel put Christmas lights on the house as a surprise. You always decorated it every year. I didn't feel like doing anything. I think about you everyday on the way home from work. You were always there to greet me in the kitchen with the mail. It makes me sad and cry everyday knowing you aren't going to be there when I get home. Sometimes I can't hardly stand it. I think of all the little things every day we did together. Will it ever stop hurting so much. Your Birthday passed and I missed you very much. It's been hard with you gone. Am I suppose to feel this way the rest of my life. It's been over a year. You broke my heart when you left me. I hope you are happy with your mom and dad in heaven. Your probably hanging out with Richard again. See you in my dreams. Hugs and kisses
The year is coming to an end. I think of you every day. Went to visit David and Robin in July as we had previously planned to do. Did see the new boat, beautiful. Landon & Sue were also there. You should have been there with me. Miss you so much. I went back up to Ashly's Wedding in September. It was beautiful. Everything came out great. Ashley looked beautiful as well as Sammy. Hunter looked handsome in his tux. Kim looked beautiful in gown and Greg also looked very nice. the grand kids looked adorable in their dresses. I cried with the girls on the dance floor you weren't there with us. Steve and Noel got married on Oct 26, 2013. They did get married at the park originally planned and you asked me to take you to see. It was beautiful. You would have been proud. Steve built that out door church he talked about. They had a wedding picture of you and me hanging at the entrance, also Your mom and dad wedding picture and Noels family wedding pics that were also there in their hearts and spirit. It was important to them everyone was there.
Reception was nice. They did a great job on decorating. Steve did an excellent job on lighting as well as Noel on the tables, etc. They planned their dream wedding and succeeded. You would have enjoyed. I was so happy your brothers, sister, neice, newphew and their family's were able to come. And was really happy your Dad made it. He came to see you. I hope you could see they made it to wedding because you had told me how important it was that you felt they should come. Well they all did which I know would have made you happy. It showed respect even though you weren't here. I love and miss you. Miss talking to you, miss you holding my hand while watching TV at night. Miss you holding my hand when we walked together. It's so hard being without you. I had your wedding ring sized to fit my hand so I'll have you with me always. I Love you & miss you terribly. We should have had another thirty years together. I kiss you good night everyday as I always did. See you in my dreams.
Memorial weekend was hard. We would plan a trip and go camping every year. Last year we stayed at the lake up in Solvang. Took a boat tour around the lake. We really enjoyed that and I was happy you were happy and had a good relaxing time. This was the first time in many years I was home on this holiday. I miss you very much. I miss all the good times and places we went together. It's so very hard without you. You were such a great person, friend, husband and dad. I am sad and think about you everyday. It's not fair our life together was cut short. It's hard to imagine what my life is going to be without you. We had made so many plans and they all came to an end. What will I do now without you. I live from day to day and think about you all the time. Love and miss you.
Today is Stevies birthday. Oddly enough I ran across a old fathers day card he gave you. In it he wrote he was looking forward to spending time with you and how much he admired and respected you and hoped it would rub off on him. I want you to know what a great influence you were on him. He worked hard and turned out to be a fine loving and caring young man. I know the little talks and advise you gave him he took. He needed a father image he could talk to and you gave him that. Thank you for being there for him. Thank you for being there for me. I love you, miss you and think of you everyday. It hurts you are gone.
Flight to Washington went well. I had a calming feeling with in me so I know you were by my side watching over me. Seen the girls and the rest of the family. All is doing well. Sammy had a nice baby shower, got lots of things. Your Dad, Shirley and I went to take your mom some flowers. I miss you both. I cried and smiled with everyone. We created alot of good memories maybe thats why its been so hard. I not only loved you deeply but I liked you to. You were my best friend we did everything together. Why did you leave me, why did this happen? I cry every day.
A smile comes to my heart when I think of all the good times and knowing we'll see you again. We all miss you here. Kiss Doris for me. Love you.
I am going to our grand daughters baby shower. I wish you were here. This is the first time I am flying by myself. You were always by my side and gave me strength. It wasn't as scary for me when you were there. Who's hand am I going to squeeze during take off and landing. I will be thinking of you. I miss you terribly. I keep thinking you are in the other room watching all your favorite TV shows and this isn't real. I keep asking myself why did this happen. We had so many plans. We were suppose to grow old together. I love you and miss you.
My heart is with you.
Steve, I think of you daily. I want to thank you for being a great husband and bringing my sister so much happiness. I will remember all the fun we had on holiday and birthday celebrations over the years. You are missed and we love you.
It's Valentines Day. I got you some flowers. I miss the little stuff animal you would get me every Valentine Day. I miss your funny little smile. I Love and miss you so much.
It's your Birthday today. I miss you so much. You were the love of my life and my best friend. Every day is so hard without you.
Steve you are my heart, my soul, my everything. We had a wonderful and fun loving life together. I couldn't have had a better person to spend it with. You fought hard, we stayed positive. We made so many plans for our future. It hurts deeply our life together was shortened. My world is so empty without you. I miss you so much...
We loved the way our brother-in-law kept it real. He was a no- nonsense kind of guy who didn't mix words. We will miss our campfires, calling him up for advise and his strange sense of humor.
Steve did live his life to the fullest with Charon, even though she had to pull his arm every once in a while. And he was the perfect uncle to our kids...he didn't judge them, he listened.
We love you Steve, and you will be missed very much.
Steve was "tell it like it is" kind of guy, and I will always remember him. So sorry for his loss, so early.
My thoughts are with you and your family. I have wonderful memories of Steve and will hold them near forever.