It's been a month now and all I do is think about you. I want to call you to see how work is going and let you know what's going on in my life, but I can't make that call anymore. I was by Retha and the kids again this past weekend and it felt so comforting to be close to them, but I do see and feel the pain. I know what Patti is feeling because I know what it's like to lose a dad who always watched over me and protected me as much as he could. She's been strong for her mom and the boys, but I truely know her pain. I hurt for Retha because I can't even imagine what it's like to lose the love of your life who has been with you for 37 years. I wish I could take her pain away but I can't. I feel at times that she feels lost without Emil at her side. All I can do is love her and pray God gives her strength. Steve and Chad I know feel an emptiness only a son could feel. They have been great to watch over their mom and help her. I cry alot at night when I'm alone because I just can't make this feeling of lonliness go away and I hate that my family is hurting. I know if you were here, you'd make me see the positive side of things. It's just hard for me see that yet, or ever. I love you and miss you more than you could ever imagine.
Love, Your Sister