It's been two years but the pain of losing you becomes even stronger. I was so fortunate to have been your mother. When you gave the speech at your medical school graduation you said life was a constant opportunity to learn, experience and excel. That is exactly how you viewed life from a very young age. No challenge was too big, no goal was unreachable and no obstacle no matter how big would prevent you from moving forward. Sometimes when I would be so worried or stressed out about something that you were dealing with you would tell me “Mom, I have to play the hand I'm dealt but don't worry I'll turn it into a winning hand.”
When diagnosed with diabetes at 6 years old you once asked as we passed a cemetery if you would end up there. Maybe that is the reason you cherished every part of life. One of your many friends once told me “you could drop Jason Bottoms into any room filled with people whether it was social or business and Jason would be the only person everyone would remember”. You were a star on life's stage. You are a beacon of light that still shines even though you are no longer with us. You will live in our hearts forever.
As your mother I can only aspire to live the rest of my life the way you lived yours. Every day it seems impossible to believe you are not here. It makes me want to give up but I know my son Dr. Jason Bottoms never gave up on anything. For him every day was an unopened gift to open and explore.