Each day I awake with a new hope to start moving on, but I just don't seem to get there. Though my intentions are good, I move on through the day with a fake smile..an occasional laugh to play along with others..all the while avoiding direct eye contact with anyone, for fear that if they look too long they'll see that behind my eyes I am nothing more than a bottomless pit..devoid of emotion. The pain and aching seems to have turned into a numbness, and I find myself turning into nothing more than a shell of my former being. I have become the definition of Lost. I have no clue how to do this without the one person that made me feel like I had the strength of a hundred men.