I went to the NSOD dance recital last week. I went with apprehension. I didn't know how I would feel not seeing Michelle and Lynn on stage. It was hard. I saw Lynn & Stan and I sat behind Sean's parents. This just doesn't get any easier. I see things that remind me of Michelle everywhere. Her passing has made me strive to be a better daughter, a better dancer, a better wife, just a better person overall. She was and continues to be an inspiration to me. I remember one of our last conversations vividly. We were at NSOD and it was just Michelle and I. It was a Saturday and we were stretching out and chatting. We wound up talking about death and dying. We were talking about the September 11th attack and Michelle said that was not how she wanted to pass on. She said she didn't want it to be this big, tragic, worldwide event that was reported on and talked about forever. She said she wanted something peaceful and quick, not an agonizing, slow death. There was so much involved in that conversation that rings so true now, I know Michelle passed as she had wanted to, but far too soon. That wasn't in the plan.
Michelle was indeed an angel here on earth, now she is with all the other angels. I will never forget her smile and her laugh, how she spoke of Sean and her grace and poise. I miss her.