Brought to you by
ELISA URSINI
Print   Close
July-09-14
Hey Ma,

Now I know the reason for the RAIN yesterday. YOUR HANDSOME SON came to have dinner WITH HIS ONLY TWO SISTERS. OMG ...it was soooooooooo nice. He walked in and said, "WHERE'S MA"? I said, upstairs in her room...HOW I WISH YOU REALLY WERE THERE...that is ONLY A DREAM. I made him pasta...YES, I DID. You know which one...our favorite....PASTA AGLIO E OLIO..but guess what after I did it and was about to serve DING DONG HERE FORGOT THE GARLIC....oh dear. So I fried it up right away and added it. I think Joey was impressed. I could of done it better but next time it will be perfect. I can't explain how nice it was to have him there. The three of us talking and laughing...SOOOOO NICE...yaya...its nice to have a brother.lol Before he left he gave me and Anna a little something...You know your daughter she wouldnt take it...but I SNATCHED IT UP SOOO FAST...lol...Today, the sun is shinning and I think thats because of YOU....you are really happy THAT YOUR SON CAME TO SEE HIS "ONLY" SISTERS...did you hear, Joey was playing your Italian songs, and of course like always I started dancing around LIKE A GOOF...as aunt Gracie would say. Today IM FEELING OK....better than usually...If I could only lose 40lbs I'd feel 100%....tonight after work I have to go work the truck we have a major event and any extra cash is always good. Had an expensive month. You and daddy have to send pennies from heaven again.... JOEY, ANNA AND MYSELF MISS YOU AND DADDY MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY.....WE THINK OF YOU BOTH 24/7...like Anna said, NOONE UNDERSTANDS THE VOID AND HEARTACHE...xoxoxo FOREVER IN "YOUR CHILDRENS" HEARTS........TI AMO SEMPRE....XOXOXOXO
July-04-14
Nothing stays the same....yet...we have to 'accept' the things that we can't change....IT IS SO HARD....one has to go through it to 'truly' understand.....it is just soooo SAD!!
'ILOVEYOULOTS'....the hurts just never goes away.....xoxoxo
July-03-14
Aunt me and Anna missed your name day yesterday. Sorry. It doesn't mean we don't think of you...we do and we miss you lots. Anna misses your phone calls..you and her would be on the phone till late at night. Things have changed her aunt, Im sure you see it. If you were here IT WOULD BE SOOOO DIFFERENT. Aunt just watch over everyone....all of us. Now your all in heaven..I hope all pain free and happy....we love you.....
July-03-14
The weather is awful today. Rain on and off. Having one of those days.....hate these days. Mind wondering and I'm playing "THE WHAT IF GAME" AND THE "WHY" game.....

I hope we all meet again because I really miss you BOTH.... sooo much. I need a hug and kiss. I miss you all...but, IM MISS MY PARENTS MORE....sorry....I LOVE ALL OF YOU ALOT....XOXOOXOX
July-02-14
forever in my heart……you all will be.
June-29-14
all I can say is orange is always around me……..I bought an orange ladle its always to do with food and the kitchen……I love you all and forever in my heart I love you all so so very much……...
June-26-14
Hey Ma and Dad,

Last night Anna and me went to aunt Libs and Mario's place for dinner. What a wonderful evening. Sandro, Michelle and Elle surprised us. Well, I knew it was a surprise for Anna. Ma, Elle is JUST BEAUTIFUL. I have no words for her. Sandro? Is Sandro...so tall, and handsome and THE NICEST PERSON IN THE WORLD. What a fantastic father he is. Michelle is a wonderful mother too. Anyways, we had a laugh with aunt Lib. Omg she is sooo funny. Just like you with POP NOW. Never laughed so much. Mario said he is seeing ALOT OF YOU IN AUNT LIB NOW. Last night with the POP omg...I hope you saw it all. It was really nice being there...FELT LIKE HOME...A SAFE PLACE...aunt Lib is leaving a week today for Italy. Yes, for 6 weeks. Remember how you missed aunt Lib when she would go? You would always say to aunt Lib when she got home....Libby it was sooo long, Im happy your home safe and you would tell her how much you missed her and loved her so much...her and Mario. When she gets home we are going to do it again. Today is a beautiful day. Warm and sunny. I know, I know I should feel great and happy. I feel ok. Missing you and dad sooo much I can't even explain anymore. I will always say this....it gets harder instead of easier. Watch over us all...we all love and miss you all sooooooooooooooooooooo much....xoxo always always in OUR HEARTS AND MINDS....
June-25-14
Hey Daddy,

Well guess what? I FORGOT..HAPPY NAME'S DAY DADDY!!XOXOXO Funny thing me and Anna were outside talking and she was looking at my FEET...she said must be nice to have nice feet...I said THESE ARE DADDYS...she then said Dolores was saying Anna and Joe are all MOMMY...and ME........IM ALL YOU!!!!! I eat like you....I have your feet, plus my favorite WHITE SPOTS...but like I said to Anna...my favorite thing I got from you were my EYES...I look at pictures of you dad and I truly AM YOU...the face, my eyes, eyelids, structure of my body. Then I think of the picture you had of your parents hanging in your bedroom on Victory..I AM BUILT LIKE YOUR MOM. Oh well its all good. Today is an awful day. Gloomy, looks like rain again. My back has been hurting all week. Im just tired of working that truck. Counting the days for it to be all over with. Anyways, like Anna said we always think of you and mommy all the time. Like I have said a million times, everyone has their own families...you and ma were me and Anna's life. Lets hope we do meet again..I really don't know what to believe anymore.....our tears still flow and our hearts still ache...that will never ever go away....
June-24-14
To the Best of the Very Best Loving you is so easy………forgetting you………NEVER NEVER Happy Name Day!!!!
June-24-14
BUONO ONOMASTICO.....
June-24-14
Bello....Happy Name Day!!!! Funny thing you once said to me and I will never forget it....you thought that I/WE would forget about you shortly after...never...never...ever...would you be forgotten...mind you...things sure are not the same...they never will be...but I/WE always 'think' about you & talk to you. You are 'ever' so missed!! "Iloveyoulots'...xoxoxoxo
June-21-14
iloveyousoyousmuchandmoreforeverinourheartsforeverandever
June-17-14
Everyone...sorry Im really behind. Although Im behind IT DOESN'T MEAN I FORGOT..Daddy WE MISSED YOU SO MUCH on Sunday. Like your "GOLDEN DAUGHTER" said, she spent the day on the truck with me...OH DIO...I will never forget dad, remember when you said "FRANGA" I drive the truck and you serve...I wish we would of done it. But your health wasn't the best. Dad, me and Anna missed you alot...so did Joe. Aunt Grey, I always told YOU EVERYTHING...things I NEVER TOLD OTHERS. So I will tell you this missy....I thought today you died. I got confused. But of course my WONDERFUL, HANDSOME AND GREAT BROTHER...said to me yesterday morning.lol...Last night me and Anna had a little wine. As I was drinking it did you hear me talk to you? Anna, also lite a candle for you. Aunt, I can't believe 4 years have gone by. Did you see how EVERYTHING IS SOOOOO DIFFERENT????? If you were here it wouldnt be like this. You are MISSED BY US SOOOO MUCH. I ask God about you too.....WHY SO EARLY....You are another one that didn't deserve what happened to you. But aunt I knew....I asked you....we talked....I still can't beleive. Ma, you always cried and always talked about your baby sister. You would always say how pretty aunt grey was...her lips, her hair and her smile. Now your with your sister, daddy, Frankie and your parents. You all are together...us down here...are spread apart. ITS NOT THE SAME. Not even close to being the same. I feel me and Anna are alone. No one comes around...the phone doesn't ring...its just such AN EMPTY FEELING..I can't really explain it. Anna and I just feel it. I guess everyone has their own life and families. Anna's famous line..."FRA, ITS JUST ME AND YOU FOREVER"....she is right...but too bad forever doesnt exsist....we are here on BORROWED TIME....and one day WE WILL ALL JOIN AGAIN AS A FAMILY....I hope to God that is true...not going to be a good day today....I feel it...oh dear....LOVE YOU ALL...AND MISS YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER EVER KNOW...XOXOXO
June-16-14
today at 11:55 you slipped away, always in our hearts forever.Hugs and kisses and from the bottom of my heart I love you so……………….
June-16-14
Zia Graziella...
4 years today....I really do miss you...you have no idea!!!! Nothing is the same anymore...iloveyoulots'...xo
June-16-14
'DAD'....
Father's Day just isn't the same any more. I spent the whole day with Fra yesterday...just her & I. Just another day....I 'miss' you so much. And you always thought that we would forget about you...NEVER...EVER!!! 'Iloveyoulots'...xo
June-15-14
Thinking of you all with much love. Tomorrow Gracie, its for year since you slipped away from us all. It has been four years of a hearts with such sadness. A heart that is empty…….a heart that misses you all so much!!!!!Why why why………it was too soon……..I love you all so so much.
June-12-14
your handsome son took me out for lunch today!!! Your kids one of a kind ……………I am having a difficult time……..Gracie your 4th year will be here in four days. Only God knows how much I miss you. I love you all……………until we meet again……..smile……..even though this heart is aching.
June-11-14
Just thinking of you and dad alot today. Could be this miserable day today. Father's Day is coming up. Another sad day for me and Anna. Oh well, continue watching over us. Always thinking of you both.xooxox
June-09-14
opps...made a mistake..meant to say Joe sent a picture of aunt Lib with Miss O'Neal and NONNO. It was beautiful...
June-09-14
Ma,

What a day I had yesterday. First of all the weather. Rain and just miserable. Yes, and I was on the truck. Making NO MONEY. Anyways, while on the truck what did I decide to do? I decided to go by 74 and 76 Gilbert. Can you beleive I took pictures of aunt Rita house sent it to her and Joe. Of course, YOUR SON knew right away that was aunt Rita's house. Then I decided to go to Blackthorn. What a mistake that was. I went to 242 took another picture and just BALLED MY EYES OUT. So many memories. Of course I sent picture to aunt Rita, aunt Lib and YOUR SON. I can't believe Joe. As soon as he saw it he said, nonno's house. Can you beleive Joe even said THEY STILL HAD THE SAME RAILING? OMG...YOUR HANDSOME SON REMEBERS EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Joe had sent me a picture of nonna, Miss O'Neil and aunt Lib on her wedding day. I dont remember aunt Libs wedding day..Joe said I was only 4. I remember aunt grey's wedding. Ma, all the memories going threw my head yesterday I can't explain. I sat infront of nonno's and all these flashbacks. I saw myself downstairs washing nonna's pot. I saw that ceramic black cat that nonna had in the livingroom. Then I saw nonno and nonna in their backyard in the garden. What at day. My tears were flowing like the rain. How I miss everyone soooooooooo much. My heart was aching. I was picturing nonno taking us to Earlscourt park then to Harvey's. Remember we could either pick a burger or fries...we couldnt have both...lol...I guess too expensive back then. Oh ma, HELP US. We miss you and dad so much. We miss nonno and nonna. Aunt Gracie was taken from us tooo early. Think of her sooo much too. Omg another one of those days. The sun is out but its not helping me today. Watch over us always. WE LOVE YOU ALL SOOO MUCH. The VOID will never ever go away....
June-06-14
Today is "YOUR DOLORES AND YOUR SONS 33 YEAR ANNIVERSARY" wow how time flies. Today YOUR HANDSOME SON said YOU WISHED HIM A HAPPY ANNIVERSARY. He said you always talk to him. HELLO MISSY.........I'm still WAITING...Today is just a beautiful day, sunny and warm. Ma, I know you hate when I do this but today I'm wearing MY NEW ORANGE TOP AND WATCH. You would of loved them both. You always said to me, don't wear anything new on Fridays and I would listen. But today with this weather and because Im going to Niagara Falls after work to see a concert I just felt like wearing it. I feel like your hugging me. So don't get upset...everyone loves my top and watch. What would you say? Franca, buy once ....but buy good. So you know me...........I DO.....remember back in the days ma...we would go every Saturday to our favorite store Salon Femme. I miss so much. Anyways, tonight after concert I will play a little so Im hoping you bring me luck. Also, guess what? I'm not working the truck tomorrow. That's right...I deserve a day off from that crazy truck.lol Although tomorrow is going to be really nice weather I really shouldn't...so lets hope I win at the casino so I don't feel guilty taking the day off. Knowing me ma, I will wake up and go on truck. Anyways, watch over all of us....love you lots...miss everyone....especially you and daddy....xoxooxo
June-04-14
What a beautiful sunny warm day. Right now you would be in your kitchen with the blinds open and reading one of your magazines and listening to the radio. Either it would be your Italian tapes or your favorite station on the radio. Sorry I forgot your station...not CHFI it was something that started with a 7....Anna would know because she listens to it all the time now. I enjoyed when you would put on the Italian tapes. Remember I would dance around the kitchen myself. You would say "OH FRANCINE YOUR A NUT"...I remember ma.....Why am I having sooo many bad days lately? My mind constantly wonders and I just begin to cry because I think of things. Anyways, tonight me and Anna both have running around to do so we should be home around 630pm. Whoever gets home first starts the bbq. Our famous line now ma...WE DONT NEED TO RUSH....its ONLY ME AND ANNA.....THATS IT...its beyond sad but THIS IS PART OF LIFE. Between you and me ma....Im going to try and be home later this way Anna starts the bbq...lol...Anyways, hope you are all fine. I miss you all sooooooooooooo much....always always thinking of you and dad alot. It really bothers me because I dont dream of you both. WHY? Alright watch over us....send us all kisses and hugs....aunt grey I was thinking about you the other day when you would always call me "GOOF" I started to laugh in my car thinking of you. Aunt I miss you alot too. You are still a very special aunt to me...love you lots and miss you....xoxoxo
June-03-14
only Franca…….she is one of a kind!!!!! We love her soooooo!!! It will be four years soon that we lost Gracie……I pray and hope you are all together up there. Keep your loving arms around us……….and keep the sun shining ………love hugs and kisses to you all.
June-02-14
It was a beautiful weekend. Sun was out. It was wonderful having you around. Feels so much better when I see the sun. Are you proud of me this morning? I surprised YOUR HANDSOME SON TOO. I text him and asked him if he wanted breakfast. He was shocked. I brought him a nice grill cheese. He enjoyed. What else can I say? Its the same old same old around here ma. Very quiet and we miss you more and more as the days go by. Coming home from work at 515pm when I open the kitchen door Im used to you sitting in your chair by the window and asking me a million questions about Joe, Dolores, Michelley and Jonathan. Back then it would drive me crazy, but now HOW I MISS ALL THAT. Its sad. Oh dear crying again. The sun is out and why am I feeling like this? Must be the emptiness I feel. Ok talk later....ciao for now....xoxooxo
May-30-14
Loving you all so very much………the void I feel in my heart….it will never ever go away………..
May-26-14
LOVING YOU AND REMEMBERING YOU AS THE 'BIG CHIEF' WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER REMAIN IN ALL OUR HEARTS. YOU WERE AND ARE THE BEST! we all love you so……………the most loveable and giving man……..to us all husband father brother and friend you gave your heart to everyone!!! With much love to ……………..forever and always.
May-26-14
"Dad"...
12 years yesterday....and you would say to me that 'WE' would forget about you after a few years...
'NEVER'...'EVER'...I miss you so much!!
"Iloveyoulots"...xoxoxo
May-25-14
Hey Ma,

Yes, I'm tried. Got home late last night and up early early this morning. Was on truck at 715am. What a life...anyways, today at 4pm daddy left us. I remember that day like it happened yesterday. Although I'm on the truck I never stop thinking of you BOTH!!!! Our lives have changed. Especially anna...she was the one that took care of you and daddy..I helped but NOT like anna. Remember you always gave me A++...ok having one of those days....anna had mass for dad today. she will be visiting you both afterwards. Love you both...and I really want to believe YOU are TOGETHER...help me become a believer...xoxoxo...
May-21-14
Hey Ma,

Last night I had a moment. Anyways, Anna was upstairs watching tv and me downstairs. Both wathing DWTS. Of course I had my craving to make MY FAMOUS POPCORN IN NONNA'S POT. Once I made it in a SMALLER BOWL I put some for Anna with a bottled water and brought it up to her room. She was excited and shocked. I thought of the times when I would make it and you would always ask for some. You would say Francine I will have some. If you were downstairs in the kitchen I would give it to you. But whenever you were in your room I WOULD NEVER. You knew the reason why? I would want you to sit up and eat it and you refused...you said you were fine laying down. I was ALWAYS WORRIED YOU WOULD CHOKE..so instead Anna would leave you your cheezies by your bed just like your mother used to have. I gave the popcorn to Anna ONLY because she was sitting up...if she wasn't I would not have given to her either. Then I went downstairs to wash NONNA'S FAMOUS POT THAT MAKES THE BEST POPCORN. I bet "JOEY" would know how old that pot is. All I remember is washing that pot downstairs at Blackthorn. Nonna used to make her fabulous sauce in it. I surprised her by washing all the dishes. Nonna never ever forgot that day. She always brought it up to me. So thats why I kept NONNA'S POT. So as Im washing the pot I couldnt STOP CRYING...it really hit me.....YOUR GONE FOREVER...YOU AND DAD...all we have our wonderful MEMORIES....I wanted to bring you popcorn soooooooo much...oh dear...what a day today...can't stop crying. I really realized as I was washing the pot and crying...ITS ONLY ME AND ANNA....until the day WE ALL MEET AGAIN...FYI...me and Anna better go together. Or if you take me first THATS OK.....Anna will be JUST FINE...she has alot of people that care and worry about her....BUT FOR NOW...ITS ME AND MY SISTER...UNTIL GOD CHANGES HIS MIND...Ok missy, the sun is out I should be happy and smiling....but today just isnt a good day..xoxoxoox ALWAYS ON MY MIND...AND FOREVER IN MY ACHING HEART......XOXOXOXO
May-17-14
The orange pot the only one how did you know…………you are always around me………love you
May-16-14
i miss you all so much and love you thank you for being there for me. love you all more than words can express.
May-13-14
The sun is shining and its nice and warm. I guess the sun is shining bright because thats Miss O'Neil telling aunt Lib she is at PEACE AND WITH YOU ALL. She is PAIN FREE like you, daddy and aunt grey. She wants aunt Lib to SMILE like Miss O'Neil always did. Im sure she smiled right until she left everyone. I can't explain how sad it is....but I want to believe so much that everyone is with everyone in a much better place. Miss O'Neil I can't explain enough how much aunt Lib and Anna were trying to come and see you....but I think its better this way because aunt Lib will always remember your SMILING FACE. You meant the world to her....like she meant to you..OK AUNT LIB....SMILE EVEN IF YOUR HEART IS ACHING....everyone is FINE...THEY ARE ALL TOGETHER......remember how much Miss O'Neil enjoyed life...and she doesnt want anyone crying....SHE WANTS EVERYONE SMILING AND CELEBRATING.....thats what they are doing in HEAVEN NOW.....ma, is busy making her famous sauce and meatballs...and lets not forget, THE BEST HOMEMADE PASTA.....WE WILL ALL MEET SOONER OR LATER...WE WILL BECOME A WHOLE FAMILY AGAIN....LETS HAVE FAITH IN GOD....Im trying sooooooo hard.....

Missy, when are you visitng me in my dreams??????? KEEP THE SUN SHINING...WE ALL FEEL BETTER....XOXO
May-13-14
Ma,

Today is the 13th (you hated that number for so many reasons) its rainy, gloomy...its an awful day. Now to top of the day MS.O'NEIL died this morning at 1:57am..I know you all welcomed her with open arms. She was a VERY BIG PART in aunt Libs life, but she was family to ALL OF US. We could never call her by her first name Erin...she was AND WILL ALWAYS BE MS.O'NEIL to US AND ESPECIALLY AUNT LIB. I didn't call aunt Lib yet because she lost ANOTHER PERSON SOOOOOOOOOOOO DEAR TO HER HEART...first aunt Grey, then you...NOW HER GRADE 5 TEACHER...that wasn't just a teacher to her...she was a FRIEND..AN OLDER SISTER...BUT MOST OF ALL SHE WAS FAMILY...wrap your arms around aunt Lib today, I could just imagine...she will be a basketcase..MS. O'NEIL you are now pain free and your with your second family..my parents, my nonni and my aunt grey...watch over us all .....but especially aunt Lib right now.
LOVE TO ALL OF YOU......R.I.P MS. O'NEIL...my mom will cook for all of you............xoxoxoxo
May-12-14
Ma... I missed you so much yesterday...on Mother's Day!!!....actually everyday right down to the second. Fra and meee spent the whole afternoon together...I guess that will be something we will do 'forever'...like I always say to Franca ....it's mee & you....'forever'...thank God we have each other. I came to visit you yesterday and bought you ORANGE BUTTERFLIES....your favorite colour!! I could have spent the whole day at the cemetary....but once I spent time with you my day was complete. I really do miss you and iloveyoulots...you have no idea! xoxoxoxo
May-11-14
Happy Mother's Day to the BEST MOM in HEAVEN!!!! Love you soooooooooo much and miss you more....xoxo
May-11-14
Happy Mothers Day to the most important women in my life…….I love you so so much and miss you beyond words.Forever in my heart.
May-08-14
F.Y.I.....I checked my tickets this morning...NOTHING...oh well I meant to work. Anyways, I notice the entry I wrote the other day showed up...YIPPEEE...today looks like rain and a little cold. Ma, last night me and Anna had dinner. What a dinner. bbq of course. Guess who made it? Thats right missy...MOI!!!!!!!! Anna had appointments so I started everything...yes she was impressed too. We had a nice dinner...JUST THE TWO OF US..we still talk and miss you at dinner. Anna said you would of like the chicken...but I said NO...Ma, would of wanted her boiled hot dog instead. We miss you a dinner. But then again, WE MISS YOU 24/7...its "us" me and Anna. Oh dear, having a moment. Ok ma, like always we will talk again later....

p.s. the sun is trying to peak threw...

always on 'OUR' MINDS....AND ALWAYS IN 'OUR' HEARTS

XOXOXOXOXOOX
May-07-14
omg....Ma, I guess you and dad were watching me this afternoon. I can't believe at lunch I went to buy all my lottery tickets, poker, 649, lottario, lotto max...and guess what I did? I left my lotto envelope at the store because I was too busy scratching a ticket. I came to work and PANIC...right away I told Dolores and had to fly back to the store....Can you believe it was still on the table were I was scratching my ticket? THANK GOD...so I hope because I found them that means they ARE WINNERS...LOL ..it must of been dad watching because he played lottery tickets. You never did.lol....whoever it was, you dad or both of you THANK YOU.....XOXOXO

p.s. wrote in the book yesterday afternoon and of course why would it show up? Missing and loving you both sooooo much...
May-06-14
Ma,

Today the sun is shining...its a beautiful day. I should be happy. I went home at lunch, ate in the living room looking at your picture and bed and I just couldn't control myself. I was crying non-stop. Everything going threw my head. Yaya MOTHER'S DAY IS COMING UP......BIG DEAL!!!! Its just another day. Once again ma, I WILL NOT BE SAYING HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO NOONE....I HAD ONE MOTHER...ACTUALLY ONE FANTASTIC, LOVING, CARING MOM...now your in HEAVEN. Noone will ever replace you....ever...so I don't care if I hurt anyone's feelings but noone will hear HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY FROM ME...I will only tell you in my prayers. Yes, aunt Rita just had to tell you all before...she likes to drive me nuts.lol... When I read "LEE" it brought back memories...aunt Rita always called you "LEE".. Anyways, I hope today becomes a better day for me. I guess it was seeing your picture and the bed that just sent me over the top. The house too....sooo many memories. GOOD AND SOME BAD...those stairs haunt me forever and ever.....I just hope seriously that you are watching over us....seriously....MISS U TONS ....XOXOXOO
May-06-14
I know it is early......but it really bugs Franca....HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL especially MA....Lee cook a great dinner for her okay!!!!!
May-02-14
It's 11:32pm watching TV in the basement. I'm laying on couch and just thinking about the whistle I bought you on St.Clair when Italy was playing soccer. I saw that orange whistle and I just had to have it. I remember giving it to you...you loved it. I will never forget the first time I heard you use it...omg!!! I was watching TV and I heard the whistle...I never ran up the stairs so fast...flew into your room just to see you laying in bed laughing and saying HI FRANCINE and waving at me. I didn't know whether to scream or laugh. I was so scared. But seeing you having fun with that whistle I would laugh and then say U DING DONG! How I wish I could see that again. All these thoughts going in my head and I'm crying and WISHING!!! Why did u give up? I ask myself all the time. It's funny ma..you loved Joe, Anna and me soooo much. All three of us had a different relationship with you. U understood us like noone will ever understand us. Especially ME!!! The three of us miss you unconditionally. You and daddy. Oh dear! If only...

Love you..
Miss you...
Till we see each other again.xoxo

P.s. No truck tomorrow it's going to rain. I know your so happy.

Hope you visit me soon. Still waiting...hurry please it's been long enough. xo
May-01-14
I love you so very much!!! Miss you more than words can say!! Thank God I have your wonderful and loving children!!!! You too Gracie I love you……..miss you…………went to see your beautiful and loving daughter…………..gave her a sparkling G. from you for her wedding anniversary. Always and forever in my circle of love.
May-01-14
Oh dear there I go again...another mistake....meant to say Mario a nonno......oh well you who know me ...know I sometimes type faster than I think...lol.....love to all....

p.s. ma, the sun came OUT...YIPPPEE ...feeling a little better but THE VOID AND TEARS WILL NEVER EVER GO AWAY......
May-01-14
Ma,

Send aunt lib congratulations....she is a nonna again.....and mario and nonno.....Angie had her baby.....opps I forgot but I think its another baby boy...HEALTHY AND STONG....yesterday she had the baby.....and missy from above send aunt Lib a HAPPY ONOMASTICO....send her a hug and kiss.......xoxoxo she misses your morning phone call....you would be the first to call her......so send hugs and kisses.....all of you.....
May-01-14
The weather has been raining and miserable. You know what this weather does to me? Makes me very sad and I cry constantly...at work, in my car and in my basement. Please let the sun shine bright this way I know your hugging us and your happy...Having one of those days ma...tears are still flowing strong...have to stop writing...sorry.......xoxoxoo love and miss you and daddy beyond words can say....
April-27-14
Goodnight to you all !!!!!!lovehugsandkisses
April-27-14
Ma that son of yours...what a God sent...lol...anyways, Joe raked our grass and changed our light in the garage...now missy wasn't that wonderful???? We are so lucky to have a brother...lol. actually ma, that was really nice. That made me and Anna really happy...i guess he does love his sisters? Lol...ok I'm having a real slow day here...i think I will leave and go around the streets...no worries I will be careful....xoxo send Joe a hug and kiss and tell him good job...xoxo
April-27-14
Hi Ma

I'm at James Garden. Not to busy. I'm reading and playing games on my phone. As I'm doing this I'm waiting for a call from you? Being on the truck I think of you even more. How you worried and hated me on the truck. All I keep saying one day one day...i won't have to do it anymore. Your handsome son is texting me pictures of pasta...then another one with bbq...u know your son me and him love our food just like dad...he went by to visit anna...wasn't that nice? Actually ma, Joe doesn't come over much anymore since your not there. To tell the truth nobody does...RUDE,AH? Like me and Anna always say, it's me and her NOW!!! How I wish we could turn back time. Remember ma I would always dream of winning the lottery so I can travel the world..by ship of course..lol I still dream of that..but I find myself dreaming more and more of having YOU and DAD BACK...I guess one day we will all be reunited and happy...cant wait to play cards with daddy again...my love to all of you...xoxo

P.s. It's nice to have a brother but even better too have sisters...especially one like ANNA!!! But then again IM NOT TOO BAD EIThER..i keep the blood flowing....xoxo miss you both soooo much....xoxo
April-26-14
love you all so very much….there is excitement in the air, but life will never ever be the same.Never never ever be the same.
April-25-14
Have a nice weekend all!!For some reason
I am missing everyone this weekend. Love to All
April-24-14
Hey Ma,

Well the appointment went well. Im happy. We are going to try and fix everything up. Like daddy Im a tough cookie. We have been opened sooo many times but always make it...IM ALL JOHN URSINI THATS FORESURE....and IM VERY PROUD OF IT TOO.....Today is a nice sunny day. This weekend is suppose to be cold and rainy. Saturday anyways. So no truck on Saturday..YIPPEE....anyways ma.....we love you .......we miss you and dad alot.....constantly on our minds....

p.s.. My appt. was at 11am yesterday....but your crazy daughter guess what time we left? 930am...and of course we took the long way...we did site seeing...lol....But guess what ma? Going early paid off. The appointment before me never showed up so they saw me early....and of course your daughter said..SEE WHEN YOU GO EARLY????????? LOL....you and Anna were always early birds for EVERYTHING.....but Im glad I listened for ONCE IN MY LIFE...LOL......

xoxoxoo
April-23-14
like Franca, we both are the same we write to fast..I meant great grandchild. Angela is due any day now. We have our children grandchildren and what a feeling to have a great grand child ……….loving you all more each day
April-22-14
Happy Birthday to the wonderful and loving you!!!!!! You are and will always have a special place in my heart. The holidays will never be the same never never never be the same. We may have our children but there is a huge void in our hearts and the happiness is a great void in our hearts without all of you!!! We go on with our lives, cook favourite foods , but you all are not there to be part of any kind of celebrations. Elisa you taught me all I know, on Sunday and Good Friday were very very sad days. I thought of Your beautiful family ……..and now a great great grand children, a little princess will be born. Angela is going to pop any day now. Thinking of you all with a void in my heart………as Anna would say Weloveyousomuchandmiss yousosomuch. To you all hugs and kisses thats your saying Gracie……….love with a huge void in my heart for all of you.
April-22-14
HEY JOHNNY A NEW PACK OF CARDS ARE READY FOR YOU AND MY DAD........HAVE A GREAT DAY......NO THROWING CARDS OKAY.....
LOVE TO ALL
April-22-14
Dad,
The candle is waiting to be lit tonight for you. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY".... Mass was in honour of you this morning. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"........ Funny thing you would say to me that I would 'forget' about you...never...ever....not a second goes by that I think....I/we have no parents....we 'always' think of you 'DAD' & 'MA'. You are both missed more than you will ever know.....
'iloveyoulots'.....
'BELLO'..."HAPPY BIRTHDAY"....XOXOXOXOX
April-22-14
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY............Hi Ma....

Your GOLDEN CHILD ANNA had a mass for you this morning daddy. She went before going to work. I hope ma is making you homemade pasta your favorite. Actually you have alot of favorites so whatever ma makes you, you will be happy. Daddy aunt Rita sent me a Happy Birthday wish for you today and she also misses playing cards with you...I miss playing cards, eating our fruit and especially our Italian bread with olive oil and cheese. Most of all daddy I JUST MISS YOU......You and Ma are the greatest parents in HEAVEN. You are loved and missed soooo much. More than you BOTH REALIZE........

LOVE TO BOTH OF YOU.....ALSO TO NONNO, NONNA AND AUNT GREY...ENJOY YOUR DAY IN HEAVEN.....PLAY CARDS WITH NONNO....

HAPPY 82ND BIRTHDAY DADDY....XOXOXOOX
April-21-14
Ma,

HAPPY EASTER to ALL OF YOU. Holidays are NOT THE SAME ANYMORE without you and dad. They are STILL VERY SAD. Good Friday we went to Dolores and Joe's house. Very nice time we had. Then on Sunday I went on the truck. Busy day at James Garden. Wasn't it nice Nina and Tony came by. WHY? Tony made me fresh bbq lamb and they came to bring to me. Lamb, potatoes and aunt Rita made something...articokes with sauce...it was really good. For a mangicake ma, I was surprised...lol. No worries I text aunt Rita to thank her. She then said I SHOULD TRY HER STUFFED PEPPERS...So one night I will go over for her stuffed peppers and then we will play cards. Later Aunt Lib text me saying she made lamb and was thinking of me. She wanted me to go pick it up. I couldn't I was on the truck. Then it was funny ma both aunt Rita and aunt Lib both text me to see if I was home yet safe. I didnt get home till 1030. I was beyond tired. Today after work Im going home and relaxing. I will probably fall asleep early. Anyways, I just wanted you to know you are missed alot. But I have Anna and BOTH YOUR SISTERS ALWAYS CHECKING IN ON ME.....especially when Im on the truck. Tomorrow for dads 82nd birthday what are you making? HOMEMADE PASTA? Enjoy....I will talk to you BOTH LATER......love you lots and miss you more......

p.s. I made a mistake my appt. is this Wednesday so I will be off work. Watch over me...well actually all of US....xoxooxo Just be with me on Wednesday....
April-17-14
OPPS DING DONG MADE ANOTHER MISTAKE MEANT TO SAY ME AND ANNA ARE GOING TO BE GREAT AUNTS...LOL....WELL YOU KNEW WHAT I MEANT ANYWAYS....XOXOO
April-17-14
Ma....dad.....

YOUR JONATHAN is having a BABY GIRL. OMG...can you beleive? Me and Aunt Great aunts. Joey and Dolores are NONNI....wow...WHY???????? WHY??????? You both will be watching from above and sending down your love, hugs and kisses. Guess what? Baby is due September 15th....WOW....HAPPY 50TH TO ME...BECOMING A GREAT AUNT....so much happening to OUR FAMILY and WHY????????? You both should of been here to ENJOY IT ALL.....it hurts sooooooooo much....

Ok I just had to let you know...but I bet you both knew already.....keep watching over all of us....I need you on the 28th of this month......love you and miss you more...xoxoxoo
April-16-14
ALL OF YOU UP THERE.....WORK YOUR MAGIC....FRANCA NEEDS YOU GUYS OKAY!!!!!!
GET BUSY....LOVE
April-13-14
Ma,

Just got home its 11pm. I'm beyond tired. It was a good day on truck. The only thing I was hungry and had no food. Noone came by today. I guess it's better noone came by this way I didn't cheat on my diet. Right now ma I could eat a horse. Lol...it's all good I will just go straight to bed. Today I was very lonely on the truck and when that happens my mind wonders. I think of everything.....anyways, I'm going upstairs to BOD...goodnight....wish you were here....xoxo
April-12-14
Elisa thank GOD for Franca!!!!!mShe keeps us smiling !!!! How I wish we could turn back time………………how I wish…………..Loving you all and keep your love around us always.
April-12-14
Ma,

I'm here at James Garden. I'm frozen. The sun went it and it's cloudy and cold. I know what you would say, Franca just come home Phil can do the truck...lol this time I agree. No worries ma, it's going to be an early day. You must of been happy to see that Nick came by and brought me lunch. So I ate. Not a lot just a little. On another diet.lol..sitting here waiting for your phone call but my phone isn't ringing. God only knows how much I miss those phone calls. Tonight going out with Vinny, Pat,and Fred...no worries they are picking me up. Ok ma, I will talk later to you like I always do. Continue watching over me...xoxo
April-12-14
Ma,

It's 230am. Just got home. Had a nice evening either the girls. Now it's time to sleep because I have an early day. Your on my mind..I hope all is well up in heaven. Down here we all try our best but to be really truthful are hearts still ache and the void seems to be getting worse. Constantly wishing I could turn back time. Always asking myself how could this have happened? You were coming home!!!! I try and make myself happy by saying your with daddy, Frankie, your parents and your baby sister aunt Gracie. You are all together eating, playing cards, being a mom to Frankie and talking all day with your sister. I'm laying here in bed so quiet wishing I could hear you from across the hall sleeping. All I hear is silence!! It's very lonely without you in this house...it will never be the same....nooone visits...it's sooo sad....soo empty...like I always say...HOW I WISH....xoxo forever in my heart....pls help me sleep..pls come wrap your arms around me and tell me it's going to get better...
April-11-14
Hey Ma,

The weather is finally nice. Its warmer and sunny. Yes, missy that means tomorrow Im on the ice cream truck. This is where its going to get hard again for me. Missing your phone calls. U would ask if Im busy..if Im eating? If I wasnt busy you would say, Franca just come home to BOD. Last night I didnt have a good night ma. First I was downstairs watching tv but I kept looking at my phone and all the pictures of you. When you were happy, smiling, great....then when you left us. So sad to see how your leg was. Then when I finally went to BOD I was tossing and turning and thinking of you still. I was talking to you and asking you to come into my dreams ....OF COURSE YOU DIDNT LISTEN TO ME...I want to beleive you are watching over us soooo much. I want to believe that you still WORRY about me on the TRUCK...I want to know sooo much but I have NOONE TO ANSWER ALL MY QUESTIONS. Oh ma....ok..ok....breath Franca....its one of those afternoons for me too. Audrey is coming to pick me up. We are going to Visit Shannon and Tracie. You loved all three of them. But, then again, who didnt you love? You had nothing bad to say about anyone. You always found the good in people. If you only knew how much I miss and need you still.....ok missy....I will talk to you again. Watch over me tomorrow...I will be at James Garden. Love you more than you know............xoxoxoxoo my love to everyone.....
April-08-14
I love you all so very much and always thinking of you!
April-04-14
Good Morning Ma

Today is a gloomy day. Its suppose to rain all day. Guess what I did? This morning I was ahead of schedule and I text YOUR HANDSOME "JOEY"...and of course he was shocked. Actually he said WOW...GRILL CHEESE PLS. So of course I brought it to him. I know..ITS NICE TO HAVE A BROTHER....yaya sure....Anyways, tonight Im going to Sandra's house. Saturday Aunt Rita's...and YES MA ON SUNDAY I THINK THE ICE CREAM TRUCK...the weather is going to be nice and sunny so I might go out for a trial run...I know I know...you hate the truck. But I have to do what I have to do ma. Hope the summer is nice and hot. We had a really rough winter. So much snow and really cold. Ok enjoy your day with dad, frankie, your parents and aunt Gracie. Always thinking of you always....all my love....xoxoxoo
April-03-14
ma,

ding dong here made a few mistakes...first I repeated myself twice by saying he said he said....and I meant to say FUSSY not FUNNY...people that understand me will know I made the mistakes....always we will talk again...xxoxo
April-03-14
Hi Ma

Guess what??? I text your SON this morning and said ANYTHING? Of course he said he said SURE GO AHEAD. So I brought him grill cheese. I know that was nice. Then guess what ma, Joe gave me money. I didnt want to take it..but he TWISTED MY ARM...LOL....LOL...its ok me and Joe have this relationship. Anyways, this Saturday Im going to Aunt Rita's for dinner and we are all playing cards. Me, Nina, Tony and aunt Rita. It will be fun. As for dinner..you know I always tease aunt Rita I say you and aunt Grey cook mangicake....my mom and aunt Lib are Italian cooks. She gives me that look but you know me..ya ya aunt Rita. Thank God Uncle Roberto isn't funny. Actually he misses your cooking. He talks about it when I go there and says he loved when you cooked for him..Oh well one day we will all meet again AND YOU CAN COOK FOR ALL OF US. I miss your meatballs and stuffed peppers. But I miss you more.....p.s. I really think Saturday Tony is cooking..lol.. aunt Rita will make my water with ice and lemon..and cut up the little salami. But Tony will do everything else. Its funny ma, I love bugging aunt Rita...she tries and acts mad at me and then says she isnt playing cards....but she is the first one sitting down and shuffling the cards with her money ready to play....I cant wait till Saturday night....ok come and visit us. I know daddy will be watching us...daddy and aunt rita always played cards together...and you and zio Roberto would sit and talk...or you would be cooking...OK MISSY....I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU....continue to watch OVER ALL OF US OK? XOXOXOXO
April-02-14
i love you all so much and miss all of you so very much.
April-01-14
Ma

What a lovely dinner the three of us had. Yes, we stuffed ourselves like piggys...lol...Anna had a so so day. She had her moments. Anyways, its nice to know your always around us. Today is another sunny day. Its wonderful when the sun is out....anyways, we will talk later....ciao for now....xoxoox
March-31-14
A very special and loving child was born today!!!! Your daughter Anna. You are around her today keep your arms around her and send her love hugs and kisses. We love you all and the void in our hearts will be with us forever . Thinking …………smile even though your heart is aching.
March-31-14
Ma and Dad

Its your GOLDEN CHILD'S BIRTHDAY TODAY...right now she is at mass. Then she is coming to visit you both...well everyone. Tonight YOUR WONDERFUL HANDSOME SON....and ME are going to take Anna out for dinner. Thats right ma, Choice of the Orient. It will be nice...BUT SAD AT THE SAMETIME. To think its only THE THREE OF US NOW. We started off with 6 and slowly GOD has chosen THE BEST...Frankie, Daddy and then YOU. Its VERY SAD FOR "US". We miss you and love you all so much. Today pls send Anna some hugs and kisses. Its a beautiful sunny day SO I KNOW THATS YOU MA. Thats your way of showing Anna your STILL SPENDING THE DAY WITH HER. Keep her smiling and happy today. NO TEARS PLS....ciao for now......xoxoxooxoo PLS VISIT US when we go for dinner. Would you like some chicken balls? lol....xoxo
March-28-14
Ma,
We would have done so much together...but instead I will do it by myself. My day will will start of going to mass and then coming to visit you & Daddy. We just take day by day now....because nothing will ever be the same. God only knows how much I miss you. See you soon....
"iloveyoulots"...
xo...mee
March-27-14
Ma, I told you I was tired. I meant to write....Anyways, last nights company and dinner was fantastic.....I made a mistake on previous note. Also Im shocked Joey didnt text me in the morning...but the funny thing was he came to my desk and just looked. I guess he thought I WAS GOING TO BE NICE AND SURPRISE HIM....lol...ok ma relax.....maybe tomorrow...MAYBE....today is a little cold but the sun is shining nice and bright. Nice FRESH DAY....ok ma we will talk later......miss you all......especially you and daddy......xoxoxo......
March-27-14
Ma it's 130am I can't sleep. U were on my mind alot tonight. Now I'm tossing and turning. Anyway, last dinner company and dinner was fantastic.....ma,help me sleep I'm tired...talk in morning...p.s. your son better not text me...im not picking up anything...since I'm going to bed late I won't be able to move fast in morning..i will be too tired...xoxo....nite nite
March-26-14
hi we had a beautiful dinner last night!!!!!! Love you all with love hugs and kisses.It was great with everyone ……………thoughts of you all……… were all present in the room. Love you lots.
March-24-14
Hey Ma,

I dont know what wrong but Im having one of those afternoons. Not sure if its because of Anna's bday and I know she will be a right off that day. Pls ma look after her and help wipe away her tears that day. Ok tonight we are finally having dinner together. Last week no time. Oh ya, we are going to aunt Lib's again for dinner. I told her not to over cook again. So of course I put my order in. She is making lamb again the sameway and mushroom risotto. Both my favorites. Come join us. Ok missy....miss you lots...xoxoxo
March-22-14
Thinking of all of you with much love and tears.........forever in my heart. It was St. Joseph on the 19th......and all I did was cry....thank God Joey is such an important part of our lives.Remember,Daddy was so proud when he was born because he was named after him. Our first of a generation to be........and now Jonathan is going to be a Daddy. Please take care and be that special star that shining on all of us. With much love
March-21-14
Ma, this beautiful sun today is soaking up the tears that still flow to this day...I love when the sun is out....ESPECIALLY WHEN IT SHINNING IN OUR KITCHEN NEAR YOUR CHAIR.....I FEEL YOU......if you really ONLY KNEW HOW MUCH YOUR MISSED.....Im having ONE OF THOSE DAYS MA......oh dear....xo
March-21-14
Hi Ma

Today is a beautiful sunny day. Really nice. I cant beleive they are calling for MORE SNOW. Today your "SON" looked very handsome. I didn't say anything to him because he would answer KNOCK IT OFF....actually he only used to say that to you...remember? March is almost over. Time is just going so quickly. Before we know it Jonathan's baby is going to be born and OUR MICHELLEY will be getting married. You and Dad are missing so many things that we would of LOVED YOU TO BE A PART OF. Everyone says to me your WATCHING FROM UP ABOVE. Ma, I wanna believe it ...but find it too hard to believe. Im still asking GOD WHY? Im getting NO ANSWERS....Missy NOT EVEN FROM YOU.....Guess what tonight Im going to Sandra's house we are having AN OYSTER PARTY.....STRICTLY OYSTERS...so excited. Yes, I know...IM LIKE DAD AND JOE...WE LOVE OUR OYSTERS...actually ma WE LOVE EVERYTHING....LOL....Anna's bday is coming up. Another bday without you. You and her would spend the day together. Im sure she will come and visit you. Unlike me that never comes. I know THATS RUDE!!! I may not go there but I talk to you all the time..and I mean all the time. I miss you and love you more......xoxoxoxo We will talk later today...ciao.....
March-17-14
opps I made a mistake...i wrote thing instead of THINK...
March-17-14
Good Morning Ma

Today is Jonathan's birthday. 31 years old. Our little Jonathan. Yesterday we were all at Dolores and Joes house. What a nice day we had. Just beautiful. Claudia is looking very nice. She has a little stomach. She feels good too. So everything down here is ALRIGHT...on these special occasions we all miss and thing of you and daddy alot. Wishing you could be with us. Remember YOU BOTH are always ON OUR MINDS.....we love you both soooo much and miss you even more......
March-15-14
we had a beautiful evening! everything I made I thought of you and how we would make things together, or when you would come over and make such a big fuss over thing everything! Missing you all so very much and hold close to my heart our beautiful and loving memories……...
March-14-14
Good Morning Ma

Well what a night last night. The food aunt Lib made I think she thought you, dad, nonna, nonno and aunt grey were coming too. So much food. It was beyond fanastic. She made everything I wanted....started with melon and prosuttio...fresh bread great ripe tomatoes with cheese. Omg it was so good my mouth is watering thinking of the food. My lamb was amazing. She fried it like you used too. She made pasta too...it was non stop. Amazing. Me and Anna felt like ROLY POLY WHEN WE LEFT..oh wait she made potatoes, ribs, peppers...I didnt eat any of that. Me...it was all about the lamb. Fanastic dinner. We enjoyed our night with aunt lib and Mario. Aunt Lib gave me a dessert to bring to Joey this morning...blueberry and of course HE ATE IT ALL....me and Joey have dads appetite. Anyways, ma I just wanted to tell you about the wonderful dinner and time we had. Oh ya, aunt Lib gave me nonna's passport. I have to go see aunt Rita and give it to her. Aunt Lib promised her that. Aunt Rita doesnt even know I have it yet. She will read your book like she does everyday and she will be surprised. Then she will text me....Aunt Rita texts me every morning and night. Ok missy we will talk again. WE ALL MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH. PLS COME AND VISIT ME...IM STILL WAITING...XOXOOX
March-13-14
Hey Ma,

Wow we had another snow storm last night. Its been alot of snow this year. Wish I was in St.Maarten still. Tonight me and Anna are going to aunt Libs for dinner. I gave her a list of things I would like to eat. Well actually what dad would like to eat. I keep adding to the list. lol..I just told her to make sure NO MEATBALLS and use NO ROSEMARY...I won't eat anyones meatballs..and you know how much I hate rosemary. Today its really cold but really sunny which is nice. Sunday we are celebrating Clauida's and Jonathan's bday. We are going to Joe and Dolores house. Other than that nothing new...nothing exciting....just want you to know Im thinking of you and dad alot.....miss you both sooo much.....
March-10-14
Hey Ma,

IM BACK............not happy to be back. It was a wonderful trip. I just loved St.Maarten. I would go back again in a heartbeat. Maybe for my 50th. But like Vinny says, I ALWAYS CHANGE MY MIND..LOL..the weather, the atmosphere, the food...everything FANTASTIC...My flight going and coming amazing. Coming home I slept all the way. I was tired. No worries ma...I saw u? Twice on the beach a BUTTERFLY came flying around me and vinny. To tell you the truth I didnt notice the first time Vinny noticed and told me. She was like Franca look MRS. U is around us....Vinny always called you MRS. U. It sad to say but the only person I truly missed was ANNA. I thought about her every single day. I was worried about her. I came home and she was just fine. I got a nice tan but alot of white spots too...I told Joey this morning that I kept wishing why he didnt get this instead of me.......lol...I know you hate when I say that...BUT YOU KNOW MY MOUTH.....Daddy I took after you soooo much....oh well what can I do. Anyways, I thought about you and dad alot too. Especially ma I went to see the ships...omg sooo nice. I want to go on a cruise again too. I would think of you...how much you always worried when I went on a ship..and you would always say...YOUR JUST LIKE YOUR FATHER...LOL.....anyways, I love you both sooooooooo much.....thinking of you always......xoxox

p.s. MIchelley picked her date...Sept. 26-2015 OUR LITTLE MICHELLEY IS GETTING MARRIED....how exciting....xoxoo
March-10-14
We love you all up there !!!!!!Thinking of you always with voids in our heart. We love you so so so much. Miss you ssssoooo much!
March-10-14
THANKS ELISA AND EVERY ONE.....MISSY IS BACK SAFE AND SOUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
March-07-14
Well Elisa....Franca's vacation is almost over....Please watch over her on her return flite...you know how scared she is of flying. Love to all and Happy Women's day to you,Mom and Gracie
March-05-14
Elisa, did you seeI had lunch with Joey yesterday, yes it was wonderful !!!!!I love him very much!!!! As you would say Joey looked so handsome today and your heart would smile!!! Loving you so very much and missing you all. The void is always and forever in my heart.
February-28-14
ELISA......Watch over Missy.....Okay?
February-28-14
I love you more than words can express and miss your smile, sincere words , your uncondional love, and most of all your being.
February-27-14
Glad you and everyone were looking after
Franca!!!!
February-27-14
Ma, what a good morning it is. Im just thinking thank God Im ok. As much as I wanna play cards with dad I just wasnt ready yet. I play cards with aunt Rita, Nee, Tony and me...Its alot of fun too. Last night we had a great dinner ate like the THREE LITTLE PIGGYS...LOL....beyond stuffed.. Today Anna, Aunt Lib, Aunt Rita...WE ARE ALL HAPPY...they we ALL SO WORRIED ABOUT ME. I brought your WONDERFUL SON BREAKFAST TODAY....I didnt all week so since I was in a HAPPY MOOD I DID. I leave Sunday for St.Maarten. Me and Vinny. So excited. Then ma, THE ICE CREAM SEASON IS COMING VERY CLOSE. Im happy and sad about that. So this trip Im really going to enjoy...this is it till 2015....oh dear...anyways, LOVE YOU ALL ......miss you ALL...and pls come visit and continue to watch OVER ALL OF US....xoxooxo
February-26-14
Thanks ma....I'm ok....yippee...we are going for Chinese. Aunt Lib is joining us...so u better join us too....I'm so happy everything is ok...thanks for watching over me...continue to watch over all of us...xoxo
February-26-14
Hey Ma

Today Im going for my appointment so pls be with me. Hopefully everything is ok. Anna is coming with me. If its good news we are going for chinese food...so I know how much you like chinese so Im sure Im going to be ok. Or daddy u will have to get the cards ready.....Ma, last night aunt lib came over..I wasnt home but she brought over THIS BOOK. She didnt know Joe extend the book so she got the book printed and made for us...OMG ..OMG....ITS BEAUTIFUL...it has everything we wrote in it from day one. Its hard cover. With all the pictures everything.....IT BROUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES. No worries I texted aunt Lib and thanked her and Mario..We miss you all so much...I really miss you and dad alot...your always on my mind...ALWAYS...Last night when I went to Ida next door I kept talking about you...I was talking about your fall. How much I had wished I came home for lunch that day. Thats haunts me so much...even what they did to your leg haunts me. I continue to look at the pictures on my phone. IT BREAKS MY HEART...you of ALL PEOPLE DID NOT DESERVE IT. I love you so much...and miss you even more....FOREVER IN MY HEART...XOXO
February-26-14
We hide our tears when we say your name,
But the pain in our heart is still the same.
Though we smile and seem carefree,
There is no one who misses you more
than your FAMILY.
February-24-14
I love you!!!!!Miss you all!!!!!!! With much love hugs and kisses!!!!!!
February-22-14
I love you all! What a year it is going to be for your beautiful family. The birth of a great grand child!!!!!! Michelly's wedding!!!!!!!! 2014 is a wonderful way to start the year!!!! Send your blessing and watch over us !!!!!!!!!! Always and forever with much love hugs and kisses.
February-18-14
Hey Ma and Dad,

Our little princess got engaged on Sunday...Michelley and Luca are finally getting married in Sept. 2015. Amazing. What a year so far. Jonathan and Claudia having a baby and Michelley got engaged. Joey and Dolores are busy parents right now. Its all exciting and sad at the sametime. How we wish you and daddy were here to celebrate Jonathan's and Claudia's first baby and Michelley and Luca's engagement. I really hope you will be celebrating with us from up above. We always think about you both but it hurts more when special occasions like this come up and YOU BOTH AREN'T HERE...my famous question WHY???????? I love you both so much and miss you more as the days, weeks, and months go bye....forever in my heart ...xoxoxoo
February-15-14
With love to you all !!! I am sure there is love peace and togetherness with all of you!
February-14-14
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL OF YOU!!!...
Where do I begin? Ma, you would be so proud of me today I BROUGHT YOUR HANDSOME SON BREAKFAST...but wait!!! As Im walking in Durock and down the hall I could smell JOEY'S cologne...then when I saw him..OMG OMG.....his hair looked amazing...Yes its long the way you LOVED IT...he was wearing a nice white crisp shirt with his jeans...YES AS MUCH AS I HATE TO ADMITT.....YOUR SON LOOKED VERY HANDSOME...You would of even told him....AND JOEY WOULD OF SAID, " MA, KNOCK IT OFF".......but another one of your famous line......NO MATTER WHAT JOEY IS WEARING HE ALWAYS LOOKS HANDSOME....ya..ya...ya.....enough about your son..I ate all the figs he brought me and I cut up two pricky pears but forgot to bring to work today. I forgot because I was rushing around so I would get YOUR SON HIS VALENTINE'S DAY BREAKFAST....today we are having a little flurries but its ok..its been a long winter. I leave soon ma...in a couple of weeks. Can't wait. Aunt Rita text me this morning wishing me a Happy Valentine's Day...so nice. She texts me every morning and always sends me nice pictures. She is like you...tells me to dress warm and be careful and if Im going out to drive safe and don't come home late...lol...I have so MANY MOTHER'S...but between ME AND YOU MA..........NOONE....NOONE...NOONE WILL EVER EVER EVER REPLACE YOU.......LOVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS........enjoy your day in HEAVEN WITH DADDY, FRANKIE, NONNI AND YOUR BABY SISTER AUNT GREY....make some homemade pasta with your famous meat sauce and your famous meatballs. I miss that sooo much. NOONE MAKES MEATBALLS LIKE YOU....I don't eat anyones...Funny both your sisters wanted me to try their meatballs and I told them both NO...I had to say it a MILLION TIMES NO...they both said I make them soo good...my kids love them....yadda yadda...you know my mouth...I told them both I WON'T LIKE THEM I ONLY LIKED MY MOTHERS...yes, ma, I said that. YOU KNOW ME I HOLD NOTHING BACK...lol...its true. Your meatballs melted in our mouth. Oh dear now Im craving YOUR MEATBALLS....so daddy eat some for me pls....I ate the figs and pricky pears for you.......MISS YOU BOTH SOOO MUCH I JUST CAN'T EXPLAIN IT ENOUGH......HAVE A GREAT DAY....xoxoxoxoox
February-14-14
Ma & Dad,
Wishing you were both here.....we would have done so much all together....
'HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY'
ILOVEYOUBOTHSOMUCH...AND MISS YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW....
NOTHING IS THE SAME ANY MORE.....
XOXOXOXOXOXO
February-13-14
omg ma......YOUR HANDSOME SON...just brought me a bunch of prickly pears and figs...omg I already ate two figs....ITS SOOO NICE TO HAVE A BROTHER.....lol.....daddy these prickly pears are ripe...you would of just loved them. Even the figs...its ok daddy I will eat for you too...I ALWAYS EAT FOR YOU....IM YOUR TWIN...AND IM PROUD OF IT TOO.......ok I just had to share the news....I could see you know ma...smiling away and so happy that JOEY did this...me, Im beyond excited....ok ma...talk later....Im still waiting for you to visit me...I talk to you every night going to bed thinking you will come and visit...ONE DAY YOU WILL....U JUST HAVE TOO......love you all.......miss you....always thinking of YOU AND DADDY.....xoxoxoxo
February-13-14
I'M SENDING A DOVE TO HEAVEN
WITH A PARCEL ON ITS WINGS,
BE CAREFUL WHEN YOU OPEN IT
IT'S FULL OF BEAUTIFUL THINGS.
INSIDE ARE A MILLION KISSES
WRAPPED UP IN A MILLION HUGS,
TO SAY HOW MUCH I MISS YOU
AND TO SEND YOU ALL MY LOVE.

I HOLD YOU CLOSE WITHIN MY HEART
AND THERE YOU WILL REMAIN,
TO WALK WITH ME THROUGHOUT MY LIFE
UNTIL I SEE YOU AGAIN.
February-13-14
Hey Ma

Someone was a little to early saying HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY....its tomorrow NOT TODAY...Anyways, I haven't been such a good girl...WHY? Your SON has been asking for breakfast and I haven't been bringing it. YAYA ma, I should wake up EARLIER....sure!! NOT HAPPENING....so today was the first he didnt ask for anything so I was really trying hard to bring him something..BUT OF COURSE I FELL BEHIND SCHEDULE..lol..SO NOTHING...ok ok I will try for tomorrow but I CAN'T PROMISE YOU ANYTHING...Lol. Its a long weekend this weekend. Can't wait. Going up to Vinny's early Saturday morning and we are going OUT AND ABOUT....I spoke to Jonathan this morning Claudia is feeling really good so far and guess what ma? Claudia wants to know what she is having...So as soon as we know I will let you know. Jonathan wanted it to be a surprise but what can you do. Anyways, hope you are all doing well. We miss you all sooo much...but sorry to say...I miss you and daddy more.....You know me ma, I say it how it is...lol...I could hear you now....FRANCA THAT MOUTH OF YOURS....lol... LOVE TO ALL......always thinking of you all...but, of course, I think of YOU AND DADDY MORE......XOXOXO...NOTHING IS THE SAME......
February-12-14
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!!
February-10-14
Hey Ma and Dad.....

Isn't it FANTASTIC?????? Jonathan is going to be a DADDY.....Joe and Dolores are going to be NONNI.....me and Anna GREAT AUNTS.....yipppeeeeeeeeeee....we found out last night. How "WE" wish you and daddy could enjoy this too. I guess from HEAVEN ABOVE YOU WILL. Ma, YOUR STELLINO BELLO and OUR JONATHAN.....unbelievable.....ITS THE GREATEST NEWS.....The baby is due in SEPTEMBER....you never know just maybe ON MY BDAY....AND AUNT LIBS....could you imagine? Or maybe even Frankie's bday. Regardless ITS A VIRGO...I will be able to keep you updated. Did you see this book we will have FOREVER AND EVER....WISH WE COULD OF HAD YOU AND DAD FOREVER AND EVER.....but like you ALWAYS SAID.....DESTINO...DESTINO.....ok missy we will talk later....love you lots and ALWAYS ON MY MIND....ACTUALLY YOU AND DAD ARE ALWAYS ON "OUR" MINDS.....YOUR KIDS.....XOXOOX
February-10-14
I was so excited, I meant to the word say the word say, and your presence . You all must be smiling with the good news about Jonathan and Claudia, Joey our Joey is going to be a Nonno and our beautiful Dolores Nonna. Your little stellino is going to be a Daddy. Thankyou for allowing us to truly smile yesterday………….even though there will always and forever be a void in our hearts for all of you . Tonight when I look outside I will count the the seven most sparkling stars and say "Goodnight, Frankie, Daddy, Mommy, Johnny, Gracie and You "with much love hugs and kisses from all of us!!!!!!!!! Its a New Year and a New beginning for Life.
February-09-14
You presence in this book is a feeling of life and communication.!!!!!!!!!Omg I have goose bumps…………You are still here your picture and you!!!!!! I love you sooooooooo thank you Joey Anna and Franca our Ma is for sure smiling and watching over us all!!!!!!!!!!
February-09-14
omg omg omg we are going to have you with us until we meet again omg omg omg we can still communicate with you!!!!!! You must be smiling up there and see Libby my kids my kids they are the very best!!!!!!I would always say I agree, I am crying my heart is smiling with you and everyone in it. I look at this every morning, omg your kids your kids I have no words of appreciation love and respect. Thankyou thank you thank you from the bottom of my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
February-08-14
Thinking of you ma....till we meet again....I'm scared and a little nervous....pls watch over me....watch over everyone...I just need a little extra prayers.....you were the only one that ever really worried about me..I need a little help...cant sleep my mind is wondering....daddy get the cards ready...xoxoxo...
February-07-14
With much love hugs and kisses to you all! At times I feel this is just a bad dream and I am going wake up and everyone will be together. Gracie you are such a huge void. Elisa would call every day and let me know how much you are missed and then we would both cry. Now you are both together and have made Heaven a better place. With much love to you all forever.
February-06-14
Our lives go on without you
But nothing is the same,
We have to hide our heartache
When someone speaks your name,
Sad are the hearts that love you
Silent the tears that fall,
Living our lives without you
is the hardest part of all,
You did so many things for us
Your heart was kind and true,
And when we needed someone
We could always count on you,
The special years will not return
When we were all together,
But with the love within our hearts
You will walk with us forever.
February-06-14
Good Morning Everyone,

Ma, what a storm last night. Soooo much snow. Ma, this morning you won't be happy with me. Your "JOEY" asked for a surprise and guess what? I DIDNT...oh well there is always tomorrow. I can just hear you.....Franca if you would wake up earlier you would have time....RIGHT MA...NOT HAPPENING... tonight Michelle and Joey are coming for dinner. Dolores is still away in Vegas and coming home tomorrow. Its going to be nice to have people over. Seriously it gets lonely when its only me and Anna all the time. Its already Feb.6th today...wow time just flies by. Ok ma join us for dinner tonight...somehow show us you are with us...eating...making a mess of yourself...and talking nonstop and repeating the same stories over and over again....HOW WE ALL WISH WE COULD HEAR THOSE STORIES AGAIN.......miss you..and love you lots...
February-05-14
Ma,

What a morning. The snow just won't stop!! Today another storm is on its way. Anna is a work safe. I make sure every morning she sends me an email so I know she is there safe. Yes, ma... she still gets up VERY EARLY. This winter I have no words..TOO MUCH SNOW AND TOO LONG. Im looking forward to my vacation. This morning ma "YOUR HANDSOME SON" has a nice shirt on. Your famous line....NO MATTER WHAT "JOEY" WEARS HE LOOKS SO HANDSOME....ya ya....WHATEVER!!! lol ...I think of you all alot but I must tell the truth...YOU AND DADDAY ARE ON MY MIND 24/7...I still can't believe Joey, Anna and me HAVE NO PARENTS...I would of never thought this...its VERY SAD. Ok now Im crying...ok we will talk again...I PROMISE.....
February-04-14
Hi Ma,

Its been awhile again. Just because I don't write don't think Im not thinking of you. I think of you all the time. I think of you and dad alot. In the morning, durning the day, at night while Im watching tv, when Im driving and especially when IM ALONE....OR WHEN I FEEL ALONE. I always know your both there. This has been a long winter...Ma, Im going away again....yes, St.Maarten. Im going with Vincenza. Its my last trip till 2015. My ice cream season will start soon so I want to enjoy my last couple of months. Then I will be working 7 days a week again. No worries I will be careful. Ma, this poem sounds...is Anna...read it..

I still reach for the phone Ma.
To say hello or to see how your doing.

I MISS YOU....
I LOVE YOU MA.......

That was Anna calling you 24/7 all the time. What would you say about me? Franca calls me to tell me after work she is going to the "ZOO"...I guess I never worried because Anna always called. If you ever needed me you would call me at Durock. I would see you at lunch...except for that day YOU REALLY NEEDED ME...I will never FORGIVE MYSELF FOR THAT DAY...it HAUNTS ME...Im sorry MA.....with Aunt Gracie's help you made it and you came home....Thank God....but like I always say...YOU NEVER LIKED THE NUMBER "13"....but in a MILLION YEARS I would of NEVER THOUGHT you would leave us ALL...ok we will talk again...my tears are flowing now..
February-04-14
Each night we shed a silent tear,
As we speak to you in prayer,
to let you know we LOVE YOU,
and just how much we care.
Take our million teardrops,
Wrap them up in LOVE,
then ask the wind to carry them,
to YOU in heaven above.
January-28-14
Hey Ma

Its been awhile. Time is running out..Feb.8th is around the corner and you know what that means? Nomore book!! This morning I brought YOUR SON breakfast...wasn't that nice? RIGHT....Tonight aunt Lib is coming for dinner and she is bring Choice of the Orient over...YOUR FAVORITE. Ma, this winter has been very long, very COLD and alot of snow. I think of you especially on these cold days. You would stay in your nightgown with your favorite housecoat..and you would stay in YOUR BOD watching tv or listening to your radio. You are missed just like the day GOD DECIDED TO TAKE YOU...tears are still flowing...we ALL STILL HAVE OUR MOMENTS. We all think of you 24/7. Im still asking the question WHY? Today is one of those days....anyways, continue to WATCH OVER ALL OF US...we all love you and miss you more then words can say.....

I hide my tears when I
say your name.
But the pain in OUR
heart is still the same. Though WE
smile and seem carefree.
THERE IS NO ONE WHOE MISSES YOU MORE THEN YOUR KIDS AND FAMILY.....

XOXOX

FOREVER LOVING YOU AND DAD....YOUR KIDS...
January-21-14
With much love to you all. Smile…………………………..kisses hugs and smiles……………………………………………………...
January-20-14
MY FAVORITE FAVORITE SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER
January-20-14
Ma,
How I miss you....sometimes I try and block 'everything' because it hurts so much and I miss you alot...who would have ever thought you were going to leave ALL of US!!!!!!! This morning while I was driving to work I heard your song....by Josh Groban...YOU RAISE ME UP....I guess at that moment you were with me....oh....how I miss you.....and daddy....iloveyoulots...xoxo
January-17-14
What a beautiful poem, its so very true every word is so very true. We love you so very much! Its hard to believe you are not here! The phone calls the smiles the everything that made you so very special will always and forever remain in our hearts. I love you and everyone close to you up in heaven.All of you all of you so very special what a terrible void in my heart.
January-17-14
Ma, what are we going to do with that HANDSOME, WONDERFUL SON OF YOURS? Can you believe he just brought me BLOOD ORANGES....omg...yes, I wanted to cry but I held it in. I can just hear you now....SEE HOW NICE IT IS TO HAVE A BROTHER? I WISH I HAD A BROTHER? Ya, ya, heard that a million times from you...Can't wait to have one..I know dad your mouth is watering too....daddy loved blood oranges. Actually what didn't daddy like? Im his twin...WE LOVE EVERYTHING....lol Ok, daddy I will have one for you too. Ma, your like Joey and Anna...U ARE NOT FRUIT LOVERS....this cheered me up because it made me think of you and daddy. Daddy because he loved them ...and ma because you would be sooo happy that JOEY DID THAT..ok...the day is almost over...I had to share the news....love you BOTH SOOO MUCH......night night...wish me luck tonight...watch over me.....
January-17-14
Though her smile is gone forever
and her hand I cannot touch
I still have so many memories
Of the one I loved so much.
Her memory is now my keepsake
Which with I'll never part.
God has her in his keeping
I have her in my heart.
Sadly missed but never forgotten.

The pain really nevers goes away
it just becomes a dull ache
January-17-14
Hey Ma

I know its been a while. I guess Im trying to get used to NOT writing in this book anymore. It ends Feb.8, 2014. What a beautiful mass last night. We had your ONE YEAR MASS. Late? Your sisters, YOUR FAMILY, and your friends were there. I had my own private moment. The songs were very nice. I hope you all were watching it from up above? I still can't believe ITS BEEN ONE YEAR....AND I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ARE GONE!!!!! Today I feel mushy....sad....my mind is wondering....Oh well this is life everyone keeps saying...ITS AWFUL...I love you....I think of you all the time...I miss dad alot too...alrightie we will talk again....forever in my heart......A++
January-16-14
hi love you and miss you so so much
January-12-14
one year today……….your funeral………and mommys birthday. Thinking of you each and every second of the day. love you
January-11-14
hi didn't realize that we can still keep touch with each for another month. I can not stop thinking of you and Gracie …….what a void i love you
January-10-14
omg we have another month of talking. Thankyou thank you thank you to whom ever did this. I love you and please look after guide us and let us all feel your presence around us always.
January-10-14
evening mrs ursini, though it has been a day since your passing, i think of often how you were such a bright spot in my life. to have known you as the wonderful person you were i will always remember you at your best. in your little big kitchen on victory. your house dress on fixing food or when the girls friends would come over to have some of your wonderful pasta... i know we share a date together but that is only i reminder. remember the chinese say the number 8 is a lucky number, and i know i am one of luckiest people in the world to have met such a great lady. love always now and in my heart. xoxoxo
January-09-14
I love you and I do not want to give up this book, I feel I can talk to you ……………..share my thoughts…………….feel you…………………..omg. this is so so very hard.
January-09-14
Ma,
Jan. 7...was a horrible day and so was Jan. 8 - 2013 who would have thought that you were you not coming home. I had everything ready for you...everything....you were suppose to be with all of us....iloveyoulots...xoxoxox
January-08-14
Lisa it was one year today to the date you died I was so sad to hear that a wonderful person like you had died I always thought of you as my second mother . No matter what my day was like bad or good when you saw me you would always ask me Diana with that great big smile you always had and asked me how is your mother all the time for some one like you who never met my mother it was known if you ever did you would love her just the same way you have loved me that's why I Carry you in my purse you are part of my life Lisa always love Emma Philip and Diana you will be dearly missed there's not one day that goes by that we do not think of you take care Lisa love you always !!!!!!!??????????????????????
January-08-14
OHHHHHHHHH MAAAAAAAAA,

Today God wrapped HIS arms around you and took YOU by HIS side. What God didn't realize is that YOU LEFT BEHIND ALOT OF BROKEN HEARTS!!! Hearts that will take a lifetime to repair. Until we meet again IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. I truly HOPE you are in HEAVEN with daddy, Frankie, your parents and auntie Gracie. I hope YOU are ALL PAIN FREE and watching OVER ALL OF US. I look at this picture and I CRY...CRY...CRY....you look sooooooooo good...WHY, MA???? WHY? You have not come to VISIT me all year...why is that? Please let me know you ok. Anyways, today is NOT A GOOD DAY. I don't even want to be here at work. I want to go back in my bed and cry and hug my pillow like I did last night. I don't know what else to say....my heart...OUR HEARTS are broken FOREVER. Miss you more and more everyday...LOVE YOU FOREVER.....TILL WE MEET AGAIN..............xoxoxo
January-08-14
A limb has fallen from the family tree.
I keep hearing a voice that says,"grieve not for me"
Remember the best times, the laughter,the song.
The good life I lied while I was strong.
Continue my heritage, I'm counting on you.
Keep smiling and surely the sun will shine through.
My mind is at ease, my soul is at rest.
Remembering all, how I truly was blessed.
Continue traditions, no matter how small.
Go on with your life, don't worry about falls
I miss you all dearly, so keep up your chin.
Until the day comes we're together again.
January-08-14
One year today ………..you said goodbye to all of us. The void we feel in our hearts will be forever. Today is a day of numbness void and most of all a "sister" who was so special so loving so beautiful and so loved. You will always and forever be part of me. I love you so. Elisa you are a star side by side with Gracie that will always shine above.
January-07-14
Oh ma....oh ma...
Who would of thought any of this? I keep looking at the time and thinking about the pain you were in. I will never ever forget u saying....I'm in so much pain..
I don't even wish this on a dog!!!! I'm sorry you felt pain but Dolores and Anna were trying their best. I can't believe in one more hour it will be a YEAR!!! You didn't deserve this. You were the best mom. So kind hearted...always smiling...also found good in people. Most of all you loved us all...your handsome "JOEY" your golden child "ANNA" then me, "FRANCA" trouble!!! The three of us miss you so much..losing such a wonderful loving mother like you is a big big VOID in your kids life. The three of us all had a different relationship with you, but one thing we all had the same ....was our love for a very special mom. There is NO mom like you!!! Oh God...WHY????????? Tomorrow is going to be a bad bad day...especially for your kids....forever in your children's hearts...we love and miss you so much MA....
January-06-14
They say there is a reason,
They say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason,
Will change the way we feel,
For on-one knows the heartache,
That lies behind our smiles,

No-one knows how many times,
We have broken down and cried,
We want to tell you something
So there wont't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without!!!
January-03-14
Hi Elisa and everyone, Nevio was in a car accident today and I think all of you above were watching over him. He is ok but it was five cars. Ice was the factor. I am counting the days in which you were to come home. Again I guess it was heaven so you could be all together. You did not want to be a burden to the girls…….you are so very special and you and Gracie are two very special angels in heaven. I guess God needed you both because on earth you were both so wonderful. Loving you so very much………and to think I was in Venice on Sunday, I was so happy when I heard you were coming home on the 8th. In chinese the number eight is good luck but not for us. Who would have ever thought that in Venice my hotel was right in front of Saint Anthony. I have to believe I was there for you………The priest said a special blessing for you that night of January 8th………….I miss you I love you and please watch over your beautiful and loving family……….Smile.
January-03-14
Ma it's 145am and I'm still up. I can't sleep. These next few days are going to be awful. My mind is wondering. I really hope your watching over all of us. We all miss you alot. On Monday Anna and I are going to have our Christmas dinner together...yes, we are having your favorite Choice of the Orient. Having it really isn't the same without you. You loved your Chinese food. I hope your having Chinese in heaven. I can't believe Wednesday is one year...i just can't believe it!!! Miss you ma...miss you alot...I didn't only loss the best mom but I lost the only person that really understood me...and the only person that loved me the way I was....faults and all....I miss you so much...Pls visit me.....xoxo
January-01-14
Hey Ma and Dad
I'm home from NYC. I'm glad to be home. Ma, last night when the clock hit midnight...all I thought about was YOU...how in 8 days WE LOST YOU!!!! Can u believe it's been ONE YEAR almost? I guess when we finally meet again you will tell me WHY? I went to Eatly when I was in NYC...remember last year I called you 3 times from store. They still have those placemats I bought you...when I saw them I cried and had my moment. I kept talking about you and dad so much. I can't explain how much I miss you both. As I'm writing I continue to look at your picture. You look do good in that picture..your hair looks fabulous...you always liked your hair perfect. I miss so much about you. This year I didn't buy much in NYC...I just wasn't in the mood. I would always love to show you everything..did you see I bought an orange jacket? You would love it...oh ma.....I need to stop writing. TI AMO SEMPRE xoxo
January-01-14
Life has changed for us forever!!!!The holidays and New Year will never be the same. It is just another day………….I miss you more than words can say…………………………………….Love love you
December-31-13
Ma & Dad,

Who would have ever thought..... Ma....you were so good...just to think you were suppose to come home in 8 days....but you never made it....your life changed overnight....and so did OURS!!!!!!!
How I wish ....but that is not possible anymore .....iloveyoubothlots!! & miss you 'BOTH' so...so much...
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
December-30-13
There is a special angel in Heaven
that is part of me,
It is not where I wanted her to be
but where God wanted her to be.

She was here but just a moment
like a nightime shootin star.
And though she is in Heaven
she isn't very far.

She touched the hearts of many
like only an angel can do.
I would've held her every minute
if the end I only knew.
So send this special message
to Heaven up above.
Please take care of my angel God
and send her all my love.
December-28-13
forever in my heart I love you soooooo
December-25-13
I love you both soooo much and miss you lots!!!!! I leave today do I will talk to you in a week....watch over me....hate flying in the winter..I will be thinking about you both....xoxoxo
December-24-13
Well today is Christmas Eve. This was daddy's favorite day. We are going to Joe and Dolores house tonight. How we wish things could be different. I guess God had his own plans for the both of you. There are a lot of tears still flowing...they will never stop. It's NOT a Merry Christmas for US!!!! Watch over US always. You both are FOREVER in OUR HEARTS!!!! It's another SAD DAY for JOEY, ANNA and ME!!!! Xoxo
December-24-13
Ma & Dad,

Wishing you were both here....
"Merry Christmas"
A big 'hug' & 'lots of kisses'
I miss you 'both' so much!!!!
xoxooxoxoxooxo
December-24-13
Ma,
How I miss you!!!!!....not only today...but every single day...right down to the second. It is a hurt...a void that never seems to go away....just a big lump in my stomach. We would have done so much together....I try not to think to much because when I do it just hurts and it destroys me slowly. "iloveyou" more than you will ever...ever...know....xoxoxoxox
December-23-13
Don't tell that you understand,
Don't tell me that you know,
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow,
Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me,
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free,
Accept me in my ups and downs,
I need someone to share,
Just hold my hand and let me cry
And say,'MY FRIEND,I CARE"
December-20-13
Good Morning Ma

5 more days till Christmas :( Everyone rushing around getting ready. This year isn't Christmas for us. Its going to be very sad..but with Family and Friends they are all trying to make it better for us. Christmas Eve me and Anna our with Joe and Dolores and the kids. We will make the best of it. Christmas afternoon I leave. I will be thinking of you alot in NYC. Anyways ma....last night I had soooo much fun. I went to aunt Rita's and we had dinner and played cards. Yes, ma, I acted like dad a couple of times by throwing my cards and getting upset but you know THAT'S HOW ME AND DAD PLAYED. Aunt Rita and Zio Roberto kept bringing up the times you went to Florida and Acapulco. How much fun the four of you had when you went away. They were all HAPPY THOUGHTS...no crying which was nice for once. I feel like Im always crying lately and I can't sleep. Last night I never slept sooooooooo good. When I get back from NYC we will be playing cards again. Last night part of me felt like DAD was playing inside of me. It was wonderful. I needed last night sooo much....Ma, your WONDERFUL SON text me this morning asking for muffin and coffee. Well of course I bought it for him...then guess what?????? He didnt even drink the coffee or eat the muffin...so next time YOUR HANDSOME SON isn't getting ANYTHING....lol....Today is our last day of work until Jan.6, 2014. It will be a nice break. Over the holidays especially daddy's favorite ....Christmas Eve I really hope we feel you both around us that night at Dolores's and Joe's...there will be tears....pls turn them into smiles for all of us.....LOVING YOU FOREVER AND EVER.....and wishing that THIS COULD BE DIFFERENT...but this is part of life ...right ma? ITS THE AWFUL PART OF LIFE...No worries one day WE WILL ALL BE TOGETHER AGAIN...you and Anna cooking...me and dad playing cards.....I want to say Merry Christmas to you all.....but for "US" its NOT A MERRY CHRISTMAS.....:( just remember we are ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU ALL AND MISSING YOU ALL....our hearts are all HURTING THIS CHRISTMAS.....xoxoxoxo
December-18-13
With much love to you all!!!!They say that time heals, that what they say. Time does not heal it only makes it more real.Life is different ………………it will never be the same.
December-18-13
YOU ARE ONE UNIQUE PERSON MISSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALWAYS AND FOR EVER.
MA.........
December-17-13
REMEMBERING OUR ANGEL IN HEAVEN ....AT CHRISTMAS TIME

The sadness NEVER goes away
the SILENT TEARS STILL FLOW
you're thought of and so SADLY MISSED
MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW
But now you're with the ANGELS
SAFE AND SOUND IN HEAVEN ABOVE
we hold on to the memories
and treasure them with LOVE
YET SPECIAL TIMES LIKE CHRISTMAS
often make us WONDER WHY?????
God took you from THIS WORLD
IT WAS TOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOON TO SAY GOODBYE!!!!!!
But memories are precious
THEY WILL LAST A LIFETIME THROUGH
we know that God HAS CHOSEN YOU
TO BE HIS ANGEL TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WE ALL LOVE YOU MA......YOUR JOEY......YOUR GOLDEN CHILD ANNA.....AND THEN THERE IS ME.....TROUBLE...LOL.....xoxoxoxoxo
December-17-13
IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
AND MEMORIES A LANE,
I'D WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN AND
BRING YOU HOME AGAIN.
December-15-13
I am crying so much today, that I do not make sense!!!!!! I know that I remind the kids of you in so many ways. Anna says we even eat the same. OMG who would have know that this was going to happen to you and Gracie who would have know that you would not be here. I happened all too soon for the both of you. I can not believe it sometimes, but I must say thank you for sending me signals of your love. Hugs and kisses to you all. Why why why all I can think of is that God needed to special Angels and he has them now.
December-15-13
Hi Elisa, say hi to Mommy and everyone, just got a text from Joe he let me know it was nine years since mommy went to heaven. Down here its major cloudy with tears. I can not stop crying and missing you all. As I write I am still crying…..Franca and Anna coming for dinner Tuesday night. When Franca texted they were coming I did smile……and then I lost my phone when I texted Franca back saying we were going to have the choice of the orient………….omg it hurts so bad……………..yes we smile, and go on with our lives but there is a big but. All I know today is because of you……and Johnny Mario misses you toooo. He always said you and Gracie where like sisters he never had. Oh well as you would say Ta TA smile even though your heart is breaking. My heart does not smile anymore since you have gone. We try we try and I know I remind your children of you a lot. Thankyou for giving me who I am today. Hugs and kisses Gracie I have no words for the void in my heart for you. I went to visit you last week and I can not believe that you are gone…..so special so beautiful……so so loving………..great family………………I love you all
December-13-13
A year today you gave me your little pinky ring with diamonds. It was big on me but I still wore it that day. Then to think that evening you were rushed to the hospital because of water in your lungs. We all the confusion that night I LOST YOUR RING. When I lost it I kept telling my friends...MY MOM IS GOING TO DIE...I have to find the RING. I told you I lost the ring. You said check your car. I checked everywhere ma. To this day IT HAUNTS ME. I wear your other ring 99% of the time. I WON'T LOSE THIS. Today there is alot of snow. It looks like Christmas but it SURE DOESN'T FEEL LIKE IT. Its almost OVER...12 more days Christmas is here. OMG...WHY?????? WHY????? ok Im having another one of those days....omg...PLS HOLIDAYS GO AWAY.......xoxoxoox

p.s. today is FRIDAY THE 13TH....how you hated Fridays and the number 13......
December-12-13
WHAT A BAD DAY IM HAVING....the tears are not stopping. I can't control myself. I look at today's date and I just want to scream...to think a month from TODAY....WE BURIED YOU.....who would of ever thought!!!!!!!!!!!! IM IN ONE OF MY MOODS TODAY MA.....I want to yell and scream....PLS PLS I WANT THESE HOLIDAYS GONE...OVER AND DONE WITH...I WANT THE CHRISTMAS SONGS TO STOP ON THE RADIO...I wanna TURN BACK TIME....help me today MA....its REALLY BAD.......

MY HEART IS KILLING ME TODAY........XOXOXOXO
December-12-13
another poem that reminds me of you....but this is YOU TALKING TO "US"

As I sit safe in heaven,
And watch YOU EVERYDAY
I try and le you know with signs,
I NEVER WENT AWAY!
I hear you when you're laughing,
And watch you as you sleep,
I even place my arms around you,
To CALM YOU AS YOU WEEP.
I see you wish the days away,
BEGGING TO HAVE ME HOME
So I try to send you signs,
So you know you're not alone!
Don't feel guilty that you have life
that was denied to me,
HEAVEN IS TRULY BEAUTIFUL,
Just you wait and see!!
So, LIVE YOUR LIFE, LAUGH AGAIN!!
ENJOY YOURSELF, BE FREE
Then I'll know with every
BREATH YOU TAKE,
YOU'LL BE TAKING ONE FOR ME XOXOXOXOXO

THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT U WILL TELL JOEY, ANNA AND ME...I KNOW YOU MA.......
December-12-13
Please FORGIVE a FALLING TEAR
A silent wish that YOU WERE HERE
Others have LOST like this WE KNOW
but "YOU" ARE "OURS"
AND WE LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH...............


FROM YOU CHILDREN....TO THE BEST PARENTS IN HEAVEN.....XOXOXOO
December-12-13
I filled these balloons with
LOVE
to send to you in heaven above

Merry Christmas!
Gone but not forgotten......
December-11-13
I thought of you today, but that is
nothing new. I thought about you
yesterday, and days before that too. I
think of you in silence, I often speak
your name. All I have are MEMORIES and a PICTURE IN A FRAME. Your memory is a KEEPSAKE, from which I'll never part. GOD HAD YOU IN HIS ARMS. I have YOU IN MY HEART.......always and forever ma.......I miss and love u lots...
December-11-13
Happy Birthday Nonno from ALL OF US. Actually ma, you know YOUR SON...he remembers EVERYTHING. This morning at 7am he texts me saying its Nonno's bday and he would of been 104 years old. Oh dio JOEY remembers EVERYTHING....especailly DATES. You know if you were here Joey would of said, Ma, how old is your father today?" You would of answered, "Oh don't ask me...you know Im not good with MATH". lol...I seriously hope you ARE ALL TOGETHER and celebrating nonno's special day. I hope your making your famous homemade pasta. Dad and nonno will probably be playing cards all day. How I miss playing cards. Me and daddy always had so much fun playing our favorite card game, watching tv and stuffing our faces with either fruit or PANE VITTORIA BREAD AND OLIVE OIL...sometimes we would get fancy and cut cheese. How I miss THOSE DAYS. Daddy I miss playing cards soooooooooooo much. Oh well like everyone says THIS IS PART OF LIFE. Like I say...until they LOSE SOMEONE SPECIAL they JUST DON'T KNOW HOW IT FEELS. Its a feeling I can't really even explain. You feel alone...you feel this awful VOID...to me..IT JUST GETS HARDER AND HARDER...instead of better. Oh dear I feel another one of those days...OH DIO when are these HOLIDAYS GOING TO BE OVER???????????...love you all...MISS YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER EVER KNOW.......till WE ALL MEET AGAIN.....xoxoxooxoxo
December-10-13
Hey Ma

Today is not a good day. I have been crying...aunt Lib called me at work crying....she said it must be a VIRGO DAY. Im counting the days....in 16 days Christmas will be over...Thank God. WHY?????? Im very ANGRY today ma. I have soooo much going on in my head and in my heart...Its so cold outside. Christmas came to fast this year. I can't beleive the way time flies. This weekend is our Christmas Party. I really don't want to go. Oh well what would you say, "Franca go...you work there...have fun"...YA YA MA...SURE....whatever....ok help me and aunt Lib stop crying today..Wish there was some sun out....something that would show me your around US....ok missy talk later...ciao for now....
December-06-13
Omg its hurts so bad not having you and Gracie here! Everyone this year it such a huge void. I love you all so very much and so much more. Smile……………………..
December-06-13
If Roses Grow in Heaven

If roses grow in Heaven Lord
Please pick a bunch for me.
Place them in my Mother's arms
and tell her they're from ME.
Tell her I LOVE HER AND MISS HER,
and when she turns to SMILE,
Place a KISS UPON HER CHECK
and HOLD HER FOR A WHILE.
Because remembering HER IS EASY,
I do it EVERYDAY,
But there is AN ACHE WITHIN MY HEART
THAT WILL NEVER EVER GO AWAY........

I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH MA......XOXOXO
December-06-13
Hey Ma,

Your handsome son "JOEY" wanted me to say HI to you FROM HIM...He never writes in here. Its only me, aunt Rita, aunt Lib, and every once in awhile Anna. I wish you could make these Christmas songs go away on the radio. This morning I was crying alot. Every song was one of your favorites. 19 days before Christmas. Where did the year go? Today is really cold outside. I could just see you now laying in "YOUR BOD"..you would say, Franca Im so nice and comfortable. I wonder if you are comfortable NOW? Are you really PAIN FREE? Are you really with daddy, Frankie, your parents and aunt Gracie? I wish I could know that foresure. You haven't visited me since you left Jan. 8th 2013. I wait every night for something. Ok ma, having one of those days...can't stop crying. Talk to you later. Watch over ALL OF US....XOXOXO
December-05-13
If we could visit heaven,
Even for a day,
Maybe for a moment,
the pain would go away.

I'd put my arms around you,
and whisper words so true,
that living life without you,
is the hardest thing to do.

No matter how we spend our days,
no matter what we do,
No morning dawns or evening falls,
When we don't think of you.
December-04-13
Hey Ma,

I know...I know its been awhile. Well actually it really hasn't. I did write but you know IT NEVER SHOWS UP. I get upset...I don't write...then after a few days I try again. Where do I begin without crying...Its 21 days till CHRISTMAS. Another hurdle for US. What do I miss besides EVERYTHING? On Dec 1st OUR CHRISTMAS DECORATION would be out. U always said NEVER NOVEMBER its the MONTH OF THE DEAD. This year the house is SAD. NOTHING IS OUT. I really wanted to put out NONNA (remember the doll aunt Lib bought you? It looks just like nonna) You LOVED THAT DOLL. Remember when aunt Gracie died that was the ONLY THING YOU TOOK OUT...YOUR DOLL. You took it out because it reminded you of your OWN MOM. We would unwrapped it...give it to you...YOU WOULD KISS IT AND SAY YOUR FAMOUS LINE......"SE IDDIO VUOLE" I wanted it out this year but Anna said NO!!! What would you say ma? I HAVE A MIND OF MY OWN...SO IF I WANT IT I WILL...LOL...I should do the samething...I should take it out and put it in the corner. I hear all your favorite Christmas songs on the radio and I start to cry. THIS IS A TOUGH TOUGH HOLIDAY MISSY. This Christmas will be JUST ME AND ANNA ... ALONE TOGETHER...we will have our own lunch and we will be thinking of you...more than likely CRYING....so maybe it ISNT A GOOD IDEA IF WE STAY ALONE? I know you will direct us on what to do that day....Ok ma, I MISS YOU...I LOVE YOU...AND I CAN'T WAIT TILL THESE HOLIDAYS ARE OVER.....Im counting the days...xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

p.s..."Death leaves a HEARTACHE noone can HEAL, LOVE leaves a MEMORY noone can STEAL" XOXOXOXOXO
December-03-13
Missing you all at Christmas

Every day without you,
since you had to go,
Is like summer without sunshine,
and winter without snow.

I wish that I could talk to you,
There's so much I would say,
Life has changed so very much,
since you went away.

I miss the bond between us, and I miss your kind support,
You're in my mind and in my heart,
and every Christmas thought.

I'll always feel you close to me,
and though you're far from sight,
I'll search for you among the stars
That shine on Christmas night
November-26-13
I thought of you today
as I so often do
I wanted to let you know

I WAS REMEMBERING YOU
November-26-13
My MOM has made me laugh,
made me cry,
Wiped my tears,
Hugged me tight,
Watched me succeed,
Seen me FALL,
Cheered me on,
Kept me going STRONG,
And DROVE ME CRAZY. (LOL)

Moms are a PROMISE FROM GOD
That you will have a FRIEND
FOREVER!!!!!

Put this on your
STATUS if you LOVE YOUR MOM
Whether she's HERE WITH
YOU, OR IN HEAVEN.....
November-25-13
hi elisa, what a beautiful poem ……….its so true………love you all……………………………………..smile…………………...
November-25-13
If we could have a lifetime wish
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts
for yesterday and You.

A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we've tried...
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we've cried....
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too...
But we never wanted memories
We only wanted YOU.
November-22-13
Ma, Im shocked it showed up. Ding dong made a mistake. Meant to say FELL NOT FEEL. Right now its awful outside. Raining and dark. Tonight Im going out with Pat. (aunt Gracies twin) You know where Im going so send me LOTS OF PENNIES AGAIN.. Anna is going out with YOUR DOLORES. I miss you sooooooo much...the tears havent stopped today..oh dear...MOTHER MY MAKE UP...ok love you....xo
November-22-13
Oh Ma, I can't believe this ...THIS IS MY FOURTH TIME WRITING IN THIS BOOK THIS WEEK. Nothing has showed up. It makes me so upset. So here I go again. Last Saturday ma was the first time I came to visit you in a long long time. I really don't like going there. Too depressing. Anyways, IM NOT DREAMING....ITS TRUE...you are gone. Seeing your name on the stone made it SO FINAL. I went there and all I kept saying WAS WHY? WHY? To think going there I have YOU, DADDY, FRANKIE, NONNA URSINI,AUNT GRACIE AND NONNO AND NONNA.....wow....we have LOST SO MANY OF YOU...LIFE JUST ISNT THE SAME. Its weird ma, since you left us NOONE comes by the house. Its ONLY ME AND ANNA. Its very sad...Everytime I go up those stairs I see you there when you feel. IT BREAKS MY HEART TO THINK you were sitting there BLEEDING for atleast 4 hours..I blame myself so much for that day. I always went home for lunch and that day I didnt. OH MA IM SOOOOOOOO SORRY...its one of those days. Can't stop crying. That will haunt me forever. Last night was a nice night...YOUR HANDSOME "JOEY" came over for dinner last night. IT WAS THE THREE OF US. So nice. Joe sat in his normal chair and he was talking to you. ITS SO WEIRD MA. How I wish I could move from that house....TOO MANY MEMORIES...WONDERFUL MEMORIES...but the one on the stairs HAUNTS ME. Im glad Joey and Anna never saw. It was me and Dolores that day...WHY DID GOD WANT YOU???? We need you here so much. Everytime I wear something new I want to show you to get your approval. Today I made a mistake ma...Im wearing a NEW TOP. Remember you hated when we wore something new on a Friday...When I was looking at your stone I kept reading the year over and over 2013..how you hated that number 13. To think you died with the number 13..DESTINO......DESTINO......

IM HAVING A MOMENT ...AND IM HAVING ONE OF THOSE DAYS......HOPING THIS SHOWS UP......THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS....

TILL WE MEET AGAIN.....IM READY ANYTIME....XOXOXOXO
November-18-13
What a day today!!!!! I cried all the way home thinking of you both……………..why why why …………..I miss you both so very much and this void in my heart will never ever go away.
November-12-13
Hi Elisa Gracie and Everyone! What a lonely world it can be when you lose someone so special so special and close to your heart. Gracie I miss you so much!!!!!! Elisa you would always say I can't believe that Gracie is gone and I miss her so much. Now you are both together with mommy daddy johnny and frankie. Omg what a void in my heart. We have our children and grandchildren but the void is still there. All I can say is Smile even though your heart is aching………and a lot more.Your families down here they are all coping with a huge loss and a void that will never ever go away. I love you all and remember even though we talk laugh cry feel angry and ask the question Why…………..it does not really matter………………..all we have is the beautiful and loving memories in our hearts that we will treasure forever……..until we meet again. I am soooo sad and miss you both soooo very much…….your voice will forever live on in my heart.
November-12-13
Those we love don't go away
They walk beside us everyday
Unseen,Unheard but always near
Still loved,still missed.
November-07-13
I miss you all so much!!!!!!!Loving you is so easy having the void in my heart is so so so difficult. Smile…………….
November-06-13
JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU IM THINKING ABOUT YOU...ITS STARTING TO RAIN...ITS GLOOMY AND COLD...OK MA....WE WILL TALK LATER...LOVE U AND ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU MISSY....XOXOXO
November-04-13
Hey Ma,

Did you see what a nice Halloween party Ellen had? It was very nice. Did you see YOUR SON? Omg amazing him and Dolores looked. Michelley did Joe's make-up for him. Jonathan and Claudia looked great too. Did you see OUR MICHELLEY? Amazing her and Luca. We took pictures. There is a really nice one of me, Anna and Joe. I love that picture of us. Today is a sunny day...beautiful day but a little cold. You know me ma, I would say to you...ITS FRESH. On Sunday I was going to come and visit you. Pat was going to come too...but I HATE GOING THERE. It just makes me SAD. I promise to visit you before Christmas. I cant beleive Christmas is just next MONTH. This year went by soooooooooo fast. Me and Anna haven't decided what we are doing for Christmas...part of us JUST WANT TO BE HOME ALONE..I just like Christmas ma Im going to New York with Sandra again....just like last year...remember I left around 830pm...this year we are leaving one hour before. Its going to be weird...I will be thinking of last year when I was there...remember I kept calling you and you said Franca, stop calling its expensive..just have a nice time...be careful...and your famous line...I LOVE YOU...WHO WOULD OF THOUGHT???????? Rememeber when I went into that italian store EATALY? I keep calling to tell you about the fresh pasta...the place mats...everything...I took pictures..you saw the pictures....When Im there this year..IT WILL HURT AND BRING BACK MEMORIES OF ME CALLING YOU. OMG...havig one of those days again...SUGAR..ok I will talk to you later.....love you....miss you....and watch OVER US ALL!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. I hope this Saturday you come threw for me...I hope you say something to me....I really hope so....ok...TATA!!!
November-01-13
Hi Elisa, I am still crying, I can not even find the words to write. All I can write is Smile even though your heart is aching smile even though your heart is breaking. My is broken, I miss you so, your smile your encouraging words but most of all your laugh and your ending to a conversation "I LOVE YOU" all saints day is rejoicing because they have two very special angels that made and still makes our hearts smile. Broken Heart that will always be broken. I love you all from the bottom of my heart……………………………..
October-30-13
It's 10pm...Anna is in bed and I'm downstairs. So glad this day is almost over. We all had OUR MOMENTS!!!! The tears were flowing like the day U LEFT US!!! If GOD only knew all the hearts he broke when he asked you to join him I think he would of changed his mind. The void in our hearts I can't even explain what it feels like. I keep saying what if....or why????? I'm getting no answers....not even from you. I'm waiting for you in my dreams but nothing!!!! Ma, you son...your precious JOEY...what did I call him? The King...lol he also had a very bad day...i just hope u heard your favorite song SMILE when JOEY played it for you...deep down I know u did, especially because it was from YOUR HANDSOME SON...ya ya ma it's nice to have a brother...lol..our next hurdle Christmas...Pls pls help us...today was very hard. Ok good night..

Love from ALL of US...
P.s. Aunt Lib really misses HER BIG SISTER....

Xoxoxo
October-30-13
Happy Birthday MA!!! Last year I called you at 7am from Jamaica. I remember our conversation. You were so happy on the phone. You were telling me what you and Anna were doing for the day. I would of never thought in a million years that this year I WOULD BE WRITING IN THIS BOOK!!! On the phone you told me how quiet the house was without me and that YOU and ANNA missed me...now you know......ME and ANNA MISS U SO MUCH...living in THIS HOUSE without you...IS AWFUL! It's beyond quiet. I'm trying to remember what you ALWAYS said....think of the funny things you did because it would make US laugh....MA I'm trying to especially TODAY but I can't control my tears because it makes me MISS YOU MORE!!!!! It's a terrible day today....very very sad...tonight it's ONLY ME and ANNA!!!! help us TODAY PLEASE....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BEST MOM IN HEAVEN...
..xoxoxoxoxoxo
October-29-13
Well Ma...I am off tomorrow...I should have been spending the whole day with you and then dinner in the evening with the family...instead I will be alone during the day and me & Fra in the evening. It all just happened so fast...life is just not the same without you...I could go on & on...but what for...I would have been in your bedroom so early tomorrow morning with your cafe latte and wishing you a
'HAPPY BIRTHDAY'...and kissing you and telling you that
'I LOVE YOU'...better i stop writing now....just know that I think of you soooo much...'always' ...and i miss you more than you will ever know...
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY"
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
October-29-13
What a night last night. Me and Anna we're having dinner then we just started thinking about YOUR BIRTHDAY AND CHRISTMAS and we just started TO CRY. I tried to be STRONG for Anna ...I tried to STOP CRYING...but Ma, I just couldnt!!!!!!!!!!!! I told you THIS WAS GOING TO BE A BAD WEEK...actually the next FEW MONTHS ARE GOING TO BE UGLY..Tomorrow is you BIRTHDAY..Like I said Anna is having a mass for you at 8am...then she is coming to visit you. Remember ma ANNA ALWAYS TOOK YOUR BIRTHDAY OFF. You and her would spend the day together. Before Aunt Grey died you and Anna would go spend the day there. Aunt Grey would make you a nice lunch and she always made sure she had your pop nice and cold. THOSE WERE THE DAYS....WE WERE TOGETHER AND HAPPY....Now look....first FRANKIE...then nonno...daddy...nonna...aunt Grey...AND YOU.....WHY????????????? WHY?????????????????????? Im sooo UPSET...the tears flowing NON STOP...Pls Pls GIVE US STRENGHT.....Tomorrow nights dinner is YOUR FAVORITE CHOICE OF THE ORIENT. The tears will be flowing...NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO TOMORROW...OK...I have to go....I have to go fix up my make-up....my tears are washing away my make-up....MA....WE ALL LOVE YOU....AND WE ALL MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH......WHY?????????????????????????????
October-28-13
just wanted to say Good Morning to all of you. Two more days and its your bday....WHY?????????? Thinking of you always MA..Yesterday I went to Yorkdale with Sandra and guess what? We went downstairs where the pjs are and as I was looking I said to Sandra, Omg this housecoat is perfect for my mom...I will get it for Christmas. Then Sandra looked at me...and I was like...OMG....Sandra my mom WOULD OF LOVED IT. Ma, its just like the one your wearing. Instead it was a purple colour. So nice. You would of LOVED IT. I find myself sometimes forgetting that you ARE GONE. I really want to believe this is A DREAM....YES ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE DAYS. Ok I can't talk anymore......talk later....love you...miss you.....xoxoxo its going to be AN AWFUL WEEK......:( help us get threw it PLEASE........xoxoxo
October-25-13
Thankyou for making Jonathan and Claudia's safe return. Love you all
October-25-13
October 30th 1937 It is etched in my memory!!!!!!
October-25-13
Hey Ma

Well guess what? Yup...I wrote in this book and of course NO SHOW. So once again I said I WASN'T GOING TO WRITE....but IM ALL TALK...I feel EMPTY when I don't write in it. That was a nice poem someone sent to you...the only PROBLEM....ITS NOT YOUR BIRTHDAY....you ALWAYS hated celebrating it before. Its still 5 days away. When I was reading aunt Libs message about you giving up because you thought you were a BURDEN...I really believe that too. You werent a burden...you know me ma, I still went out and I still travelled. It was Anna that wouldnt. Although when I did look after you...you always GAVE ME AN A++..Anna is travelling now but I will tell you something..WE WOULD RATHER HAVE YOU BACK...Anna is LOST WITHOUT YOU...we ALL ARE...but you know Anna...she has nomore phone calls to make durning the day....nomore rushing around...she is lost...no worries ma Im keeping her busy cooking. lol..Last night can you believe we ate dinner at 730pm...HOW WEIRD IS THAT? Did you see Anna put your favorite tablecloth on? You are missed sooooooooo much. You are the only one that UNDERSTOOD ME....I will never have anyone LOVE ME THE WAY YOU DID...I was far from PERFECT...but you loved me anyways. I miss that sooo much. Today Jonathan is finally coming back from his honeymoon. It seems like he was gone forever..we all missed him alot. I hope you are all ok up there. I continue to think WHY??? So this is what I came up with.....Daddy missed your cooking especially your homemade pasta. Aunt Gracie missed talking to you everyday. Nonno missed you and him having coffee together. Nonna missed your phone calls and you and Anna always going up to Aunt Gracie's to visit her. Then there is Frankie....Frankie JUST NEEDED HIS MOM....Then there is US...left with only MEMORIES...WONDERFUL MEMORIES...The only MEMORY that we all HATE AND DON'T UNDERSTAND...is January 8th, 2013..YOU WERE COMING HOME..I still understand....and to be truthful I WILL NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND...I feel one of those days coming on. I hope this shows up....IF NOT MA......YOU KNOW ME.....lol...forever loving and missing you....THE HOUSE ISN'T THE SAME....noone comes by anymore...ITS ONLY ME AND ANNA...its VERY SAD....talk later.....xoxoxo
October-24-13
The moment that you died
my heart was torn in two,
one side filled with heartache,
the other died with you.

I often lie awake st night,
when the world is fast asleep,and
take a wald down memory lane,
with tears upon my cheeks.

remembering you is easy,
I do it everyday,
but missing you is heartache
that never goes away.

I hold you tightly within my heart
and there you will remain.
Until the joyous day arrives,
That we will meet again.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
FOREVER AND ALWAYS
October-24-13
THE MOMENT THAT YOU DIED,MY HEART WAS TORN IN TWO,
ON SIDE FILLED WITH HEARTACHE,
THE OTHER DIED WITH YOU.
I OFTEN LIE AWAKE AT NIGHT,
WHE WORLD IS FAST ASLEEP,AND
TAKE A WALK DOWN MEMORY LANE,
WITH TEARS UPON MY CHEEKS.
REMEMBERING YOU IS EASY,
I DO IT EVERYDAY,
BUT MISSING YOU IS HEARTACHE THAT NEVER GOES AWAY.
I HOLD YOU TIGHTLY WITHIN MY HEART
AND THERE YOU WILL REMAIN.
UNTIL THE JOYOUS DAY ARRIVES
THAT WE WILL MEET AGAIN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!
October-21-13
smile even though your heart is aching smile even though your heart is breaking . You loved this song, omg omg omg Franca is so right today why why why you were suppose to come home.........why all I can think of is you missed Gracie so much and maybe just maybe you were tired of the health issues and your Anna your Franca your girls the burden you thought you were. Elisa I have know one thing for sure on this earth no one no one has loved the way your girls and son and family loved you. You a special star shining from above all of you are. Please take care of your girls son and family by sending them sunshine and smiles memories that make us laugh just something. Loving and missing you all so very much.
October-21-13
Ma Im having one of those days today. The weather is awful and I can't stop crying today. I need your help to put a smile on my face. Im thinking of your birthday....thinking of the holidays.....ITS JUST MAKING ME SOOO DEPRESSED...wishing WE COULD TURN BACK TIME......alright I need to stop writing because the tears are flowing today.............love you and miss you soooooooooo much......xoxoxoxoxo
October-20-13
goodnight and miss you more than words can say. Miss all of you so very much.....I love you so.......................from the bottom of my heart.
October-17-13
Hey Ma

Its been a while. Busy and trying to get back into the swing of things. Im still all confused with the time difference. Anyways, nothing new and exciting. The wedding is over.....my ice cream season is over...SO NOW LOTS OF TIME ON MY HANDS. Vinny is moving this Friday. She is going back up to Newmarket. So you know what that means? When I used to go to her house I would always pass by VICTORY DRIVE...53 to be exact...Now I will have no reason to be in that area. :(...I hope you are all fine and watching over us. Your birthday is coming up. To think last year we surprised you with THE DOCTORS HOUSE. Its was a perfect day. The weather was great...you were sooooooooo happy and excited. IT WAS PERFECT. Now this year? I HAVE NO WORDS...see how LIFE IS? YOU JUST NEVER KNOW. Oh ma I feel one of those days coming on....the tears still flow...OK WE WILL TALK AGAIN......LOVE TO ALL.....xoxoxooxoxooo NOT A SECOND, MINUTE, HOUR OR A DAY GOES BY THAT I DONT THINK OF YOU....especially in Italy I thought of YOU AND DAD SOOOO MUCH...daddy I took a few pictures for you. Im going to develope them and put them in the kitchen. One is of your peppers that you used to string and hang up to dry. WHAT A PICTURE...SOOO NICE...the other is of chestnuts...really nice.....ok talk later.....xoxo
October-16-13
love you
October-14-13
I'm back.....missed writing in this book. glad to be home. Missed Anna a lot. I missed everyone. I enjoyed my trip but would never do it again. To see Italy you need more time. I was rushing around like crazy. I went into two church's to light candles. One in Florence and in Napoli. Lite 5 candles both times. Today is Thanksgiving and we are going to Angie's house. U will be missed so much. It's 530am and I'm already up..see right now it would be 1130am...so I'm still on Italy's time...ok ma thanks for watching over me and everyone here..talk again later. I'm going to try and go to sleep again...xoxo
October-12-13
love you all! Our Franca will be home tomorrow!!!! We all missed her!!!! Watch over her and bring her home safely. Elisa thanksgiving will not be same this year.................you loved my stuffing..................and you did to Gracie.........miss you all so very much.
October-06-13
love you all and pray and look after us all!!!! love you more then words can say. Franca is safe and Jonathan leaves tomorrow make sure everyone is safe Loving you all more each day and the void we feel in our hearts will be for a lifetime. Smile.........even ..........................................
October-05-13
Ok I leave today and the weather is gloomy and raining. I have a little headache right now. I couldn't sleep last night. Went to be around 3am. I'm like you ma..remember when we would travel you would be up all night and we'd be at the airport hours before. This 9 hour flight is scaring me...oh well like I say if anything happens I have all of u waiting..remember to watch over anna? Ok missy love you lots..Pls make sure I have a safe flight coming and going? Xoxo ciao for now...
October-04-13
Ma its a really ugly morning...its raining and very gloomy. I HATE THIS WEATHER. Anyways, this morning I received a message from aunt Rita saying Buon Onomastico. She sent me a message and it said...San Francesco D'Assisi Buon Onomastico Franceso,Francesca, Franco, Franca.....SO MISSY I NEVER KNEW I HAD ONE...So Frankie Buon Onomastico to you too...
So I leave tomorrow and YES IM A LITTLE NERVOUS...Why? Leaving Anna....but I know you will be watching over her. Last night Anna gave me euros for my trip..something you always did whenever I went away..I will be thinking of you alot when Im on this trip especially when Im on my balcony at night looking at the stars and looking into the ocean...it will be pitch black. You would always tell me how scared that made you. To me its peacefully and very relaxing. Remember me and Dad always wanted to go to Italy but you were always scared of the flight. Dont kid yourself ma...Im really scared too...its a 9 hour flight...OH DIO...Today is Vinny's bday she turned 50 today. When I called her this morning we both thought of you because you would of called her too. Its OUR FIRST YEAR WITHOUT YOU...and its hard. DO YOU REALLY KNOW HOW MUCH EVERYONE MISSES YOU? Last night Joe came over and when he walked in the front door he said HI MA!!! Do you see the VOID you LEFT ALL OF US? Its one of those days ma.... love you lots....WATCH OVER ANNA NEXT WEEK.....and of course me FAFALETTA.....Lol...xoxoxoo I will be thinking of you and dad when Im in ITALY...xoxoxo
October-02-13
Loving all so much and missing you all with so much .......................love tears and void.
September-30-13
Ma and Dad,

Did you see????????? What a wedding!!! Not because it was "OUR JONATHAN'S" but this wedding was done WITH SOME MUCH CLASS. It was outstanding. From the Church to lunch to the RECEPTION....IT WAS AMAZING. The flowers OMG...It was like we were in heaven..I know you and daddy were there. The sun was shining all day. U must of been celebrating up in heaven. Did you hear? Jonathan mentioned you and daddy and there were pictures of you too. That was emotional. Your SON our brother JOEY...WAS GREAT. We all had OUR MOMENTS but all in all YOU GAVE US THE STRENGHT. THANKS MA AND DAD. So next is OUR LITTLE PRINCESS MICHELLEY.....that will probably be NEXT YEAR....Omg I remember when Jonathan and Michelley were both born...now to think they are all grown up and starting their own life and families...Continue to watch over us ALL....keep us all safe...WE LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH...AND WE MISSED YOU SATURDAY.....AND EVERYDAY....xoxoxoxo
September-28-13
A magical wedding. You were there!!!! The orange vase and orchid. Smile ................ Jonathan so handsome and Claudia a diamond in the sky. Your children outstanding your presence a void in everyones heart. Loving you all each day more. The void........ is forever in our hearts.,
September-27-13
Thankyou for being there! Thankyou for the flower. Tomorrow is a special day for all of us thankyou for letting us know that you and everyone are around us. Smile ..............even though.................................Loving you more each day.
September-27-13
Mom and Dad......

I wrote in the book TWO DAYS AGO...and SURPRISE IT NEVER SHOWED UP...I get so upset with this book. I always say I won't write in it again but I JUST CANT. Writing in here makes me feel good. Ma, remember I asked you to send me a penny from above to let me know your watching over US....well DADDY sent me over 2000 PENNIES....THANK YOU....Im starting to be a BELIEVER...Tomorrow THE ROYAL WEDDING IS TAKING PLACE...I CANT BELIEVE IT. Guess what the weather is going to be SUNNY AND WARM....You know what that means???? YOU AND DAD WILL BE WATCHING FROM ABOVE...well you ALL WILL...THANK YOU FOR MAKING IT A SUNNY DAY...although the TEARS WILL BE FLOWING NON STOP....the SUN WILL HELP US ALL. Can you believe your GRANDSON IS GETTING MARRIED? WOW.....all I continue to ASK IS PLEASE PLEASE GIVE US THE STRENGHT TO GET THREW THAT DAY...WE WILL ALL BE THINKING OF YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH....PLEASE WATCH OVER JOE THE MOST....Oh dear the TEARS ARE STARTING NOW....
Ok here is ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL POEM AUNT RITA SENT ME LAST NIGHT......ITS SOOO PERFECT...

There are moments in life when
you wish you could bring
someone down from heaven.
Spend the day with them just
ONE MORE TIME.
give them ONE MORE HUG,
KISS THEM GOODBYE OR
hear THEIR VOICE AGAIN. ONE
more chance to say I LOVE YOU!!!!!
Share remembrance of SOMEONE WHO IS NOT HERE.....

IF ONLY WE COULD BRING YOU AND DAD BACK...ESPECIALLY FOR YOUR GRANDSON'S WEDDING... :(

I wanna believe YOU HAVE FRONT ROW SEATS AND YOU WILL BE SENDING JONATHAN AND CLAUDIA LOTS OF HAPPINESS, HEALTH AND LOVE ALWAYS. JONATHAN WAS ALWAYS "YOUR STELLINO BELLO" and even from above IS STILL YOUR STELLINO BELLO.

WE ALL LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH.....WE ALL WISH YOU WERE HERE......BUT I WANT TO BELIEVE YOU WILL BE THERE IN SPIRIT....HELP MAKE ARE TEARS INTO SMILES...THIS IS GOING TO BE A VERY VERY HARD DAY....

LOVE TO YOU BOTH SOOOO MUCH....LOVE TO ALL.....HUGS AND KISSES FOREVER....


p.s. ONCE AGAIN THANKS FOR ALL THE PENNIES...XOXOXOXOXO
September-19-13
Ma, sorry I had a busy morning. Anyways, I can't wait to tell you about your WONDERFUL, HANDSOME SON...did you see what he did yesterday? I still think Im dreaming.lol...I teased him yesterday about not hugging or kissing me for my bday and he said, Frank (he calls me that)Im sorry then gives me a hug and kiss at the order desk..Then I said as a joke...you know you could give me $20.00? Well, did you see what he gave me? WOW.....With that money I bought somemore euros. Ma, that was really nice of JOEY..to tell you the truth when I got into my car I started to CRY...he caught me offguard. Then I thought of YOU....You would of said, SEE HOW NICE IT IS TO HAVE A BROTHER? Your right ma.....but he knows HE IS LUCKY TO HAVE ME AND ANNA...MORE SO ANNA...LOL..9 more days to THE ROYAL WEDDING...wow we are all going crazy...getting excited...last minute running around to do...but most of all we are wishing you and dad could of been here. Whats the saying? God only takes THE BEST...he sure did when he took you and dad. I guess I will be here for a longtime...lol. Tonight Im making bbq for me and Anna for dinner. Its a nice day today. The sun is shining right now...THATS YOU MA....when I see the sunshine it always makes me feel good because to me that means your around and watching over us. When its rainy and gloomy it makes me sad. I always think when it rains that YOUR SAD OR IN PAIN...Im yet to dream of you...NOTHING MA....why is that? Hoping you come into my dreams soon. Miss you...love you....and I just WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH ALL OF US...XOXOXO
September-18-13
I love you all what a horrible void in my heart. It does not go away I miss you and Gracie so much that at times the pain is unbearable.......................smile even though your heart is breaking. Why why why why and WHY
September-17-13
JUST AMAZING............AMAZING...I wrote in here yesterday and OF COURSE WHY WOULD IT SHOW UP???? OMG....THIS BOOK. Anyways, here I go again ....Saturday night ma when I got home from the truck...yes, Iknow it was late 230am. I cried myself to sleep that night. I fell asleep around 4am. Waking up Sunday was really SAD. I was used to you saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY and then getting upset that I was on the truck. I cried alot on Sunday too. The weather was awful. Gloomy and rain. I guess that was you saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND THAT YOU MISSED ME. Well actually thats what I want to BELIEVE. Anna came by to see me at the festival on Sunday...ya ya we cried but what can you do. She brought me lunch. I finished early the truck that night only because it rained so I was home at 830pm. Did you see what Anna gave me for my bday? Of course she went above and beyond. Then ma I had a surprise from aunt Lib and Mario they gave me a card with EUROS. OMG I WAS BEYOND SHOCKED...yes,dont worry I called her and Mario right away to THANK THEM. Aunt Lib had a day like mine...CRYING...she missed your phone call too. I know they all say the FIRST YEAR IS THE HARDEST...I think this is going to be different. You are missed soooooo much. FOR SOOO MANY DIFFERENT REASONS..the wedding is in 11 days...OMG...why couldnt God just let you be here. This was sooo IMPORTANT. Your first and ONLY GRANDSON getting married. Ma, this is truly THE ROYAL WEDDING....seriously...well I hope to God that you ALL WILL BE WATCHING FROM UP ABOVE..Then ma I leave in 18 days. Flying into Barcelona 9 hours oh dio. Then I go on my cruise. I cant wait ma...really I cant. I will miss ANNA LOTS. Its weird ma....ITS ONLY ME AND ANNA. WE HAVE EACHOTHER...so missy Im just letting you know...if you are going to pull a NONNA...you take ME...WHY? Anna is ALL I HAVE AND WITHOUT HER...OMG I CAN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT. She is fine without me...and plus ma, IM THE ONE THAT ALWAYS KEPT YOU AND DADDY'S BLOOD FLOWING....I was the troublemaker. Plus dad would rather play cards with me because when we played with Anna it took her too long...lol...me and dad played fast. Daddy I miss playing cards soooooooooooo much....Ok I will see you at lunch today ma...Im coming home at 1pm. We are having rapini today THATS IT...remember ROYAL WEDDING...LOVE FOREVER AND EVER....XOXOXOO
September-13-13
Happy Birthday handsome Frankie You looked like our side of the family Nonno would say. You should have been named Bruno. Love to you all with much love. Bad day today but you did send a sign to me. Dr. Bengall came in to work and he had gone to a course late night. Today he came in with an orange bag orange pen and orange cup for the coffee. Can you believe this. Thankyou for sharing he gave it to me this morning and I will make sure this is for me and France. Love you
September-13-13
HAPPY 56TH BIRTHDAY FRANKIE......!!!!!!!!!! Ma, your finally celebrating a birthday with Frankie after 49 years...wow..Can you believe TODAY IS FRIDAY SEPT. 13-2013..how you hated Fridays and the number 13. You went into the hospital on the 13th...you died in 2013. TALK ABOUT DESTINO? This weekend is my bday and it will be VERY WEIRD NOT GETTING A HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIRST THING IN THE MORNING FROM YOU...Oh ma, TODAY IS ONE OF THOSE DAYS....the weather is awful really cold out there. This weekend I have the Ukrainian Festival at Jane and Bloor so I will be working...the only good thing ITS MY LAST WEEKEND....Yippeeeeeeee...I know your really happy about it too. The Royal Wedding is TWO WEEKS AWAY...Oh dio...I will be starving for the next two weeks. lol...WHY MA? WHY? Why didnt God wait? Why did he NEED YOU? Didn't he know we needed you HERE MORE? Im very upset today. Its not a GOOD DAY AT ALL. Ok Sunday somehow send me and aunt Lib a HAPPY BIRTHDAY....although IT WILL BE FAR FROM A HAPPY BIRTHDAY for us. Not having you say HAPPY BIRTHDAY and getting a birthday card with mistakes in it...I WILL MISS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH...enough about me....enjoy you day with Frankie and everyone else...just remember how much your missed and how my heart is aching BIG TIME TODAY......and all weekend.....

"TATA"......HUGS AND KISSES TO ALL...FOREVER AND EVER....
September-10-13
Happy Anniversary, to you both. Love you hugs kisses and smiles......................................................even thought my heart is aching smile even though my heart is breaking.....Love to you all.
September-10-13
Oh dear...I told you to enjoy with everyone except I forgot to mention Frankie...Frankie Im sorry. Its your turn to spend special days and holidays with MOM AND DAD...Atleast I know they are in good hands with everyone up there....I just need to BELIEVE....Ma, you thought like me with this after life...I thought you would do something SO I WOULD BE A BELIEVER.....ok....Hope you made the pasta....ciao for now....like I said....UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN....xoxoxo
September-10-13
HAPPY ANNIVERSAY MA AND DAD........finally after 11 years you are together ( I really hope you are) and you can celebrate. I have a candle light at my desk for you. Last night ma YOUR SON called THE HOUSE LINE AGAIN.....and asked what we were doing. I said Anna is out and Im downstairs. He said where is Ma? I answered I DONT KNOW..then I said in her room sleeping. How WE both wished you were upstairs sleeping in YOUR BOD...then the ding dong said are you eating popcorn? I told him Joe I was debating whether to make it or not but I said NO BECAUSE OF THE ROYAL WEDDING. Well guess what? I ended up making it. I was so upset with myself. What would you say ma? OH WELL....lol Also this morning I said to Joe how many years for ma and dad? He said ding dong how old am I? Add one year? Well ma like you...do you think I knew how old he is? Anyways, he said 58 years. WOW....so I told YOUR HANDSOME SON...YOUR ONLY 57? YOUR STILL A SPRING CHICKEN.....NOT!!! LOL...His hair looks good today but I never told him that. It looks better shorter ma because when it was long it was out of control and he looked to messy. I know thats hard for you to believe THAT YOUR SON LOOKED MESSY...in your EYES JOEY WAS ALWAYS HANDSOME...remember when you would tell him and his famous line....MA, KNOCK IT OFF!!! But we both know he loves compliments....lol...This morning I did alot of crying. I woke up at 530am and just laid in bed. Then around 545am I got up and just went downstairs and cried. Now writing in this book (thanks to aunt Lib for keeping this book going) I feel better. A little better anyways. Ok enjoy your day with dad, nonno, nonna and aunt Grey. Make dad PASTA AGLIO E OLIO. Oh dear my mouth is watering I feel like some too. Lol...Daddy I EAT EXACTLY LIKE YOU!!! Actually SO DOES JOEY....DONT KID YOURSELF....HE LOVES TO EAT TOO....LOL...ok ALL MY LOVE FOREVER AND EVER..........UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..........XOXOXO HUGS AND KISSES..
September-09-13
Elisa , Franca is one of a kind thats for sure. She makes me laugh ...........cry......................Loving you more each day and everyone up above. Smile even though your heart is breaking Hugs and Kisses to you all.
September-09-13
Hi Ma

I give up on this book. I wrote in it 3 TIMES AND NOTHING...lets see if this one shows up. Anyways, yesterday was 8 months. WOW!!! I can't believe it. You are missed more than you will ever know. Ok missy 3 more weeks for THE ROYAL WEDDING. Oh dio. Im ready for it. Bought my morning outfit and evening. Oh I wish you were here. You know how much I loved your approval of what I was wearing. So since you are not here I went to Michelley. She is funny ma. She is a URSINI. Tells you how it is. So funny. Anyways, she LOVES EVERYTHING I BOUGHT. So happy. Your HANDSOME SON cut his hair. He thinks its too short but ma it LOOKS SOOO MUCH BETTER. I know I know...you like "JOEY" with his long hair. But what would you always say? Regardless "JOEY" ALWAYS LOOKS HANDSOME....ya ya..WHATEVER...LOL..we are all excited about this wedding but we are also soooooooooooooo SAD. How we wish you could of held on for this special day. Its going to be really hard for ME, ANNA, AUNT LIB AND ESPECIALLY JOEY not having you here. I just wish some how you would give me a signal that day showing me YOUR WATCHING FROM UP ABOVE...something...anything...ok ma, looks like Im going to have one of those days.....I will see you at lunch...LOVE TO EVERYONE.....especially you and dad....xoxoxoo
September-08-13
I love you...............and everyone
September-03-13
Good Morning Ma,

The long weekend if over. I worked all three days on the truck. Yesterday which was Monday I was out till 1:15am...YES, MA SELLING ICE CREAM!!! I got home after 130am. Yes, Anna called and sounded just like YOU!! When are you coming home? Its late!! You work tomorrow!! She went on and on like you...lol....oh ya she also said I CAN'T WAIT TILL YOUR FINISHED WITH THIS CRAZY TRUCK...OMG..she drove me nuts. What she has to realize when she calls me makes me crazy and when Im driving because Im trying to rush home...THATS WHEN I COULD GET INTO AN ACCIDENT....Im old enough...Im fine. Plus I know YOUR WATCHING OVER ME...other then that ma, its the same old same old. Working...working..and more work. I can't wait for Oct.5th to go on my cruise. I need to just get away. Although I hate the fact that I need to buy Euros :( Anyways, today is a nice fresh day. Love this weather. Alright ma I will see you at lunch. I can't wait till 5pm because Im a little tired. Im a tough cookie like daddy. I miss you both alot. Continue to watch over US. LOTS OF LOVE FOREVER ...............
September-02-13
We love you so! I am lost for words, all I can say that its been almost nine months..........Gracie would have been sixty! Mommy Daddy Johnny Frankie everyone .......Jonathan's wedding and you are not there you were supposed to be there you were supposed to be there, life is empty without you and Gracie I miss you both so so much I have a pain in my heart always. Missing you both each day more and more.
August-26-13
omg omg omg Elisa, Franca should have been a writer.She said it all and more. Loving you all
August-26-13
Good Morning....

I was going to write to you on Saturday but you know whenever I write on a weekend it never shows up. I didnt want to take that chance. Today is a really AWFUL DAY. ITS POURING RAIN. You know what this weather does to me? So as of today ma, the ROYAL WEDDING is one month and 2 days away. OMG I can't believe "OUR LITTLE JONATHAN" is getting married. WOW....I finally bought my dress...me and Michelley went together. How I wish you would be there. Im still in shock...Im STILL ASKING WHY? Remember when we found out? We all cried...it was happy tears. Back then it was 10 months to his wedding. Remember the way "YOUR SON" would tease you and say ok ma, do exerise....you need to lose weight for the wedding. Then he said don't you want to dance with Jonathan at his wedding? You had two answers...Joey, with these crazy legs how can I dance?...and YOUR MOST FAMOUS LINE WAS ......"SE DIO LO VUOLE". To this day I really believe YOU KNEW SOMETHING..I believe you knew you wouldnt be here. Our hearts WILL ACHE FOREVER....anyways, Aunt Rita sent me another poem on Saturday while I was doing an event. I read it and CRIED..and kept CRYING. ANOTHER PERFECT POEM. Here it is....

REMEMBERING SOMEONE VERY SPECIAL.....

Time slips by and life goes on,
But from our hearts you're
NEVER GONE,
We think about you ALWAYS,
We talk about you TOO,
We have SO MANY MEMORIES
but we wish we still
HAD YOU................... :(

Now do you understand why I cried so much on Saturday? Its another perfect one. As Im writing this Im looking at your picture on the top left hand corner of this page. You were 70 years old in that picture. I love love that picture. To think 5 years later you left us. I DONT UNDERSTAND...Saturday after aunt Rita sent me this I was looking at the pictures in my phone...of you..when you were sitting in your hospital bed eating, reading the paper...smiling...they are happy pictures for me.....then I have the pictures of YOUR LEG...what they did to it...I have pictures of when you died...I look and I cry...and I continue to ask GOD...WHY MY MOM???????? I knew today was going to be a bad day....I cant stop crying...Im thinking of everything...I could see you now..laughing and smiling...talking and talking...repeating yourself over and over again...eating and spitting at the sametime....YOU ALWAYS SAID...WHEN YOU DIED TO REMEMBER THESE THINGS BECAUSE WE WOULD LAUGH....ONCE AGAIN MA.............YOUR RIGHT....

My heart is really hurting and missing you soooooooooooooooo much. I love thinking about you but when I do...IT HURTS...sooooooooooo many wonderful memories of SUCH A WONDERFUL, CARING AND LOVING MOM....xooxoxooxo

forever loving you............
August-21-13
Why why why, I looked over and read the hospital report, why why why why, it doesn't make sense. Its a very bad day for me today, all I can think is why why you and Gracie why . I guess they needed you up in heaven with Gracie and everyone. Please send your blessings and watch over us in your very special way and always ending the conversation with "I LOVE YOU" and I would answer I LOVE YOU MORE!!!!Hugs and kisses as Gracie would always write on the cards. Why......................
August-19-13
Good Morning Everyone,

Ma, why does it ONLY HAPPEN TO ME? I wrote in your book Saturday night after I got home from the truck. It was late. 12:30am. I was very busy at James Garden but I thought it was better late then never. I wrote to wish aunt Grey (I always called her that) a Very Happy 60th Birthday. Now the only reason I knew was "Your Wonderful, handsome SON" reminded me. Well actually he sent me and Anna a text saying it was aunts bday and she was 60. You know "YOUR SON" he is so good with dates. So aunt Grey HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I hope you had a wonderful party...Hope ma made home made pasta for all of you. Anyways, I had a very busy weekend at James Garden. When I had downtime I was thinking about so many things. I cant believe Jonathan is getting married in 5 weeks. (I still dont have a dress..oh dio) I cant believe you, daddy, aunt grey, nonna and nonno will not be here. The only one coming is Aunt Lib and Mario. Its sad. To think on Sept. 28th is going to be such a WONDERFUL AND HAPPY DAY FOR JONATHAN AND CLAUDIA...but ma, its going to be so hard for "US"...the tears will be flowing for the night before. To think God took 8 months before this wedding...WHY??? Jonathan was "YOUR STILLINO BELLO" All I ask is on that day...give ME, ANNA, AUNT LIB AND ESPECIALLY "JOEY" strength to get through that day. Just thinking about it IM CRYING...oh dear I think its going to be ONE OF THOSE DAYS...on that day ma drop a penny from heaven so I know your watching the "Royal Wedding" with us. As much as it is a HAPPY DAY...it will also be VERY SAD because WE ALL WILL BE MISSING ALL OF YOU...and wishing you were with "US" CELEBRATING YOUR FIRST AND ONLY GRANDSON'S WEDDING. Im crying....I will talk to you at lunch today....LOVE ALL OF YOU...and miss you more and more EVERYDAY.......xooxoxo
August-18-13
P.S. Joey texted me yesterday, he always remember special occasions and misses you all very very much.
August-18-13
I love you, Gracie's birthday yesterday, it was a very bad day for me. She would have been and should have been celebrating her 60th. I miss you both so very much, and I thank God I have your children to love.Gracie I saw beautiful Tanya with Vince on Yorkville it felt so good to hug her...........I hope you celebrated in heaven with everyone. Who would have ever thought that this would happen so soon..........missing you more each day with love hugs and kisses.
August-12-13
oh ma...I told you it was one of those days. Did you see my spelling mistakes? Oh dio what a DING DONG I am. I meant to say FROM UP ABOVE...also I meant to say WHOEVER had the same flowers. Oh dear. It hasnt started raining but it will this afternoon. Ok if there is any other mistakes...OH WELL..this is me. I type faster then my brain works. lol...

LOVE YOU SO MUCH...MISS YOU AND DAD BEYOND WORDS...XOXO
August-12-13
Good Morning Ma,

What a shower? So elegant and just beautiful. Im hoping you saw everything for up above. People say you do BUT I FIND IT SOOO HARD TO BELIEVE. Did you see ma, when we all walked int we received a WHITE vase with our name on it and on the back a number. Us DING DONGS thought it was our TABLE NUMBER. Instead it was for prizes. Where had the same flowers meant we sat together. So nice...anyways, can you believe aunt Lib's number was "13"? I believe she received that number because me and Anna were not seated with her. So that was YOU telling AUNT LIB....no worries although my GIRLS aren't sitting with you...YOUR NOT ALONE....Im right her WITH YOU LIKE IM ALWAYS....I really believe that...did you see when Jonathan walked in? OMG.....of course me and Anna cried. He looked so handsome. They are such a beautiful couple. When you see Jonathan and Claudia together you can feel the love. Oh ma, WHY? WHY? Today is ONE OF THOSE DAYS....its going to rain today too. Ok ma I will see you at lunch today.....ciao for now....WE WILL MEET AGAIN....until then.... WATCH OVER ME AND ANNA AND KEEP US SAFE....xoxoxoo
August-11-13
Hi Elisa, today was Claudia's shower and it was beautiful, your girls looked beautiful. The void in my heart was there, and all I could do is smile even though your heart is aching. Jonathan came in later and all I could think of was you, you must be so proud up there in heaven you and Johnny mommy daddy Gracie omg how you are all missed. Loving you more each day.xxxxxxxooooooo I also kept thinking of the poem Rita sent.
August-08-13
What a beautiful poem for us to read. Seven months today, the poem is so so true. Loving you more each day and always remembering you in so many ways. Love love love to you all.
August-08-13
Hey Ma,

Its a really nice day today. A little too hot but nice. Anyways, aunt Rita sent me this poem via Facebook. Look how perfect and how nice it is. I just love it. Its sooooooooooooo true and it made me cry....

No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say good-bye,
You were gone before we knew it,
And only GOD knows why.
Our hearts still ache in sadness,
And secret tears still flow,
What it meant to lose you,
NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW.................

Tell me ma, isn't this PERFECT? We ALL MISS YOU AND WE ALL THINK ABOUT YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH......tomorrow is 7 MONTHS..I keep saying this is a dream.....Im going to wake up and everything is going to be back to normal.... But ma, it isnt a dream..you are gone AND NEVER COMING BACK TO DAVOS ROAD...WHY? THATS ALL I ASK............WHY???????? PLS HELP ME UNDERSTAND? XOXOXOXO
August-06-13
Ok ma it's midnight and I'm going to bed. Today was a busy day at James garden. I'm so tired. Did u see what a wonderful day Anna had with Joe and Dolores? Joe cooked his famous ribs for them and Anna said they were amazing. Yes ma don't worry they thought of me. Joe and Dolores said to take some home for me but Anna said no. I'm having problems eating pork. Atleast they thought of me. Only you and Anna ALWAYS think of me. Ok ma I'm so tired so I'm going to "BOD". We shall talk in the morning missy. Nite nite. I'm still waiting......xoxoxo
August-05-13
Hi Ma

Once again I'm at James garden. Parking lot is full so it should be a good day. Anna is at Joe and Dolores house. Joe is making burgers. So as you can see its the samething over again. Like I said yesterday I'm counting the days for my season to end. Ok ma it's a busy day here so we will talk before I go to "bod". Love u lots. Xoxo
August-04-13
Hi My beautiful and loving you, Mario came home today and bought my the most beautiful orange flower. You are around me all the time and I love you so. Love hugs and kisses to you all.
August-04-13
Hi Ma

I'm sitting here at James garden and waiting for your phone call. By now you would of called to see if I ate my lunch yet. Well I haven't. Just sitting here wishing so many things and crying. First and foremost wishing you and dad were still here. It's so lonely and empty. Today Anna is at Dolores's pool. Joe was busy and doing WHATEVER. Oh ma looks like a slow day at the park today. Everyone is enjoying the long weekend except me always on the TRUCK. It's ok my cruise to Italy is just around the corner I can't wait I need a break too. Working 7 days straight for 6 months is starting to get to me. You understand you hated the truck and the long hours I put it. Oh well I just keep saying ONE DAY ONE DAY. Today is sunny but windy a little cool. Next Sunday at this time we will be at Claudia's shower. Ok ma I will talk to you later..im getting hungry so I'm going to eat some lunch. Love u both so much and miss you more as everyday goes by.i can't believe it's almost 7 months..:(
August-01-13
Good Morning Ma,

This week the weather is terrible..LOTS OF RAIN. Last night I went on the truck. Yes in that pouring rain. Me and Phil went to Downsview Park for Edgefest. I remember last year when I did that event you kept calling me because it was raining and lightening. You always hated being home at night when it was lightening. I told you, Ma, don't worry the lightening will stop. It did stop and you were fine. This weekend is the long weekend. Of course I will be working, Saturday, Sunday and the Monday. Its almost over ma. My last day is going to be Sept 15th. We have the Ukrainian event Sept. 13, 14 and 15th so I will be working it like I do every year. I almost forgot to say THANK YOU...you fixed the tv this morning for me. OMG you know how much I love my tv downstairs. Joe was going to look into it for us but then this morning IT WORKED....like "joey" said....it was ANGEL that fixed it...THATS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess you knew that even though "joey" said he would look into it...it would of probably taken him awhile and you know how much I LOVE MY BASEMENT AND MY TV. Oh the sun is trying to come out....ma, we miss you lots and we think of you all the time. YOU KNOW THAT RIGHT? Ok I will see you at lunch today. ALL MY LOVE FOREVER AND EVERY....not a day goes by that I don't cry thinking about you......
July-31-13
Already July 31st, its been alittle over six months since that day that God decided to take you.Sometimes it just seems like a very bad dream. Your smile, your laugh your everything is missed so very much. The colour orange is so popular this year, you are everywhere we go. When Anna had her appointment you were there. The two orange chairs by the door before we went in....................Elisa my dear Elisa why why why !!!!!!At times I am so angry at times I am so sad and at times I wish I could hear your touch your hand, kiss you and wish I could hear "tata" I love you, have a nice day, oh Libby I worry about my "girls" Anna works too much, France on the truck.Joey has Dolores and beautiful Michelly and my Jonathan, he is so handsome. The memories are there but nothing can replace the real you. Its real its real you are not with us . Please pray and send blessings from up above to all of us .Love to you all and please remember not a day goes by without a tear in memory of you all.I love you so...................
July-29-13
Good Morning Ma,

I know its been a few days...aunt Lib text me yesterday saying YOU HAVEN'T WRITTEN TO Ma.....So this morning I said I better write. Anyways, aunt Lib took Anna to her appointment. I worked the truck. Saturday was a terrible day. Anna said Joe came by the house yesterday. Wow amazing he hasn't come by in such a long time. Of course, I was on the truck so I missed him. No worries I see him at work EVERYDAY.....lucky me...lol. Claudia's shower is around the the corner and the wedding is in 2 months. WOW time is flying bye. In a million years I would of NEVER EVER thought that YOU WOULD NOT BE HERE TO SHARE THAT SPECIAL DAY. Its still a SHOCK to believe that you left US. Sometimes I just think its a BAD DREAM. Like I always say......WHY???? Why did God change his mind? You were coming home...you were happy, laughing, eating and beyond excited about coming home TO YOUR "BOD" AND YOUR "KITCHEN" AND OF COURSE TO "US". I think Im going to be HAVING ONE OF THOSE DAYS......oh dio..alright ma I will see you at lunch anyways and Anna should be home too today so we will have lunch together. Ok love you all and miss you all so much.................especially YOU AND DAD......xoxoxoxooo
July-28-13
Love you and thinking of you all the time. Its Sunday and Franca is on the truck, I will touch base with her later. I will see Anna tomorrow, send your love and blessings to all . Smile even .........................................................though your heart is aching.
July-24-13
Goodmorning! Thinking of you both with much love and this is for you both!! A sister is someone more special than words.. She is love mixed with friendship. A sister is a hand within your hand she is the only one who truly understands. She is honesty and trust enfolded with love. She is your helper,your guide,and a feeling deep inside your heart that makes you wonder.............what you would ever do without her....................no one no one is loved so much.............I love you both so so so much.
July-23-13
Hey Ma,

Your sister is home safe and sound. She called Anna and she text me. Guess what aunt Lib isn't coming for dinner tomorrow so NO CHOICE OF THE ORIENT. Next time ma. Me and Anna will have whatever. Today is a nice day outside. Ok ma I will see you at lunch today and we can have our chat and watch our Golden Girls. See you soon....love you lots...miss you more...
July-23-13
Im home and..............................................lpve you
July-22-13
Hi Ma and Daddy

So did you enjoy the stag? It ALL went well and it was amazing. Daddy, Im just like you...just hearing about ALL THE FOOD my mouth was watering. Then especially when the porcetta came out at 11pm...Daddy, me and you would of had a FIELD DAY....lol...Ma, you too!!!! Did you see Joe and Jonathan? They were soooo happy. Joe was a proud FATHER but I know deep down he was missing and thinking about you. You would of had such a great time playing cards and ESPECIALLY EATING. Well ma the next is Claudia's shower. All I can say and keep saying IS WHY? Today auntie Lib is coming home from Italy. THANK GOD. Atleast we will see her every Wednesday. The house is lonely...Maybe now that the stag is over Joe will come by and visit us. Today is a so so day outside. Im really tired I had a busy day at the Brazilfest. Ma, I can't wait till the ice cream season is over...I have had enough. Tired of working 7 days a week without a break. Ok my dear parents we will talk again.....watch over aunt Lib and make sure she gets home safe. Just thinking ma, aunt Libs first phone call would be to you...telling you that she is home. I guess we will be her first call now. Aunt Lib is coming over for dinner Wednesday and guess what? We will have your favorite Choice of the Orient. So come join us for dinner on Wednesday....love you all....but missing you and dad more than words can say...............forever living in my heart......THE TROUBLEMAKER.....
July-20-13
OMG WHO WOULD HAVE EVER THOUGHT THAT OUR FRANCA COULD EXPRESS HERSELF THE WAY SHE DOES WITH SUCH FEELING EXPRESSION AND LOVE. THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS
July-19-13
Hi Ma and Dad

Daddy today is Jonathan's stag. How I wish you were here. Everyone is sooo excited about it. Gary says its the stag of the YEAR..The first GRANDSON ON BOTH SIDES....omg daddy why couldnt you be here to enjoy it. Im praying that really you and ma and everyone else is watching from up above. I know your PROUD NONNI. Send Jonathan lots of hugs and kisses from above....WE ALL NEED AND MISS YOUR LOVE FROM UP ABOVE....WE MISS YOU BOTH SOOOO MUCH.....lots of love from all of us.....xoxoxo....
P.S. daddy I know Joe is really wishing you were there.....but Im hoping your spirit is watching over Joe and YOUR FIRST AND ONLY GRANDSON.....why couldnt you and ma be here for THE WEDDING OF THE YEAR.....I call it THE ROYAL WEDDING.....why did you BOTH HAVE TO MISS THIS?????? The tears are flowing.....Not a good day...How I wish you were here to enjoy Jonathans stag........:(
July-18-13
Ma,

Now if getting more and more upset....THIS IS THE FOURTH TIME WRITING IN HERE AND ITS NOT SHOWING UP....seriously this book DRIVES ME NUTS...Anyways, today is a beautiful day. Sunny but really really HOT. Tomorrow is Jonathan's BIG DAY.....ITS HIS STAG. Joe is very excited about it. I brought YOUR WONDERFUL SON BREAKFAST THIS MORNING...(LOL) Like I promised you ma that orange bracelet I bought in the States Im always wearing it. I even wear it on the ice cream truck. This weekend I have Brazilfest at Earlscourt Park. That park reminds me of nonno. Remember when nonno would take us then he would treat us to Harvey's at the corner. He was funny he would say either a hambuger or fries...we couldn't have them both TOO EXPENSIVE. lol...I have memories of everyone up there...EVERYONE...nonna everytime I make my popcorn I use her pot. That pot must be 60 years old. IT MAKES THE BEST POPCORN. Aunt Gracie I have many memories of you too....especially when you would call me IDIOT OR GOOF....lol..you were such a wonderful aunt. Mom and Dad I had the best parents. You did everything for us....Frankie you are the ONLY ONE I never got to know. You died 2 months before I was born. How I wish I knew you. All I know is the pictures ma had of you. I love the picture of you infront of the Christmas tree. We still have your blue ball and your stuffed animal.Also our birthdays were so close to eachother you were September 13th and Im September 15th. AMAZING.....I think thats why ma named me Franca after you. Im proud to be named AFTER MY BROTHER.. Although she always says SHE LOVED THE NAME FRANCA... Can you believe our WONDERFUL BROTHER JOE was wishing I was a boy when I was born? He missed you sooo much. Today is one of those days. Not sure why because the sun is shinning...but my mind is wondering and my heart is hurting. I guess because of the stag, shower and the wedding coming up I JUST WISH YOU ALL COULD BE THERE. Like I have said before...YOU ALL HAVE FRONT ROW SEATS AND YOU WILL BE CELEBRATING FROM UP ABOVE....SENDING JONATHAN, CLAUDIA AND ALL OF US LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES.........missing you all SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH......XOXOXO
July-18-13
Everywhere I go I see orange this year!!!! IT MAKES ME CRY AND SMILE .NO WORDS CAN EXPRESS MY VOID THAT I FEEL TOWARDS YOU AND GRACIE. LOVING YOU MORE EACH DAY TO ALL OF YOU. WHY I KEEP ASKING WHY DID YOU BOTH HAVE TO LEAVE US SOOO SOON WHY..................................BACI E ABBRACCI
July-09-13
Hi Elisa, I have no words to describe the void that I have in my heart. I read what Franca wrote and I cant stop crying. You must know my dear sister that you have such a strong presence in all our lives that is going to be with us for a life time. <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
July-08-13
Good Morning Ma,

Your BELOVED SON said to me this morning...ITS 6 MONTHS FOR MA..I cant believe this!! 6 MONTHS? Where is the time going? You are MISSED BY ALL OF US SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. If I had ONE WISH only I WOULD WISH FOR YOU AND DAD TO BE HERE WITH "US". Can you believe I took the weekend off the truck? I went to Buffalo with Sandra. What a great relaxing day. I couldnt believe everywhere I went the colour ORANGE. It was great seeing that colour because it was like YOU WERE EVERYWHERE. I bought two orange tops and an orange rubber bracelet. Im wearing the bracelet everyday whether it goes with my outfit or not. Why? Its the first thing I bought there and I feel it was you telling me, Franca Im watching over you....SO I JUST HAD TO BUY IT. I missed coming home and showing you everything I bought. You used to love to see what I bought. You would of loved everything I bought. When I went to Target and I saw the cookies I always used to buy you it was weird...I wanted to buy them for you...BUT U ARENT HERE ANYMORE. You are missed beyond words. Claudia's shower is Aug. 11th tears will be flowing that day too. Jonthan's stag is next Friday and Joe just told me there is 1440 people. OMG CAN U BELIEVE? Oh dad how we wish you were here for that. You would of been A PROUD NONNO seeing YOU FIRST AND ONLY GRANDSON HAVING A STAG...GETTING MARRIED. You loved Jonathan sooooo much. You loved BOTH YOUR GRANDCHILD BEYOND WORDS CAN SAY. Oh well Im hoping you will be part of it from up above. Anyways, Ma this weekend was the perfect weekend to take off the weather wasnt that great so I didn't miss out on much. Thanks ma, that was you again. Yesterday me and Anna were eating lunch together and the house was sooo quiet, sooo lonely....ITS STILL SOOOO AWFUL. Especially Joe doesnt even come by anymore on Sundays. Its LONELY. Aunt Lib is in Italy. Atleast when aunt Lib is here she comes by has dinner or lunch with us...its nice. She is coming home soon another couple of weeks. Remember when aunt Lib would go away you would always say OMG IT SEEMS LIKE LIBBY IS GONE FOR SUCH A LONG TIME? You missed her sooo much. Then when she would come home you would say, Libby thank God you and Mario are home safe I missed you sooo much. She would always tell you too....Lisa I missed you. Ok mother continue to watch over all of us and remember how much your missed and how much we love you soooooooooooooo much....always thinking about you.....ALWAYS....
July-07-13
Hey Ma,

It's 1145pm I'm laying in bed just thinking of you and wishing you would visit me tonight. I love you and GOOD NIGHT TO ALL...LOVE YOU ALL...BUT MISS YOU AND DAD SOOO MUCH. NITE NITE WE WILL TALK IN THE MORNING. How I miss you so much. :( xoxo
July-05-13
Hi Ma

Its been a couple of days since I wrote you. Today is an awful rainy day. You know how much I hate these days. Anyways, you were never really good with dates..but you have nonna, nonno and auntie Gracie that are good with dates to help you out..So today is Aunt Rita's birthday. 71 years old...I texted her to wish her a happy birthday. I also told her YOU ALL are sending her kisses. So start sending them...ALL OF YOU...Ma, can you believe this Saturday Im taking the day off the truck...I AM...I deserve a day off...working like crazy all the time. Im thinking about taking Sunday off too what do you think? The only thing bugging me is the MONEY I will be losing out on. Driving me crazy. Your famous line....Franca who cares about the money...take the time off...I cant wait till you finish this crazy truck. You would always say that to me. I miss you so much. I really do. Yesterday at lunch I was talking to your picture and asking YOU WHAT HAPPENED??? You were coming home...SOMETHING THAT WILL NEVER GET OUT OF MY MIND...YOU WERE COMING HOME TO "US"..Jonathan's stag is coming up. Wow ma its a big big stag 1200 people. Wish dad was there to enjoy it. Well Im hoping you will all be watching it from up above. Oh dear today is one of those days...ok talk later...love you all...miss you and dad more than you BOTH REALIZE...I don't like HAVING NO PARENTS....ITS A BIG VOID ....XOXOOX
July-02-13
Hey ma,

It's 1:30am just got home from working the truck. I'm so tired I can't even fall asleep. I can't explain how busy I was. Non stop crazy busy. Thank God Mary came by. She stayed with me. I kept thinking the way u would of called me and said, Franca u know u have to work in the morning? My famous answer, ya ya ma don't worry. In the morning u would say, Franca I'd like to know who buys ice cream at 1am? Then you'd say, I can't wait till this CRAZY truck is finished. I thought a lot about you. Poor Anna called me a couple of times but I couldn't answer. Ma right now my legs are killing me from standing 12 hours and serving non stop. I can't wait to relax after tonight after work. Oh ya ma last night message oh boy did ding dong here make alot of mistakes. Oh well...it's my phone. I'm typing this on my cell and sometimes it changes the word and I don't notice. Wow ma my Window is open and I'm hearing fireworks...who would be setting them off at 1230am? crazy. Anna is sleeping right threw the noise. Amazing then she says she is never tired..lol..ok ma I better try and sleep and if there is any mistakes again its my cell. Ok I will see u at lunch...love u....and miss u lots.xoxo
July-01-13
Hey Ma

It's almost 1am Monday. Just hot home from the truck. Today was do so. I gave to wake up today at 830am. Today's event is going to be really busy. Anna will be going to Dolores and Joe's place. Laying in the sun and relaxing. Knowing Joe he will make them one of his famous bbq's. I will be on the truck going crazy...oh well what can I do? I'm really looking forward to the season ending. I'm tired of working 7 days a week. Aunt Lib text and she said thus year in Italy she has never seen so much of the color orange. She thinks of you all the time and said your with her in Italy. Ma, everytime I'm on the truck I know your watching over me. You used to hate when my season started and you always wanted me to stop driving the truck because you would worry so much. All I keep thinking 3 more months and it's over...yippee. Ok ma I'm going to "BOD" now. Miss u lots and I'm always thinking of you and wishing I COULD TURN BACK TIME..LOVE U FOREVER....TILL WE MEET AGAIN.....XOXO
June-27-13
Hi My Wonderful and
June-27-13
Hi Ma

Today the weather is so so. Im having one of my days but for soooo many different reasons. I need your help. Aunt Lib text this morning she is doing alright. Sends her love to all. Aunt Rita text me too this morning to make sure Im ok and also to send her love. Its weird I havent heard from them both in a few days...and today when Im having a bad day they both text. That must of been you telling them because you know Im upset...THANKS MA...Today I brought your HANDSOME SON breakfast. I havent done that in awhile. This weekend is the long weekend and while everyone is enjoying themselves I will be working like a DOG..its going to be a very busy weekend. Have two events Sunday and Monday...Yes ma its going to be LATE NIGHTS...especially Monday and Tuesday is work. Oh dio I will be beyond tired. Oh well this is my life....Ok ma today I wont see you at lunch because Im going to doctors so I will see you tonight at 515pm....talk later and miss you alot...xoxooxo
June-25-13
Hi Ma

Wow if me and aunt Lib don't write in here noone else does. Sorry you must think we forgot about you? NOT TRUE...Last night Anna went walking with Dolores and I stayed home. I had a busy weekend on the truck so I relaxed. As I was relaxing downstairs I was thinking about you (like I always do). Remember when I would go away for a week and I would come home you would say FRANCA THE HOUSE WAS SO QUIET.....ME AND ANNA MISSED YOU...I would say ya...ya...sure you did? U would say oh Franca your a GOOF we did miss you. MA...THAT WAS ONLY A WEEK....NOW DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH ANNA AND ME MISS YOU????????? Its been almost 6 MONTHS that WE SAW YOU.....HEARD YOUR VOICE..ATE DINNER WITH YOU.....its awful....actually beyong AWFUL...today Im having one of those days...the weather is awful...and then this morning at work we had to call the ambulance for one of the employees....when I saw them rushing in I CRIED...IT BROUGHT BACK MEMORIES....OF BOTH YOU AND DAD. I hate ambulances..anyways, ma going home having dinner then thats it...its the same old thing for me and Anna. Today at lunch while watching Golden Girls I was looking at your hospital bed and looking at your picture. It was your picture we had at your funeral. You look amazing in that picture...To think 5 years later you are NOT HERE... ITS HARD TO UNDERSTAND. I have repeated myself a MILLION TIMES ITS SOMETHING I WILL NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND AND THATS WHAT HURTS SOOOO MUCH....In "OUR" EYES you should still be here...ESPECIALLY FOR YOUR FIRST AND ONLY GRANDSON'S WEDDING....JONATHAN'S. Ok ma I love you and miss you sooo much. Remember even when I don't write to you IM ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU...you have to know that because Im always talking to you...ALWAYS.....all my love forever........
June-18-13
Hi Ma,

Its lunchtime almost. Its a beautiful sunny day today. This week should be nice. This Saturday I have a Spanish event at Christie Pits it should be really busy. Aunt Lib texted me to tell me she arrived in Italy. She said she can't get you off her mind. She is always thinking of you. Ma, WE are all THINKING OF YOU. I know everyone misses you alot...but me and Anna we kind of feel ALONE. Its really ONLY ME AND ANNA. Its sad and lonely. Joe has his OWN FAMILY....so does AUNT LIB...and so does AUNT RITA....but me and Anna REALLY WHAT DO WE HAVE? EACHOTHER...so ma PLS PLS WATCH OVER ANNA ALWAYS...because WITHOUT her I HAVE NOTHING OR NOONE...YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN...a SISTER IS SOOOO DIFFERENT THEN A BROTHER.....Like I said Joe would be LOST WITHOUT US...help him realize that..lol..Joe hasnt been around since last week. He doesn't come by anymore not like when you were ALIVE...also the phone calls stopped too...oh well EVERYONE IS BUSY WITH THEIR OWN STUFF...Ok.....Im coming home in 5 minutes so see you soon....WATCH OVER US PLS......missing you and thinking of you ALWAYS.......XOXOXOXO
June-17-13
Hey Ma,

Sorry for writing late today but busy day. I had a great weekend on the truck. Long hours but it was good. Last night ma while I was sleeping I HEARD YOU CALL OUT MY NAME....I HEARD YOUR VOICE SAYING FRANCA. I answered you...I kept saying ya ma...ya ma...but nothing after that. I heard you call it once. It seemed sooo real. I got kind of scared and happy. Scared because I thought something was wrong but HAPPY TO HEAR YOUR VOICE AGAIN. Since you died thats the first time I dreamt of you. It wasn't even dreaming...I didn't see you...all I did was hear you call out my name. This happened around 345am. When you didnt answer I opened my eyes and looked at the time. I knew Anna was up but I didnt say anything to her. I laid there feeling weird. I hope everything is ok. Anyways, Anna put the orange runner on our table...that was your favorite. Looks sooo nice...better then placemats. You know how much I hate placemats. lol..I went home for lunch today expecting.... like ALWAYS to REALLY SEE YOU....but that would ONLY BE A DREAM COME TRUE FOR ME. I should say FOR US. Its humid and sunny but its suppose to rain. No worries me and Anna are staying home tonight. Ok mother dear talk later....OH DADDY SORRY HAPPY BELATED FATHERS DAY.....Joe and Anna both came to the cemetary...they are soo good. They always go. Im the bad one I never come and visit. Its ok I always talk to you both....Aunt Gracie I cant beleive yesterday was 3 years already? Time is flying bye. Aunt I still have the keychain you bought me that says FABULOUS...it hangs in my car. I think of you alot too...wonder if you were here THINGS WOULD BE DIFFERENT. Oh well such is life. Anyways, I hope to God you are ALL TOGETHER AND EVERYONE IS PAIN FREE. Love to all....miss you all...xoxooxoxo
June-15-13
Hey ma,

It's late almost 2am. Just going to sleep. The school event was good. I'm tired. Tomorrow is going to be a nice day so I will be waking up early and going on the truck. James garden should be busy. So keep me company tomorrow on the truck. Nick is coming by and bringing me lunch so no worries. U always loved when u knew Nick was coming by. Ok nite nite...come to visit me tonight pls. xoxoxo
June-14-13
Good Morning Ma,

This morning is gloomy but this afternoon is going to be SUNNY AND NICE. Today Im leaving work at 4pm because I have a big event I have to do. Extra money..So today we will not be having lunch together. Saturday is also going to be nice weather. So looks like a busy weekend. This morning YOUR HANDSOME SON texted me and ask me to bring him a SURPRISE....of course I BROUGHT IT...I think of you everytime he asks me. You would always say FRANCA HE IS YOUR BROTHER....ya..ya...Ma, its weird when I come home at 515pm the minute I open the kitchen door I always look at your chair waiting to see you...and waiting for you to ask me how my day was and of course HOW IS JOE, DOLORES, JONATHAN AND MICHELLEY. I miss that. I miss alot...Ok ma, I have to chop chop today so as usual I think of you all the time...watch over me this weekend on the truck and tonight too...Im doing a school event. I will tell you about my weekend on Monday....Love you lots...miss you more...ciao ciao..xoxoxoxo
June-13-13
Good Morning Ma,

Wet, raining gloomy day today. I didn't sleep well last night. Why? Last night aunt Rita was texting me I couldnt get something she said out of my mind. "ORPHAN"...Ma, there is ONE THING YOU TAUGHT ME....Im so glad I took after YOU FOR THIS TOO...U ALWAYS TAUGHT ME TO "FORGIVE" we might NOT FORGET (lol)....but WE ALWAYS FORGIVE....me and YOU WERE TWINS FOR THAT. Im PROUD OF IT TOO. Dolores is like us too...ALWAYS FORGIVES....at lunch me and you would ALWAYS talk..You told me...RITA IS MY SISTER AND I LOVE HER. I always PRAY FOR HER WHOLE FAMILY INCLUDING HER GRANDCHILDREN. U used to talk about the trips the four of you took....you talked about the way zio Roberto would take you and pick everyday when dad was in the hospital. U always appreciated that. Ma, NOONE is PERFECT...NOONE. Aunt Rita misses you soo much. She said, you WERE 6 now she feels ALONE. She has her family, like she said...BUT SHE MISSES HER PARENTS, AND SISTERS ALOT. Ma, I think.....I couldnt imagine MY LIFE WITHOUT ANNA.....Omg...WHAT WOULD I REALLY DO????????? Remember when I would come home sometimes and I would say...JOE UPSET ME SO MUCH WE HAD A FIGHT? What was ONE OF YOUR FAMOUS LINES? Franca, HE IS YOUR BROTHER....just let it BE...I would...but Joe and Anna can be really stubborn sometimes...LIKE DAD...(lol) Im PROUD IM LIKE YOU FOR FORGIVING. Today is going to be one of those DAYS...its raining and I have soo much going on in my mind. I feel for aunt Rita so I really need you to send her a hug or something. Although Im still waiting for you to come visit me MISSY....but YOUR SISTER NEEDS YOU...I know if I EVER NEEDED ANNA SHE IS ALWAYS ALWAYS THERE....GOOD OR BAD I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON HER....I love her sooooo much.....yes, dont worry I love "joey" ITS DIFFERENT...I could go more to Anna then Joe....not sure why....SISTERS HAVE A VERY SPECIAL BOND...U OF ALL PEOPLE KNOW THAT..I will see you at lunch....OMG...Anna made the chilli .....MA OUTSTANDING...I guess I will get her to make it every week....U WOULD OF JUST LOVED IT MA....Im having it for lunch....I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH and MISS YOU EVEN MORE......love to ALL.....p.s. daddy I miss you too and love you soooooooooooo much.....remember dad? me...you....me...you....cant wait to play again......
June-12-13
Good Morning Ma,

Well Ding Dong here has alot to say. Where do I begin? First of all this morning I received at text from YOUR SON, "JOEY"...Why? Two reasons. First he wanted breakfast.....and second I made a mistake. Actually me and aunt Lib made a mistake. Well, we are VIRGOS...LOL....Me and aunt Lib said its been 6 MONTHS....well MISSY its been 5 months. Joe corrected me early this morning...he said IDIOT you dont count January....well guess what I DID....SORRY MA...You know Joe and his dates...he is amazing. Just like on June 6 his anniversary...can u believe he asked me how long would nonna and nonno been married? Ma, like I would know that? Lol....he said 77 years. Remember when "JOEY" would test you with birthdays and dates? What was your famous line? Oh Joey I was NEVER GOOD IN MATH!! LOL....that was your way of getting out of the question. Ma, you tell your SON...HOW LUCKY HE IS TO HAVE TWO WONDERFUL SISTERS....LOL...You think we are lucky to have a brother....well missy I THINK HE IS LUCKIER....Although me and Joe get into it sometimes I GUESS I LOVE HIM...LOL...Don't worry ma....I DO...Today is a beautiful, sunny warm day...I LOVE IT....Can't wait to see you at lunch. The kitchen will be full of YOU.......SUN...Oh ya guess what? Anna is making CHILLI again tonight for dinner. You know how she is....once you say ITS GREAT...it becomes a weekly thing...lol..Yes, I will get tired of it...YOU KNOW MISS FUSSY HERE. It makes her happy so I will let her make it again today. Ok, I have a busy day today and Im sooo happy the sun is shinning...so I have to chop chop lots to do...I will see you around 105pm today....love you lots...lots...lots...

p.s. Joe is still bothering me about the way I got the months mixed up...oh dio Im going to hear this for a long time....OK SORRY MA...ITS 5 MONTHS SINCE YOU LEFT US....he gave me $20.00 again....ya..ya...I TOOK IT...LOL....xoxox ciao ciao for now...xoxoxo
June-11-13
Hi Ma,

Well another awful, miserable, gloomy day. Oh dio. Wasnt that just WONDERFUL last night? YOUR SON...YOUR HANDSOME "JOEY" came by to see HIS SISTERS....no wonder the rain...lol. Well he had dinner with us. I knew he would enjoy it. You know Anna she bought this fancy italian pasta that was made with mushrooms. OMG...Anna added her own twist. She made it in a NICE FATTENING CREAM SAUCE with OYSTER MUSHROOMS.....omg YOU MISSY WOULD OF LOVED IT TOO. We enjoyed it alot. It was nice having "JOEY" there. I enjoy having company because when its me and Anna our minds wonder and its really sad. Did you hear what JOEY said last night? Wow I was surprised...he really doesnt talk much to US ABOUT YOU...like I said before HE KEEPS IT ALL IN...to hear him say as he was looking out the window in the kitchen....out of the blue...SHE LIVED SOOOO LONG.....BUT SHE COULDNT BE HERE FOR THE WEDDING...Ma WE are all asking that question. WHY???????? WHY????????? Do you know all the tears that will be flowing on that wedding day????????? OMG my make up is going to get all ruined...lol... WHY DID GOD WANT YOU NOW?????????? WHY?????? He couldnt WAIT? We still had ALOT TO DO...CHRISTMAS, ENGAGEMENT, SHOWER, WEDDING.....OMG...THE LIST GOES ON..I'd understand if YOU WERE SICK.....but Ma, Sunday you were GREAT. Laughing, EATING OF COURSE....talking about trips...talking about the engagement that was happening THAT WEEKEND COMING...you were coming....U WOULD OF LOVED IT...WE CRIED SOOO MUCH THAT DAY...I can just see the wedding....OMG...I keep saying GOD NEEDED ANOTHER ANGEL....HE CHOOSE THE BEST...He NOW has you and aunt Gracie...LIFE ISNT FAIR...Today is ONE OF THOSE DAYS.....THE TEARS ARE FLOWING NON STOP TODAY MA....OH DIO MIO....Ok ma I PROMISE I WILL SEE YOU TODAY AT LUNCH....yesterday I had some running around to do at lunch...BUT TODAY WE WILL HAVE LUNCH TOGETHER.....ciao for now .........xoxoxoo
June-10-13
Good Morning Ma

This morning its gloomy and raining right now. Awful morning. That message I sent you on Joe and Dolores anniversary (june 6) isnt hasnt shown up. Why am I surprised? Anyways, on Saturday can you believe it was ALREADY 6 MONTHS SINCE YOU LEFT US? Its seems so FAST but SOOOO LONG at the same time. Meaning I can't believe time flies by...and I STILL can't believe you left "US" to be with Dad, Frankie, your mom and dad and auntie Gracie. I really want to believe you are with them. I want to believe YOUR HAPPY AND PAIN FREE. I want to believe your WATCHING US ALL. Its still hard ma...very hard. This morning ma Im really tired...I had a busy weekend on the truck. Anna kept calling to check up on me and aunt Lib was texting me making sure I was ok and home early. But ma you know me...I was at the ZOO late. lol...its ok tonight go home...me and Anna will have dinner then I will relax. You would love what Anna is making tonight. We will be thinking of you alot like we ALWAYS DO.. This Saturday aunt Lib leaves for Italy so watch over her. I know she will continue texting me from Italy. Even when you were alive aunt Lib always texted us to send her love to all of us. Aunt Lib had a rough weekend ma....she misses you sooo much. So continue watching over us and keeping us safe. Love you lots.......

p.s. YOUR SON hasn't been over in a while. We haven't had dinner the THREE OF US IN A LONG TIME. I think he should come by tonight because he will LOVE TONIGHTS DINNER. You know me and Joe eat EXACTLY LIKE DAD...LOL..ok ma, see you at lunch today...ciao ciao.....xoxoxoxo
June-08-13
Six months today,you said goodbye to us all. The void in our hearts is unbearable. You were to come home, but I guess home meant heaven. The sadness ........the tears......... you are missed by us all. You are and always will be such an important part of everyones life. We love you more than words can express .If only we could turn back the time ....................love to you all up there . I miss you sooo sooo much. I have such a huge void in my heart.
June-07-13
love you miss you and wish so very much you were still here with us.give my love hugs kisses and tears to everyone up there.
June-07-13
Good Morning Ma,

Here we go again....yesterday I wrote in the book TWICE and nothing showed up. OMG...you can't understand how that drives me NUTS....anyways, YES another miserable day. This morning Im tired. I worked the truck last night after work...YES IN THE RAIN. It was a school event. Ma, I was crazy busy. Anyways, for the next couple of weeks I will be working the truck after work. Yes, Im tired. Really tired. But I have to do it. Tomorrow RAIN AGAIN...ma, this year for the truck it really hasnt been good. So can you PLEASE HELP ME OUT? Im going on my cruise for Vinny's birthday and I need the extra money. Yes, I know you hate the cruise but ma if I could I would take a 21day cruise around the world. I LOVE THE SHIP....I know Im like DAD. lol...anyways, missy today I will see you at lunch....in a few hours...ciao for now....love you lots ....xoxoox
June-06-13
Ma,
Only 'YOU' know how much 'I MISS YOU'...what a empty feeling....a really BIG VOID in my life!!
'iloveyoulots'...xoxoxoxo
June-05-13
Hi Elisa, had dinner with your girls, the chilli was very good.I love your beautiful and loving children, and they have so much love and respect for me. All I can say is that I love you all up there and my heart aches for all of you. Loving you all!
June-05-13
I cried when you passed away, I still cry today. although I loved dearly, I could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God broke my heart to prove to me that he only takes the best. Keep this rose going for anyone in heaven that you loved and lost and keep in your heart.......Forever and Always
June-05-13
Good Morning Ma,

Today is not a nice day. Actually the next few days are suppose to be awful with RAIN. Hate when it rains. Anyways MISSY.....the chilli came out amazing....sooo good. Even without a slow cooker. All I said to Anna was that it was "GOOD" but ma, IT WAS AMAZING...I thought if I had said that the tears would start so I didnt. Trust me..I know deep down we were BOTH THINKING OF YOU AND HOW U WOULD OF ENJOYED IT. You would of had TWO SERVINGS...LOL...Guess what else I found out yesterday.....I was speaking to Audrey (you loved Audrey) and I didnt know she reads this once in awhile and Audrey writes to you. She said she doesn't sign her name. Meanwhile I ALWAYS THOUGHT IT WAS AUNT LIB. Aunt Lib writes in her ALL THE TIME TOO, just like me...but she ALSO doesn't sign her name. See ma those DING DONGS....I don't sign my name either but I write down things SO U KNOW ITS ME...i.e. A++.....or ONLY ME...see they should do that too....I KNOW MA........YOU AGREE WITH ME....lol...I miss you more and more everyday. You still have not come and visit me.....IM STARTING TO WONDER WHY? Ok ma, I will see you at lunch...eating chilli (again) and watching OUR GOLDEN GIRLS...thinking of you 24/7..............oxooxo
June-04-13
elisa she is one of a kind special girl that Franca of yours. At least she makes me smile. Love you and everyone up there..................
June-04-13
ma ding dong here made another mistake....my typing is faster then my brain works...On the second line I wrote ALWAYS.....INSTEAD OF ANYWAYS....oh well people that understand me should figure out what I was saying....RIGHT???? RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! Ma, Anna is so excited about making this chilli tonight OMG....she keeps emailing me. I told her we should get a slow cooker. So missy I think we are. Its a nice refreshing day today. I think right now you would be in your livingroom waiting for Asha to come to the house. Sometimes I find myself looking at the time and saying to myself...My mom would be doing this or that. Its weird the things we remember. Im still missing your phone calls on the truck. No matter who calls me...ITS JUST NOT THE SAME....ITS NOT YOU TELLING ME, DID YOU EAT YET? ARE YOU BUSY? DON'T BE HOME LATE? BE CAREFUL...I can never explain how much I miss THOSE PHONE CALLS.......OK MA, SEE U IN AN HOUR FOR LUNCH....CIAO CIAO.....XOXO
June-04-13
Hi Ma

Sorry I didnt write to you on Monday but I was tired and busy. Always, yesterday durning the day Anna asked what I felt like eating tonight. Didn't I tell her Chilli. Well guess what so did Anna but she knows how fussy I am so she didnt say anything. She was so happy when I said that. So I told her you MUST BE CRAVING CHILLI. So of course when I got home after work Anna already chopped up the onions, unfroze the meat...has everything ready. When we were eating last night we talked about the chilli so all of a sudden Anna bursted out crying...of course me trying to act tough I said, Whats your problem? I knew exactly what is was. I tried not to cry ...I tried to be strong but I couldnt help myself. The TWO of us just sitting there EATING ALONE is beyond AWFUL....ITS TERRIBLE...ITS LONELY. We are so used to you talking, repeating yourself, and enjoying dinner with "US". So tonight its going to be tough. Between you and me I hope the chilli comes out terrible...if it comes out good we will "BOTH" be thinking how much you would be enjoying it with us. U loved chilli. Remember when I would surprise you and bring it home to you? You loved Wendys chilli. Your famous line....LET ME EAT EVERYTHING SO WHEN I DIE YOU...YOU KNOW I ENJOYED EVERYTHING AND YOU DIDNT STOP ME FROM EATING MY FAVORITES...I must admitt Anna treated you more with your favorites....ME AND JOE we were MORE TOUGH....we didnt give in like Anna did. Now I wish I would of. Just like dad before he died...he begged me to have pasta with anchovies and olive oil and I never did because once AGAIN I WAS ON A DIET....so I feel sooo guilty that I never had that with him. So now when I eat it I ALWAYS ALWAYS THINK OF DAD. Oh ma, I can't explain what YOUR DEATH has done...THE EMPTINESS IS AWFUL..today I tried on a hundred outfits and I went into your room to ask you how I looked. I always did that and you would say YES OR NO. So today I was answering for you. I really miss you ALOT MA...me and Anna are trying but "WHATEVER"..noone understands until they LOSE A MOM....A SPECIAL OUTSTANDING MOM LIKE YOU...we love you alot.....join us for chilli tonight...I have a feeling there is going to be ALOT OF TEARS TONIGHT...oh boy.....Today the weather is nice...sun is shinning...ok see you at lunch....ciao for now.....xoxoxoxo love you lots.....and miss you and dad more then you know.............xoxoxoox
June-01-13
I love you, and my heart is aching for you all.
May-31-13
Hey Ma,

THANK YOU...THANK YOU...THANK YOU.....I know it was you...I only played $2.00 poker ma and I won instantly $175.00...I got 4 of a kind....I know I know you don't understand that.... but dad will. I took after dad and aunt Rita for gambling..When things like that happen I know its you. Ok ma, I will talk to you Monday. Well I talk to you all the time I mean I will write to you Monday. LOVE YOU LOTS...AND WATCH OVER US....xoxo

p.s. how I wanted to call you when I won...because whenever I won I would always tell you and you would say...OH FRANCA THATS GOOD... you were always sooo happy for me when I would tell you when I won on lottery or at bingo. I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOO MUCH....noone will understand.....noone...
May-31-13
Hi Ma

The sun is shinning its a beautiful hot, humid day. Its been like this for a couple of days now. Im feeling aot better. This weekend Im on the truck. Me and Phil have alot of events on Saturday so Im going to be going crazy. I know you will be with me. OMG...I forgot to tell you....Mrs.Chancellor of Y & R passed away ma. She was 84 years old. It was very sad. The way everyone was talking about her reminded me of the way everyone was talking about you. It was sad. Ok everything is the same here ma. Nothing really new and exciting. Our hearts are still broken...we still dont believe your gone....and we miss you more and more everyday. Jonathan's stag is in July. The wedding is coming up. You were suppose to be here MA....that day the tears will be NON-STOP....just thinking about it Im crying. Its ok you and dad have FRONT ROW SEATS. You will be watching it all from UP ABOVE....I sooo want to believe that...Ok ma, I will see you at the usual time today for lunch. love you and Im always thinking about you and wishing you were here with us. :( another sad today for me.....thinking too much........xoxoxo
May-28-13
omg ma I cant believe.....I wrote coffin instead of coffee.... all the words to write...oh dear...anyways, it stopped raining but its still gloomy outside....still thinking about you.....ok ma, I wont see you at lunch...Im not coming home today. I will see you after work. Talk to you later......xoxo
May-28-13
Hi Ma

Sorry that I haven't written to you but today is one week since I had surgery. Today the weather is miserable and so am I. I don't feel that great and moreso I MISS YOU SO MUCH. So yesterday was a special day for ME AND ANNA. Its exciting and scarey at the sametime but I know I have you and dad watching over the both of us. I know your proud of us. But as much as you hate it ma..........looks like I will be on that truck till Phil quits the business. Hopefully he keeps it for a few more years. Yesterday was my first day back at work and of course YOUR SON text me in the morning to bring him coffin and bagel....NO WORRIES I BROUGHT FOR YOUR SON....he is doing alright ma, but you see how much he misses you. Especially when he gets into one of his moods where he doesnt talk or say much. When he is like that I KNOW HE IS MISSING YOU LOTS. Oh ya Joe gave me $20.00 yesterday for buying him a bagel and coffee....CAN U BELIEVE I TOOK IT...lol...lol...no worries I bought a lottery ticket and put both our names on it. YOU KNOW ME AND MY LOTTERY. Everyone is missing you so much. I know Anna is still lost. All this time on her hands she doesnt know what to do anymore. Just help me and Anna ma......watch over us and give us strength. THE HOUSE IS THE SAME BUT JUST SO QUIET AND LONELY WITHOUT YOU...today no sunshine so it makes me very sad and all I do is CRY...like I am now. LOVE YOU LOTS...MISS YOU AND DAD SOOOOO MUCH.....I still can't believe me, Anna and Joe HAVE NO PARENTS....I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE.....IT HURTS ALOT.......oh boy HAVING ONE OF THOSE DAYS AGAIN.............XOXOXOXOX
May-27-13
Hi Elisa today is a special day for your girls. Your girls, how you loved your girls and son and daughterinlaw and grandchildren and everyone. Please take care of them and send your blessings and love to them always and forever.
May-27-13
I love you all and miss all of you. Its a bad time right now I am reliving Gracie's last weeks, I would tell you Elisa, and we would both cry. Now I have no one to talk to no one to cry with. You always would say hopefully she is in a better place Elisa, and now the two of you are together. Not a day goes by without thoughts of you both. Mommy and Daddy Johnny we kind of knew sooner or later but you and Gracie should still be here. Loving you more each day smile even though your heart is aching.Omg how I miss you both.
May-23-13
Hey Ma,
It's been a while since I wrote in here. As you know I'm home this week because I'm not feeling so good. Anyways, today ma Joe your wonderful son...lol sent his friend Charlie here to fix my blind. Charlie talked a lot about you saying when u made him pasta and meatballs. He said u were a wonderful lady. We knew that already. I'm home alone and yes ma Anna is calling me off the hook. Lol its weird being home sick and u aren't here with me. U would be asking me every five minutes, Franca how do u feel? I miss that. It's so weird being here without you. U know me I still don't believe it. I have the windows open in the kitchen and living room. It's a nice breeze. The sun is shining but I'm missing you alot...i love u ma! Pls visit I'm still waiting...like dad would say, I'm waiting like a salami...lol miss u both. xoxoxo
May-22-13
I love you and miss all of you so very much.
May-15-13
Love you all! Miss all of you very much! Hugs and kisses have a goodnight in heaven. Please send blessings to your beautiful and loving family .
May-14-13
I miss you so so so much! The last few days have been so difficult that I can not even talk to the girls. Mothers Day was Sunday and tomorrow my 25th. Who would have thought that you and Gracie would not be here I crying .................I laugh......I see orange............I move things........around but the crazy thing is I went shopping and bought brussel sprouts I did not know why but I thought when I get home I will call and you will give me the receipt. Elisa, why why could you have not stayed alittle longer at least for Jonathan and Claudia"s wedding. Why, why why.............I love you so and believe when I say life will never ever be the same without you.You were a mother figure for me I can not believe how much we are alike. I looked at my feet and they are the same with one of them overlapping. LOL I love you I love you all. Gracie our baby please remember how much you are missed and loved. Mommy Daddy Johnny all of you. Smile even though our heart is aching.........................
May-14-13
Hey Ma,

Now Im laughing and crying...why? I told you I have been writing in this book but they never showed up. Now today THEY ALL SHOWED UP...Now I sound like you...IM REPEATING MYSELF...well I didnt think they were going to show up...what would you say? "OH WELL"...between me and you ma...THIS IS AUNTIE LIBBY....I know her. She is like you. She must of called and complained, something you would of done. lol...you and aunt Lib are sooo much alike. So aunt Lib "THANK YOU FOR CALLING" Ma, you know what I did today? Its Jodi's mom 80th birthday this Saturday so since I can't go to the party so I asked Jodi to let me buy the birthday cake. We fought about it....but I just had to do it. Jodi's mom is your twin and I know if you were here would say "Franca thats really nice". It made me feel really good too. Jodi's and her family are so wonderful and you loved them all alot too. So I bought it from all of us.....YOU, ANNA AND ME....its was always the three of "US"...something me and Anna miss soo much. Ok ma, did you say happy birthday to Dolores? Ok ma talk later....love you......and aunt Lib THANKS AGAIN....you don't have to tell me...but aunt I know it was you...UNLESS IT WAS YOU MA? Who knows...but it was one of you....or better still IT WAS THE BOTH OF YOU.....xoxoxo :(
May-14-13
Good Morning Ma,

Isn't this weird? I told you I wrote in your book 5 times and nothing showed up. Yesterday I write again and it showed up. Did you notice the date? May 13th. You hate that number so much. It was finally lucky. Anyways, today is "YOUR DOLORES'S BIRTHDAY". Oh ma, last night Anna made HOME MADE LASAGNA.....OMG..OMG...OMG...u would of just LOVED IT. We thought of you. We had a few tears thinking about how much you would of loved it. "YOUR SON CAME OVER" How nice was that? JUST LOVELY...LOL...of course he ate some too...he loved it. I brought Michelley a piece for lunch today. Ma we are always thinking about you...ALWAYS. I hope you can see us....I hope you are watching over us...I wish I could believe. Help me believe ma.....love you lots....The weather is so so today. I will see you at lunch today....we will watch our usually Golden Girls....xoxoxo
May-13-13
Hey Ma,

Ok something is going on...I have written to you about 5 times and NONE OF THEM HAVE SHOWED UP!!!!! Anyways, yesterday was MOTHER'S DAY. The weather was terrible...it was snowing. What would you say? Even the weather is feeling the lost. Ma, it was A TERRIBLE DAY...just terrible. It was ME AND ANNA....we came to the cemetery yesterday ...my first time since we buried you. Sorry ma, I just hate GOING...I feel more depressed coming there. After that me and Anna went to your favorite....Choice of the Orient. It was nice. It was just the TWO OF US....sooooo sad. Seeing other families with their mother OMG....I didnt call or wish ANYONE A HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. How could I? I ONLY HAVE ONE MOTHER....and you were enjoying the day with Frankie....Lately ma, its been lonely for me and Anna. Noone is coming around to visit. Not even Joe. Actually he came by yesterday but me and Anna were not home. So we missed him. I still don't believe this was your "DESTINO". Im still in shock...and this is just so hard to believe that you are not here. I miss your smile, your laugh and I especially miss "BE CAREFUL...DON'T BE HOME LATE......AND I LOVE YOU" I continue to say the samething.....THE VOID YOU LEFT IN OUR HEARTS I WILL NEVER EVER BE ABLE TO EXPLAIN...I ask you the samething all the time....pls come in my dreams....pls give us strength....ITS BEYOND HARD...I try to act so good infront of Anna and everyone.....but when Im alone....thats when I deal with it....remember I used to hate being home alone....now ma I like it...THATS WHEN I THINK OF EVERYTHING.....anyways, ma....today the sun is shining but its really cold. I guess yesterday you didnt want me on that truck....U MADE IT SNOW IN MAY...LOL...regardless I wasnt going....I DIDNT WANT ANNA TO BE ALONE....WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LOTS....MORE THAN YOU EVER EVER KNOW...xoxoxoxoxoxoo
May-12-13
Hi Ma,today is Mother's Day. The weather is awful and me and Anna are beyond sad and miserable. It's only the two of us today. We are coming to visit you then we are going to your favorite restaurant Choice Of the Orient. Joe and Dol invited us to go with them but we just wanna be left alone. Frankie must be happy he hasn't spent Mother's Day with you in a very long time. Ma I'm sorry but today I can't wish anyone a Happy Mothers Day...i had ONE MOTHER! I miss your smile your laugh and especially the I LOVE YOU, BE CAREFUL, AND DON'T BE HOME LATE! It's a very sad day. This wasn't your DESTINO...I'm forever asking WHY? help me and Anna today...the tears are flowing...i can't get out of bed...sooo sad....forever loving you...and missing you sooo much. This is the HARDEST HOLIDAY..xoxoxo watch over us ALL pls. Give me and Anna strength today...especially today...xoxo
May-10-13
Hey Ma,

Ok Im really upset now...I wrote in this book TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY AND THURSDAY and they never showed up!!! Im trying again it better show up. Today the weather is awful. Dark and rainy...its awful ma. Actually the WHOLE WEEKEND is going to be awful. You know why ma? ITS MOTHER'S DAY....and you SHOULD BE HERE...but you will be celebrating your FIRST MOTHER'S DAY WITH FRANKIE. To be truthfully ma I think this holiday is the hardest. Actually THIS IS SOOO HARD...Wednesday was 4 months since we saw your smile and heard your laugh. The saddest part is we dont get to hear, " BE CAREFUL....DON'T BE HOME LATE......AND I LOVE YOU"...I can't explain how that feels. On Sunday me and Anna are going to come and visit you and then we are going to your favorite restaurant...CHOICE OF THE ORIENT....just ME AND ANNA....its sad...but we have eachother. Sunday is going to be a MISERABLE DAY Im feeling it already. Lately noone has been around ma...its been ONLY ME AND ANNA having lunches and dinners together. Joe hasn't come by either. He must be busy. Ma, me and Anna miss you so much. That house is QUIET AND LONELY...anyways ma I hope you get this note...if not Im giving up on writing in this book. I LOVE YOU LOTS....

p.s. THIS WASN'T YOUR DESTINO......you should be home RIGHT NOW WITH ME AND ANNA....Anna needs someone to call durning the day...and I need your phones calls when Im on the truck....WE NEED SOOO MUCH.....WE LOVE U MA....WE LOVE YOU SOOOO SOOOO MUCH.....another bad day ma....actually THIS IS GOING TO BE A BAD WEEKEND.....our hearts are FOREVER BROKEN....they are UN-REPAIRABLE....
P.S. WE HAD ONE MOTHER....THE BEST.... AND SHE IS GONE....SO ON MOTHER'S DAY
THIS YEAR....I HAVE NOONE TO SAY "HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TOO"....:(
May-09-13
Hi Ma,

Im getting very upset here...I wrote in the book Tuesday and Wednesday and nothing showed up...This is making me really upset. Anyways, yesterday was 4 months since we last saw you.....I miss your SMILE....I miss your stories...I miss you sooo much at lunch and dinner...and I especailly miss....I LOVE YOU....BE CAREFUL...AND DON'T BE HOME LATE. Today is a rainy day....so you now what that means? Its not a good day for me. I hate when it rains. I want it sunny. This Sunday ma is MOTHERS DAY. Anna and me are not looking forward to this day. This is going to be a hard one...I think one of the worst. Now you are spending it with Frankie....I guess he needed you. Im still angry ma. I still don't believe that this was your "DESTINO". You were coming home...you were sooo happy...we still had to have OUR CHRISTMAS DINNER..we still had so much to do. Its beyond sad. Its been very lonely for me and Anna. Noone has come around lately. Not even Joe. Don't worry ma I see him here at work and he is fine...I guess busy. I guess him coming to the house without you there really hurts. Like I said before Joe doesn't talk much. Doesn't say much. But between me and you...YOU SON IS GOING CRAZY WITHOUT YOU IN HIS OWN WAY. He keeps everything in. Ma, Im warning you NOW...listen and listen carefully....on Mother's Day DON'T except me to say "HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ANYONE"....I HAVE ONE MOTHER...THAT WAS YOU AND ONLY YOU....so whether everyone understands or not...SUNDAY IS GOING TO BE A BAD BAD DAY FOR US so IM NOT SAYING IT TO ANYONE...NOONE...Ma, stop it...I could hear you know, "Franca be nice and call everyone..." NOT HAPPENING...this is ME....your gone AND I WANT TO IGNORE THE WHOLE DAY...Im worried about Anna that day so if the weather isnt good I will stay home with her...WE HAVE NO PLANS...and seriously I DON'T THINK WE WANT ANY PLANS..Dolores invited us...but I answered for me and Anna and said no...that was the only invitation. We will have lunch on Sunday together. Maybe the two of us will go out for your favorite... Choice of the Orient. Ok ma see you tonight...not coming home for lunch today. REMEMBER HOW MUCH YOU ARE MISSED.....AND WE LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW.......IT'S STILL VERY VERY VERY HARD FOR ME AND ANNA....ESPECIALLY IN THAT HOUSE....TOO MANY MEMORIES.....GOOD MEMORIES AND SAD MEMORIES....OH DEAR...HAVING ONE OF THOSE DAYS MA....
p.s. Joe wanted muffin and coffee this morning...but you know me...running behind schedule so I will get it for him tomorrow...He told me he was going to tell you that I never brought him breakfast....what's my famous saying? YA...YA....WHATEVER.....lol....xoxoxoxoo
May-08-13
Good Morning Ma,

As much as I love this book it drives me nuts. Yesterday I wrote in it and ONCE AGAIN IT NEVER SHOWED UP. Sometimes it shows up within a couple of hours and sometimes not at all. Anyways, I will TRY AGAIN.. So today is 4 months since you left us. I can't believe I havent seen your smile, or heard your laugh. I MISS THE I LOVE YOU...BE CAREFUL...AND DON'T BE HOME LATE. Im going to tell you something so don't get upset. Sunday is MOTHER'S DAY. A day Im not looking forward too. I will be on truck and I think Anna will probably just chill ALONE. Heads up ma...I HAVE ONE MOTHER....AND ONE MOTHER ONLY..now your with Frankie...your first Mother's Day with him. On Sunday Im not saying Happy Mother's Day TO NOONE...Im not in the mood. I could hear you now, Franca be nice...No ma, people should understand...."WE" lost "OUR MOM" so Im just not in the mood. Its been lonely for me and Anna lately. Joe hasn't been around in a while. Actually noone has come by lately. Dinners are so quiet...we miss you so much. I still don't believe this was "YOUR DESTINO"...Im still very upset....angry...how could someone be SO FINE...YOUR WERE COMING HOME...Im stunned....confused....and I simply don't understand. Not sure I will ever understand. This weekend is going to be VERY HARD....VERY VERY HARD. Please give me and Anna the strength to get threw it. Actually Sunday is suppose to rain so I just might not go on the truck. I will see. But staying home will only be worse for me. So maybe I will go on the truck. Anyways, Ma...Im always thinking of you...ALWAYS....We have lunch together everyday. I eat in the livingroom. I pretend your laying in your bed. We watch the Golden Girls together. You liked that show. Anyways, I will be home at lunch at the usually time...see you then....I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH.......xoxoxoxoxoxo
May-07-13
Hi Ma,

Another beautiful day. I cant believe tomorrow is ALREADY 4 MONTHS since we last saw you.....heard your voice......your laugh......and you saying...BE CAREFUL...I LOVE YOU....four months already...I cant explain what Im feeling today. Sunday is Mother's Day...BIG DEAL..no need to celebrate BECAUSE I ONLY HAD "ONE MOTHER" and for some crazy reason GOD WANTED YOU UP THERE...for me to say Happy Mother's Day to others really ma...I cant. It won't mean anything. I would be saying it to say it. I have decided this YEAR IM SAYING IT TO "NOONE" just not IN THE MOOD. I know you would say, Franca be nice and say it. Then you would say, Franca you know what YOU HAVE A MIND OF YOUR OWN...thats right MA....Mark my words THIS YEAR Im not saying it to NOONE...actually they should all understand anyways. "OUR" MOTHER IS GONE..gone to be with our dad, our brother, her parents and sister...it wasnt your DESTINO....I believe that so much. YOU WERE COMING HOME...something I just can't get out of my mind. Me and Anna are trying our best but DINNERS ARE NOT THE SAME....actually NOTHING IS THE SAME....NOTHING....NOTHING......Im in a mood today ma....I just don't UNDERSTAND....Im angry...so angry....hate our quiet dinners...hate our quiet house....Joe hasn't been around in a long time. Actually noone has been around...its me and Anna....thats it....SOOOOO LONELY.....MA, WE MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH ME AND ANNA.....SOOOOOO SOOOO MUCH.......today is ONE OF THOSE DAYS....oh dear....PLS PLS GIVE ME STRENGTH...PLS...see u at lunch today.....xoxooxoxoxoo miss you....and love you more than you will ever ever know...xoxoxoxooxoxoxo
May-04-13
Hi Elisa its all good, your girls are the best!!!!!!Love all of you and missing you all. I love this book I feel so close to you.......its as though you are with us and you are with your spirt. Love.............
May-03-13
Hello mother dear,

The weather is nice again..yippee...So my season has started. Its a late start but better than nothing...everything is the same..well thats a lie..its not the same...YOUR NOT HERE AND WE ARE MISSING YOU SO MUCH. Anna is off today because she had to go to her perfume sale....you know her. Mother, "YOUR SON" I didnt say anything but he cut his hair...oh dear...you would say its NICE...BECAUSE TO YOU JOEY ALWAYS LOOKED HANDSOME...what would you say? Even if he was dressed like a bum he would look HANDSOME.......lol....well mother its short....not short short but you would consider it short. No worries his hair is like yours grows soooo fast. Nothing else is really new....wink, wink...I know you can see us....so you know where we are going today....I know I know its Friday and you hate Fridays but until it happens it will be a few more days after today. No worries WE ALREADY KNOW NOT ON A FRIDAY....you engraved that in us. We dont wear anything new or do anything special on a Friday and especially on the number 13 too. See we listen well...a little nervous about today but ITS ALL GOOD RIGHT MA? Daddy must be happy too for us...its all good. Ok ma the weather is going to be really nice this weekend so I will be busy at James Garden so I will talk to you before going to bed on the weekend and I will write to you on Monday.....LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH MOTHER.....CONTINUE TO WATCH OVER US.....DADDY WHAT HAPPENED TO THE DEAL WE MADE? HELLO .......CHOP CHOP....MISS YOU BOTH SOOO MUCH......xoxoxoxoxoxoxoo
May-02-13
Hi Elisa, what do I say to you today, I miss you so much that I never thought for a moment it would hurt this much. My name day ..............first Daddy gone then Mommy, then Gracie and now you . You were always my ROCK and will always be. The first call came from Anna, then Franca, Joey and Tanya.........It really doesnt matter anymore life will never be the same but there is something that will never never change and that is the love and respect I have for you and all above. Loving you more each day and smiling even though MY HEART IS ACHING.
May-02-13
Good Morning Ma

Another beautiful day. Ma, last night I had such a beautiful night. Jodi invited me over here place for dinner. I was really nervous about going because remember Jodi's mom IS EXACTLY LIKE YOU...I always said you and her were sisters separated at birth. When I saw her last night....WE HUGGED AND CRIED...I felt YOU SO MUCH. Jodi ordered Swiss Charlet YOUR FAVORITE. Allen her brother was there, her sister Randy...and guess what ma, Jodi has A WONDERFUL JEWISH BOYFRIEND. Her mom is so happy and Jodi is over the moon. Oh, before you ask.....NO...JODI ISNT BLONDE...we thought about that and laughed...We cried and laughed last night. It was a beautiful night...seeing Jodi's mother cheered me up sooo much. SHE IS YOU. We thought about that time we all went to Swiss Charlet and you and Jodi's mom couldn't stop talking....I NEEDED THAT YESTERDAY. I will going again soon. Its so funny ma Jodi and her boyfriend are more ITALIAN THEN ME...you would never know either one is Jewish. Anyways, this morning the sun was already shinning in your kitchen it was wonderful..so once again I will see you at lunch today...CONTINUE TO SHINE......I LOVE YOU LOTS.....although you haven't come in my dreams I KNOW FORESURE LAST NIGHT YOU WERE AT JODI'S HOUSE..WHAT A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT....THANKS MA....XOXOXOO
May-01-13
Hi Ma,

Today the sun is shinning and its just a beautiful day.....Im loving it. Anyways ma today is Aunt Lib's name day so somehow today you will have to let her know your thinking about her. Im sure its going to be a tough day for her because you would of called her to tell her HAPPY NAME'S DAY...and you would of told her YOU LOVE HER....well atleast aunt Lib knows you loved her alot. You both have alot of memories together. You really left a HUGE VOID IN HER HEART LIKE YOU DID TO US TOO....anyways I will see you at lunch today. Your kitchen is probably all full of sun....No headache today ma....Im shocked at that. Me and Anna have ALOT GOING ON RIGHT NOW.....we need your help to STEER US IN THE RIGHT DIRECTIONS.....give us a hint or something that you are proud of what we are getting involved in....re-assure us THAT WE WILL BE OK.....we always looked for your advice....so pls say or do something.....We both already think THIS IS A SIGN FROM YOU....so it makes us HAPPY.....the only thing....looks like I will be on that truck a very long time....oh dear...HAPPY THOUGHTS....WE ALL MISS YOU ALOT AND THINK OF YOU ALOT.......TONS AND TONS OF HUGS AND KISSES TO ALL OF YOU......XOXOXOXO
April-30-13
Another gloomy day today. I really hate these kind of days. I was early today ma and of course I brought "JOEY" coffee and muffin...I know I know....thats so nice. ITS GREAT HAVING A BROTHER......right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ma, another holiday is coming up and to tell you the truth THIS IS GOING TO BE A REALLY TOUGH ONE.....MOTHER'S DAY...Just the thought of it makes me cry my eyes out. This is the first Mother's Day that Frankie has you....Ma, you are missed soooooo much....OUR HEARTS ARE ACHING.....ITS STILL VERY FRESH AND UNBELIEVABLE. Sometimes I just think this is a BAD DREAM....you were coming HOME....you were HAPPY.....WHY????? WHY??? I continue to ask this question and I will ALWAYS ask until I UNDERSTAND WHY?
The sun is suppose to come out today. I hope by the time I get home for lunch YOUR KITCHEN IS FULL OF SUN...see you at the usual time around 1:05pm....we will have our chat....love you lots.......
April-29-13
love you..........love you all...........miss you all.
April-28-13
Hey Ma,
I was on the truck today. The sun was shining it was just a beautiful day. But mother dear it was a real hard day for me. I was playing brisk on my cell phone but I found my mind wondering constantly. Your first call to me you would of said Franca, Anna just made me a LOVELY lunch I'm stuffed! Of course I answer that's nice ma, but I'm busy...you would then say ok tata.Then your next call would be, "Franca are u Busy?" No ma! Ok then Franca just come home. Ma, I can't!! Ok..
Bye Franca! Your finally call u would say, "Franca I'm in bod so don't be home late...be careful and I LOVE YOU! Then my answer,ya..ya...ma don't worry...I love you too...nite nite. Ma, I balled my eyes out on the truck thinking about our truck conversations. I felt alone and lost. I kept asking WHY? I know we are all here on borrowed time but I just wasn't ready for YOU TO LEAVE. My HEART WAS REALLY ACHING TODAY! Tomorrow I'm on the truck again so please give me strength....come in my dreams tonight PLEASE? Ma, God always knows how I MISS YOU AND HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU....MY TEARS ARE FLOWING NON-STOP TODAY..
CIAO FOR NOW..TI AMO SEMPRE....XOXO
April-27-13
Hi Elisa , we just came home from Joe and Dolores, we had a nice evening. Talking laughing and feeling the void in our hearts regarding you. I made a mistake with the word here in my previous note, I do not mean hear. Oh well hahah as you would say. I will say this again and again, what a beautiful and loving family you have. Joe is sooooo handsome and Dolores sooooo beautiful, your kids are wonderful and hold a very special place in my heart. I also took Anna out today, we had a beautiful day, you must have been smiling. She did not drive and I did all the driving even thought at times I caused her stress but she survived.......and at times we laughed and cried. You are truly missed and will always be missed. Please send your blessings, love and the colour orange where ever we are. Loving you and all of you upstairs. Hugs, love, kisses TO ALL.FRANCA MUST HAVE HAD A GOOD DAY SHE WAS ON THE TRUCK TODAY AND IM SURE WILL BE TOMORROW. IM GOING TO SEND HER A TEXT TO BE CAREFUL AND TO BE SAFE AND TO NOT COME HOME LATE. BY THE WAY ANNA SAID I DO THINGS THAT REMIND HER OF YOU.................MY DIRTY EYE GLASSES , THE WAY I EAT AND SOME OTHER THINGS..............I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPRESS .
April-26-13
Elisa what would we do without Franca, I look at this book everyday! I feel very close to you reading and writing, I feel your present in the room I hear your voice I see your smile, your smile..........your voice.........your laugh........and when you would say something funny or stupid you would answer OH WELL! Sometimes I do not believe you are hear, sometimes I find myself wanted to pick up the phone and saying HI Elisa, how are you? You would always answer fine! If I was having a bad day, you would always have a word of encouragement and then say oh well what are you going to do and laugh, oh that laugh, and then say TA TA and always I love you!!!!! Loving you more each day and always in my thoughts always always always! Send your blessings to the kids, and up there, give our love to all. Special hugs and kisses to Gracie ............Have a goodnight.
April-26-13
Hi Ma,

The sun is shining for the second day in a row... I LOVE IT....also for the second day in a row NO HEADACHE...thank God. Anyways, this morning I had a TALK WITH YOUR SON MOTHER DEAR....he has not CALLED OR COME BY.....NOT LIKE HIM....LOL...its ok he is busy. This weekend is going to be really nice so I will be on the truck THANK GOD...just watch over me ma...I know you will. Im sooo happy this morning...when I see the sun I cant explain how happy it makes me...Cant wait to go home for lunch. I know foresure you will be sitting at your kitchen table taking in all the sun and probably re-arranging something or changing your placemats....OH DEAR....anyways, continue to watch over us ok....WE ALL SEND OUR LOVE.....YOUR FAMILY, YOUR SISTERS, YOUR GRANDCHILDREN AND NIECES AND NEPHEWS....WE MISS YOU BEYOND WORDS CAND SAY MOTHER DEAR....XOXOXOXOO
April-25-13
Ma,

I was just thinking. When you were alive Anna used to call you a MILLION times durning the day. It used to drive me nuts when I was home sick. Now Anna has noone TO CALL and she MISSES IT SOOO MUCH. Then there was me...what would you say? "Franca only calls me when she is going to the ZOO after work and not coming home for dinner..." You knew me sooo well and THATS WHAT I MISS THE MOST...Noone KNEW ME LIKE YOU MA....Now things have switched....For Anna to write in this book IS HARD FOR HER....so thats where I come in...I write for the BOTH US..see ma if you recall whenever you and dad were in the hospital really sick...Anna always made me ask the questions and always got me to check on you guys...I WAS GOOD FOR THAT....you know my BIG MOUTH...Lol...The minute you or dad were out of danger Anna was fine...she was there 24/7 watching over you or dad. She was GREAT....I have told you already Im sooo grateful to aunt Lib for this book...I never thought to extend it for a year. It helps sooo much. Today is a good day...the sun is shining. I have no headache. First time in a long time ma....So dear we will continue our talk at lunch...Im coming home soon....WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALOT...you, my wonderful mother, are always on my mind.....xoxoxo....How I miss you always telling Anna, "Franca gets an A++"....you always said...when I did something I always did it GREAT...didnt happen alot but when I did I always GOT AN A++ FROM YOU.......how I miss MY A++......xoxoxoxo
April-24-13
Hey Ma,

Today is another rainy and chilly day. I just wanted to drop a line and say hello. How is everything? You still havent come to see me AND THATS NOT LIKE YOU. When I used to go away you would always say how much you missed me and how quiet the house was without me. See so you must REALLY KNOW HOW ME AND ANNA FEEL? The house without you.............OMG...beyond quiet. I come home and NOTHING IS CHANGED...Atleast when you were home you would move things around all the time and then the best part you would ask me, "Franca do you like it?" I would say yes and you would say "I KNOW" Then I would say ma tomorrow you will change it...you would answer "NO FRANCA IM LEAVING IT LIKE THIS...YOU LIKE IT...IM KEEPING IT...." and sure enough ma in a couple of days YOU CHANGED IT.....I MISS THAT SOOO MUCH...I used to complain but NOW I WISH I COULD TURN BACK TIME....the house is the way u left it...You left that house Dec.13-2012 and WHO THOUGHT YOU WOULDN'T COME BACK??????? Not in a MILLION YEARS I would of thought that. YOU ARE MISSED.....TRULY MISSED...for EVERYTHING...your smile, your laugh, AND ESPECIALLY YOUR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.......I pray to you all the time....MISSY YOU NOT LISTENING VERY WELL....maybe you MISS US SOOO MUCH YOUR NOT READY TO VISIT...its OK....I will wait.....ANYWAYS MA LOVE YOU LOTS AND MISS YOU MORE EVERYDAY....IT STILL HURTS....XOXOXO
April-23-13
I sit here,and I can not believe that you are not with us. Why why why I keep asking why did you have to leave us too. I miss you so much..........why did you have to go why. Love you and make sure you send your blessings from above. I love you and all of you upstairs.Hugs and kisses to you all.
April-23-13
Miss you love you ..................and alot more. I do hope you are all celebrating together.
April-23-13
Ma,

I went home again for lunch. The kitchen has sun but not alot. I had lunch in the livingroom watching tv and of course I kept looking at your "BOD". I know Anna finds that bed comforting because she tends to take naps on it all the time. I guess she feels closer to you. I just wish we could get rid of it. I think it would help. Anyways at lunch we talked about my trip...you already knew about my trip I told you the Sunday...when u were fine, laughing and you were excited about coming home. We also talked about Anna and Joe. Funny how they are so much alike. Joe really doesnt talk much to us about you....I guess he thinks it will upset us. Anna says things about you...but not much to me either. I think they should be like me...I know THATS REALLY FUNNY. I mean they should write in this book...me writing in this book helps me. I like to keep you updated and I like remembering things about you. I have happy and sad times with you. The saddest and worse time was when you DIED. I just dont understand. Not sure if I will ever understand why you DIED. In my eyes on the Sunday YOU WERE BEYOND HAPPY. REALLY HAPPY. So this is a SHOCK...for all of us. Anyways, please come and visit your kids at night in our dreams. Help us UNDERSTAND. I feel like you and Anna ALWAYS REPEATING MYSELF. Ok mother I will talk to you tomorrow...always thinking about you and wondering WHAT YOU AND EVERYONE ARE REALLY DOING. ALSO IS THERE REALLY LIFE AFTER DEATH....I really want to BELIEVE PLEASE HELP ME.......love you lots......love to all...xxoxooxoxo
p.s. daddy....me, you, me, you, me, you....can't wait to play again AND OF COURSE I WILL WIN....LOL....you and nonno are probably cheating with eachother....xoxoxo
April-23-13
Hi Ma,

DING DONG here forgot something. I forgot to mention Frankie's name yesterday. Oh dear. Anna told me this morning. Sorry Frankie...anyways, did you ALL have a nice party? I hope so. Another beautiful day today ma. Ma, looks like my season finally started....I will be on the truck ALL WEEKEND LONG. Keeps me out of trouble and helps me save. I have alot going on this year. Jonathan's wedding and ma for Vinnys 50th birthday she wants to go on a cruise. We are going to Italy, Spain and France. You know me ma I love my SHIPS...yes, I could hear you now, "Franca aren't you scared? In the night when you look out its all black?" MA, I LOVE LOVE IT...yes, I know IM JUST LIKE DAD...Mother dear I need a little help Anna IS LOST...she has ALL THIS FREE TIME she has no idea what to do..so of course she is always cooking and Im gaining weight. Im getting very nervous. NOW IM EATING FOR YOU AND DAD.....OH DIO MIO....Ma, Anna is still rushing around. I guess its hard for her because she was so used to doing that. WE all try and tell her no NEED TO RUSH ANYMORE...its SAD...BEYOND SAD..so ma HELP HER UNDERSTAND TO TAKE IT EASY...she is ALL I HAVE....well you know what I mean. I have others but ANNA IS ANNA...I keep thinking when nonna died and then a few years later auntie gracie died...Im soooooooooooo scared that will happen. So please tell ANNA TO RELAX...TAKE IT EASY....if there is a way you can show us ANYTHING Im telling you THAT WOULD HELP. It would take away the question WHY?????????? WHY????????? Ok ma, continue to watch over US...we need strength to help us get through this...pls give extra STRENGTH TO ANNA...I LOVE YOU LOTS....XOXOXO...
April-22-13
Good Morning Ma,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY....so ma are you making daddy some homemade pasta today? Its his birthday and that was his favorite. Actually daddy had so many favorites. So MISSY I was on the truck yesterday...I WAS FROZEN. Couldnt feel my feet or hands. But overall the day was ok. Today the sun is shining. I guess its shining because you are ALL UP THERE CELEBRATING DADS BIRTHDAY. Truthfully I really wished I believed in that. Maybe if you would give me a hint or something I would believe. Everyone tells me to believe but I guess I find it sooo hard because I can't believe YOU ARE BOTH GONE....So today Anna took the day off and had a mass for daddy then of course she is going to the cemetary. Oh ya, mother dear, how could I forget to tell you....on Friday Joe (YOUR WONDERFUL, HANDSOME SON) used my car and guess what ma? HE WASHED IT AND FILLED UP MY TANK....I know..I know....I could just hear you..."SEE FRANCA ITS SO NICE TO HAVE A BROTHER"...then on Sunday he came over again he had to fix the door locks...NOW EVERYTHING IS BELLE, BELLE...Your "SON" "JOEY"..how he misses YOUR phone calls to him. Ma, Joe has been really good. Always checking up on US....ALWAYS...yes, and he still calls ON THE HOUSE LINE...oh well...I will talk to you later....so YOU, AUNTIE GRACIE, NONNO AND NONNA ENJOY DADS BIRTHDAY....I LOVE YOU ALL....my tears are still flowing....ITS SOOO HARD.....xoxoxoo
April-19-13
I love you,and you must be smiling!!!!Franca notes are so meaningful and words close to the heart. Your kids are Unbelievable!Full of Love!Affection, and most of all respectable!!!!! You are one of a kind you are the Queen of Hearts ...........and so much more! Be sure you guide everyone with your love...................loving you and smiling even though your heart is breaking.
April-19-13
Good Morning Ma,

This is the FOURTH time Im trying to write in your book. They are NEVER showing up. Today is another day to stay in "BOD". Its gloomy again. Ma last night I was thinking about you and Dad alot and thinking about everything Im missing. With DAD I miss playing OUR FAVORITE CARD GAME and watching OUR FAVORITE TV SHOWS while playing cards. I miss having OUR SNACKS...our bread with olive oil and all the fruit we used to eat. I miss daddy getting upset when I would ALWAYS WIN CARDS...He always said to me I PLAY LIKE A MAN...Lol...Ma, you never liked cards but what I miss about you is ALWAYS moving or changing things in the house. Especially in your KITCHEN OR BEDROOM. I miss you asking me when I would come home at lunch to go downstairs and get YOUR PLACEMATS....either your brown, green, yellow AND YOUR FAVORITE ORANGE...you would love changing things. Especially when you received flowers you would always re-arrange them. You always did a great job. I would of NEVER THOUGHT AT THE AGE OF 48 THAT I WOULD HAVE NO PARENTS...I cant beleive me, Anna and Joe DONT HAVE PARENTS...Our lives will never be the same. There is such an EMPTINESS that NOONE CAN REPLACE when you LOSE YOUR PARENTS...We will ALWAYS FEEL THAT "VOID" and believe me its AWFUL...the only thing that keeps me going IS ALL THE WONDERFUL, FANTASTIC MEMORIES I HAVE OF THE BOTH OF YOU. I truly had WONDERFUL PARENTS. You and your dad believed in "DESTINO" but mother dear I truly believe this wasn't your "DESTINO" you were too happy about coming home, seeing your beautiful kitchen and sleeping in your "BOD"..why did God change his mind???????? I really dont know but I sure do keep asking WHY? Tomorrow ma is Saturday and the weather is awful so ONCE AGAIN MISSY I WONT BE ON THE TRUCK...but Sunday is going to be SUNNY not that warm but MISSY IM GOING ON THE TRUCK...I will miss my calls when Im on the truck from you. You would always check up on me to make sure I was ok and especially asking me "DID YOU EAT"? Ma, really does it look like Im starving????? lol....if you only knew everything I miss and everything I think about...I think deep down Im going CRAZY....These gloomy days ALWAYS MAKE ME MISERABLE...All I want to do IS CRY....see when I see the SUN...I always think of you in the kitchen and it makes me sooo happy....Oh how I wish you would come and visit....I seriously need to see you.....ok we will talk later....lets see if this one shows up.....xoxoxooxo LOVE YOU BOTH SOOO MUCH AND MISS YOU BOTH SOOO MUCH.....
April-18-13
Hey Ma,

Im really upset....this is the THIRD TIME WRITING I hope this one shows up. Anyways, I was thinking of my WHOLE FAMILY IN HEAVEN...YOU, DAD, MY BROTHER FRANKIE, NONNI and AUNT GRACIE..I miss everyone. Life without YOU AND DAD WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. The feeling deep inside my heart ACHES...the loneliness of missing you both is so awful....I love and miss you both so much.......

p.s. ma the sun is shinning today....you are all over the kitchen. I came home at lunch to talk to you....ciao for now....hopefully this one shows up....I will talk again tomorrow morning...watch over all of us.....xoxoxo
April-17-13
Thinking of you with love and affection, miss you and everyone so much..................I hope and pray you are all together looking after us all. All of you are our special ANGELS and I love you so...............................
April-16-13
Always with me from the day I wake to when I close my eyes. OH how I miss you...............the void in my heart feels horrible, thank God I have your kids to say Goodnight and I love you it is an extension of you my beautiful and loving sister. .....................Hugs love and kisses to you all.
April-15-13
Hey Ma,

Today I went home for lunch. I go home everyday and its the samething. I walk in and look at your chair expecting to see you sitting there and saying, "HI FRANCA"....then I go into the livingroom and look at your bed....once again expecting to see you napping or watching tv and once again saying, HI FRANCA....I JUST LAID DOWN RIGHT NOW"...and I would answer you saying..."Ya, sure ma....u should be walking...moving your legs"...then I hear you say, "Franca, if it was that easy? You dont know the pain Im in...I have these conversations every lunch time. Ma, Im like you...I always talk to myself.lol. I always have conversations...I ask you a question then the best part I answer....JUST THE WAY YOU WOULD ANSWER ME...maybe Im going crazy in my old age....lol...Oh dear ma...did you see yesterday I went to the "ZOO". Did you see even at the "ZOO" I was talking about you. Actually we were all talking about you. I talk to my friends alot about you...its easier....I can cry and yell with them. I cant do it will Anna or aunt Lib because I have to LOOK TOUGH and be STRONG FOR THE TWO OF THEM....ma, I THANK AUNT LIB soooo much for keeping this book alive for ONE FULL YEAR...this is where I escape...talking to you helps me....aunt Lib thanks sooo much.....xoxoxo....I almost forgot to tell you...your kitchen looked sooo nice this afternoon full of sun. Ma, you should see your plants...AMAZING....Ok mother I just had to write again....Im thinking of you always and missing you beyond words can say....Ma, TI AMO SEMPRE.......xoxoxoxoxoxo pls come and visit...pls....
April-15-13
Good Morning Ma,

Ma, I have no idea whats going on but I wrote you another note Friday morning and of course it NEVER SHOWED UP. Not sure why? Anyways, another weekend has come and gone. Saturday ma was another awful day, rainy and gloomy. I could just of heard you...you would of said, "today Im staying in my BOD"...(BED) To tell you the truth ma, Saturday was one of those days. So mother dear another weekend not on the truck...you MISSY must be VERY HAPPY...Oh ya ma I almost forgot to tell you....Saturday night I went out for dinner with Vinny, Lina,and Tibor. Ma, once I got my order can you believe on my plate they put the HEAD OF A WHITE DAISY....the presentation was beautiful but when I saw that THE TEARS CAME DOWN. They were happy tears because to me that meant u were there enjoying the meal with me. I was sooo happy to see that daisy. I actually took it with me and its on my dashboard in my car. Its still VERY HARD dealing with your death. Its awful ma. Yesterday Joe came over and he put those special locks on the doors. I feel better now when Im home alone. Ma, Anna last week really didnt have a good week...while we would be eating she would just burst into tears thinking of you....of course ma I try and be the tough one and say eveything is going to be ok....But deep down ma if you really only UNDERSTOOD what your DEATH has done to EVERYONE....Anna who's life revolved around you....NOW....she has ALL THIS EXTRA TIME and SHE IS LOST....everyone tries to help her but you know Anna...then there is Joe...he is funny...very hard to understand him. Doesnt talk much at all but YOU JUST KNOW HE IS MISSING YOU BEYOND WORDS. Although Joe used to tell you to stop saying he was good looking....or you loved his hair...or he was soooo handsome HE MISSES YOUR PHONECALLS...AND HE MISSES YOU SOOO MUCH. Like me, your were the only one that really understood me and joe. Ok ma today is a nicer day...the sun is shining. I love you and miss you sooo much.....xoxoxoxoo
April-10-13
Hi Elisa, she is one of a kind! When she doesn't write to you I miss it.Franca is Franca, and I do keep in touch with them, sometimes I swear I think you guide me. Your circle is full of love and tears. Forever in our hearts with hugs and kisses to you all, I love you.....................and love you more.
April-10-13
Hi Ma,

Ma, did you see this morning I was late for work. My alaram never went off for some reason. I never jumped out of bed so fast and got ready so fast. I kept thinking of you because when u didnt see me up you would always say, "FRANCA, FRANCA, GET UP...YOUR GOING TO BE LATE"...how would I answer? YA..YA...MA...DONT WORRY....I really needed you this morning. Today is another awful day..its rainy and miserable. Its suppose to be like this all week so guess what that means MA? I won't be on the truck this weekend....YES, MISSY I KNOW YOUR HAPPY ABOUT THAT...LOL.....I think Anna will be too. Anyways, continue watching over us...always remember you are missed by me, Anna and Joe soooooooooooooo much....we are always thinking of you 24/7...actually mother there is ALOT of people that MISS YOU SOOO MUCH STILL....especially YOUR ENTIRE FAMILY....and your grandchildren....Jonathan said the other day he misses your phone calls...and Michelley misses you repeating the same stories....WE ALL TALK ABOUT YOU....HOW COULD WE NOT TALK ABOUT THE BEST MOM IN THE WORLD??????? NOW YOUR THE BEST MOM HEAVEN.......remember GOD ONLY TAKES THE BEST.......I just think God should of given US more time...I wanted you here sooo much for Jonathan's and Claudia's wedding...WE ALL DID....there will be ALOT OF TEARS THAT DAY.....ALOT....just thinking of it Im crying.....oh dear I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH.......love you LOTS MA.....xoxoxo
April-08-13
Good Morning Ma,

I can't believe its been 3 MONTHS TODAY that I heard you every morning say to me, "Franca, have a nice day, be careful and I LOVE YOU".....ma, I can't explain how I'm feeling..."MISERABLE" is a good word..I MISS YOU SOO MUCH.. Yesterday, was ONE OF THOSE DAYS....me and Anna both stayed home. The house is AWFUL....beyond quiet...beyond lonely...I have no words. How I wish we could leave that house. Yesterday me and Anna ate lunch ALONE...its awful...U must of known we were having a bad day because later Sandro, Michelley, Elle, Dolores, Michelley and Luca came by. It was better UNTIL THEY LEFT AGAIN. Oh ma, that Elle she is beyond beautiful...she cheered up the house for us it was nice. Joe hasnt been by lately...he has been busy but he still CALLS HIS SISTERS to check up on us. Yes, ma, ITS WONDERFUL HAVING A BROTHER....lol....You always wished you had one. Did you see how long Joe's hair is getting? I know...I know...he looks sooooo nice....he's sooooo handsome...WHATEVER...lol..I hope your doing good. I hope everything is ok. You are yet to come and visit me in my dreams. I pray to you every SINGLE NIGHT....and during the day Im always thinking of you. I guess your getting your wish...you know how much u hate me on the truck well MISSY Im yet to start the truck. Actually I did a test last Saturday. The weather has been cold. Ikeep thinking its you because YOU ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT ME ON THE TRUCK AND YOU HATED ME DOING IT SOOO MUCH. But mother I need to work it...atleast one more year then lets see what happens. I know this year you will be will me ALL THE TIME WHEN IM ON IT...I will be SAFE....anyways my dear mother today is a terrible day.....I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MORE THAN U WILL EVER EVER EVER KNOW.....xoxoxooxoxo
April-07-13
Hi Elisa, had dinner last night with Anna and Oscar, it was so very nice. You are always with us no matter what we are doing !The other night when the kids were all together they really felt your that you were there. Loving you and missing you, at times it still feels like a bad dream.........................
April-05-13
Thankyou, for being there last night for dinner." Smile even though your heart is breaking smile even though your heart is aching"........................I love you more than words can express and miss you so much....................
March-31-13
Love you miss you! What a huge empty feeling. Love to you all, today tomorrow and forever.
March-31-13
thinking of you on this easter sunday and how much you are missed by your family at this time of year one of many firsts for all of them, especially your beautiful daughters. send a little hug to them as we wrap our memories around you. xoxoxo
March-30-13
I forgot to mention I went out with Joey for lunch the other day, he came to the dentist. Elisa what a beautiful and loving family you have. You must be smiling from up above. Oh my God how I miss you so. The first holiday without you, I would have called and asked how do I make the fish the way you do. I made the fish yesterday and I believe you were guiding me because it never turned out so good, you would have loved it and would have said "your such a good cook" and I would have answered I was taught by the best!!!! Elisa my heart is so very sad, the thought of you not here with all of us has left such a huge huge void. Give my love hugs and kisses to all. Loving you each day that passes MORE!
March-28-13
All I can say is your presence had a huge impact on many many lives, your smile made us happy, your comments made laugh your cooking invited all of us to your warm and loving home, your absence has left our hearts .....................hurting broken and most of all wanted to hear your heart beating again.......loving you, missing you and wishing you were here with us just for a little bit longer. I love you so from the bottom of my heart.
March-25-13
Hi Ma,

Another weekend has come and gone. It still doesnt get EASIER....its HARDER. Especially the last few Sundays. Joey hasnt even come by in the morning because he is busy at the Home Show...SO ITS BEEN EXTRA AWFUL..more LONELY THEN USUALLY. This weekend is OUR FIRST HOLIDAY WITHOUT YOU MA. Good Friday and Easter Sunday. To tell you the truth ma I hope the weather is good so Im on the truck. I really dont feel like celebrating ANY HOLIDAYS....Its just NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU OR DAD. Anyways, just wanted you to know IM STILL THINKING ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME.....ITS ONLY GETTING WORSE INSTEAD OF BETTER.....LOVE U FOREVER AND EVER....TILL WE MEET AGAIN....TI AMO SEMPRE......XOXOOXOXO
March-24-13
I love you! Today all I did was talk about you and Gracie. I miss you both so very much. I went by a furniture store where Gracie and I bought a leather chair for the family room. We both manage to put this chair in my truck and bring it home........ oh how I miss you both.Loving you and having you both in my life was such a beautiful ................omg at times I can not believe you both are not here anymore and all I can say is the void in my heart is here forever. Baci e Abbracci
March-21-13
Hi Ma,

Tonight Anna is going for dinner with friends and guess where Im going? The ZOO....if you were here you would say to me..."Don't forget to say hi to the animals"....Ma I miss "OUR CODE TALKING" When I said ZOO u knew exactly what that meant...great now I just made myself cry thinking about it...I miss so many things about you ma....SO MANY....I used to love when I kept care of you...you would tell Anna....Franca gets an A++!!! Ma, we had our fights, our cries, and especially our laughs.....I MISS ALL OF IT....U are the ONLY PERSON THAT REALLY EVERY UNDERSTOOD ME....AND ACCEPTED ME THE WAY I WAS....I wasnt the PERFECT DAUGHTER....but YOU SOOO LOVED ME AND WORRIED ABOUT ME LIKE NOONE EVER HAS OR EVER WILL.....Pls watch over me...all of us....I MISS YOU MA....I MISS U TONS.....
P.S. the lawyer misses you too...lol...xoxoxo
March-20-13
Ma, just my luck...I didnt think my last note to you showed up so of this morning I sent it again....SO NOW LOOK WHO'S REPEATING THEMSELVES????? ME.......!!! Oh dear...lol.....xoxoxox
March-20-13
Ma, DING DONG here made a mistake in my last note to you. I wrote SHOULD WOULD OF REMIND ME....I should of wrote...she would of reminded me.....oh well we all make mistakes.....anyways, today the SUN IS SHINING....I LOVE IT LIKE THIS....oh ya ma, last night we went to see Joise at Westpark. Walking in felt AWFUL. When we surprised Joise and said HAPPY BIRTHDAY....Omg ma, she was sooo happy...she was crying....me and Anna were crying...OMG...when she found out you DIED. DONT EVEN GO THERE......the crying that I did yesterday....wow...it was like re-living the day you died. This morning I brought "YOUR SON" his coffee and muffin to make up for yesterday. I know you would of said, "THATS NICE OF YOU FRANCA"....ANYWAYS MOTHER DEAR....we will talk later....LOVE YOU AND CANT STOP WISHING YOU WERE HERE WITH US......XOXOXO
March-19-13
Ma, DING DONG here made another mistake..I type faster than I think...anyways in my last note to you I said SHOULD WOULD OF REMIND ME....I should of said SHE WOULD OF REMINDED ME....oh ma....I really dont know what to say anymore...IM LOST...me and Anna try and act sooo good for eachother but its a show..I know Anna is missing you sooo much. She used to call you a million times in the day...NOW she has noone to call...you both would repeat yourself...the funny thing is when I would get home from work and Anna would be cooking and you would be sitting in your chair you two would still be talking and Im sure it was stuff you already said to eachother...but because you two DING DONGS love to repeat you probably didnt even notice...lol....How me and Anna would pay anything to hear another REPEAT STORY....Ma, I have been with you for 48 years....Anna 50 years...we have lived together...SO THE LOST TO US....I have no words....OK MOTHER DEAR....JUST WATCH OVER US PLS...ALL OF US......xoxoxo
March-19-13
Today is St. Joseph, the first time you are not saying Buono Onomastico, love you miss you and hurting omg what a horrible void.
March-19-13
Good Morning Ma,

I forgot to say it to you this morning when I woke up....I had such a bad bad headache last night. I was in bed at 10:30pm..then woke up at 4am with my head pounding again. Not a good day today. Ma, Joe asked for coffee this morning but I was running late and with the headache I couldnt stop. I feel soooo guilty now....WHY? Today is S.Giuseppe. See ma if you were here you would of said to me this morning, "Franca bring your brother breakfast...and dont forget to say Happy S.Giuseppe" WE NEED YOU SOOO MUCH.....You would of been the FIRST ONE TO CALL YOUR SON...You would of called him at 7am. I could just hear you now...Hi Joey, Happy S.Giuseppe, how are you? Then you would of ended by saying, "Joey, have a nice day, be careful and I LOVE YOU"....Ma, Joey really missed that this morning....He came up to me to remind me....I told him Joe if Ma was here SHOULD WOULD OF REMIND ME....Im sorry. You know Im not good with Name Days...Do you realize the VOID in OUR HEARTS? The EMPTINESS? If you can really see us....pls give us the strength..When the weather is gloomy and miserable its sooo hard...but when I see the sun shining especially in your kitchen it makes me soooo happy because I know you are there...besides your bedroom your kitchen was your favorite room in the house. Ma, today I ask you to somehow show Joey you are remembering him on S.Giuseppe. HE MISSES YOU SOOO MUCH...he doesnt talk much......I just see it. Ok mother dear we will talk again soon....I need some strength today because Im having a REALLY BAD DAY.......thinking of you 24/7 and missing you MORE THAN U KNOW......hugs and kisses....................
March-19-13
Ma,

Still can't believe you are gone....what a horrible feeling coming home to an 'empty' home....God only knows just how much I 'miss you'...I think of you every second of the day...xoxoxoxo
March-18-13
What a beautiful 30th for Jonathan.Beautiful family your Joe Dolores Anna France and Michelle looked amazing. Claudia is a beautiful and loving beauty. Everyone was very happy and smiling even though there was a void in our hearts. Smile even though your heart is aching. Loving all of you and missing you all more than words can say..............Love you
March-17-13
Hi Ma,

Wasn't it just a beautiful 30th surprise party for Jonathan? Claudia did such a great job. Jonathan was really surprised. We missed you so much. Ma, the speech that Joe said....had us crying. Although he wished for you and dad to be there...we all know u BOTH were watching from above because u loved and we're both so proud of your FIRST and ONLY GRANDSON!! Aunt Lib was invited too. Her and Mario picked me up. On the way down to the restaurant we couldn't STOP talking about YOU. Like I said before as the days go by we MISS u even MORE. This is very hard to accept...ma,all I keep saying to
myself is that u were coming
HOME! I still don't understand why God changed his mind...we still had a lot of things to do. I love you ma and miss u soon much....xoxo
March-13-13
I love you and miss you! I still can not believe you are not here! Your voice, your smile, your everything...............what a void in my heart. I love you........................hugs and kisses to you all.
March-08-13
Thinking of you with love every second of each day.Went out with Anna Wednesday night we had a nice time talking crying laughing and moments of silence thinking of you. It hurts so much why why why...................I guess it was your destiny as you would always say................but you were to be at home on January 8th I guess home meant heaven...........with the rest of our family that you missed so much. We love you and our hearts miss you so very much.
March-05-13
Sempre con affetto! Tanti Baci e Abbracci a tutti! Vi penso sempre con tanto amore.xxxxxxooooooooxxxxxxxxooo
March-04-13
Hello Mother.....

I know you already know but wasnt yesterday such a nice day? Aunt Lib, Joe, Dolores, Anna and me all had lunch together at the house. Of course "YOUR SON" made his famous BBQ RIBS....we had a wonderful lunch. It felt good ma...but you KNOW WE ALL MISSED YOU....After lunch Dolores, Aunt Lib and Anna were working on all your THANK YOU cards. They are all done. Ma, I enjoy it sooo much when we have others for lunch or dinner...it fills up the house...its a better feeling. When its me and Anna I just find it harder because as much as we talk I know your minds are wondering...we are missing you and thinking of you...but with others you talk...laugh...it takes aways the "EMPTINESS" just for a little while. Anyways ma, YOUR KIDS MISS YOU LOTS..Aunt Lib... I have no words for how she misses you!! She is ALWAYS CALLING AND TEXTING ME AND ANNA...you and her are soo much alike. Ok mother dear....as always we will talk again..WE ALL LOVE AND MISS YOU SOOOOOOO....XOXOXOXO

P.S. Ma did you see "YOUR SON" brought the matching pepper shaker over yesterday...so nice...Oh ya, how could I forget Michelley came over too for lunch but you know her ma, SHE WAS LATE...just by one hour...lol..but she isnt fussy when she came she ate...I know you noticed...we forget to take out MICHELLEY'S FAVORITE OLIVES...oh well next time....see if you were there you would of reminded us...we miss you MA...xoxoxo
March-01-13
Loving you is the easy part, missing you is the part that will never heal itself. Your kids miss you so , but the void in my life will last forever , our secrets, our laughs, our tears, our long talks, our rearranging furniture, the colour orange, and most of all your everlasting love and your wonderful cooking. How you shared in ingredients to make the best sauce, meatballs, I could go on and on..........your nail polish lip stick and of course your hair..............I love you so from the bottom heart.Love to all you .....................forever in my heart.
February-28-13
Oops!!! I missed out a word on my last note to you....right at the end....I MEANT TO SAY....WE WERE ALWAYS NUMBER ONE TO YOU.....YOUR KIDS MEANT THE WORLD TO YOU.....JUST LIKE YOU MEANT TO US......."U WERE OUR WORLD TOO"......we are hurting soooo much.....the pain in our hearts.... I CAN NEVER EVER EXPLAIN.....xoxoxo
February-28-13
Hi Ma,

Just wanted to say hello and that Im thinking of you. Ma, remember when I would come home at lunch depending on the time you would either be sitting in your kitchen or laying on your bed in the living room. When I would see you in the living room I would get upset and say, "ma, why arent you walking around or doing any exercise"? You would answer me, "Franca you and Joe think its so easy for me...my leg hurts"....ma, I miss those lunch time conversations. Especially when Joe would call you in the morning...you would say, "Franca, Joey called me....you were soooo excited when he called...you know me..I would answer, "THAT'S NICE MA"....the best part when I would get home for dinner and me, you and Anna would be sitting and eating....you would tell me again...."OH, FRANCA JOEY CALLED ME TODAY..." How would I answer? "Yes, ma I know you told me ALREADY AT LUNCH...." You would say your famous line..."OH WELL, IM TELLING YOU AGAIN"...LOL...ma, how I miss YOU ALWAYS REPEATING YOURSELF....especially when it came to JOEY....ma, its funny Joe knows me and Anna both have cell phones but everynight when he calls us...he calls on the houseline...I guess ma he misses calling the house line....or maybe like me and Anna WISHES THAT THIS IS ALL A DREAM....that your really not gone....YOU WERE COMING HOME TUESDAY.....U WERE FINE ON SUNDAY.....you were asking me what my next trip was going to be and when I was going.....I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND.....Im constantly thinking about YOUR LEG....THE COLOUR....everything....it drives me crazy...my famous question......WHY????? WHY??????? Mother I wish we could get some answers really I do. You DON'T understand how much Joe, Anna and me miss you....WE MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH...NOTHING IS THE SAME.....NOTHING.......eating just me and Anna is sooo awful....as Im eating I keep looking at your seat and wishing I could hear you repeat another story, or when you would talk you would spit...lol....or the way u would drop your food on your clothes or floor....how I wish me and Anna could experience that again...you always said once you were gone we would have alot to laugh about....the sad thing....we dont laugh...we cry BECAUSE WE MISS YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH....ALRIGHT MA....WE WILL TALK LATER.......
p.s. when I write, I write for me, Anna and Joe....its harder for them....you always told me I was good at writing down my feelings....easier for me.....WE WERE ALWAYS NUMBER TO YOU....WE LOVE YOU.......XOXOXOXOOX
February-27-13
Good Morning Ma,

Well missy you had a beautiful mass. Just beautiful!! We were all there family and friends. Ma, while the priest was mentioning your name I was sitting there in another world. I just couldnt believe "WE" were all there FOR YOUR ONE MONTH MASS. Yes, it was a little late but I just cant believe the way time is flying by. "WE" all "MISS YOU" so "MUCH". I dont think our lives will ever be the same without you. Not a day goes by that "WE" dont think of you. Im talking for everyone because I know everyone feels the same. Maybe now that we had your mass maybe you will come visit me in my dreams. Ma, continue to watch over "ALL OF US"...remember this NOT A DAY, HOUR, MINUTE OR SECOND GOES BY THAT I DONT THINK OF YOU...miss you more than you know....LOVE U MA.....XOXOOXOXO
February-27-13
Hi Elisa, yesterday your beautiful family had a peaceful mass for you. The songs that the organist sang were , just what you would have wanted. Yesterday we all relived the sadness of you going to heaven. Today words cannot express what I am feeling only you know..................Loving you more each day and missing you. Love hugs kisses to you all up there.
February-25-13
Hey Ma,

Just wanted to drop a note to say I miss you lots and think of you all the time. Trying to keep myself busy and out of the house...Being in the house it hurts alot. My mind goes everywhere. I keep going back to Sunday at the hospital...and I keep looking at those pictures...Oh ya ma yesterday, Joe,Dolores, Anna and me we went to the funeral home....Uncle Nick died...now dad even has his brother. I wish I knew foresure that you were all up there together it would give me peace. Ok ma I will talk to you tomorrow.....me and Anna really miss you in the house....especially at the dinner table...SO LONELY AND QUIET WITHOUT YOU.....watch over us.....xoxoxoxo
February-24-13
goodmorning: We went out with Joe and Dolores last night, and had a beautiful evening and we talked about you all. You have such a beautiful and wonderful family, you did your part as a mother bringing up your children so beautifully with love and respect. Franca came to the dentist and she looked so nice she had a headache but she still looked beautiful with those eyes. Anna stayed home reorganizing a bunch of stuff. It still does not seem possible that you are not here. I listen to my messages...........and feel your presence. I love you and miss you more each day.
February-23-13
Thinking of you all the time. I love you sooo from the bottom of my heart. Gracie, Mommy, Daddy, Johnny, Domenic and our Frankie not a day goes by without loving thoughts of you all.
February-21-13
Goodnight to all our Angels in Heaven! Love you all and not a minute in the day goes by without thoughts of you all. Loving you missing you and wish you were all here. Please send us a message ,but maybe you do. Because you all our in our thoughts and prayers. Loving you all more each day and feeling the huge void in our hearts.xxxxxxxooooooohugs and kisses.
February-21-13
Hi Ma,

Just dropping another note to you to tell you another rough night last night. I was downstairs watching tv but I kept looking at all the pictures in my cell phone. I have a picture of you Sunday when u were sitting eating your lunch...happy as can be...talking, laughing, eating....and asking me to get you ice for your gingerale. SO HOW DID THIS HAPPEN??????? Then I look at the pictures I took of your LEG....I lay there looking AT IT....crying and CONSTANTLY ASKING HOW?????????? WHY????????????? I don't think I will every understand, how u could of been soooooooooooooo fine and then GOD TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US....I dont UNDERSTAND...Ma, we are ALL SO UPSET ABOUT THIS because IT JUST DOESN'T MAKE SENSE.....when I continue to look at those pictures it BREAKS MY HEART...it looked soooo painful...the colour...just everything...Ma, IM ANGER....SOOO MAD...I hope we get to the bottom of this...I hope now your painfree.....my heart still hurts...This morning went into your room again...I was looking for my top and I said Ma, I cant find it...you of course answered me, " Franca, I dont want to know....your so disorganized.."lol...I laughed and cried thinking about that...then of course I found it...and you said, " YOU NUT"....DON'T BE SO DISORANGIZED NEXT TIME....LOL...I remember alot....and MISS SOOO MUCH.....love you ma...thinking of ALWAYS.....missing you beyond words can say..............xoxoxo
p.s. Joe came by last night to check up on his sisters...we sat and talked...it was nice.....the three of us ARE REALLY HURTING AND MISSING YOU.....xoxoxo
February-20-13
Another day of missing you so very much. Love you more than words can say. At times I can not believe you are not with us any longer. Oh! how I wish I could turn back time .....just to hear your sweet voice your prescence your smile but most of all to feel touch and kiss you. Loving you more than words can say.
February-19-13
love you and miss you sooo
February-19-13
Ma, yesterday was family day and Michelle (Sandro's Michelle)Elle and Aunt Lib came by. It was a nice day. Can u believe ma, yesterday I helped Anna make pizza and an apple pie...you always said "WHEN FRANCA DOES SOMETHING...WHICH ISNT OFTEN...LOL...I DID IT GREAT".....I even shocked myself..but my dear MOTHER.....it wasnt the SAME WITHOUT YOU....you would of been sitting in your kitchen trying the pizza and loving your apple pie. WE ALL MISSED YOU SOOO MUCH...We will never STOP MISSING YOU...It was weird this weekend ma, Joe didnt come over at all. I guess he was busy but no worries YOUR "JOEY" called to check up on HIS SISTERS..anyways, today is a miserable day...snowing and raining..its awful. But ma at 5pm its now lighter...remember what you would always say about YOUR DAD...that nonno always said December and January dark at 5pm....but come February it starts to get lighter...well it is ma...there are soo many things I remember that you taught us. You are always on my mind, your in my prayers all the time...and YOU WILL BE FOREVER ENGRAVED IN MY ACHING HEART....FOREVER LOVING YOU AND MISSING YOU MORE AS THE DAYS GO BY..................FRANCA XOXOXO
February-18-13
Its Family Day today Elisa, its not the same. LOve you and miss you.
February-17-13
Ma, today I feel so lazy...Im downstairs watching tv. I really dont feel like doing anything today. Tomorrow is Family Day so we are off work. Ma, I just went into the kitchen OMG...OMG....the sun...the warmth its amazing...you would be sitting there right now getting ready for Sunday lunch. Anna would of made such a great lunch. Joe would of been over too. Instead this house is SOOO QUIET.....SO LONELY......I just can't explain to you HOW EMPTY THIS HOUSE IS...what a BIG DIFFERENCE....I really hate it....its extra hard on weekends..OH DEAR...I go over this in my head 24/7 AND I JUST CAN'T UNDERSTAND.....You were fine....laughing, eating...excited about coming home....you were excited about coming to Jonathan's and Claudia's engagement.....I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND HOW IT ALL CHANGED IN 24 HOURS???????????? I wish somehow you could tell me!!!! OH MA??? Anyways, Im going back downstairs so we will talk again....p.s.between me and you....thanks for your help last night...I know you were there with me....I LOVE U LOTS....XOXOOX
February-17-13
Hey Ma,

Just wanted to drop a line and tell you Im thinking about you. You still havent come to visit me in my dreams........pls try....love you lots......xooxox Franca
February-16-13
We went out today, and all we did was speak about you! We talked about everyone who is with you.We have so many beautiful memories of you and everyone! LOVE LOVE LOVE AND MISSING YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH our lives will Never be the same. " Smile even though your heart is aching," that is us.
February-15-13
Hey Elisa: I forgot to put your sister
Rita,but you know it is me, remember when you signed Elsa on a card instead of Elisa. Love always and forever
February-15-13
Hi Elisa, How is everything going up in heaven? Down here everything is the same
yet not the same because you are not here. Give my love to everyone.
Love Always and Forever xxxxoooo
February-14-13
'ILOVEYOULOTS' & 'MISS YOU SO MUCH'
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
February-14-13
Good Morning Ma

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO YOU AND DAD...actually to Frankie,nonna, nonno and auntie Gracie. I hope to God your with everyone. LOVE TO ALL OF YOU...AND MISS YOU ALL....xoxoxo
February-14-13
Today is Valentines Day, all I can say is that I would have heard you voice say Happy Valentines to you all, and I love you. I would answer, I LOVE YOU MORE, you are so missed my wonderful you.
February-13-13
Elisa, I promise you, that your wonderful family will always, always, have my love and guidance.Love you love you love you
February-13-13

Forever in my heart I love and miss you so!
February-13-13
Hey Ma,

Another sleepless night. I tend to always wake up around 3:30-4:00am. Then I just lay there in bed. I hear Anna up too getting ready for work. She still gets up really early. I guess she was so used to waking up and making coffee for the both of you. She still has it but if I know Anna she probably cries to herself. She misses you sooo much. She feels lost. We all feel lost in our different ways. Did you see ma the three of us had dinner again last night...it was nice. Dolores and Michelley come home today. Remember when Dolores would go away u would always tell Anna to make lentile soup because its so nice to come home to a nice plate of soup. Well Anna made it from them. Joe took it home with him last night. I already told Michelley and she is sooo excited about it. Ma, we all miss you sooo much. You are forever in OUR HEARTS and constantly on OUR MINDS...we are ALL STILL HURTING AND MISSING YOU BEYOND WORDS CAN EVER EXPRESS!!!! I hope you are pain free and happy..I KNOW FORESURE you will be always watching over us. U always did...You always worried about me sooo much. Also telling me not to be home late....watch when I drive...and when I park the car in the garage make sure there isnt anyone hiding at the side of the house. I think of all of that...Noone ever worried about me like you did!!! Especially in the summer driving the truck....I know you hated it but you knew I had no choice but to do it...Im debating this year...but ma, you know deep down I have to do it..I have alot going on this year..Ma, remind dad about the promise me and him made to eachother...since he didnt keep it....maybe you can help out....lol.....I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH AND MISS YOU BOTH SOOO MUCH.......xoxoxo
February-11-13
This book is your book Elisa, and I feel that we can express ourselves writing to you.I feel as though we are talking on the phone . Please give me some indication that you are around us the way you did on Monday. I love you! I wonder what you and Johnny are cooking in Heaven.........maybe you both are teaching alot of people up there how to live a life full of love and appreciation.Not a second goes by each day without thoughts of you all.
February-11-13
Ma, its awful outside. NO SUN JUST RAIN...not looking forward to going home. Its going to be more depressing then usual. Atleast when the sun is shining in your kitchen it feels like you are there. IF I had ONE WISH........U WOULD BE HERE RIGHT WITH US.......to share in Jonathan's and Claudia's wedding day. U were looking so forward to their day. You will be missed so much on that day...but Im hoping you and dad will be watching from up above. OUR HEARTS ARE BROKEN......love and miss you sooo much...xoxoxo
February-11-13
Good Night xxxooo
February-11-13
its a gloomy day today.....and Im missing you even more...no sun in our kitchen.....watch over us....xoxo
February-11-13
Hey Ma,

I wrote to you twice last night and only one showed up. I dont understand what is happening. Anyways, did you see the ribs Joe made? OMG soooo good. He also bought us a new salt shaker..he hated the one we had. You would love it...its sooo nice. Anyways, last night ma I tossed and turned again couldnt sleep. Since you left us Im having alot of trouble sleeping. I have told you before the mornings being home alone HURTS ALOT...We had our morning routine. To tell you the truth ma I still pretend you are there. I still do the same things...except opening the door for Asha. MISSY, YOU ARE MISSED MORE THAN U REALIZE......ok talk later....xoxooxo
p.s. Joe is buying us the matching pepper shaker....you would love it so much.....xoxoxo.....love u lots..
February-10-13
Goodnight, I love you so much and miss you so so much.
February-10-13
Hey Ma,

I dont understand whats happening...Im writing in this book but they are not showing up. Anyways, today isnt a good day. Joe came over for lunch today and now he is coming back for dinner but he is cooking. Making us his famous bbq ribs. Ma, its sooo strange sitting at our kitchen table without you. We feel you missing so much..Its quiet. Remember you would always talk and repeat yourself all the time. We miss that so much. I keep hearing you say to us, "once I die you will have alot to talk and laugh about" Ma, there really isnt alot of laughing because we miss the funny things you did...instead it makes us all cry and think of you more. Aunt Lib came by twice today too...Ma, she misses u sooooo much.....she always tells me....she didnt only lose a sister SHE LOST A BEST FRIEND.....if you only really knew HOW MANY HEARTS YOU BROKEN by leaving all of us. Not a day goes by that we dont think of you. Ok ma, we will talk again....MISS AND LOVE U LOTS......CONTINUE TO WATCH OVER ALL OF US MA....XOXOOXOXO
February-09-13
At times, I do not want to believe what has happened. I can hear your voice , you would always say " How are you? What are you making for supper, and always end the conversation" have a nice day" and "I love you or I love you both" and I would answer "I love you more"OH MY GOD I MISS YOU SO and I LOVE YOU MORE'
February-09-13
Love you and miss you so very much, if only we could turn back time..........
February-08-13
Forever in my heart
February-08-13
MA, U LEFT ALOT OF US WITH BROKEN HEARTS....I HOPE AND PRAY TO GOD THAT YOUR WITH DAD, FRANKIE, YOUR PARENTS AND YOUR SISTER AUNTI GRACIE....IF I ONLY KNEW FORESURE I THINK THAT WOULD MAKE US FEEL BETTER...PLS LET US KNOW....XOXOXO
February-08-13
One Month today,miss you more than words can say.
Always and Forever
February-08-13
Elisa, its one month since you left us.............miss you so and love you ..........forever in my broken heart.
February-07-13
XOXOOX
February-06-13
Just thinking of you and just wishing you were here.....its soooo hard. I JUST KEEP ASKING WHY?????? Love u "MA'
February-05-13
I miss you so much
February-05-13
Love you miss you and shine your beautiful and loving smile on us everyday. You are such a huge void in our lives.
February-04-13
Hey Ma,

I have so much to tell you and I dont know where to beging...First things first..this guest book that WE all write in....guess what aunt Lib got it for us for an entire YEAR....so we can write in here all the time to give you updates...isnt that exciting? That made my day. Second me and aunt went out for dinner...we ate...we cried...we talked..IT WAS AMAZING. Ma, then aunt lib came over and organized the living room....I cant tell you how much better I feel. We had all your stuff near the front door aunt Lib moved everything including the furniture. Me and aunt Lib really felt YOU AND AUNT GRACIE around us. Ma, we miss you so much. I cant wait for Anna to come home and see it. Im just hoping she doesnt change everything. Ma, tell Anna u like it too. I know you do b/c it doesnt look so crowded anymore. Oh ma, tonight I feel good. I really felt you tonight. I guess you know Anna is coming home tomorrow and you wanted her to see everything just perfect...and IT IS. The only thing that would really top it off IS IF YOU WERE STILL WITH US....OMG THAT WOULD BE A DREAM COME TRUE FOR ALOT OF US....anyways ma....I will talk to you like I do every night IN MY PRAYERS.....I love you ma......and miss you more than u know......xooxxoo
February-04-13
Hi Elisa, I hope you watching over the precious family that you have and with so much love. Going out with Franca tonight,we are going out for dinner. I love you more than words can explain and I listen to your loving messages when I come home from work and cannot believe you are not here.
February-04-13
Hey Ma

Just thinking of you....actually I think of you alot. Tonight ma is my last night alone Anna will be back. I cant wait. Being here alone ma is really hard. I always go into your bedroom to talk to you and to show you what Im wearing. Remember before Id go to work you'd always want to see what I was wearing....and you would give me your approval or say "FRANCA YOUR WEARING THAT?" I miss that so much. I talk to myself everyday morning. I talk for the both of us. I say Ma, you like it? I answer for you....just the way u would say it....Oh Franca move back...let me see you? Ya, you look very nice...I do this every morning when its just me and you....Ma, the tears are still flowing...everyone says it gets better..but what they DONT UNDERSTAND I have lived with you for 48 YEARS.....and its HARD....we had our ways...oh ma you are seriously missed by ALL OF US....we all have our moments. Being home alone I have done ALOT OF YELLING AND SCREAMING..Im sure you heard me...it helps doing that. Just for the moment but then its back to normal...I start crying all over again and WISHING I COULD TURN BACK TIME. Ok ma we will talk later...love and miss you sooooooooo much......xoxoxooxox
February-03-13
Hi Ma,

I know I said I would right in your book everyday but ITS VERY HARD. Ma, Im still very stunned about all of this. I sometimes wish this is ALL A DREAM. My me and Anna feel it ALOT...staying in the house and seeing EVERYTHING thats belongs to you hurts sooo much. We havent touch anything yet. Ma, even Joe is feeling it alot. he still comes Sunday mornings to the house but its sooo different. He comes a little later now. He still sits in the same seat next to yours...and reads the newspaper. Of course ma, just like YOU he reads the obituaries. It never hurt so much reading it until we SAW YOUR PICTURE IN IT. I continue asking myself WHY???? I ask you too but Im yet to hear from you. Ma, did you see I got my tatoo? I have you and DADS hearts joining eachother..I love it. Im home alone right now and thats when it hurts the MOST....I lay here on my couch waiting for you to blow your whistle or call my cell to say "FRANCA, CAN U COME UPSTAIRS TO MY ROOM FOR A SECOND?" Then when I came upstairs you would either show me something you moved AGAIN in your room or you would ask for some cold POP....but you know me ma, just like Joe I wouldnt give you the pop I would bring you your lemon water!!!! You would get upset sometimes because you really wanted that POP....but you know I only did that because I LOVED YOU....but sometimes I DID GIVE IN...and what would we say? "DONT'T TELL JOE" OMG.....HOW I MISS THOSE DAYS.....I dont mean to cry right now...but IT HURTS SOOOO MUCH...being home alone is WHAT I HATE MOST.....Your kitchen has alot of sun in it today....it looked sooo beautiful...your plants from your grandchildren look amazing. Ma, to think this Friday (of all days...) is going to be ONE MONTH since we heard you say...."BE CAREFUL AND I LOVE YOU"!!!!! Ma, I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU SO MUCH....pls come and visit...Im still waiting....forever, I LOVE YOU.......TILL WE MEET AGAIN....XOXOOX
February-03-13
Words are the only things that last forever. I love you Elisa.
February-03-13
Not a minute goes by without loving thoughts of you, I love you soooo, and remember the circle of love.Your circle is enormous!!!!!!!!Only a life lived for others is a life worth while. There is a saying "The hand that rocks the cradle rules the world that was you as a Daughter, a Mother a Wife a Nonna a Sister a friend. Also our fathers may teach us what we have to do in life, but it is a mother who teaches us who we are.
January-29-13
Cari Anna, Franca, Joe ,e tutti i parenti che non conosco per nome, ma che sicuramente stanno soffrendo per la mancanza di Lisa, una donna che ho avuto il piacere di conoscere molti anni fa e che ogni volta che tornavo a Toronto era "obbligo " perché era un piacere, andare a trovare. Mi ricordo bene il suo viso , la sua voce, anche la sua energia, e le attenzioni alla mia fame...ho vissuto la notizia della sua scomparsa dall'Italia con Libby che al telefono riceveva la brutta notizia. E stato un brutto momento per tutti noi che eravamo presenti, mia moglie Silvia (che Lisa ha conosciuto) Mario e chiaramente Libby. Eravamo lontani, ma con il cuore eravamo vicini, da quel momento è calato un silenzio surreale fatto di pensieri e sicuramente ricordi, interrotto dalla disperazione di Libby che però trovava la lucidità per raccontare qualche racconto della vita di Lisa di quanto fossero attaccate e di quanto si volessero bene , di come ogni giorno Lisa chiamasse a casa Libby per augurare una "buona giornata". Ora per voi che state soffrendo non ci sono parole che possano confortavi, ma solo il ricordo di tutti i momenti vissuti insieme , e so per certo che sono stati tanti, più di quelli che un normale figlio dedica alla sua madre., Ora Lisa non è più in terra, ma vive ogni giorno, ogni momento , ogni pensiero tra di voi e sicuramente dal cielo insieme a Gracy vi abbraccia e vi protegge. Tanti abbracci e tante condoglianze a tutti voi Massimo e Silvia.
January-25-13
Hey Ma,
You left me way too soon....I thought WE had more time together....
I guess "no more of anything"...
There are no words to say how much I 'MISS YOU'....an 'EMPTY' feeling and a 'HURT' that just 'never' goes away! I MISS YOU sooooooo much and I think of 'YOU' constantly...
How I wish you were here with ME...with all of US!!!
TODAY, TOMORROW & FOREVER....
I MISS YOU AND 'LOVE' YOU SO MUCH!! XOXOXOXOXOXOOXXOXO
me.....all by myself...
January-23-13
Dearest Joey, Anna & Franca,
I am very saddened to learn of your mothers passing, I hold many wonderful memories of times I spent together with her and Gracie, both amazing women, Franca you're correct in saying "God only takes the best".
My love and prayers are with you all.
January-14-13
Hi Ma,
Its Monday night 9:11pm and me and Anna are just thinking about last week at this time. Ma, I would of never thought that Anna would of called me early Tuesday morning at 3:26am to tell me they called CODE BLUE ON YOU!!! I just hope to God that you didnt suffer ALOT....Ma, I keep going over everything AND I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND......from coming home on the Tuesday you end up DIEING.....Im MAD...everyone keeps saying it was THE CALM BEFORE THE STORM....Oh ya ma, Gordie called today from Italy....he was so upset he wasnt there but I told him he was because we had the pictures of him and his wife on your 75th from the Doctor's House. We cried together on the phone alot. Ma, do you see HOW MANY PEOPLE U TOUCHED???? EVERYONE MISSES YOU ALOT.....BUT NOT AS MUCH AS WE ALL DO YOUR FAMILY!!!! Ok, I will keep you updated on things till Feb.8th, 2013 then I will write it all down in a journal. I talk to you every night too. I sound like you Im always repeating myself to you and asking you WHY?????? I just hope you are really fine...no more pain in your leg...Tomorrow is ONE WEEK ALREADY....I cant believe it just seems like yesterday. Ma, I miss you and love you so much...I PROMISE WE WILL ALL MEET AGAIN....FOREVER LOVING YOU....................FRANCA XOXOOXO
January-13-13
Hi Ma,
Today is the day after your beautiful funeral. Ma, your flowers were so beautiful just the way you like them. Did you see all your old friends from Victory? Everyone came. It really isnt a surprise because everyone just loved you so much. The kind words everyone was saying about it...but we already knew we had a wonderful, loving and very caring mom. Thats why its so hard for us to accept this!! Ma continue to watch over ALL OF US....and always remember how we loved you soooooooooooooooooooooo much.....FRANCAXOOXOXOOXO
January-13-13
Dear Anna/Franca/Joe Our heartfelt condolences to your entire family. We were all deeply saddened to hear about the passing of your mother. She truly was a loving, kind-hearted, unselfish person. We had many great memorable years together as neighbours on Victory. Barb and I will not forget your Mom's fantastic meals. May she rest in peace forever. May God give you all strength and comfort you at this time of sorrow. God Bless!
Love you all, Irene Ulcar(Cemas)and Family, Barb Gabor(Cemas)and Family, Joe and Annie Cemas
January-13-13
WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH ALREADY XOXOOX
January-13-13
Dear Joe,Anna & Franca,
Remember all the great memories that you all have in you heart. That will give you strength to carry on. The light that she will shine on all of you each day will remind you that she is reaching out for you in every aspect of your lives. Mrs. Ursini in my eyes is an "Angel". We will all miss her and feel the emptiness in our hearts. Her smile and her laugh made us all shine. Thats what made her happy. Simplicity of Life gave her great joy in her heart. We all love you so much.
Gary,Angie,Julia and Christoher Campacci
January-12-13
To my wonderful and loving sister, I will love you forever and thank you for being my best friend mentor and most of all being there together thorough tears laughter happiness and sorrow. I am going to miss your every days phone calls and your I love you. Baci e Abbracci per sempre
January-12-13
To My Wonderful Loving Elisa, I love you sooooo much! You are my mentor,my best friend, but most of all you are someone who gave your love to me every second of ever day. Thankyou for loving me unconditionally and your every day messages and phonecalls to Mario and I. I am truly heart broken and this heart my continue to beat but its broken. I will love you forever and ever tanti cari abbracci e back
January-11-13
Franca and family, my condolences for your loss. My thoughts are prayers are with you during this difficult time.
January-11-13
Dear Anna, please extend my deepest condolences to your entire family.
How blessed your mom was to have such a loving and wonderful family!
Thinking of you all.
Mary DiNunno
January-11-13
Our thoughts and prayers are with you all. With heartfelt sympathy. God Bless, Bruno & Dian De Melis
January-11-13
Dear Anna
Although its difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, may looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow.
Thinking of you
With deepest sympathy
Mary
January-10-13
Dear, Joe and family it was a great pleasure to have met Mrs.Ursini. I felt her kindness gentleness and love the minute we connected she will live in our hearts forever I'm so sorry for your loss my sincere condolences Joe,Franca,Anna and family.
January-10-13
To the Ursini Family,
May the peace that comes from the memories of love shared comfort you all now and in the days ahead
Lots of love
January-10-13
HI MY BEAUTIFUL NONNA! ... i miss you so much already. you were such a wonderful lady inside and out. THANK YOU for always making us laugh.. THANK YOU for always making sure we were well fed (you really did make the best meat balls) and most importantly, THANK YOU for always loving us unconditionally. you were always with a smile on your face and ALWAYS HAPPY. I know you are in a better place and at peace. I JUST WISH I CAN HUG YOU RIGHT NOW. I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH!

YOUR ONLY GRANDDAUGHTER,
"MICHELLEY"
X0X
January-10-13
Dear Anna, So very sorry to hear this very sad and unexpected news. May God bless you and uphold you and your family in this difficult time. And Rest Eternal for you beloved mother.
January-09-13
Mrs Ursini, I was soo shocked to hear of your passing. I had just heard that you were coming home anyday now! I deeply regret not making it to the hospital to visit with you and will hold that with me forever. I will also hold memories of coming to visit you with michelley for dinners on Victory and lunches on Davos. You always made me feel welcome in your home and treated me like a grandson. I will always remember you. My sincerest condolances to Joe, Franca, Anna, and the entire Ursini family. Love you all Big Mike
January-09-13
Dear Joe, Dolores and family
We're so sorry to hear of your loss. You're in our thoughts and prayers.
Love
Terry and Mary and family
January-09-13
To the Ursini Family,
We are very sorry for your loss. A wonderful Mother, Grandmother, Sister, Daughter, and Friend and now an Angel above.

An honor to have been blessed with her friendship.
Love The Cristillo Family
January-09-13
dear anna, franca my thoughts and prayers go to you and your family at this time. mrs ursini was a kind, sweet gentle soul who made everyone who she met feel at home and loved. she loved her children and grandchildren with all of her heart and gave to those whom she welcomed into her home, her wonderful smile, her kind eyes and made you feel better about yourself when you left. her family was her greatest love and in return she was greatly loved and will be missed by all. my love goes to you and your family at this time and know she will always be near and dear and with your father will watch over you all . with much love audrey xoxoxo
January-09-13
May God bless you and your family in this time of sorrow.
January-09-13
To Rita , we are very sorry to hear the loss of your sister, may God help all of you during this time. our prayers and thoughts are with you all.

Alessandro & Rosina Cardillo.
January-09-13
Dear Joe/Anna/Franca, Our prayer are with you and the rest of your family. Mrs. Ursini was a very special lady, kind, generous and most of all, loving and caring. Her spirit will be with all of you forever in your hearts and guiding all of you, the rest of your lives. Our sincere condolences to all of you and family.
January-09-13
Franca, So sorry to hear about the passing of your dearest mother. Our sincere condolences to you and your family.
January-09-13
Anna, my condolences to your entire family. Mama was a wonderful person, she will be greatly missed - now who am I going to call on Thursdays! I am going to miss her so much. May her soul rest in eternal peace, Amen.
January-09-13
To a wonderful women who's always been so sincere like the feathers of an angel may you rest in peace with all our love to you and your family may God watch over you. I will always remember the precious smile and laughter you had in my life.......diana and emma xoxox
January-09-13
TO OUR WONDERFUL MOTHER THAT WE MISS SOOOO MUCH....it wasnt suppose to end like this, you were coming home on Tuesday but I guess God changed his mind...he must of needed another ANGEL and he picked the best,YOU.....our hearts are broken...tears are flowing...them emptiness is unbearable...WE HAD THE BEST MOM EVER...You are now with dad, your son Frankie, your mom and dad and your sister Gracie. Ma we all love you so much and we miss you so so much...Anna, I want to thank you for looking after mommy so well...you are mommys twin....THE BEST IN THE WORLD....I will forever love and miss you so much ma....GOD ONLY TAKES THE BEST....forever loving you, FRANCA XOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXO
January-09-13
Dearest Anna/Franca. My prayers are with you and the rest of your family.You will be bless tremendusily for the unconditional love and care you have given. blessings and love always. Saleema
January-09-13
Anna, Franca and Joe, your mom was the best, I will miss her so much. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Marci............
January-09-13
Dear Anna, our hearts ache for you on the loss of your beloved Mom. Please extend our deepest sympathy to your entire family and know you are all in our thoughts and prayers.
- Mary Jo and Ed Cartwright & Family (Richmond Hill, ON)
January-09-13
Anna, I am so sorry to hear about the passing of your mother. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
January-09-13
Anna, our thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. No one can ever take the place of a mother. Our sincere condolences to you and your family.
January-09-13
Anna, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Love you always! Rosie
January-09-13
Anna, anyone that knows you, knows that you were a devoted daughter to both your father and mother. Their spirit will live on in your heart forever and they will guide you through the rest of your life. Our thoughts and condolences go out to Joe and Franca as well as the entire family. Your friends, Domenic and Mary Jane Muia
January-09-13
Anna, I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your Mom. You are in my thoughts and prayers. xo
January-09-13
Anna,
Wishing you peace to bring comfort, courage to face the days ahead and loving memories to forever hold in your hearts.

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.

Susie & Lorena
January-09-13
Anna, I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your Mother. you are in my thoughts and prayers. xo
January-09-13
Mrs. U we will miss you so very much.
May you rest in peace.
Love Vinny
January-09-13
Anna, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I'm very sorry for the loss of your mom.
January-09-13
Mrs. Ursini was a very special and wonderful lady that I will always remember and cherish. Take comfort in knowing that she has touched everyone she met in a very special way and will never be forgotten. She is now another angel and bright star in the sky that will always watch over her loving family and friends. My prayers and thoughts are with you.
January-09-13
To my dear sister Elisa;
YOU WERE THE BEST OF THE BEST
©2014 Legacy.com. All rights reserved. Guest Book entries are free and are posted after being reviewed for appropriate content. If you find an entry containing inappropriate material, please contact us.