Mom, its been 9 months today since you left, you left and are somewhere I believe that must be better then here, because you deserved so many more good things then you recieved while you were here. I think so many people have looked back (including me) and thought of times we could have been kinder or more patient with you, so I hope you hear and accept those apologies and know deep inside how much we all loved you. For me I still can't imagine a greater loss then you not being here. I catch myself feeling like your just around the corner and I try and take comfort in that, but I miss you, your texts, your calls, your smile, your frown, I just miss all the wonderful little pieces that made my Mom so damned special. I am happy that my memories of you are still as vivid as ever, so I can always close my eyes and see you and I hope you can see me where you are too. I love you Mom and 9 month, 9 years whatever, I will still miss you and love you as much as the day you left.