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January 04, 2015
My love too. Dad and I were very happy fotr our Karen but God had other works in mind ang both of you left two mourning wifes but Karen is happy now ani will be soon too with my hubby. Watch over us both. Mom in law
January 01, 2015
Hi my Mark .. 5 yrs ago you made me the happiest girl in the whole USA when we said I do .. Even though we were together 10 yrs our love grew that day like no other feeling I had ever felt before .. 10 months later you went to Heaven .. My heart was shattered .. As time goes on I realize you don't have to be in my life because your in my heart forever .. I thank you for making my days now happy . They say God works in mysterious ways no it's been you the whole time . Thank you for bringing my Joe into my life I love him with all of my heart .. Never stop holding my hand .. Forever your Karen . I love you
October 17, 2014
Happy BIRTHDAY Mark you are missed
October 15, 2014
Hey Mark Happy Birthday Buddy. Someone said you might be having a B'Day party in Heaven, well Heaven's in for one Hell of a party. Miss you buddy think of you often.
Your Buddy
Shep
October 15, 2014
Dearest Mark, watch over my sweet Daughter as she is following in your footsteps and keeping the bar running in your name. Tell my sweetheart I love him
October 14, 2014
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October 13, 2014
My Dearest Mark ... It's 4 yrs of missing you .. There isn't a day that your not on my mind for one reason or another .. Lol a joke said , another problem at the bar , something breaking down at the house .. I wouldn't change it for the world .. ??... I wrote the last time on your birthday and called your Dad ..he didn't realize it was your bday , but when I reminded him he was grateful .. He's an amazing wonderful father in law to me to this day .. He misses you , but understands you had an amazing life .. I promised him I would visit ... Well I sold both the cars and got new one lol yup at Fusillo .. Kinda funny huh .. Like the car , didn't like dealing with the dealership ... No worries for you anymore ... As you know it's Joes Birthday so give him a break ...he's a wonderful Husband to me .. Hell I know you set up .. Lol I hope there are Birthdays in Heaven cause I know you have a lot of your friends to share it with ( it's unfortunate for us ) .. Happy 64th My Dearest Mark .. Your forever in my heart .. I love you .. your Loving wife Karenski
August 22, 2014
Happy Birthday Mark miss you.
August 21, 2014
Happy Birthday Mark
August 21, 2014
Happy Birthday Mark...Rest in Peace my Friend...
August 21, 2014
I miss you Man.... To one of my Dearest, craziest friends. ps... Thanks for the House and part time job. Edda
August 20, 2014
Dearest Mark, today is your birthday. I remember enjoying those birthdays along with my sweet Hubby. Where has time gone. I hope you and Leo are enjoying this day together as I know my Daughter Karen will never forget those days and miss you as she misses her Daddy.
August 20, 2014
I will never forget Mark he has the same Birthday as my grandma Ruth Weaver She is 92
August 20, 2014
My Dearest Mark Happy Birthday ??,,,Your last Birthday seems like yesterday yet its seems like forever to hear your voice ,,,I hooey there are Birthdays in Heaven. Sadly there are so many of our friends there to celebrate with you (give everyone a hug ),, On top of being your Birthday we have made the decision to renew the lease on the bar ,,you better keep holding my hand ,I can't say it hasn't been easy ,,I've had so many health issues ,without our employees we would never be celebrating our 7th year on Sept 5th ,,lol remember that day ,,smiling ,,Joe has been so good to me Mark I know you'd haunt him if he wasn't ,,hes been my rock threw so many days of sadness ,Ive been blessed ,, I hope your taking care of my Dad , I miss him so much it hurts ,,Give him a hug and tell him how much I love him(and of course you Mom ),,,I talk to your Dad here and there ,,God Bless him he may not get around easily but he's still there in smarts lol ,,,,We my eyes are raying and I can't see to type so I'm going to say bye ,,,I Love Mark your always in my heart ,,Keep holding my ,,PS tell our kids Harley, Beau ,Sammy ,Harley and Arthur Mommy loves them Happy 64th Honey xoxoxoox , Your loving wife Karen
December 31, 2013
Tnx for rembering Mark ,, shep I sure do remember you ;). ,, My dearest Mark it would have been 4 years tomorrow we finally tied the knot after 10 yrs ,, so sad 10 months later you went to heaven ,, I love you and miss you everyday ,,, happy New Years in Heaven ,, happy 4 th Wedding Anniversay
December 28, 2013
Hi Karen,I say all the time "you can't beat that saving you money got us here" That was one of Mark's famous commercials He is forever in my thoughts. I owned Shep's Tavern in Cohoes and me and mark became great friends. He is a great person and missed dearly in our area.But I know he's smiling looking down at all of us
Keep the faith
Shep
December 27, 2013
Received a great gift I recently received phone calls from bothe Pat NcCullum and Fred Sassie ,, theyiss you so ,,, your forever loved ,, keep holdings hand
December 27, 2013
Karen I read these entries and realize how lucky my friend Mark was I am sure he is smiling and probably making a joke about it.He is still in many conversations here in NY we are also smiling his catch phrase "go see Mark" is repeated regularly.I hope you are very happy you deserve it,
December 25, 2013
Hi Mark, I just saw this link from Karen. I didn't know about it till now. hope you have found your bar stool in Heaven. Miss you and your jokes.
Merry Christmas,
EDDA
December 24, 2013
MerryChristmas my Dearest Mark ,, I know your smiling at all the kids in Port Charlotte opening their presents from Santa ,,, thank you for holding my hand. ,, miss you every day. Give hugs to my Dad Your Mom , my Brother , Sister in law and our friends that left too early. Xoxo , your Karenski
December 16, 2013
Missing you <3 Keep holding my hand
October 14, 2013
I know you are holding Karen's hand today because it a very difficult one. Her love for you and her love for Joe are intertwined today. That is not a coinisidance that one wonderful occasion and one so sad should have happened. I think it is to bring two loved ones together into one loving family. On this special day I wish you to give special love to my Hubby, my baby Son, my Dear Mom and so many others that have left me and my family. Love you,
October 14, 2013
Rest in Peace Mark...

Fred Sasse
October 13, 2013
My Dearest Mark ( this may be the 2nd one today I think I lost the other one I wrote) Three years ago we put you back on a ventilated hoping your infection would get better ( you were so mad ) after 24 hours I had to make a decision noone should ever have to make for a 60 yr old man that was my best friend , lover, and Husband to rear in peace forever . You died 3:05 in my arms on 10/14/10 your with me everyday ,, I know it's what you wanted and im finding peace with it as much as I can ,,,I'm writing a day early cause as you know; you set us up) its Joes Birthday tomorrow as well. A joy and a sorry in one day. ,, so I'm separating today and tomorrow. ,, I miss you Mark everyday , I know your at peace because your presence is rare anymore ,, your happy for me ,, never stop holding my hand ,,,, give love to my Dad , your Mom , my Brother , Lee and all our friends that I miss dearly. ,,,, there will be a toast in honor of you ,,, I love you. , your Karwnski
October 13, 2013
My dearest Mark . Three years ago on Oct 14th I had to make a decision that noone should ever have to make in their lifetime to end your lover , best friend and Husbands life ,, I know it's what you wanted it just wears hard on my daily ,,, your so missed not just by me , but others here in Florida ,, I know you were a big part of finding happiness for me again with Joe ,, it's amazing you would find a man that has a Birthday on the same day I grieve for you on the Anniversay of your passing ,, that's how you were .. Making sure I'd be ok. ,, I love you even more for that ,, I know your at peace ,, your signs aren't as pronounced of your presence. .. I do know your are holding my hand !!! MS Rascals is doing ok baby ,, it's all because of you ,, keep us all well and give your Mom , my Dad , Brother ,Lee and all our friends ; the wrecking crew a hug ,, I miss you all. And I Love You my Mark ,,, I'm writing a day early because of Joes Birthday I want to smile for him as well. Keep holding my hand Mark ,. Your forever in my heart. Give all our kids a hug , your loving wife , Karenski
August 21, 2013
I am writing to you to watch over Karen and help her with her bar. Her kitchen is driving her crazy so give her peace and the people doing the work, do it fast and perfect.
August 20, 2013
Remembering you on your birthday Mark,God Bless You and Rest in Peace...
August 20, 2013
Happy 63rd Birthday my Dearest Mark ... I hope your up in Heaven having one heck of a party with of our friends that have left us too soon .. I miss you Mark everyday and doing my best to keep your dream MS Rascals up and running ( I know your with I couldn't do it without your guidance ,,,sending you a hug and kiss with a big Birthday Wish ,, I love you ,, keep holing my hand
April 14, 2013
Hi Mark I wrote last month it was Two and a half years its actually today. So unbelievable it's bee m that long. Still miss you everyday. Keep holdings hand. Love you
March 14, 2013
Mark , it's two and a half years ago you closed your eyes for good ,,, I still question what you were trying to say before the Meds kicked in ,, I believe you were trying to say it was ok. Somedays I wonder where the time went. I'm blessed to have had the strength too be on . As you know Joe is amazing ,, i thank you for guiding me most of all holding my hand in my daily decisions ,,, I love you And miss you Xoxo
February 13, 2013
Hi Mark i know its been a while since Ive written ,,,You left me a Bar ,,lol ..Well tomorrow is the 28th month since you went to heaven and my Birthday ,,, Thats changed quite a bit ,,now i only celebrate 1 day ,,You had the most amazing Birthday gatherings for me ,,so sweet ... Well, leased out the kitchen so i dont have to worry about the dinners coming out wrong ... I heard from Tony Sabatino he misses and thinks of you often ,,how can not think of you ,,your presence is everywhere we look ,a car commercial , a Bad joke lol pretty much everything ,,, i had another surgery ,,4of my disk in my neck fused lets hope thats it for awhile .. take care of that for me lol..Give my daddy a big hug as well as your Mom ...Your forever in my Heart ..Happy Karen's Day ,,xoxox
October 16, 2012
Rest in Peace my friend...You are truly missed.
October 15, 2012
Dear Mark, As Karen says, time does seem to stand still sometimes but other times it flies. Two years already. Thank you for always being with her during those hard days and she will never forget your love but life goes on. Say hello to my beloved Hubby.
Love, your Mom in Law
October 14, 2012
Mark,,Two years ,,they say time flies ,,I say time stands still .. Two years ago today was like ifell asleep and woke up 5 minutes later ,,My memory of two years ago is vivid it takes my breath away ... Yes i have moved on with my life and I know your happy for me .. How weird Joes bithday today and your anniversay of your passing ?? somehow some way you managed to finagle this happening ,,, We had your Memorial Bike Run last weekend and Fred and i released you bandana on the 776 bridge ,,, It was the right thing to do :)... Imiss my Mark and thankful everyday to have you as my husband, bestfriend, and now my Guardian Angel ... Keep holding my .. I love you ... Your Karenski
September 07, 2012
Karen,
Congratulations on you 5 year Anniversay. You have something to be so proud of. You kept Mark's dream alive during a very hard time In your life. Be happy and know that you have 2 special angels watching over you.

Kathy
September 07, 2012
I agree with your Mom Karen.
September 06, 2012
Karen, time flies and I know Mark is behind you and is so proud that you and you alone have been able to keep and produce a business and give of yourself all those years of helping not only children but friends in need.
I feel that your father and I have been very blessed. Love, Mom
September 05, 2012
Hi Mark, Today 5 years ago we opened up MS RASCALS LOONY BIN ,,, It was such happy day after all we went threw to open ,,, Your MS RASCALS Mark and I'm doing everything i can to keep you Legacy prevail,, Your missed everyday ,,, I know your Proud today :) Keep holding my hand ,,,i love you xoxox
August 21, 2012
Remembering your birthday Mark...God Bless You and Rest in Peace my friend...
August 20, 2012
Hi Mark time has passed so quickly here but you will always be here in our hearts as a great friend to all of us,a person that is kind fun and giving.Your dreams are alive and go on still today for the Toys for tots and MS RAScals LB. God Bless you . DJ George.
August 20, 2012
Karen, I'm sure it's heart warming to know Mark is guiding you. Life gives us our ups and downs. Be thankful you have had that and there is a light at the end of your tunnel! Enjoy! You are so fortunate!
August 20, 2012
Happy Birthday My Mark ,,, there is no doubt in my mind HEAVEN is ROCKIN !!! We always loved Our Birthday , your not here physically , but Spiritually your presence will be felt by all that know and love you ,,, so instead of you receiving a present We have the biggest present of all ,,, knowing you ,,, BTW Did you hear about the Dead Alligator on the Beach ,,,,,,, :) Happy 62 nd Birthday ,,, PS thank you for the most wonderful gift you gave me ,,, the pieces of my broken heart whole again ,,,,,,, keep holding my hand ,,,, I ? you give my Daddy My Brother , Lee your Mom Our Kids and our Dear Friends my love
May 14, 2012
Hi My Mark, well another months gone by without a joke aor hearing you laugh ,,, im so thankful for the memories... Well i hope our babies are content with being all together again,,,, i cant believe my whole family I came down here with are all gone,,Mark my heart is so empty with without all of you ... I knew the day would come I'd have to say good bye ,, just harder then I ever thought,,, Watch over my babies ,,, love you Mark and miss you ,,give my dad a hug ...your Mom too... Kryptonite .... keep holding my hand xoxox
April 15, 2012
Dear Mark, Watch over my dear Daughter. Time has given her happiness again and I Know You approve so keep Joe well. Give my love to Dad and my baby. Love, Mom
April 15, 2012
H MARK IT WAS 18 MONTHS AGO YESTERDAY YOU CLOSED YOUR EYES,,, I CANT BELIEVE ITS A YEAR AND A HALF ,,,WOW ,,, MISS YOU LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY. .. WE HAD THE POKER RUN TODAY FOR ST JUDE WE DID A LITTLE OVER 4,000.00 NOT TOO BAD LOTS GOING ON IN PUNTA GORDA ,,, THE BAR DID OKAY,, IM KEEPING IT GOING ANYWAY LOL THANK YOU TONYA AND PETER FOR YOUR NOTE TO MARK,,, YOU WONT BE FORGOTTEN MARK ,,,, IM HAPPY HONEY KEEP DOING WHAT YOUR DOING ,,HOLD MY HAND XOXOX I LOVE YOU
April 14, 2012
YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN
April 06, 2012
I never met you Karen but my friend Mark was a very fortunate man to have a loving woman like you Happy Easter to both of you I will say a prayer for you ...and Mark
April 03, 2012
My dearest Mark, you are and will always be in my heart ,Our love is one that is for eternity,,,,I know you are holding my hand putting in Joes... we had this conversation before... ( I never believed I could move forward and told you that ) huh, thank you for being the man you are ,,,I know you are without a doubt happy for me ,,, I know you always wanted me to be takin care of and loved.... Joe does ,,,, I know you will be standing by myside on Friday giving Joe my hand , along with dad ,,,,, I love you my Mark,,,Thank you for loving me ,,,your beloved wife , Karenski
March 14, 2012
My Mark its 17 months ..I was getting my hair done today and told Mindy how many months it was and we both commented on how it seemed like yesterday ... She misses you too baby. I went to Daytona last weekend and every exit I thought about my drive with you to the May o Clinic in Jacksonville... God I thought I had lost you on the way , little did I know I would be driving back without you ... I can hardly remember that drive , I was so numb . I try to put all those memories aside and consintrate on all the good. Thank the Lord I cam , you gave me am endless number of them. Wish me luck on St Patrick's Day , cooking my famous CORNBEEF dinner ... I cam see your smile now , not going to ever be the same without you and Daddy , you both couldn't wait for that meal ... Hope you can still enjoy it someway somehow.... Mark I love and miss you every minute of the day. Let me feel you told my hand your Kareneki
February 14, 2012
Hi my Darling Mark, So bitter sweet today ,,, I know you want me to smile and enjoy my birthday lol (my day ) its hard ,you went to sleep 16 months today,,,, I know you will be with me and smile with me all day ,,, you always made this day the most special a women could dream of,,, thank you for the memories Mark .... Give my Dad and your Mom , most of you a Special Valentines Wish , Hug and kiss Ilove you
January 16, 2012
My Mark ,Fifteen months ago today , Wow ,,, Somedays feel like an eternity and other days its like you just said some kindof silly joke.... No matter how many days I miss you ,,, I know you are happy I found Joe to fill my heart with love again ( Hell, I know you have alot to do with it LOL) keep holding my hand ,,, I love you Baby,,, give my love to Daddy and your Mom xoxox, Your Karenski
January 02, 2012
My Mark , Happy 2nd Aniversary... I am so lucky to have u as my husband, when you gave me your heart and last name it was the happiest day of my life,,, I know u want me to continue my life ,,, I also know you are mending my broken heart lol you do work in mysterious ways .... Hold my hand and I will follow.... I love you Mark,, Hug my Dad and your mom ,,,
December 25, 2011
Merry Christmas Mark,
This is your second Christmas in heaven. Pray for all of us and watch over Karen. She worked so hard to carry out your annual
toys for Tots drive. She managed to go over last years totals even in this economic hard times. She misses you, but is slowly opening her heart up for someone else. Guide her through this new journey in her life. It is hard to move on, but I know that this is what you would want for her.
Kathy and Bill Shover
December 14, 2011
Hi my sweetheart, today is another month of missing you ,,,as the holidays approach it gets harder knowing your not here,,, I know you have been by myside especially the Toys for tots party $ 16, 160,00 570 toys ,, its not the same without you, its so hard ,but you are still loved and people are watching over me .... I know you know what im referring to and I think you have alot to do with my mending heart,,,, I love you and always will... I'm missing Dad, Mom broke down and cried today ,, I know how lonely she is ,, I just wish i could fix it ,,So ask my Daddy to help her herat stop aching so hard .Sending love to your Mom ,,,, hold my hand so i know its all going to be okay.... I Love you my Mark
December 10, 2011
Mark,
Be there for Karen tomorrow. It is a very special day and one that the two of you did together for so many years. Hold her hand and ler feel your presence and all will go well for her and the children.
Love, Kathy and Bill
December 02, 2011
Hi my sweet Mark, I have been real buxy with our TOYS FOR TOTS BIKE RUN ,, We have raised $ 13,777.00 and 430 toy so far,,We still have our invitation party, I really wanted to make $ 20,000.00 its going rough but i;m trying,,, I jave missed you nso much ,,, This year has been really hard. Last year i was in shock and denied you were gone,,, Hold my hand give me the strenght to get threw the holidays and our wedding anniversary . I'm going tobe alone this year for Christmas I figure I have to face it someday,,, Give my Dad and your Mom a hug , I have to get to work,,, I love you my Mark
November 24, 2011
Happy Thanksgiving Mark,
It has been 13 months since you left and your 2nd Thanksgiving in heaven. Watch over Karen as she serves her special Thanksgiving dinner at the bar and be with her this week for the Toys for Tots drive for the kids. It was something that the two of you shared and will always share with each other.
Love, Kathy and Bill
November 15, 2011
Hi my sweet Mark , I'm writing s second time not sure if the first went threw. 13 Months and it feels like yesterday. I try so hard everyday to go on my everyday life and I get this feeling I cant breath (anxiety) I know . Hold my hand , give Me a reason to smile. I love you my sweetheart. Give my love to Daddy and your Mom xoxo
November 14, 2011
Hi my sweet Mark. It's 13 months today. Time heal , my days aren't crying all day... The emptiness doesn't go away . I so miss you baby.... i love you sweetie. Nite nite
November 01, 2011
I love you
sweetheart, i wrote you last night I don't see it ,,, you know what I said xoxo
November 01, 2011
Hi my Sweet Mark , Well you Memorial run was overwhelming honey. You are still apart of so many peoples hearts. I am so proud to be your wife and to see how many lives you've touched. Fred wore your jacket , Bob had one of your license plates on the back of his bike. You traveled the whole journey. I knew you want to be apart of it all. We raised.Just over $3,200. In your honor. It gives me chills. Fred. Sent a check in for the kids. Him and Pat called me to check on me. They miss you so. They are tallking about coming down to say hi. I sure would like it. Honey I miss you baby. I know what you did with your neckless. I love knowing you here with me. Give my love to Daddy and your Mom. Watch over your Dad. He's getting weak baby. I love you sweetheart. Watch over us xoxo nite nite
October 14, 2011
Mark, I was with Fred tonight and we spent a lot of time going over things we did together. Did we really do all that? It sure brought back the good times. Things were so much easier, so carefree and so much fun. I will never forget them. I will say a prayer for Karen and will call her soon. I miss you terribly.
October 14, 2011
My Mark, one year ago you went to
god, I felt you take your last breath , I remember how peaceful you were and for that i can be at peace. You are in my heart ,,,,I thank the Lord for the time we had together and the love we had for one another ,,,, I'm taking the wonderful memories and carring them with me all day..... I'm smiling .... Hold my Hand xoxo i love you, your Devoted wife , ME
October 14, 2011
My beloved Mark, They say time heals ,,, my heart aches just as much 1 year later. I am going to be strong today for you. I just got off the the phone with your Dad,
he was cute . i said i wanted him to know i was thinking of him and he chuckled and said , well thank you I knowm its not my birthday ,,,, he misses you honey,,, i know many people are smiling because of you today, all the laughter you brought into so many peoples lives , we are all so lucky to be touched by knowing you ... I just happen to be the blessed one , your wife .... hold my hand .. I love you my Mark
October 14, 2011
Mark,the memories of our friendship still brings smiles to my face.Rest in Peace my friend.
October 14, 2011
Good Morning Mark, Today as well as everyday is going to be extremely hard for my dear Daughter. I know her heart is longing to have you near and this is my prayer too as I hurt to see her in pain. I know her Father is with you and she needs you both to assure her that your strength is with her. I want to be there for her and I want her to know I understand these painful days and we need each other. I do not know why both of you left us at thr same time but maybe with your guidance we will undersatand some day. There is going to be a memorial for you soon and I know there will be hubdreds of people to honor you. We miss you.
October 13, 2011
Mark,
It is almost midnight and tomorrow is your 1st Anniversary ..the day you left on your journey to heaven. Like it was with our Dad, this time without seems like an eternity, but in the scheme of life, it has been only a short time. Karen has had a difficult year without you, but has held her head up high and has kept your dream alive, your MS Rascals. She has done an amazing job and the place is booming. You are still missed by all those who knew you. This is the second year that Karen will be raising money for the charity the two of you treasured, Toys for Tots. May this year beat out last years total by a landslide. Be there for Karen and hold her hand. Let her feel your presence and help her to get through the end of the firsts.
Miss you,
Kathy and Bill
October 12, 2011
Hi my Sweetheart, i was looking threw my pictures today and came across the last picture i ever took of you , i remember it like it was yesterday,, I came in your hospital room and you had a grin from ear to ear the male just shaved your beard off as ill as you were you looked so handsome. You posed and smiled ( i wonder now if you knew that would be your last picture).... I need a favor stick close to me hold my hand these next few days are going to be difficult... I will do my best to stay strong I promise. Jack painted your picture on the wall at Rascals .. It looks great , It almost gives me a feeling of peace ,,Im going to sign off for now , know I love you and miss you with every beat of my heart, you loving Karen
September 29, 2011
Hi swetheart I'm confused I have written to u and don't see them. I feel terrible you haven't receved my letters. It seems I'm alway writting when I get done working and can't keep my eye open. So I just want to tell u. I love and miss you 0oxo
September 15, 2011
Dearest Mark, I am so sorry I failed to remember your 11th anniversary and no excuse is right but I will try. I just came back to Florida with Lori and with all the unpacking and refreshing my apartment time flashed by. I will be here with Karen and be at here side if that is what she wants. Next month is the hardest and Karen will need your intervention more than ever. October will be the last of the firsts and time for a new year not of forgetting but giving life a new start as I am sure Mark and her Daddy would want us both to do. My love
September 14, 2011
Mark,
It has now been 11 months since you left on your journey
to heaven. You were remembered in church on Sunday on our Dad's first anniversary. Time seems to be moving so fast, but slow at the same time. Karen is going to be facing a very difficult day next month on your anniversary. Keep holding her hand and letting her feel your presence. She needs that now.
Love, Kathy and Bill
September 07, 2011
Hold my hand. Give me strenght to get threw these difficult days. I love you
August 22, 2011
Hi handsome , I love and miss you
August 20, 2011
Happy Birthday Mark,You are missed by many friends,You have left a lasting impression everywhere,The Calumet Region where you grew up to New York,Boston and Florida,You made many friends and they all miss you.Rest in Peace my friend...
August 20, 2011
Happy Birthday Mark, Little did we know I would be wishing you a birthday wish in heaven this year. I sang to you this morning as this is tradition as long as I am here on earth. You are so missed by a lot of people. Your generousity to always be there to extend your hand to anyone in need, so many children have toys each year is a dedication to your menory. Karen was very blessed to have had you in her life. Today will be a sad day but we are very happy to have had you in our family. Karen says she is having a birthday celebration but down deep I know how hard this day will be. I also know her Daddy will be there for her.
All my love
August 19, 2011
Although I've talked to you many times in the last ten months, I have not written anything in your book. This is to wish you a happy birthday and I'm sure you are enjoying it. I miss you Mark, with all the talks and reminiscing we always ended up doing for hours on end. I am a better person for having known you.

I love you and miss you.

Pat
August 19, 2011
My dearest Mark, Happy Birthday sweetheart. Its another 1st without you , This time its your day and I know what you want more than anything in his world, but to celebrate your day with great friends , As your birthday gift I'm going to put my head up and enjoy the years we've had. So Cheers my Darling Mark. I love u.
August 14, 2011
Dearest Mark, Another anniversary. Where does the time go. You left us 10 months ago and Karen has keep your dreams alive. Her determination amazes me but Karen was always a live wire growing up. Over the years on August 14th she always celebrated this day as her 1/2 birthday but I am sure this 1/2 birthday is not going to be the same. If we could just turn time back a year and 1/2 but we have no choice. Your birthday is coming up and this is another day to cope for Karen but I know you will be with her and also her Daddy who loved her very much help make these days easier. My love to you. Your Mom in Law
August 14, 2011
My Darling Mark , another month is here without you here here next. To me 10 months of lonely nights wishing you were next to me . I still miss you ljust as much , my heart aches just as much , I cry just as much. . On top of this its your birthday week . I'm trying to bie strong , I know you want the best for me and I will for you , guide me threw these days ahead I need you. I luve and miss you my sweet Mark. XOXO
August 13, 2011
Mark,
I am sending this a day early as we are leaving tomorrow for Florida, your home with Karen. It has been 10 months since you left on your journey. Time seems to be moving fast but slow at the same time. Karen is missing you and this month is going to be especially hard as the 20th would have been your birthday. Keep her safe and healthy. Let her feel your presence and send her signs that you are will her. Your special Toys for Tots drive is underway. I know that it is going to be bigger than ever.
Miss you,
Kathy and Bill
August 03, 2011
Hi my darling mark Iv been busy going to NY , doctors my reunion , I'm glad i went .It was so nice seeing everyone . They have been so supportive of me since i lost you. I couldn't ask for better friends. Its like time stood still. The only difference is were older. I came back to work last night only to find someone stole the gernade off the bar. How low was that??? I have to admit i was very emotional. Then today something made me go in your office and right there on your desk was the twin of the other grenade. Dick had two on the plaque he made for you. I am thrilled. I wouldn't b able to handle looking at the plaque everyday without the grenade on it. The bar is doing okay. Finally had to buy a new ice machine. Not the best time of year to invest in one, but necessary. All our kids are doing fine Sammy hates the thunder storms as usual. lol. Pore baby. As the days get closer to your birthday i'm not sure as to what i can and can not handle. I'm sure you will give me the stength to be strong. that's what you do best. I love you sweetheart. Watch over us , your in my heart , give my dad ,brother , Lee and your mom a big hug. I miss all of you. Good nite my darling Mark I love u, forever your Karenski
July 15, 2011
I know for certain we never lose the people we love even in death. They continue to participate in every act, thought and decision we make.
Their love leaves an indelible inprint in our memories.
We find comfort in knowing that our lives have been enriched by having shared their love.
The things they taught us and the secrets we shared will never leave us and that will keep us striving to become the person we were when they were here with us. Because in reality we haven't changed only our lives did.
Sorry Karen for your loss.
July 14, 2011
Dearest Mark, I know today is hard for Karen. Every day is hard but anniversaries are even more difficult. Nine months does not seem possible. Time passes one day at a time and each day never changes. I know Karen is very upset today, help her with your strength. I know how hard it is because my sweetheart is with you all.
Throw kisses down and Karen will feel them. Love, Mom in Law
July 14, 2011
Mark,
I just came home from work and my first thought was to sit down and send you a note on this your 9 month anniversary. As I put my bag down, I found a penny on the floor. I know it wasn't there this morning because I would have seen it when I picked up my bag. I know it is a sign from both you and my Dad.
You were greatly missed at Bob's wedding. It was very hard for Karen. You were such a caring and giving man. I know that when Lee was so sick and dying, you were there to help out a little financially at a time when it was most needed. It was what came to me as I saw Bob being married and watching Karen knowing that she was wishing you were there with her. These first are so hard. Keep her safe and healthy. Let her continue to feel your presence and send her signs that you are always with her. Give my Dad a hug for me.
Love, Kathy and Bill
July 14, 2011
my dearest mark , its nine months today you left me , its so hard on these days , i can't get past never seeing you walk threw the door , seeing that beautiful smile those beautiful blue eyes , your arms around me, or your lips kissing me telling me you love me , somedays i get so angry why did god took you with all the others that are evil and distructive. i know we all die one day , your days were cut too short. i do hope your at peace and watching over us. give my love to my dad your mom and of course my brother brian and lee . my tears are filling my eyes can't see to write. i just want you to know how much i love and miss you sweetheart, your in my heart xoxo
June 29, 2011
June 29, 2011
THE LOVE THAT A MAN AND WOMAN SHARE IS A MOST PRECIOUS GIFT SOME SHARE MORE THAN JUST LOVE THEY SHARE HEART AND SOUL FOR THIS GIFT IS NOT GIVEN TO EVERY MAN AND WOMAN JUST THRU MARRIAGE THIS IS A GIFT FROM OUR LORD HE GIVES THIS SPECIAL LOVE TO VERY FEW!! BE THANKFUL NOT SAD YOU HAD AND HAVE THE GREATEST LOVE OF ALL THIS LOVE WILL CARRY YOU MAKE YOU SMILE ,CRY AND REMEMBER THE MEMORIES THE GREAT MEMORIE WILL SOOTH YOUR SORROW, THESE MEMORIES WILL BRING SO MUCH GOOD THAT YOUR HEART WILL REALIZE THAT ITS SORROW SHOULD BE TURNING TO THE JOY THAT IS WANTED FOR YOU!! FOR YOU DESIRE JOY AND PEACE!!! YOU KNOW THIS IS WHAT MARK WANTS FOR YOU AND NO MATTER WHAT!!! YOU WILL ALWAYS BE CONNECTED IN HEART AND SOULFOR HE IS ALWAYS YOUR DEAREST MARK!! I ONLY WISH I WILL EXPERIENCE THIS TYPE OF LOVE BEFORE I PASS !! HOW LUCKY I WILL FEEL NO SADNESS ONLY JOY!!! GOD BLESS YOU BOTH KAREN YOU ARE SO SPECIAL ALL THAT KNOW YOU KNOW THIS!!!MAY THE LORDS PEACE BE WITH YOU ALWAYS
June 29, 2011
I love and miss u
June 28, 2011
Hi my dearest Mark , I've been busy with work and the house. Kinda tired , but hanging in. I'm geting ready to sign a new lease. I've worked out the details with Thurston I think you would agee with everything. Edda is away and Jackie is doing a great job. So far its going smoothly , but as you well know there is always something. Lol. Our Sammy is so stressed with the storms everyday. I wish I could help her. Doggie downers help but not enough. I wish you were here for her. How you would lay on our closet floor where there were no windows to calm them down. I believe that's where she goes when I'm not home , my shoes are moved somewhat so I know. Lol. I'm going to bobs wedding on the 9th. I'm leaving on the seventh and can't wait to. See our little Tia. I miss her so much. Well time for me to get to bed. Going to motor vehicals tomoorrow and finally changing the tags on the cars to florida. Bittersweet. But Time. I love you my Mark and miss you so. Good nite honey. Your loving Karenski
June 19, 2011
Hi baby. Its fathers day and my emotions have gotten the best of me. It just doesn't seem real for my dad not to be here. But it is real and it hurts so bad. I know he's with us but I need u to reach out and give him a hug. Oh I just hate holidays. I'll get threw today I have you to hold my hand. I love and miss you. Nite sweetie.
June 15, 2011
Sending you kisses!!!!!!!
June 14, 2011
Mark,
It is hard to believe another month has passed and you have been in heaven for 8 months now. The time is going fast, but seems to be standing still at the same time. Keep Karen close safe and watch over her. She is working so hard to keep your dream alive, M.S. Rascals. From what she is saying, the bar is doing really well. May this years Toys for Tots drive be even bigger than it was last year.
Give my dad a hug for me,
Kathy and Bill
June 14, 2011
Hi my sweetie. It's 8 mo honey you haven't time home .I realize I was hoping.you sent on a vacation and would b returning soon I realize now your not . While being away I ve done a lot of soul searching im going to b okay. I can smile now instead of tears I can walk in our home and not feel sad .these things may seem minute but to me its huge. I love you honey. U in my heart always. Xoxo. Your loving wife Karen
June 14, 2011
Good Morning Mark, 8 months already. I know you know Karen took a cruise and I was glad she had a break as she is so dedicated to your dream of M.S.Rascels.
I am sure you enjoyed the cruise with her on her shoulder. Say hello to Dad in law and watch over us all. We all miss you, Love, Mom in Law
June 09, 2011
Hi my darling Mark. Well I'm all packed to go on the cruise. I'm asking you to watch over the bar our dogs. Our home and me. I'm going to get on the boat chill and get the rest I need and come home refreshed. God only knows how much I need to do this. Its going to be strange not going away with you especially going to Cozamel without you. That was where we went for our last vacation together. Know you will be in my heart. And thoughts. I love you honey. Nite nite. Your Karenski
June 05, 2011
Hi sweetheart. Hope you've been watching and guiding me. We had a terrific weekend at Rascals. When I walk out the door look up at the sky talk to you and throw you a kiss everynite I believe you are listening. Thank u. Tomorroe is Dads birthday the first without him here and it hurts. Give him my love honey I miss him. I miss our tia so much. She brings me so much love and laughter Harley and Sam do aswell their so sweet , Tia is a puppy runs around and makes me laugh makes the house livelier. Is just so lonely here. I'm tempted to go get my mom her own , allright I hear you now lol. See you made me laugh. Ok on that note I'm going to say goodnight. I love and miss you honey. Hugs and kisses. Tell my Daddy Happy Birthday.
June 01, 2011
Hi honey. Just a quick note to let you know I'm thinking of you x0x0
May 29, 2011
Just want you to know how much I hate the holiday weekends. I Love you
May 28, 2011
Hi my Mark came home from work a little early tonight remember last year how my neck was so bad well its happened again. It is so painful. So I'm trying to be good !!!! Lol. Ya right. Business has been hanging in there. We've been cleaning and painting. Its looking much better. Edda is doing a great job. He's going on vacation most of june and july. Going to miss him. !!!!!! We have a new menu , Dale did a great job on it you would have loved it. In keeping with Rascals theme. We are getting noticed for all the bands we've been pulling in. I'm sure you would be real proud. I can just see you looking at me with those incredible blue eyes of yours and with your smug look saying. Good job Karenski and look away and grin. I'm smilling. God I miss you not talking back !!!!! Jerk , ! The dogs are doing oKay. Smmy is still lonely. She cries here and there. Let's not mention the thunderstorms !!!! Shhh. Mom is leaving for NY on Sunday I'm letting her take Tia. I'm going to miss her so much. I'm going on a cruise for 4 days I can't imagine leaving her with anyone else. I'm going up for bobs wedding in july so I'll bring her back then. Well time to close. I love my Mark and miss the heck out of you. Watch over Dad and your mom my brother and lee. Surround our home with peace. Nite my darling X0X0 your loving Karenski
May 18, 2011
Hi sweetie I'm sitting at home with the dogs , its so quiet. Gives me a sickning feeling knowing your not here with us physically. I sit here imagining you laying down on the couch so exhausted from the long hours at work and now its me. Roll reversal. Huh. I miss us !!!! I have the visaul and the memories I'm grateful. I love and miss you. I'm filling with tears so I'm going to say goodnight. Watch over us and give my love to dad and your Mom your in my heart ,your love Karen
May 15, 2011
Mark, sorry this is a day late. 7 months ago you took your journey to heaven. So much has transpired for Karen since you left. She continues to run the bar you loved so much. Give her the strength to continue to make it a success. Watch over her and keep her safe. Pray for all of us and give my Dad a hug for me.
Love, Kath and Bill
May 14, 2011
Hii my darling Mark. Its another aniversay. 7months you haven't been home. Our home is so lonly without you. I thank god I have our "kids" to bring some kind of laughter and noise. I know someday it will be easier I just pray you are at peace. Business has been okay I just pray it continues. With your guidence we'll do fine. My eyes are getting real heavy. I love u. My wondrful Mark. I love u your karenski
May 10, 2011
Thinking of you and coming home Its so lonely, need to feel close. I love you sweetie
May 08, 2011
Hi sweetheart. As you know I've had some long days and nights. Some good days and some unsettling nights. I know your with me I can feel you reading my mind. I'm kind of nervous about my eyes. My left eyes pretty bad. I'm glad Barbie talked me into going to the hospital. She was relieved aswell. Looks like have to re evaluate a few things and start thinking about what's best for me and my health. I know you , you'll guide me in the right direction. Todays is mothers day I'm glad your able to be with your mom again. I know how much you love her. Embrass her and send her my love I know my Moms very depressed. All her children are up north. I'm going to do my best to give her a Happy day. Let my Dad know how I miss him. I'm. Going to try and sleep my eyes have been threw a lot today. Good night my darling Mark. Your Loving Karenski
May 02, 2011
I love and miss you. Extend your heavenly arms around me. I need a hug. I love you
April 28, 2011
Hi honey I don't know what's going on I've written to u twice and I haven't seen it. Don't think I'm forgetting you. Not for one second. !!!!! I love you sweetheart. Your in my heart your loving Karenski
April 24, 2011
Happy Easter Mark, I am thinking of you today on this blessed Holiday. I am going out for Brunch with your beautiful bride. She is working so hard to keep your spirit alive in the bar. I know you are proud of her and are resting on her shoulder to lighten her load. Tell my Hubby I miss him although I am sure he knows.
Your loving Mom in Law, Lois
April 24, 2011
Mark,
We want you to know that you are greatly missed and this will be a very difficult day for Karen. She is trying so hard to carry on with your dream and to make you proud of her. Give her the strength to get through this holiday without you and send her a sign that you are with her always.
Kathy and Bill
April 23, 2011
Short and sweet I Love you Mark T Smith
April 21, 2011
Hi my sweet Mark. Its Thursday afternoon and I'm relaxing on our couch. Feels so good to relax then again you know that. ! Very rare you layed on the couch in the afternoon. Lol. Rascals has been doing pretty good. We've got some great bands coming in that have turned out to be like they've played there for twenty years. They have been promoting each others bands , some hang out together. A majority get on FB and promote our place daily. Word on the street is Rascals and our how we are changng up our venue with. Dailey specials 5 nights of bands 3 with Dee Jay. ( You would have gotten a kick out of Tammy. She is a hoot). Eddies been doing a great job. I'm waringhim out. Lol. I had to go threw your office desk at home for insurance papers , honey I'm still not ready. Everything I looked at reminded me of buying this house and staying here together retired. You saved everything. Even our first invitation to our Toys for Tots party here at the house. All the dogs papers. I just can't handle that !!!!!!! Well I have an hour or so. Going to try to close my eyes. I love u. Stay close. Give my daddy a hug and your Mom. Your loving karen
April 18, 2011
Hi sweetie. I have had a very emotional week. I've tried to be strong unfortunatly I failed. Sorry !!! The 14 th was so difficult it brought me back to the hospital and making the decission to take you off life support and you trying to tell me something. It haunts me that I don't know what it was. I have the comfort you told me you loved me and kissed me I just wish I knew what you wanted to say. I'll never know. I thank god I have the wonderful memories. Without those oh I won't even go there..... I'm so glad to see Barbie wrote to you. I know all "our" kids miss and love you and go threw difficult days without you at Rascals keep watching over us its comforting. I have to tell you a story. Bob Bellemere went to the block party yesterday. The young Rascals were playing. He called there agent before ther preformance and asked if they would sing a song in your honor. Well apparently they did. After the song was over people clappped. Mark how wonderful to have Bob do that? You will never be forgotten honey. Business has been doing good. Where all working hard to make Rascals the #1 club in town. Iwas letting the dogs out when I came home as usual I loooked up at the sky the moon is full and so bright It looks so peaceful up there I sure hope its as peaceful where you are. I'm laying in our bed Harley is snoring as usual , Sammy is at my feet, Tias at moms and I'm going to sleep peacefully knowing your protecting us. I love you my Darling Mark. My heat is reaching out to you nite nite your loving Kareni
April 15, 2011
Mark, GRRR... Im so mad, I wrote this letter 10 times and have deleteed everyone! I never thought that the day Miss Karen pulled up it would be with the news that she gave to me! I cant believe it has been 6 months and i cant believe i still cry!! To be honest Mark I KNOW everything will be okay!! EVERYTHING always works out! I just wanted to let you know that Brandon and i still think and talk about you EVERYDAY!! We miss you so much...I dont know how MIss Karen does it! You truely are and have always been one of my Very best Friends... THATS NICE SO ANYWAY... XOXO
April 15, 2011
^ Mark.. 6 months have gone by.. some days go fast other days drag and we think of guys up there non stop.....take care of Andrea and have a shot for me...
Spike
April 14, 2011
miss you mark!
April 14, 2011
Mark,
You left for your journey to heaven 6 months ago today. It is such a short time but feels like an eternity. Karen misses you so much but is continuing on with your dream of making MS Rascals a big success. It was you baby and she is determined to see it grow into adulthood. Give her the strength to continue your work and give her the signs that you are with her always. Give our dad a hug from all of us.
Love,
Kathy and Bill
April 14, 2011
My darling Mark. I can't get over the pain of you not here. Its not any easierr if anything its getting harder. I try every day to do the right thing to continue your dream. I just hope its the right thing. I need to do the right thing. I'd never imagined I'd be stillopen much less 6mo. A half a year. God I miss you. My heart feels so alone. Ii don't know what. The actual definition of a broken heart is. I. Suer do now. I think some days I see the light at the end of a tunnel. I'm not even half way. I donnpeople t let people know how I cry every night I don't even. Think about how I'm feeling inside. All I know is I need you forever. I will love you for ever. Good nite me dear mark. Your for ever in my hear. Karenski
April 14, 2011
Dearest Mark, Time goes by so fast. You left Karen and our whole family six months ago. I know you are with Dad and your Mom and they may be happy but we down here miss you running around the bar. Karen is doing a wonderful job but she is so tired so I am asking you to give her the strength to make your dream come true. Her charities and bike runs to help others is so heartwarming but tiring. Six months is half of a year which a milestone of grief. Pray for Karen and all of us down here until we join all of our loved ones.
Love always, Mom in Law, Lois
April 09, 2011
Hi my sweet Mark. I still wait for you to walk in the front door every night. If only it we're true. I miss you. I need to feel you. I'm missing Daddy too. Hold on to me while I close my eyes to sleep. Goodnight my Mark. I love you
April 05, 2011
Hi Sweetheart, Spike just wrote a note to you. Give Andrea our love I know your protecting her and all our other friends Give you mom and my dad a hug I miss all of you. I've been real busy @ Rascals I think you would be real proud. I've made a few changes with help( not everyone agrees, but I know I have to look out for the business ) Edda is in agreement and that is someone I know you would trust opinion. Three of us had a nice business lunch talked over some ideas and I m opening up to them slowly. Guide me threw these decisions Mark. Give me the know how. I miss you honey. I can't believe its going to be a half a year on the 14th. I think about how I was so scared about how was I going to. Manage a week much less 6 mo running Rascals without you. I've made some mistakes along the way and learned by them. I'm going to make Rascals #1in Port Charlotte I won't let you down. All you have to do is keep me well and hold my hand. I love you honey. Comfort me in my. Dreams and watch over all that love you. Nite my darling mark. Forever in in my hear your Karenski
April 05, 2011
Hi Sweetheart, Spike just wrote a note to you. Give Andrea our love I know your protecting her and all our other friends Give you mom and my dad a hug I miss all of you. I've been real busy @ Rascals I think you would be real proud. I've made a few changes with help( not everyone agrees, but I know I have to look out for the business ) Edda is in agreement and that is someone I know you would trust opinion. Three of us had a nice business lunch talked over some ideas and I m opening up to them slowly. Guide me threw these decisions Mark. Give me the know how. I miss you honey. I can't believe its going to be a half a year on the 14th. I think about how I was so scared about how was I going to. Manage a week much less 6 mo running Rascals without you. I've made some mistakes along the way and learned by them. I'm going to make Rascals #1in Port Charlotte I won't let you down. All you have to do is keep me well and hold my hand. I love you honey. Comfort me in my. Dreams and watch over all that love you. Nite my darling mark. Forever in in my hear your Karenski
March 29, 2011
one year ago we lost Andrea .when I got out of the hospital Mark was there for me,, He is missed... I hope they'rr up there drinkin and a dancin together
March 29, 2011
Hi honey. My days have been long and exhausting. The bar is going threw what we would come home at night and look at each other and say Wow !!!!!! I'd say your the one that wanted to open a bar. Lol. I'm home and thankful I can smile. You wouldn't expect anything less of me. I look at it this way I'm one person with a heart and doing the best I can. If I fail I know I have givin my all ( by the way I won't). I'm more determined then ever not to. Keep giving me the stength to perservier. I haven't told you to hold my hand in a long time. I miss your touch So hold my hand so I can remember. Il love you Mark Smith. Your in my heart. Your loving wife Karenski. Give Daddy a hug
March 22, 2011
Hi honey I'm missing you deeply. I love you.
March 21, 2011
Hi honey. Well I did it went to a concert with some wonderful friends. I have to say I had laughs tears all those emotions I'm not ashamed to admit. I'm doing many first without you and asking why didn't we fulfill the things we wanted to but never did. This is why I'm able to go forward I'm not going to wait. I for one knows . I luv you. Protect us. Give daddy and your mom my love. Brian too x0x0
March 19, 2011
Hi my Mark. I'm in Tampa. Yes going to a concertbet you can't name the artist. Country music. Its all good. I've been invited by Tonya I'm so sorry you never had the oppertunity to meet her or she meet you. I have found another beautiiful ( spiritual) friend in my life. You would really like her husband Chris and their children. I really missed you tonite. Watch couples dance , mingle and see the love that we had. I'm so busy at work I don't have the time to feel that emotion. I sure have been blessed to miss it. I love you honey. PS. Best st pattys day ever. I'm proud. I m going to bed. Watch over all our loved ones. Your loving Karenski
March 17, 2011
the chauffeur will put me to bed tonite
March 15, 2011
My Darling Mark , its five months you started your new journey. I'm still not sure why. I'll never know. Iknow one day I'll be with you in the mean time protect me , the "kid" our home and. MS Rascals. I miss you Mark. Your forever in my heart Your loving wife Karen. Hug Daddy and your Mom
March 14, 2011
Mark,
You went on your journey to heaven 5 months ago today. It has not been that long, but it seems like an eternity. Keep Karen wrapped up in your heavenly wings. She is still missing you and and is faced with a life without you. Let our dad know that we miss him. Keep all of is in your prayers.
Kathy and Bill
March 11, 2011
Hi my Sweetie. Today dad died 6 months ago.let him know how much I miss him too. Well another friend Steve died yesterday. We all we're able to smile because we knew you would be there to path the way. The bar has been doing okay. Your name is brought up everyday in one shape or form. Mostly laughter. I'd give anything to hear your laugh. I close my eyes and see your smile and those beautiful blue eyes and able to smile. Well I've got to get ready for work. I love and miss you sweetheart. Your Karensky
March 06, 2011
Mark, from the time we first met in1980
we always just bonded. The great times we had together will always be remembered.You we're and always will be a great friend
Shep
March 05, 2011
Sure do miss you.
March 04, 2011
Hi my sweetheart. I'm home looking around our home and missing the laughter. Its like there are walls around me and nothing else. I miss you Mark. Our home isn't a home without you. I love you and miss you. Let my Dad know I love and miss him. Tell Brian I wish him a Happy Bithday
February 21, 2011
Hi my sweet Mark, its the close of another weekend. We had. Another bike run. For a women with cancer. I know you were watching over me. It went over flawless. We we're able to raise alittle over $ 2,000 The lost souls put it on. Once again the bar was filled with many of your dear friends. Its still hard because you are so missed. Many people take the time to get my attention to express their fond memories of you. I try to compose myself to the best of my ability. I'm getting a tad better. I know you would be pproud of all the employees they have been great You'd be so proud. My brother Chris is down with his family. I happy Moms got her family here. I haven't had much time with the bar. I'm glad Moms only around the corner. I know Dad would be happy she has them here. She's so lonely. Makes it easier on me knowing she's not alone. Danny's brother Donalds service is tomorrow. I'm going to try to go. I know its the right thing to do. I just don't know if I can handle it. Its just so soon I lost you and dad I get a little anxiety thinking about it. However I'm going to try. I'll need you to hold my hand and for strength. I already know you will , just need more assurance i guess. I love you honey. I went to call you today. I felt that sick feeling and figured I,d just talk to you anyway. Your in my head and heart. Watch over us My darling Mark. X0X0
February 16, 2011
My darling Mark. Once again we are saddened by another loss. Dannys brother Donald died in a motor cyle accident today leaving a. Wiife. Kids. Danny. So young. I now know the pain they are feeling losing you and Daddy. I'm torn because I can't do anything. I feel me losing you all over again and how much it hurts. Maybe god took you so soon to be there for our friends and family becuse of who you are. I just want to know why. I do know you have already greeted him along with his Dad. Watch over Danny. I know he's hurting. You remember when his dad died we. Met Don and how broken up they were about their dad. Pray with me for their family and friends. Daddy I love you and miss you. Your for ever in my heart , your loving Karen
February 14, 2011
Mark,
You left on your journey to heaven 4 months ago today. Karen is missing you more than ever today because not only is it her birthday, but Valentine's Day as well. You always made this day a very special one and thank you for giving her so many special memories.
Happy Valentine's Day Mark
February 14, 2011
Hi my darling Mark. Today is your four month anniversay. My Birthday and Valentines Day. Wow. Its a lot to handle without you. I'm going to get threw it as best I can. I know I have your guidence and your love to carry me threw. What I know I have is the 10 yrs of the best Birthday and Valentines Day any girl could wish for. Those memories are my gift from you today. I thank you Mark I'm so blessed to have those wonderful memories. I can't believe you feel asleep in my arms 4mo ago. Some days it feels like yesterday others an eternity. I miss you. My Mark. We'll be in each others hearts today and everyday forever. I love you sweetheart. Give my Daddy my love. Forever yours your loving Karen
February 11, 2011
Karen,
I can only imagine how tough these last few months have been for you.As long as we can keep our memories of him alive, he will never truly be gone.Mark was like the Uncle I never had and I think about him often and will continue to do so.He is always by your side. God bless you.
February 07, 2011
Hi my sweetheart. Welll I did what I know you wanted for me. I went to disney world. A place where its filled with laughter. My good friend Dale went with me. He needs healing as well. We both have been threw so much loss this year. Let his brothers and father as well as Daddy know how much your all loved and missed. I had my moments of sadness wishing you and I had gone to share our laughter there. We talked about going often and never went. I invisioned you with me on those roller coaster rides. I felt so free on them. Like I could reach out and touch you. Made me never want to get off. At times I never wanted to come home. The one good aspect of walking in our home was returning to our kids and you. Mark I miss you so much. Reach threw my heart let me feel you. I love you with all my heart. Your forever in my heart and dreams. Your loving and devoted Karenski
January 31, 2011
Hi my Mark. Thank u Peter I'm Marks wife Karen. Thank u for your thoughts. Yes he will never b forgotten as the man on those goofy car ads, because of them he's a legacy to Smith Pontiac and those who love him. My darling Mark and Dad help Shane and My Sister(their and our family) to find away to fix what their going threw. I know your not finished. You may not be here for reasons I can't comprehend ( I'm selfish in that way) I know and feel you are just beginning your new journey. I miss you so much honey. Wrap your heavenly arms around me and pray with me. I luv u with every inch of my soul. I'm going to sleep now. I'll b waiting. Good nite sweetie. Your in my heart 0000XXX00000 your loving Karen
January 25, 2011
I am sorry to hear of Marks passing we used to hang around back in the 70's he was a great guy and the first guy to do those tv car spots for Smith Pontiac Go see Mark was the catch phrase and we all bought Pontiac's trans amm he will be missed
January 25, 2011
Hi sweetheart. Days are getting loner for me I've been busy at work. I told you I was going to start getting my act together and I am. I've been invited to a few social events and going. I've seen a lot of our friends out nd about and have met many more. Its brought out the Karen I was. I know you would b proud and happy to see me even dance. Yup at the bar ,dont worry not on the bar lol . Edda is here he moved in today ii know how happy you are that he is here to watch over us . i wish you were here to share time with him. i was thinking of my dad tonight. just like you i went to pick up the phone and call him . let him know how mch i love and miss him .keep watching over me keep letting me feel u .i need to know your here i love u sweetheart your loving karen
January 19, 2011
Hi my sweetie, its been hectic. Its a good hectic. I've been keeping busy with rascals. The hours as u know are tiring. As you know. Eddie will be here by the beginning of the week. Its so strange how he ended up moving directly across the street. I know. How relieved you are knowing that. Especially now that Fred is leaving. He'll b doing all my banking and bills. Don't worry I'm being a good girl lol. I miss you Mark. I think of you every minute of the day. I'm finding that I'm thinking of happy memories and I'm feeling so much more calm. I'm realizing you aren't coming home. That part is finally sinking in. I'm finding my self going threw different emotions the latest is mad. But I'm working threw it. Moms feeling better. Cousin Johnny. Their family will be visiting tomorrow. I'm going to see if fr John can bless your ashes and say some prayers. Well I'm taking the night off and going to get some needed rest. Your in my heart watch over our homes. Tell Daddy and all my other loved ones they can watch out too he wouldn't hurt. Goodnight my beloved Mark. Your devoted karenski
January 14, 2011
miss you mark. whatch over karen so she can get through .rest in peace. love ya, your sister inlaw carolyn
January 14, 2011
My dearest Mark, I wrote to you this morning 12 oclock Im not sure why it hasnt shown up. Three months ago today (sometimes it feels like an eternity other times it seems like yesterday we lay next to each other wake up and start a new day ) Im going to start my day with remembering the love for life you had . You lived everyday to its fullest so many jokes ( man puts Twenty dollars in his pocket) cant go on they will delete it lol I will get threw today with knowing your by myside . I thank you for all those beautiful memories Im a lucky lady to have you as my best friend and wife . Ill be smiling because of you today, I love you Mark Your forever in my heart Your Karen
January 14, 2011
Mark,
It has only been 3 months since you left for your journey to heaven, but in many ways it seems so much longer. You are greatly missed by your family, your friends, your bar family and staff, but no one misses you more than Karen. Be there for her and send her signs that you are still around her. She is doing such a great job running the bar you loved so much. I am so proud of how she has picked herself up and is doing what you would want her to do. I know it is not easy for her, but she is doing such a great job with the support of your employees and close friends. Give our dad a big hug from all of us. We miss both of you so much.
Love,
Kathy and Bill
January 14, 2011
Dearest Mark, I just remembered today is your 3 month anniversary since you left Karen's loving arms. She is trying to accept your leaving because she has to continue your work and she is so proud to be able to keep your memory alive. I know you are there beside her all the time. It is so hard to believe a few months ago Dad and you were here with both of us. I still wonder why but I know it is not for me to judge.I miss you not greeting Dad and I in the bar. When one of us was ill you opened your home to the other one to be near the hospital. You were a very kind Son in Law and I know you are kind to my Karen watching over her to get through this grieving time. My love to you and have a good time with my family and yours. Love, Mother in law, Lois
January 13, 2011
Hi my wonderful Mark. Three months ago today I lost my best friend. Some days iit feels like an eternity others its like I was in your arms yesterday looking into your beautiful blue eyes telling you how much I love you and waking up to face a new day. The pain of missing you never stops. I still go to pick up the phone or wait for u to walk out the office door. As hard as it is for me I'm pushing forward with smiling more and being me. I know that's what you want me to do. Because of you I can smile. You are forever in my heart. Watch over us our home and Rascals with your guidence I'll be okay. Give me your strength to carry threw my days. I love you sweetie. Your loving Karen
January 11, 2011
Hi sweetheart. I'm writing to ask for some reassurance today. Dads anniversary is today. Its already 4mo. I've been feeling guilty because all my attention on you. Its hard to cope with this feeling of loss and emptiness. You are my best friend. I talk to you , I just wish I could hear the answers. Imkeeping busy with work. I'm fulfilling my promise to be me again. I'm getting there. I think of all the positive now and remind myself to take one day at a time. I love youbsweetheart. Feel me. I'll b reaching out to you today. Let my Dad know how much we love him. I know you did. I'm smiling baby. Watch over us. Your loving Karenski
January 08, 2011
My Dearest Mark. I have been working hard at fulfilling my promise to myself and you to get back on tract with being the Karen you knew and loved I do have my moments. Last night the band played guns and roses "Sweet Child of mine" I rememered when we were driving and I started rockin out singing in the truck you looked at me with the funniest face. How do you know that song. Well u remember my answer. Lol. From then on when we'd hear it you would call me sweet Child of mine my punk rocker. It made me cry, but a good cry There are so many of those sweet moments now I'm embrassing most of them as happy memories. I've started to go around the bar greeting people again. That was hard for me. As well as the other person. With your perserverence and guidence I think I'm going to be OK I'm facing your never going to walk thew that door again but I know you will always be my Guardian angel (I already think your in my head )Well its going to be another busy night for me so I'm going to close for now. Your forevr in my heart. I love u Your loving Karen
January 07, 2011
Hi sweetheart. I had trouble sleeping last couple of nights When I did doze off this morning we had a thunder storm pore Sammy got scared she was trying to get on top of me as usual well Tias has neverseen Sammy like that she was so funny jeolous she didn't want sammy near me Her little body was sufficating me. I moved her out of the way to see Harly at the end of the bed playing with a toy. Who,d figure. I'm doing better honey. Im getting things in order and tonight I playedd on the bowling machine. Got six strikes in a row ! When I put my initials in I was able to put an s as my last initial it was the first time since we were married. I liked It I know your guiding me and thank you. I love you honey. I'm going to go to sleep I'm so comfy. Protect us nite sweetheat. Your loving Karen
January 05, 2011
Hi honey. This is my second time writing I'm not sre if the first one erased or not. I had a good day. Did a lot around the house. I changed the family room around ( few times). I was laughing to myself how. I would have to warn you furniture isn't where it was when you left. I like it. Its cozy. Did the office at work too. It looks like an office again. Lol. Tomorrow (today) I'm going into your office here at the house and clean out what I can. I found a place Animal welfare league that sells used items and the $ goes to our local shelters. Your all your jimmy Buffet shirts. You have about 18 pair of white sneakers. I know there are certain things I loved you in that I'm not ready to get rid of. ( Makes me feel like your still here. Its weird I never went threw your wallet. I know you'll help me get threw it just like you have been. I talked to your Dad today. I was telling him how I woke up hearing Fuccillo on the TV He opened a dealership in cape coral then the next ad was for Bill Smith appliance. I chuckled. Your Dad said he was asked often if owned the applience store.He seems to be doing well. Your Mom and you must be watching over him. On that note let my Dad know how much I miss him and love him. Watch over our home and the bar. I know your with me. I love you with all my heart Mark. Nite nite your loving Karen
January 02, 2011
Hi honey it was a nice day. I heard from Shelly and our coversation (text) was nice. I felt better afterward. Tonight I heard from Fred. He misses ypur coversations. You guys could talk fpor hours. I've found a new friend. He's been so kind to me. He prays for us everynight. I told him today is the beginning of me coping with your passing and be the Karen I was. My depression is taking a toll on me. I know your here and want me to push forward. I promised myself once the Holidays our Anniversay were over I was going to smile and I'm smiling. Noone or anything is going to break me. So on that note I love you. No more holding my hand. GoT My Back. I love you Mark. Nite nite. Your Karen
January 01, 2011
My Darling Mark. Happy Anniverary. I love you Mark I know your here with me I have a weird sense of comfort and I know its you. I know you are holding my hand. I love you. Your wife and partner. Karen
January 01, 2011
Hi my sweetie. Happy 1st Anniversary I'm so lucky to have you. Your memories keep me going. There isn't a day I don't have a thought about something you have said or done that doesn't put a smile on my face and for that I'm going to go to sleep and dream happy thoughts. I love you baby. Hold my hand.
December 31, 2010
Mark,
I know that you are not in in the physical sense, but you are in spirit. In a few hours, 2010 will be over and 2011 will be here. I am sending both you and Karen an 1st Anniversary wish. That the love that you had for each other for over 11 years will forever live in Karen's heart and in your soul. Let her feel your love and presence tonight, tomorrow and always. Thank you for making her so happy and showing her what it means to be truly loved and in love.
Karen, you have family who love you and are always here for you.
Happy Anniversary. Mark is celebrating with you and will be with you holding your hands always.
Love, Kathy and Bill
December 31, 2010
My Darling Mark. Today is New Years Eve. A year ago today I was running around like a lunitic getting ready for our wedding. I was so excited. I remember getting upset with you because you we're taking so long counting the money at the bar. Finally we got home and I wouldn't talk to you. You begged me to come to bed and said nothing could ruin today. You told me how much you loved me and would take care of me the rest of my life. You always had a way to get me to end up in your arms(once I was there I was done). Well today is the end of the year and your supposed to say goodbye to the old and welcome the new. I can't even do that its supposed to be our 1st anniversary. I'm so lucky to have our 10 yrs of memories. I remember our first date. You told me how for years you had an interest in me and how happy you were it became a reality. You even told me one day I be your wife. I said never gonna happen. Had I known how much I loved being marrid to you I would have married you years ago. I'm sorry. I need you to HOLD MY HAND guide me threw these next few days. Actually I think you'd better round up my Dad your Mom Lee Brian Burt Dick Jimmy Sal I'm gonna need reinforments. Lol. Honestly your memories are what's going to get me threw the pain of missing you. I love you my Darling Husband Mark.Your forever in my heart your loving wife Karen
December 29, 2010
Hi honey. Well my mom keeps writing on your page. When I was in New York Jimmy Squadere was telling me about mom. Its funny. Daddy your gonna have to tap her on the shoulder the next time. Lol. Well honey I had made resevations to go to ST pete beach on Saturday our 1st anniversary but looks like I'd b going alone so I'm not going if I'm going to be alone I'd rather be at home with the kids. So....... Its okay. You'll be with me. I was thinking even though I was married twice. 11 months and now its our 1st year I've never spent a new years with my husband. 53 years. God it hurts. I'm gonna need your strength. To carry threw New years eve as well. And that's an order!!!!!! Okay I'm getting swollen eyes. Just watch over me swetheart I know ii can get threw this knowing I have you. Hold my hand my Mark. I love you your karen
December 27, 2010
My beloved Leo, I am so sorry I did not have time to write you on Christmas but as you can imagine it was hectic. Christmas eve you were so sorely missed. All the family were here, all the new great-grand children
and of course the older ones. Wrapping paper and presents all over the floor as Santa came as usual. Christmas day Chrissy decorated the tables and we had our usual christmas dinner. We held hands and recited the Irish prayer and Bobby said the blessing of the food. We all cried but we know you were there n spirit, I found 2 pennies in my coat pocket that i have not worn for a year. We all know you were there. We came back to North Port and it is good we came today because there was a big snow storm and the airports are already closed. The next event will be New Year's day and this will be very hard on Karen. Christmas was hard enough for her but New Year's will be even harder. We listened to your court deposition and to hear your voice and seeing your handsome face was so comforting. I felt you in the room. I brought it home and I can hear you all the time. I love you beyond words and as I sit here tonight again the tears pour over my face. Well my beloved good night and hold me in the cradle of your arms. Love, Lois
December 27, 2010
Hi sweetheart. Back home with the kids. It was so nice to be with everyone in NY. It bought me closer to Dad. Its just not real for me yet it maay not ever be. We watched a video of Dad 6 weeks befor he died. He really looked good. I could see he was having some difficulty breathing but over all He was my Daddy. Let him know howmuch I love him. I believe your happy to have me home. I thought I was imagining the smell of your colongue, but this morning I'm smelling it more. God I loved how you smelt my Mark Smell I would always tell you. I'm glad your here. I just watched the two second vedio of u on my phone. You have such a beautiful smile and those eyes. Oh how they make me melt. It was a year ago today we decided to get married on new years. I called my father and told him I was finally going to change my name. He thought for sure to Nolan. Then I asled if they were busy on Friday around 4:00 I told them we were getting married. Mom was so excited when I asked her to stand up for me. That was so nice. God if I could turn back time. Well before I get real mushy I'm going to get my rear in gear. I love you baby. Smelling u is ,oh my god I smell u again. Oh thanks baby. Kepp holding my hand (I need you help me be strong this week). I love you your loving Karen
December 25, 2010
H Baby I just wrote to you. And I accidently erased it. You know what I said. Merry christmas honey Imiss u and Daddy so much. It was nice being here in NY with every one. Its been an emotional day tomorrow I'll get back to our home. I miss the kids. Suzie stayed at the house she said they we very good. I'm going to have to get things organized to get home. You arI love and need you. Hold my hand guide me home safe and sound. Kisses my Mark. Your loving Karen
December 25, 2010
Merry Christmas Mark,
This is your first Christmas with the angels in heaven. You are there with your mother and my Dad. It was so great to see Karen on Christmas eve and day. We worried so much about her being alone on this holiday without you. It was to be your first Christmas holiday as a married couple, but you had each other for 11 Christmases and I know that Karen has so many wonderful memories of the good times you shared. You were each others soul mates and I am so grateful that she had the opportunity to know what true love really is. But it still doesn't make it hurt any less for her right now. Her heart is breaking because she not only misses you but our dad as well. Watch over her and let her feel your presence. She is in needed of sime much deserved rest and to have some inner peace. Thank you Mark for giving her your love, for making her happy these past 11 years and help her to find the strength to continue on without you physical presence. Let her continue to feel you love and strength with each passing day and help the pain she is feeling a little less.
Love, Kathy and Bill
December 24, 2010
Good morning Honey, Well off I go to Albany ths morning by plane and you know how I always grabbed your hand when we started to go up as I hate that feeling. Hold my hand as we take off please. I will be so happy to see our children and get hugs and kisses from them. Well I have to get ready to go so my letter is short today. I will miss you so much tonight and tomorrow and I need your strength and so do the children. Give Karen extra strength and tell Mark we miss him and I know he is watching over Karen as he loved her dearly. Your devoted and lonesome Wife, Lois
December 22, 2010
Hi honey. Its been a really long day for me. I've missed you so much. I know you know. Ifound the feather at my foot just after I had my melt down. You are my angel. These days getting closer to Christmas and our Anniversary are harder then I imagined. Watching people laughing enjoying themselves is getting real hard to watch I'm happy for them it just makes my heart hurt knowing I can't physically laugh with u Feel you hug or kiss me again. I don't want to break down in front of anyone so today I stayed home where I can cry when I need to. I'm sure you understand. I'm going to need you toembrass my heart and let me feel your love. Hold my hand and lead me to a happier place. Pinch my but. Just because. Lol. Ill be okay I just have to go threw my moments. I miss my Dad too. I'm not even going there now. I'm going to close for now get in bed. Watch over us honey give us warmth and security. I know the love is always here you hold my heart. I love you. Nite nite my dearest Mark. Your loving Karen
December 21, 2010
Hi my sweetie. You are so loved honey. There isn't a day that goes by that someone doesn't express how big a heart you have and how much u are missed. Its Christmas week and the bar is full of friends wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and I just wait for you to walk out of the office and start getting everyone going singing and laughing its really hard to fill your shoes. I'm doing it my own way. Its just hard to be around people all the time with myy emotions so high. I think of the positive. All my wonderful days we had. Just think lasts year we were planning our wedding. One of the happiest days of my life. Those are the things that get me threw all the beautiful memories. I love u baby. Give me srength Hold my hand to get thre these days. Im in bed with u beside me our dogs are all around us. Its our loving fmily just without you physically. Watch overus. Protect us threw the night. You'll be in my dreams let my dad know how much I miss and love him. Nite nite my beloved mark. Your loving Karen
December 21, 2010
hey mark. i just saw a picture of you me chrissy and karen on facebook. i think that was taken lsat march when our dad was in the hospital.how much has changed since then. keep karen strong this christmas.love carolyn. p.s. say hi to my dad.
December 21, 2010
Hi Mark, just wanted to tell you what an awesome wife you have. She just does not stop giving. She has brightened up another child Christmas. How does she do it and how is does one who is going through hell keep giving. It's the heart that matters. Keep sending her your love Mark. She deserves it. A Very Merry Christmas to you Mark, you are loved and it's showing through Karen. Thank you....
December 21, 2010
You cannot change God's plan. Maybe it was for you to realize all you can do because Make showed you the way. Maybe at one point you didn't think you could do that alone. God put you on a positive path and Mark IS holing your hand, both he and God are letting you know, you can succeed. You don't need magic, just faith. Be not afraid....
December 20, 2010
Hi my Mark. Well its another year. 2010 Toys for tots. I have to say it was great. Thank god I had ouf friends help. I also aske you to ealk me threw it and you have. I'm real tired honey. Its going to be some long dificult days ahead sso I'm going to closed my eyes while I can. Hold my hand sweetie and guard me while I sleep. Nite my baby I love u. Your karen
December 19, 2010
Karen, my heart goes out to you. I know this may not be of help or mean much now, but know in your heart God doesn't give anyone any more than they can handle. Everything happens for a reason. At times like this we ask "WHY??" Like Elizabeth Edwards asked her kids when having a talk with them, "Whoever is here that isn't going to die, raise your hand." She was a smart woman. Does it make it easier for those left behind? No. But death is a part of life and always know Mark is always with you. He now is actually your soul mate. Anything you ever shared and had together, that can NEVER be taken from you. What fun times you both must have had! Most would never have been able to do all you have done since Mark's passing. I think it was Mark, residing in your heart, leading you in what he wanted you to do and was there with you every step of the way. The physical loss is what is hard, he is with you and he'll be waiting for you and until you meet again, may God hold you in the palm of his hand. Be at peace my friend, he would not want you to ache.
December 19, 2010
Hi sweetheat. A quiet day today Mom came over and we watch some movies. It was nice and relaxing. Its going to be a long and emotional week foe Mom and me. Many people are coming in the bar expressing that their toughts and prayers are with me. Its very nice. I can't say its easy. It just makes it that much more real you won't be here., not only at work but mostly in our home. We've shared every Xmass morning waking up and putting the bows around the dogs collars. Me giving u your presents (after promising you we weren't exchanging gifts). You were my gift 356 days a year. God baby this is so hard. My present from u this year is to show me your with me. I would love to feel your presence Try to brown nose god this week and maybe my prayers will be answered. I haven't heard from your sister Shelley since your furneral I hope your watching over her. Well baby I'm getting pretty emotional right now so please let my Daddy and your mom (everyone) I need them and watch over mom andyour Dad as well. I love you my darling Mark Hold my hand give me strength to push threw the holidays.you hold my heart. Your loving Karen
December 19, 2010
My Mark my eyelids won't stay open. Iluve hold my hand
December 18, 2010
Hi honey. Long day today and tomorrow I have to leave the house by 7:15 am so this has to be short and sweet. Tomorrow night we have Fred Swift Christmas party I think this is our fourth one. I pulled out all our good. Christmas trays, Candle holders and linens. Nothing but the best for them. They are such wonderful friends. Your still getting friends sighning in on your guest book. You are so missed Mark. As I've said its just not real. I still look for u to walk threw the door. God if only. My heart is you Hold my hand baby Show me your here. I'll love you. Your forever loving Karen
December 17, 2010
We all miss you very much Mark.
December 17, 2010
Hi sweetheart I'm disapointed I wrot u last night and my letter hasn't appeared on the guest book. I was talking about how hard it is to understand why God has handed so much pain to our family. My parents lost their beautiful baby boy at three Bob lost his beautiful wife Lee at 50 yrs old Daddy Beau and you. That expression he only gives you what you can handle is so wrong It hurts so much. I'm never going to be the same person. That part of me died with you. I just wish I could understand. Iknow you would do everything you could do to help me You always protected me. I know It is obviously out of your hands because you would fix it. I'm not going to give up. I know you will comfort me when you can. I just can't feel u. You feel so distent which hurts even more. I did have a wonderful thing happen today. Fred sent me a beautful toys for tots ornament with the toys for tots card in your honor. J spoke to him on the phone he told me he prayes for me everynight. That touched me Mark knowing he's one of your oldest and dearest friend. I also received a crystal ornament in memory of you fron jo and mike. Its beautiful I will be able to have apart of you to pput on a tree forever. Thank god I have my family and friends. I just wish I had u. Try real hard to bring some kind of presence. Give my Daddy my love. And know you are forever a part of my being. Hold my handso I can get threw to tomorrow. I love u baby. Your loving wife karen
December 15, 2010
Dearest Mark, This is your Mom in Law wanting you to give Karen a sign. I know you are watching over her but she is so heart broken since your passing. I know she tries to hide her sorrow from others but I know she is crying on the inside. Tia and the kids try to be there for her but it does not make up for you so help her feel your presence. I miss you too and we both try to help each other because we both lost someone dearest to our hearts. Karen is trying to cope with two loses, her beloved Husband and her wonderful Daddy so she needs you more than ever as the holidays are near and Christmas and New Years Day will be very difficult. We need you both up in Heaven at this time especially.
Love you, Mom in Law, Lois
December 15, 2010
Hi Sweetheart. Your into your second month at rest. Its been a tough day. I pushed threw with friends family and your guidence. I just found out another loved one has passed tonight. Tinas brother-in-law show him the way honey. Bobs here helping Mom with getting her house ready to sell. I know that's what Dad wants. Tonight I had a scare She didn't answer her phone. Her blood pressure dropped drastically. I walked in her house she never heard me. I thought my legs we're gonna go out from under me. Bob is with her now. Thank god she's two min away. Daddy watch over her. Please. Im so tired of worring every minute. God has to give me some peace soon. I'm only one person and a fragile one at that. Your not holding my hand tight enough. Grip it so tight my rings leave marks. Then I know your guiding me for sure. Okay the tears are flowing I'm sorry. I'm going to bed and think of some of our pleasent days and how blessed I an to have u. L luv u with all my broken heart. Nite nite sweet Mark. HOLD MY HAND. Forever yours your Karen
December 14, 2010
Hi Mark, Karen needs you more then ever right now. She is doing great because I know you are still with her. Stay with her now. I see a very caring spirit in her. She is really an awesome person Mark. Merry Christmas to you!!!!!
December 14, 2010
Hi honey I'm not doing so good. Push me Show me I can push forward. I miss u so much. I went in your closet to find a sweater anything withyour smell. Sucks I'm too efficient their all clean So I grabbed your cologne. Mum good! I need to feel u Let me know your with me. God show him how please!! I love u
December 14, 2010
Mark,
Today marks your 2 month anniversary that you left on your journey to heaven. So much has happened since you left. Karen valiantly continued with the Toys for Tots drive even though you were sick and eventually left her. She made sure that this was the most successful year ever for all the children in Port Charlotte. I know that you were there every step of the way holding her hands. Continue to show her signs that you are with her. She needs to feel your heavenly wings around her. She is missing you, but our Dad as well. This is going to be a difficult holiday for all of us, but twice as hard for her. Give her the strength to get through her days and continue to live out all your dreams. Keep us all in your prayers.
Love, Kathy and Bill
December 13, 2010
Hi babe. In a half hour its your 2nd month anniversay you left me for that wonderland in the sky. Somedays it feels like n eternity. My Days go quickly my nites forever. I'm trying to be more positive. Its so hard. I really want to smile be the Karen you fell in love with. Then something happens and its all taken away. Those are the times I need you to push me. Hold my hand. Lead me to my happy place here. You know me mark help me. I love you. Especially today (he 14th give me strenght to push forward. Instead of holding my my hand grab it tight and guide me. I luv you honey. Your Karenski
December 12, 2010
Hi honey. Mom and i sat around watch lifetime movies. Just what a mother daughter that are recent widows. Lol. One was about a father that isnt around for his kids. How lucky i am to have a dad that was the most kindest loving dad. I have been lucky also to have you. The man that taught me how to love. To open my heart and trust in someone. I thank you for that baby im sorry it was taken from me too soon. I hope u r resting peacefully I wish i could viualize where u are. In time i will. Ill never b afraid but in the mean time hold my hand let me feel u guide me to happiness. I love u sweetheart. Your Karen
December 10, 2010
Hi baby. Its been another long day. I feel bad for my mom. There was a mass for my dad today were he died. They put a star on the tree in honor of him my sisters went. My moms sad she couldn't go. He knows she was there. I know how much it hurts. Its weird were both going threw the samething together missing our love of our lives. I miss my Dad too. I consintrate on you so much It makes it that much harder when I think of him. I just wish I could fix her pain too. Help me feel your presence. I need you As the holidays approach its getting so hard. I was watching a couple today and they were so in love. I was so jealous of them. How can I cope. The only thing will help is you. Embrass me with your warmth HOLD MY HAND. I luv u. Your everloving Karen X0X0
December 08, 2010
karen, I am so terribly sorry for your loss! I know it is one of the hardest things in life to handle... Mark was a special person in many peoples lives. Myself being one. Just over a year ago, you two helped with my benefit at portside. before that, yous helped for Paulie's benefit there. You guys are always helping people in need! It is such a shame to lose someone so special and caring! i truely hope you find a way to cope as soon as possible. i love your letters to him :) they make me teary eyed! you are a strong woman Karen! Especially to be able to still run the bar, and decorate for the holidays, and write out your feelings, everything you are doing! Just remember, he will always be your guardian angel! :) take care of you !! If you ever need to just chat or vent.. you can always find me on face book or just ask for my #... xoxoxo ashley monzo
December 08, 2010
Hi honey. Well I finally got the house decorated outside. I know u would wanted me toiI finally did colored lights outside instead of all white. I'm sorry now I ever did it for u. I always did the tree your way never outside and I'm sorry for that. I feel terrible about that. Its also freezing. I'm not turning the heat on. What did u aways say. I live in Florida no need for Heat. So I'm going to do hat we used to do bring Lucy in our room have all the kids around us your beside me every night. Honey I haven't felt you around me Don't be away too long honey I need to feel u. Give me a reason to get up. Push me. Do what u do Show me.As the holidays approuch its getting harder. I'm scheduling Parties our new years eve (our 1st anniversary at midnight ) god its so wrong. I want u back. You have full control of my heart Mark stop it from breaking more. Tell god you need to help your wife with a big sign. I'll b waiting. I love u honey. Embrass me and hold my hand. Your karenski
December 07, 2010
Hi baby. I love you with all my broken heart. Your Karenski
December 06, 2010
Hi baby. Well we did well. Its been real hard and emotional and tireing. I'm going to start concentrating on my heath mind and work now. Your always on my mind that's a good thing. People told me today how they really miss you Mark. Eddie Mchenry had tears in his eyes today huged me and told me how much he misses u. Just me there we're many people in tears. I think some people have a hard time coming in because they miss u. I know how they feel. I have to take a deep breath going into work everyday myself. Your just supposed to be here. Your Dad lee and Terri came in today. Your Father seems to be doing good. He had the sweater we gaave him for christmas on. Well tomorrow ends a chapter of the Toys for Tots. Its a new day. On that note I'm going to say nite nite. Keep holding my hand baby. Luv your loving karen. X00X0
December 04, 2010
Hi honey. Well tomorrow is the big day our 9th Toys for Tots party. My hearts breaking u won't be there physically. I know in spirt you will. You know how I get those butterflies in my stomach in intisipation of a hugh success. God I remember decorating the house from ceiling to floor cooking all the food (then finally u couldn't watch me doing all the work on my own and we had it catered luved u for that) all the clean up. ) We still made $ 5,000 our last year at home. Well we've surpassed that by thousnds more. Boy do we know how to throw a party. I just hope I can make you proud tomorrow. I'm going to put my smile on and know your there holding my hand. Be my rock baby. I'm so going to miss you. My days are hard enough without you tomorrow. Oh boy! I'm going to relax tonight hopefully sleep a few hours. Comfort me baby and let's do this. I luv you. Here's to the kids. Nite nite sweetheart with love your loving wife karen
December 02, 2010
Hi my love. Its going to b short and sweet tonight honey. My body is talking to me. I'm so exhausted. I can't afford to get sick again. I've got the fireplace on , winterwoolies too. Its chilly outside. I'd give anything to have your warmth wrapped around me. Watch over me sweetheart. Hold my hand let all my worries go away so I can be in a happier place thinking of you. I love you nite my darlin nite your karen
December 01, 2010
Hi baby. Long day. Need you to be my eyes ears mind and heart. Take over by body let me feel you. Talk to god ask him this favor. Your wife needs you. Its getting cold outside I want your warmth. In betwwen trying to make this possible let Daddy know I'll be there for mom tomorrow. She's nervous about her test results let her know everything will be fine. Hold our hand sweetie. Now get to work. Come to me. I need you. I love you so baby. Ill be waiting. Your loving karen
November 30, 2010
Hi sweetheart I'm really missing you honey. My days are getting longer my nites are an eternity. I just want to hear your voice Its so Quiet here at home. Ilook at the door just waiting for you with your MS Rascals work shirt on thowing your keys on the table sitting on the couch ,giving me that face and I can't resist but to take your white sneakers off and rub your feet. That sigh Its like it was yesterday. I still have your Oreo Cookies.I still look on the table to see if the crumbs are still on the table in the morning. Baby this hurts. I need you honey. Come home.
November 29, 2010
Hi honey. What a wonderful toy run. We did it again. It was pretty overwhelming nothaving you by myside. My heart hurts honey. I was real busy running around. It didn't help the pain of how much I miss u. Mark other things just keep popping up. You've gotto hold my hand sweetie please. I luv you baby. HOLD MY HAND. Always and forever your karenski
November 28, 2010
Good morning honey.today is the day of the toy run Mark I'm facing so many things to fast. I wish I had more time. First to comrehend your gone. Ihsavent even reached that yet. To me I still think your at work when I'm home and yyour going to walk in the door ( 300am) I'm just not reaady. Yesterday I broke out in hives. I'm not so nervouse that the run won't be sucessful. How am I going to be there without u. Its our run honey we are a package its too hard for me. I want u back. Oh god baby I wAnt you back okayi walked away for a few minutes. Baby its days like this you know what to do Please give me the strength to bbr strong. I want to make you proud.gUide me thre this day Help us make a successful day for the kids and Daddy I know you've got my back. I love you both. Mark hold my hand sweetheart and let's get this day started. I'm forever yours mark. Your karen
November 26, 2010
Hi honey just got home from a long day @ work. Getting close to the bike run. As the days get closer I'm getting nervous. I'm going to miss u. Its just not going to be the same. I'm going to have to get on the stage to do the check with sgt maj without you. Its supposed to be us. I get this aweful feeling in my stomach. Promise your going to help me contain myemotions. I'm going to try. Mom came home and couldn't wait to see the kids. She played with Lucy and ofcourse took our little Tia home. She's going to keep her over night. She's great company for her. Well sweetie I'm going to close. I'm so tired. Keep giving mr the strength to get up and face another day without you. I love you baby. Kisses hugs. Your brown eyed girl
November 25, 2010
Hi sweetie. First thank u Rosemary for putting the picture up so nice of you. It was a hard day honey I can't deny it. I pushed threw with help from friends. Talked to everyone at home as you know. I could hear u Your getting preety good with the phone. I wish you could hear the words I love u again. I know well be together again I'm pretty tired so I'm going to say goodnight my brain is as tired as my hands. Stay close honey hold my hand show me how to go on. I love u. Your karenski
November 25, 2010
Happy Thanksgiving Mark and Karen
November 25, 2010
Mark,
Today is a day for thanks. It is this first holiday without you here and my dad as well. It may not be a happy day for us, but we are thankful to have had the both of you in our lives for as long as God would allow. We will forever have our memories of the loves you shared with all of us. You were a great humanitarian and there are many people who are missing you today. Watch over my sister Karen. She is not only missing you, but our dad as well. It is too much for one person to have to bear in such a short time. She is valiantly trying to continue with the traditions that the two of you started and shared together. Many people will have a great meal today because of what Karen is doing today. Be there with her and let her continue to feel you presence and love.
Love, Kathy and Bill
November 25, 2010
I baby I'm home. Its thansgiving. I do have thanx My thanx is having you in my life. Finding love and having the love you gave me. I am thankful to have our "kids" our home our families and friends. I'm thankful to have the best father a girl could ever have. Daddy you taught us how to be the caring and giving person I am today. You gave me my heart and soul. Mark kept my heart beating every minute of the day with his love. I love u both and miss u so. I'm going to face my day Open MS Rascals and share Thansgiving with our friends. Hold my hand sweetheart. Give me the strength to do what we do best , give everyone a wonderful holiday. Time to getsome sleep. I know your with me so nite nite honey luv u your loving wife. Me
November 24, 2010
Hi sweetie. If u get this ill b happy. I'm losing some recent letters. I just want u to know how hard this is for me. I thought I would be able to handle thanks giving. I'm trying to be possitive. I'm making some of the food at home.All our memories of 10 yrs preparing together. All your family recipies. I'm making corn pudding (I hope noone taste the tears) These newxt couple of weeks with our toys for tots parties OUR parties how am I going to handle my composure without you. It so painful knowing your not going to be there. Its just not right. Mark please take this pain away. Please. I love u. Your wimmpy wife
November 24, 2010
Hi baby. My past letters I wrote can't find them. Its ok yu know what's in my heart. I thought I was going to be able to prepare the food for Thansgiving (for the bar) and handle it ok. Who am I kidding. I hope noone tastes my tears in the corn pudding. I cant believe I won't be smelling our Turkey this year or making you your favorite Turkey sandwich @ 2:30 in the morning This is really hard my heart is so crushed I really don't want to go anywhere but I have to go into work I need your to hold my hand tight to get threw this few days. I have the Parties for Toys for Tots and you won't be there I still can't believe it. Your gone. How am I going to be able to compose my self. We are toys for tots not me. It will never be the same. What am I talking about nothing is the same. Oh Mark I'm dying inside help me. I wish this pain would go away please help me. I love you. Your Karenski
November 24, 2010
Hi sweetie iv been having a problem getting my letters on your guest book ? Hope this one works. I luv you
November 24, 2010
Wow, over a month has passed since you left us Mark, Karen is hanging in there - I feel guilty for not spending more time visiting with her but I am so busy that I barely have time for myself. I continue to keep her in my prayers and I know that you are watching over and guiding her every day. She truly is a remarkable lady as you were a remarkable man, you two are special, wonderful people and I consider myself fortunate to have crossed paths with you so many years ago. Give Karen strength to get through the difficult times and let her know that its ok to be happy sometimes too - I am sure you wouldnt want anything but happiness for her. Love you and miss you Mark, Your Friend Jennifer
November 22, 2010
Mark,
You sure are missed at MS Rascals. You should be very proud of Karen as she is doing a great job for Toys for Tots. There are probably 4 boxes full already and I believe they have already picked some up. There have been many donations made in you honor which just goes to prove how many lives you have touched.
We have the big Toys for Tots run this weekend so we will be real busy selling people stuff, as you would say.
We will do what ever we need to do to help Karen continue with building MS Rascals into everything you wanted it to be.
Keep sending those wonderful thoughts as they are very comforting to Karen.
We wish you could be with us physically but know that you are with us in spirit.
At least you don't have to listen to my voice this way. LOL
We love you Karen.
November 22, 2010
Hi baby. I see u came to visit with me. U r very cleaver You are always thinking. Thank u baby. Well as u know what today is Nov 22 still hate this date. You have always been so helpful on this day in the past. I've always admired you for that. I don't know if u know how much. I certainly hope so. I've been here at home getting quite abid of paper work. And nessessiary phone calls done. Some easier than others.I called your Dad today to invite him to Thansgiving Dinner at the bar (He's been with us every year I figured he would go to your sisters but to my surprise The Teller at his bank invited him to their home. That was nice. I'm still going to make your favorite Corn pudding. I know you would want me to so I am. I'm gonna get going here more work to do. Keep in touch.(Call me) Hold my hand honey guide me threw the day. I love you so much. Till later kisses. Your Karenski
November 21, 2010
Goodnite sweetheart just wanted to feel close to you luv you. Nite
November 21, 2010
Mike and I think about you all the time, we miss you very much. Love, Jo
November 21, 2010
November 21, 2010
Well honey I feel better. Motrin. Went in this morning had the lost souls run. 1st stop.Went over to my Moms pool ( I know we have a beautiful pool two steps away from our living room ) Shirley and Donna hung out with me. It was nice to sit with no interruptions.(Left my phone in the house , well truth b told I grabbed yours by mistake or would have had mine.I also left Tia home with the big kids. They are all just fine. I was afraid tia would have them blocked in a corner lol. We had nice conversation today. Of course memories of you. HAlf the time I'd forget your not here literly. I'm so glad I can speak of you and they can all relate. You were so into listening to other peoples issues therefore they got to know you so well. How many times have we said treat people the way you want to be treeated. We always have haven't we. You have proven yourself.I'm so proud to be your wife. I love you babe. Till next time. Kiss and hugs. Your loving Karen. Ps good job Shirley keeping yourself together. Itsokay to cry we know how much you loved him.( Its all good huh honey)
November 21, 2010
Hi honey. Went into work for a few hours tonite Didnt want to push myself So im home in our bed. The kids are all around me. Fred was in tonight. I think he really misses you. I know he loved aand admired you. Hes been so good to me.I so appreciate his opinion. Well my eyes are getting heavy and Sammy needs to go out. I love you with all my heart. Good nite my Sweetie. Till tomorrow Im here thinking about our happy times. XX00 your Karenski
November 20, 2010
Hi sweetheart. As you know ive been home not feeling well. I havent had time to sit for months now and its taken a toll Im not that y oung free spirit you knew way back when. I. mafraid im not that same spirited girl i was 5 weeks ago That part of me feels so alone. I miss you so much honey. I trey so hard to face the day and put a smile on my face when deep inside im Hurting so.I didnt know there could be so many tears one person could possibly shed. I know if you could you would take them away. I try to imagine what you would say to me and I all i come up with is some silly joke of yours. So im going to find your piece of paper with the 175 punch lines and imagine you telling it. See you just made me smile. Thank you baby i feel better. Thank you sweetie. Hugs and kiss from your devoted and caring wife. Mrs Mark Smith
November 20, 2010
Karen I am so touched that you share your thoughts with Mark here. I don't know what I would do in your position .... but I pray I'd have your strength to carry on & follow our dreams! It is hard to believe 2 friends lost their husbands on the 15th - albeit one in August & then Mark. That date is very sullen now for me ... I was truly "kicked in the stomach on 8/15/10" and then unfortunately didn't find out about Mark till after everything was over .... but you do not cease to amaze me. Know you have friends to call on ... It is the old friend, the one's who'd answer at 3AM that will forever share and be there for you! Call anytime.... Love you girlfriend! Mare
November 19, 2010
Hi my sweety,Im still not feeling well this one is a duzie. I feel quilty not going to work for two days, gotta take care of myself. I realice that now. I cant make you proud if i dont rest. Well Carolyn and Darcy cleaned your truck out today I wasnt ready to do that. Your family wanted it a couple weeks ago i dont want to hold cause any problems. I asked to have it picked up without me home. I cant watch the "doggie" truck drive away. The girls put things in a box for me.I lost it when i found the Champagn cork from our first date 11 yrs ago. I also found the pouch of change we had when we drove down here with the 4 dogs to stay I had to stop after that. I have all the memories especially driving on washington Ave in a big snow storm making snow angels in front of the gingerman then getting in the truck rolling down the window yelling at all the tow truck drivers for towing peoples cars. Or everymorning looking at Beau and Sam (they couldnt wait for u to put your shoes on) wanna go bye byes in daddy truck? They would go crazy Sammy looked at you every morning up until you left for jacksonville. That truck will always be you.I have the memories Well honey im gonna check on Rascals let me in your heart feel your breath i need you. Nite my love your brow eyed girl
November 19, 2010
To Karen, Sometimes we are touched by an angel and don't even realize it. You do, be well Karen, and be blessed. Mark is right there and here...
November 19, 2010
Mark,

You touched so many lives, you will be missed by all. Bless your wife and family.
November 18, 2010
Hi my baby. I know that was you today. Im so happy. You are still very clever my Mark. Its apparent you dont lose your wit or brains after you leave this earth.I will welcome you always in any shape or form. I hope your here now i feel pretty sick right now. Help me get better warm me up. Ive got the chills pretty bad. Ive got to get to work in the morning so im going to close for now. You made my day today. I love you sweetheart. Your brown eyed girl me
November 18, 2010
I could also use some guidance on spell check!! lol... wow... thanks buddy for the reminder to proof read!! xoxo
November 18, 2010
Hi sweetheart. I wrote earlier not sure if it went threw or not. I was saying how nice it was to open up your guest book and Rosemarie put a picture of us on the page. I cant get enough of looking at your handsome face. Its so nice to see new and refreshing pictures of you. I was telling you how ive got another big step ti get threw. I have to go to the grocery store. I havent been able to go. Fear! I havent shopped for myself in 11yrs. I had my routine and its brke now. Remember when you made the map of all the isles in publics. Then we went to a different one and it was backwards. All the little ladies thought it was great so you had extra copies and you would hand them out. Lol. So funny. Or the hurricane when we fed (Twenty five o thirty people a day) u going at 6:00 id cook then each day more and more people would show. So many people bonded on our lenie. God there are so many memories. Well im getting a sore throat. B odies talking to me. If u were here you would be offering me my ice cream. We have so many memories. 11yrs of being together almost twenty four seven i should have a hundred a day and never run out. I love you sweetheart. Till tomorrow fill my heart with you. Nite nite baby' love your karenski
November 17, 2010
Hi baby. Wwhat a nice surprise to open yoour guestbook and see a new picture of us. Thank you Rosemarie. What a very sweet gesture. Makes me smile. Don't i have such a handsome husband?
Well honey i?e decided to take the night off. The "kids" and I are slumming. I must say it feels good to have such trust worthy employees working for us that i dont have to worry. I promised myself i was going to have a better day today and Im not doing to bad. It be easier if i new you were walking in the door any minute. I sometimes forget and think how tired you must be working all day and night. Kinda weird huh. Well i think im gonna have to make another step to go on without you. It sounds weird but I havent gone to the grocery store. I havent shopped for myself in 11 yrs. I had my routine (reminds me of when you mapped out the isles in publics and we checked off our grocery list according to the isles then we went to another publics and the isles were backwards. Lol) you were so sweet once people found out you had done that you'd hand them out to the people while they shopped.So funny. So many ways you were so generous.I could go on and on , God after the hurricane. Getting up at 600 getting groceries Id cook all morning then they would all show up. Each day more and more. I think there were never fewer then 25 people a day thankful to b surrounded by friends. We'd get in bed and sigh. (How r feet would b so swollen and three hours later. We'd do it all over again.)I think you should come back so we can do it again. I love you honey. I know you have a spcial place in heaven ,only the good dye young. Kisses my luv. Till next time. Your sweetie me
November 17, 2010
Mark,
Bill and I attended your 1 month anniversary memorial run this past Sunday and we were both overwhelmed by how many people's lives you touched. It was apparent to everyone that you will be missed by every person that worked for you, by your customers, your friends, family but by Karen the most. She was very stoic throughout the day and we know that you were with her. We are sure that you are just as proud of her as we all are. It is our hope that this years Toys for Tots is bigger than ever.
Continue to watch over and protect Karen. Let her feel your presence.
Love, Kathy and Bill
November 17, 2010
You are truely missed by so many Mark. U left behind such a wonderful woman in Karen. She is so strong, brave and a woman we know will truely go far in life! Hold her hand and guide her. But most of all keep her heart close to urs and she will shine. May u rest in peace Mark and walk beside all of our other loved ones who are with u. XOXO
Love,
Derrick & Samantha
November 17, 2010
Here are some pic's from last year, I thought you might like them.
November 17, 2010
well lets try this again... I am haveing a really hard time writeing to you. Im pretty sure you heard me talking the whole time on the bike run, It was such a special moment for me, going over the bridge made me feel like you were right next to us!! Karen has done such a good job. Mark she has done such a remarkable job, she works so heard, I know with your guidence, her will power, and just her pride alone. That The place that the two of you built together, Ms rascals will be around for a long time!! You have my word and promise that i will do whatever i am asked to do.. I love you and miss you with all my heart! <3 Barbie
November 17, 2010
Hi sweetheart, You know that pit you get in your stomach feels like an ulser. Im going to j rid myself of that feeling and start a new chapter Tomorrow. Its obvious things will never be the way you wanted things to be nor the way i wanted your not walking thew that door anymore. So Im going to have to move forward and contnue to be the person you fell in love with Married and wanted to grow old with. You were taken away to early. Doest mean i cant continue our dream. Im going to make you proud honey. Take my hand and we'll do it together. Forever yours darlin. Your karen
November 16, 2010
Hi sweetheart. Give me the strength to watch your motorcycle leave our home for good. My memories of 11yrs riding and holding you will never be forgoten. Our laughs (everytime u ran out of gas) our rides going on Manasota beach even in New York wearing our helmets in the freezing cold. Or the times we just rode to a park and sit on the ground admiring it. I know how much you loved your bike.Ijust cant afford to buy it. Toys for Tots will never be the same knowing your bike will never be in it again. Im sorry for that baby. I have the memories. They will never be taken away. I love you so, your devoted wife karen. Ps. Hold my hand
November 15, 2010
Hi my love. My mom wrote to you instead of Dad pretty funny for those reading it. Well its been a long day. Got some more decorating done I hired Stacy shes doing great. Im home and withall our babies Id give the world if i could lay in your arms again I always felt so safe there. The house is so lonely without you. (Even though Lacy is taling up a storm lol) Keep me going honey Im tired. A physic told me your in transission get to your resting place and invite me in. Give me your strength sweetie. Your always in my heart. Kisses my luv. Nite nite honey, your karen
November 15, 2010
Miss ya Mark. You will always be in all our hearts. You were very good to me & I miss ya greatly... RIP my friend
November 15, 2010
My Beloved, I am sure you watched yesterday's bike ride for Mark. it was so impressive. The love for our Daughter Karen was overwhelving over 140 bikes attended the memorial in Mark's honor. I have to leave Karen to go back to Albany for Thanksgiving and I worry but she assures me she will be so busy and that she will be alright.I know you will watch over her and I know Mark will definitely take care of her. Their love will get her through these days as I hope you will help me through this my sorrow with your deep love for me. Kathy & Bill spent days helping me get the apartment in order. It looks beautiful. I want to thank every one for their help to make me comfortable. I wish you were with me here but I guess God had other plans for you and me. I love you more than life itself and will forever.
Your devoted wife, Lois
November 15, 2010
Good Morning my love. As you know i was very busy yesterday with your Memorial. One month ago God decided it was your time to leaves this earth and in doing that he took u from me. I get real mad and say why. I know you wernt ready. I know u wernt ready because your still bringing in the people. I have never been more proud than i was yesterday. The love people have for you was quite obvious. Over 130 bikes over 300 people came to support you. In doing that we are able to give even more for TOYs For TOTS. Im the lucky one to have your heart. Im Proud of you honey. I will never forget the feling or emotion I had yesterday on that bike run. I wish i could say it was healing for me It hasnt takin the pain away Its made it more real that your not coming home. Be here for me sweetheart. I need you (our Sammy misses you and Beau so much try and let he know your still around. Im worried about her. Well i have work to do honey till the next time i love u with everything i have. Kisses my Mark. Your Karenski
November 14, 2010
I am Luz Molina, Mark Spanish teacher. I am dying to speak to someone about Mark's passing which I am still tormented about. Can someone who knew him well reach out to me to chat briefly? I would be enormously grateful. You may write to tophat@nycap.rr.com. Thank you. Luz
November 14, 2010
Mark,
Today is the first anniversary since you left us for your journey to heaven. Karen is having a memorial run with the proceeds going to your favorite charity, the Toys for Tots. Bill and I will be there to support Karen and to honor you. You were there for us at a low point in our lives and it will never be forgotten.
Keep a watch over Karen today. She needs your strength and presence more than ever. She is facing some unnecessary challenges, but she will get through them with you protecting her just as you did when you were here.
Give our Dad a hug from all of us and wrap your wings around us all.
Love, Kathy and Bill
November 14, 2010
Good Morning Mark, Today is your 1st anniversary and there is going to be a tribute to a wonderful giving Son in Law for your favorite contribution to "Toys for Tots" a gift to all the children which had been a long time love of yours and Karen. Many of your friends will ride their bikes in your honor, What a tribute to you. My loving Daughter is so devoted to you and your cause and will ride today in your honor along with all your friends. I wish Karen could ride on your bike which would have been your wish but circumstances beyond her control prevent her one desire. I know you will watch over her today and give her the strength to give you all the praise you deserve. My heart is broken for her knowing you are the love of her life. I know her Daddy will also give her the strength to enjoy this wonderful gift. I miss you. Love, Mom-in Law.
November 13, 2010
My Mark Its friends of ours and now friends that you have never met are the reason i can continue my day. We have been blessed. Not every one can have one fiend much less many. I guess we did in our crazy way make an empression and for that thank you Kisses and hug my love nite nite your devoted wife ME
November 13, 2010
Have I told you thant I love u
November 12, 2010
Mark, I have only known you for a short time but it seemed like a lifetime. You and Karen were there for me when I need a job and when I needed a friend. You will be missed. So watch over Karen and guide her through this tough time she is a real trooper. Love Always Kim
November 12, 2010
Mark, we never met but I went to school with your beautiful wife Karen. You were her world, she loves you so much. She is keeping busy doing what you loved and treasured Toys for Tots. She is physically keeping busy, but emotionally she needs to know you are in a better place, free of pain and suffering wish I lived closer, to be there for her as her Sister from Mercy High. You would be so proud of her. Karen is amazing and one day you'll be together again. Hopefully one day I see what Ms. Rascals is all about. One more thing, make sure she makes it down for our reunion, she needs to be with her "Sisters"

Debbi
November 12, 2010
Karen,
My heart is filled with deep sorrow. I have come to this page many times in the last 3 weeks. I still have not found the words to express my deep sympathy. You are a very strong woman and you will survive this horrible tragedy. I continue to pray for you and that God shares his peace and understand with you. You have a wonderful loving family behind you as well as your Florida family and friends. The shock of "us" losing Mark can in no way measure up to your loss, or his families loss. Mark was a generious kind soul, and he and you shall remain dear freinds of George and I forever. I love you, stay strong, and remember our private conversations about all of this. I am always here for you and Mark we "ALL" will watch over and keep Karen protected! No words can ever express how much we all miss you!!! Karen, love you and with my true heart felt words... If EVER you need anything.. just pick up the phone.... We are right here for you forever!! Love you!! Teri and George Mabie
November 12, 2010
Hi Sweetheart. Im not feeling so well. Ive got quiet abit of anxiety lately. You know what thats all about. Im going todo what you would want. We talked many times about one of the situations im facing and im going to do what your wishes were you may not be here phycically t that doesnt mean we cant continue our wishes. You are my heart and soul Im forever yours I love you , your wife karenski
November 12, 2010
Hi Mark, I visited Rascals Wednesday night and it wasn't the same at all. I didn't even see Karen. I still had a good time dancing. Didn't stay long, just wanted you to know that you are missed.
November 11, 2010
hi mark. im sorry i havent written sooner. i think about you and my dad alot.you have been so kind to me and my family, ill never forget that.watch over karen,shes going through so much.its so hard . i wish we could becloser for her.say hi to my dad.

love, carolyn
November 10, 2010
Mark,
Tomorrow is four weeks since you went to heaven to see your Mom and our Dad. Time seems so much longer. You are both missed so much, but we take comfort that you are both no longer in pain. Bill and I are leaving for Florida tomorrow to see Mom and Karen. Karen is having a memorial run on Sunday in your honor. She is so proud of you and all you stood for. I know that the Toys for Tots drive is going to be bigger than ever. We will be there to give our support.
Love you Mark and let Karen feel your presence and love.
Kathy and Bill
November 10, 2010
Karen - so very sorry for your loss. We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers. Easier said than done, but stay strong. Mark will keep watching over you always.
November 10, 2010
Hi my baby, We just had our Toys for tots meetig Its so hard to compprehend you not here i go to look for you all exited because we sold another tshirt or raffle ticket. I finally finished our Toys for Tots tree. Three days of emotional heart break. I did it for you and the kids. Were working hard to do our best year ever in honor of you. Pay it forward !!! Well gotta go and cash out almost two oclock. Ill talk to you when i get home in our bed. Till then your my everything. X0X0 your karen
November 09, 2010
Hi DearMark, Karen really needs your strong spirit and guidance through these trying days and months. I feel both my sweet Husband and your spirit all around us. Pennies from heaven have been appearing when ever something seems to need to be decided and gives the appearance that we are being led on the right way our lifes are meant to be no matter how hard it seems to be.I am trying to give Karen as much love as I can of course it will never be your love but a Mother's love is the next best thing. I miss you and your handsome smile and blue eyes.It must be a ball up there with all our family members who have gone before us. Our prayers know Karen's Dad and your Mother are very special loving Parents. Love you and keep Karen safe. Mom in Law Lois
November 09, 2010
Mark,
It's something about the way you made an impact on people's lives. Though I was never around too much, you were always a great friend to both my mother and myself. You had an amazing personality and a brilliant heart. The impact you made in my life was more than I could explain, or even begin to explain why. You are greatly missed, and certainly never forgotten.

Karen,
Your smile and hugs are always welcoming. It is always a pleasure seeing you, and I've never felt more comforted. God bless. Mark is with us, and he will continue to hold you and guide you through your days.

With love, always.
November 09, 2010
Hi Karen,
I'm so sorry for your loss of Mark. It has been such a hard few months for you and your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers. May Mark rest in peace and may you find comfort & peace of mind with your many memories and many friends.
Love you!
Kathy & Wayne
November 08, 2010
Mark, you are not gone only changed. The memory in my mind of the short time I had gotten to know you, was of laughter, fun and happiness. Peace
November 07, 2010
My darling Mark, im having a hard time with different siituations arrizing. Im not ready to hanle some situations. I feel like im losing you all over again. You were my strenghth how can i go on without you guiding me? Im so lonely without you. Mom moved in her apartment today Tias with her to keep her company. The house is depressing. Sammy misses Beau even Harley isnt his crazy self. We need to feel you around us. Give us a reason to wake up and face another day. I get by because of not dissapointing you and for that im trying. Ill do anything for you. Give me the guidence to go on. Ilove you more each day. I'll be waiting. Open the way to jen and john they were great people and loved you let my dad and your mom I love them. Kisses my baby. Your karenski
November 05, 2010
youll always be remebered as the best of the best
November 04, 2010
You were my friend, Spanish teacher and mentor. One of the smartest things I ever did was to take the job you offered. Thank you for all of the nice things you ever did for me, all of the kind words of encouragement. I still have the 'Apple Tree' you emailed me years ago. I'm glad you aren't in pain anymore, but I sure do miss you. We were super busy last Friday. All of the sudden I got choked up imagining you back there with me doing the laundry, telling jokes and making me shake my head. Love you, Mark. I promise to work just as hard for Karen as I did for you.
November 03, 2010
If it should be that I grow frail and weak, And pain should keep me from my sleep, Lord I know you do what must be done, For this - the last battle - can't be won. Lord, take me to where my needs they'll tend, Only, stay with me till the end And hold me firm and speak to me Until my eyes no longer see. I know in time you will agree It is kindness you do to me. Although my hand its last has waved, From pain and suffering I have been saved. God Bless you, Mark & Rest in Peace. You will always be in our hearts & memories. With sympathy,
November 03, 2010
Mark,
It will be 3 weeks tomorrow that you took your journey to heaven. Yesterday was All Souls Day when those who have passed in the past year are remembered. Bill and I went to church to honor you and our father. We carried a red rose which we put in a vase on the altar. We lit a candle then proceeded to Put both of your names in a book which is on the altar for every mass until next year. I know that Karen is glad to have you "home" but she misses you so much. We will be seeing her next week when we go to Florida.
Keep us all in your prayers and give Karen some signs to let her know that you are with her.
Love, Kathy and Bill
November 03, 2010
Hi Honey, my days seem to get longer and longer,missing you. tomorrow it will be three weeks you closed your eyes. For me it seems like an eternity.I caught myself picking up my phone like I would everyday for ten . and a half years. The pain of not ever hearing you tell me how much you love me just tares my insides in pieces. I'll be in bed as a do everynight wait to feel you reach out to me I LOVE YOU MARK Kisses from your loving wife X0X0
October 30, 2010
Hi sweetheart. Im so happy to have you home with us. You are right here. In some way i feel at peace. I know you gave me a sign and I hope to have more. I was able to sleep Five hours last night. Continue to reach out to me . I love and miss u every waking moment. Good Nite my Honey. Kisses from your loving wife X0X0
October 29, 2010
Mark, you have been not with us for over 2 weeks and Karen now has you home again with her. She has your dog Rascals, her Dog Merlot and her beloved Mark with her all the time now. I envy her because her Dad is not here with me. Watch over Karen which I know you are doing because you watched over her when you were with us.I miss you too ; Love Mom in Law
October 28, 2010
Mark,
It has been 2 weeks ago today that you left on your journey to heaven. Karen misses you so much as do all your family and friends. You are at peace, but for those left behind, the pain continues. Watch over Karen. Let her feel your presence. She is grieving not only for you but for our father as well. She has lost the 2 most important men in her life. Have my father send her hugs as well. Keep us all in your prayers. Love, Kathy and Bill
October 27, 2010
Hi honey, We had our first Toys for Tots meeting last night and Marty Cook presented me with the most beautiful quilt with pitcures of all our past parties we have had. Its means so much to me . who would have thought when she asked me for the pictures they would present it to me instead of it being raffled . I had a stack of cards in the office that i was having difficulty opening and Barbie reminded me we asked instead of flowers a donation for the Toys for Tots thank goodness Iopened them there were many checks from our friends and family. Iwas able to give Sgt. Mjr. Rich $738.00 in your name See your still giving even in your passing . Thats what Ilove about you You never siese to amaze me. Im trying to do my best to keep strong for you .I have to admit I'm failing . I miss you more and more each day . I need you to do me a favor work harder at watching over me! If anything you did best was take care of me. Well by for now lots of love your Babe, Karen
October 24, 2010
Rest in Peace my friend.The memories I have will never fade,we had some great times Mark,it has been many years but it seems as it was yesterday,I will miss you...
October 24, 2010
Rest in Peace my friend.The memories I have will never fade,we had some great times Mark,it has been many years but it seems as it was yesterday,I will miss you...
October 22, 2010
Dear Karen,
I was so sorry to hear about Mark. I can't reminisce about "back in the day", Peabody's, Sandy Bay, etc. without thinking of you both. I can still see Mark on television dressed up as George Washington. You are in my thoughts at this difficult time. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.
October 22, 2010
Hi honey. What beautiful letters family and friends are writing. It was a week ago yesterday I laid in your arms we kissed and you went to sleep. Threw out the week many friends have been stopping at Rascals to pay their respect So many are stunned by the news of your passing. You are going to be truely missed by so many customers that you entertained daily. I bought the motorcyle home last nite along with the beautiful floral arrangements. There wasn't a dry eye in the bar. I've been told the motorcycle clubs are joining together on Nov 14th to do a bike run in honor of you. I road on the back while brandon drove the bike home last night. Its the first I've truly smiled in weeks.(I know how u loved your bike ). Brandon was honored to ride the four miles home. Ilove you Mark all I ask is give me the strength to get threw my day.
October 21, 2010
Mark, it has only been a week since I held your hand, told you I loved you and kissed you good-bye. It has been a very long and sad week for me and the rest of our family. You were always there for me when I needed you. I can't imagine our family without you and the great jokes you always told. You had many people that loved you. Over 300 people at your funeral. I think the funeral director was getting nervous when people just kept coming. You were a unique individual and always lived your life in your own way. You had a very good life but it was too short. I hope you know how much I will miss you. The world will not be the same place without you. I love you!
October 21, 2010
Mark,
You left on your journey to heaven one week ago. The pain is now gone and you are with your mother, my dad and all your family in heaven. Watch over Karen. Give her peace and let her know that you are around. She found the love of her life and even though she had you a short time in life, she will have those memories forever. Keep us all in your prayers.
Love, Kathy and Bill
October 20, 2010
Mark
My memories of your thoughtfulness and generosity go way back to my 13th birthday when you gave me 13 long stem red roses. I saved them for years. I will take that memory to my grave. I loved you and will miss you. Say hello to Mom. Your little sister
October 20, 2010
Dear Mark,
There sure are some things I wished I could have told you before you passed away so suddenly. First of all, you sure were a great friend,more like a brother really. You always told it like it was...for better or worse.

Secondly, I never really thanked you for bringing me into the car business. You were the best mentor anyone could ask for. You taught me how to make it fun...and profitable. We sure had some good times didn't we."We're the number 1 dealer from NYC to Montreal...and saving you money got us there!!" I bet you said that phrase a couple of thousand times. And, your funny TV commercials...like the reporter.."Back to you,Jim" or "You can't beat that!"
We sure sold a bunch of cars.I think it was around 1500 Pontiacs in '86...that's a record that will stand forever.
You put together a great team at Smith Pontiac;and,I know that 20 some odd years later, they still think of you often and with admiration.

Mark, you sure were funny. Was it 5 or 10 or 15,000 jokes you knew?

And Mark, you sure were always considered a part of my family.
You were one of the biggest influences of anyone in my life. How lucky for me that it would be a person like you.
So my friend,I wish I could have personally told you these things,but I'm confident you'll get this message.

I'll think of you from now on every time I hear thunder,and I'll say to myself."Yea. Mark's tellin' another joke up there"
Love, Tom

To the Smith family and Karen,
Our hearts ache with yours over the loss of Mark. We hope that the memories of Mark's laughter will always be with you and help you as you work through the void of this tremendous loss. May God give you extra strength as you grieve.
Love Tom Dill and Bev Presti
October 20, 2010
Karen - Bob & I are truly sorry for your loss and hope that you find comfort in knowing that you have friends & family that will surround you at your time of sorrow. We are glad that you had this time with the man you found true happines with. You are in our thoughts and don't hesitate to ask for any help that we can provide. May he rest in peace.
October 20, 2010
Karen, So sorry to hear of your loss. May all your beautiful memories carry you through this difficult time. Miss you....Cathy Bondi Amore, Charlotte, NC
October 19, 2010
Karen,
I just heard today about Mark. We are so sorry to hear about this loss-it seems so sudden. I'm so glad I got to see you quickly a couple of weeks ago-a quick hug and some tears doesn't seem like enough to get you thru 2 major losses- your dad and your husband. Thoughts & prayers are with you. Love, Nancy and Bruce
October 19, 2010
Karen,
I am truly sorry to hear of your loss. ...Until you meet again, may God hold you in the Palm of his hand.
October 19, 2010
Dear Karen, I'm so sorry for your loss. Debbi Marks & Mary Anne Farrell posted your husband's notice to us Mercy girls via FB. Had I known about it earlier, I would have attended services just to give you a hug from your fellow Mercians. I live in Oviedo now and I visit my Dad frequently in Ormond Beach, so please don't hesitate to ask if you need help with anything. Hugs,
Anne Marie (Tabacco) Gross
Mercy High Class of '75
October 19, 2010
Karen - My condolences on the passing of Mark. A few of the Mercy girls just gathered & were discussing where you were. So sorry for your loss and pray that your memories in time will ease the loss you feel now. May he RIP.
October 19, 2010
I thank all of u for your support. Mark has touched so many. Sincerely. Karen Smith
October 19, 2010
My Beloved Mark,
Your forever in "Our Kingdom".....
I Love You, Your Loving Wife Karen
October 19, 2010
My Dearest Mark, Your forever in "Our Kingdom".....I love you, Your loving Wife
October 19, 2010
Aunt Karen,
We are so sorry for your loss. We are keeping you and mama in our daily prayers. Hopefully time will heal your aching heart. Love you!

Jason, Sheila, Madison, Grace, & Emma (Shover)
October 19, 2010
Dear Karen,

I am so sorry to hear about Mark. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers at this sad time.

Love - Grace
October 19, 2010
Dear Karen,
I am sincerely saddened by your loss. May your memories carry you from one day until the next... You were lucky to have found each other and may those cherished moments live on forever in your heart.
Love,
Joanie O'Brien Genest
October 19, 2010
Mark was a truly remarkable individual. Having had the pleasure of knowing him almost all of my life, I can count myself as one of the fortunate many who know that he was a true friend in every sense of the word.
I have so many great memories of Mark to hold onto,and for that I am grateful.(He & my dad are swapping jokes right now...)
My sincere condolences to Karen and the Smith family.

Rest in Peace Mark
October 19, 2010
Karen, All of us from Tucci group are deeply saddened to learn of Mark's passing. We will always remember his kindness, joy of life, love for you and of course pride in the success of MS Rascal's. He will be surely missed. With deepest sympathy; Steven.
October 18, 2010
Mr. Smith, Karen and family, I am so sorry for your loss. Mark was a fun guy with a big personality and a big heart who will be deeply missed. He can now be with his Mom, Joan. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.
October 18, 2010
Mark,
Karen, your family and friends had to say goodbye yo your earthly body, but your spirit will live on in each of us. I was not able to be there today, but you were in my thoughts and prayers throughout the day. I know that Karen is feeling lost without you now. Be with her and help her to go on with her life the best she can. She is going to need to feel your heavenly wings and kisses. Watch over all of us.
Kathy and Bill
October 18, 2010
I am perplexed to have lost Mark so young; I do not know what went wrong. I will always love him. Luz from Puerto Rico (Spanish Teacher)
October 18, 2010
Karen,
I am so very sorry for all your horrible heartache and tremendous loss. You are in my prayers.
Sandy De Lollo - Latham, NY
October 18, 2010
Karen & Family,

All of us at L&D are very sad for your loss, as Mark was a good friend with all of us. We are sorry his life was cut short but we will remember all the good times we had together.

Please accept our sincere condolences and as always, we are here for you and yours.

Jim and the L&D Group
October 17, 2010
I just heard the news and I am so saddend! I only new Mark for the past couple of years, while I was living in Port Charlotte. He was so sweet and I always loved coming into Looney Bin and hearing his new jokes! My thoughts go out to Karen and the family. He will be missed!
October 17, 2010
We are so sorry to hear about Mark. He was such a wonderful man who will live on in many hearts. We were all so lucky to have known him.
October 17, 2010
If there was ever anyone who could make your day a little brighter, Mark could. Words can’t express how much Mark will be missed by all who knew him. My sincerest condolences to Karen and all of his family.
October 17, 2010
Like many that have lost close contact with Mark, I was shocked to hear of his passing, and am very sad today. I hold fond memories of the years spent at Smith Pontiac-GMC, and will always remember Mark as the ultimate showman & great salesman. My most sincere condolences to the family for your loss!
October 17, 2010
We were so sad and shocked to hear about Mark. We had a lot of great times and have fond memories working with him at Smith Ponitac. Thinking of you all with a heavy heart.
October 17, 2010
May the love of friends and family carry you through your grief.
October 17, 2010
Mark,
You are now with your mother, my father and brother and Lee in heaven. Your earthly body is no longer in pain, but your heavenly soul is at peace. Keep your heavenly wings encompassed around my sister Karen. She is going to miss your arms around her. You brought her so much happiness and love. She will always have you in her heart. Tell my father that we miss and love him.
Kathy and Bill
October 17, 2010
Karen,
we are very sorry to hear about your loss. We will keep you in our prayers.
Love Ida Powell and family
October 17, 2010
I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I SPENT ALOT OF YEARS AT SMITH PONTIAC,WHERE I FIRST MET MARK, WE ALWAYS GOT ALONG GREAT, I THINK OF HIM OFTEN, ESPECIALLY THE FINAL DAYS ON SMITH ROAD.
October 17, 2010
Dearest Mark, Your passing has left a hole in my darling Daughter's heart. Your love is a once in a lifetime experience that will forever bring Karen joy and peace in time. You were her protector for many years for which her Daddy and I will forever be grateful. We will all miss your smiles and generousity to our whole family over all these years always ready to help anyone in need. Your untiring love for "Toys for Tots" so children will enjoy Christmas toys under their trees. The world has lost a one of a kind giving man. Watch over my sweet Daughter Karen in these trying days and moments of sorrow. I am speaking for our entire family we will treasure your life and know you are with your family and our family who have gone before us.
God bless you always be in our heats,
Your loving Mother in Law
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