April 15, 1931 to April 15, 2016
This would have been your 85th Birthday today. How things have changed.
I wish so much that you could have been here to Celebrate this Birthday with all of those that Love you.
A day doesn't go by that you aren't in my thoughts and every day I say how much I miss you.
The house is so quiet, the phone rarely rings with someone that I know. Life is so very different now and
I have come to the realization that this is as good as it is going to get, grief doesn't leave, you just
incorporate into your daily existence and work around it. You do what you have to, to keep going,
which means if you want to go out to eat you are just going to say table for one, knowing that you so
want to say a table for two but that has all changed now. So many times I have said oh, my Earl would
have loved this. I think of you every time the flowers start their new growing season and every time the
season ends and they die off. Two of your favorite seasons Spring and Fall. Life was so much better with
you in it. I don't think people can possibly imagine what life is like after they lose their spouse, I guess it
is so painful that no one wants a preview of what that is like. I come away knowing that you Love
with all of your Heart every day and be thankful that you have each other and roll through the rough
times and there are always rough times but we also know that the Good Times out weight the Bad.
On your 85th Birthday I wish you Love, Happiness and Health knowing you are not in any pain
Love you with all My Heart, Janet