March 17, 2013
I think that I am beginning to think that the “They Say” people really do not exist. In one place in my heart I know that you are not with us anymore, and then in another place in my heart I feel you all around me. I talk to you but you don't talk to me. I am alone most of the time but in the current state of mind that is best. I may even get used to it. My family's predictions will most likely come true and it will be the way I steer things, not them. I spend a lot of time talking with your 1st Born, Sanya. She has been
a huge comfort to me through this whole grieving process. She has had to deal with loosing you and then her Mother 2.5 months after you were gone. I have talked to Ann a little but it has been hard on her too. I hope that I have been able to help Sanya & Ann. You would be proud of your first two children they are super Mom's and Ann is preparing to become a Grandmother in September. I know that she will be in her Glory and be a Wonderful Grandmother.
I have been playing phone tag with Rose just can't seem to connect. Anthony & Precious post Video's of the children on Face book you would love your two Great grand children. I did mail the Picture of Your Father from WWI to Anthony, I called him the other day to see if he got it and thankfully he did, that picture is almost 100 years old. Finally this past week I got all the remembrances and your ashes sent to Oregon. Hopefully some comfort can be gained from you and the items. We'd rather however have you!
I still miss you terribly. It still hurts so much.
So today it has been 4 months, they have been long months, cold months and snowy months. Your second favorite season is upon us and even with the cold and snow the trees are budding. I know you will be watching. Rest in Peace my Love remembers that I love you now and for always. Janet