Keith Carter Holgate
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1992 - 2010
I remember him lying there looking at me his eyes screaming "dad help me". The young doctor asking me what happened as if that mattered now. I thought to myself "I can't fix this K.C" I would take your place now if I could. You have so much more to offer than me. He wasn't a Prime Minister, Astronaut, NHL Star, Fireman or soldier. To most he was a kid stunting on a skateboard who died. To me in my small world, he was all the above and more. He was my world. He loved his family and friends more than most. He thought he would live forever. I talk and see his friends, holding onto them, like wisps of smoke. They connect his past to me like few can. I know those relationships will get old and pass, although I hope to hold onto them as long as I can. I wake at night sometimes feeling I have forgotten some of his memories or how he looked. I rehearse the memories for hours feeling scared that it might happen. I give scholarships in his name. Have benches, stickers, wrist bands and tattoos in honour of him. Pop and candy machines at Evraz raise money in his name, hoping in some small way to not let people forget his memory, and help other people achieve their goals.
It hurts everyday in everything I do. I want to be the husband , father and friend I know K.C would want me to be. Thanks to all my Evraz brothers and sisters for supporting my Pop and Candy machines.
You were the greatest,
LOVE POPs and family
Published in The Regina Leader-Post on June 4, 2014