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June 26, 2018
148 months. And,wrapping up our very first month in our new home in a new State. Didn't think I'd ever see the day I could leave our home,but after 32 years,iwas ready. Had it been a few years ago,never. But,i've been realizing over time that a house IS a home and i can bottle you up....all my memories and take you anywhere.No matter where. I won't say it didn't hurt. I absolutely loved our home. But,i needed to become anonymous .The adjustment is tough,it's very,very beautiful and so quiet,but we know noone. And,it's a big adjustment. I will be okay. I have all of my Keith and Randi things around me and I look at them daily. I spend alot of time ,just thinking-HOW did this come to be ? 148 months since i have seen you. So unbelievable. So very unbelievable. Now,listen to me. I need you. Daddy is not well, and I need some help. The next few months are going to be hard for me alone taking care of him. I know you won't let anything happen to Daddy....so watch us extra close......as always,I know you know.....Love you,Mom
May 26, 2018
147 months.Big changes.we sold our beloved home of 32 years and we are on our way to our new home in Florida.I didn't think I could be so brave but we took alot of time...and made smart decisions and I just felt -ready.you are with me.you are ALWAYS with me.The memories made in that house FILL me with joy,sadness,regret,emotions all over the place.But I can take those with me.The house HELPED us make them,but our family created them I can move those memories anywhere I go.I know you are okay with this.I know you want your Mom to try to finally be happy.I know YOU know I KNOW....
Love you like you know.Mom
April 26, 2018
146 months. Can't get used to it. It isn't normal. It just isn't. We go about our days,doing what NEEDS to be done...but there is always that missing piece. I don't think it will ever make sense,or be any easier. You should be here. That's it. You should be here.
Daddy and I have taken HUGE steps these past few months,having put the house on the market,after 32 years ,and are making our move to Sunshine and supposed relaxation. We are in the final stages now of making that happen and it has taken ALOT of therapy and acceptance to get to this point. HOW can I leave my beloved home ? I finally realized you are always with me and while you lived your whole life,with Randi right here,in this home,we love ,i can take you and all of your memories with me. This house MADE the memories. It did not make you. We did. This house helped make you-us happy,sad,frustrated...but we can take those memories wherever we go, And,a new fresh young family can come in and love this home as much as we have. I truly believe that. As hard as the end will be,i will be okay. I know you are okay with this. You want your Mom to try and be happy. I know you know.Love,Mom
March 26, 2018
145 months. So much time. So very long without seeing you. I simply can't get used to it. The longing to see you is just so terrible. I think sometimes,those first few years,i wasn't wasn't even really aware. I don't even remember much. They literally flew by. Now,here we are, 12 whole years and i think "how did that happen?" when i don't even remember the first few??? We don't seem to be much different,stuck in a holding pattern of disbelief. We 3 understand what has happened,but it is really all just too much. Impossible. So,we choose not to focus on it. But,when I do.....I just miss you SO much,i can't stand it. Love you like you know. Mom
February 26, 2018
12 years. I have not seen a new picture,an older form,a newer smile,since 2006. I think to myself, "how DO you get up everyday?" It's mechanical. A regimented person,i do what i've always done. I get up. I power thru. My mind never,ever,ever stops however. It simply never rests. I am used to it now,but in the beginning,I was terrified. Not focusing or remembering day to day was not me. Well,how could I focus,when half my heart was gone? How your Mom,Dad and sister have survived 12 whole years without your beautiful face is an absolute mystery to me. We go on together,tight as can be. Unspoken. Our thoughts are always on you.
Tonight,we will have a lovely,quiet dinner with Becky,of course...and today? Daddy and I are going to take a ride to the falls where it is very peaceful,although chilly and just. remember.....
We love you like you know and miss you so much,it hurts.....Mom
January 26, 2018
143 months. We are now one month away from 12 whole years since you left us.I simply CANNOT BELIEVE THAT.I have clearly been in a daze.I have very,very little memory of these past 12 years,and in fact have to leave myself notes in so many different places,it's frightening.Nor,do I remember what I've said.I never had that problem before you left us.I virtually remember every single thing about our before life ,and think of it DAILY,but that cold February afternoon absolutely destroyed me and I haven't recovered. I miss you more than you can imagine and love you like you know.....Mom
December 26, 2017
142 months. Yesterday was Christmas. I was so tired and stressed out,i went to bed at 7:30. This was the 12th one without you and the 2nd one without Grandpa as well as the 2nd time we transported every single thing to the nursing home. What a chore. I'd just as soon not do anything,but it truly is nice to be around everyone,all the while screaming inside SOMEONES MISSING . It doesnt get easier,Keith,it just doesnt. Today,is calmer,yet today reminds me how long you've been away......and how long I will have to continue without you. Daddy and I are going to take a nice ride today and calm down, breathe in some nice ,brisk fresh air and remember. That's what I do,i remember. I just can't help it. You never,ever leave my mind. Ever. I know you know. And,i love you .....Merry Christmas ,im sorry i fell asleep too early ,but i know you know.........Mom
November 26, 2017
141 months. Thanksgiving just passed. Our 2nd one spent in the nursing home with Gramma. It's very stressful,preparing all the food at home ,being sure everything is hot and transporting it up there. It's our 2nd without Grandpa as well,and obviously you are not there. Holidays just do not seem to matter. I was never a big Thanksgiving fan. Christmas. That's what it was all about ! Oh,how you and your sister loved Christmas. This will be our 12th Christmas without you. I only put the tree up one of them-a couple of years ago when I was feeling brave. Haven't done it again. Too many memories.When I have a grandchild,I sure will. Right now,it's too much of an effort. I miss you.I miss you more than I even knew was possible. I live each day ,one foot in the present-and one in the past. I simply can't move forward. I just can't. I can't live fully without you Keith.
Love you like you know ,Mom
October 26, 2017
140 months. Time moves so quickly,yet so slowly. We are almost at 12 whole years of missing you and it is so much harder. The realization that you really are not coming home,and this IS our new life is heartbreaking. It is very hard coming to terms with this. We navigate every day knowing everything we do does not and will not physically include you. It is unspoken. I miss you so much and find I spend alot of time now focusing on you when you were little. I used to focus on you as a young adult. But,now,I think of you when you were born,and how happy we were. It was such an exciting time. I never in my life could foresee such a tragedy. Who could? I know we gave you a wonderful life,for which I am forever grateful, but the heartbreak of your life being cut short,i cannot get over. Love you like you know. Mom
October 26, 2017
140 months. Time moves so quickly,yet so slowly. We are almost at 12 whole years of missing you and it is so much harder. The realization that you really are not coming home,and this IS our new life is heartbreaking. It is very hard coming to terms with this. We navigate every day knowing everything we do does not and will not physically include you. It is unspoken. I miss you so much and find I spend alot of time now focusing on you when you were little. I used to focus on you as a young adult. But,now,I think of you when you were born,and how happy we were. It was such an exciting time. I never in my life could foresee such a tragedy. Who could? I know we gave you a wonderful life,for which I am forever grateful, but the heartbreak of your life being cut short,i cannot get over. Love you like you know. Mom

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